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Ehud Barak's Account of the Camp David Summit Negotiations (File 011472)
Excerpts from Ehud Barak's memoir detailing his reflections on the failed Camp David Summit of 2000, where Israeli, Palestinian, and American negotiators attempted to broker a final peace agreement on core issues including settlements, refugees, borders, and Jerusalem.
Summary
Ehud Barak describes his perspective as Prime Minister of Israel during the Camp David Summit with President Bill Clinton and Palestinian leader Yasir Arafat. Barak reflects on his military background in the Israeli special forces (Sayeret Matkal) and how it shaped his approach to the critical peace negotiations. The excerpt covers the two-week summit's conclusion and Barak's measured response to its failure, along with his journey back to Israel aboard the Israeli Air Force's Boeing 707. Barak discusses the high stakes involved, the core conflict issues at hand, and his confidence in Clinton's commitment alongside uncertainty about Arafat's willingness to make necessary compromises.
Night FlightThey say that you can read a person’s feelings on his face. But if so, eitherI’m a very good actor – the opposite of what anyone who has worked closelywith me would tell you – or the journalists clustered in front of me weren’t verygood face-readers. They said that I looked defeated. Distressed. Depressed.Yet as I delivered my brief final statement outside an olive-green cabin atCamp David, the American presidential retreat in the forested Catoctin hillsnorth of Washington, I felt none of those things.Yes, I was disappointed. I realised that what had happened over the last 14days, or more crucially what had not happened, was bound to have seriousconsequences, both for me personally, as Prime Minister of Israel, and for mycountry.But I had been a politician, at that point, for all of five years. By far most ofmy life, I had spent in uniform. As a teenager, small and slight and not evenshaving yet, I was one of the founding core of a unit called Sayeret Matkal,Israel’s equivalent of America’s Delta Force, or Britain’s SAS. It may be thatthe way I thought and acted, the way I dealt with danger or with crises, camefrom someplace inside me. Even as a young kid, I was always quiet, serious,contemplative. But my 13 years as a part of Israel’s main special-forces unit,especially once I became its commander, etched those qualities more deeply.And they added new ones: a sense that you could never plan a mission toocarefully or prepare too assiduously; an understanding that what you thought,and certainly what you said, mattered a lot less than what you did. And aboveall the realisation that, when one of our nighttime commando operations wasover, whether it had succeeded or failed, you had to take a step back. Evaluatethings accurately, coolly, without illusions. Then, in the light of how thesituation had changed, you had to decide how best to move forward.That approach, to the occasional frustration of the politicians and diplomatsworking alongside me during this critical stage of Israel’s history, had guidedme from the moment I became Prime Minister. In my very first discussions withPresident Clinton a year earlier – a long weekend, beginning at the White Houseand moving on to Camp David – I had mapped out at great length, in greatdetail, every one of the steps I knew we would have to take to confront thecentral issue facing Israel: the need for peace.1In choosing to return, now, to Camp David for two weeks of summit talks, Iknew the risks. Of all the moments of truth in my life – and in the life of mycountry – few, if any, would carry higher stakes. Success would mean not justone more stutter-step away from our century-long conflict with the Palestinians.It would signal a real, final peace: in treaty-speak, end of conflict. Whatever thecomplexities of putting an agreement into practice, given all the suffering andbloodshed endured by both sides, we would have crossed a point of no return.There would be two states, for two peoples.And if we failed? I knew, if only from months of increasingly starkintelligence reports, that an explosion of Palestinian violence – not just withstones or bottles this time, but with guns and explosives – would be only amatter of time.I knew something else as well. This would be a moment of truth not just forme. Or for Bill Clinton, a man who understood our conflict more deeply, andwas more determined to help us end it, than any other president before him. Itwas a moment of truth for the leader of the Palestinians, Yasir Arafat.The Oslo Accords of 1993, groundbreaking though they were, had created apeace process, not peace. Over the past few years, that process had beenlurching from crisis to crisis. Political support for negotiations was fraying. Andyet the core issues of our conflict had not been resolved. In fact, they had hardlybeen talked about. The reason for this was no secret. For both sides, thesequestions lay at the heart of everything we’d been saying for years, to the worldand to ourselves, about the roots of the conflict and the minimum terms wecould accept in order to end it. At issue were rival claims on security, finalborders, Israeli settlements, Palestinian refugees, and the future of ancient cityof Jerusalem. None of these could be resolved without painful, and politicallyperilous, compromises.Entering the summit, despite the pressures ahead, I was confident that I, withmy team of aides and negotiators, would do our part to make such a final peaceagreement possible. Nor did I doubt that President Clinton, whom I had come toview not just as a diplomatic partner but a friend, would rise to the occasion.But as for Arafat? There was simply no way of knowing.That was why I had pressed President Clinton so hard to convene thesummit. That was why, despite the misgivings of some of his closest advisers,he had taken the plunge. We both knew that the so-called “final-status issues” –2the substance of any real peace – could not simply be put off forever.Untangling them was getting harder, not easier. And we realised that only in anenvironment like Camp David – a “pressure cooker” was how I described it toClinton, and to US Secretary of State Madeleine Albright – would we everdiscover whether a peace deal could in fact be done.Now, we knew.* * *Israel’s equivalent of Air Force One, perhaps in a nod to our country’spioneering early years, was an almost prehistoric Boeing 707. It was waiting onthe runway at Andrews Air Force Base outside Washington to ferry me and therest of our negotiating team back home.It contained a low-rent equivalent of the American version’s presidentialcabin, and a few 1960s-vintage first-class seats, but consisted mostly of twolong lines of coach seats, three abreast, separated by an almost tightrope-narrowaisle. I dare say I was alone in finding an odd sense of comfort in boarding theplane. This museum piece of an aircraft was part of my past. It was the samemodel of 707 for which I, with a couple of other young soldiers and engineers,had come up with what we dubbed the “submarine door” system outside thecockpit – to protect El Al pilots from future attacks after one of its planes hadbeen hijacked to Algiers in the summer of 1968. It was also the same kind ofplane – a Sabena flight, hijacked to Tel Aviv’s Ben-Gurion Airport – which Istormed, before sunrise, four years later with a force of nearly two dozenMatkal commandos. The shooting was over within 90 seconds. One of my men– a junior officer named Bibi Netanyahu – was wounded. By one of our ownbullets. But we managed to kill two of the heavily armed hijackers, capture theothers, and free all 90 passengers unharmed.Still, even I had to accept, it was no fun to fly on.As we banked eastward after takeoff and headed out over the Atlantic, themood on board was sober. Huddling with the inner core of my negotiating team– my policy co-ordinator Gilad Sher, security aide Danny Yatom and ForeignMinister Shlomo Ben-Ami – I could see that the way the summit ended had hitthem hard. It was probably true, as all three often reminded me, that the greatestpressure fell on me. I was the one who ultimately decided what we could, or3should, offer in search of a true peace with the Palestinians. I was the one whowould be blamed by the inevitable critics, whether for going too far or not farenough, or simply for the fact the deal had eluded us. I knew the drill: the samething had happened when I had come tantalizingly close to finalizing a peacedeal with Syria’s then-dying dictator, Hafez al-Assad, a few months earlier. Yetthese three dedicated men – Gili, who was by training a lawyer; Shlomo, anacademic; and Danny, a former Mossad chief – had just been through dozens ofhours of intricately detailed talks with each of Arafat’s top negotiators at CampDavid, not to mention the dozens of other meetings before we had even gotthere. Now they had to accept that, even with the lid of the pressure cookerbolted down tight, we had fallen short of getting the peace agreement whicheach of us knew had been within touching distance.I don’t think that even they could be described as depressed. On our side,after all, we knew we had given ground on every issue we possibly could,without facing full-scale political rebellion at home. We had proposed an Israelipullout from nearly all of the West Bank and Gaza. A support mechanism forhelping compensate tens of thousands of Palestinian refugees from the serialArab-Israeli conflicts of the past half-century. And most painfully andcontroversially – my rivals and critics back home were already accusing me of“treachery” – we had agreed to let President Clinton present a proposal for thePalestinians to get sovereignty over the Arab neighbourhoods of Jerusalem aswell as “custodial sovereignty” over the Haram al-Sharif, the mosque complexperched above the Western Wall, the holiest site in Judaism.But precisely because we had been ready to offer so much, only for Arafat toreject it all, even as a basis for talks on a final deal, I could sense how gutted mykey negotiators were feeling.Still, I’m sure none of them was surprised when my own old operationalinstincts kicked in. In my statement to journalists, I had been careful to say thatArafat was not ready at this time to make the historic compromises needed forpeace. But before parting with President Clinton and Secretary Albright, I’dbeen more forthright. It was clear, without my saying so, that the chances of ourgetting a peace agreement on Clinton’s watch were now pretty much over. Hehad barely five months left in office. Yet my deeper fear was that with Arafathaving brushed aside an offer that went far further than any other Israeli hadproposed – far further than the Americans, themselves, had expected from Israel– the prospects for peace would be set back for years. Perhaps, I said, for twodecades.4The challenge now, I told my exhausted team, was to make sure we wereprepared for this new reality. Part of the spadework was already in place. Muchas I’d hoped that Arafat and I could turn a new page in Middle East history, Ihad directed our army chief-of-staff, nine months before the summit, to draw upcontingency plans for the likelihood of an unprecedentedly deadly eruption ofPalestinian violence if we were to fail.Now, I felt we had to go even further, and to prepare a proactive alternativeto the negotiated deal we’d been unable to secure. I proposed considering aunilateral Israeli pullout from the West Bank and Gaza. The territorial termswould, necessarily, be less far-reaching than the proposal Arafat had rejected.But I felt we should still withdraw from the great majority of the land we hadcaptured in 1967, still leaving the Palestinians an area which the outside worldwould recognize as wholly sufficient for them to establish a viable, successfulstate.And crucially, this would finally give Israel, our country, a delineated, finalborder with the territory captured in the Six-Day War.Gili, clearly uneasy about accepting the idea that the chances for a negotiatedpeace were definitively gone, left to try to get some sleep on the long flightahead. Danny and Shlomo Ben-Ami as well. Within an hour or so, the planewas full of irregularly slumped bodies, the silence broken only by the drone ofthe 707’s engines and the occasional sound of snoring.I sat, wide awake, in one of the seats at the front.My sleeping habits were another inheritance from Sayeret Matkal. Duringthose years, nearly everything of significance which I did had happened aftersundown. The commando operations were, of course, set for darkness wheneverpossible. The element of surprise could mean the difference between successand failure, indeed life and death. But all of my planning, all my thinking,tended to happen at night as well. The quiet, and the lack of distractions, helpedto discipline my mind. I found that it helped to free my mind as well, sometimesonly to discover that it went off in unexpected directions.It did so now. Perhaps even I was still reluctant to accept that Camp Davidmeant that the opportunity for a transformative deal with Arafat was finished.Yet whatever the reason, I began thinking back to the first time that my path andhis had crossed. It was in the spring of 1968, nearly a year after Israel haddefeated the armies of our three main Arab enemies – Egypt, Syria and Jordan.Israeli forces were advancing on a Jordanian town called Karameh, across the5Jordan River from the West Bank, from which a fledgling group called Fatah,under the command of Arafat, had been staging a series of raids. In one of theirmost recent attacks, they’d planted land mines, one of which destroyed anIsraeli schoolbus, killing the driver and one of the teachers and injuring nearly adozen children. The so-called Battle of Karameh was our single most significantoperation since the 1967 war. In pure military terms, it succeeded. But at aprice: more than two dozen Israeli soldiers dead. It also had a major politicalimpact. It caused shock among many Israelis, still wrapped in a sense ofinvincibility from the Six-Day War, as well as a feeling in the Arab world,actively encouraged by Arafat and his comrades, that compared to the greatarmies Israel had defeated in 1967, Fatah had at least shown fight. Fatah haddrawn blood.I had just turned 26 years old. I was finishing my studies in math, physicsand economics at the Hebrew University in Jerusalem, and had joined mySayeret Matkal comrades the night before the assault. It was a huge operation:ten battalions, including crack infantry units. Our own role was relatively minor.We were to seal the southern entrance to the town. But it proved a tough slogjust to get there. Our vehicles got bogged down in mud. By the time we arrived,Fatah fighters, although many were in civilian clothes so we couldn’t be sure,were racing past us in the other direction. One of them, we were later told, wasYasir Arafat. On a motorcycle.It would be nearly three decades before the two of us actually met – shortlyafter the assassination of my longtime comrade and friend Yitzhak Rabin, whenI had become Foreign Minister under Shimon Peres. But in the interveningyears, Arafat was rarely off of my radar. By the early 1970s, he and his fightershad been expelled by King Hussein’s army from Jordan and were re-based inLebanon. Arafat was becoming a significant figure on the Arab and worldpolitical stage, and an increasingly uncomfortable thorn in Israel’s side. I washead of Sayeret Matkal by then. Over a period of months, I drew up a carefullyconstructed plan – a raid by helicopter into a Fatah-dominated area insoutheastern Lebanon, during one of Arafat’s intermittent, morale-boostingvisits from Beirut – to assassinate him. My immediate superior, the army’s headof operations, was all for our doing it. But the chief of military intelligence saidno. Arafat, he insisted when we met to discuss the plan, was no longer the lean,mean fighter we had encountered in Karameh. “He’s fat. He’s a politician. He isnot a target.”6A decade later, the idea would suddenly resurface. In my first meeting, as anewly promoted Major General, with our then Defence Minister Ariel Sharon,Sharon turned to me and the army’s Chief of Staff, Rafael Eitan, and said: “Tellme. Why the hell is Arafat still alive?” He looked first at Raful, then at me, andadded: “When I was 20 years younger than you are, I never waited for someonelike Ben-Gurion or Dayan to ask me to plan an operation. I would plan it! ThenI’d take it to them and say, you’re the politicians, you decide, but if you say yes,we’ll do it.” I smiled, telling him that I’d done exactly that, a decade earlier,only to have one of his mates in the top brass say no. Sharon now said yes. Butthe plan was overtaken: by his ill-fated plan to launch a full-scale invasion ofLebanon in 1982, targeting not just Arafat, but with the aim of crushing thePLO militarily once and for all.I finally met Arafat face-to-face at the end of 1995. Although the Oslo peaceprocess had dramatically changed things, it was clear that the real prize – realpeace – was still far away. We were in Barcelona, for a Euro-Mediterraneanmeeting under the auspices of King Juan Carlos, aimed at trying to re-invigoratenegotiations. The ceremonial centrepiece of the event was a dinner at one of theroyal palaces, and it was arranged for me and Arafat to meet for a few minutesbeforehand. I arrived first. I found myself in a breathtakingly opulent, butotherwise empty, room. Empty, that is, except for a dark-brown Steinway piano.From childhood, I have loved music. And while I am never likely to threaten thecareer of anyone in the New York Philharmonic, I have, over the years,developed some ability, and drawn huge enjoyment, as a classical pianist. Ipulled back the red-velvet bench and began to play. With my back to thedoorway, I was unaware that Arafat had arrived, and that he was soon standingonly a few feet away, watching as I played one of my favourite pieces, a Chopinwaltz. My old commando antennae must have been blunted. I may not havebecome “fat”. But, undeniably, I was now a politician.When I finally realised Arafat was behind me, I turned, embarrassed, stoodup, and grasped his hand. “It’s a real pleasure to meet you,” I said. “I must say Ihave spent many years watching you – by other means.” He smiled. We stoodtalking for about 10 minutes. My hope was to establish simple, human contact;to signal respect; to begin to create the conditions not to try to kill Arafat, but tomake peace with him. “We carry a great responsibility,” I said. “Both of ourpeoples have paid a heavy price, and the time has come to find a way to solvethis.”7I sensed, at the time, at least the start of some connection. I suspected thatArafat viewed me, as he had Rabin before me, as a “fellow fighter”. But if so, Inow wondered whether that might have been part of the problem in his evertruly understanding my mission at Camp David. My motivations. Or my mind.Even in Israel, my reputation as a soldier has sometimes been as much aburden as an advantage. A whole body of stories has followed me from my 36years in uniform – a career which, after Sayeret Matkal, led me up the militaryladder until I was head of operations, intelligence, and eventually of the entirearmy as Chief of Staff. By the time I left the military, I was the single mostdecorated soldier in our country’s history. Some of the stories were actuallytrue: that when we burst onto the hijacked Sabena airliner, for instance, we weredressed as a maintenance crew; or that, in leading an assassination raid in Beirutagainst the PLO group that had murdered Israeli athletes at the 1972 MunichOlympics, I was disguised as a woman. Not the most attractive young lady,perhaps, though I did, painfully, pluck my eyelashes, and, with the help of fourpairs of standard-issue Israeli Army socks, develop quite a comely bosom. Irejected the idea of wearing a long dress, in favour of stylishly flared trousers. Iwas going on a commando operation, after all, not a prom date. But I did wearheels. So yes, a woman, of sorts.Yet some of the stories were just plain myth. I had given up counting thetimes I’d heard about my alleged prowess in recording the fastest-ever time onthe most gruelling of the Israeli army’s obstacle courses. In fact, I was a lotmore like Goldie Hawn in Private Benjamin.The main misunderstanding, however, went deeper. The assumptionappeared to be that my military achievements, especially in Sayeret Matkal,were down to a mix of brute force and raw courage. Courage, of course, was arequirement: the willingness to take risks, if the rewards for success, or the costsof inaction, were great enough. Few of the operations I fought in or commandedwere without the real danger of not coming back alive. But whatever success I’dhad as a soldier, particularly in Matkal, was not only, nor even mainly, aboutbiceps. It was about brains. The ability to make decisions. To withstand thepressure of often having to make the most crucial decisions within a matter ofseconds. It was, above all, about thinking and analyzing – and always, always,looking and planning ahead.And as our plane droned onward towards Israel, I knew that I would nowneed all of those qualities more than ever.8* * *This book is only in part the story of my life – a life that, from mybeginnings as a kibbutz boy in pre-state Palestine, has been intimately entwinedwith the infancy and adolescence and, now, the increasingly troubled middleage of the State of Israel.Still less is it only a record of its, or my, achievements, although they areinevitably a part of the story.In setting out to write it, I was also determined to document, from the inside,the critical setbacks as well. Mistakes. Misjudgements. Missed opportunities.And the lessons that we can, and must, be prepared to learn from them.No less so than I when I was planning a hijack rescue or a cross-bordercommando operation in Sayeret Matkal, I remain convinced that Israel’ssecurity, Israel’s very identity, can be safeguarded only by evaluatingdispassionately the situation in our country and the world. And by lookingahead.Even when I was a soldier, I never stopped thinking this way, especiallywhen, first as military intelligence chief and especially as Chief of Staff, I knew,in detail, every one of the security threats that faced Israel and was part ofdiscussions and decisions to try to confront them. I still vividly remember asChief of Staff, every Friday before the arrival of the Jewish Sabbath, sittingwith Rabin, who was then Israel’s Defence Minister. Our offices were along thesame hallway of the kirya, the ministry’s headquarters in the heart of Tel Aviv.Rabin had a very low table in his office, with two chairs. We would sit acrossfrom each other, each with a ready supply of coffee and Yitzhak smoking anapparently endless supply of cigarettes, and we would just talk. Politics.Strategy. Israel. The PLO. The surrounding Arab states. And the wider world.Many years before I became Prime Minister, I gave a lecture at a memorialmeeting for an Israeli academic. Not many people were there. I doubt even theyremember it. But I do, because what I said has, sadly, become more propheticthan even I could have imagined. I talked about the imperative for peace as partof Israel’s security. There was a “window,” I said. We were militarily strong. Inregional terms, we were a superpower. But politically, resolving the conflictwith our Arab enemies would almost certainly become more difficult with time.9Iraq, perhaps Iran and other Middle Eastern states, might get nuclear weapons.A violent form of fundamentalist Islam could, over time, erode existing Araband Muslim states, threatening Israel of course, but also the stability of ourneighbourhood and of the world. In those circumstances, even if an Israeligovernment was strong enough, wise enough, forward-looking enough topursue avenues for negotiated peace with its immediate neighbours, getting thepopular support required would be all but impossible.The window is still there. But it is only barely open.I fear that I was right, as well, in predicting that our failure to secure a finalpeace agreement with the Palestinians at Camp David might set backpeacemaking not just for a few months, but for many years. I have persisted intrying, very hard, to make that particular prediction prove wrong. That was why,despite intense pressure from my own political allies not to do so, I decided toreturn to government in 2007 as Defence Minister. I remained in that role forsix years: mostly in the current, right-wing Likud government of my onetimeSayeret Matkal charge, Bibi Netanyahu.Much of what I say in this book about war and peace, security and Israel’sfuture challenges, will make uncomfortable reading for Bibi. But very little of itwill surprise him, or his own Likud rivals further to the right, like ForeignMinister Avigdor Lieberman and the Economy Minister, Naftali Bennett. I havesaid almost all of it to them behind closed doors in the past few years, more thanonce. When I finally decided to leave the political arena last year, it was largelybecause I realized that they were guided by other imperatives. In the case ofBibi, the most gifted politician with whom I’ve worked except for Clinton, thepriority was to stay in power. For Avigdor and Naftali, it was to supplant Bibi,when the opportunity was ripe, as Likud leader and as Prime Minister. Andmuch too often – as with their hugely ill-advised recent proposal to amendIsrael’s basic law to define it explicitly as a Jewish state, and deny “nationalrights” to non-Jews – the three of them have ended up competing for partypolitical points rather than weighing the serious future implications for thecountry.Peacemaking, as I discovered first-hand, requires taking risks. Statesmanshiprequires risks. Politics, especially if defined simply as staying in power, isalmost always about the avoidance of risk.10The problem for Israel, no matter who or what party is in government, is thatthere are risks everywhere one looks, and they show every sign of getting more,not less, serious.The “Arab Spring” has morphed into an Islamic winter. National frontiersthat were put in place by British and French diplomats after the fall of theOttoman Empire are vanishing. Centuries-old conflicts between tribes and rivalreligious communities have reignited. The old Cold War system of nations hasgiven way to a world without a single geopolitical centre of gravity. Perhapsmost seriously, Iran seems determined to get nuclear weapons, and, in my view,may succeed in doing so.Where Israel is concerned, relations with our indisputably most importantally, the United States, are more strained than at any time in decades.Diplomatic ties with Europe, our single largest trading partner, have beengrowing steadily worse. And the only real certainty is that anyone who tells youthat they know absolutely where things are heading next is lying. Just ask HosniMubarak, who, despite having nearly half-a-million soldiers and securityoperatives at his disposal, was utterly blindsided, and very soon toppled andimprisoned, by an uprising that began with a sudden show of popular anger inCairo’s Tahrir Square.Internally as well, Israel faces dangers. Chief among them is the alarmingerosion of the standards of civil discourse, amid the increasingly shrill, oftenhateful, divisions between left and right, secular and religious, rich and poorand, most seriously of all, Jews and Arabs. While we remain economicallysuccessful, the fruits of our wealth are being ever more unevenly shared, and theprospects for continued growth constrained by the lack of any visible prospectof long-term peace.Bibi Netanyahu, of course, knows all of this. Indeed, he has repeatedlyspoken of the multiple threats Israel faces, not only in somber terms, but attimes almost apocalyptically.That works, politically. Politicians, not just in Israel but everywhere, knowthat it is a lot easier to win elections on fear than on hope.Yet my own prescription – learned, as this book recounts, from years on thebattlefield, then reinforced by my years in government – is that Israel mustresist being guided by either of those alternatives. Not fear, certainly. Butneither by simple, untempered hope. Though the stakes have become muchhigher since my night flight back from Camp David nearly 15 years ago, our11need remains what I tried to impress on my negotiators then: realism. Ameticulously informed, utterly unvarnished, understanding of the threats weface, of each altered situation after every success or a failure, and an ability toset aside the background noise and political pressures and chart a way forward.So what is that way? It begins with the mindset. On more than one occasionin the past few years, after Prime Minister Netanyahu had warned our countryof a nuclear Iran or the spread of Al Qaeda-style hatred and violence, as ifprophesying the coming of Armageddon, I would say to him: “Stop talking likethat. You’re not delivering a sermon in a synagogue. You’re Prime Minister.”Having been privileged to live my own life along with the entire modern historyof our country, I went further. Zionism, the founding architecture of Israel, wasrooted in finding a way to supplant not just the life, but the way of thinking,which hard-pressed Jewish communities had internalised over centuries in thediaspora: in Hebrew, the galut. We would instead take control of our owndestiny, building and developing and securing our own country.Now, I told Bibi, he was back in the mindset of the galut. Yes, al-Qaeda, andmore recently Islamic State, were real dangers. The prospect of a nuclear Iranwas even more so. “But the implication of the way you speak, not just to BarackObama or David Cameron, but to Israelis, is that these are existential threats.What do you imagine? That if, God forbid, we wake up and Iran is a nuclearpower, we’ll pack up and go back to the shtetls of Europe?”Of course not. Israel, as my public life has taught me more than most,remains strong militarily. We are, still, fully capable of turning back any of theundeniable threats on our doorstep. Keeping that strength, developing it andmodernizng it, are obviously critically important. But as Israel’s founding PrimeMinister, David Ben-Gurion, used to say, the success of Zionism, and of theIsraeli state, required two things: strength and “righteousness.” He didn’t meanthe word in purely religious terms. He meant that Israel, if it were to retaininternational backing and internal cohesion, must be guided by a core of moralassumptions as well.That, in itself, would be reason enough to pursue every possible opportunityfor “end of conflict” with our neighbours. And, at home, to protect and reinforceour commitment to Israel as both a Jewish and a democratic state. ButIsrael’s simple self-interest – its hope for prosperity, social cohesion, andgrowth in future – makes this nothing short of imperative.12Bibi is right about one thing. The negotiating challenges have become moredifficult since Arafat’s refusal of our offer at Camp David. Arafat is no longeralive. Palestinian politics have become ever more fragmented and messy, notleast as a result of the Hamas takeover of Gaza.But Churchill once said that the difference between a pessimist and anoptimist was that the pessimist always saw difficulties in every opportunity. Theoptimist saw opportunities in the difficulties.I, of all people, do not look at such opportunities without hard-headedanalysis, even a dose of scepticism. But the opportunities are undeniably there,and never has Israel risked paying a higher price for failing to see and at least totry to act on them.The first port of call should still be the Palestinians. I have repeatedly askedBibi, and the right-wing rivals that seem often to loom large in his politicalcalculations: “If you’re so sure you don’t have a negotiating partner in thePalestinians, who not at least try? Seriously. What do you have to lose?”But beyond this, there is a whole range of relatively moderate countries –and, as Sunni states, strongly anti-Iranian countries – which share with Israel areal, practical interest in putting in place a new political arrangement in theMiddle East. So does the United States, Russia, even China. Each, in their ownways, is threatened by a terror threat that will require international action, andmany years, finally to defeat.A Saudi “peace plan”, for instance, has been on the table for years. Formallyendorsed by the Arab League, it proposes a swap: Israeli withdrawal for full andfinal peace and Arab recognition. Successive Israeli governments havedismissed it out of hand, arguing that the withdrawal which the Saudi proposaldemanded – every inch of territory, back to the borders before the Six-Day War– would be not only politically unacceptable, but practically impossible.In the final days of the Camp David summit, as our failure was becominginescapably clear, a disheartened Bill Clinton said to me that he couldunderstand, just about, why Yasir Arafat had not accepted the unprecedentedlyfar-reaching proposals I had presented. But what he couldn’t grasp was how thePalestinian leader could say no even to accepting them as a basis for the hard,further work which we all knew a final peace agreement would entail. Wasn’tArafat capable of looking beyond the political risks, of understanding thegreater risks of inaction. Of seeing the rewards? Of looking ahead?13My fear – not just on issues like the Saudi peace plan, but in charting ourplace in a dramatically changed world, and safeguarding our twin Jewish anddemocratic identities at home, pairing our physical strength with an equallystrong moral centre – is that we Israelis are now in danger of jettisoning theexample of David Ben-Gurion. For Yasir Arafat’s.14Chapter OneI am an Israeli, but also a Palestinian. I was born in February 1942 in BritishruledPalestine on a fledgling kibbutz: a cluster of wood-and-tarpaper huts amida few orange groves and vegetable fields and chicken coops. It was just acrossthe road from an Arab village named Wadi Khawaret, which disappeared, withthe establishment of the State of Israel, when I was six years old.As Prime Minister half-a-century later, during my stubborn yet ultimatelyfruitless drive to secure a final peace treaty with Yasir Arafat, there were mediasuggestions that my childhood years gave me a personal understanding of thepasts of both our peoples, Jews and Arabs, in the land which each of us saw asour own. But that is in some ways misleading. Yes, I did know first-hand thatwe were not alone in our ancestral homeland. At no point in my childhood was Iever taught to hate the Arabs. I never did, even when, in my years defending thesecurity of Israel, I had to fight, and defeat, them. But my conviction that they,too, needed the opportunity to establish a state came only later, after my manyyears in uniform, and especially when, as deputy chief-of-staff under YitzhakRabin, we were faced with the explosion of violence in the West Bank and Gazathat became known as the first intifada. And while my determination as PrimeMinister to find a negotiated resolution to our conflict was in part based on arecognition of the Palestinian Arabs’ national aspirations, the main impulse wasmy belief that such a compromise was profoundly in the interest of Israel: theJewish state whose birth I witnessed, whose existence I had spent decadesdefending on the battlefield and which I was ultimately elected to lead.Zionism, the political platform for the establishment of a Jewish state,emerged in the late 1800s in response to a brutal reality. And that, too, was apart of my own family’s story. Most of the world’s Jews, who lived in theRussian empire and Poland, were trapped at the time in a vise of poverty,powerlessness and anti-Semitic violence. Even in the democracies of WesternEurope, Jews were not necessarily secure. Theodor Herzl, a thoroughlyassimilated Jew in Vienna, published the foundation text of Zionism in 1896. Itwas called Der Judenstaat. “Jews have sincerely tried everywhere to mergewith the national communities in which we live, seeking only to preserve thefaith of our fathers,” he wrote. “In vain are we loyal patriots, sometimes superloyal.In vain do we make the same sacrifices of life and property as our fellowcitizens… In our native lands where we have lived for centuries, we are stilldecried as aliens.” Zionism’s answer was the establishment of a state of our15own, in which we could achieve the self-determination and security denied to uselsewhere.During the 1890s and the early years of the new century, more than a millionJews fled Eastern Europe, but mostly for America. It was only in the 1920s and1930s that significant numbers arrived in Palestine. Then, within a few years,Hitler rose to power in Germany. The Jews of Europe faced not justdiscrimination or pogroms. They were systematically, industrially, murdered.From 1939 until early 1942 when I was born, nearly two million Jews werekilled. Six million would die by the end of the war. Almost the whole world,including the United States, rejected pleas to provide a haven for those whomight have been saved. Even after Hitler was defeated, the British shut thedoors of Palestine to those who had somehow survived.* * *I was three when the Holocaust ended, and it was three years later that Israelwas established in May 1948, and neighboring Arab states sent in their armiesto try to snuff the state out in its infancy. It would, again, be some years before Ifully realized that this first Arab-Israeli war was the start of an essential tensionin my country’s life, and my own: between the Jewish ethical ideals at the coreof Zionism and the reality of our having to fight, and sometimes even kill, inorder to secure, establish and safeguard our state. Yet even as a small child, Iwas keenly aware of the historic events swirling around me.Mishmar Hasharon, the hamlet north of Tel Aviv where I spent the first 17years of my life, was one of the early kibbutzim. These collective farmingsettlements had their roots in Herzl’s view that an avant-garde of “pioneers”would need to settle a homeland that was still economically undeveloped, andwhere even farming was difficult. Members of Jewish youth groups fromEastern Europe, among them my mother, provided most of the pioneers,drawing inspiration not just from Zionism but by the still untainted collectivistideals represented by the triumph of Communism over the czars in Russia.It is hard for people who didn’t live through that time to understand themindset of the kibbutzniks. They had higher aspirations than simply planting theseeds of a future state. They wanted to be part of transforming what it meant tobe a Jew. The act of first taming, and then farming, the soil of Palestine was not16just an economic imperative. It was seen as deeply symbolic, signifying Jewsfinally taking control of their own destiny. It was a message that took on aneven greater power and poignancy after the mass murder of the Jews of Europeduring the Holocaust.Even for many Israelis nowadays, the all-consuming collectivism of life onan early kibbutz, and the physical challenges, are hard to imagine. Among thefew dozen families in Mishmar Hasharon when I was born, there was no privateproperty. Everything was communally owned and allocated. Every penny – orIsraeli pound – earned from what we produced went into a communal kitty,from which each one of the 150-or-so families in Mishmar Hasharon when Iwas a child got a small weekly allowance. By “small”, I mean tiny. For myparents and others, even the idea of an ice cream cone for their children was amatter of keen financial planning. More often, they would save each weeklypittance with the aim of pooling them at birthday time, where they might stretchto the price of a picture book, or a small toy.Decisions on any issue of importance were taken at the aseifa, the weeklymeeting of kibbutz members held on Saturday nights in our dining hall. Theagenda would be tacked up on the wall the day before, and the session wouldusually focus on one issue, ranging from major items like the kibbutz’s financesto the question, for instance, of whether our small platoon of delivery driversshould be given pocket money to buy a sandwich or a coffee on their daysoutside the kibbutz or be limited to wrapping up bits of the modest fare on offerat breakfast time. That debate ended in a classic compromise: a bit of money,but very little, so as to avoid violating the egalitarian ethos of the kibbutz.But perhaps the aspect of life on the kibbutz most difficult for outsiders tounderstand, especially nowadays, is that we children were raised collectively.We lived in dormitories, organized by age-group and overseen by a caregiver:in Hebrew, a metapelet, usually a woman in her 20s or 30s. For a few hourseach afternoon and on the Jewish Sabbath, we were with our parents. Butotherwise, we lived and learned in a world consisting almost entirely of otherchildren.Everything around us was geared towards making us feel like a band ofbrothers and sisters, and as part of the guiding spirit of the kibbutz. Until ourteenage years, we weren’t even graded in school. And though we didn’t actuallystudy how to till the land, some of my fondest early memories are of our“children’s farm” – the vegetables we grew, the cows we milked, the hens andchickens that gave us our first experience of how life was created. And the17aroma always wafting from the stone ovens in the bakery at the heart of thekibbutz, where we could see the bare-chested young men producing loaf afterloaf of bread, not just for Mishmar Hasharon but villages and towns for milesaround us.Until our teenage years, we lived in narrow, oblong homes, four of us to aroom, unfurnished except for our beds, under which we placed our pair of shoesor sandals. At one end of the corridor was a set of shelves where we collected aclean set of underwear, pants and socks each week. At the other end were thetoilets – at that point, the only indoor toilets on the kibbutz, with real toiletseats,rather than just holes in the ground. All of us showered together until theage of twelve. I can’t think of a single one of us who went on to marry someonefrom our own age-group in the kibbutz. It would have seemed almostincestuous.Mishmar Hasharon and other kibbutzim have long since abandoned thepractice of collective child-rearing. Some in my generation look back on theway we were raised not only with regret, but pain: a sense of parental absence,abandonment or neglect. My own memories, and those of most of the children Igrew up with, are more positive. The irony is that we probably spent morewaking time with our parents than town or city children whose mothers andfathers worked nine-to-five jobs. The difference came at bedtime, or during thenight. If you woke up unsettled, or ill, the only immediate prospect of comfortwas from the metapeled, or another of the kibbutz grown-ups who might be onovernight duty. Still, my childhood memories are overwhelmingly of feelinghappy, safe, protected. I do remember waking up once, late on a stormy winternight when I was nine, in the grips of a terrible fever. I’d begun to hallucinate. Igot to my feet and, without the thought of looking anywhere else for help, mademy wobbly way through the rain to my parents’ room and fell into their bed.They hugged me. They dabbed my forehead with water. The next morning, myfather wrapped me in a blanket and took me back to the children’s home.To the extent that I was aware my childhood was different, I was given tounderstand it was special, that we were the beating heart of a Jewish state aboutto be born. I once asked my mother why other children got to live in their ownapartments in places like Tel Aviv. “They are ironim,” she said. City-dwellers.Her tone made it clear they were to be viewed as a slightly lesser species.* * *18Though both my parents were part of the pioneer generation, my mother,unlike my father, actually arrived as a pioneer, part of a Jewish youth groupfrom Poland that came directly to the kibbutz. In addition to being morenaturally outgoing than my father, she came to see Mishmar Hasharon has herextended family and spent every one of her one hundred years there.Esther Godin, as the then was, grew up in Warsaw. Born in 1913, she wasthe oldest of the six children of Samuel and Rachel Godin. Poland at the timewas home to the largest Jewish community in the world, more than 3 million bythe time of the Holocaust. While the Jews of Poland had a long history, theGodins did not. Before the First World War, my mother’s parents made theirway from Smolensk in Russia to Warsaw, which was also under czarist rule.When the war was over, the Bolshevik Revolution had toppled the czars. Polandbecame independent, under the nationalist general Josef Pilsuldski. The Godinshad a decision to make: either return to now-Communist Russia or stay in thenew Polish state, though without citizenship because they had not been bornthere. No doubt finding comfort, community and a sense of safety amid thehundreds of thousands of Jews in the Polish capital, they chose Pilsuldski overLenin. They lived in what would become the Warsaw Ghetto, on NalewskiStreet, where Samuel Godin eked out a living as a bookbinder.My mother came to Zionism as a teenager, and it was easy to understandwhy she, like so many of the other young Jews around her, was drawn to it. Shesaw how hard her parents were struggling economically, on the refugee fringesof a Jewish community itself precariously placed in a newly assertive Poland.She saw no future for herself there. Though she attended a normal state-run highschool, she and her closest friends joined a Zionist youth group called Gordonia,which had been founded in Poland barely a decade earlier. She started studyingHebrew. Each summer, from the age of 13, she and her Gordonia friends wouldspend deep in the Carpathian Mountains. They worked for local Polishlandowners, learning the rudiments of how to farm and the rigors of simplephysical labor. Late into the evening, they would learn not just about agriculturebut Jewish history, the land of Palestine, and how they hoped to put both theirnew-found skills and the Zionist ideals into practice.She had just turned 22 when she set off for Mishmar Hasharon with 60 otherGordonia pioneers in the summer of 1935. It took them nearly a week to getthere. They travelled by train south through Poland, passing not far from thelittle town of Oświęcim which would later become infamous as the site of theAuschwitz concentration camp. Then, on through Hungary and across Romania19to the grand old Black Sea port of Constanța, and by ship through theBosphorus, past Istanbul, and on to Haifa on the Palestinian coast, from wherethey were taken by truck to their bunk-bed rooms in one of a dozen prefabstructures on the recently established kibbutz. Though the water came from awell, and it lacked even the basic creature comforts of the cramped Godinapartment in Warsaw, that, to my mother, was just part of the challenge, and thedream, she’d embraced and had come to define her. I know that she felt, onarriving in the kibbutz, that only now was her life truly beginning.It was a feeling that never left her. Yet it was always clouded by the memoryof the family she left behind. When the Second World War began in September1939, the Germans, and then the Soviets, invaded, overran and divided Poland.Two of my mother’s three sisters fled to Moscow. Her teenage brother Avrahamwent underground, joining the anti-Nazi partisans. All three would survive thewar. Yet in the autumn of 1940, the rest of her family found themselves insidethe Warsaw Ghetto with the city’s other 400,000 Jews. My mother’s parentsdied there, along with her 13-year-old brother Itzik and her little sister Henya,who was only 11.When my mother arrived in the kibbutz, her Gordonia friends assumed shewould marry a young man named Ya’akov Margalit, the leader of their groupback in Warsaw. But the budding romance fell victim to the Zionist cause. Asshe was embarking on her new life, he was frequently back in Poland trainingand arranging papers for further groups of pioneers. He continued to write herlong, heartfelt letters. But the letters had to be brought from the central postoffice in Tel Aviv, and the kibbutznik who fetched the mail was a quiet,dimunitive 25-year-old named Yisrael Mendel Brog – my father. Known asSrulik, his Yiddish nickname, he had come to Palestine five years earlier. Hewas an ordinary kibbutz worker. He drove a tractor.My father’s initial impulse in coming to Palestine was more personal thanpolitical. He was born, in 1910, in the Jewish shtetl of Pushelat in Lithuania,near the larger Jewish town of Ponovezh, a major seat of rabbinic learning andteaching. His own father, though the only member of the Pushelat communitywith rabbinical training, made his living as the village pharmacist. Many of theroughly 10,000 Jews who lived there had left for America in the great exodusfrom Russian and Polish lands at the end of the 19 th century. By the time myfather was born, the community had shrunk to only about 1,000. When he wastwo years old, a fire broke out, destroying dozens of homes, as well as theshtetl’s only synagogue. Donations soon arrived from the US, and my paternal20grandfather was put in charge of holding the money until rebuilding plans wereworked out. The problem was that word spread quickly about the rebuildingfund. On the night of September 16, 1912, two burglars burst into mygrandfather’s home and stole the money. They beat him and my grandmother todeath with an axle wrenched loose from a nearby carriage. Their four-year-oldson Meir – my father’s older brother – suffered a deep wound from where theattackers drove the metal shaft into his head. He carried a golf-ball-sizedindentation in his forehead for the rest of his life. My father had burrowed into acorner, and the attackers didn’t see him.The two orphaned boys were raised by their paternal grandmother, Itzila. Yetany return to normalcy they may have experienced was cut short by theoutbreak of the First World War, forcing her to flee with them by train ahead ofthe advancing German army. They ended up some 1,500 miles south, in theCrimean city of Simferopol. Initially under czarist rule, then the Bolsheviks andfrom late 1917 until the end of the war under the Germans, they had to deal withcold, damp and a chronic shortage of food. My Uncle Meir quickly learned howto survive. He later told me that he would run after German supply carriagesand collect the odd potato that fell off the back. Realizing that the Germansoldiers had been wrenched from their own families by the war, he began takingmy father with him on weekends to the neighborhood near their barracks, wherethe soldiers would sometimes give them cookies, or even a loaf of bread. Yetthey were deprived of the basic ingredients of a healthy childhood: nutritiousfood and a warm, dry room in which to sleep. By the time Itzila brought themback to settle in Ponovezh at the end of the war, my father was diagnosed withthe bone-development disease, rickets, caused by the lack of Vitamin D in theirdiet.In another way, however, my father was the more fortunate of the boys. Thelost schooling of those wartime years came at a less formative time for him thanfor his brother. Meir never fully made up the lost ground in school. My fathersimply began his Jewish primary education, cheder, a couple of years later thanusual. He thrived there. Still, when it was time for him to enter secondaryeducation, he decided against going on with his religious education. Meir waspreparing to leave for Palestine, so my father enrolled in the Hebrew-language,Zionist high school. When he graduated, one of the many Brog relatives whowere by now living in the United States, his Uncle Jacob, tried to persuade himto come to Pittsburgh for university studies. But with Meir signing on as hissponsor with the British Mandate authorities, he left for Palestine shortly before21his twentieth birthday. Jacob did still insist on helping financially, whichallowed my father to enroll at the Hebrew University in Jerusalem.He did well in his studies – literature, history and philosophy – butabandoned them after two years. His explanation for not staying on, when Iasked him years later, was that with the accelerating activity of the Zionistpioneers, it felt wrong to him to spend his days going to lectures, reading booksand writing essays. I am sure that he also felt isolated and alone, with Meir, theonly link to his life before Palestine, working in Haifa on the coast, four or fivehours by bus from Jerusalem. When he began looking for a way to become partof the changes going on around him, Mishmar Hasharon didn’t yet exist. Itsfounding core – a dozen Russian Jewish pioneers – was still working onargicultural settlements near Herzliya, north of Tel Aviv, until they found aplace to start their kibbutz. But they had been joined by several young men andwomen who, though a year or two older than my father, had been with him atthe Hebrew High School in Ponovezh. He decided to join them.Late in 1932, the Jewish National Fund, supported financially by leadingJewish figures in western Europe and the US, bought 2,000 acres from an Arablandowner near Wadi Khawaret. The area was set aside for three Jewishsettlements: a moshav called Kfar Haim, where the land was divided into familyplots, and two kibbutzim. One was called Ma’abarot. Next to it was MishmarHasharon. My father was among the seventy youngsters who set off in threetrucks with everything they figured they would need to turn the hard, scrubbyhill into a kibbutz. They built the core from pre-fab kits: wooden huts to sleep inand a slightly larger one for the dining hall. They dug a well and ordered apump from Tel Aviv, at first for drinking and washing, but soon allowing themto begin a vegetable garden, a dairy with a dozen cows, a chicken coop with afew hundred hens, and to plant a first orange grove and a small vineyard.Still, by the time my mother arrived three years later, there were not enoughcitrus trees, vines, cattle and chickens to occupy a membership which nownumbered more than 200. Along with some of the others, my father workedoutside the kibbutz, earning a regular paycheck to help support the collective.On his way back, he would stop at the post office in Tel Aviv to pick up lettersand packages for the rest of the kibbutz – including Ya’akov Margalit’s loveletters to my mother. That was how my parents’ friendship began, how afriendly hello led to shared conversation at the end of my father’s working day,and how, a few years later, my mother decided to spurn her Gordonia suitor infavor of Srulik Brog, the postman. It was not until 1939 that they moved in22together. They didn’t bother getting married until the summer of 1941. Perhapsbecause this was less than nine months before I was born, my mother alwaysremained vague when asked their exact wedding date.My parents were an unlikely pair. My mother – bright, lively and energetic –was a doer, who believed passionately in the grand social experiment of kibbutzlife. Having helped her mother raise her siblings in Warsaw, and with a naturalaffinity from children, she became the main authority on issues related tochildbirth and early childcare. She actively partook in the kibbutz’s planningand politics, and reveled in its social life. My father was more detached bothpolitically and socially. He was more contemplative, less assertive, less selfconfident.Though he agreed broadly with the founding principles of thekibbutz, and wanted to play his role in making it a success, I could see, as Igrew older, that he was often impatient at what he saw as its intellectualinsularity and its ideological rigidities.Though it didn’t strike me at the time, he was not a large man. As a result ofhis childhood illness, he never grew to more than five-foot-four. Still, he was apowerful presence, stocky and strong from his work on the kibbutz. He had adeep, resonant voice and wise-looking, blue-gray eyes. It was only throughUncle Meir that by the time I was born, he had moved on from driving a tractorto a more influential role on the kibbutz. Meir worked for the Palestine ElectricCompany and when Mishmar Hasharon installed its own electricity system, thePEC was in charge of the work. Meir trained my father and put him forward asthe kibbutz contact for maintaining and repairing the equipment. He was wellsuited for the work. He was a natural tinkerer, a problem-solver. He was goodwith his hands, and his natural caution was an additional asset as the kibbutz gotto grips with the potential, and the potential dangers, of electric power. Once thesystem was installed, he became responsible for managing any aspect of thesettlement that involved electricity: water pumps, the irrigation system, thecommunal laundry and our bakery.My parents were courteous and polite with each other, but they nevershowed any physical affection in our presence. None of the adults did. This waspart of an unspoken kibbutz code. Not only for kibbutzniks, but for all the earlyZionists, outward displays of emotion were seen as a kind of selfishness thatrisked undermining communal cohesion, tenacity and strength. Because I’dknown no other way, this did not strike me as odd. Besides, I was a quiet,contemplative, bookish and self-contained child. Only in later years did I come tosee the lasting effect on me. It was be a long time before I became comfortable23showing my feelings, beyond my immediate family and a few close friends.When I was in the army, this wasn’t an issue. Self-control, especially in highpressuresituations, was a highly valued asset. But in politics, I think that it did for aconsiderable time inhibit my ability to connect with the public, or at least withthe news media that played such a critical intermediary role. And it caused meto be seen not just as reserved or aloof, but sometimes as cold, or arrogant.I did get much that I value from my parents. From my mother, herboundless energy, activism, her attention to detail, and her focus on causeslarger than herself – her belief that politics mattered. Also her love for art andliterature. When I would come home from the children’s dormitory to myparents’ room – just nine feet by ten, with a wooden trundle bed to save spaceduring the day – there was always a novel or a book of verse sharing the smalltable with my parents’ most single prized possession: their kibbutz-issue radio.As a child, however, I spent much more time with my father. He was myguide, my protector and role model. Like my mother, he never mentioned thetrials which they and their families endured before arriving in Palestine. Nor didthey ever speak to me in any detail about the Holocaust. No one on the kibbutzdid. It was as if the memories were scabs they dared not pick at. Also, itseemed, because they were determined to avoid somehow passing on theseremembered sadnesses to their sons and daughters. Still, when I was ten oreleven, my father did – once, inadvertently – open a window on his childhood.Every Saturday morning, we would listen to a classical music concert on myparents’ radio. One day, as the beautiful melodies of Tchaikovsky’s violinconcerto in D came through the radio, I was struck by the almost trancelike lookthat came over my father’s face. He seemed to be in another, faraway, place.When the music ended, he turned and told me about the first time he’d heard it.It was on the train ride into Crimean exile with Itzila and Meir in the early daysof the First World War. The train took five days to reach the Crimea andsometimes halted for hours at a time. Every evening, a man at the far end oftheir carriage would take out his violin and play the second movement of theTchaikovsky concerto.I have heard the piece in concert halls many times since. When the orchestrabegins the second movement – with the violin notes climbing higher, tremblingever so subtly – it sends a shiver down my spine. I can’t help thinking of therailway car in which my then four-year-old father and other Jews fromPonovezh escaped the Great War of 1914. And of other trains, in another war 25years later, carrying Jews not to safety but to death camps.24Listening to the concert program in my parents’ room was something Ialways looked forward to. It was my father who encouraged me, when I waseight, to begin learning to play the piano. I took lessons once a week all duringmy childhood along with several other of the kibbutz children. When we got oldenough, we took turns playing a short piece – the secular, kibbutz equivalent ofan opening prayer – at the Friday-night meal in the dining hall. I have alwayscherished being able to play. Sitting down at the piano and immersing myself inTchaikovsky, Beethoven, Schubert or Mozart never ceases to bring me a senseof calm, freedom and, especially nowadays, when I have finally worked tomaster a particularly intricate piece, a feeling of pure joy.* * *As a young child, I spent most of my waking hours in the company of myseveral dozen kibbutz “siblings” in the children’s home, the dining hall, orrunning through the open spaces in the center of the kibbutz with our metapelet.She would often take us through the orange groves in the afternoon, andsometimes across the main road to the Arab village.Wadi Khawaret consisted of a few dozen concrete homes built back from amain street bordered by shops and storehouses. She would buy us sweets in thelittle grocery store. The man behind the counter had a kindly, weathered faceand a dark moustache. Dressed in a gray galabiya and a keffiyeh, he smiledwhen we came in. There was always a group of Palestinian women, in fulllengthrobes, seated on stoops outside breastfeeding their babies. We saw cattle,bulls, even the odd buffalo, being led to or from the fields. I sensed no hostility,and certainly no hatred, toward us in the village. The people seemed warm, andbenignly indifferent to the dozen Jewish toddlers and their metapelet. My ownattitude to Wadi Khawaret was of benign curiosity. I did not imagine that withina couple of years we would be on opposite sides of a war. I enjoyed these visits,as I enjoyed every part of my early childhood. Each age-group on the kibbutzwas given a name. Ours was called dror. It was the Hebrew word for“freedom”.But dror was also the name of one of the Jewish youth movements in theWarsaw Ghetto, heroes in their doomed uprising against the Nazis. Little bylittle, from about the age of five, I became more aware of the suffering the Jewshad so recently endured in the lands my parents had left behind, the growing25tension around us and the sense that something momentous was about to happenas the prospect of a state got closer.The memories remain with me to this day, like a series of snapshots. It wason a spring morning in 1947 that I got my first real sense that the Jewish statewas something which would have be fought for, and that youngsters not all thatmuch older than me would have a critical role to play. I got a close-up look atthe elite of the Zionist militias, the Palmach. It numbered something like 6,000,from a pre-state force totaling around 40,000. The Palmachniks were highlymotivated, young political activists. They had no fixed base. Each platoon,almost all of them teenagers, spent five or six months at a time on variouskibbutzim. For the first two weeks of each month, they would earn their keep byworking in the fields. They spent the other weeks training. I had just turned fivewhen I watched three dozen Palmach boys and girls, in their T-shirts and shortkhaki pants, rappel confidently down the side of one of our few concretebuildings. The building was only 25 or 30 feet high, but it looked like askyscraper from my perch on the grass in front, and the feat of the youngPalmachniks seemed to me nothing short of heroic.A few months later, on a Saturday afternoon in November 1947, I crowdedinto my parents’ room as the Haganah radio station crackled out its account of aUnited Nations debate on the future of Palestine. The session was the outcomeof a long train of events starting with Britain’s acknowledgement that itsmandate to rule over Palestine was unsustainable. The British had proposed aseries of arrangements to accommodate both Arab and Jewish aspirations. Now,the UN was meeting to consider the idea of splitting Palestine into two newstates, one Arab and the other Jewish.Since the partition was based on existing areas of Arab and Jewishsettlement, the proposed Jewish state looked like a boomerang, with a long,very narrow center strip along the Mediterranean, broadening slightly into theGalilee in the north and the arid coastline in the south. Jerusalem, the site of theancient Jewish temple, was not part of it. It was to be placed under internationalrule. By no means all Zionist leaders were happy with partition. Many, on boththe political right and the left, wanted a Jewish state in all of Palestine, withJerusalem as its centerpiece. But Ben-Gurion and the pragmatic mainstreamargued that UN endorsement of a Jewish state – no matter what its borders, evenwith a new Palestinian Arab state alongside it – would represent a historicachievement. The proceedings went on for hours. At sundown, we had to returnto the children’s home. But we were woken before dawn. The vote for partition26– for the Jewish state Herzl had first dreamed of 50 years before – had beenwon. A huge bonfire blazed in front of the bakery. All around us the grown-upswere singing and dancing in celebration.On the Arab side, there was no rejoicing. Every one of the Arab delegationsat the UN voted against partition, rejecting a Jewish state even if it was createdalong with a Palestinian Arab one. Violence erupted the next day. An attack ona bus near Lydda, near the road up to Jerusalem, left six Jews dead. Similarattacks occurred around the country. Shooting broke out in mixed Arab-and-Jewish towns and cities: Jaffa on the southern edge of Tel Aviv. Safed, Tiberiasand Haifa in the north, and in Jerusalem.I followed all this with curiosity and trepidation through my halting attemptsto read Davar le Yeladim, the weekly children’s edition of the Labour Zionistnewspaper Davar. We children felt an additional connection with what wasgoing on. One of our Dror housemates, a boy named Giora Ros, had left theyear before when his father took a job in Jerusalem. As the battle for the cityraged through the end of 1947 and into 1948, its besieged Jewish residentsfought for their lives. We sent our friend packages of clothing and food, whichwe saved up by eating only half of an egg at breakfast and smaller portions atdinner.The mood darkened further at the end of January 1948, four months before theBritish departed. A cluster of settlements known as Gush Etzion, south ofJerusalem near the hills of Bethlehem, also came under siege. Around midnighton January 15, a unit of Haganah youngsters set off on foot to try to breakthrough. They became known as “The 35”. Marching through the night fromJerusalem, they had made it only within a couple of miles of Gush Etzion whenthey were surrounded and attacked by local Arabs. By late afternoon, all ofthem were dead. When the British authorities recovered their bodies, they foundthat the enemy had not simply killed them. All of the bodies had been batteredand broken. Rumors spread that in some cases, the dead men’s genitals hadbeen cut off and shoved into their mouths. Since I was still a few weeks short ofmy sixth birthday, I was spared that particular detail. But not the sense of horrorover what had happened, nor the central message: the lengths and depths towhich the Arabs of Palestine seemed ready to go in their fight against us.“Hit’alelu bagufot!” was the only slightly sanitized account we children weregiven. “They mutilated the corpses!”Even after the partition vote, statehood was not a given. In the weeks beforethe British left, two senior Americans –the ambassador to the UN and Secretary27of State George C. Marshall – recommended abandoning or at least delaying thedeclaration of an Israeli state. Yet Ben-Gurion feared that any delay risked theend of any early hope of statehood. After he managed to secure a one-votemajority in his de facto cabinet, the state was declared on May 14, 1948.And hours later, the armies of five Arab states crossed into Palestine.28Chapter TwoThe 1948 war and the decade that followed remain vivid in my mind not justfor the obvious reason: they secured the survival of the infant state of Israel andsaw it into a more assured and independent young adulthood. It was also thetime when I grew from a young child –introspective and contemplative, awareof how quickly my mind seemed to grasp numbers and geometric shapes andmusical notes, but also small for my age and awkward at the sports we’d playon the dusty field at the far edge of the kibbutz – into a sense of my own placein the family and community and the country around me. I did, along the way,become arguably the most effective left defensive back on our kibbutz soccerteam. But that was not because I suddenly discovered a buried talent for thegame. Physically, I was like my father. I had natural hand coordination whichmade delicate tasks come easily – one reason I would soon discover a pastimethat lent itself to acts of kibbutz mischief bordering on juvenile delinquency.But when it came to larger muscles, I was hapless, if not hopeless. My prowessas a soccer defenseman was because no opposing player in his right mind, onceI’d inadvertently cut his knees from under him when aiming for the ball, felt itwas worth coming anywhere close to me.But when the war broke out in earnest in the spring of 1948, my focus, likethat of all Israelis, was on the fighting, which even the youngest of us knewwould determine whether the state would survive at all. Day after day, myfather helped me to chart each major advance and setback on a little map.Dozens of kibbutzim around the country were in the line of fire. Some had soonfallen, while others were barely managing to hang on. Just five miles inlandfrom us, an Israeli settlement came under attack by an Iraqi force in the nearbyArab village of Qaqun.But inside Mishmar Hasharon, I had the almost surreal feeling that this greathistorical drama was something happening everywhere else but on our kibbutz.If it hadn’t been for the radio, or the newsreels which we saw in weekly movienights in the dining hall, and the little map on which I traced its course with myfather, I would barely have known a war was going on. One Arab army did getnear to us: the Iraqis, in Qaqun. If they had advanced a few miles further, theycould have overrun Mishmar Hasharon, reached the coast and cut the newJewish state in half. I can still remember the rumble of what sounded likethunder one morning in June 1948, as the Alexandronis, one of the twelvebrigades in the new Israeli army, launched their decisive attack on the Iraqis.29“No reason to be afraid,” our metapelet kept telling me. That only made memore scared. Yet within a few hours, everything was quiet again, and neveragain did the shellfire get near to us. A few weeks later, I heard the only gunfireinside the kibbutz itself. It came from the top of our water tower. The man onguard duty thought he saw movement on the road outside. But it turned out tobe nothing.It wasn’t until well into 1949 that formal agreements were signed and“armistice line” borders drawn with the Arab states. By the measure thatmattered most – survival – Israel had won and the Arab attackers had lost.Jordan did end up in control of the West Bank, as well as the eastern half of adivided city of Jerusalem, including the walled Old City and the site of theancient Jewish temple. The new Israel remained, at least geographically,vulnerable. It was just 11 miles wide around Tel Aviv and even narrower,barely half that, near Mishmar Hasharon. Egyptian-held Gaza was seven milesfrom the southern Israeli city of Ashkelon and just 40 from the outskirts of TelAviv.Israel did secure control of the entire Galilee, up to the pre-war borders withLebanon and Syria, and of the Negev Desert in the south. The territory of ournew state was about a third larger than the area proposed under the UN partitionplan rejected by the Arabs. Yet the victory came at a heavy price: more than6,000 dead, one per cent of the Jewish population of Palestine at the time. It wasas if America had lost two million in the Vietnam War. One-third of the Israelidead were Holocaust survivors.The Arabs paid a heavy price too, and not just the roughly 7,000 people wholost their lives. Nearly 700,000 Palestinian Arabs had fled – or, in some cases,been forced to flee – towns and villages in what was now Israel. The full extentand circumstances of the Arabs’ flight became known to us at MishmarHasharon only later. But it did not take long to notice the change around us.Wadi Khawaret was physically still there, but all of the villagers were gone. Asfar as I could discover, none had been killed. They left with a first wave ofrefugees in April 1948, and eventually ended up near Tulkarem on the WestBank. After the war, the Israeli government divided up their farmland amongnearby kibbutzim including Mishmar Hasharon.The absence of our former neighbors in Wadi Khawaret seemed to me at thetime simply a part of the war. From the moment the violence started, Iunderstood there would be suffering on both sides. When we sent our carepackages to Giora Ros in Jerusalem, I remember trying to imagine what “living30under siege” would feel like, and what would happen to Giora if it succeeded.Especially after the murder and the mutilation of The 35, I assumed the warwould come down to a simple calculus. If there was going to be an Israel – ifthere was going to be a Mishmar Hasharon – we had to win and the Arabs hadto lose. At first, even the fact our kibbutz had been given a share of the land ofWadi Khawaret seemed just another product of the war. After all, Ben-Gurionhad accepted the plan for two states. The Arabs had said no, deciding to attackus instead. Someone had to farm the land. Why not us?* * *Yet events after the war did lead me to begin to ask myself questions ofbasic fairness, and whether we were being faithful to some of the high-soundingideals I heard spoken about with such pride on the kibbutz. The Palestinianswere not the only refugees. More than 600,000 Jews fled into Israel from Arabcountries where they had lived for generations. More than 100,000 arrived fromIraq, and several hundred thousand from Morocco, Tunisia and Algeria in northAfrica. Immediately after the war, about 50,000 were airlifted out of Yemen,where they had endured violent attacks ever since the UN partition vote.The reality that greeted the Yemenis in Israel was more complex. Most wereinitially settled in tented transit camps. I’m not sure how several dozen Yemenifamilies made their way to Wadi Khawaret, but it made sense for them to moveinto the village’s vacant homes. It was empty except for several desertedbuildings which we and other kibbutzim began using for storage and, later, forour transport co-operative. Yet a few nights after the Yemenis moved in, aposse of young men, including some from Mishmar Hasharon, descended onthem and, armed with clubs and wooden staves, drove them away.I was shocked. I’d seen the photos in Davar le Yeladim celebrating theairlift, with the Yemenis kissing the airport tarmac in relief, gratitude and joy atfinding refuge in the new Israeli state. Now, for the “crime” of moving into arow of empty buildings in search of a decent place to live, they’d been beatenup and chased away. By us. I realized Wadi Khawaret no longer belonged to theArabs. But, surely, our kibbutz had no more right to the buildings than Jewswho had fled from Yemen and needed them a lot more than we did. For days, Itried to discover who had joined the vigilante attack. Though everyone seemedto know what had happened, no one talked about it. In the dining hall, I ran my31eyes over all the boys in their late teens and early 20s. I was sure that aftersomething like this there had to be some sign of who had done it. But theylooked the same as before, eating and talking as if nothing had happened.The Yemenis also needed jobs. This led to a challenge for MishmarHasharon. The core of the kibbutz ethos was that we would live from our ownlabor. Yet Ben-Gurion insisted we and other kibbutzim provide work for theYemenis and other new arrivals from the Arab states. We began hiring Yemeniworkers when I was about ten, the age when we kids started working for anhour or so each day in the fields. We worked alongside several dozen Yemeniwomen who lived a few miles north in a maabarah, a transit settlement whichlater evolved into a village called Elyakhin. Each morning, the Yemenis arrivedin a bus, and they left at the end of their day’s work.I don’t know whether I expected to feel a Gordonian sense of joy at theredemptive value of physical labor when I began working in the fields. Our firstassignment was to plant long rows of flower bulbs – gladioli – spaced atintervals of four inches or so. But as I joined the other children and the Yemeniwomen, what I felt was more mundane. Heat. Fatigue. Boredom. To make thetime pass, I thought of it as a competition. Each of us began together, plantingthe bulbs in furrows stretching to the end of the field. The point was obviouslyto do it right. But I found it interesting to see who finished first, and how muchlonger it took the rest of us.The same worker always led the way. She was a Yemeni in her early thirties.Her name was Baddura. Short and stocky, with dark curly hair, she was nearlyalways smiling, whether we were planting bulbs, sowing seeds or pickingoranges and grapefruit and lemons, potatoes or peppers and tomatoes. When Iremarked to her how much better and faster she was than the rest of us, shelaughed. Still years away from growing into my adult body, I looked more like aeight- or a nine-year-old. She took me under her wing. The next day, we werepicking tomatoes. “Do the row next to mine,” she said. Watching the almostballetic grace with which she moved made it easier. I decided it was likemastering a new piece on the piano. The secret was to achieve a kind ofunthinking fluidity, by focusing on the passage one or two ahead of the one youwere playing. Physically, Baddura was far stronger than me. Before long,however, I was finishing my sowing or reaping a good ten yards ahead of theother kids, and not too far behind her.Though the Yemenis worked in our fields, they were not members of thekibbutz. They were paid a day-rate. Though they were by far the most32productive workers, they got no share of what we produced or possessed. A fewyears later, I raised this at one of the separate aseifa meetings held by youngpeople on the kibbutz, only to be told we’d never wanted to employ outsiders inthe first place. It was only because of Ben-Gurion that we felt unable to refuse.I’m sure that was true, but it seemed to me an incomplete answer, and anevasion. It struck me as an exercise in finding a verbal rationale for a situationthat was obviously unjust.It was an accidental glance up from picking carrots which focused in mymind the sense of unfairness I felt. We were working on a tract of about sevenacres of rich, dark soil where we grew carrots, tomatoes and potatoes andeggplants. I think I was 11 or 12. We had assembled in the early afternoon nearthe kibbutz garage. We piled on to a flatbed trailer, a dozen kids and a dozenYemeni women. We were towed by a tractor driven by a man named Yankele.He was in his mid-40s. Like my father, he was one of the original group atMishmar Hasharon. Before the Yemenis came, he had worked planting andharvesting. Now, he was responsible for “managing” the Yemenis, and us kidsas well, during our fieldwork. He paced among us every half-hour or so to makesure the work was going smoothly. Though the area was ankle-deep in mudduring in the winter, it was hot and dusty in the summer. I’d been working foran hour or so, crouching alongside Baddura, when I looked up. On the edge ofthe field, under the shade of a clump of banana trees, I saw Yankele. He had aset of keys on a metal chain. He was twirling them around his finger, first oneway, then the other, as his eyes tracked us and our Yemeni co-workers. Like akibbutznik-turned-plantation-owner.* * *As a February baby, I was the youngest in our age group. In the tiny world ofthe kibbutz, there were not enough children to organize separate school classesfor each year. When I started school, I was five-and-a-half. Most of the otherswere six. A few had already turned seven. Maybe it was this age pressure, ormaybe something inside me, but from the outset, I had a thirst for knowledge. Iwas aware early on that some of the schoolwork came easily, almostautomatically to me: numbers and math and reasoning most of all. I also beganreading books, even if I could not fully understand them. By the time I waseight or nine, I was burying myself in volumes of the children’s encyclopedia at33the kibbutz library, trying to untangle the mysteries of airplanes andautomobiles, or the creation of worldly wonders, from the Hanging Gardens ofBabylon to the Empire State Building and the Golden Gate Bridge.At first, I got many of the answers from my father. On Saturdays, we wouldwalk around the kibbutz as I plied him with questions. In many ways, he alwayslacked self-confidence. I remember decades later, after he had passed away,asking my mother how come they had spent their entire lives on the kibbutz andnever moved away. She replied: “What would your father have done outside?”But he had a quick mind and, despite having left Hebrew University early, hadsecured enough credits to get his degree – one of a handful of men on thekibbutz to have done so. He delighted in acquiring, and sharing, knowedge.How come the moon wasn’t always round, I remember asking him in one ofour first educational strolls. How did anyone know that the sabertooth tigers I’dseen in the encyclopedia actually existed? And where were they now? Therewas not a single question he did not try to help me answer. When I was nine orten, he took me to see the first water pump on the kibbutz. I watched as hedisassembled the casing, then the power unit, which had a big screw-likeelement in the middle. I wanted to know how it worked, how it was designed.How it was made. A few months later, he took me to the factory near Tel Avivwhere the pumps were manufactured.I was an introverted child, not so much shy as self-contained, contemplative,at times dreamy. Our metapelet from when I was three until age eight wasnamed Bina. She was the mother of twins a year younger than me. She wasmore handsome than beautiful, with wavy dark hair. But she was full ofwarmth. She was especially kind to me, which was no doubt one reason I feltthe effects of my collective upbringing less dramatically than some otherkibbutz children. When we were both much older, she used tell a story about myslightly ethereal approach to life when I was in her charge. One winterafternoon when I was four, she took our group on to the gentle rise on thenorthern edge of the kibbutz, which at that time of year was full of wildflowers.When she got there, she realized I had gone missing. Retracing her steps, shefound me standing in front of a rock in the middle of the dirt path. “Ehud,” shesaid, “why didn’t you come with us?” I apparently replied: “I’m thinking: whichside of the rock should I go around?”Still, important though Bina was as a presence in my life, it was theinfluence of another figure – another youngster – who mattered more and forlonger. His name was Yigal Garber. In first grade, every child got a mentor.34Yigal was mine. Solidly built and self-confident, with a knowing smile, hewould go on to become one of the most respected members of the kibbutz.Though I was the only child he mentored, he was also in charge of our class’sextracurricular educational program. It began when I was ten, and Yigal wassixteen. It was a mix of ideological training – the kibbutz equivalent of what mymother had done with her Gordonia friends in Poland – and a scouting course.One evening a week, he would spend several hours with us. He began byreading us a story or a poem. One which I remember with particular clarityinvolved a slave who had a nail driven into his ear in hopes of remaining in hismaster’s service forever. He had become enslaved not only in body, but inmind. Another night, Yigal read us an account of a Palmach unit stranded on ahill they had taken, with anti-personnel mines all around them. The readingswere gripping and they were always an entry-point for a discussion: how did weunderstand the story? What would we do if faced with a similar choice?When that part was over, he walked us into the fields outside the kibbutz.The only sound we heard was the occasional screech of a jackal. Sometimes, hewould split us into twos and have each pair set off from a far edge of the fieldand find our way back. Yigal stationed himself at the center. We would have tosneak up and see which of us could get closest without his seeing or hearing usapproach. In his last year with us before leaving for his army service, he gaveeach of us a narrow wooden stick and began drilling us in the teenageintroduction to martial arts. But I was less interested in that part of the trainingthan the scouting exercises. Not only was I the youngest in our group, and thesmallest, except for a couple of the girls. Notwithstanding my accidentalprowess on the soccer field, I lacked the strength and coordination to hold myown in most physical contests at the time.* * *Yet then, shortly after I turned thirteen, I overheard a conversation between acouple of older kids in the dining hall. They said there was this guy in GanShmuel, a kibbutz to the north of us, who had an “amazing” ability. Using astrip of steel shaped to work like a key, he could open locks – even chunky Yalepadlocks, the gold standard in those days – in less than a minute.35I was intrigued by the mechanical puzzle and managed to locate two slightlyrusted locks. One was a Yale, the other an Israeli-made lookalike called aNabob. One evening after dinner, I searched the ground around the kibbutzgarage for shards of metal that looked like they might fit into the key slot, andspent the next half-hour or so propped against a tree, trying and failing to coaxeither lock to open. I realized I would need to discover how the locks worked.But how to get inside to see?Saturday afternoons in Mishmar Hasharon were a quiet time, like the oldJewish neighborhoods and shtetls back in Europe but minus the religioustrappings. The next day, I waited until mid-afternoon and walked past thebakery towards the garage. Its roll-down, corrugated door was locked. So wasthe structure next to it, where the blacksmith and metalwork shop were. Butattached to the blacksmith’s was a hut where our scrap metal was dumped. Idoubted it would be locked, and it wasn’t. Pausing to let my eyes get used to thedark, I made my way into the metalwork area. I crossed to the cabinet where thetools were kept. I took out a steel jigsaw used for cutting through metal and,hiding it under my shirt, made my way out again.Fortunately, the saw was up to the task of cutting into the softer alloy thatmade up the body of the locks. Once I’d cut inside them, I saw they shared thesame basic construction. There was a series of springs and shafts which, inresponse to the indentations of a key, aligned in such a way to allow the lock toopen. I sneaked back into the metalwork shop five or six times. By trial anderror, I managed to shape one of jigsaw blades into a pick tool that seemed likeit should do the job. For days, I manipulated it into each of the padlocks. I knewI had the principle right, but I still couldn’t get it to work. Blisters formed on mythumb and fingers. Then, finally, the Yale sprung open! With each successivetry I got better at knowing how to put the blade in, when and where to rotate itand how much pressure to apply. After fashioning a half-dozen other tools, eachslightly different in width and shape, I reached a point where I could get themechanism to work on my first try. Other locks – doors, trunks, closets – wereeven easier after I made picks for them as well.I couldn’t resist sharing my newly acquired skill with a couple of the boys inmy class, and word gradually spread. There was a handful of slightly older boyswho we referred to as the “rogues”. They weren’t delinquents. They were freespirits, bridling at the uniform expectations and rules of kibbutz life. Over thenext few years, as co-conspirators more than close friends, I found myselfdrawn to two of them. Ido and Moshe were 18 months older than me. Though36Ido was just a few inches over five feet, he was strong and athletic, a star evenon the basketball court. Moshe was taller, if a bit overweight. He was nowherenear as strong as Ido, but still stronger than me, and had a streetwise intelligenceand a sardonic sense of humor. Both had tested the patience of our teachers tobreaking point. Ido had been sent off to a vocational school in Netanya. Moshewas moved to Mikveh Israel, a school which focused mostly on agriculture. OnFriday evenings and Saturdays in the kibbutz, however, they filled their timewith a variety of minor misdeeds. My role – the cement in our buddingpartnership – was as designated lock-picker.Our first caper targeted the concrete security building near the dining hall. Itcontained the kibbutz’s store of weapons, with a metal door secured by apadlock. Late one Friday night, with Ido and Moshe as lookouts, I crouched infront of the lock and took out my tools. In less than a minute, I had it open. Wedarted into the storeroom. There were about 80 rifles, along with a few machineguns, on racks along the walls. Ido took a rifle from the furthest end of the rackand wrapped it in a blanket. Moshe pocketed a box of ammunition. As theothers hurried back to our dormitory, I closed the lock, making sure it was in thesame position I’d found it, and joined them. The next afternoon, we stole awaythrough the moshav of Kfar Hayim into a field on the far side. We test-fired therifle until sunset, when we returned to the kibbutz and replaced it in the armory.It felt like the perfect crime: foolproof, since no one was likely to noticeanything. Essentially harmless. And repeatable, as we confirmed by returningon Friday nights every month or two.This modest pre-adolescent rebellion never extended to doubting the nationalmission of Israel. Growing up on a kibbutz in a country younger even than wewere, we all felt a part of its brief history, and its future. That was especiallytrue after my kibbutz mentor, Yigal, left for his military service and joined oneof the Israeli army’s elite units.The 1948 war had been won. But it had not brought peace. Palestinianirregulars, fedayeen operating from Jordan and the Gaza Strip, mounted hit-andrunraids. In armed ambushes or by planting mines, they killed dozens of Israelicivilians and injured hundreds more. The country was in no mood for anotherwar. The newly created Israeli armed forces – known as Tzahal, a Hebrewacronym for the Israeli Defense Force – also seemed to have lost the cuttingedge, or perhaps the desperate motivation, of the pre-state militias. At first, Ben-Gurion relied on young recruits in the new army’s infantry brigades to counterthe fedayeen attacks. Nearly 90 reprisal operations were launched in 1952 and37early 1953. Nearly all ended with the soldiers failing to reach their target ortaking casualties. Sometimes both.By mid-1953, the army decided to set up Israel’s first dedicated commandoforce. It was called Unit 101. It was led by a 25-year-old named Ariel Sharon,who had been a platoon commander in 1948. With Ben-Gurion and especiallyhis army chief-of-staff, Moshe Dayan, determined to hit back hard at thefedayeen attacks, Sharon took a few dozen hand-picked soldiers and beganmounting a different kind of retaliatory attacks. The largest, in October 1953,was in response to the murder of a woman and her two children in their home incentral Israel. It was against the West Bank village of Qibya. Sharon and hiscommandos surrounded and attacked the village, destroying homes and otherbuildings – and killing at least 40 villagers sheltering inside them. Israelimmediately came under international condemnation, accused of allowing itstroops to unleash a massacre. Unit 101 was disbanded. It lasted just half a year.But that was not because of Qibya. While realizing the importance of avoidingcivilian casualties, Dayan remained convinced that only units like 101 offeredany realistic hope of taking the fight to the fedayeen. He made Unit 101 the coreof a larger commando force merged into Battalion 890 of the paratroopers’brigade, and he put Sharon in overall command.It was this force that Yigal Garber joined. He became part of its elitecommando team, Company A and took part in a series of attacks on the WestBank and in Gaza. While avoiding a repeat of Qibya, they inflicted heavycasualties on Jordanian and Egyptian army and police units, and also sufferedcasualties of their own. Battalion 890 was based just a couple of miles fromMishmar Hasharon and Yigal returned to the kibbutz every few weeks. Henever talked about the commando operations. But every time there was a reportof Israelis killed in a fedayeen attack, I knew there would be a retaliation raid,with my Yigal almost certainly involved and, I hoped, returning unscathed.He did. And in 1956, two years into his military service, he was part ofIsrael’s second full-scale war. For a while, the reprisal attacks seemed to beworking. The fedayeen attacks decreased. But that didn’t last, especially in thesouth along the border with Gaza. Egypt’s pro-Western monarchy had beentoppled in a coup organized by a group of army officers led by a stridently pan-Arabist – and anti-Israeli – lieutenant colonel named Gamal Abdel Nasser.Egypt began providing not just tacit support for the fedayeen in Gaza, butarming and training them and helping organize cross-border attacks. Then, in38the summer of 1956, Nasser nationalized the Suez Canal, which had beenowned by the British and French.Ben-Gurion was emboldened to go war by the fact that both Britain andFrance wanted to retake the canal. Under an agreement reached beforehand,Israel was to begin the hostilities, after which the British and French wouldenter under the guise of separating Israeli and Egyptian forces. Ben-Gurion’shope was to end the threat of fedayeen strikes, at least in the south, by takingcontrol both of Gaza and the enormous natural buffer afforded by the SinaiDesert. Militarily, it went to plan. On October 29, 1956, Yigal and otherparatroopers from Battalion 890 were dropped deep into the Sinai. They landednear the entrance to the Mitla Pass, a sinuous route between two lines of craggyhills 25 miles from the canal. British and French air strikes began three dayslater. Nasser pulled most of his forces back across the canal. By earlyNovember, Israel was in control of Gaza and the whole of the Sinai.Politically, however, Ben-Gurion and his European partners hadcatastrophically miscalculated. Britain and France were fading imperial powers.The balance of power after the Second World War rested with America and theSoviet Union. Both were furious over the obviously pre-arranged seizure ofSinai, Gaza and the canal. It took a while for the message to sink in. In a speechto the Knesset after the conquest was complete, Ben-Gurion declared the post-1948 armistice null and void, and said Israel would never again allow “foreignforces” to control the territory it had captured.A few days later, however, he had no choice but to deliver a differentmessage in a radio address to the country. He had at least managed to secure aconcession with the help of the Americans. The Sinai and Gaza would be placedunder supervision of a UN force. He also got a US assurance of Israel’s right ofpassage through the Straits of Tiran to the Red Sea, and an agreement that if theEgyptians blocked Israeli shipping we would have the right to respond. But heannounced that we would be leaving every inch of territory taken in the war. Byearly 1957, we did so. The one lasting gain came in Gaza. On their way out,Israeli troops destroyed the fedayeen’s military installations, and cross-borderattacks from the south ceased.Unlike in 1948, the Sinai War touched me directly. I never felt Israel’sexistence was in danger. The fighting was brief and far away. But MishmarHasharon had a small role in the war plan. Ben-Gurion and Dayan wereconcerned that the co-ordinated attack might lead to a wider war, with thepossibility that Egyptian warplanes might get involved as they had in 1948.39Among the precautions they took was to base several hundred reservists fromthe Alexandroni Brigade in a defensive position near the Mediterranean: theeucalyptus grove at the top end of our kibbutz, where the cover was so densethey were all but invisible from the air.We kids seized on the chance to talk to the reservists. I can’t rememberwhether it was Ido or Moshe who noticed an area at the back of theirencampment, on the other side of the kibbutz cemetery, where neatly stackedboxes of munitions were being kept. But we spent the next several afternoonson reconnaissance. A soldier was always on guard. But there were times thearea was unwatched, either when one guard handed over to the next, or on theircigarette breaks.We struck the following Friday. Nowadays, the cemetery consists of a halfdozenrows of headstones. Walking through it, as I still do at least once eachyear, is like revisiting my past. Almost all the grown-ups I remember from mychildhood now rest there, including my parents. My father died in 2002, at theage of 92. My mother passed away only a few years ago, a few weeks after her100 th birthday. But in 1956, the cemetery was tiny. The chances of anyone beingthere at midnight on a Friday were close to zero. Crouching in the shadow of theheadstones, we could see the guard. We waited until he left for his break. Eachof us took a wooden box and one of the slightly larger metal boxes. Inside, wefound a treasure trove: thousands of bullets for all kinds of weapons. The metalcases held heavier firepower: grenades and mortars. We returned those. Wewere mischievous, but not crazy. Yet each of us now had a crate full ofammunition, even including belts for machine guns.* * *My experience at school began to change in my early teenage years as well.Shortly before my fourteen birthday, our age group was sent to a school outsideMishmar Hasharon. The kibbutz had decided that since there were only adozen-or-so children in each class, it wasn’t economically viable to provide aquality education. They sent us to the regional high school.It was several hundred yards down the road in the direction of Tel Aviv. Itwas far more rigorous. I was no longer the only kid in my class who liked toread or could do math problems in his head. It was there I first got truly40interested in science. When I came across concepts I couldn’t understand, ourteachers always seemed able to answer my questions or help me find theanswers myself. I liked the school enormously. I might well have gone on tofinish my secondary education there. I probably should have. But the next year,the kibbutz brought us back again.One of the considerations was financial. Like many kibbutzim, MishmarHasharon concluded that in order to make its school more economicallysustainable it would take in a number of “outside children” – yeldei chutz –from towns and settlements around Israel. Yet this latest policy change was alsotriggered a debate over the kind of education kibbutzim should provide. Shoulda kibbutz school offer a curriculum tailored to passing the bagrut, thematriculation exam, and going on to university? Or should it limit itself to afairly basic education geared to developing the talents needed for a productivelife on the kibbutz? In a series of heated debates in the dining hall, almost all ofMishmar Hasharon supported the model of a basic, kibbutz-oriented education.My father was the leading voice among the dissenters, and though it seemedobvious he was fighting an uphill battle, I remember feeling a sense of pride atwatching him – and an echo in my own impulse to reach my own judgmentabout issues and to act on it as I was growing older. Not only was he opposed tothe new policy. He was aghast. In the only time I can recall his speaking out atone of the weekly kibbutz meetings, he asked how Mishmar Hasharon couldtake upon itself the right to constrain an individual child’s life potential. “Weare Jews!” he said. “We are people who have left our impact on history throughour scholars, not our peasants. I can’t understand how we, who came here toopen a new chapter in the history of our people, can choose to keep our sonsand daughters from studying. We should encourage them to study!” Heaccepted that the interests of the kibbutz mattered. But what kind of “modelsociety” would we be creating if we chose to “doom our own children toignorance, and cut them off from the great forward momentum of history inIsrael and the whole world?”Especially in a kibbutz, however, the majority ruled. In this case, it wasnearly unanimous, my mother included. I could see she felt torn, whetherbecause she agreed with my father or because she realized how deeply he felt.But she accepted the decision. For her, that was what was meant by being partof the larger kibbutz family. Still, my father didn’t give up. He couldn’t changethe kibbutz’s ruling. But he tried to get me to stay at the regional high school. Acouple of years earlier, examiners had fanned out across Israel to administer its41first aptitude tests. I finished among the top two dozen results in the country.“How can you throw your gifts away? For what,” he asked me. “If you leavethat school, and give up on going to university, it will be like betrayingyourself.” At one point, he walked me out to the patch of hard-packed soilwhere we parked the tractors and farm machinery. “What do you want to dowith your life,” he asked. “Do you want to be a farmer?”I thought about it before answering. “I don’t know what will happen in thefuture,” I said. “But if you ask me now, I would say I want to drive one of thekibbutz trucks.”I could see the shock and disappointment in his eyes. But it was the truth. Idid imagine that at some point I might want to make a life outside the kibbutz.But I’d never lived anywhere else. If I was going to remain a part of it, I couldthink of no better way than to join our little corps of drivers. Though they livedon the kibbutz, they spent most of their time delivering or picking up goods inplaces like Tel Aviv, Holon or Ashkelon. As the US Marines might have put it,I guess I figured I’d join the truck-drivers and see the world.The deeper reason I said no to my father, as I am sure he suspected, was thatI felt a need to take control of my own life. That was simply a part of growingup, a process which probably happened more quickly for 1950s kibbutz childrenthan for town or city kids. We loved and respected our parents. But we wereliving with other teenagers. We weren’t just residents of the kibbutz. We werepart of the economic collective, working in the fields or orchards, the garageand the metal shop. This bred a sense of independence. I listened to my father’sarguments. But this was a decision about my future. I felt I had to make it formyself. I cared about my education. But I’d reached a stage where my lifeoutside the classroom, and my circle of friends, mattered more. I am sure thatthe same impulse drove me in my continuing freelance forays into lockpickingand petty larceny with Ido and Moshe.So I returned to the kibbutz school. The level of teaching was nowhere nearthe regional school’s. But we did begin studying new subjects like economicsand politics. There were two other welcome surprises as well. The first was thearrival of a new history teacher. Knowledgable, enthusiastic and eloquent, hehad a rare gift for igniting excitement in his students. We studied the FrenchRevolution. He brought it to life with insights into Montesquieu, Rousseau andJohn Locke, Louis XVI and Mary Antoinette, Robespierre and Napoleon. Hetraced the dynamics that led to the revolution, and the way its ideals descendedinto the bloodshed and terror that followed. He presented history as a human42process that raised as many questions as it answered, as something we couldlearn from.The second high-point was a couple named David and Leah Zimmerman.Though Mishmar Hasharon, like other kibbutzim, was secular, they introducedus to the Talmud, the ancient compendium of rabbinic discussion and debate onthe meaning of passages from the Bible. We focused on two tractates, BabaKama and Baba Metziah, in which the rabbis drew on verses from Exodus toargue out a system of rules for resolving civil disputes. It was the Talmud oftorts. The intricacy and the depth of the rabbinical debate fascinated me.* * *Yigal returned from the army a few months after the 1956 war, when, likeother teenagers, I was about to enter a pre-military program known as Gadna.There were several options kids could choose. One was linked to the air force,another to the navy. But most of us joined the reconnaissance and scoutinggroup, Gadna Sayerim. It involved studying topography and navigation, as wellas field exercises that were a lot like the ones Yigal had put us through a fewyears earlier. At year’s end, we took part in a national exercise. It was called, abit grandiosely, Miyam el Yam: from sea to sea. We had to find our way fromthe Mediterranean, near Haifa, across northern Israel to a lake which was a seaonly in name, the Sea of Galilee. It lasted three days. We were placed in teamsof four. We were each given a topographical map and a compass, withlandmarks marked along the way which we had to find and draw in a notebookto prove we’d been there.A couple of hours in, we faced our first challenge. We were making our wayalong a shepherds’ trail, with brush and bramble on either side, when the pathsplit in two. We had to decide which fork to take. The map didn’t help. Eachinch covered the equivalent of a mile-and-a-half. The key was to be able tomatch it with what we were seeing around us. To use points we could identifyfrom the map – Haifa and the sea in the receding distance, and a taller hill to ournortheast – and then figure out which path was more likely to take us in theright direction. I knew this mix of calculation and imagination was something Ienjoyed. But it was more than that. Each of us had had the same preparation forthe exercise. As my trek-mates turned to me for this first decision, and then on43each successive stage as we crossed the Galilee, I realized that it was alsosomething that I was naturally good at.Still, the closest thing to real military activity remained my excurions withIdo and Moshe. Our ammunition trunks were stowed under our beds. But thefinal piece of our arsenal fell into place in May 1958. For the tenth anniversaryof Israel, there was a national exhibition celebrating the achievements of thestate. I paid a first visit on my own. I was curious to see what was on show. Butas I walked through, I couldn’t help noticing the lack of security. Two dayslater, I returned with Ido and Moshe. There was a stand devoted to the Israelimilitary industry. We already had a supply of ammunition for an Uzisubmachine gun, courtesy of our raid on the Alexandroni Brigade. Now, whenthe guy in charge of the stand was chatting with other visitors, we came awaywith an Uzi.It was then the trouble began. Along with Ido, Moshe and the other olderboys, I now lived in a larger dormitory under the cursory gaze of an oldermetapelet. She was doing routine cleaning when she decided to dust around theboxes under our beds. She’d never given them much thought. But when shetried to move one of them, she was amazed by its weight. She got one her sonsin-lawto help. I think the box he pried open first was Moshe’s. But within a fewminutes he’d opened Ido’s and mine as well. Inside each were hundreds ofbullets and the machine-gun belts. Inside mine was our prized Uzi. It would notexactly have taken the KGB to work out the rest. The kibbutz leaders ordered aninquiry. Ido was summoned first, and attempted a brief show of defiance.“What’s the big deal,” he asked. “It’s just stuff we collected. Why should youcare?” But separately questioning Moshe, then Ido again, the inquisitors workedout every detail. The fact that the ammunition had come from the AlexandroniBrigade, the reservists sent to defend us, was bad enough. But the Uzi had beenstolen from the National Exhibition. That was even worse. It was left to the coreof young men in their late 20s and 30s to figure out how to punish us. Everyoneagreed we could not be reported to the police. That would risk a scandal for thekibbutz. They decided to beat some sense into the offenders, in front of all therest of the teenagers in the dormitory.I wasn’t there. One afternoon each week, I now boarded a bus into Tel Avivfor my piano lesson. But when I returned after sundown, I sensed immediatelysomething was wrong. Yigal was waiting at the bus stop outside the kibbutz. Hetold me that what I had done was terrible. Not just because it involved weapons,but because it was a breach of trust. Did you really steal ammunition from the44army, he asked, his voice rising. And from the National Exhibition? I didn’tbother denying it. I suppose I felt lucky they hadn’t found out about our raids onthe kibbutz armory. He did not administer my beating. That came a few weekslater from one of the kibbutz elders. He simply took me by the shoulders andshouted: “You must never do this again.”It was worse for my parents. At first, they believed I was an innocent party.They were convinced I couldn’t have got involved in something like thiswithout being dragged in by the others. My father even asked me whether thereason I’d been “drafted” by Ido and Moshe was because I was small, and ableto squeeze through tight spaces in windows and doors. As it happened, that didsometimes come in handy. But I told them, no, I was not an unlucky bystander.I was as much a part of it as the others. My father was angrier than I had everseen him. My mother, faced with what must have seemed like a betrayal ofevery one of her Zionist principles, told me that if the kibbutz had decided toreport us to the police, she would not have objected.Their mood lifted slightly when I began my final year of high school inSeptember 1958. After two years back in the kibbutz school, our age-group wassent out again in another shift in policy. This one was in response to signs ofgrowing support in Mishmar Hasharon and other kibbutzim for the argumentmy father had made against the quality of education we were offering. In orderto go at least some way toward meeting that objection, Mishmar Hasharon wasbanding together with two dozen other kibbutzim and sending all 12 th -graders toone of two outside high schools. The first, called Beit Berl, was a Labor Zionistinstitution focusing on the humanities. In addition to a few of the less academicboys, most of the girls were sent there. The rest of us went to a place calledRupin. It was a few hundred yards past the regional high school. It specializedin agriculturally related scientific research.A few of the teachers were enormously gifted, and they were in the areasthat most interested me: math, physics and biology. Yet the rest of thecurriculum was almost numbingly uninspiring. I did not miss a single math orscience class. But otherwise, I began setting my own schedule. Some days, Iwould sleep late, or not go at all. When I did go, I’d often show up withouthaving done the homework. Neither Ido nor Moshe was with me at Rupin. Theywere starting their military service. But I assembled a new band of mischiefmakers,and it was not hard to entice them to go AWOL.I was warned several times by the school administrator. He said he could notaccommodate a student who seemed oblivious to, or dismissive of, the rules. He45was especially upset because my attitude seemed to be infecting others. A fewmonths into the school year, he told the leaders of Mishmar Hasharon, and thenmy parents, that I would have to leave. My father was especially upset. Acouple of years earlier, he’d had visions of my staying on in the regional highschool and going to university. Now, I’d been unable to hold my own in Rupin.Still, both he and my mother were relieved when Mishmar Hasharon and theschool worked out a compromise which did not end my studies altogether. Theexpulsion stood, but I was allowed to continue attending math and scienceclasses.For my mother, the blow was softened by the fact I began working almostfull-time on the kibbutz, alongside Yigal, driving a tractor. I woke up early andaccompanied him into the fields of wheat, barley or rye. We also made a seriesof trips 130 miles south into the Negev to a moshav called Patish. It had beenset up by newly arrived Moroccan Jews. Since they didn’t have the equipmentor know-how to cultivate all their fields, they were renting out some of the land.Mishmar Hasharon had contracted to farm a parcel of 450 acres.For ten days at a time, Yigal and I would place a tractor on the back of apickup and head to Patish. We worked from four in the morning until sundown.After work, we ate at a tiny family-run restaurant a few miles away in Ofakim, aso-called “development town” populated by Moroccan Jews who had beenmoved there as soon as they arrived in Israel. Far from regretting not being inschool, I drew satisfaction, and pride, from knowing that I was functioning as anindependent adult. But it also gave me time to think. My whole life had beencircumscribed by the struggle to create and secure the state. But I again foundmyself pondering issues of basic fairness in our young country, and thechallenge of reconciling our words and principles with our deeds amid thedifficult realities of building the state.Back on the kibbutz, it was the example of the kindly and hard-workingBaddura which had caused me to question how we were treating the Jews whohad arrived from Yemen. In the Negev, I met members of the even larger postwarinflux from Morocco. One image struck me above all. It was from the placeYigal and I ate dinner. Ofakim was a development town that had yet to develop.It had no visible means of support, and there was no sign the government wasdoing much to remedy that or integrate the new immigrants economically andsocially. The “restaurant” was a side business a family had set up in the diningroom of their tiny home. The sixth or seventh time we went there, I was startledby sudden movement a couple of feet away from where we were sitting.46Looking more closely, I saw a wooden box, the kind we used in MishmarHasharon to crate oranges. It was filled with hay. At first, I thought the stirringinside was a family pet. Then, I saw it was a baby. I said nothing until we hadleft. “Was that really a child?” I asked Yigal. “A baby?” He replied, with a tingeof sadness but also a look that seemed to convey surprise at my naivety: “Yes.They don’t have room for him.”* * *My evolving feelings about the Arabs, the other people with dreams of whatthey still saw as Palestine, would become more complex as my childhood drewto an end. As mentioned, I barely registered the fate of the absent villagers ofWadi Khawaret.And yet as I got older – in my teens – I came to understand why thePalestinians were fighting us. Before the 1956 war, Dayan gave a brief speechthat had a powerful impact on me. It was a eulogy, but it was for someoneDayan didn’t know personally. His intended audience was the rest of thecountry. He spoke in Nahal Oz, a kibbutz on the border with Gaza oftentargeted by fedayeen. In April 1956, a group of Arabs crossed from Gaza andbegan cutting down the wheat in Nahal Oz’s fields. The kibbutz security officer,a 21-year-old named Roi Rotberg, rode out on horseback to chase them away.The intruders opened fire as soon as he got close. They beat him, shot him deadand took the body back over the armistice line. The corpse was returned,mutilated, after an Israeli protest through the UN.With Israeli newspapers full of agonized accounts of what had happened,Dayan’s message was that we should not blame the Arabs for Roi Rotberg’sdeath. We should look at ourselves, and the neighborhood in which we lived.“Why should we talk about their burning hatred for us?” he asked. “For eightyears, they have been sitting in the refugee camps of Gaza, while before theireyes we have been transforming the lands and the villages where they and theirfathers dwelt.” Of course, they hated us and the state we were building. Rotberghad allowed his “yearning for peace to deafen his ears, and he did not hear thevoice of murder waiting in ambush.” Dayan said the danger was that otherIsraelis had become similarly naive. “How did we shut our eyes, and refuse tosee, in all its brutality, the destiny of our generation?” A generation which was47settling the land but which, “without the steel helmet and the barrel of the gun,will not succeed in planting a tree or building a home.”Still, if I was part of a generation that understood the need for militarypreparedness, strength and a readiness to fight if we were to survive in theMiddle East, the 1956 war also brought home to me the need to consider howwe fought. This meant grappling with a contradiction wired into Zionism fromthe start: the need to take up arms to defend our state, while recognizing theJewish moral code that was its foundation. When the Israeli armed forces wereestablished in 1948, Tzahal’s doctrine included the principle of tohar haneshek– “purity of arms” – and an explicit requirement for our soldiers to use theminimum necessary force and do all they could to avoid civilian casualties.Putting “purity of arms” into practice was always going to be hard. All armskill. In all wars, civilians die. But that did not make the principle, or the need tobe aware of it in combat, any less important.Even if the soldier called on the make that judgment was someone who hadmentored me from the time I was six, and whose military prowess I had come torespect. Even if it was Yigal Garber. His parachute jump on the first day of the1956 war went smoothly. But the battle for control of the Mitla Pass turned outto be the most deadly of the war. It was also unnecessary. Under Israel’s prewarchoreography with the British and French, the very fact of our landing nearthe Mitla Pass was to be the trigger for an Anglo-French attack. In fact, ArikSharon, the commander of Battalion 890, received orders from Tel Aviv not totake the pass. Only grudgingly, did they let him send in a reconnaissance forceto establish whether it was safe to cross.The reconnaissance company walked into a trap. Machine-gun and mortarfire rained down from Egyptian troops dug into the caves and other naturaldefensive positions above the pass. It took hours to extricate the stranded men.Yigal’s unit fought its way in from the eastern side of the pass. A small groupfrom the reconnaissance force managed to get a foothold on the western side.Almost 250 Egyptians were killed. But 38 Israeli paratroopers also died, thelargest single toll in any battle since 1948. Battered and bitter, the survivingmen from the reconnaissance force parachuted into the southernmost part of theSinai, near Et-Tur on the Red Sea. Yigal and the others headed overground tojoin up with them. By the time they got there, Egyptian resistance had all butended. Yigal’s company had a brief exchange of fire with several dozen holdoutsin the Egyptian force. The Egyptians surrendered. And then, apparently,Yigal and his fellow paratroopers shot all of them dead.48At least those were the rumors after the war. I asked friends what they werehearing. I asked some of the older men on the kibbutz, my father included. Allof them responded with a slightly different version of events. But I knew what Iwasn’t hearing. No one of them told me it was a lie. When I asked Yigal, heaverted my glance, and then changed the subject. I knew it was true, at leastbroadly.I realized that, before it happened, Yigal and the others had seen dozens offriends gunned down in an Egyptian ambush in the Mitla Pass. But I didn’t needa lesson tohar haneshek to know that the killing of captured Egyptian soldiersshould not have happened. Or that it was plainly, simply wrong.When Yigal and I made our final trip to Patish in 1959, I knew it would bepointless to ask him about it. Whatever he said wouldn’t change anything. I stillrespected his courage and his fighting spirit, and the part he’d played indefending Israel. I appreciated what he’d done for me as I grew up. But whatmattered now wasn’t what Yigal had done. It was what I would do, and how Iwould live my life.Especially since I, too, was about to begin my army service.49Chapter ThreeI reported for induction on the second Sunday of November 1959, threemonths short of my eighteenth birthday. Military service was a near-universalrite of passage for Israeli teenagers. For children of the kibbutz, it held evengreater significance. Now that we had a country, the kibbutzniks’ role as theavant-garde in taming and farming the land had ceased to be relevant. But thesense of mission we’d been raised with – what we were led to believe set usapart from the mere “city-dwellers” – drove us to aspire, maybe even assume,we would leave an imprint in other spheres of the new state’s life. I doubt it’s anaccident that nearly every one of the boys with whom I grew up in MishmarHasharon went on to become an officer during his time in the military.Judging from my own first few weeks in uniform, however, there was everyreason to believe I would end up as an unfortunate, undistinguished exception.This was not due to lack of ambition. In fact, I thought at first of joining theair force. But a question on the application form asked whether I ever sufferedfrom any breathing discomfort. Like almost everyone on the kibbutz, I did get abit clogged up when the weather turned cold and damp. So I naively answeredyes, ending any chance of training as a pilot. My fallback choice was a tankunit. But when I joined the hundreds of other draftees at the processing centernear Tel Aviv, about a hundred of us were shunted, by alphabetical lottery, intotraining for armored personnel carriers instead. Known as battle taxis, the APCswhich Israel had at the time were lumbering, World War Two-vintagehalftracks.Our training battalion was based, alongside the country’s main armoredbrigade, in a huge, hillside army camp outside Beersheva in the Negev. I knewthat our tironut – basic training – would be tough. That was the whole point.But we endured a seemingly endless array of inspections, under the watchfuleye of a corporal who meted out punishments for the tiniest scuff on a boot, abelt, or a rifle. The rest of the time was spent in physical training, which I foundespecially hard, at least at the beginning. I still weighed barely 130 pounds, andby no means all, or even most, of it was muscle. My military career, such as itwas, looked very likely to involve spending my required couple of years bakinginside an APC in the Negev before moving on to something more useful, andcertainly more fulfilling, with the rest of my life.50But a series of accidents, in Israel’s life and in mine, would soon point me ina dramatically different direction. The first became known as the Rotem Crisis,and it delivered a jolting reminder of Israel’s vulnerability to a surprise attackfrom neighboring Arab states. Militarily, we were far stronger than in 1948. Butwe were still a young country, at an early stage in our economic development.Our defense strategy rested on a recognition we could not afford to sustain alarge standing army, relying instead on a pool of trained reservists. The problemwas that a full call-up of the reserves would require something like 48 hours.That meant some form of early warning was critical.Rotem erupted in February 1960, about halfway through my tironut, andbegan almost farcically. The Chief of Military Intelligence, Chaim Herzog, wasat a diplomatic receiption in Tel Aviv when he began chatting with a guest heknew well: the head of the local CIA station. What, the American asked, did hemake of the fact that Egypt had moved its two main armored divisions into theSinai, toward the border with Israel? Herzog came up with a suitably woollyreply, about how it was obviously a situation which bore watching. But the truthwas that neither he nor anyone else in Israel had any idea about the Egyptianmobilization. He left the party as soon as he could, to tell Dayan and Ben-Gurion. When a reconnaissance flight the next day confirmed that dozens ofbattle-ready tanks had been rolled forward toward the Suez Canal, Ben-Gurionand the generals scrambled for a response.They did not want a war. Ben-Gurion was particularly worried that inresponding to Nasser’s buildup, he might inadvertently escalate things further.He vetoed the idea of a full mobilization. But he did order a more limited callup,of about 7,000 reservists. He placed the air force on alert. He directed thefour brigades responsible for the defense of southern Israel, including ourarmored brigade near Beersheva, to move within a few miles of the border –and gave us the additional role of sending several overnight munitions convoysto equip the hastily assembled border force.The first sign I saw that anything extraordinary was going on was the suddenmovement of tanks and APCs inside our camp. At first, no one told us rawrecruits anything. We were left to look on, and stay out of the way. But with ouroperational units preparing to move forward, the problem was that there seemedno one else with the expertise, experience and local knowledge to lead thesupply columns. So our training battalion was summoned before the platooncommander. “Any volunteers,” he asked. When none of us raised a hand, hesaid: “Come on. One of you must have grown up around here. That means the51first 25 miles will be familiar territory.” He left unspoken the obviouspostscript: the need to negotiate the final five to ten miles, through open desert,and to find the right area, on our side of a border that wasn’t even marked.“Can’t any of you,” he barked, “lead a convoy of a few dozen trucks?”I’m not sure what possessed me. But I thought to myself: yes, I probablycan. I had been scouting and navigating in one way or another since those firstevenings with Yigal in the kibbutz orchards. I’d trained with Gadna Sayerim.And while I’d never lived in the south, the farm settlement of Patish, where I’dworked along with Yigal after getting kicked out of high school, was not farfrom the route the conveys would have to take.So I raised my hand.“Can you lead a convoy?” he asked.“Yes, sir,” I said. “Of course, I’ll need a map. And a compass.”“Why do you think you’re qualified?” he prodded. I’d been in GadnaSayerim, I said. I was good with maps. “Okay,” he replied, and he sent me,along with two of the company’s junior officers, to the battalion commander.Someone must have phoned ahead, because he was clearly expecting us.Still, I could see the surprise in his eyes when he looked at me: only justeighteen, but looking closer to 15, my uniform sagging on my slender frame. Hegazedat the officers, then back at me, then at the officers again, as if trying tofigure out whether he was about to approve something utterly crazy. But he hadlittle choice. Three convoys had to be dispatched within the next couple ofhours. So far, with me, he had a sum total of one guy to lead them. “Fine,” hesaid, and waved us out.The column consisted of eight huge, American-made six-wheelers, eachpacked with ten tons of munitions and other supplies. I was in the lead truck.The driver was a reservist in his mid-30s. So were most of the men in the rest ofthe transport trucks, one driver and one soldier in each. A staff sergeant, in thesecond vehicle, was in theoretical command. But, surreal though it felt, I wasactually in charge, since I was the only person who might, conceivably, get usto the right place.The platoon commander was right. The first part, on paved roads, was fairlyeasy. But just before sunset, we reached open desert, the beginning of more thanthree hours of picking and weaving, calibrating and recalibrating, our wayacross a wide expanse on sand and occasional scrub bushes that, every mile or52so, would suddenly give way to a windswept series of dunes and wadis. Themap and compass helped. But I soon realized that it was almost impossible toget an accurate reading from inside the truck. Every few minutes, I waved theconvoy to stop, got out, and walked fifty or sixty yards into the sand and clumpsof acacia trees and calibrated our progress from there. My fallback was thestars. From them, I could at least make sure we were headed in broadly the rightdirection. But the need to navigate around the dunes meant we were nevermoving in a perfectly straight line. The miles ticking by on the truck’s odometercouldn’t tell me exactly how far we’d travelled. A couple of times, I realized wewere wandering off line – not by a much, but enough to risk leaving us either amile or two south of where we were supposed to go or, worse, on the Egyptianside of an unmarked desert frontier that, especially at night, would look prettymuch the same on either side.Finally, a few hours before dawn, I brought the convoy to a halt. I climbedout, walked back to the staff sergeant and told him, with more confidence than Ifelt: “We’re here.” I had no way of knowing for sure. But I felt we weregenerally in the right place. Before we’d set off, I was briefed by the officer incharge of one of the operational APC battalions. He had been to the area before,on training exercises. Because of the emergency call-up, he was too senior tolead a supply convoy. But he told me that once we got there, we should stop andwait. He would follow our tracks the next morning and link up with us. An hourafter sunrise, we saw his jeep bobbing over the sand towards us. He pulled to astop, shook hands with the staff sergeant, and then he turned to me.“Unbelievable,” he said. “We’re where we need to be.”Our role in the grand scheme of things, and certainly mine, was hardlydecisive. But the rest of the border mobilization also went to plan. That, alongwith some frantic diplomatic activity and a healthy common sense on all sides,ensured that a new war with Egypt was averted – at least for a further halfdozenyears, until 1967. By then, the lesson of Rotem would be learned: ourneed to find a realiable way to tap into the battle plans of the hostile Arab statesaround us. And through another wholly unexpected turn of events starting just afew weeks after the Rotem Crisis, I would turn out to play a personal role inmaking that happen.* * *53Under army regulations, training recruits got a five-day leave every fewmonths during tironut. My first one came a bit later than usual, due to Rotem.But in April 1960, shortly before the Passover holiday, I headed back toMishmar Hasharon. Despite my minor triumph of desert navigation, I still hadevery reason to believe I’d be spending the next couple of years in an APC unitin the Negev, and can’t pretend I was looking forward to it. Still, the idea ofreturning home in my army uniform, at least a bit stronger and bulkier thanbefore, did give me a sense of pride.It was on my third day back, when I was in the dining hall with a half-dozenschoolmates-turned-soldiers, that Avraham Ramon sat down and joined us. Hewas a yeled chutz, one of the “boys from outside” who had joined our classwhen we were taken out of the regional high school. He, too, was now in thearmy. As we were finishing lunch, he asked me: “How’s tironut?”“Tough,” I said. “Boring.”Smiling, he said: “How would you feel about joining a sayeret?”The question took me by surprise. In Hebrew, sayeret meant “reconnaissanceunit”. It was the name given to special units that carried out missions behindenemy lines, or under particularly exacting conditions. In the early 1960s, therewere only two of note. One was Sayeret Golani, attached to the Golani Brigadenear the northern border. The truly elite one was Sayeret Tzanhanim, theparatroopers’ sayeret. It had been built from Company A of Battalion 890,where Yigal had served in the 1950s.“Which sayeret?” I asked.“It’s called Sayeret Matkal,” he replied.I’d never heard of it. When I asked what it did, he said: “I’m not allowed tosay. But are you interested?” The air of mystery made it seem only moreenticing. And no matter what it did, it had to be a step up from what lay aheadof me in the Negev. “Yeah. Sure,” I replied.I heard nothing further in the days after I got back to Beersheva. But at theend of the month, I was ordered to report to a small hut in an army base near TelAviv. It belonged to Maka Esser, the personnel department of militaryintelligence. I was greeted by two men in their late 20s. One of them, shortereven than me, introduced himself as Sami Nachmias. The other was tall andslim and said in a surprisingly quiet voice: “I’m Shmil Ben-Zvi.” They weretwo names which I, like most Israeli teenagers at the time, knew well. Ben-Zvi54had been an officer in Arik Sharon’s original Unit 101, and Nachmias was oneof the earliest recruits to Company A. They shook my hand and motioned meinto a Jeep. As we drove out of the base, they peppered me with questions aboutalmost anything except the army: the kibbutz, school, sports. Then, Ben-Zvipulled the Jeep to the side of the road, turned around to face me and asked: “Is ittrue you can pick locks?”Yes, I said. “Do you want me to show you?” He said that wouldn’t benecessary.“Is it true you can navigate? Read maps?” Nachmias asked. I said yes.They drove me back to the base in silence. “OK,” Nachmias said. “You’llprobably hear from us.”I didn’t. But as basic training was winding down, I got a further order: toreport to an address in Tzahala, a neighborhood in north Tel Aviv where a lot ofmilitary officers lived. It was a small house with a metal gate outside. I was metat the door by a man about 30 in shorts and a T-shirt who introduced himself asAvraham Arnan. He led me inside. He unfurled a map of Jerusalem and thesurrounding hills. He pointed to a spot on the southwest of the city. He drew awide, curving line through the hills to a second point. “You know how to read amap?” he asked. When I nodded, he said: “I want you to describe to me – just asif you were walking on this line – exactly what you see, as you make your wayto the place I marked.” I used the elevation lines on the map as a guide, and thepositioning of the hills and woodland and villages on the map, and begandescribing how each stage would look. When I was finished, his only responsewas the hint of a smile. When he spoke, it wasn’t about the map. It was, again,about picking locks. “How did you learn?” he asked. I explained how I’d cutinto the locks, figured out how they worked and made a set of tools to openthem. “Thank you,” he said. “You can return to your unit.”Though he hadn’t said so, I got a feeling this was the Sayeret Matkalequivalent of a final job interview. When I got back to Beersheva, I dug aroundas discreetly as possible for details about Avraham Arnan. I learned he hadserved in 1948 in the hills around Jerusalem, so he would have known first-handthe terrain he asked me to describe. That, I guessed, explained the half-smile.But I was entering my last week of tironut. I still had no idea whether I’d bespending the next couple of years inside an APC – or in a sayeret whosefunction was a mystery, beyond the fact it seemed less interested in whether myboots were shined than whether I could pick a lock.55The day before the end of basic training, I was told to return to Maka Esser.A Jeep was waiting. A soldier was at the wheel. He mumbled hello and droveme to a sprawling military base about 15 minutes away, not too far from theinternational airport in Lod. It was built by the British in the Second World Warfor the RAF. After 1948, the main part had been converted into Israel’s officertrainingschool. But at the far end, set back from a criss-cross of runways, was apair of domed concrete shelters which had been used by the British formunitions storage. Five tents. Two field toilets. And a single-story brickstructure with a tin roof. It contained offices for Avraham Arnan, a couple ofother officers and a secretary, a kitchenette and a room for storing weapons.This was the home of Sayeret Matkal, although the first thing I was told wasthat no one, outside a handful of senior officers in military headquarters, knewwe existed.* * *The heart and soul of Sayeret Matkal was Avraham Arnan. Even from mybrief first encounter with him in his living room in Tzahala, I was struck by hisphysical presence, with almost movie-star looks and a face made even moreintriguing by the fact he had different-colored eyes, one brown and one apiercing green. But what really set him apart, as I got to know him and comeunder his spell in the sayeret, was his playful, almost bohemian disregard for thenormal strictures and structures, rules and regulations, of the armed forces.What mattered to him was what actually needed to get done, and how best toaccomplish it despite all the bureaucratic obstacles, and he made me and hisother teenage recruits feel we were equal partners with him in getting there.Years later, he confided that if his life had not led him into the military, hewould have probably chosen something in the arts or culture, maybe directingfilms. But he had volunteered for the Haganah at age 17, a year before the 1948war. As the losses mounted in Jerusalem, he found himself in the Palmach’scrack Harel Brigade, under the command of a future Israeli chief-of-staff, DadoElazar.His vision for Sayeret Matkal became Israel’s answer to the dangersidentified by Rotem. But it had its origins in his experiences in the years after1948, when he joined a military intelligence group running a loose network ofArab agents across Israel’s northern border. They provided occasional bits of56information. But in talking with his wartime friends, he realized this kind oflow-level intelligence could never address the real need for Israel: to ensure wehad early warning if Syria or Lebanon, Jordan or Egypt, were preparing to go towar against us.He began toying with the idea of training a small force of Israeli soldiers togo on cross-border intelligence missions. The initial response from the kirya –military headquarters in Tel Aviv – was so frustrating that anyone else wouldhave given up. None of the generals saw any reason to believe his schemewould work. But the real obstacle was their continuing trauma over what hadhappened the last time Israeli soldiers crossed the border on an intelligencemission. It had happened in 1954, and it ended in a failure even more seriousthan Rotem. The target was the Golan Heights, inside Syria. The specialtechnology unit attached to military intelligence had developed a buggingdevice designed to be placed on a telephone pole on the Golan. The task ofinstalling it was given to the most decorated, and respected, commando unit inthe army: Company A in Sharon’s paratroop battalion, led by its commander,Meir Har-Zion.On a spring night in 1954, Har-Zion led his team onto the Golan. Theyrigged the bugging unit to the telephone pole, buried the bulky transmitter andmade their way back. And it worked. Israeli intelligence could listen in tomilitary communications on the Heights. The hitch as that the batteries had tobe replaced every few weeks. Several more times, Meir and his men sneakedback into Syria to keep the bug working. But as commander of Company A,Meir was a key part of Israel’s anti-fedayeen operations. The last thing MosheDayan wanted to risk was seeing him captured while trying to replace a fewbatteries. So he shifted the task to a regular unit from the Golani Brigade.In December 1954, a handover mission was organized. Three men fromCompany A, including one of Meir’s sergeants, joined three from the GolaniBrigade. But they didn’t even hold a joint exercise before setting off. There wasalso a lack of clarity about who was in charge. Though the Golani commanderwas nominally the senior officer, only the Company A men had any first-handexperience of this kind of mission. A half-mile onto the Heights, they wereintercepted by a Syrian soldiers. If this had been a Company A operation, theresponse would have been automatic. They would have wheeled, opened fireand attacked. But when the Syrians ordered the Golanis to drop their weapons,one of them did, and the Company A men followed suit. They were all taken toDamascus, held in solitary confinement, beaten and tortured.57One of the captured Golani soldiers was a 19-year-old named Uri Ilan, theson of a member of the Israeli Knesset whom Ben-Gurion and the whole of thegovernment knew well. The soldiers’ captivity dragged on until they werefinally returned to Israel in March 1956. By then, however, Uri Ilan had hangedhimself. He managed to hide a note into his uniform. It was found when thebody was being prepared for burial. It read: Lo bagadeti. Nekamah. “I did notbetray anything. Revenge.”Ever since the Uri Ilan mission, there had been a de facto ban on crossborderintelligence operations by Israeli soldiers. Ben-Gurion and his militarycommanders knew, of course, the importance of getting early warning of anenemy attack. But they decided the price of possible failure was simply toohigh.Sayeret Matkal was born three years later. Avraham was still part of the unitrunning low-level agents in Syria and Lebanon, but his commander reluctantlyagreed to allow him to set up his new intelligence group. His initial“headquarters” was a sparsely furnished Tel Aviv apartment. The first people hebrought in were veterans of the Palmach’s Arab Platoon, pre-state fighters whotrained themselves to pass as Arabs and gather intelligence, or stage raids,behind enemy lines. Next, he invited friends who had served in Unit 101 andCompany A. Finally, he enlisted a core of them to help train recruits to his newsayeret. He hoped the involvement of these commando veterans would also givethe unit credibility inside the kirya. One of them, Micha Kapusta, had been partof 101, as had Itzhak Gibli, who had been a teenage Palmachnik in 1948. Athird was another Company A officer named Aharon Eshel, known as Errol, inpart for his undeniably Errol Flynn-like swagger, but also an acronym of hisHebrew name. But the crowing addition to the group had the distinction ofhaving led the last successful Israeli bugging mission on the Golan, in additionto being the most respected commando in Israel, a man who Dayan would latercall the country’s greatest soldier. It was Meir Har-Zion himself.* * *I was part of the second group of recruits to Sayeret Matkal, in the earlysummer of 1960. The unit had been given its own base barely a year earlier. Buit had yet to carry out a single mission, and there was no sign of that happening.Avraham couldn’t be sure when, or if, the generals in the kirya might give him58the go-ahead. Still, he was convinced that if we could demonstrate a toughness,commitment and competence which offered an obvious addition to Israel’sintelligence capability, even they would recognize the folly of not using it.He made every one of us feel a part of making this possible. I was one of tennew recruits, bringing the size of the sayeret to twenty. We were almost allteenagers. In fact, the oldest of our officers was 21. Most of the men wereSephardi Jews. For a unit like ours, with the aim of undertaking secret missionsin Arab countries, Avraham believed that a background in Arabic culture andlanguage was an important asset. I was the sayeret’s only lock-picker. But all ofus had been recruited in the much same way that I was. It was how the topPalmach units had been formed, and the way Sharon assembled Unit 101:friends recommending friends, in my case, my old yeled chutz schoolmate fromthe kibbutz.We trained in the whole range of commando skills. We used not only Uzis,but Soviet-made Kalashnikovs and Gurionov machine guns. We worked withdetonators and explosives. We staged raids on Israeli airfields. We conductedexercises using rubber dinghies to practice attacking from the sea. But mostlywe walked. For hundreds of miles, almost always at night the length and breadthof the country. We would study a map of each area, committing every town orvillage, hilltop or dry creek bed, to memory before we set off. I can stillremember what Meir Har-Zion told us: to be truly prepared, you needed tospend “an hour for an hour” – an equal time mastering the lay of the land to theamount you’d need to carry out an operation. It was a gruelling regime –designed to push us to the very limits of endurance. On one series of exercises,we were limited to a single canteen of water as we trekked deep into the NegevDesert. It was gruelling, designed to push us to the very limits of endurance. Iremember the first time Errol set eyes on me after I joined the unit. He turned toAvraham, laughed, and said: “Are we taking high school kids now?” But beforelong, I was a “high school kid” no longer.Meir Har-Zion rarely took a direct part in our exercises. On his finalCompany A mission, a month before the 1956 war, he had been shot in histhroat and arm. A medic saved his life by performing a tracheotomy. But hisspeech was affected, and he still had almost no use of his right arm. Errol,Micha Kapusta and Yitzhak Gibli were more actively involved with us. Theywere there not only to help train us, but to instill a commando attitude, a spiritof confidence bordering on bravado.59Kapusta was our guide on our punishing five-day treks through the Negev.Though Avraham would see us off at the start, he stayed back at the base. In acouple of the exercises, we relied on carrier pigeons to keep in touch with thebase, until Kapusta began killing them for dinner. Once, on a searingly hotdesert afternoon, hours from the nearest hospital, he spotted a poisonous snake.He used pieces of wood to pry its head up from the sand, grabbed its neck andstrangled it.We also studied some Arabic, though most of the Sephardi recruits alreadyspoke the language. My tutor was a Cairo-born Jew named Amin. In partbecause he enjoyed mathematics and played the violin, we hit it offimmediately. He was also deaf in one ear. Languages have never been my forte.Even in Hebrew, I have a slight lisp. That made mastering Arabic even harder.Still, Amin would frequently compliment me on my accent, at which point theothers in the class would point out that I was lucky he was hard of hearing.A year in, we were given a classroom briefing on what to do if we fell intoenemy hands. The gist was to tell them only our name, rank and serial number.But we had a special session with Gibli, who told us about what captivity wasreally like. He had been shot and wounded during a retaliation operation in 1954and was captured by the Jordanians. Until his release, he was kept in solitaryconfinement and tortured. The details of his imprisonment, the beatings and thecigarette burns, were lurid. Partly because we were developing a bit ofcommando self-confidence – but mostly to hide the discomfort of wonderinghow each of us would react to being in enemy hands – we heckled him over anaccount that seemed to get more heroic with each retelling. He wisely ignoredus. He told us that survival would be down not just to physical strength. Itrequired strength of mind, the kind of subtlety required to give your captorssomething to keep them at bay and to establish some form of human bond, tobut withhold anything of genuine value.A few weeks later, the whole sayeret held a four-day exercise in the Galilee.On the second night, at about four in the morning, we shook off our backpacksand settled in for a few hours’ sleep. The first thing I heard was shouting inArabic. I saw a guy hovering over me, his face covered. He handcuffed me,pulled a burlap sack over my head, yanked me to me feet and led me off. Wewere piled into the back of a truck. From the whispered comments around me, Iassumed all twenty of us had been taken. We drove for nearly four hours.Twice, I got an slap across the face, more painful because of the burlap. I kept60telling myself this had to be part of our training. If it was for real, we’d havebeen more badly beaten, or killed. Still, I couldn’t be completely sure.The truck lurched to a stop. We were led into a building, down a hallway andinto a large room. The walls were bare except for a series of iron rings. Ourcaptors tore the sacks from our heads for a few moments, and tied our wrists tothe manacles. For the first six or seven hours we were kept together, armsshackled and raised. Then they took us away one by one. I was the last to be ledout. I was taken to a room so small there was not even space for a cot. It wasn’tuntil the last shaft of light disappeared from the slit-like window near the top ofwall that the first interrogator showed up. He unlocked the door, entered andunfolded a metal chair. He wanted answers: what unit was I from, what did ourunit do, who were our commanders, what were our orders, and what was ourdesignated role in the event of war.I told him my name, rank and serial number. After each question, I repeatedthem, or shook my head in silence. “You will answer, sooner or later,” heshouted in heavily Arabic-accented Hebrew, hitting me across the face. “All ofyou will.” For four days and nights, other interrogators shouted out the samequestions. I was slapped dozens of times. Punched in the stomach. One of thecaptors uncuffed me and bent my arm behind my back, wrenching it upward.Though I was determined not to cry out, I grunted in pain. Over and over, I toldmyself: “This is not for real. They can hurt me. But they have limits. They cantwist my arm. They can hurt me. But there’s no way they can break my arm.”I was not allowed to sleep. I was never left alone for more than a half-hour.If I was crouching on the stone floor, I would be yanked to my feet and punchedor slapped. Twice a day, I was taken from my cell to a primitive toilet and givena minute to relieve myself. There were only two changes to the routine. On afew occasions, five or six of us were brought back into the large room and toldwe wouldn’t be let go until we had given them more of what they wanted – theimplication being that some of us had already talked. And once or twice, theinterrogators sent in a good cop. “I can help you,” he told me. “But you have togive me something.”But when it was over, none of us had talked. We didn’t fool ourselves intothinking that meant we could hold up in genuine captivity. There, they couldbreak your arm. They could burn your chest with cigarettes, rip out a fingernailor a tooth. They could kill you. The main value had been to give us some senseof what we might face. We might still be afraid, but at least it would no longerbe fear of the unknown.61Challenging though our training was, I found every bit of it enthralling and,with each new test passed, somehow empowering and exhilirating. This was allthe more remarkable because we had still yet to carry out a single operation. Ifanyone other than Avraham had been in charge, I think the unit might haveunraveled. The fact that it didn’t was mostly due to of the ethos he created, thefeeling that we were a special breed with a critically important commonpurpose, and that sooner or later we would be called on to do special things.When we were in uniform, it was camouflage dress. When we were on the base,we mostly wore sandals and shorts. We called each other by our first names,even the officers.In its first few years, the sayeret sometimes felt less like an army unit than acollege fraternity. Every spring, we organized a feast in a cavernous hangar onthe edge of our compound. It was called Chag ha Pri, the Feast of the Fruit. Fordays ahead of the event, we would mount night raids on kibbutzim, “liberating”crates of every kind of fruit imaginable, and chicken and lamb if we got lucky.The only rule was that none of us would steal from our own kibbutzim. Amongthe guests at the Feast of the Fruit was an unsuspecting selection of seniorofficers whom Avraham knew. A few of them got into the spirit, like DadoElazar, his Palmach commander from 1948. The Palmach had held similarfoodfests, with delicacies grabbed from nearby kibbutzim. Dado was by thistime commander of Israel’s armored corps. Since our sayeret was always shortof gasoline for our exercises, he would divert surplus supplies to us. But otherguests were less impressed with the pyramids of oranges and avocados andmangoes and watermelons. I could almost hear a voice screaming inside them:these are Israeli soldiers. They’re stealing this stuff.* * *It was not until the autumn of 1961, nearly eighteen months after I arrived,that it seemed we might actually be given a real mission. This was largely dueto a change at the top of the military. For much of the 1950s, when Dayan waschief-of-staff, his right-hand-man was a Haganah veteran named Meir Amit. In1961, the term of Dayan’s successor as chief of staff, Haim Laskov, was comingto an end and Amit was in the mix to get the top job. He was already Head ofOperations. In practical terms, that made him the number-two man in the armedforces. But the job went to Tzvi Tzur, Laskov’s deputy. Amit decided to accept62the post of Head of Military Intelligence. He knew the importance ofintelligence, and the potential cost of Israel being taken by surprise in a futurewar, having been part of the top military leadership during Rotem. He wasenergetic, bright, and exuded an infectious sense of self-confidence andauthority. He also had clout at headquarters. If he decided the time had come torevive cross-border intelligence operations, there was every chance it wouldhappen.Still, it was an agonizingly slow process. By the time my period of militaryservice was drawing to an end, it hadn’t happened. I did not seriously think ofleaving. Though my two years in Sayeret Matkal had been the most physicallydemanding of my life, they were also the most fulfilling. I did not want toforfeit the chance of being part of its finally becoming an operational unit. So Icommitted to at least a few more years in the military. I joined my closest friendamong the recruits, Uri Zakay, for six months in officers’ school as we waited,or hoped, for approval to actually use the skills and qualities we had acquired inthe sayeret.And in the summer of 1962, shortly after I returned to the unit from officers’school as a second-lieutenant, the green light finally came.63Chapter FourAt first, it was only “approval in principle”. It’s impossible to overstate thetrepidation with which Israel’s military brass, and Ben-Gurion himself,approached the decision finally to send Sayeret Matkal into action. It was notjust the fact that we were a unit uttterly untested in the field. The stakes in themission we were contemplating were enormous. For the first time since UriIlan’s deseperate act of suicide in a Damascus jail cell, Israeli soldiers would becrossing into Arab territory on an intelligence mission. Amid continuingtensions with the increasingly militant rulers of Egypt and Syria, there seemedlittle doubt that at some stage we would again have to fight to defend oursecurity, perhaps even our existence as a state. The Rotem debacle hadhighlighted the danger of a surprise attack, potentially leaving us in a scrambleto call up reserve units as Syrian or Egyptian tanks advanced on our borders.But the memory of Uri Ilan remained a haunting reminder of the risks of failure.My role, again, came down partly to accident. The man initially chosen tolead the operation was someone I’d liked from my first days in the sayeret.Ya’akov Tal, known as Tubul, was a year older than me. He came from Tiberiasin the north of Israel. As a teenager, he’d worked for extra pocket moneyalongside shepherds in the hills above the Sea of Galilee, picking up a nearfluentcommand of Arabic. He was self-confident without a trace of arrogance,with a natural talent for connecting with his soldiers. In my case, there was afurther bond: a shared fascination with math and sciences.But Tubul had applied to the leading technology institute in Israel, theTechnion near Haifa. As he began training his four-man team to cross ontoSyria’s Golan Heights, he received word that he’d been accepted. The academicyear wouldn’t begin until September, and it had been assumed at first that theoperation would happen before then. But even though Meir Amit was pressingthe rest of the military brass for a final go-ahead, it still hadn’t arrived by earlyAugust. Avraham decided he needed a fall-back plan. He called Tubul and meinto his office. He said he wanted me to join the team’s training as Tubul’sdeputy, and to be ready to step in as commander if that proved necessary. Whenwe next heard from Amit, a week later, it became clear the mission would nothappen in time for Tubul to lead it.We would be setting out from the northeast corner of Israel, a patch ofparkland near a kibbutz called Dan, only a mile or so from where Uri Ilan’sgroup had begun its mission. This time, however, the target was more64ambitious. We intended to bug the communications line running east fromBanias, the Syrians’ base in the north of the Golan, toward Quneitra, their mainheadquarters. That meant taking a longer route, beginning with a climb onto aplateau about 200 feet high and crossing the Banias River toward the Syrianbase.We had nearly three weeks for our final preparations. After two years ofsayeret training, I was confident that, physically, we would be up to the task.But even without the obvious jitters emanating from the kirya, I could not helpbut be aware of the possibility, and the cost, of failure. Every evening, I wouldstake out time to go through everything that might conceivably go wrong. Yearslater, when I went to do my graduate studies at Stanford, I was exposed towords of wisdom from a non-kibbutznik – Benjamin Franklin – which probablybest summed up what drove my planning for the sayeret’s first operation, andthe others that would follow. “Failing to prepare,” he wrote, “is to preparing forfailure.”Running into Syrian soldiers was, of course, top of the list of potentialpitfalls. But land mines were also a danger. I got a map of the area from militaryintelligence which, in theory at least, showed the location of mines all along theedge of the Golan. But it had been compiled over a period of nearly two decadeson the basis of information from shepherds, smugglers and the occasional Arabagent. Whenever they reported seeing the telltale combination of fencing andyellow danger triangles, the place was marked. Once it was marked, no one inintelligence headquarters dared erase it. The result was that the map nowshowed an almost unbroken stretch of mines. And within the amount of timethat we had to get ready, there was no way of knowing which of the minefieldswas still there.The timing was chosen by the cycle of the moon. We wanted to cross intoSyria in as near to total darkness as possible. That meant the final days ofSeptember. Unlike Tubul, who had been commanding the team from themoment they had joined the sayeret, I’d been working with them for only acouple of months. My deputy for the operation, Avi Telem, was also anewcomer. But he was smart, steady and he had served in the Golani Brigade,so he knew the terrain along the border.Avraham could not hide his own nervousness as the operation drew nearer.A week before we were due to set off, he asked whether we were planning afurther, full-scale exercise. When I said the final run-through was set for thefollowing night, in the Negev, he told me he wanted Meir Har-Zion to attend.65During the exercise, Meir said nothing at all. I couldn’t help wonderingwhether, despite our nearly daily exercises, and my nightly stock-taking, I’dsomehow missed an obvious detail in our planning. When we got back to thesayeret base, Avraham was waiting for us. “Well?” he asked Meir. “They don’tneed me,” he said. “They know what they’re doing.” It was not just a source ofreassurance for me, but a huge relief for Avraham.The team I’d inherited from Tubul included three gifted soldiers withdifferent backgrounds, and different skills. Motti Nagar was born in Cairo. Hewas short but solidly built, smart, level-headed and almost always smiling. KutiSharabi grew up in a Yemeni family in an impoverished neighborhood in TelAviv. He had a self-deprecating sense of humor, a quick mind and sometimeseven quicker tongue, but an extraordinary ability to focus on the task at hand.The third member was a kibbutznik. His name was Moshe Elimelech. We calledhim Moshiko. Utterly self-contained, a man who spoke only when absolutelynecessary, he also brought two different qualities to the mission. One was goingto be indispensable: an almost squirrel-like ability to climb trees. Or telephonepoles. The other, of which I was a bit more leery, was a total, deeply irrational,absence of fear.Though none of us needed a further reminder of the weight being attached toour mission, the night before we headed north, Avraham got a call from thechief-of- staff’s office. Tzvi Tzur wanted to see me the next morning for apersonal briefing. I tried to get Avraham to say no. I pointed out that if wedidn’t get going by ten o’clock at the latest, we’d risk throwing everything offschedule. But “no” was not an option. After some further back-and-forth, it wasagreed that I would meet the commander of Israel’s armed forces at nine thenext morning at a gas station north of Tel Aviv and join him for the 20-minutedrive along the coastal road to a speaking engagement he had in Netanya.I saw Avraham again before I set off. “We are beginning an extremelycritical 24 hours for our unit, the intelligence corps, in fact for the armed forcesas a whole,” he told me. “I don’t know what might happen. No one does. Justremember two things. First, out there, in the field, you are the ramatkal” – thechief of staff. He told me that only I and my team could judge and respond towhat we encountered once the operation started. “And second, this mission hasto be accomplished.”I left see the real ramatkal. Before we began the drive to Netanya, he askedme to unfold the map I’d brought with me and talk him through, step by step,how we planned to get onto the Golan, plant the bugging device, and get back66again. The more I talked, however, the more I sensed that the details weren’twhat General Tzur really wanted to know. I think what he actually wanted togauge was whether I felt confident. He wanted to reassure himself he wasn’ttaking any more than the obvious risks in sending us, in Uri Ilan’s footsteps,back into Syria. Fortunately, he didn’t ask whether I was sure we’d succeed. Ifhe had, I would have said, yes, we were prepared. But there was no way wecould be certain. Still, he must have got what he wanted. When we reached theedge of Netanya, he shook my hand, wished me luck and went on his way.The rest of the team was waiting at the crossroads for me to join them. Twoteams, in fact: mine, with whom I’d be crossing into Syria in less than 10 hours’time, and our hillutz, or back-up. A hillutz was always a part of sayeretoperations. The back-up group would stay on the Israeli side of the border. If wegot into trouble, they’d come in after us.Even after my briefing for the chief of staff, we had one last stop to make onthe way north. It was at the headquarters of the army’s northern command. Itwas in a Tegart fortress, one of dozens built by the British around the country,with watchtowers on each corner of the outer walls. The northern commanderwas an equally forbidding figure. Avraham Yoffe had served in the Britishartillery in the Second World War and the Golani Brigade in 1948. He used tojoke with other officers that while they looked like a bunch of kids, he was theonly one with the true bearing of a general.He must have been busy when we arrived, because we ended up hangingaround in the courtyard for nearly 20 minutes. Just as I was beginning to worrythat the timetable for what really mattered – our climb up onto the Golan – wasbeing put at risk, I noticed that off to the side was a beautifully polished jeep. Iassumed it belonged to General Yoffe, who was known to be an avid hunter andwould later become the head of Israel’s National Parks Authority. It had apadlocked metal grill on the back which held two jerrycans of gasoline. YoriCohen, the commander of the back-up team, and I spotted the fuel containers atthe same time. We couldn’t help smiling. Yes, we were about to embark on anoperation which, assuming we didn’t fail, would finally give Israel real-timeintelligence from across our border for the first time since the 1950s. But wewere still Sayeret Matkal, still chronically short of gasoline for our fieldexercises. And I still hadn’t forgotten how to pick a lock. As Yori stood guard, Ibroke into the grill and removed the jerrycans, one for each of us, and closed itagain. Then, after briefing the general, we headed to our setting-off point. Yoffehimself left to join Avraham Arnan and Meir Amit’s intelligence deputy,67Ahraleh Yariv, in the command post for our mission, atop a hill on the Israeliside of the northern border.The sun set at around seven, but we waited for darkness. It was nearly eightwhen we set out. Twenty minutes later, we crossed the border. I led the way,with Motti Nagar, Moshiko, Kuti Sharabi and, finally, Avi Telem behind. Wecarried the bugging equipment and our tools in our backpacks. Avi and I had apair of binoculars. Mine were bulkier, but offered a slightly better view in thedarkness. Each of us had an Uzi and a pair of grenades. All our planning hadbeen aimed at getting on to the Golan, installing the bug and getting out again. Ifall went well, no one would even know we’d been there. But we had practicedwhat to do if things went wrong. If challenged or ambushed by a Syrian patrol,we would operate by old Company A rules. We would open fire.The climb onto the plateau wasn’t too tough, not nearly as hard as oursayeret training treks. When we reached the top, there was no obvious sign ofany Syrians. Still, we had to move slowly. Even with my binoculars, I could seebarely 30 yards into the moonless night, and I had to scan the route ahead, backand forth, to make sure there were none of the fences or warning signs to keepthe Syrians’ own soldiers, or unsuspecting shepherds, from a minefield. Soon,however, we found an obviously well-used footpath which I figured was verylikely to be safe.When we had walked a few minutes, we found ourselves going through atangle of bushes and reeds, some of them up to two feet high, still dry andcrackly from the summer. Aside from the risk of tripping, I knew the noise wewere making might attract attention. I told the rest of the team to hang back 20yards behind me. I moved forward to make sure the route was clear beforesignaling them to follow. I had been slightly nervous on the climb up, not somuch because I expected trouble but because there was no way of knowingwhat to expect. Much as I tried to put the concerns of the generals from mymind, I also knew that this was no ordinary mission. But almost immediately,the nerves had gone, and I was now focused only on getting us through the nextminute, the next 20 or 30 yards of the Golan.But as soon as we’d made it across the plateau, we ran into trouble. Weneeded to cross the Banias River. On our map, I’d picked out what looked to bea shallow ford. But the water was much higher than we expected. Afterspending 30 minutes scouting the bank for 150 yards in either direction, wesettled on what seemed to be the shallowest part. Yet we hadn’t anticipated theneed to cross a river in full flow. Worse, we’d never trained to do it. Not had we68brought any special equipment. Unless we could figure out a way to cross – andquickly – we would be putting the timetable for the whole operation at risk.The only remotely useful tool I could find was two 25-foot lengths ofparachute wire. We spliced them together. I took the lead end and waded in. Isunk up to above my chest, but managed to get across. With Avi Telem on theother bank holding his end of the wire, the others used it to help them cross, sothey stayed a bit drier. They also kept the intercept equipment dry. Finally, Avifollowed. But both he and I were now soaking wet. We were also behindschedule. We had covered less than half of the three-mile route to the telephonepole. Even if we did manage to install the bugging device, the delay meant wemight be spotted on our way back to Israel. We were under strict orders to turnback by 1:15 in the morning even if that meant not getting the intercept in place.And it was already past midnight.We began climbing into the heart of the Heights, planning to go around thesouthern edge of the Syrian base at Banias. The vegetation was sparser but westill ran the risk of making noise from the stones and larger shards of rock as weweaved our way up. Within 10 minutes, I could see the vague outline of thearmy camp: several large buildings for several hundred Syrian troops, ringed bytrenches with security outposts and a barbed-wire fence on the perimeter.For a half-hour or so, we moved forward in a kind of rubber-band formation.I would advance as quietly as I could, listen for signs of Syrian troops, scan thearea ahead with my binoculars and wave the others to follow. But as I preparedto move forward again, I suddenly felt a tug on my shoulder. It was Moshiko,and the very fact of his speaking was proof of his alarm. “Ehud,”we’ve got togo faster,” he said. “We won’t get there in time.” I said I understood. But I toldhim to wait for the others to catch up and stay behind with them as I scouted theway ahead. Still, by the time the outer fence of the base came into view, theothers had picked up their pace. They were only 15 feet behind me.It was then I heard the sound of movement. I motioned the others down. Atfirst, I thought it was a wild animal. But then I noticed, 20 feet in front of us anda bit off to our right on a slight rise, a group of three Syrian soldiers. They werelying on rocky scrubland 40 yards outside the fence. One was tossing andturning. Another was snoring. I maneuvered my Uzi into firing position just incase. We waited for a minute. Then two. But it seemed clear they really weresleeping.69Then, from directly behind me, came another sound: the hiss of Avi’s bulkytwo-way radio. I was worried we’d end up waking the Syrians. But just as I wasfiguring out how to make sure we got past them before that happened, Avi drewup beside me.“Ehud,” he whispered. “It’s 1:15. The command post ordered us to turnback.”“Turn off the radio,” I said, my hand on his elbow, reassuringly I hoped, as Iled him and the others back a full 100 feet from the Syrians. We took a widerroute around the camp. We moved much more quickly on the final mile to theroad that led toward Quneitra. We were now well clear of the camp, and I felt itwas unlikely we’d run into a patrol. I was also confident we’d have an easierreturn trip. I knew what had held us up on the way in: finding a path on theplateau clear of mines, figuring out how to cross the river, and the generalunfamiliarity of the terrain. None of those applied now. I felt we could get thebugging job done and still be back before dawn. As we got nearer the road, Aviasked me a couple of more times whether he should turn the radio back on.“No,” I kept telling him. “It’s OK. I’ll tell you when.”It was about two in the morning when we reached the road. We found atelephone pole set back on the edge of a field. Moshiko hoisted himself ontoKuti Sharabi’s shoulders, clambered up the pole and installed the buggingdevice. The entire operation took him less than 10 minutes. We moved morequickly on the way back. By around 3:30, we had crossed the river. “You canturn on the radio now,” I told Avi, who was obviously relieved. He handed it tome. Using our agreed code words, I reported our location, and added the phrasefor “mission accomplished.”When we began our final descent, it was starting to get light. I assumed wewere near enough to the border to make it unlikely we’d be shot at. Still, therewas a danger we’d be spotted by a patrol, so I was relieved when we reached themound of boulders, more than ten feet high, that served as a tank barrier outsideKibbutz Dan. When we stepped behind it, I saw that not only Avraham, butMeir Amit as well, were waiting. The Head of Military Intelligence saidnothing. He didn’t have to. He just shook my hand, beaming. Avraham grabbedeach of us, one by one, in a bear hug.Then, drawing me aside, Avraham said that I had only narrowly missedlanding in deep trouble. I assumed my transgression was shutting off the radioand disobeying the order to return. That was just part of the problem, however.70Despite General Yoffe’s angry protests in the command post, Avraham had toldhim what he’d told me back at the base: that once an operation like this wasunderway, only the commander on the spot could make life-or-death decisions.I was “the ramatkal in the field.” But Yoffe had also discovered that hisjerrycans of gasoline were missing. He insisted that if and when I returnedsafely from the Golan, I be handed over to the military police.I don’t know what I would have told the general if he’d asked me directlywhether I broke into his jeep. But in the mix of celebration and relief that theSyrian operation had succeeded, I got away with what amounted to a pleabargain.I promised both Meir Amit and Avraham – at least one of whombelieved me – that it would not happen again.71Chapter FiveAlmost no one in Israel knew what we had done. But the next morning, apackage arrived at the Sayeret Matkal base from one of the few people who did.We opened it in Avraham’s office. It was a nearly full carton of champagne:real, French champagne, since it would be years before Israel’s embryonic wineindustry produced anything similar. Inside was a note from the chief of staff.“For the success of the operation,” General Tzur had written. “Minus twobottles… to teach Ehud Brog not to shut off his field radio.”I assumed that his reprimand was tongue-in-cheek, for the same reason I’descaped being locked up on General Yoffe’s orders as a gasoline thief. Had webeen captured on the Golan, the very future of the sayeret as an operationalintelligence unit would have been put at risk. Tzur, and Ben-Gurion as well,would have faced a reopening of all the old wounds from the Uri Ilan mission.But not only had we managed to get in and out of Syria in one piece. We hadtaken at least a first step toward erasing the blind spot in our intelligencecapabilities shown up so dramatically by Rotem. A few days later, I received aletter from the chief of staff informing me that I was to receive my first tzalash,or operational decoration, in recognition of “a mission which contributed to thesecurity of the state of Israel.”My own feelings were more mixed. I was proud of what I, and my team, hadaccomplished. On a personal level, too, I felt I’d reached an important landmarkon my unlikely journey from the winter morning when I’d arrived as physicallyfrail, awkward kibbutz teenager at APC boot camp in the Negev; through myyears of sayeret training under the strict, sometimes sardonic, but alwayssupportive gaze of Israel’s most storied commandos; to, now, having begun tomake a real contribution to Avraham’s vision of a new kind of Israeli militaryunit. But while Avraham, General Tzur and our other military and intelligencechiefs celebrated our mission, I felt not so much triumph as relief. I didn’t kidmyself: I knew that the operation could just as easily have gone wrong. In fact,it very nearly did, through errors or omissions I had made. I made that point, ingeneral terms, when we joined Avraham and the rest of the sayeret in a formaldebriefing. But that very night, just as I had in the days before we set off, Iwrote down in detail some of the oversights I knew I’d have to correct if wewere to succeed in further missions.Why hadn’t I chosen a route that took us further away from the Syrian baseat Banias? How had I let us arrive so unprepared, untrained and unequipped for72crossing the swollen river? Why hadn’t I taken the time to check the currentseveral miles downriver inside Israel? And couldn’t we have moved morequickly on the way in, even with the delay in crossing the river?I was aware of, and grateful for, the confidence Avraham had shown in me.He had taken a chance in choosing me to lead the sayeret’s first, criticaloperation. He must surely have had doubts about whether I could handle thetask. Years later, I asked him about it. He told me that he’d been relying onintuition. Yes, he realized I’d had no experience of a real cross-border mission.But that was true of everyone else in the unit as well. He was convinced that thetools needed for success were self-confidence, attention to detail and an ability tothink and act in response to what happened on the ground – all qualities whichhe was confident that I possessed.Now that we had provided Israel access to communications in the north ofthe Golan, there was a demand for us to do the same in other parts of theHeights. I was involved in nearly all of the missions we were asked to undertakein the months that followed, either as commander of the main force or thehillutz. I was also soon training a new team of recruits for future operations. Butperhaps the most important sign of Avraham’s confidence was to involve me inearly efforts to broaden Sayeret Matkal’s experience and reach beyond pureintelligence missions – to create a true special forces unit that could fight aswell.Early in 1963, we hosted a visit to the unit by Colonel Albert Merglen, aveteran of France’s colonial wars in Indochina and Algeria, and commander ofthe airborne commando force known as the 11 th Demi-brigade Parchutistes deChoc. As the colonel looked on, I led a sayeret team on a live-fire raid in atraining area not far from Lod Airport. We attacked a position protected bytrenches and concrete barriers and stormed a two-story building. Eager toimpress Mergelen, Avraham even insisted on our wearing French-style berets inplace of helmets. I assume it was the attack more than the berets that did thetrick. But a couple of months later, Merglen proposed a series of exchanges. Thefirst would involve an officer from Sayeret Matkal officer spending eight weekson a counter-guerrilla commanders’ course in the parachutistes’ trainingheadquarters.Avraham picked me to go. The French base was in a 17th-century fortressnear Mont Louis, in the Pyrenees along the Spanish border. I’d never beenoutside Israel, at least legally. I had no passport. I didn’t own a suit or a tie. Butwithin days, I was kitted and fitted. I boarded an El Al flight to Paris and, on a73storm-tossed Caravelle, flew to Perpignan in southeastern France. There wereeighteen “shock parachutists” on the course. I had just turned twenty-one. Notonly were most of them at least a decade older. They were the epitome oftoughness. The guy who taught us how to set booby-traps had parachutedbehind German lines in the Second World War. All of the men had fought inIndochina and Algeria. One had operated behind Vietminh lines, surviving for ayear-and-a-half on nuts, berries, tree bark and snakes. With the benefit of mysayeret training, I was at least their equal in fitness. I had also not spent yearsconsuming prodigious amounts of alcohol and smoking Gitanes. But I’d neverexperienced anything nearly as demanding as some of the training we were putthrough.With backpacks crammed with Alpine military gear and lead weights aswell, we hiked on to the peaks overlooking the fortress. They were covered withsnow and ice from about 6,500 feet upward. We trudged for hours, shifting tosnowshoes with cleats for the ice. We were taught how to dig caves in the snowand to use ice axes to keep from tumbling down the steeper inclines. We scaledcliff faces, without safety cables or nets. Our training inside the fortress alwaysincluded a break for lunch. Since the parachutistes de choc were, after all,French, it was a Paris-restaurant-standard meal with copious quantities of wine.I didn’t drink at the time, but could hardly abstain altogether. The first exerciseafter lunch was pistol marksmanship. The instructors kept well clear when itwas my turn.Yet however impressed, even at times awestruck, I was by the toughness ofthe French commandos, and the obvious closeness they had built duringcombat, I began to sense a darker side in them as well. They didn’t talk much.Even if they had, my few words of French would not have been much help indeciphering what made them tick. But every few nights, I would accompanythem when they walked into the small village down the road for a movie, or afew drinks, and the locals would literally cross the street to avoid us. Later, Idiscovered that every one of my French comrades had been involved in theOAS, the far-right anti-De Gaulle opposition in the French army in the late1950s. In Algeria, they had mounted free-lance attacks on the insurgents, and oncivilians as well. Though Algeria had been granted independence the yearbefore, these men were unreconciled to it. In fact, a few months after my time inMont Louis, the Demi-brigade was dismantled, when several of its top officerswere found to be involved in an assassination plot against President De Gaulle.74After my return in June 1963, Avraham asked me to share my experienceswith the other sayeret officers. I began with the positives. I singled out the senseof self-confidence, allied with individual strength and teamwork, that the Frenchcommandos had developed from exposure to almost incredible extremes ofdanger. I believed that their success depended not on eliminating risk. We allknew that was impossible. It was about professionalism developed over a periodof years by men who had served together in the toughest of circumstances. But Ialso mentioned their darker side, which seemed to me a reminder of the dangerof the misapplication of the very qualities which made them a formidablemilitary force. “The ethos of a unit like theirs, and like ours, is essential tomaking us strong,” I said. “But what I saw in France was an entire ecosystemthat these guys had created, extremely patriotic in their own minds, reinforcedby one another. But dangerous for society as a whole.”* * *It would be nearly a decade before Sayeret Matkal became not just a militaryintelligence unit, but a fighting force, and I would turn out to have a central rolein making that happen. But there was an almost equally daunting challenge wewere called on to tackle first – a critical one, if Israel was going to be trulyprepared in the case of a further war. For while our bugging missions on theGolan had reduced our vulnerability to a surprise attack in the north, the realchallenge of Rotem had yet to be addressed. It was Egypt – with its hundreds ofbattle tanks, and hundreds of thousands of men under arms – that was by far ourmost powerful Arab enemy. President Nasser wasted no opportunity to flaunthis determination to fight, defeat and ultimately erase the state of Israel. But westill had no reliable, real-time intelligence on his forces.Fixing that, if such an operation was even possible, would make our buggingoperations on the Golan look like mere boy-scout missions. We could notsimply walk into Egypt with our backpacks, find a telephone pole on one of thefew roads crossing the vast expanse of desert, and attach a bugging device. Theidea was to tap into the main military communications cable in the Sinai. Thatmeant using a vastly more powerful, and far bulkier, intercept apparatus,weighing more than half a ton. Even getting it into Egypt would be a problem.We certainly couldn’t carry it our backpacks, or tow it across the sand. Even ifwe figured a way to get it there, we would still have to dig up the Egyptian75cable, install the machinery, cover our tracks and get back into Israel againundetected. Even if we managed to avoid getting captured, without completelycamouflaging what we’d done, the Egyptians would discover what we haddone, almost certainly tipping off Syria as well to our bugging operations on theGolan Heights.The difficulties with a Sinai operation weren’t just theoretical. Almost a yearbefore leading the first mission on the Golan, I’d actually been involved inpreliminary planning, and fairly detailed training, for such a mission in theSinai. We’d ended up abandoning the idea as obviously unworkable.But Meir Amit, not just our unit’s overall commander in the kirya but Chiefof Operations during Rotem, recognized that getting intelligence access toEgypt was central to Israeli security. He was intent on reviving the plan to tapinto Nasser’s communications in the Sinai. So was Avraham Arnan. He enlistedthe backing of an old friend, Uri Yarom, who was now commander of the IsraeliAir Force and was eager to put our fleet of recently acquired Sikorsky S-58helicopters to operational use. When Avraham called me in to tell me what hehad in mind, he began by saying it would be “by far the greatest challengewe’ve contemplated” – typically disarming candor, but also a challenge whichI’m pretty sure he knew would only increase my determination to at least try.The flight in would be difficult enough. Israel had never before tried such aheliborne mission. But he told me that wasn’t my problem. “That will be Uri’sjob.” The really testing part would be to carry out an mission, at night, deepinside Egypt, cover our tracks and get out again in one piece. “Still, I’m surethat we can succeed,” he said. “And I want you and your team to do it.”Even now, more than half-a-century later, some of the details of how weplanned to tap into the Egyptians’ communications remain classified. But onceI’d chosen my team of sayeret soldiers for the mission, we trained for nearlynine months. We drafted in geologists to identify areas of the Negev similar tothe terrain we’d find in the Sinai. We developed a series of methods to preventEgyptian soldiers or scouts from discovering that we’d been there – assuming,of course, we managed to get in, attach the intercept, and return safely. It was arelentless process of trial… and error.One of the many reasons we’d abandoned the plan a couple of years earlierwas that, in a nighttime exercise to see whether we could avoid detection byIsrael’s own crack desert scouts, we’d failed utterly. Now, after many weeks oftraining in the Negev, we did, finally, succeed – in a test running for four76straight nights which replicated, as nearly as we could, what we intended to doacross the border in the Sinai. It was as if we’d never been there at all.Yet there were the errors, setbacks and frustrations as well. Many monthsinto our planning, we conducted a series of run-throughs in which we simulatedattaching the intercept to Israel’s telephone network in the south, not far fromthe camp where I’d done my tironut. Though it all seemed to go as planned, thenext morning in rained heavily. Within hours, the phone company was gettingreports from all around southern Israel of phones malfunctioning. Evenallowing for the fact it rained less in the Sinai, we had to address the risk. I wentto see the people in Meir Amit’s technology unit, and they began developing awaterproofing system for the equipment.The main problem with the equipment, however, was its sheer weight. Thehelicopter could get us, and it, into Egypt. But we couldn’t fly directly to thecable site in the Sinai. We might just as well tell the Egyptians we were on ourway. At around 1,100 pounds, it was much too heavy for us to carry. And if wewere going to go ahead with the mission, time was running short. A date for theoperation had been set by the kirya: February 1964. I was not alone in believingthat, unless we cracked the problem of getting the equipment to the cable site,the operation was impossible.The solution came from a staff officer in military intelligence. Meir Amitvisited our base once a month to hear how the preparations were going. With thedate getting closer, he brought along his entire staff. When I raised my concernabout the weight problem, a colonel from his personnel section said: “Why notbuild a lightweight rickshaw, small enough to get in the door of the helicopter,but which can carry all or most of the equipment once you’re on the ground?”Within days, they had a prototype, made of airline-standard tubing and designedto be pulled by two men. We held an exercise in the Negev. But it was almostimpossible for two men to pull through the sand. It also left deep zig-zagimprints in the sand, which would surely raise the suspicions of the Egyptians.But prototype number-two was a four-wheel, chrome alloy cart. Thetechnology experts had made the axles telescopic, so the vehicle would getthrough the door of the chopper but could be expanded to the width of anEgyptian army Jeep. They had borrowed nose wheels from a training jet. Tocomplete their oeuvre, they glued on real tire tread from one of the EgyptianJeeps we had captured in the 1956 war.77We were as ready as we were ever going to be. We got the final go-aheadfrom in mid-February. Our backpacks were crammed full with the whole arrayof equipment we’d designed, commandeered or purchased for the mission –including a metal detector we got from a hobby shop in Pennsylvania. All thecargo except our personal gear, our weapons and our communicationsequipment was loaded onto the cart. A command post was set up in a fewwooden huts on Mount Keren in the Negev, complete with special antennas toreceive the intercept transmissions if we succeeded. Not since the first Golanoperation had the attention of the kirya been so keen, or the stakes so high. Inaddition to Meir Amit, and of course Avraham, also flying down to MountKeren would be General Tzur’s successor as armed forces chief of staff – agruff Palmach veteran whom I’d met very briefly at the end of my officer’scourse but who I would come to know well, and work closely with, in the yearsahead: Yitzhak Rabin.* * *The helicopter lifted off at about six-thirty at night. Compared to specialoperations nowadays, the mission still had a somewhat improvised feel about it.Certainly, that was true of the equipment we were ferrying in, and the toolswe’d devised to make sure we could get it installed and working. But the men inmy team were soldiers I’d trained from the day they arrived in the sayeret.Achihud Madar was unfailingly surefooted, whether finding his way alone atnight on unfamiliar ground or in a firefight inside a building. He also hadnatural dexterity. He and another of the soldiers who was also gifted with hishands, Nissim Jou’ari, would be performing the most technically delicate part ofthe operation on the cable. The third member was Oded Rabinovitch. Tall, thinand quiet, he was absolutely reliable in whatever part of an operation he wasgiven to execute. And as my deputy commander, I’d chosen a sayeret officernamed Kobi Meron, who’d been with me on a number of Golan missions. Oversix feet tall, he was probably the strongest man in the unit, quick-thinking andutterly unflappable.When we landed, we telescoped out the axles on the cart. The roar of thedeparting chopper was replaced by silence. Under the soft light of hundreds ofstars, I led the way deeper into the desert. It took nearly an hour to reach theroad leading to the cable site. Though traffic was light, I posted Oded and78Nissim as lookouts. Kobi and I began digging a trench. The top layer of sandwas easy to remove. But then, just a few inches down, our shovels strucksomething hard. Maybe it was a sheet of rock. Maybe sand packed tight over themillennia. But it resisted all our attempts to break through.We had to find a way to get far enough beneath the surface to install theequipment. I called back Oded and Nissim from lookout duty. All four of usattacked the subsoil with every tool in our backpacks that could conceivablyhelp. It took nearly three hours in all. But we finally managed to carve out atrench that seemed as if it might just do the job. It wasn’t as deep or as wide aswe’d planned. But we were approaching a point where we would have to giveup. We couldn’t risk any more time digging, and still leave time to attach theintercept unit, cover our tracks and make the rendezvous with the helicopter totake us back into Israel.Achihud and Nissim cramped themselves into the hole and got to work, likesurgeons in an operating theater, silent except for the faint hum of the interceptequipment. Within a little less than an hour, they’d finished the main part of thework. During our training exercises, we’d factored in a fall-back plan, a way ofensuring we got the unit installed but without additional equipment to extend itsbattery life. Since we were still behind schedule, I was tempted to stop while wewere ahead. But having come this far, and knowing the potential risks of afurther mission to refresh the power unit and replace the batteries, I told them tokeep going, and also to take the extra few minutes needed to make sure theequipment was functioning.We had to be out of Egypt by first light, and we were now left with morethan an hour’s less time than we had reckoned on to make it back to therendezvous point. There was another problem, too, which I at first sensed morethan saw. A bank of fog was closing in. It had come in patches at first, but wasgetting denser. We had the same radio we had taken on to the Golan. We’dworked out codewords for each part of the operation but otherwise agreed tobreak silence only if absolutely necessary. Now, I had no choice. If the fogcontinued to thicken, it would block any chance of the helicopter getting in. Iradioed the command post and said as calmly as I could: “The milk is coming.”It wasn’t elegant. But “milk” was our codeword for fog. The chopper wouldnow try to bring us out within 30 minutes.Moving more quickly now that the cart was nearly empty, we made our wayeastward. As conditions worsened, I radioed again with a short series ofnumbers: directions for a new pickup point. Even that seemed like it might not79work. The fog now enveloped us completely. I brought the team to a stop. Istayed with the cart while the other four outlined a landing area with keroseneflares in the hope that the pilot would see us. It was another five minutes whenwe heard the thump of chopper blades. Though we couldn’t see more than a fewfeet, I suddenly saw the outline of the landing gear and then the underbelly. Butthe helicopter did not seem in control. It was drifting towards where I wasstanding with the cart. It was just seconds away from hitting me when its nosewrenched upward. It landed with a judder a dozen yards away. Later, I learnedthe navigator had realized the craft was drifting and, just before impact, shouteda warning to the pilot.We piled in, secured the cart and took off. Within a minute, the murkyblanket of fog was below us. As we swooped back into Israel, I could see thefirst pink of sunrise. By the time we touched down at Tel Nof air force base,southeast of Tel Aviv, the command post in the Negev was receiving the firstintercepts.A few days later, one of the sayeret soldiers gave me a first-hand insight intothe mood in the command post in the final stages of the operation. AvshaHoran’s role had been to act as security guard for the top brass in Mount Keren.He occasionally took a peek inside. He described to me the atmosphere when Iradioed my “milk is coming” message: solemn faces, hushed conversationsbetween Avraham and Meir Amit. And off to the side, the recently elevatedchief-of-staff, Rabin, chain-smoking and biting his nails. Finally, the audiblesighs of relief when the pilot radioed in with his final message from thechopper: “Out of the fog. Heading home.”* * *With the rest of the team, I was invited to see Yitzhak Rabin ten days later.We were being given a further tzalash. This was the first time I’d met him sinceleaving officers’ school two years earlier, when, with a few terse words, thethen-deputy chief of staff congratulated me and several other cadets whograduated with top honors. I had felt a bit overwhelmed in his presence. Now, Iwas struck by how shy he seemed. He greeted each of us with a tentativehandshake, and seemed uncomfortable in making eye contact. Yet once hebegan asking me about the Sinai operation itself, it was as if he wastransformed. He was hungry for every detail, anxious to know the way we’d had80to adapt on the ground. And obviously pleased that we’d found a way to makethe operation work.The Sinai mission marked a transition not just for me, but for others inSayeret Matkal as well. Avraham Aranan finally left the unit he’d imagined,created and built. He became the head of the technology unit in militaryintelligence. His deputy, Dovik Tamari, succeeded him, serving the first in whatwould become two-year stints for each of his successors as the sayeret’scommander. I, too, was given a wider role. Though I was still just a younglieutenant, and too junior for the job, Dovik made me his de facto deputy, withresponsibility for operational oversight of our missions. I returned to the Sinai ayear later, not in that capacity but because of my on-the-ground experience, toaccompany a sayeret team which installed an intercept on a second Egyptiancommunications cable.Though the tzalash was gratifying, what gave me more satisfaction, andpride, was the importance of the Sinai operations themselves. I was confidentthat if we did have to go to war again, the equipment we installed, along withthe bugs on the Golan, would give us an essential edge. But in truth, I didn’tactually believe there would be another war. Sure, the threat was still there.Egypt, in particular, still seemed determined to find a way to hobble, and ifpossible eliminate, Israel. But especially since the 1956 war, the fedayeenattacks, and cross-border skirmishes, had been subsiding. Not long after thesecond Sinai intercept mission, I was chatting with other officers on the sayeretbase and remember turning to one of them and saying I was sure that by thetime I was married and had a teenage child, we’d be able to take a skiingholiday in Lebanon. We didn’t have peace yet. That might take time. But I feltthat things were getting more normal.I began thinking what that would mean not just for Sayeret Matkal or Israel,but for my own future. By the autumn of 1964, I’d reached a decision: to endmy active service in the unit that had been central to my life since leaving thekibbutz. Dovik did persuade me to delay, for nearly a year. But at the end of thesummer of 1965, I left Sayeret Matkal. In fact, I left the army altogether. I wentto study mathematics and physics at Hebrew University in Jerusalem. I wouldremain involved in the sayeret as a reservist. But I couldn’t see devoting myadult life to military service in a country which, fortunately, seemed on atrajectory toward peace. I had spent five years in an extraordinary unit. It hadbeen more fascinating and fulfilling than I could have dreamed of when I’d81finished my tironut. Now I looked forward to pursuing a different path withequal eagerness and energy.There was also something else which colored my thinking. For the first timein my life, I had fallen in love.82Chapter SixThe French have an expression for love at first sight: coup de foudre. Athunderbolt. That was how it felt when I’d set eyes on nineteen-year-old NiliSonkin in mid-February 1963.It was my first visit to the kirya in Tel Aviv. I’d been told to report to theadministrative section, to register my formal change of status from a meredraftee to a staff officer, something I’d managed to overlook amid the demandsof our first sayeret operations on the Golan. Since I didn’t know which office togo to, I asked a girl sitting at a desk near the entrance. She looked up with awide smile. When she directed me to the second floor, it wasn’t just her voicethat struck me: multi-timbered, almost like a musical composition. It was hereyes. Bright, radiant, green. Full of playful, unapologetic self-confidence.In the weeks that followed, I invented a series of excuses to return to thekirya. I introduced myself to her, with as much composure as I could muster,and on each further visit chatted to her a bit more. I told her about growing up inMishmar Hasharon, about math and music, about Israel, and how, as a soldier inthe past few years, I’d walked almost every inch of the land – in short, abouteverything except our still-secret sayeret and our nighttime forays across theborder. She, too, opened up about her home and her family and her friends.Though there was another girl I’d been going out with – the younger sister ofmy old kibbutz co-conspirator, Moshe – she was more a friend than a girlfriend.I’d never before felt anything like the connection I sensed with Nili, noranything like the race in my heartbeat as I set out to see her.I also found myself gripped by an unexpected, and unfamiliar, lack of selfassurance.I was now 22, three years older than Nili. I had the inbred confidenceof a kibbutznik, the quiet sense of specialness which, at least for another decadeor so, would give the children of the kibbutzim a disproportionate place inIsrael’s government and army, media and the arts. The same confidence whichhad convinced me as a raw recruit back in boot camp that I could lead a supplyconvoy to the edge of the Sinai. Since then, I’d begun to make a mark in SayeretMatkal as well, leading its first clandestine operation and receiving a citationfrom the chief-of-staff. Yet with Nili, I couldn’t help feeling unmoored, totallyout of my depth. She was part of a different Israel. She was a Tel Avivit, bornand raised in the largest and brashest city in our young state, a place which waseverything the kibbutz was not. She had graduated from Alliance, a high school83in north Tel Aviv set up with French backing and an accent on French languageand culture. Unlike the girls on the kibbutz – proud of their plain, utilitarianclothes and sensible shoes – she wore make-up and perfume and, when she wasout of uniform, bright print dresses. She never tried to make me feel out of place. Still,it was sometimes hard not to wonder whether she saw me as a country bumpkin – anice, interesting, bright county bumpkin, perhaps, but still an interloper or a curiosity inher world.It wasn’t until April, the day before I was due to leave for the French commandofortress in Mont Louis, that I plucked up the courage to ask her out. I needn’t haveworried. She smiled. In fact, she proposed that since I was about to leave the country,she should be the one doing the asking. She invited me to dinner that evening atthe apartment she shared with her parents and younger sister, about a half-milefrom the kirya, a few blocks back from the Mediterranean. Dinner was lessawkward than I feared, but I still felt nervous, until the dishes were cleared andNili and I went out to chat on the apartment balcony and, just before I left, toshare a first kiss.We wrote each other almost every day while I was away in France. Once Igot back, we met whenever I wasn’t preparing for a sayeret operation. This wasthe first girl I’d known whom I could talk to, and listen to, on almost anysubject with a feeling that it was natural and somehow meant to be. But in thesecond half of 1963, I was working almost non-stop on preparing for a sayeretoperation. I still saw Nili when I could, sometimes at her apartment, but alsooccasionally going out to a movie, a meal or a concert in Tel Aviv. Yet what Imost wanted was an acknowledgment that we were not just dating: acommitment that we intended the relationship to last. I didn’t say this to Nili.Years later, she would say this was down to pride. In fact, I was afraid shewould say no. And in the periods when we were apart, I couldn’t help askingmyself why she hadn’t raised the question of a deeper commitment.Even more frustrating, by the time I entered Hebrew University inSeptember 1965, our relationship was again being conducted by mail. After hermilitary service, she took a two-year posting at our embassy in Paris. I couldunderstand the attraction, not just because of her taste for all things French. Shewas working with the Mossad to help Moroccan Jews skirt an officialemigration ban and get to Israel. Still, it meant that charting our future together,if we had one, was going to have to wait.84* * *The intellectual experience at university everything I hoped. The challengewas finding a way to juggle my studies with my military reserve duty. In otherunits, most reservists could schedule their one month per year when classesweren’t in session. To be of use to Sayeret Matkal, I’d have to report when Iwas most needed, and four weeks was unlikely to be enough. Near the end ofmy first term, from late 1965 into the new year, I was called to participate in ourlatest mission into the Sinai. The next winter, and through early 1967, I wascalled up for another mission and was away for nearly two months.That operation was prompted by the fact the Egyptians had begun laying anew communications cable, parallel to the one where we’d put our intercepts.With the diggers getting closer to where I’d led the first Sinai mission, thekirya was worried that they might unearth the apparatus we’d installed. Intheory, at least, we’d planned for that. The bugging unit which we buriedincluded a booby-trap explosive device. Still, nearly four years on, we couldn’tbe absolutely sure it would work. So the decision was taken to send the sayeretback on a further night crossing into the Sinai, defuse the explosives, and bringthe whole thing back to Israel. Since I was the one who’d installed it, I wasgiven the job of removing it.The officer in overall command of the mission was Nechemia Cohen. Hewas a good friend, and one of the finest officers in the unit. Before I left foruniversity, I’d mentored him so that he could take over my role as the effectivenumber-two officer in the sayeret, in charge of all our core operationalactivities. He, too, was now about to leave, though not to for university. He wasbecoming deputy commander of a paratroop company, under another formerSayeret Matkal, named Yechiel Amsalem.I was meant to defuse the booby-trap remotely: with a 12-foot-long metaltool designed by the technology unit. I was fairly confident I’d manage. Butwhen Chief-of-Staff Rabin heard about the operation, he summoned me, alongwith Eliezer Gonn, the scientist working with us on the plan to defuse thebooby-trap. Rabin was with a half-dozen other officers when we arrived. Gonnhad brought along a mock-up of the explosive device, which he proceeded toplace on Rabin’s office table. But as I took out the extension tool and started toexplain how I was going to defuse the device, Rabin turned to Gonn and asked:“Could it blow up spontaneously?”85“Yes, it could,” he said.“What?” Rabin barked.Gonn replied matter-of-factly: “It is a physical device. It obeys the laws ofphysics. When, for instance, there’s a thunderstorm in Turkey, a flash oflightning could discharge at precisely the frequency needed, or one of its lowerharmonies, with enough energy to activate the fuse in the detonator.”I was far junior to everyone else in the room. But as a physics student, I wasprobably the only one who could fully follow the argument he was making.Looking at Rabin’s expression, it was clear that he was about to cancel theoperation on the spot. “Excuse me, sir,” I said. “Could I ask Doctor Gonnanother question?”I pointed at an unopened bottle of orange soda on Rabin’s desk. “Tell me,” Iasked the physicist, “is it possible that the fluid in that bottle is spontaneouslyleaking through the glass even as I’m speaking?”“Sure,” Gonn said. “It might take years before even a fraction of a centimeterof the soda goes missing. But glass is like a ‘frozen’ liquid, and liquid water, orthe molecules, are seeping into, and through, the more viscous ‘liquid’ of theglass. It’s just physics.”Rabin looked at me, then at Gonn. But he had clearly got the message. “Theoperation is confirmed,” he said, in the deep, gravelly voice I would becomemuch more familiar with in the years ahead. “Good luck.”The device didn’t explode, but I couldn’t defuse it either. I did manage to getthe remote metal tool locked on the bolt on the booby trap. But it wouldn’tbudge – even when I waved back Nechamia and the others and took out anordinary wrench. Though this was the first of my sayeret missions that ended infailure, that wasn’t what worried me as we boarded our helicopter back intoIsrael a couple of hours before dawn. It was the real possibility that theEgyptians would inadvertently discover that we’d been intercepting theircommunications. Dovik Tamari, as sayeret commander, was especially upset.This was one of the last operations during his period in command of the unit. Hewas about to hand over to a veteran paratroop officer, Uzi Yairi.Yet our aborted Sinai mission turned out not to matter. What saved oureavesdropping network was the very thing which I was confident would nothappen when I left for university: another Arab-Israeli war.86* * *Tension began building in the north in the spring of 1967, initially set off bySyrian efforts to divert water from the upper reaches of the Jordan River, animportant water source for Israel was well. In a series of exchanges, Syriantroops on the Golan fired on Israeli tractors in the demilitarized zone below, andbegan shelling our argicultural settlements in the Galilee, while we respondedwith tank fire and then air power, scrambling our jets and shooting down sixSyrian MiG-21s.The first indication that we might be headed toward war came as I returnedto university for the spring term, and trouble began brewing in the south. Ben-Gurion had by now retired as prime minister. His successor was the undeniablythoughtful, if far less charismatic, Levi Eshkol. During Israel’s IndependenceDay parade on May 15, he received word that Egypt had moved thousands oftroops into the Sinai, nearer to the border with Israel. Then, with the Sovietswarned Nasser of what they said were Israeli plans for a preemptive strikeagainst Syria, he went further expelling the United Nations force put in placeafter the 1956 war. On May 23, he closed the Straits of Tiran, Israel’s tradinggateway to the Red Sea and the source of virtually all our oil imports.I was told to report to Sayeret Matkal the following day, as part of the firstgroup of reservists called up. When I reached the base, Uzi Yairi, who was nowin charge of the unit, organized us into four teams. He put me in command ofone of them. We were told to prepare ourselves to helicopter into the Sinai,attack a series of Egyptian air bases and put the runways out of commission. Myteam’s target was the base at Gebel Libni, not far from where I’d placed, andrecently failed to defuse, our first intelligence intercept.With each passing day, war looked more likely, and there was no confidencewe would win without a costly struggle. In 1948, Arab attacks had killed about170 people in Tel Aviv. Now, word got out that a park in the center of the cityhad been set aside to allow for the burial of as many as 5,000. With Israel’smilitary commanders pressing Eshkol to take the initiative and launch apreemptive strike, he delivered a radio address at the end of May, intended toreassure the country the situation was under control. But due to last-minute,handwritten changes to his typescript, he faltered while reading it. He sounded87anything but under control. Within days, he bowed to political pressure andbrought back Moshe Dayan, now a member of the Knesset, as Defense Minister.I still vividly remember a visitor to the sayeret the day after Eshkol’saddress. Colonel Eli Zeira was head of the “collection department” of theintelligence corps, the rough equivalent of America’s National Security Agency.Formally, Sayeret Matkal was part of his department. He called together all theofficers. He said that there had so far been three periods in the Zionist project.The first was from the early settlements in Palestine at the end of the 19thcentury until the establishment of Israel in 1948. The second, from 1948 untilthe 1956 War. The third from 1956 until now. Then he said: “There will soon bea war. Three Arab countries will take part. Within a week, we will defeat all ofthem. And a new chapter in the history of Zionism will begin.”The Six-Day War began on June 5, 1967. As Eli Zeira so confidentlypredicted, not just Egypt and Syria, but Jordan, too, joined forces against us.And it was indeed all over within a week. The final outcome – Israel’s victory –was sealed by noon on the first day, with wave after wave of pre-emptivebombing sorties destroying the entire air force of all three Arab countries. Butthe fighting which followed was brutal in places: especially around Jerusalem,but also in the south at the outset of the war, and later on the Golan Heights.The first effect back in Israel of our air force attacks was to make our sayerethelicopter missions into the Sinai suddenly superfluous. In fact, it left the entireunit at loose ends – especially veterans or reservists like me who had been partof our nearly decade-long development into Israel’s sole, dedicated cross-borderinfiltration force. At this point, we were still just an intelligence unit, not anelite commando force like Britain’s SAS, Avraham Aranan’s ultimate vision forthe sayeret. The aim of our bugging missions into Syria and Egypt was not tofight. It was to get in and get out, unseen and undetected. But we were not onlyequipped to fight if necessary. From the unit’s earliest days under the sway ofMeir Har-Zion, Kapusta and Gibli and Errol and the other grizzled vets fromUnit 101 and Company A, we had been steeped in the spirit of commandos. Ourtraining was the most rigorous in the Israeli armed forces, involving not just apunishing endurance régime but learning to assemble and disassemble, fire anddetonate, everything from handguns to machine guns, makeshift explosives togrenades and landmines.The frustration we felt on the first morning of the war was not because wewere itching to fight, for the hell of it. One hallmark of the sayeret’s ethos,especially once the unit did start to evolve into a full-fledged commando unit,88was always the principle of targeted force, the idea that we would take outtargets, or defeat enemies, out of military necessity. But even on the first day ofthe war, it was clear that it would be by far the most consequential conflict inour country’s history. There was no mission for Sayeret Matkal, nor, it seemed,any prospect of our playing any significant part.The fact that my own role was slightly less peripheral was due to AvrahamArnan. He phoned me almost as soon as we’d got news of the Israeli air victory,and told me he had been told to take a few men from the sayeret across thesouthern border. Our assignment was to complete our failed attempt to defusethe booby-trap on the intercept in the Sinai. I quickly drafted in two others fromthe unit. One was Danny Michaelson, a friend from Hebrew University, wherewe had been lab partners. The other was Rafi Friedman, our paramedic, whohad been with me on several of our missions on the Golan.Avraham arrived at the base around noon. I got a Jeep and we set off. Wecrossed into Egypt around four o’clock in the afternoon and headed for the fieldheadquarters of Israel Tal. Known as Talik, he was the commander of Israel’sarmored corps, and Avraham knew him well. His wartime division consisted ofthe country’s premier tank unit, the Seventh Armored Brigade, and a reservebrigade. We accompanied them the next day to an abandoned Egyptian campnot far from El Arish, in the northern Sinai. At least, we’d assumed it wasabandoned. As Talik and Avraham were talking in his command post, we heard asudden burst of gunfire, which seemed to come from just a few dozen yardsoutside. As everyone inside the command post looked around, Avraham turnedto me and said: “Ehud, don’t you think we ought to deal with it?” Then, toTalik: “Make sure none of your guys shoots him.”I got Danny and Rafi. We made our way toward an underground bunker,which seemed the most likely source of the gunfire. Hugging the wall as I ledthe way down a series of concrete steps, I clicked off the safety on my Uzi justin case. But with the main Egyptian forces in obvious retreat, I figured thatwhoever was doing the shooting would have to be shellshocked, or insanelybrave, to put up a fight. There were eight men crouched inside, soldiers andseveral staff officers cradling Kalashnikovs, and an Egyptian army general. Inwhat was obviously at least serviceable Arabic, I told them all to raise theirhands. I made a brief attempt to interrogate the general, but quickly reached thelimits of my linguistic proficiency. So we marched them away and handed themover to Talik’s intelligence officers.89This interlude instantly conferred on us the desert equivalent of street cred.The next morning, Talik agreed we could accompany the Seventh Brigade as itmoved deeper into the Sinai, and peel off when we got closer to Gebel Libni tocomplete our “sayeret mission.” Given the early course of the fighting, and ourforces’ rapid advances in the Sinai, I couldn’t help wondering whether therewas any real need to defuse, much less remove, the bugging machinery. But thevery fact that the kirya, in the early hours of the war, had still wanted us to trywas a reflection of the deep sense of apprehension in Israel in the weeks beforethe war. Even now, it appeared, there was a concern that the Egyptians mightreclaim the parts of the Sinai which we had captured.When the armored column got close to Gebel Libni, I pulled our Jeep asideand headed for the stretch of communications cable where we’d planted theintercept. For several hours, I tried to accomplish in broad daylight what I’dfailed to do in the desert darkness four months earlier. But it was no use. Ifinally told Avraham we’d be better off just blowing it up. I attached anexplosive charge and set a two-minute delay. We watched from a couple ofhundred yards away as the whole assembly disintegrated. Then we rejoined theSeventh Brigade.Before sunset on the third day of the war, we reached the Egyptian air baseat Bir Gafgafa in the heart of the Sinai. Even had the war ended then, we wouldhave been in control of a large chunk of the desert buffer zone which Ben-Gurion had hoped to retain after the 1956 war. But now, more quickly than eventhe most optimistic planners in the kirya could have anticipated, Talik waspoised to move on – toward the Suez Canal, and the main towns and cities ofEgypt. As the Seventh Brigade billeted down in Bir Gafgafa, Talik sent hisreserve brigade westward, in the direction of the canal.We went with them. The battalion was more mobile than a pure tank force,but also more vulnerable: lightly armored French AMX-13s and a collection ofthe halftracks which I dimly, unfondly, remembered from my tironut. A few ofthe AMXs led the way, then a line of halftracks, and more tanks at the rear. Inosed our Jeep into the middle, behind the battalion commander, a lieutenantcolonelnamed Ze’ev Eitan. There were scattered groups of Egyptian soldiers oneither side of us, and they aimed an occasional burst of fire in our direction. Butthere seemed little point in shooting back. We didn’t need to fight, and it wasclear that the Egyptians didn’t really want to.Shortly before dark, Lieutenant-Colonel Eitan brought our column to halt.The road we were on cut through tall sandunes on either side. We knew there90were still Egyptian soldiers around us, though I doubt any of us expectedtrouble. Still, there were well-established rules for setting up a defensibleposition when an armored force halts for the night. As Eitan briefed his officers,I stood a few feet off to the side and listened. Suddenly, the commander of hisAMX company interrupted. “Sir,” he said, “why are we staying here – right onthe main road? There are Egyptians still out there. Behind us, for sure. And anyforce ahead of us will run straight into us. Why not a few hundred yards off tothe side, in a place that gives us a view of any enemy movement, or allows us toambush an approaching force?” I could see that he was right. I expected Eitan toagree and alter the arrangements. But he didn’t. I think that, having ordered hismen to encamp on the road 20 minutes earlier, he was reluctant to get his tanksand halftracks moving again. No doubt, some of the exhausted crews werealready asleep.I parked our Jeep a few yards off the road. We organized a series of watches:Avraham, then Rafi and Danny, with me taking the pre-dawn stretch. A fewhours later, Rafi nudged me awake. “I heard something,” he said, pointing westtoward the Suez Canal. “It was faint. But I think so.” I told him to keeplistening. For a while, everything seemed fine. Then, Danny woke me up. Hesaid he was sure he heard a faint tremor, as if from tanks or APCs. I put my earto the ground. I heard it too. I told him to go to Eitan’s command halftrack,insist he be woken up, and tell him. When he got back, Danny said: “I toldhim.”“And?”“Don’t know,” he replied. “He said I could go.” I tried to grab a bit moresleep before my watch. But barely 15 minutes later, Danny jostled me awakeagain. “I’m sure now,” he said. “Whatever it is, it’s closer.” I went off to findEitan. But before I got there, a column of Egyptian T-55 tanks suddenlyappeared on the road, 50 yards from the front of our column. I’m sure they wereevery bit as surprised as we were to be face-to-face with enemy armor. But theyknew what to do. They opened fire.Had we been deployed a few hundred yards off the road, we’d have seenthem coming. If the battalion commander had acted on Danny’s warning, we’dhave had an extra 20 minutes to prepare. But the shells jolted our crews awake.Within 30 seconds, they were returning fire. But our tanks barely dented theheavily armored T- 55s. Nearly every one of theirs seemed to score a direct hit.Within minutes, a number of our halftracks, and one of our tanks, were inflames.91Now that we were in a fight –the single fiercest battle in Israel’s advanceacross the Sinai – Lieutenant-Colonel Eitan reacted swiftly. Standing tall amid theshellfire and the flames, he radioed for supporting fire, only to be told that none ofour artillery batteries was within range. Realizing we couldn’t penetrate thefront armor of the Egyptian tanks, he ordered a platoon from the rear to leavethe road and fire on the Egyptians’ from their flank. When one T-55 was hit andstarted to burn, he ordered the rest of us to collect the dead and wounded andretreat toward Bir Gafgafa.As we pulled back, we encountered a company of Centurion tanks from theSeventh Brigade, sent in to relieve us. We pulled off the road to let them pass.The battle ended up raging for another hour. By the time it was over, theEgyptian tank unit was nearly destroyed. But almost two dozen of Eitan’sreservists had been killed. A few days later, I learned that the commander of theCenturions had also been killed. His name was Shamai Kaplan. Though I didn’tknow him personally, he was married to one of my kibbutz “sisters” fromMishmar Hasharon.* * *The pace of the war, its intensity, and the transformative capture of territoryacross our 1948 borders had accelerated dramatically since we’d joined thereserve battalion’s ill-fated advance toward the canal. Back at Bir Gafgafa, welearned that Israeli troops had broken through in fierce fighting with theJordanians and taken the whole of east Jerusalem, including the Old City andthe site of the remains of the ancient temple. The news sent a shiver down myspine. I was still only 25, a kibbutznik raised on the assertively secular creed ofGordinian Zionism. But I was old enough to remember the war of 1948, thebitter struggle for the ancient city in which Judaism had been born, the packagesof food we had sent to try to help break the siege there, and the division ofJerusalem at the end of the war, leaving us with only its newer, western half.And while I may not have read the Torah in the same way as a religiouslyobservant Jew, the meaning of Jerusalem was no less powerful for me. It waspart of our people’s history, of who we were, where we’d come from and howwe had ended up in the place where I’d been born, where I’d grown up, andwhich I’d spent the early part of my adult life defending. This was no less trueof the biblical sites of Judaea and Samaria – the West Bank of the Jordan river.92Places like Bet El, Shiloh, or Hebron. They represented the historic wellspringnot just of the state we’d created, but of Jewish civilization, our heritage, ourmoral and ethical foundation. As I drove back to Tel Aviv with Avraham andthe others on the morning of fourth day of the war, we heard Israeli groundforces were consolidating their hold there as well.After dropping Avraham at the kirya, we drove back to the sayeret base, butit was nearly empty. The main fighting was now with Syrian armored units onthe Golan Heights, and most of the men in the unit had gone north in the hopeof joining what seemed likely to be the final stage of the war. Although theprecise outcome was not yet clear, there was a dawning certainty, almostsurreal, thatIsrael was gaining control of all the areas across our 1948 borders fromwhich the Arab states around us had shelled Israeli farming settlements, orfacilitated fedayeen attacks and ambushes against our citizens – the very borderareas where I’d led intelligence operations in Sayeret Matkal.I, too, drove north. Not far from Kibbutz Dan, the staging point for our firstGolan operation, I linked up with a group of other sayeret reservists. Israelitanks had already broken the main resistance of the Syrians, but fighting wascontinuing in a few parts of the Golan. In the western corner of the Heightswhich bordered Lebanon, several villages still lay beyond the Israeli advance.We got an order to see if we could take them. It took barely an hour, against nomore resistance than I’d met in “capturing” the Egyptians in the Sinai bunker.By the time we had made our way back across the Golan to the now-abandonedSyrian headquarters in Quneitra, it was sunset. The war was drawing to a close.I gave my Jeep to a couple of paratroopers and hot-wired a more comfortablemode of transport back home: a big, black Mercedes which had obviouslybelonged to a senior Syrian officer. If only because of the license plates, Iavoided the main road back into Israel. I found a dirt track running betweenSyrian positions on the southern edge of the Golan and descended toward thefruit groves of Kibbutz Ha’on, near the Sea of Galilee. I then headed forGivataim in north Tel Aviv, to a place I knew well. It was the home ofMenachem Digli. He had been Avraham Arnan’s deputy in the sayeret when Ileft for my stint in officers’ school. Before I returned to the unit, he had amotorcycle accident, badly damaging his leg. He’d been temporarily reassignedto a post in intelligence. I figured a Syrian Mercedes would make a nice gift.Not wanting to wake him, I left it in front of his house. Sadly, he never got touse it. The next day a couple of military policemen knocked on his door and93asked what he knew about the car outside. “Nothing,” he said. “It’s not mine.”They took it away.As insistently as I, and others in Sayeret Matkal, had wanted to play our parton the battlefields of the Six-Day War – in the Sinai, on the Golan, in the bitterbattle to capture Jerusalem, or amid the olive-green hills and valleys of the WestBank – we had to accept that, at most, we’d been freelance support troops. Ormere spectators. But while it would be many years before this was openlyacknowedlged, we did play an important part in the outcome. Because Dayanhad been called back as Defense Minister only days before the war, he hadwisely decided not to alter the plan for the preemptive air strikes. But he didadjust our ground advance. Just as with Eshkol’s knowledge of the initialEgyptian advance in the Sinai before the war, Dayan’s judgements wereinformed by detailed, real-time intelligence on where enemy tanks and troopswere located, what they were doing, and what how and when they wereplanning to advance.As speculation mounted after the war about how Israel seemed to know somuch the Arab forces, Meir Amit’s successor as Head of Military Intelligence,Ahrahle Yariv, even engaged in some misdirection. He was anxious to avoidjeopardizing future sayeret bugging operations. In a speech on how the war hadbeen won, he included a reference to a “high-ranking spy” in the Egyptian armywho, he implied, had leaked critical information. The “spy” was the series ofintercepts we’d attached to the Egyptians’ main military communicationsnetwork in the Sinai, and to the telephone poles on the Golan Heights.On a deeply personal level, too, the war left its mark on Sayeret Matkal.Though the fighting had been brief, people did die. Thousands of Egyptians,Syrians and Jordanians. And about 650 Israelis. Some of were not just peoplewe knew. They included close friends. Nechemia Cohen, the officer I’d joined inour failed attempt to defuse the booby-trap in the Sinai before the war, enteredGaza on the first day in his new role as deputy commander of Amsalem’sparatroop unit. Amsalem was killed early on, so Nechemia took command. Hewas shot and killed fifteen minutes later. To this day, he and I share thedistinction of being the most decorated soldiers in Israel’s history. Had he lived,I have no doubt that it is an honor he would have held alone.This was the first close friend from the unit we’d lost. We did not mourn himopenly. For young soldiers of my generation, especially but not only those raisedwith the additional kibbutz ethos of stolid self-control, there was an embeddedsense that such individual displays of emotion were an indulgence, and luxury94even, which the country we were building could not afford. In the early years ofthe state, the model Israel mother or father were those who stood silent and strongas a soldier’s coffin was lowered into the ground.Nechemia’s death hurt, of course. I was friends not just with him, but his olderbrother, Eliezer. Known by his army nickname, Cheetah, he was in charge of theair force’s main helicopter squadron. He had flown both me and Nechemia onsayeret missions into the Sinai. Several days after the war was over, beforereturning to university, I drove up to Jerusalem to see his family. Cheetah was atthe door when I arrived. Neither of us spoke. But as we embraced, I could feelmy eyes dampen, and there were tears in his eyes as well.“Our squadron was the one that got the call to bring out the casualties,” hesaid. “They ordered the pilot who brought out Nechemia not to tell me he wasdead… until the war was over.”“He was a wonderful man,” I said. “There was no one better.”* * *When I returned to Hebrew University, the country felt completely different.It was not just the sudden realization that, in military terms, Israel hadeliminated any realistic threat to its existence, important though that was. Themore profound change was physical. The country in which I’d grown up was aplace which felt not just small, but pinched, especially in its “narrow waist” nearMishmar Hasharon. Pre-1967 Israel was about three-quarters the size of thestate of New Hampshire. Now, within the space of less than a week, theterritory Israel controlled had more than tripled. It included the whole SinaiDesert, up to the edge of the Suez Canal. The entire Golan. The ancient lands ofJudaea and Samaria: the West Bank. And the reunited capital city of Jerusalem.Suddenly, we had a sense that we could breathe. Wander, explore. Few ofmy classmates were religiously observant. But none of us could help feel thesense of connection as we walked through the Old City of Jerusalem, or parts ofthe West Bank whose place-names resonated from the Bible. I felt especiallymoved when I first visited the Old City with my friends, stopping and chattingand buying things at the colorful market stalls. And, religious or not, when Istood in front of the surviving Western Wall of the ancient Jewish temple.95The personal interactions we had with Palestinians in the weeks after the warwere without obvious tension, much less hostility. They were often friendly.Looking back, I’m sure that was one reason – along with simple human nature,a desire to enjoy Israel’s new sense of both security and size – that none of uswas inclined to look too deeply, or too far ahead, and contemplate theimplications for our country’s future. I was aware, of course, that the politenesswe exchanged with the Palestinians of Jerusalem or the West Bank weresuperficial: a few words across a market stall or a restaurant counter. I did notpretend to myself that our Arab neighbors were now suddenly inclined to be ourfriends.But I did feel that, having come face-to-face with our overwhelming militarysupremacy, the Arab states would, over time, grant Israel simple acceptance.From there, I believed that we could begin the process of building genuine,lasting, human relationships and, eventually, peace.There was a brief period after the war when Eshkol cautioned his ministersabout the implications of holding on to the vast new area we had conquered.The government formally agreed to treat most of it, with the exception ofJerusalem, as a “deposit” to be traded for the opening of peace talks. Yet withinweeks, the emphasis in the Israeli political debate shifted to which parts wewould keep: the Sinai and the Golan almost certainly, as well as the JordanValley and a number of areas of past Jewish settlement on the West Bank. Thedrift away from any serious talk of trading land for peace was accelerated by theArab states’ response to the war. Perhaps that, too, was simply a matter ofhuman nature, a reluctance on their part to accept defeat. But they appeared nomore ready than before to contemplate peace. Throughout the summer, therewere clashes along our new “border” with Egypt: the Suez Canal. In September,all the Arab states adopted a platform which became known as the “three no’s”.They rejected not just the idea of peace, but peace talks, or recognition of theState of Israel. And in October, Egyptian missile boats attacked and sunk Israel’slargest warship, the destroyer Eilat, killing nearly 50 people on board.Without this renewed violence, perhaps, we in Israel might have been able toconsider more deeply the future implications of our victory in the Six-Day War.The gains on the battlefield, of course, were clear to everyone. We were nolonger a small, constricted country beset by a sense of vulnerability. We werenot only much bigger, but also stronger than the combined armies of the Arabstates. Still, very few people asked themselves at the time what kind of Israelthis implied. We failed to grasp the potential complications in holding on to all96the land, and of controlling the daily lives, however benignly, of the hundreds ofthousands of Arabs who lived there. Nor, crucially, did we ponder thelimitations of military strength, alone, in addressing these questions. We – and I,too, at the time – were too caught up in a sense of post-war relief, celebrationand, as the months of ostensible normalcy in this new Israel, complacency aswell.But within only a few years, we would face a dramatically different series ofchallenges. First, a campaign of Palestinian terror. Then, another full-scale war,which began with a surprise attack by Arab armies which we had assumedwould not dare to fight us again.97Chapter SevenIf you’d visited Tel Aviv in July 1967, you would have sensed a new spiritof confidence, not cockiness exactly, but a sort of spring in the collective step.This was not just due to the Six-Day War. It was because the city, if not yet therest of the country, had shed the economic austerity of Israel’s first two decadesand was beginning to experience at least some of the consumer comforts whichWestern Europe, or America, took for granted. But we were still a decade awayfrom the first shopping malls, or the upscale cafés and restaurants whichnowadays give places like Dizengoff Street, a few blocks back from theseafront, the feel of London or Paris on a summer’s day. Television had beenintroduced only a year before the war. Color TV was still nearly a decade away.I can’t say I was surprised to learn, when the archives were opened a few yearsago, that a committee of moral arbiters in our Ministry of Education vetoedplans for the Beatles to perform in the city. “No intrinsic artistic value,” theypronounced. “And their concerts provoke mass hysteria.”Even in Tel Aviv, and certainly the rest of Israel, a kind of cultural austeritystill prevailed, an emphasis on modesty and self-restraint. It was a legacy of1948, a reflection of the years of shared sacrifice, physical labor, and the lifeand-deathstruggles which I, like most Israelis at the time, had experiencedwithin our own lifetimes. That may help explain why I can remember no oneremarking on an aspect of my character which, once I rose to publicprominence, would attract attention, frequent comment, and sometimescriticism as well: the fact that I seemed so self-contained, reluctant to engageemotionally with people beyond a circle of close friends or confidants. My lackof smalltalk, and the kind of gladhanding and schmoozing that are the currencyof political life. At the time of the 1967 war, I was not yet a public figure. Yet tothe extent those around me would have taken note – family, universityclassmates, sayeret comrades, or officers in the kirya – my slight emotionalaloofness, my focus on simply getting things done, and the way I internalizedsetbacks, even tragedies like the death of Nechemia Cohen, was not exceptional.It was, in many ways, simply Israeli.Yet as Israel, Israeli society and my place in them changed, it would besuggested to me more than once – not always kindly, when it was from critics orrivals – that I had a “touch of Aspbergers” in me, a reference to those on themore benign reaches of the autism spectrum with a special facility for math,98abstract ideas, the theoretical sciences and, often, music as well. I would alwayssmile in response, suggesting that such diagnoses were probably best left to theprofessionals. I couldn’t pretend, however, that emotional engagement with newacquaintances, even with people I knew and liked but were not close friends,was something that came naturally. And it is also true that from my firstexperience of the world of numbers as a child on the kibbutz, and as I tackledever more elaborate pieces on the piano, I did become aware of what might becalled the upside of “a touch of Aspergers” – if that, indeed, is what it is. I wasconscious of the ease with which my brain translated the complexities intopictures in my mind. And the joy, at times, with which it allowed me to playaround with, and develop, what I saw.By the summer of 1967, I had experienced that feeling again, in my first realencounter with theoretical physics at Hebrew University. After the Six-DayWar, I began seriously contemplating a future as a research scientist, or perhapseventually a professor of physics. Two months after the war, I enrolled in asummer program at the Weizmann Institute, Israel’s preeminent postgraduateresearch facility. Surrounded by some of the country’s, even the world’s,leading scientists, and by post-doctoral students determined to follow in theirfootsteps, was intellectually enthralling. But it turned out to have another effecton me as well. As I thought more and more about the prospect of joining theirfraternity once I’d completed my undergraduate degree, I also heard themdescribe the way in which pure science sometimes got submerged in simpleroutine, or, more discouragingly, in the politics and positioning and backbitingof the academic world.I think what finally changed my mind, however, was a feeling, nurtured onthe kibbutz but solidified by that many nights I’d spent leading sayeretoperations across our borders, that I would find my true purpose in life trying tomake some special contribution to the future course of Israel. I did not for amoment contemplate politics at that point. Instead, I thought of going back intothe military. I realized that in order to make a significant mark, if indeed Icould, would require me to serve in the regular army, not just an extraordinaryunit like Sayeret Matkal. But I did hope that, at some stage, I’d be given theopportunity to finish my time in the sayeret as its commander, carrying onAvraham’s vision and, ideally, building and expanding on it as well. At least ifthat part proved possible, I felt that, by comparison, a career in academia wouldbe somehow blinkered, and surely less fulfilling personally. My sayeretexperience had also taught me something else as well: that protecting Israel’ssecurity was not just a matter of muscle, or firepower, indispensible though they99sometime were. It called for mental application, an ability to assess risks, to findanswers under enormous pressure when, inevitably, things went wrong. Itrequired not just brawn, but brains.A week before I began my final year at Hebrew University, I went to see EliZeira, the senior intelligence officer who’d so brashly predicted the course ofthe Six-Day War, in hopes of sounding out my prospects of picking up mymilitary career where I’d left off. Despite a yawning gap in rank and age – Eliwas nearly fifteen years older – I felt I could be open with him. Not only did Iknow him from Sayeret Matkal, which came under his purview in the kirya. Hewas a scientist manqué and was eager, as soon as I arrived in his office, to hearabout my physics studies. When I did manage to turn the conversation to thearmy, I told him I was thinking of returning after I graduated. Yet before finallydeciding, I wanted his honest opinion about my chances, at some point, of beinggiven command of the sayeret. He began with a series of caveats. The choice offuture leaders of the sayeret was not be his to make. When the currentcommander, Uzi Yairi, ended his term in roughly 18 months’ time, I’d still betoo young to have a realistic chance. “Maybe even next time around,” he said.And in any case, I would first need to get some experience in the regular army.“But then,” he concluded, “my opinion is that you have a very good chance ofbecoming commander of the unit.” That was more than enough. I figured thatwhether it actually happened would now ultimately be down to me.My last year at university was the closest thing I would have to a normalstudent existence. I was called away only once. But it was for a battle whichwould turn out to have a lasting impact on the course of our conflict with theArabs, and on the prospects of eventually finding a way to make peace. It wasIsrael’s largest military action since the war, across our new de facto border withJordan. And it was directed at a new enemy: a fledgling army of Palestinianfedayeen, called Fatah. It was led by a man that I, like almost all Israelis, hadnever heard of at the time: Yasir Arafat. Born in Egypt, as a 19-year-old he hadfought against the establishment of Israel in the 1948 war. Although Fatah hadnominally existed for nearly a decade, it was only now emerging as a politicalforce, in large part because of the Arab armies’ humiliating defeat in the Six-Day War. A Palestinian political leadership already existed, in the shape of thePalestine Liberation Ogranization. But it was based in Cairo. Its chairman was,for all practical purposes, an adjunct of President Nasser’s leadership role in theArab world. Though Arafat had not yet explicitly challenged this state of affairs,his, and Fatah’s, rise after the war carried a powerful, message for the existingArab presidents and prime ministers: their brash promises of victory before the1001967 war had turned out to be hollow words. It was time for a new generation,and a new, more direct, form of confrontation with the “Zionist enemy.”Arafat had set up camp with nearly a thousand men just across the JordanRiver, in a town called Karameh. From early 1968, they had been launching hitand-runraids, not just on the West Bank but into the Negev. Eshkol’s cabinetwas initially divided on whether to attack his base in Jordan, in both an act ofretaliation and a signal to King Hussein that if his army didn’t rein in Arafat’smen, Israel would take whatever action necessary. But the decisive momentcame on the eighteenth of March. A school bus near Eilat, in the far south ofIsrael, hit a Fatah landmine, killing the driver and a teacher, and injuring 10 ofthe children.I was called up the night before the Israeli attack, as part of a small SayeretMatkal contingent which was supposed to play a support role. An enormouspincer operation was mounted around the Fatah camp and Karameh itself:including a full infantry brigade, the Seventh Armored Brigade and theparatroopers’ sayeret. But the resistance they met, both from Fatah andJordanian troops, was much fiercer than expected. One of the paratroopcommandos, Mookie Betzer, who would go on to join Sayeret Matkal, told mehow they landed by helicopter and immediately came under a hail of AK-47fire. Within minutes, several of his men had been killed. Mookie was wounded.The tanks of the Seventh Brigade advanced from the south. Battling theJordanian army, they took losses as well. Amnon Lipkin, who would also laterbecome a friend and colleague, in both the army and Israeli politics, was incommand of a unit of lightly armored French tanks called AMLs. They, too,were hopelessly outgunned.Our sayeret assignment was to block the southern entrance to Karameh asthe Israeli armored force advanced. But we got bogged down in mud as wemade our way from the Jordan River. By the time we arrived, hundreds ofArafat’s men had already fled the area. Arafat, too, had escaped, on the back of amotorcycle.By the time the fighting was over, some two hundred Fatah fighters had beenkilled. But nearly 30 Israeli soldiers lost their lives as well, and more than twicethat number were wounded. Politically, the outcome was even murkier. Most ofIsrael was still basking in our victory in the Six-Day War. Now, we haddeployed many of the same units, only to fight to what looked like a costlydraw. Arafat and Fatah could claim – and soon did – that they had stood andfought, and inflicted losses on the victors of 1967.101* * *In retrospect, given all the interruptions, I’m a little surprised that I managedto get through my university studies. My classmates helped. They wereincredibly generous in going through with me what I’d missed, and sharing theirnotes, whenever I returned for an extended stint of reserve duty. I’ve seeninterviews with university friends saying I was one of the top students in ourclass. But that is more generous than true. It would be fairer to say I was a goodstudent.Working hard in the final year, I did finish in the upper quarter of theclass, and several of my math and science professors strongly urged me to go onto graduate school.But my mind was made up on returning to the army. And as I balanced mystudies with plans for the future during my final months, I still hadn’t given uphope that Nili would be there with me. When she returned from Paris, we hadstarted seeing each other again. Whenever I could, I would take the bus down toTel Aviv and spend the weekend with her. Everything I’d loved about her sincethat first meeting in the kirya, everything I valued in our relationship, was stillthere. Yet so, too, were the doubts: whether she was ready to commit herself tosharing our lives together; and whether a kibbutznik like me could ever truly fitin to her Tel Avivi world. Shortly before Karameh, she’d invited me to a Fridaynightparty with a group of her friends. It was the first time she was includingme, as part of a couple, in her social circle. But almost from the moment we gotthere, I felt out of place. For her, it was just another party, one of dozens shemust have been to since she was a teenager. But I immediately felt out of place.I didn’t drink. I couldn’t dance. I couldn’t help feeling like a wallflower, or analien presence.Now, I decided there was no point in waiting and wondering. I borrowed aJeep from an army friend, with the idea that Nili and I could spend three or fourdays together, driving south from Jerusalem into the Negev and the Judeandesert: to be alone, to talk, to see whether we actually had a future. I wrote her anote, took the bus to Tel Aviv while she was at work, and dropped it through theletterbox. “I am going on this trip, into the desert,” it said. “I’d love it if youcould come with me. I think it’s important for us.”I never heard back. I felt crushed, though I tried hard to tell myself it wasbetter to know where we stood. Years later, she told me the envelope had ended102up under a pile of mail. She hadn’t seen it until a week afterwards. She said thatof course she would have come with me. She felt angry with herself, and withme too, for not simply having phoned. But since I didn’t contact her in theweeks that followed, she figured this was just another one of our times apart. Or“stupid pride”. A few months later, I heard she was engaged to be married, to ayoung man she’d known since their high school days at the Alliance.I had first met Nava Cohen, the woman I would go on to marry, the previousyear. It was through another Cohen, though they were not related: Nechemia,my sayeret friend who was killed in the 1967 war. He invited me to Tel Avivfor a party in the spring, on the Jewish holiday of Purim, and introduced us.Nava was just nineteen, five years younger than me. I was struck not just by thefact she was attractive, but by her poise, warm-heartedness, and her obviousintelligence. But she had her boyfriend with her, and I still saw myself and Nilias life partners. Now, she was beginning her studies at Hebrew University aswell, and, in a way, it was again NechemiaCohen who brought us together. Since his death, those of us who knew himfrom the sayeret had been looking for a fitting way to remember and to honorhim. We finally decided to set up a living memorial in his name: a MoadonSayarim, a center to train young people from all over Jerusalem in scouting andnavigation. We spent six months getting it up and running, and Nava pitched inwith the work.It wasn’t until a few months after I heard of Nili’s engagement that I finallyasked her on a date. We were in the university library, which had a space whereyou could listen to tapes through headphones. I would go to hear classicalmusic. Nava was studying English literature, and I’d sometimes see her there,engrossed in recordings of Shakespeare with the text of Hamlet or Macbeth infront of her. Since I wasn’t shackled by the need to follow the alacks andalasses, I read the newspaper as the music washed over me. I turned to themovie section. I circled three films, drew a question mark in the margin andpassed it to her. She looked puzzled for a second. Then she smiled and put acheckmark next to one of them.While we came from different backgrounds, the gap was narrower than ithad been with Nili. Her parental home was in Tiberias. Her parents were fromold Sephardi families, with a centuries-long history in Palestine, and were alsosolid Ben-Gurion Labor supporters. Her father had fought in the British army inthe Second World War. He now ran the branch of Bank Leumi in Tiberias. Hermother ran a shop in what was then the city’s best hotel, the Ginton.103We were married there, in the spring of 1969. My parents and brothers camewith two busloads of friends from the kibbutz. Avraham Arnan was there, ofcourse. But Ahraleh Yariv and Eli Zeira, two of the military intelligence heroesof the Six-Day War, also drove up for the wedding, which touched both Navaand me, not to mention her family and our guests. Years later, as I rose higher inthe ranks of the military, I would sometimes be invited to weddings by officersunder my command. Remembering how much we appreciated Ahraleh’s and EliZeira’s gesture. I always said yes.* * *It was only weeks after our wedding that I formally returned to SayeretMatkal. Both Nava and I were aware of the additional pressures my militarycommitments might place on our family life. But she understood why I’dchosen to go back, and was supportive. As for me, I was, if anything, morecertain that I’d made the right decision. Israel was clearly facing a whole newset of challenges to its security. Given the decisiveness, and speed, of ourvictory in 1967, there seemed no immediate danger of Egypt’s risking anotherfull-scale war. In Israel, where Golda Meir had become Prime Minister afterEshkol’s death from a heart attack, there was also little appetite for returning tothe battlefield. Yet the post-war skirmishes with the Egyptians along the SuezCanal had escalated into far more than that: what would become known as theWar of Attrition. Nor could there be any doubt, after Karameh, that Fatah’sinfluence, militancy and determination would only grow, not least because evenmore radical factions within the PLO were ready to step into the breach ifArafat faltered. Israel needed to find an answer for all these threats.Uzi Yairi’s term as Sayeret Matkal commander had by now ended, but hissuccessor was someone I knew well. Menachem Digli was the officer on whomI’d bestowed my stolen Syrian Mercedes at the end of the war. His leg was nowrecovered from the motorcycle accident, and I returned to the sayeret at hisdeputy. He delegated full responsibility to me for operational issues. I believedthat the new kind of challenges we were confronting, particularly the prospectof intensified attacks from the new generation of Palestinian fedayeen, meantthat the sayeret would sooner or later have to broaden its reach, moving beyondthe kind of intelligence operations we’d done before the 1967 war to becomethe SAS-like special forces unit Avraham ultimately envisaged. But that was not104going to happen soon, if only because the intelligence missions now requiredwere going to be a lot tougher. Israel now had control of the entire Sinai and theGolan. To tap into enemy communications, we would have to push deeperinside Egypt and Syria.Soon after my return, we began planning the sayeret’s most ambitiousmission so far: targeting the main communications system between Suez City,at the southern end of the canal, and Egyptian military headquarters in Cairo.We were obviously going to have to go in by helicopter. But we faced not justthe risk of being spotted on the way in. The buildup of Egyptian forces alongthe canal now included Soviet-made anti-aircraft missile batteries. We mighteasily get shot down.The mission struck the generals in the kirya as so risky as to border on theinsane. But I was confident that we could make it work. I began talking to thefew senior air force officers who seemed more receptive, as well as to officersin the helicopter units. Not only had I flown into the Sinai on earlier missions. Inow also had a physics degree. Together, we developed a plan – using the desertterrain, and drawing on the helicopters’ maneuverability – to calculate a flightroute that could avoid detection by Egyptian radar. As an extra fail-sale, Iproposed using three helicopters, and three sayeret teams. Two would flyslightly higher, with the express aim of getting spotted, but still evading missilefire. They would land far away from the real target of the operation. The mainteam, with me in command, would also stage a pair of diversionary attacks:planting explosives on a high-voltage electricity cable, and on the main oilpipeline from Suez City to Cairo.Still, for many weeks, the answer from the kirya was no. The man who hadsucceeded Rabin as chief-of-staff after the war, Chaim Bar-Lev, dismissed it as“a plan built on chicken legs.” In the end, what got us the green light was afurther escalation, on both sides, in the War of Attrition. In January 1970, Israeliwarplanes began a series of deep-penetration bombing raids, for the first timestriking targets dozens of miles, in some case hundreds of miles, back from thecanal. The Israeli bombing campaign reduced the chance we’d get shot down andprovided cover for our operation.Our helicopters took off after sunset, nearly skimming the water and peelingoff in separate directions on the far shore. The other two aircraft headed 120miles to the south. I led the main team of ten men. We set down a few milessouth of the road from Suez City to Cairo. We unloaded a pair of Jeeps, droveoff, and within an hour had placed our time-delay explosives on the electricity105tower and the pipeline. But when we reached the site of the undergroundcommunications cable, the mission literally ran into the ground. We dug formore than two hours, but still hadn’t found the cable, and our mail-order metaldetector stubbornly refused to chirp out any sign of it.Just when I’d decided to call the helicopter back in to get us, it finallypeeped a faint signal. I still wasn’t convinced, but as we manipulated it back andforth, it got louder. Still, my instinct was to abort. We’d placed the explosiveson the electricity tower and the pipeline. That would at least divert attentionfrom our real mission, which meant we could return in a few months and haveanother attempt. After all, the part of the operation that had been causing themost concern in the kirya – our ability to get deep inside Egypt undetected –had succeeded. We were nearly three hours behind schedule. Unless we workeda lot more quickly than planned, by the time we installed the communicationsintercept and covered our tracks, it would be daybreak.Digli and several other sayeret officers were following the mission fromtheir command post in the Sinai, part of the intelligence base our militaryengineers had built after the war into a 2,400-feet-high mountain called GebelUm-Hashiba, 20 miles back from the Suez Canal. When I radioed in to tell himI’d decided to abandon the operation, I could hear the surprise in his voice, andwhat seemed reluctance as well. “If that’s your judgement…” he said. Butbefore I could reply that, yes, I felt withdrawal was the wisest course, I heardhim speaking to someone whose voice I also recognized: Avsha Horan. He wasthe soldier on guard duty in the command post for our first intercept operationin the Sinai, the one who’d told me of how Rabin was chain-smoking and bitinghis nails when it appeared we might be in trouble. Now, he was a sayeretofficer. Digli came back on the radio. “We can see more from here,” he said.Then, pausing, he added: “Avsha says he thinks you can still do it.”I had grown to respect Avsha’s judgement. And while Digli hadn’t explainedwhat “more” they saw from the command post, I assumed that, since they werealso following the other helicopter teams further south, they were concernedthat the Egyptians had figured out at least that Israeli units were involved. Bothhe and I knew that it ultimately had to be my call. Whatever happened, I’d beresponsible. Yet I realized that discussing it further would change nothing, andtime was now what mattered most. “We’ll do it,” I told him, and signed off.We’d planned for the cable work to take something like five hours, which Iknew we couldn’t afford. With all of us pitching in, sweat drenching our“Egyptian” uniforms, we managed to finish in slightly less than four. But we106were still behind schedule. Dawn was 25 minutes away. I radioed the helicopterpilot with a new pickup point, closer to where we’d installed the equipmentthough still far enough, I hoped, to avoid giving away what we’d done. Still, webarely made it. The sun was rising as the chopper began weaving among thedunes and wadis on the flight back to Israel. Looking back, we could see flamesleaping up from the oil pipeline in the dim, dawn light.There could be no doubt the prize was worth it. By the time we returned, thereceiving equipment at Um-Hashiba was, for the first time, picking up real-timecommunications at the highest level of the Egyptian military. With the War ofAttrition showing every sign of getting even fiercer, it was a criticialintelligence advantage. When we landed, not only Digli, but Ahrale Yariv werethere to meet us. Digli, smiling broadly, handed me a small cloth insignia.“You’ve earned it,” he said, adding that Bar-Lev himself had endorsed mypromotion from captain to major.* * *With the Cairo-Suez mission, and a series of other operations I helped runnearer to the canal, there now seemed every possibility that I would be chosento succeed Digli as commander when his term expired. But that was still morethan a year away, in the spring of 1971. With his agreement, I decided to use thetime to do what Eli Zeira had advised me before I made my decision to return:to get experience in the regular army. The War of Attrition had created ademand for qualified officers who could command tank units, since they wereplaying a key role against the Egyptians along the canal. Along with about adozen other middle-ranking officers who had volunteered to move into thearmored corps, I embarked on a course covering every facet of tank warfare:how each system on an individual tank worked, how to pilot one, load in theshells, and then calibrate its main gun, aim and fire. We studiedcommunications protocols, even tank maintenance. We were taught how tocommand an armored platoon – a group of three tanks – and then an armoredcompany of eleven tanks and APCs. Finally, in July 1970, we were givencommand of actual companies, with the aim of deploying us against theEgyptians.My company was part of Brigade 401, in the Sinai. It was one of the severalarmored forces that were rotated, every three months, into action on the front107line. In a stroke of good fortune, the brigade commander was Dovik Tamari,Avraham Arnan’s first successor as commander of the sayeret. While we waitedour forward deployment, due in September, he included me in his discussionswith his senior officers on tactics and planning. This inevitably included thecore of our existing strategy: a line of fixed fortifications which we had built onour side of the canal after the war. They were known as the Bar-Lev Line,because the chief of staff ultimately had to sign off on them. But the mainimpetus had come from Avraham Adan. A former Palmachnik, known as Bren,he was the overall head of the armored corps.There were strong critics of the Bar-Lev line, but few more vocal than ArikSharon. The very qualities that had made him the perfect choice to lead Unit101 and its successor commando units – a natural instinct to favor bold,preemptive attacks, allied with an absolute confidence in his own judgment andlittle time for those who challenged it – had stalled his rise up the militaryladder for a few years. But now he was head of Israel’s southern command. Hewas convinced that in the event of another full-scale war with Egypt, the Bar-Lev line would be worse than useless. We’d find ourselves forced to defend astring of fortifications that could serve no real purpose in repelling a concertedEgyptian attempt to retake the Sinai. Arik’s preferred strategy was to let theEgyptian troops cross the canal and then confront them on terms where Israeliforces had a proven advantage: a mobile battle in the open desert.When the debate came up in our brigade strategy discussions, I said Ibelieved Arik was right. From our recent sayeret missions, I said there was noway the Bar-Lev fortifications could protect us. I knew how easy it had been forus to operate unseen between Egyptian positions across the canal, and they wereonly a few hundred yards apart. On some parts of the Bar-Lev line, there weresix or seven miles between outposts. A whole Egyptian brigade could passthrough.Very few in the kirya, however, seemed ready to recalibrate our strategyagainst the Egyptians. Only later, when the damage had already been done,would it become clear that the navy was alone in acting on lessons learned fromthe fighting since the 1967 war. Having lost its largest warship to a more mobileEgyptian missile boat at the outset of the War of Attrition, it began focusing ondeploying mobile missile boats of its own. But the air force was showing nosign of dealing with the implications of the Egyptians’ increased anti-aircraftcapability – even though we’d begun losing planes and pilots to the newsurface-to-air missile batteries Nasser had received from the Soviets. And I108could see that a similar myopia, or denial, was affecting the armored corps. Onpatrol along the canal, I would sometimes see the hulk of an Israeli tank whichhad been destroyed by Soviet-made AT-3s. Known as Saggers, they wereportable, allowing a single soldier to fire wire-guided missiles. Their range wasnearly a mile-and-a-half, which was more than the main guns on our tanks. Yetno one appeared to have addressed the question of what would happen if theEgyptians used Saggers on an even greater scale in a future war.I remained in the Sinai through early 1971, but never led my tank companyon combat operations. By the time we were due for our deployment, the War ofAttrition was suddenly over. Neither we nor the Egyptians wanted a return tofull-scale war. With Washington taking the lead, a cease-fire was agreed. Bothsides claimed victory. But both were exhausted. Certainly, most Israelis hadceased to see a compelling reason for the 1,000 days of fighting. We had lostabout 900 dead: more than in the Six-Day War.But in one respect, the Egyptians won. Under the terms of the truce, theiranti-aircraft batteries were barred from a roughly 30-mile strip along the canal.Within days of the truce, however, Nasser began moving his SAM batteriesforward. Before long, there were nearly 100 missile sites in the “prohibited”zone, giving the Egyptians control of 20 miles or more of the airspace on ourside of the canal. Golda was incensed. So was Bar-Lev. But there was no way,and no will, to reopen the fighting and force Nasser to move the missiles back.The cease-fire took effect at midnight on August 7, 1970. I’ve never hadtrouble recalling the date, because of a phone call almost exactly 24 hours later.It was from my mother-in-law, to tell me Nava had gone into labor with our firstchild. Since I was due for deployment on the front line, we had agreed weeksearlier that the best thing would be for her to have the baby in Tiberias, so herparents could be with her. Now, I got a Jeep and raced north. I reached Tiberiasthe next morning. I opened the door to the hospital room and saw Nava,obviously tired but beaming, cradling our daughter Michal in her arms.I managed to stay with them for several days before returning to the Sinai.With Nava and Michal soon settled back into our apartment in the north TelAviv neighborhood of Ramat Aviv, I made weekend visits home whenever Icould. Still, I saw nowhere near as much of our daughter’s first few months asmost fathers. As Nava and I would discover even more jarringly over the nextfew years, that was an inescapable part of being an army officer.109But at least my next posting was closer to home. It was only 20 minutes fromour apartment, on a former RAF base not far from Lod airport. On the First ofApril 1971, I was promoted from major to lieutenant-colonel, and given theassignment which, more than any other, I’d hoped for when I returned to thearmy.I became the commander of Sayeret Matkal.110Chapter EightIt was the same jumble of buildings in the same corner of the base where I’dreported a decade earlier, as a 19-year-old fresh from tironut, when the sayeretwas still a gleam in Avraham Arnan’s eye. Now, I was about to become the firstof his successors to have been chosen from within the unit itself. As I calledtogether the officers that first morning, I couldn’t be sure whether I would makea success of my two years in command. But I did know what I hoped that I, andwe, would accomplish: to complete Avraham’s vision. To forge a true specialforcesunit, at a time when the threats facing Israel seemed increasingly todemand one.Avraham’s initial hopes and expectations for the unit had been more thanmet. Sayeret Matkal had played the key role in erasing the traumas of Uri Ilanand Rotem, and restoring the morale and effectiveness of Israeli militaryintelligence. Time and again, operations which we said we could do – dismissedas too dangerous, or impossible, by others – proved achievable. Yet as I nowtold the team leaders and our other officers, this was no longer enough.Our intelligence operations still mattered. In fact, we would have to “pushfurther” across Arab borders, deeper into enemy communications systems. Ourintercepts had given Israel an important edge in the Six-Day War. I assumed –though naively, it would turn out – that they would be put to use in any futurewar. But if the sayeret was to retain its unique role, we had to become a fightingforce as well. One reason, I didn’t even have to mention: we all remembered ourfrustration in 1967, when we’d been little more than bit players in the mostimportant conflict since the establishment of the state. But for me, the mainargument for change was what had happened since the 1967 war: the fact thatIsrael was facing a new range of security challenges which other army units,trained to engage and defeat enemy troops on the battlefield, were not equippedto meet.In the War of Attrition, we might not have lost a single inch of territory. Butwe had lost tanks and planes. Israeli soldiers and pilots were being held prisonerin Egypt and Syria. Arafat’s Fatah and the other armed Palestinian groups mightnot present a conventional threat. Yet while I’d been with my tank company inthe Sinai, they were fighting a full-scale civil war against King Hussein’s armyin Jordan. The catalyst: a multiple hijacking in September 1970, a sign that theywere turning to non-conventional warfare, and to acts of terror.111“We’re not starting from scratch,” I assured the sayeret officers, and I couldsee some of them nodding in agreement. We had a proven record of success,under Avraham and the four other commanders before me. We would be able torely on the qualities that had proved our doubters wrong in our first intelligencemissions. “We have to stay true to the spirit of Sayeret Matkal,” I said. Everyone of the officers knew what I meant: teamwork, the way we valued brains andcreativity, more than formal lines of authority. The rigor we applied to trainingfor, preparing for, and executing each mission. And, no less importantly, tocriticizing, and trying to fix, everything that had gone wrong on an operation, orwe’d failed to anticipate.Though I expected to be leading many of the operations myself, I knew thatwe’d succeed or fail on the strengths of the officers around me. I was incrediblyfortunate on that score. Some, I already knew well from my time as Digli’sdeputy. Smart, self-confident, self-starting officers like Amiram Levin, thestocky kibbutznik from the north with whom I’d worked most closely and mostoften as deputy. Avshalom Horan – Avsha – who’d convinced me to riskcompleting the mission on the road from Suez to Cairo. Giora Zorea, who, likeme, had come up through the unit and was one of our most experienced teamleaders. And Danny Yatom. Born not far from Mishmar Hasharon, but a cityboy, from Netanya, he was smart, level-headed and a sure-handed organizer,and with whom I’d somehow clicked from time he arrived in the sayeret. I madehim my deputy for my first year in command.There were two others as well, both related to Moshe Dayan, but with a selfassuranceall their own: Uzi Dayan, the son of Moshe’s brother, who had beenkilled in the 1948 war when Uzi was only months old; and Mookie Betzer, whowas married to Uzi’s cousin. I’m not sure which of the two joined the sayeretfirst. Mookie, I believe. But their family ties, far from extraordinary, were partof how Sayeret Matkal had developed from the start. It had been friendsbringing friends. But also, not infrequently, a cousin bringing a cousin, or abrother bringing a brother.This was the case with two other officers, whom I knew less well at first butwho would become key members of my team. In their case, it was the youngerone who joined first. Binyamin Netanyahu – Bibi, as everyone called him – hadbeen a member of Amiram Levin’s team when I was Digli’s deputy. He’d alsobeen a part of one of our several – thankfully harmless – failures along the canalat the beginning of the War of Attrition. The plan was to cross in rubber boatsheld together by nylon cord, with the assistance of Shayetet 13, Israel’s112equivalent of the American navy SEALs. But Bibi’s dinghy got tangled up, andhe found himself in the canal, being tugged down by the current. Only theSEALs, and Bibi’s mix of calm and endurance, averted disaster.When I returned as commander, Bibi had gone through officers’ school andwas given a team of his own, making him one of half-a-dozen core, operationalofficers with whom I worked from the planning stages of every mission,through the training and the operation itself. Especially with Bibi, since he wasnewest to the role. He was smart, tough and, even by sayeret standards,supremely self-confident. It also was clear that he understood my determinationto build the unit into a military strike force – which was one reason why heurged me to bring in his older brother. Bibi was 22 at the time. His brother –Yonatan, or Yoni – was 25. He had led a company of paratroopers in the 1967war, before going off to university. He’d taken a bullet in the elbow whilehelping to rescue one of his soldiers behind Syrian lines on the Golan. “Hewants to return to the army, and he’s exactly the kind of officer you want,” Bibisaid.I brought Yoni in for a chat. Over the next several years, I would get to knowhim much better, becoming not just friends but neighbors, when he bought a flata few floors up from ours. But even in this first meeting, I found him a contrastto his younger brother. Bibi was practical, detail-oriented. Yoni was a morecomplex character. He was interested in history, and philosophy. He wrotepoetry. He would sometimes feel the need to get off by himself, and just think.He was a man of action, too. Taller and trimmer than Bibi, with a thick thatch ofdark hair swept back from a craggy face, he was the Central Casting image of asoldier. He also had real, battlefield experience. Not only did I invite him to joinSayeret Matkal. I put him in charge of our training teams. When Danny Yatomleft the following year to train as an armored officer, I made Yoni my deputy.However different in some ways, the Netanyahu brothers were close. Theyseemed almost driven, to excel and to succeed. As I got to know them both, Isensed that the drive did not come merely from within. It came from theirupbringing, their family background, and in particular their father. Ben-ZionMiliekowsky, as he then was, studied at Hebrew University at the same time asmy father, in the early 1930s, and was an impassioned supporter of Ben-Gurion’s main right-wing Zionist rival, Ze’ev Jabotinsky. My fatherremembered him gathering bemused groups of students during breaks fromclasses, standing on an upturned wooden box, and proclaiming that the Arabswould never willingly accept a Jewish state. Long before the 1948 war, and113nearly four decades before our capture of the West Bank in 1967, he insistedthat we needed to create a Jewish state in all of biblical Israel: from theMediterranean to the Jordan River.It was through Bibi and Yoni that I got to know their father. After 1948, hehad led a frustrating existence. A specialist in medieval Jewish history, he couldnot find a place on the faculty at Hebrew University. He was convinced,perhaps with some reason, that his outspoken advocacy for Jabotinsky’sZionism in a country defined by Ben-Gurion’s had frozen him out. He left topursue his academic career in America, where both Yoni and Bibi spent muchof their youth. He always remained bitter about what he felt were unfair,politically inspired, roadblocks to his academic advancement in Jerusalem.Though he would eventually return to Israel, he was teaching at Cornellwhen his sons became officers under my command in Sayeret Matkal. So therewas a physical distance between father and sons. But what struck me was howlarge the father loomed in both of their lives. There was an almost adolescentadmiration, bordering on worship. I remember once remarking to Nava that itwas as if, despite all their physical self-confidence, Bibi and Yoni were tetheredto their father by some mental umbilical cord. They seemed weighted down by astruggle to live up to his expectations, to right the “wrongs” done to him, andachieve the advancement and success which the young State of Israel haddenied him. In a poignant postscript, decades later when Bibi first was electedPrime Minister, Ben-Zion was asked by a journalist for his reaction. “He wouldmake a very good Minister of Hasbarah,” he replied, a Hebrew word whichtranslates as something between public relations and propaganda. “Or ForeignMinister.” But how about Prime Minister, the reporter pressed. Ben-Zionreplied: “Time will tell.”* * *Even as we mounted intercept operations deeper into Egypt and Syria, Imade sure that we trained as if we were already the broader strike force I hopedSayeret Matkal would become. We mapped out plans for commando operationsagainst the new kind of security challenges the country faced. We worked indetail on how we’d carry them out. We prepared rigorously to make sure we’dbe ready. Yet no matter how proficient we got, there was no guarantee it wouldactually happen. A bit like Avraham in the unit’s infancy, I had to deal with the114frustration of trying to convince the generals in the kirya to give us the goahead.Some of them agreed Israel needed a specially trained commando force.But not everyone felt Sayeret Matkal could, or should, take on that role. Rafael“Raful” Eitan was perhaps the most strident. He had fought with the Palmach in1948. He was an officer in Unit 101 and a commander of the parachutists’Battalion 890. He was now katzhar, in overall charge of all infantry andparatroop forces. He insisted that such work required a real sayeret, by whichhe meant the paratroopers.Yet the need for a special-forces unit was becoming increasingly hard toignore. By the summer of 1971, a couple of months after I became sayeretcommander, King Hussein’s army had defeated the insurgency of Fatah and apair of even more militant partners, the Democratic Front and the Popular Frontfor the Liberation of Palestine. That meant a quieter eastern frontier. But thePalestinian groups rebased across our northern border in Lebanon. WhenJordanian Prime Minister Wafsi al-Tal was assassinated, it proved to be the startof a series of killings and terror attacks by a new group within Fatah, calledBlack September. There was at least some potentially encouraging news fromEgypt. When Nasser died in September 1970, he was succeeded by a lessflamboyantly militant vice-president, Anwar Sadat. Yet in both Egypt andSyria, a number of our air force pilots were still being held prisoner.I felt an especially strong motivation to help bring the pilots home. They hadrisked their lives for us. It seemed to me we owed them the same. One of themen being held in Syria, Pini Nachmani, had a personal connection to many ofus in the unit. He had worked with us on sayeret missions. I came up with a planthat, while undeniably risky, seemed to me to have every chance of success. Itwas to abduct a number of Syrians from an officers’ club on the western edge ofDamascus. We would land in transport helicopters a few miles away and unloada pair of armored cars captured in 1967. But Raful’s view prevailed. I could notget the approval of the kirya. I did take heart from Avraham Arnan’s support.He was now Golda Meir’s counter-terrorism adviser. Also from the fact thatChaim Bar-Lev’s successor as chief of staff was an old friend of the sayeret:Dado Elazar, Avraham’s Palmach comrade from 1948. Yet winning over theremaining doubters in the kirya was obviously going to take time.As so often during my years in uniform, however, Sayeret Matkal’s birth asa special-forces unit came by force of circumstance: not in an officers’ club nearDamascus, but a few miles away from our base, on a runway at Lod Airport.115* * *I was sitting down to dinner with Nava a little before seven on May 8, 1972when the phone rang. We’d just fed Michael, who was almost two, full ofenergy, and showed no sign of wanting to go to bed. “It’s Manno,” said thevoice on the line. Brigadier General Emanuel “Manno” Shaked was Dado’schief of operations. “A plane has been hijacked,” he said. “It’s heading for Lod.It will land in about 30 minutes. They’ve got hostages. Get to the airport. Dadoand Dayan are on their way.”I called Danny Yatom and told him to get whoever was at the sayeret base toLod as soon as possible. But most of the men were on training exercises,including one team with Yoni deep in the Negev Desert. He immediately begancalling them back. When I got to the airport, I found Dayan and Dado huddlingin a room below the control tower, unfurnished except for a small table in thecorner. Talik was there with them. He was now head of all military operationsin the kirya. Rechavam Ze’evi as well, the head of the central command area,which included Tel Aviv. So was Ahrahle Yariv, who had succeeded Meir Amitas head of military intelligence, and nodded glumly as I joined them.The plane had landed. A Sabena Boeing 707 bound from Brussels to TelAviv, it had been hijacked after a stopover in Vienna. All we knew at this pointwas that the hijackers were Palestinians and that there were about a hundredpassengers on board. Dado said that, while we figured out how to respond, wehad to make sure, at all costs, the plane didn’t take off again. It wouldpresumably go to an Arab country, where we’d be powerless to act. Thoughonly a handful of my men had arrived, I took the only officer who had, ShaiAgmon, and an El Al engineer to see whether we could disable the hijacked jet.It was parked well off from the main terminal area. With the El Al man leadingthe way, we approached from the rear, crouching low, hoping the hijackerswouldn’t spot us. The engines were still running, but at least the deafening noisekept anyone from hearing us as we ducked under the fuselage and the engineerremoved a stabilizing pin from the front wheel. It was an eerie feeling,envisaging the captive crew and passengers, and the terrorists, a few feet aboveour heads but knowing we were powerless to do anything more to help.Manno had called me not because I’d won my argument to expand the roleof the sayeret. It was the luck of the draw. With the growing threat of terrorism,the kirya had drawn up a list of installations which might be targeted. Next to116each, they’d put the name of the military unit to be called up in an emergency.We’d been allocated Lod Airport, because our base was just 15 minutes away.Still, as I accompanied the engineer back to the control tower, I tried to workout in my mind whether we could plan, prepare and train quickly enough tomount an operation to free the plane later that night.More than a dozen members of the unit had now arrived, and more werejoining us every half-hour or so. I arranged for El Al to give us a hangar and a707 identical to the Sabena plane. Shai, Danny Yatom and I took two airlinetechnicians with us for a closer look at the Boeing. We studied up on it asquickly as we could, beginning with the cockpit and the front door, which wesaw was too high to reach without a large ladder. But making our way back, werealized the wings were low enough to climb on to. When, with the help ofDanny, I clambered onto one of them, I managed to get one of the emergencydoors to open by banging hard on the top end with my open fist. I asked thetechnicians whether we could expect the Sabena doors to give way as well. Yes,he said, but he cautioned me that on some airlines, there were passenger seatsnext to at least one of the two doors above each wing.Walking up into the cabin, I tried to work out how we might attack thehijackers before they were able to harm the passengers, or us. The risks wereobvious. But I felt we had to be ready to act. With the rest of the sayeret stillmaking its way to Lod, I put Danny in charge of briefing the new arrivals,familiarizing them with the 707 and preparing for the possibility of an assaultoperation. I also told him to get hold of a couple of dozen small, 22-caliber,Beretta pistols. I couldn’t see how we’d manage to make our way onto the planewith Uzis. We knew we’d have to get up to speed quickly on using the Berettas.None of us had trained on them. But many of the air marshals on board El Alflights were Sayeret Matkal reservists, and they did use Berettas. I told Dannyto check for any sayeret marshals arriving on El Al flights and get them to joinus.As I headed back to see Dado, we were nowhere close to a detailed plan onhow to confront the hijackers. Nor did we have any orders. The people whowould give them – Dado, Dayan and ultimately Prime Minister Meir – were stilldeciding how to respond. But when I reached the control tower, at about9:30pm, the order came, if not to mount an operation, at least to make sure thesayeret was ready. “Talk to Talik,” Dado told me. “See what the options are totake over the plane if that’s the decision.” I sat down with Talik and ran throughwhat I’d learned from my brief look at the hijacked plane and the work we’d117been doing on the Israeli 707. I told him I’d need another two hours to makesure my men had practiced climbing up on the wings and forcing open thedoors, and another hour for preparations and briefings for the teams who wouldbe participating in the operation. “By about half an hour after midnight, we’ll beready to deploy,” I said, though from his stoic, nearly silent response I couldn’tbe sure whether he was in favor of an assault. “By 0100, we’ll be ready to act.”Both of us went back to see Dado. He seemed encouraged, especially when Isaid we’d be ready to move by one in the morning. He told me the pilot of theplane had been in contact with the control tower. He was an RAF veteran and,though the terrorists seemed unaware of this, he was also Jewish. The hijackerswere demanding more than 300 Arab prisoners be released and flown to Cairo.“And they seem quite nervous.”Returning to the hangar, I sent Shai Agmon with four soldiers to set up alookout and sniper post about 70 yards to the side of the Sabena jet. I told himnot to open fire unless they were sure there had been shooting inside the planeand could positively identify an armed hijacker. By now, we had three dozensoldiers and officers, including Uzi Dayan and his full team. I took all thosewho were already briefed and divided them into four groups, each with anofficer and five soldiers and assigned to deal with one of the wing doors. I leftthe others to continue training.When midnight came, I was far from certain we could meet the 12:30 amdeployment target I’d given Talik. Incoming flights had stopped for the night,and we still hadn’t managed to bring in any air marshals. I believed they wouldgive us a crucial advantage. They knew Berettas. They also knew the inside of a707. But I was worried about losing Dado’s trust in a sayeret operation if wefailed to meet the timeline. From Shai’s lookout post to the side of the plane, Ilearned that the front cabin door of the plane was open. He said he’d seen acouple of hijackers walking by it, silhouetted by the dim cabin light. Butotherwise, there was no sign of activity inside. I called Talik and told him I wastaking my assault teams to the area behind the plane. About a half-hour later, Iconfirmed we were ready to begin the operation. Although the plane’s engineswere off now, our approach had been masked by the drone of the generatorbrought in to supply power to the cabin. We were lying face-down on thetarmac, directly behind the tail of the plane but well back. Two rows of 12 men,plus me and a soldier in charge of the communications. We’d brought alongfour small ladders to help us onto the wings. “We want to exploit the darkness,and the sound of the generator, to cover us,” I said in my final briefing before118we’d left the hangar. “If they realize we’re there, we get into the cabin asquickly as possible, any way we can. The first five seconds will ne critical. Actdecisively,” I told the men. “Assume that everyone else will be doing the same.Trust your instincts. You are trained for this.”But more than an hour passed as we waited for the green light to storm theplane. My main concern wasn’t that the hijackers would see us. There seemedlittle reason to believe one of them would suddenly decide to take a walk in themiddle of the night. But sunrise was around five in the morning, and there wasno way I could see mounting our assault in broad daylight. If we didn’t get thego-ahead soon, the chance would be lost. I called Talik several times, makingthe point that if we were going to do it, we needed to use darkness as an ally.The sayeret was a breed of night animals. Other people, even terrorists, wouldbe less alert and effective at night. But he kept saying he needed more time.Finally, an hour before sunrise, he called back. “The big boss is on his way,”he said. I left the others and crept back to meet the Defense Minister, a goodeighty yards from the plane. Dayan greeted me with a whispered hello. In away, his arrival reminded me of my first operation in the sayeret when, beforeheading north to the Golan, I’d been summoned to brief Tzvi Tzur, the chief ofstaff. Tzur had seemed less interested in the details than in confirming that I wasconfident the mission would work. Dayan, of course, had as much operationalknowledge and experience as anyone in Israel. Yet it seemed to me that he, too,wanted to satisfy himself that I honestly felt we were in a position to succeed.Especially, though he never so much as hinted at this, because two of theofficers I would be taking in with me, Uzi and Mookie Betzer, were members ofhis family.“How do you plan to do it?” he asked. I explained how we would get into theplane simultaneously, in four teams, and confront the hijackers. I said I wasconfident we’d succeed, especially since darkness gave us an element ofsurprise, and the terrorists were bound to be tiring. “We can do it,” I said.“Better now than in daytime.” Dayan merely nodded. He stood there, silent, foranother few moments. “I’ll let you know,” he said, then shook my hand andreturned to the control tower. But fifteen minutes later he sent his reply, viaTalik. It was brief and explicit: “Not tonight.”For the first but not the last time in uniform, I felt the frustration of findingmy preparation and judgement trumped, without explanation, by a decisionfrom above. When I got back to the control tower, I made no attempt to hide myview we should have moved against the hijackers while we had the chance. But119Dado sat me down and filled me in on what was obviously a changing situation.He said the terrorists had allowed the pilot, Reginald Levy, to come see Dayanand press their demands. He had brought with him a slab of light-yellowmaterial to demonstrate the seriousness of the risk of saying no. When tested, itturned out to be exactly what the hijackers said it was: plastic explosive.The pilot said there were four terrorists: two men with pistols and twowomen with explosives and grenades. There were 95 passengers and sevencrew. He’d also confirmed that none of the exits above the wings was blockedby a passenger seat. He’d returned to the plane without any clear answer fromDayan on the prisoner release. But before leaving, he revealed that his own wifewas among the passengers. He asked Dayan to promise that Israel would helpcare for their daughter if the hijack ended tragically.By the next morning, that was looking more and more likely. Though thehijackers were still in contact with the tower, the only visible movement was thearrival of a representative of the Red Cross. The lead hijacker, who calledhimself Captain Rifa’at, was making increasingly forceful demands for theprisoner release. Our negotiating team did its best to buy time by giving theappearance we were considering the demand. It was Dayan who came up withthe idea of going further. He told Rechavam Ze’evi, as the head of the centralcommand area, to begin rounding up hundreds of young Israeli reserve soldiers.He wanted them dressed them in prison uniforms, and then bused to the airport,within sight of the hijacked jet. Dayan also arranged for another Boeing 707,ostensibly to take the “freed prisoners” on to Cairo.“What then?” Ze’evi asked Dayan. “We’re not really going to put them on aplane and take off!”It was after he’d had no real reply that he in effect answered his ownquestion, inadvertently leading us to the idea of attempting a daytime attackafter all. Talking to Dado and me, he said: “Since we’re going to such lengths todeceive them, why not just add another layer? Why can’t Ehud’s people take therole of the airport mechanics?” Looking at each other, Dado and I realized itwas a stroke of brilliance. Dado went to share the plan with Dayan, confidentthat he would be no less enthusiastic, which he was. I remained with Ze’evi andhis deputy to work out the details. We agreed they would take care of thepantomime with the prisoners, as well arranging for El Al to get us the laddertrucks that airline maintenance crews used, which would allow us access to theSabena jet’s front and rear doors as well. That left me free to concentrate onpreparation and training.120We had just a few hours to adapt the original plan. Although we’d trained inclose-quarters fighting for my plan to attack the officers’ club near Damascus,we’d never had to use that skill in a live mission. Nor had we ever used theBerettas. While we’d disguised ourselves as enemy soldiers or military policeon our intelligence operations, this would be the first time we were taking onthe persona of civilian engineers, with the need to fool armed terrorists on thelookout for any sign of danger or betrayal. And for the first time in any of ourmajor operations, we would be operating in daytime.Now that nearly all our soldiers and officers had arrived, I began arrangingthe final line-up of attack teams. We would need six rather than four, since thenew plan would give us access to the front and rear doors. Danny now also toldme that a couple of the El Al technicians had shown him a way of climbing upfrom inside the nose wheel into the cockpit. One of the toughest and strongestof our soldiers, Uri Koren, had tried it successfully on the El Al 707. I toldDanny, Uri and another officer that they would be assigned to attack through thefront door and the nose wheel. I put Uzi Dayan in charge of the tail door. Theemergency doors above the wings, however, still gave us the quickest way in. Iplanned to command the operation from the left of the aircraft, because both thefront and tail doors also faced that way. I entrusted Bibi Netanyahu and his teamwith breaking in through the main wing door on the far side of the plane.By noon, we got a further boost. With the resumption of incoming flights,we began collecting air marshals. One in particular raised my confidence. Iknew Mordechai Rachamim well from the sayeret. He was a Yemeni Jew fromElyakhin, the moshav near Mishmar Hasharon where Baddura and the otherYemeni workers lived. He was tall, strong and athletic, naturally agile and quickto respond in situations of danger. He was also no ordinary air marshal. In 1969,he’d been posted on an El Al flight from Amsterdam to Tel Aviv. On a stopoverin Zurich, four gunmen from Fatah’s main radical rival in the PLO, the PopularFront for the Liberation of Palestine, leapt out of a car, opened fire with AK-47sand began throwing grenades. The PFLP assault injured four of the crew andkilled the co-pilot. Armed with his Beretta, Mordechai rushed to the cockpitwindow and returned fire. Seeing the attackers were too far away, he slid downthe emergency chute. Once on the tarmac, he shot one of the terrorists in thehead and kept the rest of them at bay.As additional air marshals arrived, I slotted each of them into an assault teamin place of one of our sayeret soldiers. The next to arrive was Marco Ashkenazi,a Cairo-born veteran with whom I’d worked on a mission inside Egypt. I put121Mordechai on the main left-side wing door, critical for the opening moments ofthe assault, and added Marco to Bibi’s team on the other side of the aircraft.It was then that Yoni arrived back from Negev. He insisted on being addedto one of the assault teams. In one respect, that made sense. He had morebattlefield experience than almost everyone in the unit. But there was anunwritten sayeret rule never to place two brothers together in the line of fire.“It’s too late,” I told him, with an arm on his shoulder. “Bibi has already beentraining his team.” He went off to find Bibi. I thought there was little chance ofBibi standing down, but didn’t feel I could stop Yoni from trying. Five minuteslater, they came to talk to me. Bibi said: “Yoni wants to replace me. We wantyou to decide.” I assumed both of them knew what I’d say. “Today, it’s Bibi,” Ireplied. “But Yoni, this is not our last operation. I will make sure you are therethe next time.”The last marshal to join us was a tall, thin redhead we always called Zur.He’d had only 15 minutes to begin training when I got word that Dado – alongwith Ze’evi and Ahrahle Yariv – were on their way to see a run-through. Asthey filed into the hangar, I quickly explained the operational plan. I showedthem how we would push in the wing doors in, and then ushered them inside the707. Two minutes later, the emergency-door teams climbed on to the wings.When I gave the agreed two-finger whistle, they stormed the plane. “OK,gentlemen,” Dado told the team leaders when it was over. “We’ve seen what weneeded.” Before returning to the control tower, however, he took me aside.“You know they have explosives, right?” he said. When I said yes, his tonesoftened. “You don’t have much time, Ehud” he said. “Don’t waste it.BeHatzlakha.” Good luck.We still had to outfit ourselves in mechanics’ overalls, and swap thesayeret’s paratroop-style red boots for black ones. I directed all the men toconceal the Berettas on a waist-belt inside their overalls. We got acquaintedwith our mechanics’ toolboxes. Finally we organized our maintenancemotorcade: four electronic buggies in front, towing four ladders, two short onesfor the wings and taller ones for the front and rear doors. Waiting for the orderto move, I said a final few words. Seeing the determination and nervousanticipation on the faces of the men around me, I began by reiterating that thefirst five seconds would be critical. “We all know that nothing ever happensexactly according to plan. Each and every one of us has to focus on speed,momentum and precision. No one can wait for anyone else to act. From themoment I give the signal, or if we come under fire, each team has to act as if122they have to accomplish this all on their own. All of us must assume that. Keepcool. Stay focused. Rely on your instincts. We’re ready for this mission. Andwe are going to achieve it.”One minute after four in the afternoon, we got the word to go. I was in thelead buggy, consciously trying to look like a civilian, not a soldier. It was abouta mile-and-a-half to the aircraft. I glanced back at the others. Like me, many ofthem had been awake for 30 hours or more, in some cases nearly 48 hours. Theair marshals had been plucked off long-haul flights on which relaxation, muchless sleep, was not an option. As before any mission, I knew everyone would bethinking about what was about to happen. They also realized that if we failed,the passengers trapped inside the plane would be at the mercy of terroristsarmed with AK-47s and explosives. But I was confident that any apprehensionwould be overtaken by adrenalin when as the assault began.As we got closer, Shai Agmon radioed me. He said two or three people, notthe terrorists, had come out of the plane. One seemed to be the Red Cross man.They were about 120 yards away from the aircraft. As soon as he’d signed off, Igot word from the command post in the control tower that it was indeed the RedCross representative, along with two of the flight crew. They’d been chosen bythe terrorists to do security checks on the “maintenance” men.I brought the convoy to a halt. The Red Cross man gave each of us a fairlycursory body search before waving us on. Then, he got to Bibi. Though I hadsomehow failed to notice, he had left on his red sayeret boots. In Israel, that wasthe equivalent of a neon sign saying: “I am a paratrooper.” Although the RedCross man noticed the boots, he at first made no comment. Then, rolling up thepants leg of Bibi’s overalls, he saw his Beretta – not inside his waistbelt, butinside the boot. The next thing I heard was an angry spurt of French as the mancalled the control tower. For a moment, I feared the mission was over, withpotentially fatal repercussions for the hostages. But whatever explanation theRed Cross man was given – presumably by Dayan himself, who would not haveheld back in conveying what was at stake – it dissuaded him from taking furtheraction.As we were returning to the buggies, the Red Cross man told me that“Captain Rifa’at” had ordered us to pull up to the generator on the side of theplane. Each of us would then have to walk forward and open the front of ouroveralls so he could make sure we weren’t armed. I passed back four orders tothe rest of the men. First, with no exceptions, move your pistol to the back ofyour belt. Second: I’ll be the first to go through the inspection. Third: watch123what I do and do the same. Finally, if our cover is broken, or if you heargunfire, we all storm the plane.I felt as I always did as an operation was about to begin. Along with thetension, I had a keen awareness of everything happening around me, almost asif I was watching things in slow motion, in high resolution. When ourmotorcade approached the generator, Rifa’at leaned out from the co-pilot’swindow. He was pointing a pistol at us. He seemed to be in his late 20s or early30s. He had dark hair and a moustache and the hint of a stubbly beard. Westopped beside the generator. I got out and walked toward the cockpit, haltingabout 10 feet away. Looking up the hijacker, I made a conscious effort to appearcurious rather than worried. His eyes seemed a mix of intense focus and tension.I opened the front of my overalls. Because of the heat, I was wearing nothingelse on top. He nodded his head to signal he was satisfied. I refastened theoveralls and moved off. One by one, the other men passed inspection. Then wewent back and brought the two smaller ladders to the side of each wing, and the“mechanics” set down to work. I delayed bringing in the large ladders so as tominimize any risk of arousing the terrorists’ suspicions.The fact that at least so far they seemed to suspect nothing was in large partdown to Dayan’s misdirection plan. As we began working on the plane, the“Palestinian” prisoners were disembarking from buses about 300 yards away.As Rifa’at watched, several hundred men formed long rows. A few of themwaved in his direction. The Boeing which was theoretically going to take themon to Cairo, to be followed by the Sabena jet minus the hostages, was beingtowed into position.One by one, our assault teams were moving into place. All that remainedwas for me to give a short, sharp whistle and the attack would begin. Yet just asI was raising my fingers to my mouth, I saw Bibi coming toward me from underthe fuselage. He motioned to me to wait. Zur, the last of our air marshals, had aproblem. Having spent 10 hours in the air on the way back to Israel, beforebeing immediately plugged into an assault team, he had something to attend to.“He has to take a shit,” Bibi said. Can’t it wait, I asked. No, was the answer. SoI said OK, leading to the most surreal “operational” moment I would witnessduring all my years in the military.The “prisoner release” was now in full flow. Dozens of military vehicles,and a small army of fire engines and ambulances, had also pulled to the far endof the runway, out of sight of the hijackers, in case our attack on the Sabena jetwent wrong. Tel Aviv hospitals were on alert. And Zur was crouching and124relieving himself. He nodded in gratitude when he’d finished, and returned toBibi’s team on the far wing. I gave him a full minute to be certain he was inplace.Then I whistled. From my initial position beside the plane, I saw DannyYatom and his team begin to move one of the tall ladders toward the front door.Shifting my eyes toward the wing doors as the “crucial first five seconds” tickedby, I saw both the ones on my side of the plane were still shut. I climbed up onthe wing. When I got to the smaller, rear door I saw the main one cave inwardand Mordechai Rachamim rush in. But the soldier on the other door wastrembling and frozen in place. I slapped him, hard, on the back. “Move!” Ishouted. Instantly, he pushed the door in and rushed inside. I then noticed Uziand his team had still not entered from the rear. I jumped from the wing and rantoward the ladder at the back, but by the time I got there, they had made itinside, and I followed them in.Everything was over within 90 seconds. As I’d expected, the planning andtraining turned out to matter less than instinct and initiative. Within seconds, UriKoren managed to get into the nose-wheel assembly. Though he couldn’tdislodge a metal-mesh panel separating it from the cockpit, he spotted theoutline of a man’s foot above him, fired, and wounded Captain Rifa’at. Theother members of Danny’s team in front were less lucky. With the ladder, theyhad no trouble getting to the passenger door, but they struggled to force it open.When they did nudge it open a crack, one of the hijackers opened fire, slightlywounding one of the men and forcing them to abandon the attempt.Mordechai went in shooting, but immediately drew fire and had to retreat.But Omer Wachman, another air marshal I’d posted on the far wing, was in acouple of seconds later. Coming face-to-face with one of the hijackers, he shothim in the head. That allowed Mordechai to get back inside. He quicklyexchanged fire with the hobbled Captain Rifa’at, hitting the hijacker in the side.As Mordechai ducked down to reload his pistol, Rifa’at managed to lockhimself inside one of the toilets near the cockpit. Mordechai ran after him. Hefired through the bathroom door, then kicked it open and confirmed that he wasdead. Rushing back toward the center of plane, he spotted the main womanhijacker, wearing a bulky explosive vest. Grabbing her hands, he reached insidethe vest and yanked out the battery pack. With two of the hijackers alreadydead, Mordechai had now subdued the third. But knowing that there was stillanother woman unaccounted for, he handed her over to Bibi and MarcoAshkenazi. Bibi grabbed her by the back of her hair, but it turned out to be a125wig, which came off in his hand. As she began screaming, Marco instinctivelystruck her across the face, but he used the hand in which he had his Beretta. Thegun went off, and the bullet grazed Bibi in his upper arm.When Uzi Dayan had finally got in through the rear door, he’d run upagainst a stocky, suntanned man blocking in his way, and fired – thankfully,only into his midsection. He turned out to be one of the passengers, a filmmakerfrom Austria. Still, there was the other woman hijacker to deal with.Several of the passengers pointed to the floor just ahead of Uzi, where she laycurled up, holding a grenade with the pin out. Ordering her loudly, sternly, notto move, Uzi wrapped his hand over hers, extracted the grenade from her graspfinger by finger, replaced the pin, and had one of his men lead her out of theplane and down the stairs.All the hijackers had been either killed or captured.Tragically, in the initial crossfire, a 22-year-old passenger named MiriamHoltzberg, had been hit. Although the man whom Uzi had mistakenly shotrecovered, she did not. Yet all of the remaining passengers and crew were nowfree and safe, alive and unharmed.I felt a mix of emotions when it was over: pride, a sense of achievementagainst all the odds. And huge relief at having succeeded in ending the ordeal ofthe captives. Without my saying so, everyone in the unit understood that myinaugural comments as commander, about our need to become a full specialforcesunit, were no longer a distant wish. Still, I knew this was only one step,and I wanted to make sure we kept our feet on the ground. The day after theSabena rescue, Israeli newspapers devoted acres of newsprint to how theoperation had succeeded. Since Sayeret Matkal’s existence was still an officialsecret, the headline writers called us, variously, a “special” unit, a “select” unitand even in one case, because of our El Al coveralls, “angels in white.” We did,briefly, celebrate back at the sayeret base. But as with every other operation, wewent through a self-critical assessment of what we could have done better. How,if we had to do another hostage-rescue operation, could we make sure none ofthe passengers was harmed? How could we improve co-ordination among theassault teams? And minimize the risk of shooting each other. Why had I, ascommander of the operation, had to wait for someone else to suggest the idea ofdisguising ourselves as aircraft technicians? And why had we failed to trainwith Berettas and other pistols as well as Uzis?126They were not just academic issues. Even if we were never again called uponto free a hijacked airplane, I assumed we would face other operations whichwere equally urgent, without the weeks or even months of preparation we’dalways insisted on in the past.* * *After the Sabena operation, I emphasized the need for us to be proactive. Itwouldn’t be up to us to decide which operations to do. But it was up to us totake the initiative in identifying and understanding specific threats and framingways in which we could provide a response. Even before Sabena, barely twoweeks had gone by when I didn’t go to Eli Zeira, who was in charge of theoperations department of military intelligence, with a mission which I feltconfident we were ready to carry out. Several of the most complex centered onthe new threat posed by Palestinian groups in Lebanon. Before the civil war inJordan, King Hussein had accused Fatah, the PFLP and the equally militantDemocratic Front for the Liberation of Palestine of trying to create “a statewithin a state” and deliberately weakening his government. Now, they weredoing much the same in Lebanon. Their headquarters buildings in southernBeirut were spawning hijackings or terror attacks. From bases in southernLebanon, the Palestinians were also firing Katyusha rockets into Israel.One of the operations I planned targeted Arafat. From our intelligenceintercepts, we knew that a day or two after a particularly intense clash withIsraeli artillery units on the Lebanese border, he would tour the area and meetwith his commanders. If we were going to go after him, however, we needed toknow exactly when he was coming. Fortunately, the Lebanese authoritiestracked Arafat’s motorcade on these “review the troops” excursions, reportinghow many cars were involved, which one he was in, and their progress. Thanksto previous sayeret missions, we could listen in. In order to ensure the operationwould be on our terms, I proposed that a couple of days before we planned tomove, Israeli artillery target a Fatah rocket site in an isolated area about tenmiles from the border, where there was just a single road in from Beirut. Iproposed landing several teams by helicopter the night before. We would lie inwait until the Lebanese army checkpoints reported that the Fatah convoy was onits way. Israeli helicopters and F-4 jets would then cut off the road on bothsides, and we would ambush Arafat’s vehicle.127When I took the plan to Eli Zeira, he was reading an issue of the Frenchnewsmagazine l’Express and snacking on salted almonds from a dish on hisdesk. As I ran through the reason we’d come up with the plan – the bourgeoningpower of Arafat and Fatah in Lebanon – he peered at me over his readingglasses and nodded. As I set out the details of the attack plan, he listened, withno obvious sign of approval or rejection. But after I’d finished, he dismissed itout of hand. He said that Arafat was no longer the battlefield commander whoseforces had fought Israel in Karameh. “He’s fat. He’s political,” he said. “He isnot a target for this kind of operation.”After the Sabena hostage-rescue, Dado and the other senior officers in thekirya did seem more receptive to our trying to initiate operations, especially theplan to seize Syrian officers and trade them for the Israeli pilots. But such amission required not just military or intelligence approval. Dayan, and possiblyGolda as well, would have to sign off, and there was little immediate sign ofthat. But, once again, events on the ground would force the issue. Early on themorning of June 9, our intelligence intercepts gave us notice that the next day, agroup of senior Syrian officers was going to make an inspection visit to theeastern part of the Lebanese border area with Israel. We would have to movequickly. Within the space of 12 hours, we’d need to plan the attack, organize,equip and brief the assault teams, make the three-and-a-half-hour drive north,and cross into Lebanon.Still, I was determined to try, which marked the start of two of my mostfrustrating weeks as Sayeret Matkal commander. The place where we plannedto abduct the Syrians was an area I knew personally: the sparsely settled strip ofland where Lebanon, Syria and Israel met, not far from where I’d helped“capture” several Syrian villages on the final day of the 1967 war. With theconvoy expected to pass through the next morning, we crossed the border a littlebefore midnight on June 9. We lay in ambush in dense vegetation a few metersoff a curve in the road, further reducing the time the Syrians would have to reactonce they saw us. I stationed two other sayeret teams a few hundred yards awayin either direction, so they could cut off the road once we attacked.But as the convoy was approaching, I was suddenly contacted by the sayeretofficer we’d stationed in the command post back in Israel. He relayed a messagefrom Motta Gur, the head of the northern command. Its intelligence unit saidthere was a Lebanese Army checkpoint a quarter-mile from the ambush site.Motta himself was in the south, with Dado, watching a tank exercise. So Ihad no way of talking to him. I replied through the officer in the command post.128“Tell Motta we know about it,” I said. “We’ve planned for it. It’s not aproblem.” I figured there were at most four or five Lebanese soldiers manningthe checkpoint. The last thing they’d want to do is get involved in a firefightbetween us and the Syrians. But Motta’s reply was unequivocal. The missionwas off.When we’d climbed through a bramble-filled ravine back into Israel, I left amessage for Motta. I found it hard to disguise my frustration, and my anger, atbeing ordered to abort the attack, especially after my assurances that theLebanese roadblock was not a problem. Yet when we got back to the sayeretbase, I realized there was more to his veto than I’d thought. He and Dado hadreceived intelligence saying the Syrians were likely to make a series of furtherinspection tours of the border area, so this would not be our last chance. Thenext day, we received word they’d be touring the western part of the border onJune 13. On the Lebanese side, it was known as Ras Naqoura, on ours as RoshHanirkra, where the Mediterranean coastline rose dramatically to a ridge and,once into Israel, sloped steeply down again toward Haifa.I took in two main assault teams, one led by Mookie, the other by UziDayan. We hid in a tangle of bushes about halfway along the road whichclimbed up toward the border ridge. I stationed Bibi and his team at the bottomof the road, equipped with Uzis and rocket-propelled grenade launchers. Wewaited, knowing that we’d be able to see the convoy as it twisted its way uptoward us. Again, I had no direct link to Motta. Yet both he and Dado werefollowing the mission from a command post in northern Israel. We were innearly real-time contact through a sayeret officer, named Amit Ben-Horn, rightacross the border.A first vehicle appeared at around 10:30 in the morning. Bibi radioed us. Itwas a Lebanese army armored car with a single machine-gun. It drove past andhalted 150 feet on, at the point where the road began to climb. The two guysinside took out a small table and a couple of chairs and began brewing up coffeeon the side of the road. “All OK,” I said when I radioed Amit to tell him. “Predeployment.”The convoy arrived two hours later and began to climb. “We’retaking it,” I radioed Amit.“Wait,” he replied. And as I kept pressing him for the final go-ahead, another30 seconds passed.“Not approved,” he finally barked back at me, clearly wanting to make sure Igot the message.129“What the hell is going on?” I replied, in a mix of a shout and a whisper,since I knew the convoy was getting closer. But within a minute, we spotted thelead Land Rover, which was soon past us on the way up to the ridge. It wasfollowed by two large American cars, with the Syrian officers, and then atrailing security vehicle. It was too late. I was fuming. The convoy had passedwithin a couple of yards of us, moving slowly because of the incline. But,regaining my composure, I realized we’d get another opportunity, when theofficers returned from their inspection visit. We now knew exactly how theconvoy was deployed, and with any luck, the security men would be less alertby the end of the day. Even better, it would be beginning to get dark, perfectconditions for the ambush.But as we were waiting, Amit radioed me with a question from from Dadoand Motta. “Where’s the armored car?” It’s still there, at the bottom of the road,I told them. “But there’s nothing it can do.” Bibi and his team had it in theirsights. I considered not telling Amit what happened a few minutes later: aLebanese shepherd, with a half-dozen sheep, stumbled on us. One of Uzi’s men,fluent in Arabic, tied the startled man’s arms behind his back, scattered thesheep, and told him: “It’s fine. Another hour or so, we’ll be gone, and we’ll letyou go.” It turned out to be less than an hour. Forty-five minutes. During which,not once but twice, Amit told us that Dado and Motta were worried: about thearmored car and now about the shepherd. I assured him everything was fine.We’d do the operation. The guys in the armored car would be helpless. If allwent well, they might not even know we’d intercepted the convoy. Theshepherd, like us, was just waiting for it to be over so we could all go home.Minutes later, Amit called again. He told us the convoy was on its way down.But barely 60 seconds later, he said: “It’s off. Don’t do it. Dado told me torepeat it twice so you’d understand: do not do the operation.”When we got back to the command post, not only were Dado and Mottathere. Since Motta was within days of leaving to become Israel’s militaryattaché in Washington, they’d been joined by his successor as head of thenorthern command, Yitzhak Hofi. Three times, I suggested to Dado that wespeak without my officers present. I did not feel it was right to have Uzi,Mookie and Bibi hear me the generals how I felt. But Dado insisted there wasno reason for them to leave.“This is a serious issue,” I said, trying to keep my emotions in check. “Whathappened out there is unacceptable. An effective special-forces unit cannotoperate this way. For the second time in a week, you’ve made us stop an130operation. Both times, it was an operation that we, the ones who have to do it,knew could succeed. An operation on which the fate of three Israeli pilotsdepends. One of whom we know personally, and have worked with. Now, again,with no real reason, you’ve stopped us. I see this as a breach of trust.” Whenneither Dado nor Motta replied, I went on: “I have to tell you openly. You can’tpossibly judge the situation on the ground. Only we can. And you’re behavingas if you know. You can’t know from here. There was no reason for us not tograb those officers. I don’t want to reach a point when I have to start thinkingabout what to report back, or not report, just to make sure we’re free tocomplete a mission that you ordered, after agreeing it was necessary for Israel.”No one said anything for a few moments. I could see that Uzi, Mookie andBibi were shocked at having heard me speak in this way to three of the topcommanders of the armed forces. But I meant every word. If Sayeret Matkalwas to function as a special-forces unit, it needed to have the trust of thosewho’d authorized an operation in the first place. It was Dado who finallyreplied. Sort of. Trying to defuse the tension, he told us a joke from his Palmachdays. “There are two bulls who come into a field full of cows. A young one andold one. The young one says to the old guy: let’s run over there to the far end ofthe field, where the prettiest cow is, and we can fuck her. The old bull replies:“No need to rush. Let’s go slowly, and fuck them all.”I guess we were meant to be the young bulls.I doubt Dado knew whether we’d get a third chance at the Syrian officers,though I’m sure he hoped so. A week later, we got word there would be a finalinspection visit, to the central sector of the border area. Ordinarily, I would haveled the operation. Now, I made an exception. To Dado’s obvious surprise, Idecided to remain behind, in the command post. “A commander has to be in thebest place to ensure a mission is successfully completed,” I told him. “I’vecome to the conclusion the only way I can do that is to be here with you.Because the real bottleneck isn’t out there in the field. It’s here.”I placed Yoni, who had just become my deputy, in overall command of thetwo main teams: Uzi Dayan’s and another led by one of our most impressiveyoung officers, a kibbutznik named Danny Brunner. He reminded me a lot ofNechemia Cohen: he spoke little, and softly, but once an operation began wascalm, clear minded and able to anticipate and avoid trouble before itmaterialized. Two other teams, one led by Mookie Betzer and the other by ShaiAgmon, would act as blocking units, concealed half-a-mile on either side, oncethe main force intercepted the convoy. We chose a spot across from the Israeli131moshav of Za’arit. We equipped Yoni’s force with a pair of Land Rovers inLebanese army colors and had them hide overnight in the moshav’s orchards, ahundred yards from the road on the Lebanese side of the frontier. The nextmorning, when we got confirmation the convoy was on its way, they crossedand stationed themselves on the road, lifted the hood of one of the vehicles andmade as if they were trying to repair engine trouble. Both the blocking forceswere in half-tracks with heavy machine-guns in case the convoy chose to standand fight.What we didn’t count on was a Lebanese driver, in a VW Beetle as I recall,puttering along the road shortly after Yoni’s team crossed. The man waved atthem. Quite rightly, Yoni let him drive on. Along with the other obvious reasonsnot to fire on a civilian VW, he didn’t want to alert the Syrians and their hoststhere was danger ahead. But the Lebanese motorist, as well as a group of nearbyfarmers, were suspicious enough to deliver a warning that there were a coupleof stalled Land Rovers on the side of the road. The convoy halted shortly afterpassing Mookie’s force, hidden in a field a few dozen yards away.Had I not been in the command post, I’m pretty sure what would havehappened next. The mission would have been called off. This time, I was theone in direct contact with all three teams. Even before I gave the order, Yonihad anticipated it. He and Uzi turned west to confront the convoy. In a briefinitial exchange of gunfire, one of Uzi’s men was wounded, not seriously, in theleg. But with Mookie’s team firing from behind and Yoni’s and Uzi’s men infront, the convoy was trapped, and the Syrians captured.The safest way back into Israel would have been the way the force hadentered. But Yoni and Uzi realized the main imperative was to get the Syriansout as quickly as possible. At a not-inconsiderable cost to a pair of Americanlimousines, Uzi drove each of them, with a total of five Syrian officers, througha boulder-strewn field across the border.The Syrians included three senior members of the Operations Department ofthe General Staff, and two from Air Force intelligence. Israel made animmediate offer to swap them for our pilots, though how enthusiastically I’mnot sure. With this kind of leverage on our side, it seemed unlikely the Syrianswould do further harm to our pilots. Our intelligence officers were keen to getevery bit of information they could before sending the Syrians home. It wouldbe a year later before the exchange was done. Yoni received a well-deservedtzalash for his role in the mission.132* * *Barely two months after the ambush operation in south Lebanon, BlackSeptember seized and murdered members of the Israeli team at the 1972Olympics in Munich.As soon as the news broke on the morning of September 5, I phoned AhrahleYariv as head of military intelligence. “You need to send us,” I said. I tried topersuade him that if it came down to an operation to free our hostages, SayeretMatkal offered the best hope that it would not end in a bloodbath. We had themind-set, the background, the training and now the experience. I also knew theGerman military had no special-forces unit. I’d have been even more worried ifI had known that German law barred the army from operating in peacetime.That meant any use of force would be left to the police. Ahrahle told me it wastoo early to say what involvement, if any, Israel might have. He’d get back intouch with a decision when it came.I called my officers together to begin planning. I decided to use the men whohad been with me for the Sabena mission, including Mordechai Rachamim. Wecollated information from the stream of media reports from Munich andassembled a rough idea of the layout of the building the terrorists had attacked.As for the attackers, I said we had to assume there were at least half-a-dozen,that they had not just AK-47s but grenades or other explosives. And that like theSabena hijackers, they would be prepared to die but hoping to live. All of thatturned out to be true. None of it, however, could alter the reply I got fromAhrahle a couple of hours later. “We decided to send Zvika,” he said. ZvikaZamir was the head of Mossad, and he would be going only as an observer. Anyoperation against the terrorists would still be in the hands of German units.The German police’s bungled attempt to end the ordeal was especiallypainful because it was so predictable. I believe that if we had been there, at leastsome of the eleven Israelis killed might not have lost their lives. The Germanslaunched an ambush at a NATO airfield outside Munich, when the terrorists andhostages were ostensibly on their way to board a flight for Cairo. We know nowthat there was no properly co-ordinated plan. Too few police were deployed forthe operation. They were insufficiently armed, and they lacked relevant trainingor experience. The result: a bloodbath. As a final insult to the memory of themurdered Israelis, although the three surviving terrorists were jailed, the133German government released them to meet the demands of the hijackers of aLufthansa airliner the following month.Added to Israeli public’s shock over the massacre, there was anger at havingto watch the murderers go free. In the weeks afterwards, I got occasional hintsthat a sustained Israeli response was underway, though I didn’t know the details.I was not aware that it was Ahrahle, at the direction of Golda herself, who wasco-ordinating it. Nor that a special Mossad team was at the center of theoperation. Yet from news reports of a series of attacks on suspected leaders ofBlack September, I, and most Israelis, assumed we were determined to convey amessage which the Germans had not: that terror killings of the sort perpetratedin Munich would not go unanswered.It was not until late 1972 that I knew the full scale of the operation. We hadno formal ties with the Mossad, but our intelligence work occasionallyoverlapped. In mid-December, the sayeret’s intelligence liaison was approachedwith a “theoretical question” by a couple of guys from the Mossad. Did we havethe capability to attack three separate flats in a pair of apartment buildings inBeirut. I sent back my preliminary answer a few days later. I said it waspossible. But there was no way I could say for sure without more information.Would the people in the apartments be armed? Were there guards outside? Wasthere a caretaker or concierge? Was there only one way in to the buildings, oralso rear entrances? Would we be able to get a plan of the interior of theapartments?In another month, they came up with most of the answers. The buildingswere fairly new, with glassed-in lobby areas and concierges. The Mossad menalso gave us a fairly detailed layout of two of the three apartments. They did notknow whether there were back entrances. They thought it was likely there werebodyguards, or at least some security detail posted outside. As for the peopleliving in the apartments, all of them were likely to have at least small arms.Over the next week or so, we raised a series of other questions. Mainly, Iwanted to know whether they were sure the people we’d be looking for wouldbe at home. The Mossad officers said they were working on that, but wereconfident of being able to confirm this before any operation happened. Thoughthey didn’t identify the people they were targeting, I had now learned, throughAhrahle and others, what had been pretty obvious since the Mossad’s initialapproach. They were Palestinian leaders with ties to Black September. “I thinkit’s possible,” I finally told them. “We’ll put a plan in place. We can finalize thearrangements if you come back and say you want us to do it.”134Nothing happened for several months. By the early spring of 1973, with mytwo-year term as sayeret commander winding down, I assumed the operationhad been vetoed. I could understand why. As we worked on our plan, it hadbecome clear that getting into the heart of the Lebanese capital, hitting theapartments and getting out again without starting a minor war would be by farthe most difficult mission we had attempted. I did not doubt that Sayeret Matkaloffered the best chance of success. But it wouldn’t be easy. I figured thatwhoever was making the decision had come to the same conclusion.I was on a weekend away with Nava and Michal in the Red Sea resort ofEilat when things suddenly began to move. At around noon on Saturday, I got acall from Talik’s deputy in the kirya. “Ehud,” he said, “we need you back hereas soon as possible.” When I asked why, he said: “You remember how you wereapproached by someone with some questions, and you went back to them with alist of other questions for them to answer?”I told Nava I’d been summoned to a meeting at the chief-of-staff’s office –the kind of call of duty that both of us were now used to – and grabbed the firstcommercial flight north. It got the the kirya early in the evening, and joined ameeting that was already well underway. Dado was in his usual seat on theright-hand side of the table he used for staff discussions, flanked by Talik.Across from them was Manno Shaked, the officer who had phoned me to tellme about the Sabena hijacking and who had now succeeded Raful Eitan askatzhar, overall chief of the infantry and paratroopers. Beside him were the twoMossad officers with whom I’d had most of my dealings about Beirut. Theywere all staring at an aerial photo of the Lebanese capital, with an area markedin blue pen around a street called Rue Verdun.I entered and took one of the remaining chairs. Gesturing toward the imageof Beirut, Dado turned to me. “Do you know this place?” he asked. Yes, I said.I’d seen the photo. Nodding toward the Mossad men, I said: “These two officersshowed it to me.”“Do you have an idea how to do this operation?” I told him that we didn’thave a fully detailed operational plan. But I said we’d looked into the problemswe’d face. “We believe we can do it.” When he asked how, I outlined theapproach we’d settled on: a small force, thirteen men, plus two from Mossad toact as drivers. We would need the Mossad men to go to Beirut ahead of us, andrent a pair of nice American cars, the kind typical tourists would use. We’d landon the waterfront, well south of the most built-up parts of the city coastline, andmeet up with the rental cars. When we reached the apartment blocks, three135groups of three men each would take care of the apartments. Four more wouldremain outside to deal with the concierges or security guards or any otherinterference, and to command and co-ordinate. We’d leave the same way wecame in, by sea.Dado nodded. I found out later that he’d asked the same question of Manno,who had proposed a classic regular-army raid. They would block the road withten armed paratroopers on each end with the aim of holding off resistance, whileanother two dozen went in to the apartments and attacked. I could only assumeDado concluded that this almost certainly wouldn’t work, at least not withoutmajor trouble. It would certainly forfeit any chance of surprise.“The mission is yours,” he said. “Manno will be in overall command,offshore. Because we’re also planning to hit several other targets.”The reason for the urgent summons was that the Mossad had confirmed allthree Palestinians would be in their apartments in 10 days’ time. Everyoneinvolved realized that – given its complexity, the obvious risks, and theinevitable unknowns – the operation could well go wrong. In fact, one reasonfor Dado’s “other targets” was to ensure that if it did, there would be successeselsewhere to provide a credible justification for having sent Israeli forces intoBeirut. As we received further intelligence, new obstacles had to be factored in.The main one was the presence of a gendarmerie, a Lebanese police post, at thebottom end of the street, only 500 feet or so from the apartments. And we wouldbe operating in a crowded, up-market residential area. We could only hope thatat the hour we struck, most people would be in bed. Or out partying. This was,after all, pre-civil war Beirut, the “Paris of the Middle East”.In the years since, an extraordinary array of stories has grown up around thesayeret’s final and best-known mission during my term as commander,culminating in the dramatic version in Stephen Spielberg’s movie Munich. Iremember reading in one earlier book, otherwise surprisingly accurate, aboutour five weeks of intensive training. Even the full 10 days which I thought we’dbeen given would have been a bonus. In fact, we had half that as a full team,since our Mossad drivers, European-born Israelis, had to make their waythrough Paris to Beirut as tourists, rent the cars and scout out our route from theseashore to Rue Verdun.There were four other operations planned alongside ours: three by paratroopunits and one by the Shayetet 13 SEALs, against a series of Fatah andDemocratic Front installations. Though all of them, like ours, would need help136from the SEALs in getting ashore, only one required direct co-ordination withus. This was an attack on a DFLP building a mile or so away in southern Beirut,led by Amnon Lipkin, the friend whose unit had faced one of the toughestbattles at Karameh. Amnon’s paratroop force would land with us and also pileinto Mossad rental cars. Our attacks would begin at the same time, with themaximum prospect of retaining the advantage of surprise. When and if we bothcompleted the operations and got away safely, we would meet up again on theseafront.From our first meeting, the morning after Dado gave me the go-ahead, Irealized I would have to make at least one change to the plan to rely on the coreSabena team. There was no way, after his exclusion from the hijack rescuemission, that I could refuse Yoni when he pressed to be included. I added him toMookie Betzer’s force. I put the other two attack teams under a pair of youngofficers named Amitai Nachmani and Zvika Gilad. Both were self-confident,natural leaders. Both had other qualities I also knew we’d need: focus, andcalm. I would take charge on the street outside the targeted apartments, alongwith Amiram Levin. With us would be Dov Bar, a Shayetet 13 officer, and ourmedic, Shmuel Katz.In the hangar at the sayeret base, we made mock-ups of the layout of theapartments, using bedsheets for the walls and adjusting the dimensions asfurther bits of intelligence came in from Mossad. But the real work involvedsimulating the whole operation, from the moment of our landing on jet-blackrubber dinghies piloted by the SEALs. We found a new building developmentin north Tel Aviv with a pair of apartment blocks under construction. For twonights, we ran through the whole thing: setting off in the dinghies from a missileboat off the Israeli coast before midnight, meeting up with our Mossad driverson shore, making our way through the center of Tel Aviv to the apartmentcomplexes and simulating the attack. I wanted to ensure we could pull off thewhole thing without anyone raising an alarm. The one problem came during thesecond run-through. A policeman drove by as we were “attacking” theapartments. Dado managed to convince him that reporting us to his superiorswould not be an especially good idea.In our debriefing discussions after that exercise, Dado identified a majorproblem I’d overlooked. We would be entering Beirut dressed as civilians. Oncewe got to the top end of Rue Verdun, we planned to approach the apartments asif we were party-goers returning from a night on the town. “It doesn’t lookright,” Dado said. “More than a dozen party people walking, all men?” Mookie137came up with the solution, one that would have the unintended effect ofelevating our mission further in Israeli lore. The three least burly-looking of uswould go in as women: a boyish looking guy named Lonny Rafael, AmiramLevin, and me.Still, there was another, potentially deeper concern that had yet to beaddressed. In all sayeret missions, since the beginning, we knew we might endup having to fight, shoot and, if necessary, kill. Yet now we would be going inwith the expectation of killing three specific men. We had black-and-whitephotos: Mohammed Youssef al-Najar, or Abu Youssef, an operations officer inBlack September; Kamal Adwan, one of Arafat’s top military planners; andKamal Nasser, a member of his leadership circle and his spokesman.Nominally, it was understood we would seize them and bring them back toIsrael if possible. I had us exercise how we’d do that. But none of us reallybelieved that once our teams made it into the apartments, the Palestinians wouldsurrender. We assumed we would have no option but to kill them.The killing was not the main issue. After all, I had drawn up a plan a yearearlier to target Arafat himself. Though no one in the sayeret took any pleasurein having to take a life, at the end of the day we were a part of the army. BlackSeptember, and Arafat’s Fatah more broadly, were not only at war with theexistence of Israel. They were behind a campaign of terror. Certainly there wasno significant public opposition, after the horror of Munich, to going after thosewho were deemed to be part of the operational or political direction of BlackSeptember. Our uneasiness inside the unit, however, revolved around what I’dextolled as its “spirit” when I became commander. Beyond all the specificqualities we needed to succeed in our operations, our image of ourselves was asthinking soldiers. We might sometimes find it necessary to kill, but we were notkillers.As I explained to each of the men I’d be leading on the operation, theMossad, Dado, and ultimately Golda had concluded that these three men wereappropriate targets in the wake of Munich. As a battalion-level commander, Idid not feel I was in a position to challenge their judgement, unless we had beenordered to carry out an attack that was clearly improper or immoral. In that case,I would have no hesitation in refusing. I said I viewed what we were beingasked to do in Beirut not as an act of revenge, but a deterrent. It was a way ofleaving no doubt in the minds of potential future terrorists that massacres likeMunich carried a heavy price.138The more difficult question for some in the unit was how we were deliveringthat message: breaking into apartments in the middle of the night. Yes, each ofthe men was almost sure to be armed. But these flats were their homes. Verylikely, members of their families would be there. If the operation went asplanned, it was hard to imagine how any of the men would have a chance ofsurviving. My answer was that ideally we would face them on a battlefield. Yetgiven the nature of Black September, that was not going to happen. Mossad wasright to conclude this was the only way to isolate and attack them.For Amitai Nachmani, who would be leading the attack on one of theapartments, my words were not enough. Twice, he came to see me. It was notthat he didn’t trust or respect me as his commander, he said. But before leadinghis team into Beirut, he needed to satisfy himself that the people we wereattacking, and the way we were attacking them, had been properly thoughtthrough by the people giving the orders. I told him I understood. I did not tellhim that I was actually proud of him for asking – which, although I’m sure hesensed it, was an omission I regretted when he lost his life in the Sinai Desert afew months later. But I did go see Dado. I told him what Amitai had said. Heneeded no convincing when I urged him to address the entire Beirut team andanswer their questions at our final planning meeting. He did so, explaining howand why the decision to target these three Palestinians had been reached, to thesatisfaction of Amitai and the others.We set off by missile boat from Haifa on the afternoon of April ninth. To myrelief, since I suffer from seasickness, the Mediterranean was calm as weheaded west towards Cyprus, before circling back in the direction of theLebanese coast after nightfall. I ran through the plan a final time with eachmember of the team and then joined Amiram and Lonny in transformingourselves as best we could into credible dates for the evening. I’d vetoed dressesor high heels, in favor of flared slacks and flats. We used standard-issue armysocks to pad out our bras. The Mossad had recruited a volunteer from a TelAviv beauty parlor to help us with our lipstick, blue eyeliner and eye shadow.The final touch was our wigs. Amiram and Lonny were blondes. I went as astylish brunette.I’m reluctant to take issue with the Spielberg version of events, if onlybecause he had my part played by someone undeniably better looking than Iwas, even as a 31-year-old. But in Munich, we are shown zooming into acrowded harbor area on a line of motor boats, changing into drag only oncewe’ve sprinted ashore, opening fire on a dockside kiosk and shooting our way139into town like something out of the wild west. Had any of that happened, wewould have started a small-scale war, not to mention run the very real risk ofnot getting out alive.In fact, we left the missile boat, Manno’s offshore command post, in motordinghies out of earshot of Beirut and cut the engines as we got closer to theshore. All of us, including the “women”, were wrapped in ponchos to avoidshowing up on Rue Verdun soaking wet. After getting out of the dinghies, wewere carried ashore by the SEALs to make sure we stayed dry. All of us hadloose-fitting jackets. The attack teams used them to conceal Uzis, explosivecharges to blow the locks on the apartment doors if they couldn’t be forcedopen, a hand grenade or two and flashlights for the dash up the stairs. Onemember of each team had a large plastic bag, with orders to take away anyeasily accessible documents for Mossad analysts back home. As the mother ofthe brood, I also had a large purse, in which I carried our radio to communicatewith the team leaders and with Manno on the missile boat if necessary.Our SEAL pilots steered us well away from the more built-up part of theseafront towards the Coral Beach, one of the private clubs on the southern endof the shoreline. Four rented station wagons were waiting, two of them for usand two for Amnon’s squad. Amnon set off toward the DFLP target. We headednorth towards the center of town. In the Spielberg film, my speaking roleconsisted of two words, my name, as I introduced myself to my driver. In fact,we had already met: during the run-through exercises in Tel Aviv. After we gotinto the cars, I asked him how his scouting of the route had gone. He saidbasically OK, but that he’d noticed a couple of cops patrolling near the top ofVerdun on one of his drive-bys. I assured him it would be fine. There would beno reason for a policeman to suspect what we were up to, or who we were. Still,I could tell he was nervous. “What’s wrong?” I asked. He hesitated beforereplying. “I’ve never been in a place where there’s live fire,” he said. I told himnot to worry. He still wouldn’t be. “You’re going to be parked around thecorner, until it’s over. Then, it’s just about getting home.”When we reached the top of Verdun, it was about ten minutes after one inthe morning. Our cars pulled over. I took Mookie’s arm as we began walkingthe 150 feet or so to the first of the apartment buildings. The others followed inknots of two or three. Both Mookie and I saw a policeman approaching on thesidewalk. “Ignore him,” I whispered. We weaved a few inches to the side to lethim pass. The buildings were as we’d expected, with their lobbies set back froma covered terrace in front. As the other teams made their way to the second140building, I stayed with Mookie. His job, along with Yoni in his expanded team,was to deal with Abu Youssef, the Black September operations officer. Theconcierge must have been on a coffee break. The lobby was empty. The doorwas unlocked, so they sprinted toward the interior staircase and made their wayup.Adwan, the Fatah military man, and Kamal Nasser lived next door. Adwan,Amitai’s target, was on the second floor. Nasser was on the third. As the teamsraced into the other building, Amiram and I posted ourselves near one of theterrace pillars, occasionally exchanging a few words of what we hoped wouldpass as girl talk. The SEAL officer and Dr Katz were near the top end of thestreet as lookouts. We seemed seconds away from what had all the makings ofthe operation we’d rehearsed back in Tel Aviv. The one major problem I’dexpected – security guards posted outside – hadn’t materialized. We’d been toldby the Mossad to look out for a grey Mercedes, but it wasn’t there.The next stage was for each team leader to press the transmit button threetimes on his radio. When I’d heard from all of them, I would send a signal back.Then, at the count of five, each of them was supposed to start the attack.Mookie’s signal came first. Yet before either of the other two teams checked in,the trouble began. Suddenly, the door of a red Renault flew open almost directlyacross the street from where Amiram and I were standing. A tall, sturdy, darkhairedman climbed out. He looked across at us. He opened his leather jacket.He pulled out a pistol and started to approach us. “Ein breirah,” I whispered toAmiram. “No choice.” To this day, I remember the shock on the man’s face ashe watched us – a pair of 30something women – open our jackets and pull outUzis. Fortunately for him, we’d had to make allowances for concealment inchoosing our weapons. We’d left the Uzis’ stabilizing shoulder braces behind.As our first shots hit, he had half-turned to run. Though wounded, he somehowgot back in the car. We kept shooting but he managed to drag himself out of thefar door and roll behind a waist-high wall on the other side of the street. One ofour shots obviously hit the electrical innards of the Renault, because the carhorn began blaring full-blast, as if someone had set off a modern-day car alarm.So much for the element of surprise.I saw three sets of lights suddenly come on in the otherwise dark apartmentbuildings. They were in the flats that Mossad had identified. At least that part ofthe plan was intact. These were the Palestinians we were after, and it seemedthey were at home. Seconds later, I heard an explosion. It was from Abu141Youssef’s apartment, the one Mookie and Yoni had been assigned. Then, burstsof gunfire from the other building.A Land Rover was approaching from the gendarmerie at the bottom of theroad. We waited until it was about 50 feet away. Amiram and I opened fire, thenDov and Shmuel Katz as well. The driver lost control and crashed into the sideof the Renault. There were at least four policemen inside. They, too, rolledbehind the wall on the far side of the street. Using the terrace columns for cover,we kept shooting. Within a minute or so, only a couple of the cops fired back.Though the three Palestinians could not know the reason for the gunfire andthe wailing of the car horn, they were now on their guard. When Mookie hadblown open the door to Abu Youssef’s flat – and he, Yoni and the other twomembers of his team ran into the apartment – he saw the Black September manpeering out from the bedroom. Mookie raised his Uzi but the Palestinian duckedinside and shut the door. All four of them fired through through the door. Whenthey went in, they found not only Abu Youssef but his wife, both dead. WhenZvika’s team burst in on Kamal Nasser, he, too, was ready. Crouching behind adesk, he raised an automatic pistol and fired, grazing one of the team on the leg.But in a burst of Uzi bullets, he, too, was killed.I suspect that Amitai’s face-to-face meeting with Dado may have saved hislife. When he and his team cornered Kamal Adwan, he had an AK-47 raised andready to fire. Without even a split second’s unconscious hesitation, Amitai firedfirst. His only regret afterwards was that Adwan’s wife and children saw ithappen, and that when they’d blasted open the apartment door, the force blewopen the door of a nearby flat, killing an elderly Italian woman. She had beenone of the Mossad’s sources of information on the Beirut apartments.Mookie’s team came down first. They joined us, crouching behind thecolumns, as sporadic shots continued from one of the policemen behind the wallacross the street. When a second police Land Rover approached, I at firstsignaled the others to let it pass. But when it suddenly accelerated toward us, weopened fire. It swerved, crashing into the rear bumper of the other one.The other teams were back down now. I shouted for Dov to have the driversbring the station wagons from around the corner. When we began to pull away,a third police Land Rover appeared. It sped up behind us. Mookie tossed back agrenade. The last thing I saw as we made it to the end of the block and headedtoward the seafront was the front end of the vehicle exploding. We droppedhollow, needle-sharp spikes out the window of the car as we left, so I knew that142any other pursuing vehicle would be in no shape to follow for very long. But westill had to avoid trouble on our way back out. I knew it would be a risk to goback to the Coral Beach, so we took the shortest route to the sea, straight out tothe Corniche, the city’s main avenue along the Mediterranean. As we got closer,we could hear gunfire. Obviously, the police, and the Palestinian militias,realized something was not right. The advantage we had was that they wouldhave no idea what had happened on Rue Verdun, who we were, or where wewere going.No sooner had we joined the Corniche than I saw another police Land Roverabout 200 yards ahead of us. This one had a spotlight on the roof, panning bothsides of the road. I told the driver to slow down. About 100 yards or so later,reaching the place where we’d arranged for the SEALs to meet us, he and theother station wagon pulled over to the side of the road. The Land Rover keptdriving. We slid down a steep embankment nearly 30 feet to the sea. Two of thethree assault teams had bags full of documents as well. We swam out to thedinghies. When we had hoisted ourselves in, we headed out at first by paddle,then under engine power, to the missile boat. The whole operation had takenabout a half an hour, only 10 minutes on Rue Verdun.I radioed Manno on the way to the missile boat. A half-dozen words: theagreed code phrase for “mission accomplished, targets achieved.” I could hearrelief in his voice when he replied. At first, I assumed that was because theyhadn’t heard from us during the operation. Our radio link to the missile boat hadgone down when we entered the built-up area around the apartment blocks.Genuinely, despite Manno’s suspicion that I’d cut the connection. Yet he hadother reasons to exhale when he heard we had got out safely. Amnon’s team hadhad a much tougher time. They met resistance from the moment they arrived atthe DFLP building. Two of his men were killed, another wounded. They set offtheir explosive charges, but had to fight their way out. They only barelymanaged to escape, carrying their fallen comrades with them and linking upwith another team of SEALs near the Coral Beach.It was a little before six in the morning when I got home. I was careful not towake Nava. I’d changed out of my slacks and flats and surrendered my wig onthe missile boat. But I didn’t have the energy to deal with my makeup. The nextthing I remember was my wife standing by our bed as I stirred awake aroundnoon the next day. She looked at my eye makeup and lipstick, shook her head,and smiled. She didn’t need to ask where I’d been. Israel radio had been full ofnews about a major operation in Beirut.143* * *A few weeks later, my term as commander ended. The handover to mysuccessor, Giora Zorea, turned out to be more elaborate than my arrival, thoughnot at my instigation. With both Talik and Avraham in attendance, Dadopresented me with my fifth tzalash. It was not for Beirut. Not for the operationagainst the Syrian officers, or the unprecedented access our intelligencemissions were providing into Egypt’s military communications. Dado said itwas for all of the above. And not just for leading the unit of which I’d been apart almost from the start. It was for my part in bringing it to maturity. When Ireplied, I am sure everyone knew I was speaking from the heart in saying thatmy every moment with Sayeret Matkal had been a privilege. And that this latestcommendation was an award for the achievements the whole sayeret.Dado did me another good turn. As my stint as commander drew to an end, Iknew what I hoped to do next in the army: to use my tank training to work myway up the command chain in the armored corps. But like past sayeretcommanders, it was assumed I would first spend time at the US Marine Corpsstaff college in Quantico, Virginia. I had other ideas. I wanted to exercise otherparts of my mind, by doing postgraduate work at a normal American university.Dado agreed.I still had to get accepted. The first step was to take the post-graduate entryexam, the GRE. There were two parts to it. The first involved mathematics andabstract thinking, the second English language. If my fate had rested on myEnglish grade, I’d have ended up at Quantico. I finished in the 28 th percentile.But in the other part, I was in the 99.6 th percentile. I applied to four universities:Harvard, Yale, MIT and Stanford. Amazingly, I got accepted by all of them. Ichose Stanford, mainly because it allowed a far greater latitude in choosing myprogram of study. Also, the weather.In early August 1973, Nava and I joined my parents and hers on a sunnyafternoon in Mishmar Hasharon to celebrate Michal’s third birthday and saygoodbye. We were heading to Palo Alto, California, with every expectation oftwo years of intellectual stimulation, new friends, new experiences andsomething approximating a more normal family life. My “other” family, theIsraeli army, also had reason to believe a period of new possibilities lay ahead.The threat of terror remained, of course. There had also been a brief bout of144nerves over military maneuvers by Anwar Sadat a few weeks earlier. But thathad come to nothing. In no small part due to the success of the raid on RueVerdun, Israel’s generals believed the balance of strength and security was onour side and that, at least for a while, Israel could breathe a bit more easily.But we were all about to be proven spectacularly wrong.145Chapter NineThe phone rang in our apartment in Palo Alto at 4:30 in the morning. We hadbeen in the US for barely six weeks. It was the Sixth of October 1973: YomKippur, the holiest date on the Jewish calendar. I was still a bit groggy from thenight before. We had been out at a get-to-know-you event for some of theseveral dozen Israelis, and several hundred American Jewish students, atStanford. While I only vaguely recognized the voice on the other end of the line,her words instantly jolted me awake: “The boss is busy,” she said. “But hewants you to know. A war has started back home.”Her boss was Motta Gur, who was by now Israel’s military attaché inWashington and was my nominal commander for my period in the UnitedStates. “I need to talk to Motta,” I said. She passed him the phone. “I want youto know I’m going back,” I told him. Motta’s reply took my mind back 15months, to our on-again-off-again mission to abduct the Syrian officers, withMotta and Dado in the command post, intent on reining in the “young bulls” ofthe sayeret. “Ehud,” he said, “from what I’m hearing, I don’t think we aremissing a major war.”“What’s this we?” I said. Motta was a general, at the upper reaches of thearmed forces, officially posted to Washington. I was a young officer, juststarting to work my way up the chain of field command. “I can’t afford to misseven a non-major war,” I said. “I’ll check in with you when I get to New York.”“Major” would turn out to be, if anything, an understatement. Yet all I knew,as I kissed Nava and Michal goodbye and got a cab to San Francisco airport,was that Israel was again at war. By the time I joined the swarm of Israelisaround the El Al desk at Kennedy eight hours later, the picture was clearer, andmore worrying with each new report from back home. Surprise attacks by Syriaand Egypt – armies we’d not just defeated, but humiliated, six years earlier –had pinned down and pushed back our forces on the Golan Heights and in theSinai. Without any advance call-up, many reservists were only now reaching thefront lines.As hundreds of people pressed for seats on the El Al flight, I was fortunate toreceive a boost up the pecking order from another man in line. Since the Sabenaoperation, the existence of Sayeret Matkal had become a bit less secret. Still, theidentity of the sayeret commander was known to just a few people outside theunit. So skittish were the army security people that before I’d left for Stanford,146they even insisted I change my name. I was no longer Ehud Brog. I’dHebraicized it: to Barak, which seemed near enough to the original. Among thefew dozen outside the unit who did know about my role, however, wereparatroopers who’d joined us on various missions. One of them now told the ElAl people who I was. Not only was I given a seat on the first overnight planeback to Tel Aviv. I found myself helping the airline establish a priority forassigning seats to others: first, active officers in fighting units: armor, infantry,the air force. Then, reservists, with the emphasis on those who’d seen activeservice most recently.As we were waiting to board, I phoned Uzi Dayan and asked him to meet meat Lod the next morning. Then I called Motta again. “Ehud,” he said, with notrace of irony, “it is an extremely serious war. Syrian tanks are getting close tothe outer fences of Nafakh” – our main command post on the Golan. “Goodluck.”Uzi was waiting for me when we landed. Walking to his car, we ran into tworeserve armored officers who had also just arrived home. They expected to besent north, to help beat back the Syrian advance. When they asked me where Ithought I’d be going, I said, truthfully, I had no idea. “Wherever I can help,” Isaid. Uzi drove us to the bor, the bunker built two floors underground in thekirya. Usually, it functioned as the day-to-day operations center. But it waswhere the commanders of the armed forces operated during times of war.At officers’ school, we’d heard and read about the importance of throwingthe enemy “off balance”. Now, we were the ones off balance. The faces I sawaround me were gray and drawn. There were dead looks in the eyes of thecommanders and their staff. Some 30 hours after the surprise attack, all the selfconfidencewe’d felt since 1967 seemed to have evaporated. I looked intoseveral of the rooms where, months earlier, I’d run through operational plans assayeret commander. Inside each, a large wall map traced the course of thefighting. Israeli forces were marked in blue, the Syrians and Egyptians in red,with a timestamp for each position report scribbled at the side in black magicmarker. But I saw that the latest addition was from at least twelve hours earlier.It was as if we’d lost track of what was happening, or were simplyoverwhelmed by the pace of events.I spoke briefly with Talik as he walked along the corridor. He looked 10years older than when I’d last seen him. Then I spotted Ahrahle Yariv, who hadbeen called back into military intelligence at the start of the war. Lookingsurprised to see me back in Israel, he pulled me close to him. “It’s important147that you came back,” he said. “We’ll need each and every one of you to get thejob done.” Then he hugged me again. It was as if, knowing I would soon beheading for the front line, he wondered whether we’d see each other again.I made my way to the office that the chief of staff used in the bunker andasked Dado’s secretary if I could see him. As she was deciding whether to letme in, he emerged. Though obviously aware of the seriousness of the situation,Dado radiated his usual calm and confidence. For the first time, I felt a bit morehopeful. “Ma nishmah, Ehud? he asked, in Israelis’ everyday greeting. “What’sup?” I told him I’d just come from the airport. “I can help in special forces,infantry, armor. Whichever is most needed.”“Leading a tank unit,” he said. “They’ve suffered heavy losses. Go seeTzipori.” Motke Tzipori was in charge of organizing the armored units. He sentme to Julis, the training base between Tel Aviv and Beersheva, where tanksfrom maintenance units around the country were being brought. Once they werereasonably operational, and as more reservists arrived from abroad, I would leada makeshift battalion to help reinforce our badly depleted forces in the Sinai.* * *I was just one of dozens of officers, in command of thousands of tireless andcourageous troops called on to try to turn the tide. Most were reservists. Many,like me, had rushed home in the knowledge that for the first time since 1948,there was the real risk Israel would be defeated. By the time I got my battleorders – October 14, the ninth day of the war – Israeli forces on the Golan, atenormous cost, had managed to turn back the Syrian attack. In this war, the menfrom Sayeret Matkal were not bystanders. Most of the unit joined the fightbackin the north, where, under Yoni Netanyahu’s command, they took on anddefeated a Syrian commando force in the heart of the Golan. Yoni himselfrisked his life to rescue a wounded officer from another unit behind enemylines.In the Sinai, however, the situation remained dire. An initial counterattack,launched while I was on my way to Julis, ended up in tatters, with wholebattalions all but destroyed, as our tanks came under fire from rocket-propelledgrenades and, above all, the wire-guided Saggers. Israel’s main advantage in1967 – our command of the skies – was all but gone. By moving their surface-148to-air missiles to the bank of the Suez Canal after the truce in the War ofAttrition, the Egyptians had created an effective no-fly zone a dozen miles intothe Sinai. After the failed counter-attack, with the commander of the air forcewarning that we were nearing our minimum “red line” number of fighter jets,Golda contacted the Americans to propose a cease-fire in the south. But havingretaken the Suez Canal and pushed into the Sinai, President Sadat was in nomood to call a halt to the fighting. The only way we were going to end the warwas to retake the canal and defeat the even larger Egyptian forces on the otherside.To the extent that my part in war was different from other junior officers, itwas because of my history in Sayeret Matkal. Other Israeli sayerets wereattached to specific fighting forces. Sayeret Golan, for instance, was part of theGolani infantry brigade in the north; Sayeret Tzanhanim, was part of theparatroopers. But “matkal” is the Hebrew word for the general staff, since it wasthe generals in military headquarters who had allowed Avraham Arnan to createthe unit. From the start, we had answered directly to the kirya, which ultimatelyhad to approve our operations. When I rushed back from Stanford at the start ofthe war, I was still just a 31-year-old lieutenant-colonel. I had spent two years incommand of the equivalent of an infantry battalion. But I knew, and in manycases had worked with, the men at the very top of the armed forces, includingDado, the chief of staff. So while other young reservists were reporting to theirformer units for assignment, my first port of call was the command bunker,where Dado himself, aware that I’d done intensive tank training before takingcommand of the sayeret, ensured that I would play my part in trying to turnback the Egyptian advances. I also knew, or at least had met, many of thegenerals plotting the counteroffensive in the command bunker in the south:Shmuel Gonen, known as “Gorodish”, who was head of the southern command;Arik Sharon, who had left the same job for politics a few months earlier, butwas now commanding a division near the canal; and Chaim Bar-Lev, the formerchief-of-staff whom Golda had called back into emergency service. I even knewthe bunker. It was Um-Hashiba, the command and intelligence post from whichwe had run Sayeret Matkal operations into Egypt after 1967.So during the last, decisive 10 days of the war, I would witness first-hand thetension among our top commanders in the Sinai, especially between Sharon andGorodish, since Arik wasted few opportunities to suggest, rightly but not alwayshelpfully, that his successor was woefully out of his depth. I would lead mycompany back across the canal with one of the other main armored brigades inthe Sinai; take out Egyptian missile sites and help restore our jets’ command of149the skies; strike out alone at night, with sayeret-issue night goggles, to bringback the surviving soldiers after we realized we’d lost one of our APCs in abattle with Egyptians; and even, because I’d been there before on sayeretmissions, leading a joint armored force across the Egyptian desert to completethe encirclement of Sadat’s Third Army and effectively end the war.Still, the memory which has stayed with me longest – summoning back allthe miscues and misjudgements of some of Israel’s top commanders, and theterrible price paid by the men on the ground to turn things around – was thefight for an experimental agricultural facility located just a few miles back fromour side of the Suez Canal.* * *On Israeli military maps, it was called the Chinese Farm. In fact, it wasJapanese experts who helped set it up in the then-Egyptian Sinai before the Six-Day War. When we captured it in 1967, deciphering the characters on theequipment had evidently proven beyond our linguistic capabilities. Thus,Chinese Farm. Now, it was back in Egyptian hands. The sprawling complex,with its web of large irrigation ditches, controlled the main transport corridorfrom the Sinai to the bank of the canal.Before dawn on October 16, one of the battalions in Arik Sharon’s brigade,under a veteran paratroop commander named Danny Matt, had managed tocross the canal on rubber rafts with an advance force of some 750 men and afew dozen tanks. But it was a precarious beachhead, vulnerable to Egyptian airstrikes, artillery and Sagger fire. Hopes for any large-scale Israeli counterattackrested on moving forward an enormous roller bridge, and hundreds more tanks,to complete the crossing – impossible without retaking the Chinese Farm.The first I knew of the scale of Egyptian resistance there was about four inthe morning on the seventeenth. I got a radio call ordering me to get mybattalion ready to move, ASAP. We were attached the other main armoredforce, along with Arik’s, assigned to lead the crossing. It was under thecommand of Avraham “Bren” Adnan, the former overall commander of Israelitank forces. “You’re going north of Tirtur 42,” Bren’s operations officer toldme. Even without checking our coded map, I knew it was the road runningalong the upper edge of the Chinese Farm. He told me that the parachutists of150Battalion 890, under Yitzhik Mordechai, were in trouble. “Go. Find them. Helpget them out.”I knew Yitzhik personally, from his years in the paratroopers’ elite Battalion890. I knew the man who was now in overall command of the paratroopers evenbetter: Uzi Yairi, who was in charge of Sayeret Matkal during my final years ofreserve duty at Hebrew University. Helicoptered into the Sinai just hoursearlier, the paratroopers had been sent to the Chinese Farm shortly beforemidnight. As I would soon learn, they had no more idea than I did about whatthey were about to face. They were told they were going in simply to clear outbands of “tank-hunters”. They weren’t told of repeated attempts by some ofArik’s top tank, paratroop and reconnaissance units to take the farm over theprevious 36 hours – attacks which had not only failed, but had cost dozens oftanks and hundreds of men. Without artillery, armor or air support, theyimmediately came under rifle, machine-gun, mortar and heavy artillery fire.Our job was to get them out. Ordering my men to get ready for our firstcombat mission of the war, I found myself face-to-face with a distraught anddetermined friend from military intelligence. Yishai Izhar had arrived at Bren’sheadquarters the day before. When he saw me, he’d asked to join my battalion.He was a brilliant electronics engineer and was about to assume command ofthe technology unit in military intelligence. I told him we already had ourcomplement of tank crews, and I knew he’d never had any armored training. SoI found him a place in one of our APCs. But before joining military intelligence,he’d been a company commander in Battalion 890. Hearing that we were goingto rescue his old unit, he insisted on joining me on the lead tank. I tried severaltimes to refuse, but he said I had no moral authority to stash him in an APCwhen we were going in to rescue his friends and comrades. Aware that eachwasted minute might cost more of the paratroopers’ lives, I relented. I toldYishai he’d be sitting across from me on the turret, right above Yasha Kedmi,another friend who, having served under me in my first tank company in theWar of Attrition, had asked to join back at Julis. Yasha was our loader andradio-operator. He got Yishai a machine gun, extra magazines for his Uzi and abox of grenades.We moved out through wave-like dunes in total darkness. After the first fewmiles, the terrain leveled out a bit. Still, the sand was deep and the going slow.When we got within a couple of miles of where I assumed Yitzhik and his menwould be, I radioed him. His voice was chilling. “They’re very close to us,shooting,” he said. “I’ve got many wounded. Get here as quick as you can.”151As we got closer, I could still see no sign of them. As dawn was about break,I radioed Yitzhik to suggest he fire off a flare, but he thought that would putthem at even greater mercy of the Egyptians. Instead, he tossed out a smokegrenade. We spotted it, more than a half-a-mile away, slightly below us and toour right. I ordered us forward, leaving my second tank company behind forcovering fire. I led Company A, which included my most experienced tankcommander, Moshe Sukenik. Immediately behind us were our APCs, includingtwo carrying our medical team. My aim was to engage the Egyptian fire whilestarting to evacuate Yitzhik’s men to one of the long, dry, irrigation ditches, 600yards behind us.We moved forward in a broad line with my command tank in the center. Weheld our fire until we got closer. I still couldn’t see exactly where the men ofBattalion 890 were and didn’t want to risk hitting them. Only when we gotwithin about 70 yards did I spot the first of the paratroopers. They were ingroups of three or four in a thin line stretching 200 or 300 yards on either sideof us. They were lying behind whatever cover they could find: a bush, a clumpof debris, a small rise in the sand. Some were firing. Others were wounded.From just a few yards away, Egyptian infantrymen were raking them with rifleand machine-gun fire. They were now shooting at us as well, and we returnedfire. But the Egyptians, far outnumbering Yitzhik’s men, were spread out in anetwork of foxholes, in some places connected by trenches. As we movedforward, I ordered my APC commander to start evacuating the paratroopersback to the irrigation ditch, with the support of a further group of courageousreservists from another nearby APC unit.A shell suddenly exploded 20 yards ahead of me. Others rained in aroundour tanks. The source of the fire was straight ahead, about 1,300 yards away:three SU-100s, Soviet-made World War Two “tank destroyers”. I trained themain gun of my tank on one of the SU-100s and ordered the gunner to fire. Iused the battalion-wide radio frequency so the others would hear the order. Butwhen the dust and smoke had cleared, the SU-100s were still there. I ordered asight correction and said, again: “Fire”. Still, we missed. It was only then that Irealized why. Almost none of the tanks brought brought into Julis from themaintenance units had included their “commander’s notebook” with theirchecklists for calibrating and firing – a major problem, since many of thereservists had last been in a tank years before. I ordered the gunners to use theirtelescopes, parallel to the main gun, instead.152We were being hit by small-arms and RPG fire from all sides. On the turretof our tank, Yishai and I were firing back, our Uzis on automatic, and throwinggrenades. I could hear bullets pinging off the turret and the body of the tank.Then, from our far right flank, came the shoulder-mounted Saggers, honing inwith their eerie blue-red glow, juddering towards us as the Egyptian soldierscorrected their trajectories. One of the missiles barely missed us, and the silkywire from its guidance mechanism was tangled over our turret. I tried using mybinoculars to identify where they were coming from, but it was no use.To my right, I could see that the APCs had completed their first evacuationrun and were coming back for more of Yitzhik’s men. There was a raggednessabout it all: one APC, then a couple of others, then a gap, then another one ortwo. They were doing whatever they could, whenever they could, as theEgyptian fire continued to intensify. A few of Yitzhik’s men, whether desperateor dazed, simply stood up and starting walking west, toward the canal, only tobe cut down by Egyptian gunfire.I directed Moshe Sukenik to take half the company and head toward theSaggers to try to take them out, even though we both knew that he’d have torisk heavy fire before they got close enough. He had two-inch mortars on histurret, but their range was only 500 yards, far less than the Saggers. Every 45seconds or so, a salvo of Saggers zeroed in on our tanks and APCs. Within acouple of minutes, two of the tanks were hit. One was on fire. The SU-100 tankdestroyerswere still there as well. Egyptian infantrymen were spraying us withsmall arms fire. The whole area was swathed in grayish smoke. Every minute ortwo, another tank or APC took a direct hit. There was a smell, too, which, onceexperienced, never leaves your memory: the scent of burnt human flesh.The fire from the foxholes was getting worse. “Run over them,” I orderedmy tank driver. “Start with the foxhole in front of us.” He jerked us forward andwe plowed over the first Egyptian position. “Reverse, get the one to the right,” Isaid. As he backed up, I was shocked to see a surviving Egyptian soldier,shrugging off a thick blanket of sand from his shoulders, raise an RPG launcherat us from just 15 feet away. We were close enough to look into each other’seyes. I raised my Uzi and shot him before he could fire. Rifle and grenade firecontinued from along the line of foxholes. A second length of the Saggers’ silklikeguidance wire tangled over our main gun. Yishai was firing at theEgyptians from the other side of the tank. We both tossed grenades in thedirection of the worst of the gunfire.153It was then, suddenly, that I saw Yishai had taken a bullet in the side of hisneck. Blood was spurting from the wound. His face was contorted in pain. Helooked at me, raising his hands upward, as if to say: “I did my best. It’s overnow.” I pressed hard on the wound, trying to stem the flow. But he slipped outof my grasp and collapsed into Yasha Kedmi’s arms. Yasha propped him up andkept trying to staunch the bleeding. I turned toward the Egyptian soldier whohad shot Yishai, less than 20 feet to my left. Keeping myself as low as possibleabove the turret, I fired into his chest. He tumbled into the foxhole. As I keptshooting, Yasha told me Yishai was dead. “Are you sure?” I asked. When hesaid yes, I ordered the driver to back up. We drove a few dozen feet, to where agroup of the paratroopers was taking cover. With their help, we lowered hisbody from the tank, and then returned to the battle.Barely ten minutes had passed since it began. Two SU-100s were nowspewing smoke and out of action. The third had withdrawn. But the Egyptianswere still firing. Five of our tanks had been hit. Two were on fire. One APC wassmoldering, its commander severely wounded. I knew that if we stayed muchlonger, we would end up like other armored units during Israel’s first, failedcounterattack in the early days of the war. We would risk being wiped out. Asfar as I could tell, all the surviving paratroopers had been brought out or hadmanaged to hobble to the irrigation ditch. I ordered Sukenik to abandon hisattempt to take out the Saggers, and we withdrew behind the irrigation ditch.It was only then that I realized that alongside two of our crippled tanks therewas still a group of a dozen men: six crew members from my battalion and sixof Yitzhik’s men. It took nearly two hours to get them out. We used our tankguns to try to reduce the intensity of the fire from the Egyptians around them. Iordered one of our APCs to go get them. I rounded up all our smoke grenades,and the APC crew used them to create a smokescreen, the only way I couldthink of to reduce the danger of being targeted by the Saggers. It worked, but itrequired incredible guts for the men in the APC to pull it off.The battle had required guts of every man in the battalion. They had found away to conquer the first and most powerful enemy on a battlefield: fear. I felt it,too. But it’s easier for a commander. When you’re leading people into combat,you don’t have time to be afraid. You have to assess and evaluate, second bysecond, everything going on around you. You have to make instant decisionsand ensure they’re being carried out. The people under your command arewaiting to hear your voice, and watching your actions, too. If you lose control atany point, not only is your life at stake. Theirs are too.154Early that evening, we were ordered to rejoin Bren’s division to be ready forthe crossing. When I reported that three of my soldiers were still missing, I wasordered to inform the commander of the battalion replacing us to find themissing men. The fight for the Chinese Farm was still not over. It would beanother 12 hours before, in a co-ordinated push by a strengthened armor andinfantry force, Israeli forces finally drove most of the Egyptians out. Whattenuous gains we’d made until then had come at an enormous price. OfYitzhik’s 300 men, nearly 40 were killed, and many others wounded. I’d ledaround 130 people into battle. More than 35 were injured. Eleven were dead,including Yishai Izhar and Motti Ben-Dror, our medical officer, killed whiletreating the wounded. One of our missing soldiers was found alive. The othertwo could only be brought home for burial.As I began to hear the details of the previous days’ fighting, I became moreastonished, and angry. Israel’s tactics in the battle for the Chinese Farm hadinvolved a series of piecemeal strikes by units obviously too small, andinadequately supported or co-ordinated, to succeed. The problem wasn’t thechoice of units. No one could doubt the record of Battalion 890, or of the menArik had sent in before Yitzhik arrived. But there was no way they were goingto take the area on their own. I couldn’t understand why there wasn’t an attemptto assemble a force that might actually have been strong enough: parachutists,tanks, artillery. I felt I knew at least part of the answer from the two nights I hadspent in the Um-Hashiba command post before joining Bren’s division. Bydawn on October 16, the first of Arik’s men had crossed the canal. By theafternoon, although the big roller-bridge was still not ready, a smaller pontoonbridge was available. Everyone knew we needed to get control of the ChineseFarm. But all the field commanders were focused the real task, and the realprize: crossing the canal and defeating the Egyptians on the other side.Now, at least, the main crossing was underway. Bren had chanced the factthat, with Yitzhik pinned down at the Chinese Farm and the Egyptiansconcentrating their fire on his men and mine, he could get the pontoon bridgethrough. From late afternoon on October 17, his first units began to cross. Onthe morning of October 18, my battalion joined them. There was still fightingahead, and we were part of it: taking out the SAM sites, engaging units of theThird Army and, with Sadat now pressing the Americans for a cease-fire andmany Egyptian units clearly losing the will to fight on, racing against the clockto encircle and defeat it five days later.155When the guns finally fell silent, I had time to give full rein to my thoughts.There were obviously fundamental questions about how the war had happened,starting with why we hadn’t known ahead of time that two neighboring stateswere about to attack us – despite sayeret intercepts that could have given ustime to call up all our reserves. Disentangling the details would take months.But we already knew the human cost of those failures. Hundreds of Israelisoldiers had been killed. The final number would be around 2,800, nearly fourtimes our losses in 1967. Thousands were wounded, some crippled for life.Many of the dead were men whom I’d grown up with or served with, includingmore than 20 in my own battalion. Some of the dead in other units were closefriends.I felt exhausted. I also realized that Nava, thousands of miles away in PaloAlto, and my parents on the kibbutz could still not be sure I had escaped the fateof so many others. I learned later that my parents had been making daily calls toDigli, who was working in intelligence in the kirya. Though he had no way ofknowing where I was, he kept assuring them that he had checked with mycommanders and that I was alive and well. Nava had been relying on Americannews reports and the relayed assurances from my parents, which she wasseasoned enough as an army wife to treat with skepticism.I missed her badly, and little Michal. I felt the need to hear their voices. Idrove to one of the brigade communications units. There was a long line in frontof the radio telephone. But within a half-hour, I managed to get a cracklyconnection to California. Nava burst into tears when she heard my voice. I toldher I was fine, and that I couldn’t wait to see her and our little girl. Then, myown eyes dampening, I reeled off the names of friends who had died. Inaddition to the brave men I’d lost in my own battalion, there were more than adozen others I already knew of. A pair of brothers from Mishmar Hasharon, acouple of years younger than me, in separate units, but killed within hours ofeach other. Another childhood friend, from a nearby moshav, named RafiMitzafon. And Shaul Shalev, a gifted philosophy postgraduate and a brave tankcommander whom I’d become friends with at officers’ school. He’d rescuedthree dozen troops from one of the Bar-Lev fortifications in the first hours of thewar, only to be killed trying to get to a tank crew who had taken refuge a fewmiles back from the canal.I’d lost two wonderful sayeret comrades, too: Amit Ben-Horn, the soldierwho’d relayed the order from Motta to abort our second attempt to abduct theSyrian officers in Lebanon, and Amitai Nachmani, the officer who had156demanded a meeting with Dado before our attack in Rue Verdun. Amit died inthe fighting near Ismailia, at the northern end of the canal, as Arik Sharon’sunits pushed on after the crossing. The day before the end of the war, bothAmitai and Amiram Levin were part of an operation to take over the Fayid AirBase across the canal. When an Egyptian RPG hit their Jeep, Amiram waswounded. Amitai was killed.I thought, too, of Yishai Izhar: the friend struck down beside me, who I’dcradled in my arms on the top of my tank, trying to stop the bleeding.“Oh Ehud,” Nava said. “It’s like 1967 all over again.”“No,” I said. “Worse. Much worse.”A few weeks later, I was coming out of the kirya when I ran into anotherfriend, whom I’d first met at Hebrew University. Like me, he had been a juniorofficer in 1967. His name was Ron Ben-Ishai. He would go on to become a topjournalist, covering the military for Israel’s best-selling newspaper, YediotAchronot. In the early autumn of 1967, we were still transfixed by the idea ofbeing able to visit areas of biblical Israel, which for years had been underJordanian rule. With a few other friends who were young officers, nine of us inall, Ron and I embarked on a trek from the southern edge of Jerusalem, weavingour way through the Judaean Desert toward Kumeran, on the Dead Sea.Now a very different war had come and gone. I’d fought in it. Ron, as whatis now called an embedded journalist, had been with Danny Matt’s paratrooperswhen they’d crossed the canal. He was alongside another of Arik’s unitsfighting out of the bridgehead on the far bank of the canal. That both of us hadseen terrible suffering over the past few weeks did not need saying. But Ronsaid he wanted to show me something. Fishing into his wallet, he took out acarefully folded photograph. He had taken it in 1967, just six years earlier, tomark our Judaean trek. There we were. All nine of us. Young. Full of optimism.And probably a bit full of ourselves as well.Ron and I were the only two left alive.* * *We had won the war, and not just because our forces were now within 60miles of Cairo, and only 25 from Damascus. We had been attacked by two huge157armies: one-and-a-half million soldiers. Thousands of tanks. Hundreds offighter jets. Other, much larger nations had endured months, even years, of hellbefore prevailing in such circumstances: the Soviet Union, for instance, with itshuge strategic depth, or France, rescued by its American-led allies, duringWorld War Two.But any pride in having prevailed was outweighed by simple relief Israel hadsurvived. Even that was nothing compared to the sadness felt over friends lost,and the resentment and sense of betrayal toward the generals and politicalleaders who had failed to prepare the country for the surprise attacks, or theinitial confusion and dissension in some of our commanders’ response to theearly setbacks on the ground. Dozens of meetings were held in military unitsafter the war to talk about what had gone wrong. I was not the only youngofficer to notice that the higher up the command chain they went, the moreunedifying they became. After we’d heard one too many senior officer finetuninghis account with each retelling, minimizing his share for the huge losses,a new phrase entered Israeli army slang. Sipurei kravot – “battle stories” – werethe words usually used to describe a normal debriefing process. That expressionwas now amended, to shipurei kravot. Battle improvements.I was assigned to convert my makeshift force into a regular armored trainingunit: Battalion 532, and that slightly delayed my reunion with Nava and Mikhal.But in their absence, I found us a larger apartment in the Tel Aviv suburb ofRamat Hasharon. Nava and I agreed that at the first opportunity, I’d return toCalifornia and we’d fly back together. I went at the end of the year. We boughta refrigerator and a washing machine for the new flat – better models, andcheaper, than those available in Israel – and came home. Those few Decemberdays in Palo Alto were a jumble of emotions. Happiness, at being back together.But also a sobering sense, now that I was outside Israel for the first time sincethe war, of the enormity of the threat we’d faced and the frustration and fearNava must have felt as we’d fought to defeat it. The year-end newsretrospectives we watched on American TV were full of film clips from the firsthours of the war, when it looked very possible we would lose. I remember beingstruck by the thought that, if we had lost, if Israel had ceased to exist,ceremonies of memorial and mourning would have been held across America,probably in Stanford. But that once the shock and sadness had passed, Israel’sdisappearance would not have impinged on a single NFL Sunday, or delayed asingle family shopping visit to J. C. Penny.158My command of Battalion 532 lasted only a few more months. On April 1,1974, an official commission of inquiry published its initial report on the war. Itwas scathing in its assessment of our intelligence failings, for which it placedthe main blame the officer who had been promoted the year before as head ofmilitary intelligence: Eli Zeira, the man who had addressed us on the sayeretbase before the the 1967 and so confidently predicted the outcome. It also tookaim at two other commanders. Gorodish, as head of the southern command, wasone. The other was Dado. As chief-of-staff, he was held ultimately responsiblefor the intelligence failings and for not having ordered at least a partial call-upof our reserves.In Eli’s case, I recognized the very fact of our being caught by surprise madehis position untenable. In fact, as I learned more details about what hadhappened, I realized the commission had, if anything, understated theseriousness of his errors. In the run-up to the war, Eli had resisted multiplerequests from other intelligence officers to activate what the commission calledour “special sources” of intelligence: the communications intercepts we’dplanted deep inside Egypt. Worse, he had indicated to the few generals whowere aware of their existence that he had activated them, implying that his lackof concern about the possibility of an Egyptian was based on our intercepts.Because Dado was one of the people misled, his fall struck me as profoundlyunfair. He had devoted his whole adult life to the defense of our country. Afterthe inquiry report, he was never again the same person. He developed anobsession with fitness and exercise. Psychologists might have called itdisplacement activity. I wondered whether it was a kind of self-punishment.Either way, it may well have killed him. At age 50, less than three years afterthe war, he died of a heart attack after a day of running and swimming.Almost every level of command was thrown into flux after the inquiryreport. So was the political landscape. Both Golda and Dayan bowed to growingpublic pressure and resigned. The premium was on finding replacements whowere sufficiently experienced, but did not bear responsibility for the errors ofthe war. For Prime Minister, the choice fell on Yitzhak Rabin. He had strongmilitary credentials, of course. But he had left the army and entered politics, andhad been out of Israel for several years as Israel’s ambassador to Washington.He had joined Golda’s government only weeks before the war, in the relativelyminor role of Minister of Labor. Much the same thing happened in the army.Only one of the generals who had been in the running to succeed Dado before159the war was unscathed: Motta Gur. He, too, had been in Washington. Withindays of the inquiry report, he was called back to replace Dado as chief-of-staff.My role changed, too. Not everyone emerged from the war with hisreputation diminished. The lion’s share of the credit for Israel’s eventual victorywent to the rank and file of our citizen army. But in the officers’ corps, therewere also examples of coolheadedness in crisis, and leadership. One wasMoussa Peled, who was now made head of the armored corps. My overallwartime commander, Bren, replaced Gorodish as head of the southerncommand. And Dan Shomron, whose 401 st armored brigade played a criticalpart in defeating the Egyptians, was another. Dan and I had first got to knoweach other well at Karameh, then during my period as sayeret commander. Wewould go on in the years ahead to work more closely together than almost anysenior officers in the military. He was now promoted as well. He becamekatzhar, overall head of infantry and paratroop forces, and he recommended meas his successor in Brigade 401.Still, I knew that the Motta would have the final word, with input from thetwo senior officers most directly affected: Peled and Bren. I don’t think either ofthem had anything against me personally. But both were tank officers throughand through. There were other candidates to succeed Dan who, unlike me, hadspent their whole careers in the armored corps.I heard formally I was being considered as I was about to return to mybattalion from Ramat Hasharon one Sunday morning. I was ordered to report toMotta’s office. When I got there, he gestured toward the small table at the side.He already had two other visitors: Moussa Peled and Bren. “You probablyknow you’re a candidate for taking over 401,” he said. “These two gentlementhink you’re not yet ready. What do you say?”If I’d had more time to prepare, I might have answered more subtly. But Idid very much want to be given command of the 401st, and had no doubt Iwould be a worthy and dedicated commander. “I don’t know exactly what thetwo gentlemen mean by whether I’m ready,” I replied. “So I have a proposal.Find a battle-tested officer whom you trust. Have him check who among thethree of us, me or these gentlemen, is more familiar with the tank and itssystems. Who of us knows better the terrain, in Syria or Egypt, day or night,where we have to fight? Who knows the operational requirements for anarmored force, and the armored doctrine these gentlemen signed off on. Finally,which one of us has spent more time in a turret of a tank, on the battlefield,shooting at enemy forces and being shot at by the enemy?”160There was silence, a grave look from Peled and Bren, the hint of a smile onMotta’s face, and the meeting was over. Several days later, I was notified of hisverdict. I would indeed be named the commander of the 401st Armored Brigadein the Sinai, and promoted to full colonel.Our base was a 15 miles from the canal. It was a huge expanse of sandringed by metal fencing. We spent three months at a time in this forwarddeployment and three months in our rear base, 50 miles from the canal. Duringone of our forward deployments, Motta came on an inspection visit. He wantedto discuss how we planned defend the area near the canal in the event of arepeat of the 1973 war. I told him everything we were doing in the brigade wasaimed at ensuring flexibility. I had also been thinking about some of the broaderissues relating to our defenses in the south. “No matter how good our tactics orplans,” I said, “what worries me is that we’re still not looking at our overallapproach to defense against Egypt. It’s as if we’ve forgotten that in 1967, whenwe captured Sinai, it was in order to have a buffer zone. We had 150 miles ofsand between southern Israel and the canal. But when the Egyptians attacked in1973, we defended the desert as if it was the walls of Jerusalem!”Since the 401st was one of two regular brigades on the Egyptian front, it wasnot easy to make the four-hour drive home to Ramat Hasharon. When I gotword Nava was going into labor with our second child, I was leading a trainingexercise five or six miles from our base. As she was on her way to the hospital,I grabbed my car and headed north. Unlike Michal’s birth, this one was noteasy. When the baby emerged, she was struggling to breathe. The immediatedanger passed, but she was placed in an incubator. When I got to the hospital,Nava was asleep. I was taken to see our tiny daughter, Yael. When the nurseleft, I noticed the baby’s pinkie trapped in the plastic cover of the incubator. Istarted banging on the window of the room. The nurse rushed back. With a lookof sympathy mixed with world-weary experience of other fathers in similarpanic, she raised the cover, folded Yael’s tiny hands onto her stomach, and allwas well.It was another health crisis which hastened the end of my period as brigadecommander. But this time, I was the one in the hospital. I nearly collapsed fromhigh fever and exhaustion. The initial suspicion was some kind ofcontamination linked to the rudimentary sanitation in the Sinai. When thesymptoms persisted, the doctors suggested I probably had hepatitis B. Yearslater, better diagnostic tools ruled all that out. I’ve never discovered what the161illness was. But for nearly six months, getting through the day, sometimes asingle task, remained a struggle.I did not want to leave my command. I was still barely 18 months into therole, and anxious to get further command experience. But just as I was feeling atmy weakest, there was another belated casualty from the 1973 war. This time, itwas Uzi Yairi. No one could reasonably have held him responsible for thelosses suffered by Battalion 890 at the Chinese Farm. I’m sure that if he’dknown what happened to the Israeli forces that had already tried to take it over,he would never have allowed Yitzhik to go in without adequate armor andartillery support. Still, he blamed himself. In obvious distress after the war, hewas reassigned as an operational officer in military intelligence in the kirya.He was still at his desk when Fatah terrorists landed on Tel Aviv’s seafront alittle before midnight on March 4, 1975. They were spotted by a police patrol,which opened fire. The Fatah men ran from the beach, firing Kalashnikovs andtossing grenades. A block in from the sea, they burst into a modest, three-storybuilding: the old Savoy Hotel. They shot and killed three people in the lobbyand took the rest of the staff and guests hostage.Sayeret Matkal was called in. As the unit went through final preparations fortheir assault, Uzi showed up. He had a rifle. He was in his everyday officer’suniform, unlike the sayeret team, which was weighted down by special-forcesgear. As a former commander of the sayeret, he persuaded them he could helptake out the terrorists and locate the hostages. Shortly before dawn, led byAmiram Levin, they attacked. They killed three of the Fatah men withinseconds. But another terrorist set off an explosion, collapsing most of the topfloor. Uzi joined a couple of the other sayeret men in search of the hostages. Hewas shot in the head and neck. Seven of the eight terrorists were killed, theother captured. Though five hostages were freed, five lost their lives. Uzi diedon the operating table of Ichilov Hospital, a few hundred yards from the kirya.* * *Though I doubt Uzi’s family and friends would agree, my gut feeling wasalways that his death was one more result, however indirect, of the shambolicway in which we’d organized our attacks on the Chinese Farm. That was part ofthe reason for my reluctance when Motta told me he wanted me to take Uzi’s162place in the kirya. I realized I was the only available replacement with a similarbackground, and sayeret experience. But I was still gaining brigade commandexperience. And I couldn’t help feeling the role was intended as a kind of restand-recoverycure because of my illness, not too different from the reason Uzihad been given the job. Still, I did need rest and recovery. Even if fully healthy,I’m not sure I could have convinced Motta to change his mind. In my weakenedstate, I had no chance.Skeptical though I was about the job, it opened up a new world to me. Thekirya itself was not new territory. But now, I became exposed to how how thehuge range of intelligence information we gathered was collated, evaluated,assessed and ultimately applied. Helping with this process was my newassignment. There were, in fact, two of us. We were both colonels and togetherwe provided the intelligence background for military operations. I had the poston inside the military intelligence department. My opposite number was in theoperations department – the more senior role, in a way, because he had a moredirect link to the people actually doing the operations. He was a friend fromofficers’ school: Dovik Tamari’s younger brother, Shai. Once a week, Shai andI put together an assessment report. Then, we’d join Motta’s operations meetingwith the general staff, often attended by the man who’d followed Dayan asdefense minister, Shimon Peres.The analysis of military intelligence included separate teams for Egypt andSyria, Jordan and Lebanon, Iraq and other neighboring states, as well as othercountries and superpower relations. It relied on all our raw intelligence material,from both military intelligence and Mossad, as well as academic and specialistliterature. Each desk dealt not just with military issues, but political andeconomic developments. I was responsible, along with Shai and a few others,for bringing all this together. This meant frequent meetings with members of theanalysis teams. For the first six months or so, I barely uttered a word in thesesessions. I listened, not just absorbing the information but getting to understandthe way the analysts worked and thought.Our whole intelligence department was responsible for drafting an annualstrategic assessment for the army and the government. The final report waswritten by Shlomo Gazit, who had succeeded Eli Zeira as head of militaryintelligence. Before we sent it to print, he held a long meeting, inviting theviews of all the military intelligence officers. The focus in 1976, just three yearsafter the war, was on the risks of a new surprise attack. At the end of thediscussion, however, he said: “We know we run a real danger for the country if163we fail to spot the signs of a war. But has any of you asked yourselvessomething I find myself wondering from time to time? Is there not a similar riskif we miss the signs of an opportunity for peace?”His words stuck with me for the rest of my time in public life. They also hada strong impact on me at the time. One of the benefits of my job was that Icould read the full inquiry report from the 1973 war, including the portions thathad been kept classified. Some dealt with the political situation before the war.Golda had relied heavily on a “kitchen cabinet” of trusted ministers and a fewclose advisers. The inquiry material described how Sadat had been extendingnegotiating feelers before the war. And how Golda, Eli Zeira, Dado and Dayanhad responded. It was like an exercise in collective reinforcement. They agreedthe Arab countries would not simply go on living with the humiliation of theirdefeat in 1967. At some stage, they would try to regain the initiative, on thebattlefield. But none appeared to think through the implications of this for ourpolitical approach. Perhaps, like Eli Zeira in 1967, they assumed a kind ofhistorical inevitability of Israeli triumph. Though we’d ending up prevailing in1973, it was impossible not to wonder whether, as Shlomo suggested, we hadmissed the signs of a possible peace beforehand.Now, however, we were facing an escalating challenge from an enemy withno interest in peace: the armed Palestinian groups. The Democratic Front tookover a school in northern Israel a half-year after the war. In March 1975, Fatahhad seized the Savoy. And about a year into my posting in the kirya, the PopularFront for the Liberation of Palestine launched an even more audaciousoperation.It became known by the name of the airport where the ordeal ended.Entebbe. And when it began I, like Uzi Yairi, was sitting at my desk.164Chapter TenSunday is an ordinary working day in Israel, and the first sign that June 27,1976 would be any different came shortly after noon. It was an urgent messagefrom Lod Airport, now renamed in honor of David Ben-Gurion, who passedaway after the 1973 war. Radio contact had been lost with Air France Flight 139from Tel Aviv to Paris, shortly after a stopover in Athens.We couldn’t know for sure what had gone wrong. Maybe a mechanicalmalfunction, a glitch in the electronics, a crash. Or a hijack. But we did knowthere were roughly 300 passengers and a dozen crew on board. Many of thepassengers were Israelis, and others were Jews from abroad. Ever since theSabena hijacking four years earlier, whenever a civilian airliner was thought tobe under attack within three hours of Israel, step-one in our response had beenautomatic. Sayeret Matkal was ordered to the airport.Because I’d commanded the Sabena operation – the first, and still the only,time we had attacked and freed a hijacked plane – it was probably inevitable Iwould take some part in figuring out how, or whether, to intervene if the AirFrance plane turned out to have been hijacked. But my pivotal role, as the crisisintensified, was down to a combination of factors: my broader experience assayeret commander, the fact that I now worked in the kirya, just one floor upfrom the chief of staff, and, as so often, pure chance.As the sayeret assembled at the airport, its current commander –YoniNetanyahu, my former deputy – was hundreds of miles away in the Sinai,preparing for an operation across the canal. So it was Mookie Betzer, nowYoni’s deputy, who began briefing the men for a possible hostage rescue in casethe jet returned to Israel. At the kirya, we were also without our commander:Motta was in the Negev observing a major military exercise. So it was hisdeputy – the head of the operations branch, Kuti Adam – who buzzed me on theintercom at two in the afternoon and summoned me to his office.By now, we knew the plane had been hijacked, but that it wasn’t headingback to Israel. The terrorists had renamed it “Arafat” and it was on its way toLibya. I took the stairs down to Kuti’s office, two floors below mine, and heimmediately handed me a large, black-and-white aerial photo. It showed theinternational airport in Benina, just outside Benghazi on the eastern edge ofLibya. “Can we do anything, Ehud?” he asked me. I didn’t say no outright. ButI told him that even if we had a treasure trove of intelligence about Benina –165which, I soon verified, we didn’t – the obstacles would be enormous. Unlike theSabena jet, this one was a wide-bodied Airbus, and El Al had none of those inits fleet. Even we could find a way to make sure a sayeret team got briefed onthe airliner, we’d be mounting an attack-and-rescue operation a thousand milesaway. And even if we could take out the terrorists, we were almost certain toface opposition from the former army colonel who ruled Libya, MummerGhaddafy. The chance of success seemed slim, the risks enormous.Soon, however, Kuti’s question ceased to matter. Later Sunday night, Flight139 took off again. Before leaving Libya, the hijackers freed a passenger: anIsraeli dual national, with a British passport as well, who managed to convincethem she was going into labor. We learned through her that there were fourhijackers: two Arabs and two Europeans. It was a PFLP operation, but includedmembers of the far-left West German Baader-Meinhof terror group. Theyforced the pilot to head for the east African state of Uganda. On Mondayevening, it landed at Entebbe Airport, 20 miles outside the Ugandan capital ofKampala and just a couple of hundred yards from the shore of Lake Victoria. Itwas five times further away than Benghazi.Yet with each passing hour, increasingly alarming radio and televisionreports focused on the obvious agony of the hundreds of captive passengers. Tothis day, I’ve never been able to establish why it was a further 24 hours beforewe started seriously to work out if there might be some way for us to free them.Prime Minister Rabin was clearly asking himself the same question, however,because on Tuesday afternoon, he called Motta in the Negev. It was now a full53 hours after the hijacking, he said. What the hell we were doing to try to comeup with a plan? Motta was immediately summoned back to Jerusalem for anemergency meeting of the government. As he was on his way back from thereto the kirya, Kuti called me back down to his office. “Motta just told them thatthere is a military option,” he said, with a wry smile. Kuti had been a Haganahofficer in 1948, in charge of the Golani brigade, head of both the northern andthe southern command, and had known Motta for years. “That means we nowhave to find one.”I had just begun briefing a few of the analysts in my office when Mottareturned. When I got to his office, Kuti waved both of us across the hallway tothe big, rectangular conference room where general staff meetings were held.On the side of the room was a globe. Giving it a spin, he said: “Nu, Motta. Tellme, when you told the government we had a military option, did you even knowwhere Entebbe is?” Motta didn’t so much as crack a smile. “We have to find a166response,” he said. “I’ve committed us. Ehud, I want you to check what can bedone. Take whatever you need, from wherever you want. Bring me suggestionsby seven tomorrow morning.” Then, he said, we would go brief the DefenseMinister, Shimon Peres.I assembled a team the same way we’d prepared for special-operationsmissions in the sayeret: looking for information, intelligence and above allexperience and insight from whoever I thought was likely to make that alwaysnarrowdifference between failure and success. My first calls went to MookieBetzer and another of my most trusted and experienced sayeret comrades,Amiram Levin. Then I brought in Ido Ambar, the personal aide to air forcecommander Benny Peled, and Gadi Shefi, the commander of the Shayetet 13SEALs. Finally, two officers from Dan Shomron’s office. Since Dan waskatzhar, in overall command of paratroop and infantry forces, it was critical tokeep him in the picture. I told them all that we’d be working through the night,and that I had to be able to tell Motta and Shimon by the morning whether wereally could mount a rescue mission.I still thought I’d end up having to tell them no. However difficult theobstacles we’d faced with Sabena, they were almost child’s play compared togetting a sayeret assault team 5,000 miles across the continent of Africa,surprising the terrorists, freeing the hostages unharmed and getting them out.That was even assuming, as I did at that point, that we wouldn’t face armedopposition from the troops of Uganda’s increasingly tyrannical president, IdiAmin. Amin had begun to align himself politically with the Palestinians in thepast few years – one reason, no doubt, the terrorists had landed there. But hehad actually been on a paratroop course in Israel before taking power in 1971.We had sent officers to help train his army in the early 1970s.Now, I discovered, Mookie himself had been on one of the training missions.“Their men aren’t great fighters, at least at night,” he said, an insight of obviousrelevance to planning a commando attack, if we could get that far. WhenAmbar, the air force aide, spoke up, I finally began to feel we might at least beable to put together the outline of a plan. He’d brought with him a copy of thestandard reference book on world airports, which gave us at least a general ideaof the layout of Entebbe. He also said that the air force had run a trainingprogram for the Ugandans. In Entebbe. He’d contacted one of the reserve pilotswho had been on the training mission, and he was on his way to join us.Still, time was short we were nowhere near being able to recommend aspecific plan of action. The hijackers had set a deadline – noon on Thursday,167July 1, now less than 36 hours away. Having moved the passengers off the planeto one of the terminal buildings, they were threatening to start killing themunless we freed a list of 53 Palestinians and PLO supporters, forty of them heldin Israel and the rest in a number of European countries, and paid a ransom offive million dollars.Well past midnight, we started looking at our options. One which seemed –briefly – to hold promise drew on suggestions from Ido Ambar and Mookie.Ido’s almost rhapsodic description of the capabilities of our C-130 Herculestransport planes convinced us we could parachute in a Sayeret Matkal team, aswell as vehicles for them to use on the ground. Mookie and I agreed that toensure surprise, we would disguise the commandos as Ugandan troops, in“Ugandan” Jeeps. The final twist came with the arrival of the reserve air forceofficer who had been on training duty in Entebbe. He brought a reel of 8mmfilm from an official ceremony at the airport. At the start, a Ugandan armygeneral could be seen arriving in a black Mercedes. “That’s it!” Mookie said.“The Mercedes. Every top Ugandan military officer has one.” We decided toswap one of our Jeeps for a jet-black limousine.Yet by daybreak on Wednesday, when I went up to brief Motto, we’d setaside the option of a parachute drop. Any initial surprise would be outweighedby the risk of exposure from the very start of the assault. We’d also gone coldon a second option, to infiltrate sayeret teams along the shore of Lake Victoriafrom across the nearby border in Kenya. I doubted we had enough time tonavigate all the operational and diplomatic obstacles before the deadlineexpired. That left option three: having the SEALs, along with a core team fromthe sayeret, parachute onto Lake Victoria with rubber dinghies and attack theairport from on foot. We arranged to do a test parachute assault off the Israelicoast in Haifa later in the day, but if that went well, it seemed the only practicalalternative.Motta and I went met Peres around 8:30am. Shimon had no first-handmilitary experience, having played a political role alongside Ben-Gurion fromIsrael’s early years. So he was not really interested in the details. But he waskeen to hear our assurances that a military option did exist. He was even moreintrigued when we were joined by the head of the air force, Benny Peled.Unaware of the airborne parachute drop we had been discussing overnight,Peled suggested something far more ambitious. Rather than using a singleHercules, he proposed using four of the giant transport planes to ferry in a largerforce, some 200 men in all, land them on one of the runways and take over the168entire airport. Though I didn’t say so, I had my doubts it would work. It was abit like the initial option for the Rue Verdun raid Dado had rejected: a classicground assault which, in addition to eliminating any chance of surprise,obviously ran the risk of igniting a small ground war. But I did think that somecombination of Peled’s idea and the surprise commando strike we’d beenlooking at might provide an answer.A few hours later, the hostages’ ordeal took a chilling turn, which soon alsoprovided us with our first real detailed picture of the scale of the challenge wefaced. In a haunting echo of the Nazis’ “selection” process in the Holocaust, theterrorists separated all the passengers with Israeli passports or Jewish names.They let the rest of them go, and allowed them to board a special Air Franceflight back to Paris. We immediately dispatched Amiram Levin to debrief thefreed passengers. On a scrambled teleprinter line Wednesday night, Amiramcame up with far more than we could have hoped for. One of releasedpassengers was a French woman who had managed to hide the fact she wasJewish. She confirmed reports we had been getting that the hostages were beingheld in the airport’s former terminal building, about a mile from its newerterminal and the main runways. Other passengers revealed that the hijackers hadplaced explosives around the old terminal building. And that, despite my hopethat Idi Amin would stand aside if we did decide to go in and rescue thehostages, his troops were helping to guard the area.So in addition to taking on the hijackers, we’d have to find a way to dealwith Ugandan soldiers. In another round of discussions in my office through thelate hours of Wednesday night, we finally settled on our plan: Peled’s majorairborne operation, but with a Sayeret Matkal strike force, with its “Ugandan”motorcade, spearheading it. Minutes later, three other C-130s would fly inadditional troops to secure the rest of the airport, deal with any Ugandan armyresistance, and fly out the Israeli soldiers and the hostages.An operation on that scale naturally meant bringing in Dan Shomron. AfterI’d taken the plan to Kuti Adam, he briefed Dan on the full detail and called medown to see him again. Dan had left to start preparations for the operation. He’dmade just one request, Kuti said: that I be in command of the sayeret force.* * *169I could see why Dan had said it. Working with Mookie and the rest of myteam, I’d been in charge of all the initial planning. I was in command of theSabena assault, the only remotely similar operation Israel had attempted.Though an attempt to rescue dozens of terrified hostages in Entebbe, with boththe terrorists and possibly Ugandan soldiers armed and ready, would be muchharder. As Sayeret Matkal commander, I’d conceived and commanded othermissions that requiring us to break new ground. But – and it was a huge but – Iknew from the moment I left Kuti’s office that I would have to find a way toavoid undermining the current sayeret commander, Yoni. Dan had clearly beenaware of that as well. He’d stressed to Kuti that he meant no disrespect to Yoni.“But I know Ehud,” he said. “I’ve worked with him. I want him to lead it.”Yoni was still in the Sinai. I’d phoned him before our first overnightplanning session to tell him I was bringing in Mookie and Amiram. Mookie hadbeen giving him daily updates. But the clock was ticking. Under the initialdeadline, the hijackers had threatened to begin “executions” on Thursday.Today. The deadline had now been pushed back, but only until Sunday morning– and only after Rabin felt he had no option but to drop our public refusal toconsider negotiating with them.When Dan called our first operational briefing for Thursday night, Mookiesent a plane to bring Yoni back. Dan set out the plan with his customaryconfidence. The four Hercules would take off on Saturday evening from Sharmel-Sheikh at the southernmost tip of the Sinai, to cut the flying distance at leastslightly. The first plane would land on the runway near the new terminal. Insidewould be a small unit of paratroopers, the sayeret strike force, a pair of Jeepsand the Mercedes. The next Hercules wouldn’t arrive for another seven minutes:the most critical minutes of the whole operation. That was when our “Ugandanmotorcade” would make its way to the old terminal, burst in and take care of theterrorists. The second Hercules would include another Sayeret Matkal team, toreinforce the attack unit and secure the perimeter of the old terminal. HerculesNumber Three, a minute later, would carry a joint force of sayeret fighters,paratroopers and a Golani team. Their job would be to take over the newterminal and the rest of the airport and deal with any Ugandan army resistance.The final plane was a flying medical unit, to provide treatment for the hostagesand carry them back to Israel.Yoni arrived just as Dan was finishing his presentation. He looked focused,energized, and eager to play his part. I realized it was important to explain tohim the decision to place me in command. Despite our close relationship, I170knew that would be a sensitive task. We spoke only briefly before he andMookie drove back to the sayeret base to begin more detailed preparations.Yoni was insistent that he should be in charge. I told him I understood, and Idid. In his position, I would have felt exactly the same way. But for a variety ofreasons, Dan wanted me in command. Still, I stressed my determination not todetract from his authority. Yoni would lead in the main assault unit. He andMookie would choose the other officers and soldiers, decide their roles and takecharge of training, briefing and logistics. I could tell he was still not satisfied.But I told him and Mookie I’d join them later that night. We could talk further,ahead of the next full briefing, which Dan had set for nine o’clock on Fridaymorning on the sayeret base.When they left, I joined Dan, Motta and Kuti to go see Rabin. Shimon Pereswas there too. He would later say that, as Defence Minister, he was a crucialvoice in pressing to go ahead with the rescue mission. He’s right, and had hebeen sceptical, or opposed the idea of a recuse, it would have made things muchmore difficult. But his position was far easier than the Prime Minister’s. Helacked Rabin’s hands-on command experience, his grasp of the details of whatwe were proposing to do and the obvious risks. All Israelis were aware of this. Ithe operation failed, or if we decided in the end not to attempt it, it would beRabin who would bear the responsibility and get the blame.Even under the best of circumstances, Rabin was naturally cautious – theflipside of the meticulousness with which he ran through the fine detail of everymilitary mission. As I remembered from when he was chief of staff, in ourslightly surreal conversation about the danger of a booby-trappedcommunications intercept exploding as I defused it, he would focus oneverything that might conceivably go wrong with an operation before approvingit. Now, he was also under huge additional pressure. From the start of the hijackcrisis, there had been calls from the hostages’ families to do something to endthe ordeal. But as I later discovered, one of the leading scientific engineers inIsrael, Yosef Tulipman, had a daughter among the passengers. Like Yitzhak, hehad been a Palmachnik. He’d come to see the Prime Minister and implored himnot to attempt an operation that might endager her or the others. “I demand onething only,” he said. “Don’t go on any adventures. Do not play with the lives ofthese people, with the life of my daughter.”After Entebbe, there would be suggestions that Rabin’s readiness tonegotiate with the terrorists had been a ploy, designed to buy time. Yet hismessage to us that night was that if there was a military option with a171reasonable chance of success, he would approve it. But otherwise, we could notlet dozens of hostages be murdered if by talking, even deal-making, we couldhave saved them. He turned to Dan and asked whether there indeed was amilitary option with a reasonable prospect of getting the hostages out. Dan saidyes. Rabin turned to me next. I agreed: we had a plan, and we felt we couldmake it work. Motta was a bit more hesitant. He suggested we couldn’t knowfor sure until we’d finished testing key parts of the operation. But for Rabin, itseemed to me Dan’s was the key voice. So he told us that he was approving it.In principle.He said he still needed answers to two questions. The first was whether itwas physically possible to cross from the new terminal area, where we’d belanding, to the old terminal buidling. He was right to press us. If a retaining wallor a drainage trench had been added druing the modernization work on theairport, any element of surprise could be lost. Rabin’s second condition was thatwe find a way to make absolutely sure, by the time the first Hercules landed,that the hostages were still in the old terminal building. I knew why thattroubled him, from a remark I’d heard him make a few years earlier whendescribing an American hostage-rescue raid behind enemy lines in NorthVietnam. That operation went exactly as planned. Except that the POWs hadbeen moved.I drove to see Yoni and Mookie at the sayeret base. We spent most of themeeting on the opening few minutes of the operation: the rolling out of thevehicles, the drive to the old terminal, and how to handle the possibility that wemight meet Ugandan resistance. Mookie remained adamant about theUgandans, from his time training them a few years earlier. Even if we did runinto a group of Amin’s troops, even if they were armed, even if they werepointing their guns at us, even if they shout at us to stop, they “wouldn’t dareopen fire on a Mercedes.” I trusted his experience. I kept emphasizing that wehad to go in with the mindset of not engaging Ugandan troops unless there wasno choice. If we did need to do so, we would use only small, silenced Berettas –since I’d made sure the unit trained on the Berettas after Sabena.I also raised another critical condition for success. “There will definitely bean armed presence in the control tower,” I said. We needed to designate aspecial unit whose sole job would be to train machine guns, rifles and grenadelauncherson the tower as soon as we got off the Hercules. “The moment that welose the element of surprise, they open fire.”172Dan began the next morning’s briefing with a stage-by-stage review of howthe operation would unfold. But just as he was getting to the detail of themotorcade attack, I felt a young sayeret officer tap me on the shoulder. Kuti hadphoned to say I was to go see him at the kirya. “He said immediately,” theofficer added, “and not to discuss it with anyone. Just to tell Dan Shomron thatyou’ve been taken out of the operation.”* * *To say I was surprised would be an understatement. But I allowed myself tobelieve the decision to “take me out” could still be reversed. Not only was Iready to command the critical first part of the operation. I believed I was bestplaced to ensure it succeeded. I felt that was best for Yoni, too, due to tensionsinside the sayeret of which both of us were aware.There was no officer to whom I was closer than Yoni. He had extraordinarystrengths as a soldier: in the Six-Day War, in 1973, and afterwards when, withmy encouragement, he’d taken command of a tank battalion in the north leftalmost in tatters from the Yom Kippur War. But there was more to him as well.I used to marvel how at the end of 16 hours of sayeret training, he could spend afurther two or three reading history, or a novel or poetry. He always struggledbetween the impulse to devote his life to fighting for the State of Israel, and tostudying, reading and living as a more “normal” family man.His drive to serve, and to excel, was stronger. Tuti Goodman, the youngwoman he’d met as a teenager and married, understood what drew him to a lifein uniform. But that wasn’t what she had signed up for. At one point, Yoniasked me to speak to Tuti. She asked me to speak to him. I did my best toexplain each to the other. But the gap between what each of them wanted fortheir lives was just too wide. Before the 1973 war, they’d separated. After thewar, professionally fulfilled but personally shattered, Yoni heard that I’d foundan apartment in Ramat Hasharon, and he asked me if there were other flats inthe building. It turned out that the owner of the flat below ours was willing torent it. Yoni snapped it up.Over the past year or so, with Yoni leading the sayeret and me in the kirya,we’d seen more of each another. For the first time in years, he seemed to havefound a sense of peace, and fulfillment, in his personal life. That was in large173part because of Bruria Shaked, his girlfriend, whom he’d met whilecommanding the tank unit after 1973. While he was a thinker and a brooder andin many ways a loner, Bruria was outgoing, playful, funny and full of life. Shesensed his need for a shoulder to lean on, a hand to hold at the movies or on aSaturday stroll on the beach. They made their apartment a home. The shelvescreaked under the weight of Yoni’s books. Often on a Saturday, when Nava andI dropped in to see them, an old 33 rpm record would be playing on the stereo.Yoni would be sitting puffing on his pipe, reading, and smiling.But outside this domestic haven, he still struggled. He had looked forward tocommanding Sayeret Matkal. But there was a growing distance between himand those he led, a kind of dissonance between these more typically Israeliyoungsters and the aloof, reflective, intellectual side of their commander. Therewas another tension as well. Sayeret training was notoriously tough. Yoniearned the admiration of his men by participating personally in the mostdifficult of the exercises. But just as he pushed himself to his limits, he insistedrelentlessly on seeing the same drive in them. This was a challenge all sayeretcommanders faced to some extent. I had, too. But a number of the officers hadgone to the kirya to urge that Yoni be replaced. He knew this. Though I tried toreassure him, telling him that every sayeret commander was different, with hisown strengths and weaknesses, he became only more determined to pushhimself and those around him harder.No we were in the final countdown for Entebbe. It was a life-or-deathmission not just for us, but the hostages, an operation in which even a second’shesitation or tension or uncertainty could prove fatal. I was worried that therumblings of uneasiness in the unit might prove an additional obstacle thatwasn’t worth the risk.When I tried to persuade Kuti to stick with the original plan, however, hewas insistent. He told me to get ready to fly not into Uganda, but to Nairobi. I’dbeen re-assigned to accompany a Mossad team to Kenya. Our first task wouldbe to get the answers to the questions Rabin had asked us. Then, we would be incharge of arranging for the Kenyans to allow us to refuel the C-130s on the wayout, and to set up a medical facility for any injured soldiers or hostages. Duringthe attempted rescue, I would also be the channel of communications from theNairobi side of the operation to Kuti, tens of thousands of feet above Entebbe ina command 707. Dan, as overall commander, would be in charge on the ground.174* * *The Kenyans were not exactly allies of Israel. But relations betweenPresident Jomo Kenyatta’s security services and Mossad had been close forsome years. I flew in with three leading Mossad men. While one of them calledon the aging President Kenyatta, our main point of contact, was the head ofKenya’s security services. Since the secrecy of the mission had to be preserved,we couldn’t make advance preparations for refueling or the additional 707which we intended to fly in as a field hospital. But he smoothed the way for usto do both, without anyone asking too many questions.The Mossad men took the lead in arranging to get Rabin’s questionsanswered. They contacted a pilot they knew. The pilot flew to Entebbe early onSaturday morning, circled, and, after he was cleared to land, claimedmechanical difficulties and flew out again. I had his telephoto pictures by midmorningand phoned Rabin’s intelligence officer to let him know we’dconfirmed there was a clear path to the old terminal. We still had to make surethe captive passengers were there, however. A nurse from Kampala who hadbeen allowed to visit them made three further visits: late Saturday afternoon,then shortly after the first Hercules had taken off from Sharm al-Sheikh, andfinally around nine at night. I was able to reassure Rabin that the question to hissecond question was also “yes”. Although all of the C-130s were alreadyairborne, it was only then that he gave the mission the final go-ahead.As commander of Sayeret Matkal, I’d always found running an operationfrom a command post hugely frustrating. This was even worse. Once we gotword the Israeli force was on the way to Uganda, we put in place thearrangements for refueling. If all went well, the first C-130, with Yoni’s assaultteam and at least some of the hostages, was due to reach Entebbe and begin theassault at midnight Saturday. Assuming there were no major problems, it wouldtake an hour at most. All I could do now, from 300 miles away, was wait.Shortly after midnight, Kuti radioed me with a terse message: the first of theHercules had left Entebbe for Nairobi, and the command plane was returning toIsrael. About quarter to one in the morning on July 4, the transport planes begantheir staggered arrival. When the first Hercules taxied to a halt, I went out tomeet it. As its giant rear door lowered, Dan was the first person I saw. I couldtell from the awkward silence, the lack of any greeting, something must have175gone wrong. “Ehud,” he said finally, “Yoni’s dead. We got the hostages out.But Yoni was killed.”I sought out two other friends: Mookie and Ephraim Sneh, the Battalion 890doctor, who had been with us at the Chinese Farm. Both were obviously tornbetween a sense of accomplishment in having freed the hostages and the blowof losing Yoni. I asked Ephraim to take me to the front of the plane’s huge bellyto see him. He was on a stretcher, covered with a blanket. I peeled it back.Yoni’s face had lost all color. But when I touched his forehead, it seemedslighty warm, almost as if there was still a spark of life inside him.I couldn’t raise Kuti by radio, so I used the landline in the airport director’soffice to phone Motta.“Yoni is dead,” I told him.“Are you sure?” he asked. I said: “Yes. I’ve seen him.”Before the transport planes began leaving for Israel, I made another call. Itwas to Nava. She was asleep. I told her that the operation to free the hostageshad succeeded. “But Yoni has been killed.” I could hear her gasp. “Listen,” Isaid, “you have to go downstairs. Tell Bruria. Before some army officer showsup at her door. Or worse, because they’re not married, no one may come andshe’ll hear it on the radio. Go. Tell her. Stay with her.” At first, she seemed notso much unwilling as unable to do it. “What can I say?” I said I knew how hardit would be, but that she needed to make sure Bruria heard the news from afriend. Later, Nava told me she’d waited until daybreak, not wanting to makethings worse by waking her. Then, she went downstairs. She told Bruria whathad happened, stayed with her, talked with her, and held her, during those firstfew awful hours.I found Yoni’s death even more upsetting when I learned from Mookie andothers how it had happened. As the sayeret motorcade began making its wayfrom the Hercules to the terminal, with Mookie and Yoni in the Mercedes, twoUgandan soldiers had seen them. One of the Ugandans raised his rifle. Ratherthan relying on Mookie’s assurances the soldier wouldn’t actually fire, Yoni andanother soldier shot him with their silenced Berettas. But they’d only woundedhim. In case he managed to fire back, another soldier in the Jeep behind themkilled him, with his un-silenced machine gun.Now that all surprise was gone, the commandos abandoned their vehiclesand began sprinting towards the old terminal. Only seconds later, still 80 yards176or so from the terminal, Yoni was hit. He’d been shot from the control tower. Irealized that unexpected setbacks or slip-ups were inevitable in any operation.But the crucial first stage of the attack had not only gone wrong. It had gonewrong in exacrly the way that we had first discussed back at the sayeret base,and now Yoni was dead because of it.I had to remain in Kenya for a few more days. Though we’d rescued 102passengers and crew, three of the hostages had been killed in the crossfire.While most of the injuries to the others were minor, we arranged to have severalof the more seriously wounded taken to a Nairobi hospital. So I was unable tojoin the gathering of hundreds on Mount Herzl in Jerusalem for Yoni’s funeral.Or to hear Shimon Peres praise him in terms I knew must have filled his parentsand Bibi, too, with enormous pride. Shimon described him as “one of Israel’sfinest sons, one of its most courageous warriors, one of its most promisingcommanders.”The first evening I was back, however, I visited the Netanyahus at theirfamily home in Jerusalem: Ben-Zion and Tzila, the parents; Ido, the youngest ofthe three children, and Bibi, who was still at MIT. It was a few nights in theshivah, the seven days of mourning, and there were dozens of other wellwishersthere as well. I spoke to Bibi first, outwardly strong but I sensed stilloverwhelmed by their loss. Hugging him, I said the weeks ahead would betough, not just because of Yoni’s death, but because much of the responsibilityof providing emotional support for his parents, both in their sixties, would fallon his 26-year-old shoulders. This was the first time I’d met the father, Ben-Zion, face to face, but I was struck by how this balding, professorial figureseemed able to keep inside the pain and loss he must have been feeling. He didclearly know of me, both from Bibi and from the frequent letters always wroteto him at Cornell. Now, after I’d said what I could to comfort him, he askedwhether we could meet again. When we did, a few days later, he was clearlyconscious of the his late, lost son’s bourgeoning place in Israel’s pantheon ofnational heros. He asked me to be one of the speakers at Yoni’s shloshim, acommemorative event in Jerusalem which, in Jewish religious tradition, wouldmark the end of the first month of mourning. “You knew him well,” he said, andproceeded to stress the importance of using my remarks to explain, andelaborate on, Yoni’s powerful accomplishments and personal legacy.I thought about what he wanted, and about Yoni himself, in the days ahead.About the tragedy of his death, but also the way in which all of us now had todraw meaning, value, and ideally something of permanence from the feelings of177loss. As I prepared my notes, I also spent time working out how to square what Ifelt I needed to say, with what many in the audience, and certainly Ben-Zionand Bibi, would expect me to say. Not only was Yoni being mourned acrossIsrael after Entebbe. He was being elevated – in the spirit of Shimon’s words atthe funeral –to something approaching sainthood. I did not want to detract fromhis evolving status as national hero, or his importance as a symbol of acommando success which had, for the first time since the 1973 war, restored ameasure of Israeli sense of self-confidence. A victory, over all logic and allodds. But I also wanted to find a way of capturing Yoni as he really was: abrave man, an extraordinary fighter and officer. But also a man sometimesfeeling torn inside, and alone.I began with words of ancient rabbinic wisdom about the path which all of ustravel from birth to death, and to whatever comes after. The quotation I chose –from the 2,000-year-old volume known as Pirkei Avot, the Ethics of our Fathers– seemed right to me. “Know where you came from: a putrid drop... Knowwhere you are going: to a place of dust, maggots and worms... And know beforewhom you are destined to give your final account, the King of Kings.” I spokeof the loss of Yoni, and said it was impossible not to think about the meaning ofwhat lay between the “putrid drop” where each of us begins our life and ourfinal reckoning. “I believe that life is not just a sum of the hours and daysbetween the beginning and the end. It is the content we pour into the space inbetween,” I said. I’d known people who were given the gift of a long life butwho, by that definition, had hardly lived at all. There were also people likeYoni. He’d lived only briefly. But he had learned and loved. Fought and trainedothers to fight. Grappled with the most profound puzzles of existence, and yetremained open “to the wonders of a smile. A journey. A flower. A poem.” Ifthere was any consolation for a life ended cut off at age 30, I said, that was it.But I wanted to give a more personal, nuanced picture of the life that he, andwe, and lost. “Our Yoni… We have seen him torn between his passion forknowledge on the one hand, and the sense of mission and of personal fulfillmentthat he found in uniform. There was the Yoni of history and philosophy books:Plato and Marx. Who saw the history of Israel not just as a compendium offacts, but a source of inspiration, and a call for action. The Yoni who rebuilt atank battalion reduced to ashes and dust on the Golan. And there was the Yoniat peace. Tranquil. At home. With his pipe and his phonograph records, out ofuniform. We saw him in his hours of supreme achievement and satisfaction. Wesaw him, too, sometimes standing alone, with pain in his heart, biting his teeth,178carrying the heavy, lonely burden of commanding the very fighters who he wasleading when he fell.“We have seen him on the battlefield, engaging the enemy, heading into atest of fire with courage and wisdom and his indomitable spirit – the veryessence of the spirit that made possible the operation in which he would lose hislife.” Because, make no mistake, I said: beyond the weapons used, the peoplewho participated, the training and exercises before the fleet of Hercules hadtaken off; beyond the fine balance required in the planning, execution, anddecision-making; it was “this spirit, this essence, that was tested at Entebbe.”When I saw Yoni’s family afterwards, though they thanked me for myremarks, I could see that they were still bleeding inside. I am sure that affectedthey way they related to Bruria. Even before Yoni met her, he had told me howhard his parents were finding his separation from Tutti. Bruria attended thefuneral and the shloshim. But she didn’t sit with the family. I think that with theshock of his death, mixed with the pride they felt at his emergence as a nationalhero, they found it difficult to include her, a woman they hardly knew, in theirmourning.A few weeks later, I go a call from the Netanyahu family’s lawyer, ErwinShimron. It was an odd, rambling conversation. He seemed to insinuate that, asher and Yoni’s neighbor and friend, I was encouraging the unwelcome idea thatBruria was part of the immediate circle of the bereaved, that this mere girlfriendwas somehow his widow. He wanted me to withdraw whatever mantle I mightbe providing, and help separate her from Yoni and his legacy. He went so far asto say that one reason he was calling me was because he didn’t want to have totake “legal steps” to make that happen. I saw no point in getting into anargument. I sensed that, while it would take time for the grief felt by thoseclosest to Yoni to begin to heal, the issue would gradually resolve itself. But Isaw even less point in leading the lawyer to believe I would do what he wassuggesting.“Mr Shimron,” I told him. “I knew Yoni. I know Bruria. I do not know you.But I have a musical ear. I don’t like the undertone I hear in what you’ve beensaying. I’ve seen them close up. Bruria gave Yoni, at a critical time in his life,probably more warmth than he ever received from any other human being.”179Chapter ElevenYet despite Entebbe, the trauma of the Yom Kippur War, and the cracks ithad shaken loose in Israeli society and politics, were yet to play themselves out.The hostage rescue was like a sugar rush, an intoxicating reminder that the armystill had the capacity for initiative and precision, audacity and quick-fire victory– like our air strikes in the first hours of the 1967 War. But the real reckoningover 1973 was about to come. It would change Israel beyond recognition, withrepercussions still being felt today. It would dramatically alter the course of mylife as well.I still remember the moment it hit home, on the evening of May 17, 1977. AsNava and I watched in our tiny living room in Ramat Hasharon, Chaim Yavin,the anchorman on the country’s only TV channel, was handed an exit poll fromIsrael’s latest national election. He began with three words: Gvirotai verabotai,Mahapakh. “Ladies and Gentlemen, a revolution.” For the first time since thestate was declared, Israel’s government would not be in the hands of DavidBen-Gurion or his Labor Zionist heirs. Our next prime minister would beMenachem Begin, who had inherited the mantle of Jabotinsky’s RevisionistZionism. He’d headed its youth wing, Betar, in eastern Europe, and led theIrgun Zvai Leumi, the main right-wing militia force before 1948. Lacking theintellectual depth and subtlety of Jabotsinky –a liberal intellectual who, amongother things, translated Dante into Hebrew – Begin drew his political strengthfrom his powerful oratory, and a refusal to countenance any compromise insecuring what he viewed as the ultimate goal: a Jewish state in all of biblicalPalestine, from the Mediterranean to the Jordan River, with whatever militaryforce was necessary to secure and sustain it.But perhaps Yavin should have used a different metaphor in his dramaticelection-night broadcast: reidat adamah, an earthquake. Begin’s victory, afterthe loss of eight straight elections over three decades, was the culmination ofseismic rumblings which had been building for years. The big, decisive, shockwas the 1973 war. Yet this was not just because of the colossal intelligencefailure, or the myriad errors of our military commanders and political leaders. Itwas the fundamental loss of trust in the cosy, self-perpetuating establishmentthat had dominated all aspects of Israeli politics, society and culture from thestart: Palmachniks like Rabin and Dado; political players like Golda andShimon Peres; Haganah veterans like Dayan and Bar-Lev; and, of course, thekibbutznik pioneers. Almost all were of East European background –180Ashkenazim – and their prominence and privilege had stoked increasingresentment among Israel’s disadvantaged Sephardi majority, with their roots inthe Arab world and especially north Africa.Begin not only sensed this. While he’d never lost the formal bearing – or theaccent – from his childhood in Poland, his long years in Israel’s politicalwilderness mirrored the wider exclusion felt by the Sephardim. The last electionhe had lost, in December 1973, proved too soon for the earth to part. But he toldhis supporters: “Even though Labour has won these elections, after somethinglike the Yom Kippur War happens to a country, and to a government, they mustlose power. They will lose power.” He was right. Only twice in the four decadesthat followed would a Labor leader defeat Begin’s Likud party: Rabin’s electionvictory in 1992, and mine over Bibi Netanyahu in 1999.During the first two years of Begin’s rule, however, I was 7,000 miles away.Ten days before the election, I’d gone to see Motta, and he’d agreed that I couldreturn to Stanford, to finish what I’d barely begun when the 1973 war broke out.I had been in the army, with the one hiatus as a sayeret reservist at HebrewUniversity, since the age of seventeen. I did not regret committing myself to alife in uniform. But Stanford offered an extraordinary opportunity to broadenmy horizons. Even in the few weeks I’d spent there before the war, I’d feltreinvigorated. It engaged a different kind of intelligence, a different part of whoI was: the books, the professors. A chance to listen to, and at least try to play,beautiful music. And to spend more than a few stolen evenings or weekendswith my family.The timing had nothing to do with the election. Like most other LaborIsraelis, and many of Begin’s own supporters, I hadn’t expected the Likud towin. It was because I felt I’d reached a natural punctuation mark in my militarycareer. I’d led Sayeret Matkal. I’d commanded a tank company, a battalion in1973, and, more briefly than I’d hoped, the 401 st Brigade after the war. I’d spentthe last two years in the kirya. The next step up the command chain would be tolead a full armored division. But at age 35, I was probably too young, and Ifigured I’d have a far better chance in two years’ time. I also feared losing thechance to go to Stanford altogether. Motta’s term as chief of staff would end thefollowing year. Among those in the frame to succeed him was Raful Eitan.Recalling Raful’s dismissive, almost sneering, opposition to my making theSayeret Matkal into Israel’s SAS, I wasn’t exactly confident I could count onhis support.181Reluctant though I’d been to leave the 401 st for the kirya, I had particularlyenjoyed the last year. I was promoted to Shai Tamari’s job, in charge of theintelligence team for our military operations, when Shai left to command a tankbrigade. My office was no longer on the third floor, but in the undergroundbunker, the bor. I was part of nearly all high-level planning meetings, often withMotta, sometimes also including Peres. Almost everyone around the table wasolder than me, and outranked me by some distance. Yet with my intelligencebrief, I was often the one with the most thorough command of the details.Though still just a colonel, I’d risen through Sayeret Matkal. I knew theplanning process from the other side as well, having attended the same sort ofmeetings, from the early 1960s, to present our operations. So I was often asked,and always welcome, to weigh in on what would work, what wouldn’t, andwhy.My final year in the kirya also further cemented my relationship with Motta.Though as chief of staff, he tended to keep a formal distance from all but hisfellow generals, he did seem to enjoy having me around. He even put me incharge of a new department of my own. Not officially. The “department” wasstrictly ad hoc, as was the name which Motta gave it: Mishugas. The Yiddishword for craziness.All army commanders, in all countries, receive their share of unsolicitedadvice. But I can’t imagine any of them gets the number, or sheer range, of wildsuggestions which make their way to the kirya. Everything from levitationmachines, to ideas for making tanks fly. Motta didn’t have the time to read allthe letters, much less sit down with the self-styled inventors or sages whoshowed up in person. Still, he couldn’t be sure that a jewel of an idea wasn’tlurking inside one of them. As an insurance policy, he began sending all theletters, and every supplicant, to me.I never found the jewel. The most vivid memory I have is of a visit from aformer soldier in Shaked, Israel’s Negev reconnaissance and tracking unit. Hehad taken up meditation, and the study of ancient civilizations. Fresh from aperiod of contemplation in the desert, he arrived in my office with a pamphlethe’d written. It was about special-forces strategy and training, as practiced eightcenturies earlier, in the time of Genghis Khan.I listened for nearly an hour, enjoying his enthusiasm, the history lesson, andthe simple weirdness of it all. I did check his facts afterwards. If nothing else, heproved an assiduous student of the Mongols. He explained to me that in theirlargest battles, involving tens of thousands of troops, they would designate a182commando unit of a couple of dozen men. Its sole task was to seek out and killthe enemy force’s leader. The key to their success was mind-training. Over aperiod of months, sometimes years, the commandos’ self-perception wasaltered. They were taught to believe that they had already died. Since their liveson earth were done, all that remained was a formal passage through the turnstileinto eternal happiness, and to go out in glory. My visitor not only suggested thatIsrael establish exactly this kind of death-cum-suicide unit. He volunteered totrain the men himself, and lead the first mission. With as straight a face as Icould muster, I thanked him for taking the time to see me. But I told him hisidea was probably not for us. Little did I know that a whole new kind of enemy,epitomized by Al-Qaeda and the self-styled Islamic State, would build aterrorist death cult around it.* * *Nava and I, with three-year-old Yael, and Michal just turning seven, left forCalifornia in the late summer of 1977. The two years that followed wereuplifting and reinvigorating – not just because of Stanford, but a further, utterlyunexpected transformation back home soon after we’d left.It, too had its roots in the 1973 war, but on the Arab side. Before the war,Egypt’s Anwar Sadat had extended feelers about the possibility of peacenegotiations, only to see them ignored. Israel won the war in the end. But theEgyptians’ surprise attack across the canal – and the panic and huge Israelilosses in the early days of the war – had shattered our aura of invincibility.Politically, Sadat had gone a long way to erasing the humiliation of 1967. Thatfreed him to do something which – after decades of Arab-Israeli conflict – wasastonishing. He travelled to Jerusalem, the capital of a country which neitherEgypt nor any other Arab country even recognized. He met Begin, and headdressed the Knesset with a call for peace.It is impossible to convey to Israelis who did not live through the birth of thestate, and our tumultuous early decades, the power of the emotions stirred bySadat’s visit. It was on November 19, 1977. With my arm around Nava, Iwatched the live American television coverage as Sadat’s plane touched downat Ben-Gurion airport. Begin was at the center of the throng of dignitaries onhand to greet him: a who’s who of political and military leaders not just fromhis administration, but who had led Israel in 1967 and 1973. Golda was there.183Rabin, too, puffing furiously on his cigarette. When the erect figure of Sadatemerged, there was spontaneous applause, and a serenade from Israeli armytrumpeters.Even before Sadat’s Knesset address the next day, I understood that his visit,his willingness to make the first, bold move toward a possible peace, markedjust the beginning of a difficult negotiating road. But there was one passage inhis speech that touched me especially. He ran through the history of how Egyptand other Arab states had not just fought Israel, but denied our right to exist as astate. “We used to brand you as so-called Israel,” he said. Now, the leader ofour most important Arab enemy declared: “You want to live with us in this partof the world. In all sincerity, I tell you that we welcome you among us, with fullsecurity and safety.”The formula he proposed was straightforward. Egypt would agree to a fullpeace, accepting and formally recognizing the state of Israel. But Israel wouldhave to withdraw from all Arab land captured in 1967, including “ArabJerusalem.” We would also have to accept the “rights of the Palestinian peopleto self-determination, including their right to establish their own state.” Begin’sreply was more sensitive than I’d expected from a leader who, through myLabor kibbutnzik eyes, I’d always seen as an extremist, unwaveringlycommitted to a “greater Israel”. Though he did make it clear his views on theshape of an eventual peace differed from Sadat’s, he proposed further talks withthe aim of finding an agreement both sides could live with. Still, like all Israelis,I knew he would never accept at least two of the Egyptian president’s demands:a retreat from our control of a united Jerusalem or the creation of a Palestinianstate on the West Bank of the Jordan: for Begin, biblical Judaea and Samaria.On our territorial dispute with Egypt, I did believe a deal was possible. Ididn’t expect us to return all of the Sinai, if only because I couldn’t see Beginagreeing to it. For security reasons, I also felt we should try to hold on to a pairof air force bases built after 1967, with American help, just a few miles over theNegev border. But as for the rest, I saw no reason not to give it back. As I’d toldMotta after the 1973 war, I’d long believed Israel had lost sight of the originalreason we’d held onto the Sinai after 1967. It was supposed to be a huge, sandysecurity buffer. If we did manage to make peace with Egypt, there was surely noreason to hold on to it.The moment of truth came almost exactly 10 months later, in September1978. American President Jimmy Carter hosted a summit with Begin and Sadatat Camp David, in search of a “framework agreement” for final negotiations on184a peace treaty. Again, I was watching closely, via American TV. But as thesummit was winding down, our phone suddenly rang in Palo Alto.“Ehud, how’s it going? Are you following what’s happening here? What doyou think?”I recognized the voice immediately: Ezer Weizman, the former fighter pilotBegin had chosen as his defense minister. I’d known Ezer since the early 1960s,when he’d been commander of the air force and Sayeret Matkal was planningits first operations. Still, even though he had a reputation for batting ideas backand forth outside the bounds of hierarchy or chain of command, I was startled tohear from him.“What do I think about what?” I said.“The solution we’ve arrived at here. We found there was no way but to giveback everything.” The only exception was Taba, a sliver of land where theNegev met the eastern edge of the Sinai, across from the Jordanian town ofAqaba.“Was there no way to convince them, even with some kind of a land swap, tokeep the two air bases?” I asked.“Believe me, we wanted to,” Ezer replied. “But no way. Not if we weregoing to get a peace treaty.”So I said the obvious: if that’s what was necessary for peace, there was noother choice.We were now well into our final year at Stanford. Our home was in a leafy“student village” off campus, called Escondito, for married students fromabroad. Our two-storey flat was one of a row of cabin-like structures: a bit like akibbutz, only smaller, American-style, a lot more upmarket. It had a fenced-offplay area for the children and, in a common room for all the village residents, anupright piano.I found the richness of the academic environment – and the time to exploreand savor it – enthralling. I’d chosen my master’s program at Stanford becauseit offered the chance to learn across a range of different schools and disciplines.The official home for my degree courses was the School of Engineering, in adepartment called “Engineering-Economic Systems”. Its focus was on applyingmathematical modelling and analysis to decision-making in “large and complex185organizations” such as private companies or government departments. Or thearmed forces of Israel. The theorists at Stanford were leaders in the field.But from the start, I was drawn to other disciplines as well: business,economics, political science, history, sociology, psychology. I studied gametheory at the business school, and the evolution of political systems under thesociologist Seymour Martin Lipset. I also went to lectures by James G. March,on how psychological, social and other factors influenced decision-making. Iparticularly enjoyed learning from Professor Amos Tversky. Born in Haifa, hewas half of an academic partnership with the psychologist Daniel Kahneman,who was also Israeli. They were investigating the effect of human bias and othersubjective factors on how we perceive reality, and thus make decisions.Tversky’s work especially fascinated me, because it questioned a basicassumption in the kind of predictive formulas my own department wasadvancing: that we make choices rationally, calculating the outcomes ofcompeting alternatives. Tversky had found that the human brain didn’t alwayswork that way. For choices with a fairly obvious outcome – 90 percent of cases,say – the assumption did hold. But at the margins, the brain didn’t, or couldn’t,always gauge the implications of a decision accurately. A couple of decadeslater, he would also show that an individual’s choice could vary significantlydepending on the way the options were presented.These behavioural and psychological approaches were at odds with what wasbeing taught in my home faculty. Its prevailing orthodoxy was that by usingspecifically designed interview techniques, alongside mathematical modellingof the predicted outcomes, we could isolate the effect of human agency on how,and what, decisions were made. Yet the wider my studies had ranged, the moresceptical I became that the complexities of human decision-making could beaccommodated by such models. I also saw problems in the methodology wewere using. Since it was based partly on interviews with participants in thedecision-making process, it seemed to me that this introduced a subjectiveelement into our ostensibly objective conclusions.My department wasn’t enamored with my views on our modeling approach.But one of the things I most valued about my time in Stanford was that, far fromdiscouraging my excursions into other departments, my professors combined aconfidence in their own approach with a genuine open-mindedness to otherideas: the hallmark of true intellectuals, and of great universities.I got something else from my studies at Stanford, although I didn’t speakabout it at the time, not even to Nava. I became aware that I had a particular186aptitude for focusing on the minute details of a problem, yet never losing sightof the larger picture, the wider issues. From my experience as commander ofthe sayeret and during the 1973 war, and from watching other officers whom Irespected, it struck me that this was an essential part of effective leadership.By “leadership”, at that stage in my life, I did not mean political leadership. Iwas thinking in terms of the army. But I’d now finished my masters degree, andit was impossible to be unaware of the political context in which I’d bereturning to uniform. Since Camp David, our negotiators and the Egyptians hadbeen trying to thrash out a formal deal. Sadat was being denounced as a traitorin the Arab world. Begin was seen by most in the outside world, and manyIsraelis, as dragging his feet on the negotiations and risking the chance for peacealtogether. If we did manabge to sign a peace treaty, however, we would bewithdrawing for the first time from land captured in 1967. That would meanfinding a new approach to security in the south, as well as a new focus on themajority of our Arab neighbors who were railing against Sadat and seemed lessinterested than ever in making peace.In some ways, it was hard to leave our mini-kibbutz in Palo Alto. Michal,now nearly nine, had thrived, quickly learning English and ending up with aperfectly American accent which has never left her. Yael has less vividmemories of our time there. But we’d had the nearest thing to a normal familylife since our first, war-truncated, time at Stanford. During the universityholidays, we’d also travelled: to Canada. Mexico. Lake Tahoe. Even Las Vegas,where, thankfully, we lacked the money to chance our luck, but where my yearsin the sayeret suddenly came in handy. We spent the day at Circus Circus, ajoint casino-and-theme park tailored for families with kids. At a shootinggallery in the amusement area, I had no trouble landing dead-center hits on apassing procession of metal geese, to the consternation of the guy behind thecounter but the delight of my two young daughters. In probably the singlegreatest moment of parental accomplishment I’d experienced since their birth, Ibagged a huge fluffy teddy bear for each of them.* * *I returned to Israel not just with the hope, but a reasonable expectation, that Iwould get command of one of Israel’s two regular armored divisions: the 252 nd ,which was responsible for defending the south and, at least for now, was based187in the Sinai. Dan Shomron was now head of the southern command and had toldme, before we headed back from California, that he’d recommended me for thepost. It was an especially exciting prospect because the US-backed negotiationswith Egypt did finally appear to be nearing an agreement. As commander ofDivision 252, I’d be coordinating and implementing Israel’s Sinai withdrawal.But I didn’t get the job, at least not on my return. Raful Eitan had indeedsucceeded Motta as chief of staff, and he had the final say. I’d evidently beenright to assume I would figure no higher in his estimation than I had as sayeretcommander. To be fair, however, he did agree to my becoming commander ofDan’s reserve division in the south: the same 611 th that Arik Sharon had ledacross the canal in 1973. When I took up that post in April 1979 – just daysafter the formal Israeli-Egyptian peace treaty was indeed signed – I was alsopromoted. I became a one-star general. And eighteen months later, when theregular division post came open again, I did get the nod to command the 252 nd .Even then, it was a close-run thing. Raful called me in to see him and said hewanted me to return to the kirya instead, in the one-star general’s post insidemilitary intelligence. He said he had more than enough candidates for divisioncommander, but that my previous experience meant I was the best choice for theintelligence post. I was determined to remain in the field, especially with signsthat Begin, and certainly his more right-wing supports in the Likud, werealready having second thoughts about the peace deal we’d struck with Egypt. Inpart, they feared that a withdrawal from any of the land taken in the 1967 warmight create a precedent, and invite pressure, for more withdrawals. But the realbuyers’ remorse centered on the fact that, as part of the initial agreement atCamp David, Begin had needed to accept a parallel framework for negotiationstoward a broader peace that would include the West Bank and GazaPalestinians.In any case, with Raful balking a second time at giving me the divisioncommand, I figured I had little to lose by fightinhg my corner, and telling himexactly what I felt. “Look, I realize that you’re chief of staff,” I said. “But don’tforget we’re both just temporarily in whatever role we hold. I’m not here as adraftee. I’m in the army by choice. It’s your decision to tell me what positionyou want me to take. But you can’t impose anything. I can always leave. Or Ican bide my time until you leave.” Raful apparently concluded he couldn’tactually force me to take the intelligence job. With Dan having made hispreference clear, he didn’t press the point.188My main responsibility as commander of the 252 nd was to implement thewithdrawal from the Sinai. Israel had committed itself to bring all of our forcesbehind the 1967 border within next two years, and, along with Dan, I threw myenergy into planning and implementing the terms of the treaty. But especiallywith Begin soon facing a reelection campaign against Labor, now led byShimon Peres, he was keen to play to the opponents of any further negotiatingconcessions. He was positioning himself as the voice of military strength, andpainting Peres as someone who would risk our security by going further thanthe separate peace with Sadat.Begin had no more experience or knowledge of military details than Shimon.But from his days in the pre-state Irgun, he’d been an unapologetic admirer ofmen of military action. After his victory in the 1977 election, he’d formed agovernment stocked with some of Israel’s best-known former generals. Not justEzer Weizman. He’d brought back Moshe Dayan, as foreign minister. And asagriculture minister, the country’s most swashbuckingly self-confident, andcontroversial, battlefield commander: Arik Sharon. Begin had recently lost bothEzer and Dayan, who accused him of deliberatedly torpedoing chances ofbuilding on the peace with Egypt. But Arik was still there, four-square behind amore forceful military posture on Israel’s other fronts. As agriculture minister,he had also been the driving force in a plan for settlement “blocs” designed toencircle the main Arab towns and cities on the West Bank and foreclose anyrealistic prospect of a Palestinian state.After Begin’s second election victory, in June 1981, some commentators,and many in Labor, insisted that he’d won because of a dramatic surprise airstrike, a few weeks before election day, against a French-built nuclear reactoroutside Baghdad. I never believed that, in part because I knew from intelligencefriends that the attack had been set for earlier, and was put back because of fearsthe plan might become public. But mostly because of what I witnessed in theheart of Tel Aviv the night before the election, when I joined one of my topofficers, a Likudnik, at Begin’s final campaign rally.Shimon still had a narrow lead in the polls. I hadn’t been at his closing rally,the previous evening. But like the rest of Israel, I’d heard and read about it, inparticular the warm-up act: a popular, solidly pro-Labor comedian and actornamed Dudu Topaz. Greeting the crowd, he’d said what a pleasure it was that itwas not full of chachachim. The word was sneering Israeli slang: for uncouth,uncultured Sephardim, not far from the equivalent of using the “n” word inAmerica. In a single sentence, he’d managed to sum up everything the189Sephardim resented about the Ashkenazi, Labor Zionist establishment. Begin, athis rally, played it like a virtuoso. “Did you hear what they called you?” hecried. Chachachim. He slightly mispronounced the word, as if he’d never heard,much less used, it before, and that even having to repeat it made his bloodcurdle. “Is that what you are?” There was pandemonium. Maybe Begin wouldhave won anyway. But it was close, just one Knesset seat between the twomajor parties. And win, he did.I became increasingly convinced in the weeks that followed that Begin’ssecond government, with Arik now moved to defense minister, would furtherput the brakes on any follow-up negotiations for a deal with the Palestinians. Idid not yet know that Arik, in particular, had a far more ambitious, military planto try to bury the possibility of a Palestinian state once and for all. But I didknow he had his eyes on a possible thrust across our northern border intoLebanon, where Arafat and the PLO were based.There was no public mention of any of this. But several times in 1981, I wasordered to move a large part of my division onto the Golan Heights for weeks ata time: two brigades, 200 tanks and dozens of APCs in a massive motorcadefrom the bottom to the top of the country and back again. We dubbed itCinerama, from the Hebrew words for Sinai and the Heights, Ramah. If therewas an escalation of hostilities, the northern command’s regular division wouldcross into Lebanon. Our role would be to take their place in defending theGolan, and possibly follow them in.When I returned from my final episode of Cinerama in the late summer of1981, the Sinai withdrawal was entering its final stage. I organized a full-scalemilitary exercise on the roughly one-third of the Egyptian desert we still held,knowing that we’d no longer have the room to do so after the final withdrawal.It was the largest exercise I’d ever commanded. The advances and tacticalretreats, the flanking maneuvers and ambushes and fighter jet attacks were likea very big war in a very small place.But a war game was not a real war. The Sinai was not like the Golan, or thecramped, hilly confines of Lebanon. And it was in Lebanon, the following year,that the war came. It was different from any in Israel’s history. Arik was incharge. And I would become involved in ways which began to change the way Isaw not only Arik, but the political and military direction of our country.190Chapter TwelveMy own part in the Lebanon war would change dramatically as a result ofthat last military exercise in the Sinai. Arik Sharon was now Minister ofDefense, and he came for the final afternoon. From his experience as a frontlinecommander – in 1956, 1967 and 1973 – he knew the dunes and wadis andsprawling expanses of sand as well as any general in Israel. Watching ourintricate mini-war draw to its close, he made no effort to hide his enthusiasm forthe kind of quick, assertive battlefield maneuvers he’d long championed. Butmore than that, his closest aide soon began sounding me out on my views aboutthe long-term organization, force balance and funding for the Israeli military. Afew weeks later, Arik offered me a promotion: a return to the kirya, as a twostargeneral, to become head of planning for the armed forces.I don’t know why he chose me: the Sinai exercise perhaps, the fact he knewI’d studied “large and complex organizations” at Stanford, or maybe just thefact our paths had first crossed two decades earlier when I was in SayeretMatkal. But even though it meant leaving my division command, especiallytough since the final Sinai withdrawal was approaching, it was an offer I nevercontemplated turning down. Not just because of the second star on my uniform.Ever since the 1973 war, along with a few other senior officers including DanShomron, I had been making the case for a shift to more mobile and lessvulnerable forces and weapons systems. I saw the new role as a chance to helpencourage that critically important change.There was just one hitch: all senior military assignments required the formalapproval of the chief-of-staff, my old friend Raful Eitan. Raful did manage todelay things for several weeks. At one point, he even brought to bear a qualityI’d never suspected he had: a sense of humor. “OK, I’ll agree to promoteBarak,” he told Arik. The next day, he said he’d meant Eitan Barak – a verygood commander, by the way, who had been one of my instructors in officers’school. Arik insisted, however. My appointment went through.And one, unanticipated result was that I didn’t just play the field commandrole I’d anticipated, from our Cinerama deployments, in Arik’s toweringlyambitious, ill-planned and ultimately disastrous war in Lebanon. I became partof months of planning discussions in the kirya before our tanks finally rumbledacross the northern border on the morning of June 6, 1982.191My new posting came not just as momentum was building toward aninvasion. It followed on the heels of a major new crisis in our peace with Egypt.Only weeks before I gave up my Sinai command, President Anwar Sadat wasshot and killed by an extremist Muslim officer at the annual Cairo militaryparade to mark the anniversary of the 1973 war.Like many Israelis, I felt an almost familial sense of bereavement. Sadat wasnot just the first Arab leader to make peace with Israel. He seemed tounderstand us: people who were ready, willing and able to fight, but wantedabove all to live unmolested and accepted by our neighbors. Yet for Begin andthe Likud, I knew the assassination would cast the whole peace process intodoubt. Sadat’s successor, Vice-President Hosni Mubarak, did make it clear hewould abide by the peace treaty, defusing calls on the Israeli right for us tocancel our final withdrawal from the Sinai. But after Sadat’s killing, Begin andthose around him seemed more determined than ever to hold the line against thewider peace negotiations agreed with President Carter and Sadat at CampDavid. At Begin’s insistence, Camp David had not proposed giving thePalestinians a state, but instead “autonomy” and a locally elected “selfgoverningauthority”. Yet that was defined as a transitional period. The electedPalestinians were to be included in negotiations for a yet-unspecified “finalstatus” arrangement for the West Bank and Gaza. That, Begin feared, left thedoor ajar for something more than autonomy. Shutting that door, I would soondiscover, was a big part of Arik’s ornate reasoning for invading Lebanon.Beyond the fact that my new job was a promotion, I had a personal reasonfor welcoming the move back to Tel Aviv. Ten days after Sadat’s assassination,I had endured a frightening few days surrounding the birth of our third daughter,Anat. The crisis was another reminder that the demands of frontline commandrested not just on my shoulders, but my family’s. We had moved house againearly in Nava’s pregnancy, to the suburb of Ra’anana, about 10 miles north ofTel Aviv and a few miles in from the coast. We bought one of a newly built rowof small, semi-detached townhouses which, best of all, had a backyard. It wastiny by American standards, but was still a place for the girls to play. Onceagain, however, I wasn’t there when my daughter was born. I was rushing northas Nava went into labor.The birth itself went smoothly. By the time I got to the hospital, both babyand mother seemed happy and healthy. A few days later, however, when theywere back in the townhouse and I’d returned to my division, Nava felt suddenly,desperately unwell. I shudder to think what might have happened were it not for192the fact that one of our new neighbors was a friend from my first militaryintelligence stint in the kirya. In almost paralyzing pain, Nava phoned him, andhe rushed her to the hospital. It turned out that the doctor who delivered Anathad left part of the placenta inside. Once the mistake was discovered – as I wasagain speeding north – he went back in and rectified it. When I arrived, I wasrelieved, to put it mildly, to find Nava smiling bravely, and on her way back tofull health. Still, doctor friends of mine told me that if the problem not beendiagnosed and addressed quickly, she could have suffered shock, seriousinfection, even death.* * *In my new role, I was nominally responsible to both the defense minister andthe chief of staff, but Arik made it clear to both me and Raful that he was boss.And though my official brief was longer-term planning, almost from day-onethe issue of Lebanon overshadowed all others. I knew, from Cinerama, thatpreparations for a possible military operation in Lebanon were underway. Yetfrom my first meeting with Arik and Raful, it became clear it was more than justa possibility. “Why the hell is Arafat still alive,” Arik snapped at us. He saidthat when he’d been commander of Unit 101, he’d never waited for thegovernment to ask him to plan an operation. He’d plan it himself, and go toministers for approval. When I told him that I’d done just that when I wascommander of the sayeret, only to be told Arafat was “not a target,” Arikreplied: well, he is now. The PLO leader’s current residence was on thesouthern edge of Beirut, and in the weeks ahead Arik left no doubt that hemeant to go after him there.To anyone looking from the outside, there was no pressing reason to expect awar. It is true that the potential for conflict was always there. The PLO hadnearly 20,000 fighters in Lebanon and hundreds of rockets capable of reachingour northern towns and settlements. The Syrians were there, too. As part of anArab League agreement in 1976 to quell two years of terrible civil war betweenLebanon’s traditionally dominant Maronite Christians and an alliance of PLOand Lebanese Muslim forces, some 30,000 Syrian troops had been brought in asthe core of a peacekeeping force. But in the summer of 1981, new US PresidentRonald Reagan’s Mideast envoy, Undersecretary of State Philip Habib, had193brokered a cease-fire to halt Palestinian Katyusha rocket fire into Israel. It wasgenerally holding.But fundamentally, Arik’s war plan was not a response to the Katyushas. Itwas a way of using military force to achieve Prime Minister Begin’s politicalaim: stopping the Camp David peace process in its tracks, and ensuring it didnot go beyond the peace treaty with Egypt. And even that message was notprincipally intended for the Palestinians, I suspect, but for the Americans.Israel’s Labor-led governments had always calculated that we needed at leastsome measure of support from foreign allies, especially the US. Under Begin,we’d already bombed Saddam Hussein’s nuclear reactor without telling theAmericans beforehand. Shortly after I returned to the kirya, he provoked furtheranger in Washington by announcing the de facto annexation of the Golan – ineffect “balancing” our Sinai withdrawal with a dramatic reassertion of Israelicontrol over other land captured in the 1967 war. Part of Arik’s plan in Lebanonwas to deliver an even more forceful riposte to any suggestion that we wouldgive up control of the West Bank and Gaza.Yet these political aims, which I was gradually beginning to grasp in theirfull form through my discussions with Arik, were only part of the reason I wasdeeply uneasy about the plans for our Lebanon invasion. Having now spentnearly two decades in the military, I recognized that the security challenge northof the border was real. I did not believe it was inherently wrong for Begin’sgovernment to order a pre-emptive military operation with the aim of ending it.My view, as an army officer, was that the decision on how, when and whetherto go to war was for our elected government. But for that principle to work, Ialso believed that government ministers had to know what they were deciding.The more we geared up for an invasion, the less certain I became that Begin’scabinet understood what we were planning to do.Arik’s original plan was codenamed Oranim: Hebrew for “pine trees”. Itinvolved pushing deep into Lebanon, all the way up to the strategically criticalroad that ran between Beirut and Damascus. We would link up in Beirut withthe main Maronite Christian force, the Phalangists, whom we had beensupporting and training for several years. When that plan was presented toBegin’s cabinet at the end of 1981, however, most ministers opposed it. Thuswas born Arik’s Plan B, so-called “Little Pines”. Its stated aim was a lot moremodest. We would create a “security zone” – a 40-kilometer, or 25-mile, striprunning north of the border with Lebanon.194I could see that Little Pines was a kind of fiction. All you had to do was takea map and draw in the 40-kilometer line. In the areas nearer the Mediterranean,in the western and central parts of the border area, it indeed covered territorycontrolled by armed PLO groups. But in the eastern sector, there were Syrianpositions a mere 10 to 12 kilometers up from the border, well inside the“security zone”. Not much further north were two full Syrian divisions. Thatmeant we’d be fighting not just the Palestinians, which was the ostensible aimof Little Pines. We would have to take on Syria. As soon as those hostilitiesbegan, we would have to destroy radar and SAM sites in the Syrian-controlledBeka’a Valley further north into Lebanon. After the first costly days of the 1973war in the Sinai, we were not about to enter a major conflict without ensuringair superiority. Unless the Syrians retreated or surrendered, the inevitable resultwould be a wider conflict, not limited to dealing with Palestinian fighters insouth Lebanon but paving the way for Arik to go ahead with his original planand push all the way to Beirut.This wasn’t mere supposition on my part. In February 1982, we ran asimulation exercise in the kirya based on Plan B. The result: Little Pines becameBig Pines. A clash with the Syrians proved inevitable, if only because one targeteven under Little Pines was the main road between Beirut and Damascus. It laywell beyond the 40-kilometer line. As the main supply route for their forces inthe interior of Lebanon, it was also of critical importance for the Syrians. So anyidea of a quick, limited strike to establish a security zone was fantasy. A fewdays later, Raful chaired a wide-ranging discussion on Lebanon. Near the end ofthe session, I asked him directly whether government ministers were aware thatour war plan “will inevitably lead to a clash with the Syrians”. Raful hesitatedfor a second, but then answered briskly: “Yes.”That assurance would turn out to be untrue. But my wider concern, as theweeks passed, was Arik’s political plan, of which I was getting an ever cleareridea from him. It struck me as not just grand, but grandiose. Part of it was toobliterate Arafat as a political force, if not by killing him then by forcing himand every one of his fighters from Lebanon, a country Arik wanted to placeunder the unchallenged control of the most prominent of the younger generationof Christian Phalangist politicians, Bashir Gemayel. I felt all that would bechallenging enough. But in Arik’s eyes, this was only part of a completereordering of our conflict with the Arabs. He expected Gemayel’s Lebanon toopenly align itself with Israel and expel all Syrian troops. As for the expelledPalestinians, they would go back to Jordan where they would resume – and, thistime, win – their civil war with King Hussein. The result, with Hussein deposed,195would be a “Palestinian state” in Jordan, which would free Israel to retain openended,unchallenged, control of the West Bank.Even the Labor party, fifteen years into Israel’s occupation of the WestBank, was still speaking about a “Jordanian option” for an eventual politicalsettlement with the Palestinians who lived there – though this meant a kind ofconfederation with Jordan under Hussein’s rule. Very few Israelis beganseriously to engage with the Palestinians own separate identity or nationalaspirations until later in the 1980s – when I, too, would do so, amid thewidespread Palestinian unrest known as the intifada. But even without a fullythought-out view on these issues, I was taken aback by Arik’s almost godlikesupposition that he could use fire and brimstone, or the modern militaryequivalent, to remake the Middle East as he and Begin wished to see it. If onlybecause of the tacit assumption that the outside world, and especially theAmericans, would sit by and let the whole drama play out as scripted, it struckme as an exercise in self-delusion.There was also the matter of Arik’s vision of a “new” Lebanon under BashirGemayel’s Phalangists. Unlike the other generals in the kirya, I’d never actuallymet any of our “Lebanese Christian allies”. Yet a few weeks after taking up mynew post, I was invited to a lunchtime discussion with a group of Phalangistofficers on a training course in Israel. I emerged both unsettled andunderwhelmed. They were obviously politically astute. They bandied aroundmilitary vocabulary proficiently enough. But they were a bit like teenagersplaying with guns: full of macho, and too much after-shave. Hardly the kind of“army” I could see as a lynchpin in Arik’s plan to redraw the geopolitical mapof the Middle East.* * *By June 1982, Arik’s invasion was a war simply waiting for a credibletrigger. On the evening of June 3, Palestinian terrorists shot and criticallywounded Israel’s ambassador in London, Shlomo Argov. Appalling though theattack was, as a catalyst for a full-scale invasion, it seemed unlikely to beenough for the Reagan Administration. Habib’s cease-fire terms did not includeterror attacks like the one in London. It was meant to keep the PLO from firingacross our northern border. Even to some Israelis, the attack on AmbassadorArgov seemed more a rationale than a reason for war. But Begin summoned an196emergency cabinet meeting the next day. His adviser on terrorism, GideonMachanaimi, was someone I knew well. When the cabinet convened, he pointedout to the ministers that the London terrorists were from a fringe Palestiniangroup led by Abu Nidal. Far from being an ally of Arafat, he had beensentenced to death by Fatah. According to Gideon, Begin wasn’t interested inthe distinction. Even less so were the two leading military figures in attendance:Arik and Raful. They said all Palestinian terror was the responsibility of Arafat,and that now was the time to hit back hard. The cabinet was informed that ourinitial response would be limited: aerial and artillery bombardment of PLOtargets throughout Lebanon. Yet Raful told the cabinet that the Palestinianswould almost certainly respond with shell and rocket fire into Israel. Then, hesaid, we could strike more forcefully. In other words, the invasion would begin.It did. Dubbed “Operation Peace for Galilee” to convey the aim of protectingnorthern Israel from shell and rocket fire, it got underway at around 11 a.m. onSunday June 6. The publicly declared aim was Little Pines: the establishment ofour 40-kilometer security zone. Both Israelis and the Americans were led tobelieve it would be a relatively short operation aimed at destroying the PLO’smilitary capacity in the border area. We also said that we wouldn’t attack Syrianforces as long as they didn’t attack us.That last public pledge had particular relevance to my role on the ground. Iwas deputy commander of the largest of Israel’s three invasion forces, underYanoush Ben-Gal, head of the northern command until shortly before the war.We had 30,000 troops and 600 tanks and were responsible for the “easternsector” – from the edge of the Golan Heights, north through the Bekaa Valleyalong Lebanon’s border with Syria. At first, we deliberately stopped short ofSyrian forces. We deployed our main reserve division just 10 kilometers acrossthe border, below the first Syrian positions at the bottom of the Bekaa. Butdespite the public assurances we were in Lebanon to establish our security zone,we had no orders to halt at the 40-kilometer line. From day one, our part of theinvasion force began a pincer movement around the area of eastern Lebanonwhere large numbers of Syrian soldiers were based. My former Sinai division,the 252 nd , came down from the Golan and started making its way up alongsidethe Syrian border. Our other units, further inland, also began pushingnorthward.For the first couple of days, we did avoid a confrontation with the Syrians.Yet on June 8, day three of the war, the morphing of Little Pines into Big Pinesbegan.197The two other Israeli invasion forces had crossed the border parallel to us,one pushing up through the steep hills and twisting valleys of central Lebanon,and the other along the Mediterranean coast. The central force was now orderedto mount an attack that would bring them within striking distance of the Beirut-Damasus road. The first skirmish came in the hilltop town of Jezzin, still barelywithin the 40-kilometer zone. The Syrians had a commando force and tanks inthe town. An Israeli battalion was ordered in, and it took Jezzin by the eveningof June 8. But it came under assault from Syrian units with grenades, RPGs andSaggers, as well as shellfire from a nearby ridge. Shortly before midnight,another unit of Israeli tanks and infantry passed through the central Lebanesevillage of Ayn Zhalta, to the north of Jezzin and beyond the 40-kilometer line,and began winding its way through a valley toward the Beirut-Damascus road.They waded into a Syrian ambush, and for hours found themselves in a fiercebattle with Syrian units.I don’t believe Arik specifically planned to confront the Syrians in Jezzinand Ayn Zhalta. But he could not have doubted that, given the enormous scaleand range of our invasion, a clash with Syrian forces would happen at somepoint. Now that it had, all that remained was for him to tell the cabinet thatIsraeli forces had come under Syrian fire and insist, as defense minister, that theimperative for our forces on the ground was to strike back.On the afternoon of June 9, the fourth day of the war, we got the order to goon the offensive against the Syrians in the Bekaa. As our artillery pounded thesouthernmost SAM sites, nearly 100 Israeli jets swarmed into the Bekaa Valleyand attacked Syria’s air defenses in eastern Lebanon. When a second wavescreamed in an hour later, the Syrians sent up their Soviet-made MiGs tointercept them. Forty-one Syrian planes were shot down. Seventeen of the 19SAM batteries were destroyed by the end of the day. The other two were takenout the next morning, and another 43 Syrian jets shot down.There was no longer any pretence about our war aim: to fight our waythrough any resistance and reach the Beirut-Damascus road. But after the Bekaaair battle, and the most serious air losses for an Arab state since 1967, Yanoushand I knew that international pressure for a cease-fire would quickly escalate.Aware we were racing against the clock, we began a co-ordinated pushtowards the Beirut-Damascus road. The left arm of our “pincer” was ordered tomake its way toward a town called Jobb Janine. It was still some distance fromthe Damascus road, but an important way-station: Syrian headquarters on thewestern side of the Bekaa Valley. The eastern part of our pincer, the 252 nd198Division, advanced up the Bekaa, alongside the Syrian border, toward the townof Yanta, across from Jobb Jannine.But as it was making its way there, we got word a cease-fire had beenagreed. It was set for noon the next day, Friday, June 11. The main focus of ouradvance shifted to a crossroads a few miles east of Jobb Janine. It was a flat,open area surrounded by hills, codenamed the Tovlano Triangle on our maps.We knew we would meet some Syrian resistance. On the way up the valley,we’d seen signs of reinforcements from inside Syria. But we had overwhelmingsuperiority in tanks, artillery and infantry in the area, as well as full control ofthe air. In our command post, about five miles back from our frontline forces,Yanoush set in motion the plan for a pre-cease-fire advance to take the hillsoverlooking the Tovlano Triangle. It was still about eight miles short of theBeirut-Damascus road. But the idea was to establish a more secure defensiveposition by the time the truce took effect, and to put us in position to advancefurther if the cease-fire collapsed or was delayed.Shortly before sunset, Yanoush left by helicopter for a field commanders’meeting with Raful in northern Israel. That left me in charge, alongsideYanoush’s de facto chief-of-staff, Amram Mitzna. A decorated veteran of 1967and 1973 whom I knew well, Amram had the added distinction of being dislikedby Raful almost as much as I was. Our main reserve division had been orderedto take control over the hills south of the Tovlano Triangle. One of its brigades,led by a former Sayeret Matkal soldier named Nachman Rifkind, was sent totake up a position immediately south of the triangle. Soon after nightfall,Rifkind radioed in that he was there, and that the area seemed clear of enemyforces. The divisional command post then ordered a second brigade to movetoward the hills dominating the crossroads.The first sign of trouble came around midnight. From our overall commandpost, we were listening in on all radio traffic, and heard the second brigadereport that it had come under fire while moving toward the crossroads. At first,we assumed it must be from the remnants of a retreating Syrian unit. ButRifkind, who had reported the area was clear, now said that he could see flashesof shellfire two or three miles to his north. Only the following morning did itbecome clear that he had not deployed immediately south of the triangle asplanned. He had mistakenly halted at a hill about two miles short of there.By the time Yanoush returned to the command post a little after midnight,we were facing another problem. The battalion nearest to the south of thetriangle had spotted a dozen large vehicles armed with missiles a few hundred199yards ahead. The missiles seemed to be pointed north, away from them. But thebattalion commander was asking us for permission to open fire.“Do not open fire,” I was saying as Yanoush arrived. “I repeat: do not openfire.” When Yanoush asked me what was going on, I told him the lead unit hadreported unknown vehicles with missiles and wanted to know whether it couldattack. “Tell them yes,” Yanoush said. I looked first at him, then at Mitzna. “Wecan’t,” I said. “It’s dark. The situation is confused. We don’t know whosemissiles these are. It doesn’t make sense they’d be Syrian, just sitting there,pointed north. At least give it a few minutes.” I think Yanoush would havegrabbed the microphone and told the unit to fire had not Amram been there aswell. Together, we convinced him to hold off. I ordered the brigade commanderto get one of the battalion’s APC crews to go out on foot and get as near aspossible to the missiles. It was nearly 15 minutes later when they returned. Theysaid they’d never seen this kind of missile vehicle, but that the soldiers manningthem seemed to be speaking Hebrew. It turned out to be a new ground-togroundmissile, not yet formally in service, which had been sent into Lebanonwithout our knowledge by the northern command.While that trouble was averted, much worse lay ahead. Yanoush asked to bebrought up to date on our progress in taking control of the area around theTovlano Triangle. We briefed him on the situation as we understood it: thatRifkind had reported the triangle was clear, but that the second brigade had stillnot reached it. Yanoush tried to radio the divisional commanders. When hecouldn’t raise them, he ordered the brigade and battalion commanders to pickup their pace and move forward.With Yanoush back and the advance resumed, I tried to grab at least a fewhours’ sleep. But around 3:45 am, a junior officer shook me awake. When Irejoined Yanoush and Amram, they told me the lead battalion was now in deeptrouble. It was led by Ira Ephron, one of Dan Shomron’s best companycommanders during the 1973 war. For reasons I’ve never been able to establish,Ira’s orders were not to take the hills south of the triangle as we’d planned, butto go through it to a point two miles or so north. Minutes after crossing thetriangle, his tanks came under heavy fire. Hoping to escape, he kept going, onlyto find himself surrounded by a Syrian armored force. They were trapped near avillage called Sultan Yacoub, nearly three miles north of Tovlano. Since it wasearly June, it would be light soon, and his predicament could only get worse.At dawn, he reported he was under heavy artillery, anti-tank missile, RPGand close-range rifle fire. The only realistic hope was to retreat. We were unable200to get air support, but the commander of our artillery force called in all availableunits, and they drew a kind of protective box of shellfire around Ira’s men asthey moved back. We sent our other reserve division towards the crossroads toprovide support, and Amram went with them to co-ordinate the operation. ButIra still had to fight his way out. It was 15 minutes of hell. By the time hereached safety at around nine in the morning, he’d lost ten tanks and nearly 20men, four of them during the final, frantic retreat. Five more were missing. Thereserve division also found itself in a fierce firefight with the Syrians, and losteleven men.We were now just three hours from the cease-fire. We did advance nearer tothe Beirut-Damascus road. An hour before noon, our dedicated anti-tank unitdestroyed 20 of Assad’s top-tier tanks, Soviet-made T-72s. Under differentcircumstances, those successes might have been a cause for consolation. Yet itwas hard to dwell on them given what had happened north of Tovlano. After thewar, Sultan Yacoub created fertile ground for conspiracy theories, half-truthsand finger-pointing. That there had been many oversights and errors was clear,though there was never a full and formal debriefing process to identify in detailwhat had gone wrong. I found it deeply frustrating that, unlike in 1973 when I’dbeen in a battlefield command role, I was now at several steps removed fromwhat was happening on the ground. But everyone involved shared responsibilityfor the failures – including the overall commanders: Yanoush, and me as well.That weight felt even heavier because the tragedy occurred only hours beforeour own force’s involvement in the Lebanon War was over.* * *It was not, however, the end of the war. The cease-fire held onlyintermittently in the rest of Lebanon, barely at all in some areas. Freed fromfighting in our sector, Yanoush, Amram and I began spending time with unitselsewhere. A couple of days after the cease-fire, I found myself alongside a pairof generals, Uri Simchoni and Yossi Ben-Hannan, south of Beirut. In front ofus, troops from the Golani Brigade were completing their takeover of Beirutairport. “You were right,” I told Uri and Yossi. They had been in charge of thesimulation exercise in the kirya, predicting how Arik’s ostensibly more limitedinvasion plan would inevitably develop into Big Pines. Even as we were talking,201another Israeli unit broke through to the Beirut-Damascus road. On the far sideof Lebanon’s capital city, they linked up with Bashir Gemayel’s Phalangists.I remember a mix of feelings at the time. Partly, amazement that throughsheer determination and political maneuvering, Arik seemed to have pulled offhis grand plan – or at least the Lebanon part of it. Yes, we’d ended up fighting akind of half-war against the Syrians which, though we’d won it, still left 30,000of Assad’s men in Lebanon. And they showed no signs of leaving. Our mainstrategic threat north of the border was not, in fact, the Palestinians. Syria wasin military control of Lebanon and, after the peace with Egypt, our mostpowerful adversary. And no matter what Big Pines might have achieved, itseemed to clear to me that the Syrians would be free simply to replace theweaponry we’d destroyed and fight another day.In Arik’s mind, Bashir Gemayel would soon be in a position to fix that. Butbeyond my skepticism from having met some of his boy officers in Tel Aviv, Icouldn’t see how that would work. I strained to imagine Gemayel daring toform what would amount to a formal alliance with Israel and ordering theSyrian troops to leave. And given what would be at stake for Damascus, Icertainly couldn’t see the Phalangists being able to drive them out by force.The more immediate, open question involved Arafat and the Palestinians.Our other two invasion forces had driven almost all the PLO fighters out ofsouth Lebanon, though not without costs and casualties. Most of thePalestinians, however, had retreated north to their de facto capital, thesouthwestern neighborhoods of Beirut. The idea of a ground assault – street-tostreetbattles in an area packed with fighters, weapons and tens of thousands ofcivilians – didn’t bear thinking about. After the war, some of the officers aroundBeirut said Arik seemed to hoping that the Phalangist milita would go into theoverwhelmingly Muslim western side of Beirut. At one point, he was evenconsidering an Israeli attack. Fortunately, given the Phalangists’ record ofviolence bordering on savagery during the Lebanese civil war, Bashir Gemayelwasn’t willing to send them in. As for an Israeli assault, Begin’s ministersweren’t ready to sign off on it, and the Americans let it be know, repeatedly,that they were vehemently opposed to the idea.Arik again turned to a fallback plan. He knew that Begin did share hisdetermination to get Arafat and the PLO out of Lebanon. Even the Americanswere ready to support such an arrangement, assuming it could be negotiated andimplemented in a way that would bring the fighting to an end. Whether byintent or political fortune, the mere prospect of Arik further expanding the202invasion had the effect of persuading Washington to send Philip Habib backinto the diplomatic fray. With no early sign, however, of Arafat agreeing toleave, Arik now steadily tightened what amounted to a siege on west Beirut. Forseven weeks in July and August, our forces pounded the PLO-controlledneighborhoods from land, air and sea; intermittently cut water and electricitysupplies; and hoped that the accumulated pressure, and casualties, would forceArafat and his men to agree to Habib’s terms for a wholesale evacuation.By this point, I was spending most of my time in the kirya, with periodicvisits north, sometimes with Arik or Raful, to our positions on the eastern,Phalangist-controlled, side of Beirut. On several occasions, I helicoptered backwith Habib or his deputy, Morris Draper. In one instance, I accompanied Draperinto a meeting with Arik. In what I imagine had become a familiar, andfrustrating, part of the US mediation mission, he pressed Arik to rein in ourbombardments, arguing that we were in danger of ruining the chances of gettinga negotiated deal on Arafat’s leaving. Arik argued straight back. His view wasthat unless the PLO felt squeezed into submission, they would stay put.On that, I thought Arik was probably right. Other Israeli generals with farmore experience, and weight, also seemed to agree. Notably, Yitzhak Rabin. Hewas no longer in government, nor even in charge of Labor. But he had alwayshad a soft spot for Arik, as did Sharon for him. With uneasiness, questions andoutright criticism of the siege building both internationally and inside Israel,Arik got Rabin to helicopter north with him to Beirut. Yitzhak spent six orseven hours there. His verdict on the siege, at least as reported in the Israelipress, was more than Arik could have hoped for. Lehadek, he said. “Tighten it.”In the end, I’m convinced the siege did have a critical effect on getting theevacuation deal. But unleashing our single most relentless series of air attacks,on August 12, when the deal was basically done, seemed both perverse andexcessive, and not just to me. Habib, and President Reagan himself, fumed. Sodid a lot of Begin’s own ministers, with the result, unprecedented in Israelimilitary annals, that they formally removed Arik’s authority to decide on futureair force missions. That turned out not to matter, however, because August 12effectively marked the end of the siege.On the afternoon of Saturday, August 21, the first shipload of an eventualtotal of nearly 10,000 Palestinian fighters left Beirut harbor for Cyprus, and thenfor a variety of new host countries. On this score at least, Arik’s grand designhad proven beyond him: the Palestinians were not bound for Jordan. By farmost of them headed for the PLO’s new political base, the north African state of203Tunisia. Arafat himself left on August 30.Still, as the evacuation proceeded, another one of Arik’s central aims in BigPines was also achieved. On August 23, the Lebanese parliament elected BashirGemayel as the country’s new president.* * *During the several weeks that followed, there was a confident feeling amongArik and his inner circle in the kirya. To the extent that Arik and Raful saw anycloud on the horizon, it was their concern about “several thousand” Palestinianfighters who they were certain had stayed on in Beirut despite the evacuation.True, Bashir Gemayel hadn’t been formally inaugurated as president. There hadbeen reports that he was privately assuring Lebanese Muslim leaders that hewould be conciliatory once he took office, and that he was not about to considera formal peace with Israel. He had also been resisting Israeli efforts to make anearly, public show of friendship, such as an official visit to meet Prime MinisterBegin. But there was an undisguised hope that this was just a brief politicalhiatus, for appearance’s sake, and that before too long Lebanon would becomethe second Arab country to make peace with Israel. Not just peace, butsomething more nearly like an alliance.Though I still looked through the eyes of an army officer, not a politicianand certainly not an experienced diplomat, I had serious doubts this wouldhappen. Simple logic seemed to suggest that, since Gemayel knew we had norealistic option of turning our back on him, his political interests were bestserved by keeping his distance and trying to build bridges at home. But on theearly evening of September 14, nine days before his scheduled inauguration, notjust that question but the whole new political edifice Arik had envisaged inlaunching the invasion, became suddenly, irretrievably, irrelevant.I was at my desk on the third floor of the kirya, getting ready to go home,when the news broke: a huge bomb had exploded at the Phalangist Partyheadquarters in east Beirut as Gemayel was beginning to address hundreds ofsupporters. For a while, the reports from Beirut suggested that Gemayel hadsurvived the blast, but shortly before eleven at night the confirmation came: thepresident-elect was dead.204Though no one claimed responsibility, there was no shortage of suspects.During and since the civil war, Gemayel had at various times been at odds witha whole array of enemies or rivals: Muslim militias, the PLO, other Maronitefactions and, of course, the Syrians. But I think for all of us, even Arik, the issueof who was behind the bombing was hardly the most urgent concern. Theimmediate danger was a revival of the kind of rampant bloodletting Lebanonhad endured in the civil war. The day after the assassination, I joined a halfdozenother members of the general staff and helicoptered up to the Lebanesecapital. Arik, ignoring weeks of US pressure not to do so, had already orderedIsraeli troops into west Beirut – not to fight, but to take control of key junctionsand vantage points and keep basic order.But the question obviously on everyone’s mind was how to make sure thesituation remained under control. It was early afternoon when we reached anIsraeli command post in the largely Palestinian southwest part of the city. It wasset up by Amos Yaron, the former paratroop commander whose division hadlanded by sea at the start of the invasion and was part of the push north to thecapital. At his side was Amir Drori, the head of the northern command. Theyhad set up a rooftop observation post just a few hundred yards in from where Ihad landed with my Sayeret Matkal team a decade earlier for the Rue Verdunoperation. It overlooked a pair of Palestinian refugee camps: Sabra and, acouple of hundred yards closer to us, Shatila.Raful was with us as well. So was Moshe Levy, the deputy chief-of-staff,and Uri Saguy, the head of the operations branch in the kirya. I listened ratherthan spoke. All I could gather from the other generals’ conversation was thatthey were trying to figure out how to handle the Palestinian camps. No oneexplicitly mentioned the idea of Israeli troops going in, presumably becausethey realized that, far from helping ensure order, that might well inflame thingsfurther. Even Raful, at least in my earshot, made no reference to the “severalthousand” PLO fighters that he and Arik still wanted out of Beirut. The onlynote that struck me as odd was a general agreement that the Phalangists had notbeen carrying their load of the fighting during the war. One comment inparticular stuck with me, though I didn’t take it as referring to the Palestiniancamps in particular. I can’t remember which general said it, only that everyoneseemed to agree: “Why the hell do we have to do their fighting for them?”It was not until the next morning, back in Tel Aviv, that the alarm bells rangfor me, and by then it turned out to be too late. It was Friday, the eve of theJewish New Year. Yet in the wake of Gemayel’s assassination, the kirya was205crowded. I heard the first rumors from a staff officer in military intelligence,though neither he nor anyone else I asked was sure if they were true. But itseemed that the Phalangists had been sent into Sabra and Shatila. And that theyhad begun killing people.I’d like to think that, in Amos Yaron’s or Amir Dori’s place, I’d have beensufficiently wise not to have allowed the Phalangists into the camps in the firstplace. But the truth is that I’m not sure. If the decision was to send someone in, Icertainly wouldn’t have sent in Israeli troops. But unlike other Israeli generals,my first-hand knowledge of the Phalangists was limited to a single lunchtimeencounter in Tel Aviv. My impression from that meeting was that they wereoverblown, post-adolescent thugs, not murders. I did, of course, know themilita’s reputation for untrammelled violence in the Lebanese civil war. Still, Imight conceivably agreed to have the Phalangists go in – under strict orders tolimit themselves to keeping order – in the knowledge that our own troops werestationed in the area immediately around the camps.Yet from the moment of the first rumors – as soon as I heard even the hintthat killings were underway – I had not a second’s doubt about what had to bedone next: get the Phalangists out. Immediately. I felt a particular urgencybecause of the rooftop gripe I’d heard the day before, about our troops having todo their fighting for them. That made me pretty certain that, at the very least, wehad indeed sent the Phalangists into the camps.I tried to reach Arik, but couldn’t get through to him. I contacted OdedShamir, the former intelligence officer who was his main liaison with the army.I told him that if the Phalangists were inside the camps, he had to urge Arik toget them out. Then I called Tsila Drori, Amir’s wife. I asked whether she’dspoken to him that morning. She said no. He’d called her the day before,however, and she was sure he’d be in touch before the New Year. “Please,swear to me, Tsila, you’ll give him a message,” I said. “I was there yesterday.Tell him please do whatever he can to stop this action. It will end very, verybadly.” I told her he would know what I meant.It was too late to stop it altogether. The slaughter – the round-ups and thebeatings and the killings of Palestinians in the two camps – had indeed begunthe night before. Amir found out about it late on Friday morning. Not from me,I believe, but from his staff officers. He ordered the Phalangists to stop. Butthey didn’t. No one in command acted, at least successfully, to make sure thatthe militiamen got out of the camps. The atrocities went on. It was another 24hours before the militamen finally withdrew.206One night’s massacre would have been enough to produce the outcry thatresulted once the first news reports, photos and TV pictures were sent aroundthe world. That the bloodletting was allowed to continue after we knew whatwas going on, beyond the cost in innocent lives, made the fallout even worse. InIsrael, the response was unlike anything in the past. There had been someopposition to the war: from parts of Labor, from political groups further to theleft and particularly the pressure group Peace Now, formed in 1978 to protestthe Begin government’s obvious desire to use the peace with Egypt as a meansto limit, rather than actively explore, prospects for a wider agreement with thePalestinians.After Sabra and Shatila, Peace Now was the driving force behind demandsfor an inquiry into the Israeli role into what had happened. But the trauma wentdeeper. Israelis of all political stripes jammed shoulder-to-shoulder into theKings of Israeli Square in the heart of Tel Aviv a week after the massacre.There were soldiers, too: 20somethings back from the fighting and reservists adecade or more older. Some estimates put the size of the crowd at as many as400,000, almost ten percent of the population of Israel at the time. The protestwas nominally aimed at forcing the government to empower a commission ofinquiry, which it did a couple of days later. But the mood in the square wasmore like an outpouring of shock and shame. While the catalyst was themassacre in the camps, it tapped into a rumble of growing questions, anddoubts, about the war itself, which had been building ever since the prolongedsiege of west Beirut: what the invasion was for, how it had been planned andprosecuted, and what it said about our country, our government and our armedforces.I was at home with Nava, watching the coverage of the demonstration ontelevision. I shared the protesters’ view that an inquiry was needed. In the dayssince my phone call to Tsila Drori, I’d remained troubled not just by our failureto stop the killings once we knew what was going on, but by the response fromBegin, Arik and some other ministers to the massacre. Determined to shift theblame and responsibility elsewhere, they kept driving home the point that it wasPhalangists, not Israelis, who had carried out the killings. That was true. But itcould not erase the failures of judgment and control on our part. We were theones who had allowed them into the camps. Our forces were deployed aroundthe perimeter. And the killers were our “Lebanese Christian allies”.The formal picking-apart of Israel’s share of responsibility would be the jobof the inquiry commission. I did take some heart from the very fact such large207numbers of Israelis, and ultimately the government, had ensured a trulyindependent probe would now go ahead.But other ways in which the war had gone wrong were already glaringlyapparent. Some were operational. It is true we ended up overcoming Palestinianand Syrian resistance. Given the numerical balance of forces, that was aforegone conclusion. But with all the attention paid to the political aims of theinvasion, we’d never sufficiently planned for operating against a whollydifferent kind of enemy than in our previous wars, and on a wholly differentkind of terrain. Huge columns of Israeli armor had found themselves stuck onthe winding roads of central Lebanon, running low on gasoline, vulnerable torelatively small ambush squads. In some instances, a dozen Palestinian fightersor Syrian commandos had halted the best-armed, best-trained, tank forces in theMiddle East for hours on end. Overall, the pattern of past wars had been broken.Even in 1973, once the surprise attacks had been turned back, Israeli forces hadadvanced, attacked and broken enemy resistance. That hadn’t happened here.There was a deeper problem as well. At the start of the conflict, Begin haddeclared, boastfully almost, that this was Israel’s first “war of choice.” Thatwasn’t true. Both 1956 and 1967 were wars of choice. Yet those preemptiveattacks, especially in the Six-Day War, were in response to a sense of strategicthreat that was commonly understood by almost all Israelis. There was a sensenot just of consensus, but national unity. This war was different. It had beenlaunched in pursuit of a specific political vision: a marriage of Begin’s politicalcredo and Arik’s determination to use overwhelming force to bulldoze a newpolitical reality in Lebanon.The findings of the inquiry commission were published in February 1983.They were all the more powerful for the forensic language used. The inquiry didconcede Begin’s point: it was Gemayel’s men who had actually done thekilling. But it said that the Israeli commanders’ decision to allow thePhalangists into the refugee camps “was taken without consideration of thedanger – which the makers and executors of the decision were obligated toforesee as probable – that the Phalangists would commit massacres.” Thecommission added that “when the reports began to arrive about the actions ofthe Phalangists in the camps, no proper heed was taken. The correct conclusionswere not drawn. No energetic and immediate action was taken to restrain thePhalangists and put a stop to their actions.”Arik bore personal responsibility for this, the report said. So did Raful, andthe head of military intelligence, Yehoshua Saguy. The commission208recommended that Begin fire Sharon and Saguy. They left Raful in place, butonly because his term as chief-of-staff was due to end in a matter of weeks. Arikat first refused to go, and Begin refused to fire him. Yet in the end, popularpressure forced the issue. When another demonstration was called in protest atSharon’s continuing as Defense Minister, a right-wing political activist tossed agrenade into the crowd, killing a young Peace Now member. Even Arik wasevidently shaken by the spectre of one of his presumed political admirersmurdering a fellow Israeli for peacefully protesting. Or at least shaken enoughto step down as Defense Minister. He did remain in the government as aminister without portfolio. Still, Begin himself would quit as Prime Minister,retiring into virtual seclusion, about half-a-year later.Like the rest of the senior officers corps, I tried with difficulty to get on withmy own job. I imagined the contribution I could best make for now would be, asHead of Planning, to ensure the mix of forces and weaponry deployed in anyfuture conflict were better suited to the task than in the Lebanon war. But Ididn’t believe that such technical failings or planning lapses, however serious acontribution to the more than 650 Israeli lives lost, were what had mainlycaused the war to go wrong. The central mistake was what had bothered me allalong: the invasion was not a considered response to a particular security threat.It was an overreaching exercise in geopolitics, with sleight-of-hand used toevade the need to make and win support from government ministers and,critically, the public. Even with questions still to be resolved about when andhow to withdraw the thousands of Israeli troops that were still inside Lebanon, Iremember wondering aloud to a few army friends, and to Nava as well, whetherwe would look back in a decade’s time and see the war as “our Vietnam”. Infact, Israeli troops would still be in south Lebanon nearly two decades later,when I had left the military and was about to become Israeli Prime Minister.Even as a two-star general in the kirya, I doubted I would be in a position tohelp fix the deeper issues raised by the war. Any real influence would be inpositions like the chief-of-staff and his deputy; the head of operations; the headof military intelligence. They were the core of the armed forces’ leadership andhad the most regular dealings with senior figures in government.But I’d failed to factor in the effect of the inquiry recommendations. Withindays of the report, Israel had a new Defense Minister: Moshe Arens, whoreturned from his post as ambassador in Washington. Among his first orders ofbusiness was to act on the inquiry’s verdict on Raful and Yehoshua Saguy. Aschief of staff, Arens settled on a choice I suspect most senior officers saw as the209right man for the moment: Raful’s deputy, Moshe Levy. Well over six feet tall,he was known as Moshe Vechetzi. “Moshe-and-a-Half.” He was reserved andsoft-spoken, a safe pair of hands after the trauma of the war.But Arens also had to name a successor to Saguy as head of militaryintelligence. And for that job, he nominated me.210Chapter ThirteenIt was a huge responsibility, and not just because I was suddenly in charge ofan intelligence apparatus ranging from Unit 8200, our sophisticated signalscollection and decryption unit, to the operational units like Sayeret Matkal. Itwas what was at stake if things went wrong: success or failure in war, and thelife or death of thousands of men on the battlefield. It was a price we’d paidpainfully in 1973. And now again, just nine years later, in Lebanon.If I needed any reminder, it was conveniently placed on my new office wall:the photographs of each of my nine predecessors since 1948 as Head of theIntelligence Directorate, or Rosh Aman in Hebrew. All had come to the rolewith talent and dedication. All but three had either left under a shadow, or beenfired. Sometimes this was because of ultimately non-fatal lapses, like a botchedmobilization of our reserves in 1959, or the Rotem crisis a few months later.Sometimes, it was due to lethal failures like the Yom Kippur War and Lebanon.I went to see all eight former directors who were still alive. “You know, Iused to read the newspapers and listen to the BBC in the car to work,” ShlomoGazit told me. He was the director I’d worked for in operational intelligence,the one who’d so memorably made the point that we might endanger Israelisecurity not only be missing the signs of a war, but signs of an opportunity forpeace. He was also one of the few to have left office without blemish. “By thetime I got to the kirya, I already knew 80 percent of what I could about whatwas going on,” he said. “Then I’d spend six or seven hours reading intelligencematerial, to fill in at least part of the remaining 20 percent.” His message,echoed by my other predecessors, was that the job wasn’t mainly about the rawinformation. It was what you concluded from the information, what you didwith it. It was about judgement.The intelligence did matter, of course. For all of Israel’s strengths in thatarea, I knew from my own experience at Sultan Yacoub that there was stillroom to get more, better, and more timely information about our enemies, andmake sure it got to the commanders and field units that needed it. And while thedetails of many operations I approved for Sayeret Matkal and other units remainclassified, we did succeed in doing that – to take just one example, by findingan entirely new way to get intelligence from inside Syrian command posts.Yet above all, I set out to apply the lessons of the 1973 and 1982 wars. Inrereading the official inquiry reports, I saw that the intelligence failings had211been different in each of them. In the Yom Kippur War, the problem was notjust Eli Zeira’s failure to activate the sayeret’s listening devices in Eygpt,deeply damaging though that was. It was judgement. Inside Aman, a kind ofgroupthink had taken hold. It was rooted in a confident, costly misconceptionwhich went unchallenged: that Egypt would never risk another war without anair force capable of breaching our defences and striking towns and cities deepinside Israel. No one pressed the alternative scenario: that Sadat might strikewith more limited territorial objectives and, under cover of his SAM batterieson the other side of the Suez Canal, advance into the Sinai.In the Lebanon war, the inquiry suggested, Yehoshua Saguy did try to warnthe generals, and the government, about major risks. But individual ministerstestified that they hadn’t heard, hadn’t been there, or hadn’t understood, leadingthe inquiry to stress the responsibility of a Rosh Aman to ensure not just that hismessage was conveyed, but that it was received as well.I set out to address both problems. Inside the department, I insisted onmaking all our preconceptions open to challenge. I set up a unit whose solefunction was to play devil’s advocate when a consensus was reached. It beganwith the opposite conclusion and, through a competing analysis of the data, andlogical argument, tried to prove it. I also wanted to be challenged on mypreconceptions. I assigned a bright young major as my personal intelligenceand-analysisaide. He read everything that crossed my desk and could accessany material in the department. “You have no responsibility to agree with any ofthe analysts, or with me,” I said. “Part of your job is to disagree.”In the Lebanon war, Saguy had faced an additional problem. He wasexcluded from some government meetings at which crucial decisions weremade. That was out of his control. I didn’t want it to be out mine. I raised theissue with Begin in our first meeting. “If you want to get the maximum valuefrom your head of intelligence,” I said, “you should make sure he’s there notjust after, but when decisions are made.” Yet he was now only months fromleaving office, exhausted by the war and its aftermath. He waved his handweakly in response, as if to say none of it mattered. His successor, in October1983, was Foreign Minister Yitzhak Shamir. Ideologically, he was cut from thesame cloth: an advocate from the 1940s of securing a Jewish state in all ofPalestine, by whatever force necessary. He’d broken with Begin’s pre-stateIrgun militia to set up a group called Lehi, which went further and carried outpolitical assassinations: the 1944 killing of Lord Moyne, Britain’s Minister for212Middle East Affairs, and four years later the United Nations envoy, Count FolkeBernadotte.“Why are you so strident,” Shamir asked me, only half-jokingly, after I’dinsisted on joining a government discussion and pressing several intelligencematters. “It’s because I’ve read the Lebanon inquiry,” I replied. “I saw whathappened when a message isn’t delivered assertively. I’m not going to be in theposition of making the same mistakes.” He nodded, and didn’t raise it again.In fact, it was under Shamir that I began to get more involved with politicaland policy issues beyond the armed forces. Part of this came with the job ofRosh Aman. There was hardly a major domestic or foreign challenge that didnot have some security component, and no security matter on which intelligencewas not critical. But I also found myself working more closely with leadingpoliticians: mainly Shamir and Misha Arens, who as defense minister was mymain point of contact. Since I was a Labor kibbutznik, we made an oddthreesome. Arens was also a lifelong Jabotinsky Zionist. He had been in theBetar youth movement in America, before going to Palestine in 1948 andjoining the Irgun. In fact, it was with Misha’s personal backing that one of myformer Sayeret Matkal officers – the son of a Jabotinsky acolyte – had recentlytaken his first steps into the political limelight. After a two-year stint as Israel’snumber-two diplomat in Washington, Bibi Netanyahu had become ourambassador to the United Nations.With both Arens and Shamir, I built a solid relationship, based on mutualrespect, and it would deepen further when I moved on to a wider role in thekirya a few years later. They were straight talkers. While resolute aboutdecisions once they’d taken them, they were genuinely open to discussion anddebate. I also sometimes found a surprising degree of nuance behind their toughexterior.The toughness was there, however. One of the first major security crises wefaced after Shamir became Prime Minister was known as the Kav 300 affair,named for the bus route between the southern port city of Ashdod and Tel Aviv.On the evening of April 12, 1984, four Palestinians from Gaza boarded the busand hijacked it back toward the border with Egypt. They told the passengers theywere armed with knives, and that a suitcase which one of them was carryingcontained unexploded anti-tank shells. After a high-speed chase, an Israeli armyunit managed to shoot out the tires and disable the vehicle, when it was stillabout ten miles short of Gaza. One of the passengers had been severely injured at213the start. A number of others managed to escape when the bus was stopped. Butseveral dozen remained inside.I was in Europe at the time, on one of my periodic trips to discuss MiddleEast issues with a fellow intelligence chief. Yet an aide called me with the news.I was several thousand miles away from what happening. But I knew there wasevery possibility Sayeret Matkal might be called in, and my instincts told me weshould proceed with caution. The situation we were facing felt nothing likeSabena, much less Entebbe. Here, we had a single bus. Our troops, and in facteveryone from ministers and officials to reporters and photographers, were in aloose cordon a couple of dozen yards away. That said to me there was no sensethat the hijackers posed an immediate danger. Nor did they seem to have comeequipped for a major confrontation. In place of the AK-47s and grenades we’dseen in previous terror attacks, these guys had knives, and, if they were to bebelieved, a couple of shells with no obvious way to detonate them.I phoned a friend in the command post set up near the stranded bus. He toldme that Misha and Moshe Vechetzi were there. There was a standoff with theterrorists and, for now, it was quiet. The defense minister and the chief-of-staff,of course, did not need my presence, much less my agreement, to order thesayeret into action. But I said: why not wait? Though the last flights back toIsrael had already left, I could be at the command post by mid-morning. Beyondwanting to be present if the sayeret was ordered in, I believed the crisis mighteven be brought to an end without another shot being fired. “I’ll tell them whatyou said,” my friend replied. “But I doubt it’ll be allowed to drag on much pastdaybreak.”He was right. With my Chinese Farm comrade Yitzhik Mordechai in overallcommand, Sayeret Matkal stormed the bus at about seven in the morning. Theyshot and killed two of the hijackers immediately, through the vehicle’s windows.Sadly one of the passengers, a young woman soldier, died in the assault, but therest of the hostages were freed, none with serious injuries.A controversy soon erupted over what came next. The sayeret commandoshad captured the other two terrorists alive and uninjured. Yet barely a week later,first in an American newspaper and then the Israeli media, reports emerged thatthe two surviving Palestinians had been killed after the hijacking was over. Ayear later, Yitzhik Mordechai was – wrongly – put on trial for his alleged part inwhat had amounted to a summary execution. And, rightly, exonerated. Thoughthe full details never became public, the people responsible turned out to be fromthe Shin Bet, our equivalent of the FBI.214Weeks later, Misha Arens mentioned Kav 300 in one of our regular meetings.It was not so much a statement of what should or shouldn’t have happened, but ashow of genuine puzzlement. “How can it be,” he asked, “when there is a realfight, an operation in which our soldiers are shooting, that terrorists come outalive?” The answer, to me, was simple: Sayeret Matkal. From our earliest days,there was an understanding that you used whatever force necessary in order tomake an operation successful. Yet once the aim had been achieved – in this case,eliminating the danger to the passengers – it was over. I am convinced, by theway, that Misha didn’t actually order the sayeret, or anyone else, to kill all theterrorists. I’m equally convinced there was a tacit assumption on the ground thatMisha’s view, and Shamir’s as well, was that this would be no bad thing.* * *Yet by the summer of 1984, Shamir and Arens appeared in danger of losingtheir jobs. Israel’s next election, the first since the Lebanon war, was due inJuly. Just as the trauma of the 1973 war had helped Begin end Likud’s threedecades in opposition, the polls and the pundits were now suggesting thatShimon Peres might bring Labor back to power. There was no prospect he’dwin an outright majority in the 120-seat Knesset. No one had ever done that, noteven Ben-Gurion in his political heyday. From 1948, Israel’s political landscapehad been populated by at least a dozen-or-so parties, mostly a reflection of thevarious Zionist and religious groups before the state was established. Thedominant party always needed to make deals with some of the smaller ones toget the required 60-vote parliamentary majority and form a government.The Likud looked vulnerable. Domestic concerns, alone, were eroding itssupport. Under Begin’s turbo-charged version of Milton Freedman economics,an economic boom had given way to runaway inflation and a stock marketcrash. Lebanon, however, was the main issue, and it remained a runningpolitical sore. The assassinated Bashir Gemayel’s brother, Amin Gemayel, hadbecome president. But Israel still had large numbers of troops there. And whilemost of the PLO fighters had gone, we faced a new and potentially even moreintractable enemy in the south of the country. When our invasion began, thearea’s historically disadvantaged Shi’ite Muslim majority had been the onegroup besides the Christians with the prospect of benefiting. The PLO rocketand artillery bases had disrupted their lives and, worse, placed them in the line215of our retaliatory fire. Some of the Shi’ite villages in the south even greeted ourinvading units with their traditional welcome, showering them with rice. But fora new Shi’ite militia calling itself Hizbollah – formed after the invasion andinspired by the Ayatollah Khomeini’s revolution in Iran – our continuingmilitary presence was anathema. In November 1983, Hizbollah signalled itsintentions when a truck bomber drove into a building being used as our militaryheadquarters in the south Lebanese city of Tyre, killing more than 60 people.Yet the election ended up as a near-tie. Peres did lead Labor back into topspot for the first time since Begin’s victory in 1977. But he got only 44 seats, tothe Likud’s 41. After weeks of horse-trading with smaller parties, he could notform a government. Neither could Shamir. The result, for the first time inpeacetime, was a national-unity coalition, including both main parties. Pereswould be Prime Minister for the first two years, and Shamir the final two. Butthe stipulation of most relevance to me was that one man would be the DefenceMinister throughout the four years: Yitzhak Rabin.My relationship with Rabin went back much further than with Misha. I’dfirst met him when I was a sayeret soldier. I’d interacted with him more assayeret commander, and of course during Entebbe. Now, we began to workeven more closely, and the main challenge in his early months as DefenseMinister was what to do about our troops in Lebanon. We had gradually beenpulling back. We were more or less on the 40-kilometer line which Sharon hadclaimed was the point of the invasion. But even this was costing us lives, withno obvious benefit from controlling a large slab of territory on which nearlyhalf-a-million Lebanese lived. A decision was now reached to shrink our“security zone” further, pulling back to the Litani River. It meandered about 25kilometers north of the border, and in some areas was even closer to Israel.I argued strongly in favor of getting out altogether. I accepted that the“Litani line” might help impede cross-border raids. But especially since theremaining Palestinian fighters and Hizbollah were acquiring newer Katyushas,with a range of up to 20 kilometers, they could fire rockets over the securityzone. My deeper concern was that we intended to hold the area with between1,000 and 1,500 Israeli troops in open alliance with a local Maronite Christianmilitia, called the South Lebanon Army. This would rule out any hope ofworking out security arrangements with the non-Christian majority in the south.I tried to persuade Rabin we should withdraw all the Israeli soldiers andcoordinate security arrangements with the equivalent of a local civil-defenseguard. I suggested four separate militias drawn from the local population –216Christian, Shi’ite Muslim, Druse and ethnically mixed – with the aim ofreflecting the balance in each part of the south.Israeli troops might still have to cross into Lebanon, but only for brief,targeted operations to preempt preparations for a terror attack. “We need toremember what we’re there for,” I said. “We have no territorial claims. It’s toprotect the north of Israel. But it will end up being about protecting our owntroops inside the security zone. It will be like the Bar-Lev line in 1973, fightingfor fortifications we don’t need.” I couldn’t persuade him. I’m sure heunderstood the argument, and he may even have agreed. But when Katyushasnext fell on northern Israel, he as Minister of Defense, not I, would be the one inthe political firing line.Far from straining our relations, our frank exchanges on Lebanon seemed tobuild further trust between us. We worked closely on a range of issues. WhenSayeret Matkal or another intelligence unit planned an operation across ourborders, both of us would present the action to the cabinet. During theoperations, I’d be either in the kirya or a forward command post. Since nearlyall of them happened after nightfall, Yitzhak would usually be back home,asleep, by the time they ended. I would phone him. The trademark voice – slow,gravelly, deep even when he was wide awake – would answer. I’d tell him themission was over and – with only one exception during my period as head ofintelligence – successful. “Todah,” he would say. “Lehitraot.” Thanks. Bye. Hewas never a man to waste words.For one of the very few times I can remember, he phoned me one morning inOctober 1985. It came a couple of days after an especially gruesome Palestinianterror attack. Even with Arafat now more than a thousand miles away in Tunis,much of Rabin’s focus was taken up in responding to, or trying to preempt,Palestinian terrorism. The issue was especially sensitive politically in the wakeof a war in Lebanon that was supposed to have eliminated that threat. For Rabin,moreover, it had become personal. He’d had to sanction an unprecedentedexchange of 1,150 Palestinian security prisoners earlier in the year to secure thefreedom of three Israeli soldiers, including one of our men from Sultan Yacoub,who had ended up in the hands of the radical Popular Front for the Liberation ofPalestine – General Command. Now a group from another of the radical factions,the Palestine Liberation Front, had hijacked an Italian cruise ship called theAchille Lauro en route from Egypt to Israel. They murdered one of thepassengers, a wheelchair-bound, 69-year-old Jewish American named LeonKlinghoffer, and dumped his body overboard.217Rabin’s closest aide, whom I knew well, was aware that Unit 8200 hadintercepts that laid bare the details, and left no doubt the murderers were from aPLO group. He called and asked me to appear on a weekly television interviewprogram called Moked. It was hosted by Nissim Mishal: brash, incisive, and oneof Israel’s best-known broadcast journalists. I pointed out to the Rabin aide thatI’d never done anything like this before. But he insisted it would go well. Hebriefed me on the questions I could expect, not just about the Achille Lauro butthe wider issue of Palestinian attacks, as well as Syrian President Hafez al-Assad’s efforts to re-equip his air force after his losses in Lebanon. So I came tothe interview prepared. I brought audio tapes of the hijackers, and a largephotograph of the MiG-25s which the Syrians were seeking to acquire.My appearance will not go down in the annals of great moments intelevision. But at the time, very few Israelis even knew who I was, and I felt I’ddone OK. I was surprised, however, when Rabin phoned the next day. “Ehud, Ididn’t see it. I was attending some event,” he said. But his wife, Leah, hadrecorded the program. “I just watched it. I should tell you, I think it wasexceptional. You did a great job. It was highly important for us, for the army,and, I dare say, for you.”* * *I was not sure what he meant by saying it might be good for me as well,although a decade later, at the end of my army career, he would play the centralrole into my entry into Israeli politics. It is true that there was also some politicsat the upper reaches of the military as well, especially around the choice of chiefof staff, and that Moshe Vechetzi’s term had only a year-and-a-half to go. But Ididn’t view myself as a serious candidate at this stage. Moshe’s own preferenceseemed to be either Amir Drori, the head of the northern command during theLebanon War, or Amnon Lipkin, the veteran paratroop commander who’d beenwith me on the Rue Verdun raid in Beirut. My own hope was that the nodwould go to any even closer friend of mine: Dan Shomron.I had first got to know Dan well in the late sixties after Karameh, Israel’scostly standoff with Arafat, when Fatah’s influence was in its infancy. Weexchanged impressions on what had gone wrong, and why? When I becamecommander of Sayeret Matkal, we remained in touch, and he took a closeinterest in all of our operations. We also crossed paths in the Sinai in the 1973,218in which Dan’s division was key in staunching the Egyptian advance in the firstdays of the war, later inflicted heavy losses on one of Sadat’s armored forcesand was part of the final push on the other side of the canal. And, of course,during Entebbe. Dan had sharp tactical instincts, a belief in the importance ofusing new technology to gain and sustain an edge, and an openness tounconventional approaches. Faced with a challenge in planning or executing anoperation, he looked at it from all sides, determined to come up with the rightapproach, not always the expected one. In a lot of these ways, we were similar,which was no doubt one reason our relationship had grown closer as he and I –six years younger, and a step or two behind – rose up the ranks.In fact, Dan was the reason I’d made one of my rare forays into kirya politicsnot long after Moshe Vechetzi took over as chief of staff, when Misha Arens wasstill Defense Minister. I acted to derail what seemed to me a blatant attempt byMoshe to advance Drori’s and Amnon Lipkin’s prospects for eventualsuccession as chief-of-staff, and to take Dan out of the contest altogether.I was sitting at my desk on the third floor when the chief of internal armysecurity, an officer named Ben-Dor, walked into my office. “Listen,” he said,“the chief of staff has a right to give me a direct order in cases where he thinksthere is a need for a special investigation. But you’re my commander, so Iwanted to let you know.”“What is it?” I asked.He replied that he had been ordered to “check out rumors that Dan Shomronis a homosexual.”I was appalled. The whole thing stank, on every level, and not just because Iwas confident the “rumors” were nonsense. “Look,” I said, “I have no ideawhether some sub-clause in army regulations allows the chief-of-staff to giveyou orders over my head. But even if it does, I’m ordering you to do nothinguntil I talk to Moshe.” He nodded in agreement. In fact, he seemed relieved. Healso let me know that the source of the rumors was a number of senior officers,including a couple of generals.I went straight downstairs and into the chief-of-staff’s office. Moshe was athis desk, smoking a cigarette. One of the advantages he had in being nearly afoot taller than most of us was that I found myself looking not into his eyes, butup at them. “Moshe,” I said, “Ben-Dor told me you’ve ordered him to investigatea rumor that Dan Shomron is a homosexual.” He said nothing. So I went on.“I’ve told him not to do it. And I’ve come here to convince you that it’s219improper.” This was more than 30 years ago, at a time when being gay, andcertainly being gay in the armed forces, was a much bigger deal than now. But Istill had no doubt at all that this amounted to a witch-hunt.Moshe still said nothing. “I have no idea whether Dan is or is not ahomosexual. After knowing him for years, I have no reason at all to believe thathe is. But let’s assume, for a moment, that he is,” I said. He’s not some juniorlieutenant… This is a man who has risked his life for Israel. Repeatedly. Underfire.” Then, I got to the real issue. “I hesitate to mention this,” I said, realizing,and in a way hoping, that my tone would sound vaguely threatening. “But if youorder this, the very fact of doing so might be interpreted as being a result ofsome other motives on your part. I’m doing my best to convince you to thinkagain. But I want you to know that if I can’t, I’m going from here to Misha’soffice. I’ll try to convince him of the damage from what you’re contemplating tothe whole fabric of trust in the general staff and the army, to the image of thearmy.” Still, he said nothing. He nodded occasionally. He puffed on hiscigarette, put it out, lit another one. It was pretty clear he had no intention ofrescinding his order.Within 20 minutes, was in the Minister of Defense’s office. I spoke to him forabout 10 minutes. Misha listened. At the end, he said: “I understand what you’vetold me.” I never discovered what exactly he said to Moshe Vechetzi. But theinvestigation never happened. I never spoke a word about any of it to Dan untilyears later, after both of us had left the army.The result, however, was that Dan became deputy chief-of-staff underMoshe, the latest step in what was beginning to look like a steady rise to the top.But Misha did make a few concessions to Moshe’s preferred candidates, and thatnow turned out to have major implications for me. It was a long-acceptedpractice that chiefs-of-staff had more than one deputy during their period incharge. In the homestretch of Moshe’s tenure, he was able to bring in Amir Drorifor a spell as his number-two. And early in 1986, he also brought Amnon Lipkinback to the kirya. Amnon was given my job, as Director of Intelligence. But I gotthe post which Amnon was leaving: head of the central command area. Thismeant that, for the first time, I would be in charge of one of Israel’s three regionalmilitary commands, and we were based on the edge of Jerusalem, with securityresponsibility for the West Bank.This was my first direct exposure to the combustible mix of restivePalestinians and the growing number of Jewish settlers. Our main brief was toprevent terror attacks, violence or unrest from the roughly 850,000 West Bank220Palestinians toward the 50,000 Israelis who were then living in the settlements.At the time, by far most Palestinians were not involved in any violence. Theywere mainly interested in getting on with their lives. Yet there were signs oftrouble. The PLO leaders’ relocation to Tunis had reduced their direct influence.But the briefings I got from Shin Bet officers made it clear that some youngWest Bankers had begun trying to organize attacks against police, soldiers andIsraeli civilians. The settlements were also growing in number, and theirresidents were not above acts of violence against Palestinians. Furthercomplicating the situation was the fact the settlers enjoyed the support of keyLikud members in the cabinet: Shamir, who was about to take his turn as PrimeMinister in October 1986; Misha, now a minister without portfolio; and most ofall Arik Sharon. In an astonishing demonstration of resilience anddetermination, not only had Arik remained as a minister without portfolio whenShamir succeeded Menachem Begin. In the coalition government, he hadbecome Minister of Trade and Labor. Most importantly, when he’d beenAgriculture Minister under Begin, he was the driving force in plans to expandJewish settlement on the West Bank, including “blocs” placed around the majorPalestinian towns and cities for the first time since 1967.I had a responsibility to protect the settlers, and I did my best to fulfil it. YetI believed it was essential they understood that they were subject to theauthority of the state of Israel and, like other Israeli citizens, had to operatewithin the law. This was no mere theoretical problem. A Jewish undergroundhad been established by members of Gush Emunim, the Orthodox Jewishmovement set up in the 1970s to advance what they saw as a divinely mandatedmission to settle the West Bank. It had carried out car-bombings and otherattacks in the early 1980s, leaving two Palestinian mayors crippled for life. Theterror campaign had ended only when the Shin Bet caught the cell placingexplosives under Arab-owned buses in Jerusalem.Hopeful of preventing misunderstandings, and ideally building a relationshipof trust, I visited many of the settlements during the early weeks in my new postand spoke with their leaders, a few of whom remain friends to this day. But inthe spring of 1986, we faced our first major test on the ground. In a pre-Passover event organized by Gush Emunim, some 10,000 settlers streamed intoHebron, a city sacred not only to Jews but Muslims as well as the burial place ofHebrew patriarchs and matriarchs. Peace Now activists had planned a counterprotest,but Rabin denied them permission. Still, anti-settlement members of theKnesset and other Israeli peace activists did get clearance to march fromJerusalem to Hebron.221My job was to ensure the security not just of the Gush Emunim march but ofthe counter-demonstrators, and, of course, the local Palestinian population. Asthe rival marches by the Israelis proceeded, I personally delivered warningsagainst any violence, both to the settlement leaders and to a pair of the mostprominent counter-protesters, the peace activist Uri Avneri and Knesset memberYossi Sarid. The event went off without major incident. But the next day,Davar, the venerable Labor newspaper I’d first read as a child in MishmarHasharon, let rip against me. Under a photo of me with Avneri and Sarid – myarm raised, ostensibly in some kind of threat but actually in the time-honoredJewish practice of talking with my hands – the article accused me of siding withthe settlers. If blood was spilled in the weeks and months ahead, the newspapersaid, “it will be on Barak’s hands.”Ordinarily, I would have ignored it. But never in my military career had Ibeen similarly attacked on an issue of any importance. I was especially angrybecause not only was the insinuation unfounded. It was diametrically opposite tothe stance I was determined to take in this, my first regional command. Yes, Iwas committed to providing security for the settlers. But especially in the wakeof the crimes of the Jewish underground, I was determined to ensure theyremained within the boundaries of the law.A few days later, I called Rabin’s aide and asked to see the DefenseMinister, and was told to come see him after Saturday lunch at his home. WhenI arrived, Rabin got right down to business. “Ehud, you wanted to see me?” hesaid. “You’ve probably seen Davar,” I replied. “It was a pretty nasty piece. Itdistorted things.” Yet as he began asking for details, it seemed he had no ideawhat I was talking about. “Ehud, I never read it,” he said. “If you hadn’t toldme, I’d never have known there was an issue.” I assumed this was a white lie,told to reassure me. But years later, when I was Minister of Defense, and thenPrime Minister, I sometimes found myself on the other side of such meetings.An officer or official would come see me because of something said about themin the media, or remarks they were quoted as having made. When I told themI’d been unaware of it, I could see the disbelief in their eyes. By then, however,I realized that under the multiple demands of a senior role in government, youreally could fail to notice events that others viewed as crucial to theirreputations or careers. To reassure them I truly hadn’t noticed, I’d tell them thestory of my meeting with Rabin.* * *222There was another, slightly less noble, reason I wanted to set the recordstraight with Rabin. Though only gradually did I admit this even to myself, Irealized that my experience in a regional command had ticked the one missingbox in the CV of our top generals, meaning that I might indeed be a candidate tosucceed Moshe Vechetzi as chief of staff. At first, I resisted taking the prospecttoo seriously. The job of ramatkal not only carried responsibility for overallcommand of the armed forces. Since our country still faced multiple securitythreats, the chief of staff was, along with Prime Minister and Defence Minister,among the most important, influential and visible positions in Israeli public life.Yet as the April 1987 date for the changeover drew nearer, it was difficult not tothink about it. Not only was I apparently under consideration. To judge frommedia reports, and officers’ smalltalk, it appeared that Rabin had whittled downthe possibilities to two. One was Dan Shomron, and I was the other.Still, it was only when Rabin phoned me early in 1987 that I knew it wastrue – and that I would not be getting the top job. “Ehud,” he said, “I wantedyou to know I’ve decided on Dan to be the next ramatkal. I want you to be hisdeputy.” I can’t say I was surprised he’d chosen Dan. It wasn’t just that he wasmore experienced, or even that, since he was older, missing out on the top jobthis time would probably mean missing out for good. Yitzhak had alwaysvalued Dan’s directness and honesty, his courage and record of service. Aboveall, I’d long sensed that he felt a special debt to Dan: for Entebbe. At a timewhen so much could have gone wrong, it was Dan who had taken a firm,confident, successful hold on the operation.Still, I was now 45. For me no less than for Dan, I knew that if I was passedover as chief of staff, there was no guarantee I’d be chosen the next time. “Irespect your decision,” I told Rabin. “And I have no doubt Dan will be a good –a very good – chief-of-staff.” But I had to consider my own future. “Eventhough I’m grateful for the offer of deputy,” I said. “I think it’s better for me toleave. To open up a new chapter, and do something else in life.”Rabin said he couldn’t accept that. “Come see me,” he said. “Now.” When Igot to Jerusalem, I emphasized again that I had no doubt Dan would lead thearmed forces well. But I said my decision to leave the military wasn’t a merewhim. I had been thinking about my own future and my family’s. We had threeyoung daughters. A few months earlier, we had moved home again, into a wide,one-story rambler with a big yard out back. It was in a new town called KochavYair, just inside Israel’s pre-1967 border with the West Bank, and it struck me223as a good time to settle down in a way that would be impossible if I stayed on inthe upper reaches of the military. Perhaps do something more academic, in auniversity or a policy think-tank.For the first time, politics had some appeal, too, though I didn’t say this tohim. At that point, I had no idea how, or even whether, I might get involved.But since my appearance on Moked, others seemed to assume it might happen atsome stage. Out of nowhere, a leading political journalist, Hanan Kristal, hadwritten a story in 1986 purporting to predict the successors to Israel’s politicalold guard: Peres and Rabin in Labor, Begin and Shamir in the Likud. Itappeared in the newspaper Hadashot. The paper ran side-by-side photos of theostensible future leaders, doctored to look older, who Hanan predicted would gohead-to-head in the election of 1996, a decade away. One was Israel’sambassador to the UN and a protégé of Misha Arens: Bibi Netanyahu. The otherwas me.Rabin listened with patience to my obviously settled intention to leave, butremained firm that I should stay and become Dan’s deputy. In the end, I agreedI’d think things over and that we’d talk in a week’s time. In the meantime, Iwent to see two veteran generals who had found themselves in a similarsituation, mentioned as possible chiefs of staff but never chosen: Arik and EzerWeizman. I saw Arik on his farm in the Negev. He was obviously enjoying hisextraordinary political rehabilitation since the Lebanon war. His expanding girthwas settled into a sofa in the living room. I filled him in on my conversationwith Rabin. “I’m considering leaving,” I said. “It just seems like a long time towait, even if I do get the job after Dan. There’s a lot else I want to do in life.”Arik was probably the general most experienced in being denied the chief-ofstaff’soffice. On at least two occasions, he might reasonably have beenconsidered. But in a career littered with tense encounters with his superiors, itnever happened. “You should stay on,” he said. You’re not that old. It’llprobably be good for you, and the army, to be deputy and then chief.” The onlyfurther advice he gave me was to do all I could formally to commit Yitzhak tomaking me Dan’s successor after his term ended.I visited Ezer at his home in the seaside town of Caesarea. We sat on theterrace, with Ezer’s gangly frame draped over one of the cane chairs. “Ehud, ifyou stay, do you think you have a good chance of being the next ramatkal,” heasked. I said that while nothing could be certain, I thought there was a goodchance. He replied without hesitation: “Then stay.” He’d come close to the topjob, he told me. On the eve of the Six-Day War, when Rabin had collapsed224physically from the weeks of tension, Yitzhak had asked him to take over. He’dsaid no. But he said he’d always believed he could and should have been chiefof-staff– and that if he hadn’t left to go into politics, he still might have got thejob. Then, suddenly, he shouted: “Reuma!” When his wife appeared, he said:“Tell Barak the missing piece in my life, the one I’ve never stopped regretting.”She smiled, and said: “It’s the fact you did not become ramatkal.”I saw Rabin a couple of days later. Though I’d pretty much decided to takethe deputy’s job, I was still bothered by the prospect of serving as deputy for thenext four years only to find someone else being named chief-of-staff. I knewthat no matter what assurances Yitzhak gave me, there was no way of beingsure. He did say he viewed me as the natural next-in-line. But I still felt hesitant.“I want you to consider two things,” I said. The first was a formal decision thatDan would have only a single deputy during his time as chief-of-staff. He saidyes to that. Yet the second request was going to be even more difficult.Heartening though it was to hear I was Dan’s “natural successor”, I asked himto put it in writing. It was not that I doubted his word. But if the surprise resultof the last election was any indication, there was no way of predicting whichparty would be in power when Dan’s terms ended. I wanted him to keep arecord of our understanding in his desk and pass it on if someone else wasDefense Minister by that time. Without a moment’s hesitation, he took out apiece of paper and wrote down exactly what he’d told me about the succession.He shook my hand as I left. “You’ve made the right decision,” he said.And I had, even though Dan and I – and Rabin too – would soon face by farthe most difficult challenge in Israel’s conflict with the Palestinians since ourcapture of the West Bank and Gaza in the 1967 war.225Chapter FourteenIt began with an accident. On Tuesday, December 8, 1987, an Israeli tanktransporter crashed into a minibus carrying Palestinians from the Jabalyarefugee camp near the main crossing from Gaza into Israel. Four passengerswere killed.By the time of the funerals the next day, a rumor had spread, no lessincendiary for being absurd, that the crash had been deliberate – retaliation forthe fatal stabbing of an Israeli man a few days earlier. Crowds of Palestiniansleaving the burials began shouting “Death to Israel!” They hurled rocks andbottles at Israeli security patrols, and blocked streets with burning tires. By thenext day, the violence started spreading to the West Bank, and then to parts ofeast Jerusalem. The headline-writers moved from the word “disturbances” to“unrest” and finally to the Palesitnians’ own name for the most serious outbreakof violence since 1967: the “intifada”. The uprising.At least for the first week or two, we assumed its ferocity and scale wouldsubside. Our immediate aim was to contain it, and limit the human cost on bothsides. Yet when Dan and I began visiting units on the front line of this newconflict, we realized that if it kept escalating, we’d have to find new tools andstrategies to bring it under control. We were in charge of an army trained toequip and fight enemy soldiers. Now, we were asking teenage recruits tooperate as riot police against stone-throwing mobs. Before long, it wasn’t juststones, or even bottles. In one incident in Gaza, a young soldier was surroundedby a crowd of Palestinians and stabbed. He opened fire, wounding two of theattackers. Yitzhik Mordechai, now the head of the southern command, toldreporters that his troops were under “strict orders to open fire only if their livesare under threat.” That was true. But I couldn’t help wondering how long theother part of his statement would hold: that we remained “in control of thesituation.”We did feel in control for the first few days. Defense Minister Rabin wasaway in Washington on an official visit. When his office asked us whether heshould fly back, we said there was no need. But on his return, we quickly agreedthat, as a first priority, we needed to find an alternative to live ammunition inquelling the attacks. Otherwise, we’d be left with two equally bad options:either simply stand aside, in order to avoid killing or injuring demonstrators; orintervene with the inevitable casualties. But one of our most important earlydiscussions was about the broader aspects of the violence. The meeting, held226outside the kirya in a facility just north of Tel Aviv, was Rabin’s idea. Inaddition to Dan and me, it included key members of the general staff and seniordefense ministry officials. The idea was for us to hear a half-dozen academicsand other specialists speak about the political aspects of the sudden eruption ofPalestinian violence.Though he spoke for barely 10 minutes, it was the last speaker who left thedeepest impression. Shimon Shamir, a professor at Tel Aviv University, beganby emphasizing he was not an expert in riot control. Finding a response to theviolence was something we were far better equipped to do. But then he paused,looked intently at Rabin, Dan and me, and said: “What I can do is draw onhistory.” One by one, he cited examples of more than a dozen broadly similarrebellions over the past century, in the Middle East and beyond. “If we weredealing with simple rioting, things might be different.” But he said thePalestinians were, fundamentally, acting out of a shared sense of grievance, andshared national identity. Both were in large part the result of Israel havingcontrolled their daily lives now for more than two decades. “I’m afraid I canfind no historical precedent for the successful suppression of the national will ofa people,” he said. Even when those in power used unimaginably punitive tools:like expulsion, or forced starvation. “Even, as we know well as a Jewish people,extermination.”I glanced at Yitzhak and at Dan. Both of them looked like I felt: in no doubtthe professor was right, yet also aware that, in the short term, we still had to finda way of putting a lid on the cauldron and keeping the situation for gettingirretrievably out of control.It wasn’t as if I’d been unaware of the sense of the anger building amongmany West Bank and Gaza Palestinians, or of their wish to see an end to Israel’smilitary administration and the growing number of Jewish settlements. Frommy time as head of the central command, I also knew that there was a young,activist core intensifying efforts to organize attacks on troops and settlers. Butnone of us had any inkling that something of the scale, longevity and politicalcomplexity of the intfada lay ahead.Partly, this was a failure of specific intelligence warnings. But it went deeperthan that. Sobering though it was, I had to accept that – no less so than beforethe Yom Kippur War in 1973 – I and many others had for too long beencomforting ourselves with a fundamental misconception about our militaryoccupation and civilian settlement in the areas captured in 1967. The roots ofthe myopia went back to the immediate aftermath of the Six-Day War, to the227generally civil, and often friendly contacts, Israelis had with Palestinians at thetime. The local population had, after all, been under other occupation powersbefore 1967: Jordan in the West Bank, and Egypt in Gaza. Assuming ouradministration was less onerous, most Israelis believed a way to coexist couldbe found. And that sooner or later, there would be a land-for-peace agreementand we would withdraw from at least most of the territory. But as the yearspassed, with no sign of a willingness by the PLO to consider any kind of peacetalks, we made the cardinal error of assuming the occupation was sustainable.Yes, there might be periods of violence, but nothing that a combination ofpolitical resolve, arrests, detention and, where necessary, military force couldnot hold in check. For us, and certainly for me, the Palestinians becameessentially a security issue. As one of Israel’s finest novelists, David Grossman,would lay bare in a bestselling book of reportage called The Yellow Wind, abouta year into the intifada, we had ceased to see the human effects of 20 years ofoccupation, not only on the Palestinians but on Israeli society as well.Yet the power of Professor Shamir’s presentation lay not so much in itsnovelty as its succinctness, clarity and, above all, its timing. The rioting hadalready gone on for longer than any of us had expected. It seemed to begathering strength. But until our meeting, we were still looking at it essentiallyas a civil disturbance. That was what began to change, for all of us.What didn’t change was the need to try to bring the violence to an end. Danimmediately put me in charge of looking for alternatives to live ammunition. Ibegan with our own research and development engineers. We also asked militaryattachés in our embassies to talk to law-enforcement agencies, academics, oranyone else with knowledge of non-lethal methods of crowd control overseas.Some of the more far-flung examples seemed promising, at least until furtherinvestigation. South Korea had years of experience in confronting studentprotests – generally, though not always, managing to avoid fatalities. But itturned out this typically involved sending in serried rows of up to 25,000 riotpolice against a few thousand campus protesters. Besides the fact we’d haveneeded an army the size of the Americans’ to field enough soldiers, it was absurdto imagine dealing with dozens of far-flung confrontations on any given day withparade-ground formations of troops.We looked at anything that seemed it might work. In the early stages, mostof the attacks involved rocks and bottles. Our R&D engineers developed a Jeepmounted“gravel gun” that fired stones at a distance of up to 250 feet. Theycould cause injuries, but weren’t lethal. We acquired launchers for pepper spray228and tear gas. We even looked at the possibility of dropping nets over crowds ofattackers. Very early on, we shifted to using plastic bullets. But even thatpresented problems. At a distance of a hundred feet or so, they could drasticallyreduce deaths. But when a young recruit saw hundreds of Palestinians closing inon him, he wasn’t about to take out a tape measure. Over time, we began relyingwherever possible on rubber bullets and, in extreme cases, snipers to target thelegs of the organizers or ring-leaders.If all of this sounds soul-destroying, that’s because it was. Especially withdaily television coverage of the clashes amplifying overseas support for thePalestinians, morale among our soldiers also took a battering. In visits to unitson the West Bank and in Gaza, Dan and I, and Rabin too, heard two oppositeresponses. Some of the young soldiers wanted us to use maximum force. We arethe army, they argued. We have the weapons. Why the hell don’t we use them?But we also heard another view, if less often: why are we here at all?We imposed closures and curfews. We made thousands of arrests. Still,hundreds of soldiers and settlers were being injured, a number of themdisfigured or disabled. By the end of 1998, the Palestinian death toll was above300. In February 1989, an Israeli officer was killed by a cement block tossedfrom a rooftop in Nablus. A month later, a Palestinian knifed several people inTel Aviv, killing one of them. And in July, in the first attempt inside Israel at asuicide attack, a Palestinian passenger grabbed the wheel of a bus on its wayfrom Tel Aviv to Jerusalem and drove it off the road, killing 16 people.* * *By the summer of 1990, although the violence had begun to flag slightly, Iwas feeling more drained and exhausted than at any time since my bout ofillness in the Sinai after the 1973 war. I even briefly thought of leaving the armyafter Dan’s term ended the following year. I’m not sure whether I would havedone that if the situation had not begun to change. But it did, dramatically. Theintifada gradually began to subside, and an entirely new crisis suddenlyintervened.On August 2, against a background of longstanding financial and territorialdisputes, Iraq’s Sadam Hussein sent in tens of thousands of his troops andoccupied the neighboring state of Kuwait. Though the immediate crisis was229nearly a thousand miles away from us, he tried to divert attention from US-ledinternational condemnation of his invasion by threatening Israel. He said “allissues of occupation” were on the table – the West Bank and Gaza, the GolanHeights, and Lebanon – and vowed to “let our fire eat half of Israel” in a futurewar. And we could not assume this was mere rhetoric. Iraq had an arsenal ofSoviet-made ballistic missiles. Called Scuds, they were not always accurate atlong range. But they could reach Israeli towns and cities, and could carry notjust conventional explosives but chemical warheads. Moreover, Saddam hadused chemical weapons: during the Iran-Iraq war, and to kill thousands of hisown restive Kurdish population in the town of Halabja in the spring of 1988.Even the prospect of American military action seemed not to faze him.Hours into the invasion, he moved an armored force toward Kuwait’s borderwith Saudi Arabia, a key US regional ally, immediately prompting the PresidentGeorge Bush’s administration to go beyond mere verbal condemnation. WithSaudi agreement, Washington dispatched a squadron of F-15s to the kingdom –the first step in what would become a huge American land, sea and air force toface down Saddam and force him out of Kuwait.Given the credible threat of Scud missile attacks on Israel, Dan immediatelyassigned me to coordinate our assessment and evaluation of what Saddam waslikely to do in the event of a US-led attack, and what defense arrangements orIsraeli military response would be necessary. We knew we’d be under strongpressure from the Americans to stay out of any war. Israeli involvement wouldbe a political gift to Saddam, allowing him to convert a conflict over hisaggression against an Arab neighbor into a “defense” against “Israelioccupation.” But we had a primary responsibility to protect our citizens.I was now working with a new Israeli government. After Shimon Peres triedand failed to topple the unity coalition in the spring of 1990, Shamir had formeda Likud-led government shorn of both Peres and Rabin. Misha Arens was againMinister of Defense. I began preparing regular, fortnightly reports for him, Danand Prime Minister Shamir. Within days of the invasion, I produced my initialassessment. The bottom line was that we had to assume there would be a war. Itwas impossible to imagine the Americans would commit hundreds of thousandsof troops and simply bring them home again, unless Saddam succumbed andretreated. I was equally certain Saddam would use his Scuds against us. He’dfigure the benefits of trying to bring Israel into the conflict far outweighed therisk of retaliation. But I was “nearly 100 per-cent sure” he wouldn’t usechemical warheads, since that would almost guarantee an Israeli military230response, or an American one, on an incomparably greater scale. It would alsototally isolate Saddam internationally and end any chance of peeling off Arabsupport for the Americans.It was my nearly 100-per-cent caveat that prompted a tense debate within thecabinet. Even if the probability of a chemical attack was microscopic, any riskof civilians being subjected to terror, panic and very possibly agonizing deathmeant that the government had to take precautions. The obvious first step wouldbe to distribute gas masks. But in a series of meetings with Misha and Dan, Iemphasized this was not a decision that could be taken in isolation. By handingout gas masks, we might actually raise the probability of a chemical attack. Wealso had to make sure as a matter of urgency that we had a workable militaryoption to attack Iraq’s Scud launchers.By early November, I was dealing both with plans for distributing the gasmasks and preparations for a possible military operation. So when I got a callasking me to report to Shamir’s office in Jerusalem, I assumed he wanted to talkabout Iraq. “How are things?” he asked. But when I began by filling him in onthe plans to distribute the gas-masks, he interrupted me. “I called you here,” hesaid, “because I wanted you to know that we’ve decided that when Dan leavesnext April, we want you to replace him as chief-of-staff.” Briefly and unusuallytongue-tied, I said: “Thank you, Prime Minister”. The news was made publicthe next morning. A few days later, it was ratified by the government. Therewas only one vote against, from a former chief of staff who was now Shamir’sAgriculture Minister: Raful Eitan.I was one of rare instances in all my years in the army when I took a stepback, appreciating a moment which felt special. It was not only, or even mainly,a matter of a personal ambition fulfilled. More a sense that I was being giventhe opportunity to apply everything I’d experienced and learned in the army,from the day I first joined Sayeret Matkal as an 18-year-old, to improve thesecurity and safeguard the future of Israel. I know that sounds corny. But, whilethe momentum toward war in Iraq almost immediately crowded out everythingelse again, that was truly how I felt.* * *231By mid-December 1990, war was virtually certain. Misha and I had been toWashington in September and agreed with the Americans that, unless we wereattacked by Saddam, we would stay out of it. To do otherwise was clearly notjust against the US-led coalition’s interests. Given the importance of ouralliance with Washington, it was against our inrerests as well. Yet withhostilities obviously getting closer, Misha phoned Defense Secretary DickCheney a few days later to remind him of the quid pro quo: we would be keptfully in the loop about the details and timing of the initial American air strikes.At around five o’clock on the afternoon on January 16, 1991, Misha got a callfrom Cheney. He said “h-hour” would be at seven that evening Washingtontime. Three a.m. in Israel.Though we hoped to stay out, I’d now spent months coordinating andoverseeing preparations to ensure we could attack Saddam’s Scuds if necessary.By far most of the missiles were mounted on mobile launching vehicles, andSaddam was almost certainly going to be firing them from the vastness of Iraq’swestern desert. That meant an Israeli air strike alone wouldn’t work. Wedecided on a joint air and ground operation, built around a newly created airmobiledivision and other special units. A force of 500 to 600 soldiers wouldtake control of key areas and road junctions in western Iraq and start huntingand destroying, or at least impeding, the Scud launchers.We also engaged in secret diplomacy in the hopes of reducing one of theobvious risks in such an attack: a conflict with Jordan, which we’d have tooverfly to reach Iraq. The Mossad had a unit called Tevel, a kind of shadowforeign ministry for states with which we had no formal relations but withwhich, in both side’s interests, we had a channel of backdoor communications.It was headed by Ephraim Halevy, a London-born Israeli who had come toPalestine in 1948 as a teenager. He had built up a personal relationship withKing Hussein, and now arranged for us to meet him at a country residencewhich the king had in Britain.A few weeks before the war, I boarded a private jet to London along withHalevy and Prime Minister Shamir. Shamir had never met the king before andnor, of course, had I. But we didn’t talk about the forthcoming meeting on thefive-hour flight. Instead, Shamir opened up in a way I’d never seen: about hischildhood as part of a relatively well-off family in Poland; his love of literature,and of the Bible. In a way, it reminded me of how my father had spoken to mewhen I was growing up – minus the “well-off family” part.232When we got to Hussein’s country home, we were greeted by animpressively self-assured man in his late 20s who, like Hussein, had studied atBritain’s military academy in Sandhurst and then gone on to Oxford. It wasAbdullah, the king’s son and later his successor, and he explained that he wouldbe in charge of handling security for the talks. For a few hours in the afternoon,we held preliminary discussions, and I presented our assessment of thechallenges and options facing all the different players in the crisis. Then weretired to a dinner at which – despite the royal china, crystal and silverware –the atmosphere was also surprisingly informal.The main meeting came the next morning. Both sides recognized theseriousness of the issues we had to discuss. Shamir began with the one weassumed would be the least difficult. Israel was on a heightened state of militaryalert, prompted by Iraqi reconnaissance flights over Jordan, and the likelihoodthe Iraqis were also hoping to get a look at our main nuclear research anddevelopment facility in the nearby Negev. It was important to ensure this didn’tlead to an unintended conflict between us and the Jordanians. While the kingwas careful to steer clear of any detailed comment on the Iraqi moves, he madeit clear that he understood our concern about stumbling into an Israeli-Jordanianconflict and agreed that we had to avoid doing so.Yet the issue of our overflights, if we needed to attack the Scuds, was moresensitive. We said that if we did have to cross into Jordanian air space, wewould find whatever way the king suggested to make it as unobtrusive aspossible. We raised the possibility of using a narrow air corridor. His responsewas not hostile, but it was firm. This was an issue of Jordanian sovereignty, hetold us. He could not, and would not, collaborate in any way with an Israeliattack on another Arab state. It was Ephraim who tried to find a way around theapparent stalemate. He suggested Shamir and the king withdraw to speak alone,ad they met for nearly an hour. When Shamir emerged, clasping the king’s handand thanking him for his hospitality, he turned to us and said: “OK. We’re goinghome.”He didn’t tell us exactly what Hussein said. In the few sentences with whichhe described the talks on the flight back, he said that, as a sovereign, Husseincould not order his forces to ignore Israeli planes. But he added: “I assume therewill be no war with Jordan.” I took that to mean there might well be an attemptto intercept our jets, with the risk that either we or they might end up with oneof our planes shot down, but that the king would use his authority andexperience to ensure this didn’t lead to a wider confrontation.233* * *The Israeli public’s concern over a possible Iraqi attack was growing by theday, in part because of the precautionary measures we’d taken. We had handedout gas masks to the whole country. Though I’d been concerned that might raisethe prospect of a chemical attack, I still thought a chemical strike was highlyunlikely. The government rightly decided that not distributing the masks wouldbetray a fundamental responsibility to the safety of our citizens. We’d alsoissued instructions about how to equip a room, usually the shelter included innearly every Israeli home, as a cheder atum, or “sealed room” to keep gas fromgetting in. The Israeli media was full of speculation about the likely effects of achemical attack. Many families had begun panic buying of food and othernecessities to prepare for the possibility of days and nights in their sealedshelters.In my report for Dan, Misha and Shamir a few weeks before the war, I drewon systematic analysis by a team of experts in the Israeli air force and made mymost specific estimate yet of the damage conventionally armed Scuds mightcause. We had gone back into historical accounts of the closest equivalent: theNazis’ use of V-1 and V-2 rockets against London in the Second World War.Given Saddam’s primary need to fight Americans, and the likelihood either theyor we would take military action against the launchers, we concluded we’d behit by roughly 40 missiles, and that, based on Britain’s wartime experience, upto 120 Israelis might lose their lives as a result.The first air-raid sirens wailed in Israel at about 2 a.m. on January 18, 1991,almost exactly 24 hours after the Americans began their bombing raids overBaghdad. I was home in Kochav Yair. Like other Israelis, we’d set up a sealedshelter. Though I felt a bit silly doing it, having assured the government Saddamwas vanishingly unlikely to use chemical warheads, we woke up the kids andNava took them inside. I put on my own gas mask. But when I ran out to mycar, I removed my mask and put it on the passenger’s seat before heading in tothe kirya. I wanted to get there quickly enough so that the bor, the undergroundcommand bunker, wouldn’t have to reopened when I arrived. I took a short-cut,through the West Bank town of Qalqilya. That was, to put it mildly, stupid.Although the intifada had become steadily less intense during the build-up tothe war, it wasn’t completely over. Within seconds, my black sedan was being234pelted with stones by a half-dozen Palestinian youths. I thought to myself: thisis nuts. One of Saddam’s Scuds might well be about to hit Israel, and I’ve gotmyself stuck in the middle of a West Bank town. To the obvious shock of thePalestinians, I floored the accelerator and raced toward Tel Aviv. It still tookhalf-an-hour. Misha and Dan, who lived closer to the kirya, were already in thebunker.Ten Scuds hit near Tel Aviv and Haifa that night. It was not until shortlybefore dawn that our tracker units got back to us with formal confirmation thatthere had been no chemical warheads. The rockets caused a half-dozen injuries,though thankfully none was serious. Still, the very fact Saddam had proven hecould hit Israel with ballistic missiles provoked widespread alarm. Well into thenext morning, the streets were almost empty. Misha phoned Cheney andstrongly implied we were going to have to attack the Scud sites. I know that wasMisha’s own view, and it only hardened after another four missiles hit the TelAviv area the next morning. Again, no one was killed, but several dozen peoplewere injured from debris, shards of glass and blast concussion. I visited severalof the areas that had been hit and was shocked by the scale of the damage. Onefour-story apartment building had been virtually destroyed, and there was blastdamage to other buildings hundreds of yards away.The Americans were clearly determined, in both word and deed, to persuadeus not to take military action. They rushed an anti-missile system called Patriotto Israel. Cheney was also giving us frequent updates on American air strikesagainst suspected Scud launch sites. And the Israeli public did seem to grasp theserious implications for the US-led coalition of our taking unilateral militaryaction. Opinion polls suggested most Israelis were giving Shamir credit for theway he was handling the crisis.Still, it wasn’t easy for Shamir to hold the line. This was the first time since1948 that enemy munitions had landed on Israeli homes, provoking not justfear, but a feeling of helplessness. That inevitably led to calls for the army andthe government to do something. I saw his dilemma first-hand at an emergencycabinet meeting after the first two Scud attacks. For Arik and Raful, the politicaleffects on the US coalition were irrelevant. The issue, for them, was simple:Israeli cities had been attacked, and we should respond with any and all forcenecessary. Our air force commander, Avihu Ben-Nun, favored going ahead withthe joint and-and-ground attack we’d prepared, and Misha agreed with him. Sodid Dan Shomron. The key voices of caution were Foreign Minister DavidLevy; Ariye Deri, the leader of the Sephardi Orthodox party Shas; and two235young Likud politicians, Dan Meridor and Ehud Olmert, with whom I hadbecome friendly. They, like me, were concerned about undermining theAmericans’ military and diplomatic coalition.Shamir mostly listened, until very near the end. He then asked Dan Meridor,Misha and me to join him in a separate room. He asked each of us for ourviews. Misha, even more strongly then in front of the full cabinet, argued thatwe could not allow night after night of missile attacks without responding.Meridor reiterated his opposition, stressing the damage we’d risk doing to theAmericans’ war effort by possibly weakening Arab support for their attack onSaddam. When Shamir turned to me, I said that if the government did decide onmilitary action, we were ready. From a purely military and security point-ofview,I said, an attack made absolute sense. Even if we didn’t succeed indestroying, or even finding, the mobile launch sites, putting a military force onthe ground would almost surely lead to a dramatic reduction in the number ofScud launches. But, echoing Meridor, I added that a military response wouldcarry a price in our relationship with the Americans. My view was that, at leastfor now, we should hold off.When we rejoined the meeting, Shamir rapped his hand on the table. In thestartled silence that followed, he said he shared many ministers’ urge to hit backagainst the Scuds. But he said: “At this stage, we’re not going to do anything.We bite our lips and wait.”Three nights later, his resolve was stretched almost to breaking point.Missiles landed in the Tel Aviv suburb of Ramat Gan, and nearly 40 homeswere damaged. A three-story house was flattened. In all, nearly 100 people wereinjured, and three elderly residents died of heart attacks. On the night of January25, another seven Scuds hit. Nearly 150 apartments were badly damaged, and a51-year-old man was killed. The pressure on Shamir was all the greater becausethe Ramat Gan attack had come within range of one of the Americans’ Patriotbatteries. The Patriots had been originally designed not as anti-missile weapons,but to attack aircraft, and they seemed to have been ineffective. Nor wereAmerican air strikes in Iraq stopping the Scuds. Though American jets hadtaken out a few fixed launch sites, they were having no luck with finding anddestroying mobile launch vehicles.Even Shamir now felt that unless the Americans got the mobile launchers,we would have to attack military action. I was sent to Washington along withMisha and David Ivri, a former air force commander, to deliver that message tothe Bush administration. From the first days after Saddam’s attack on Kuwait,236I’d been impressed by President Bush’s political acumen in assembling aninternational coalition including the key Arab states. Through Unit 8200 inmilitary intelligence, we would only very occasionally get verbatim transcriptsof his conversations as he brought first the Saudis and other Gulf states onboard, then Morocco, and eventually even Syria. More often, I’d see thePresident’s deft diplomacy second-hand, through intercepts of Arab leaders’communications with one another. But the picture which emerged was of anAmerican president deftly able to stake out common ground, and commoninterests, with each of the Americans’ growing number of anti-Saddam allies.When we entered the Oval Office on the evening of February 11, Bush wasflanked by Secretary of State Baker, Defense Secretary Cheney and nationalsecurity adviser Brent Scowcroft. Also there was Colin Powell, a general whomI had got to know well, and to like, over the past few years and who was nowhead of the joint chiefs-of-staff. Given the seriousness of our mission, the startof the meeting was almost surreal. The Americans had obviously been told thatI was born on February 12. Since it was just past midnight in Israel, they beganby wishing me a happy 49 th birthday.Yet pleasing thought that was, it became clear there was a disconnectbetween the tension among Israeli government ministers, and ordinary Israelis,back home and the relaxed, self-assured, at times even jovial mood of thePresident and his inner circle. Their primary focus was clearly not on Israel, buton the overwhelming success of their air attacks on Iraq and the approach of aground offensive that they were confident would finish the job. That didn’tseem to change even after a truly extraordinary interruption to our meeting,when one of Misha’s aides passed on the news that a Scud had struck the TelAviv suburb of Savyon, where Misha himself lived. He immediately excusedhimself and went to phone his wife, Muriel, to confirm she was fine. When hereturned, despite their pro forma words of empathy, it seemed almost as if theAmericans thought we had cooked up the entire thing for political effect.Bush did say the right things as the discussion turned to the missile attackson Israel. He told us he understood our frustration, and the pain the Scudlaunches were inflicting. He appreciated our restraint. I have no doubt that all ofthat was true. But the message we’d been sent to deliver clearly wasn’t hittinghome. As politely but as clearly as I could, I told President Bush that while wedidn’t want to do anything to undermine the coalition, unless someone else tookcare of the Scuds, we would have no choice but to act.237The President responded by suggesting we go to the Pentagon and talk ingreater detail about how, for both our countries’ benefit, that could be avoided.When we convened in Secretary Cheney’s office, I delivered the same message,but more forcefully. I felt it was essential not only to make it clear we seriousabout taking action, but that we had the military capability to do so. So I toldSecretary Cheney and Colin what we were planning. I said we intended tolaunch a combined air and ground assault by an air-mobile force and our bestparatroop units. At that point, Colin, who was clearly worried, suggested thetwo of us withdraw to speak “soldier to soldier.” We retreated to his office.Spreading out a map of western Iraq, I went into greater detail, explaining howwe would remain in the Iraqi desert on a search-and-destroy mission against themobile launchers. Colin stressed the efforts the Americans were making fromthe air, and the commitment they’d shown to Israel. Not only had they deliveredthe Patriots. They had allocated their best fighter jets, F-15E’s, to the task oftaking out the Scuds. It helped that he and I had got to know and respect eachother, so it wasn’t an all-out argument. But I reiterated that if the Scud attackskept up, we would have to act. “We will act,” I said. For a few seconds, he saidnothing. But as we headed back to join the others, he told me that only a fewhours ago, he had briefed American commanders on an anti-Scud operation by“allied forces” like the one we were planning. “It will happen,” he assured me.“Within 48 hours.”That task fell to Britain’s SAS. The operation was almost exactly the same asthe one we’d planned. A force of nearly 700 commandos was helicoptered in toIraq’s western desert, equipped with Jeeps and Land Rovers, and anti-tankmissiles and laser targeting capability. They were also able to call on attackhelicopters and F-15 jets if necessary. The operation did not prove easy, quick,or entirely successful. The British troops blocked the main roads and patrolledthem. But they did not find or destroy a single mobile launcher. They ended upin gun battles with Iraqi troops. The SAS lost something like two dozen men.Five were part of a group that got separated from the others and ended upfreezing to death in the February cold. All of the men risked their lives, withincredible determination and bravery, in an operation to secure the safety ofIsrael’s civilian population. And I have no doubt that the outcome, like the plan,would have been almost identical if we had done it ourselves.And it did have an effect. As I’d told Prime Minister Shamir when briefinghim on our attack plan, the very fact of a military presence on the ground madea dramatic difference. The number, accuracy and impact of the Scuds droppedoff steeply. A few missiles kept coming, however. Since we did not yet have a238fully detailed picture of the progress of the SAS action, skeptics and hawks inthe cabinet were inclined to see a glass half-empty. They continued to press forIsraeli military action.In a rare public statement, I tried to reassure the country we did have amilitary option, but also to urge restraint. I pointed out that the number of Scudshad begun decreasing. Though the threat had not been eliminated altogether, wehad “very good operational plans” that would be “carried out when and if theIsraeli government instructs us to implement them.” Yet I added a caveat. “Onthe political level, fingers are itching to carry out operations which, in ouropinion, can remove the threat. But in the complex situation created by this war,neither anger, hurt, nor itchy fingers can replace rational thinking.”The American ground invasion did turn out to be swift and decisive. InIsrael, Scud attacks continued for a few more days. But the last two missiles fellin the Negev before dawn on February 25, among the very few to cause neithercasualties nor damage. We turned out to have been right in our pre-warassessment about the number of missiles: around 40. Fortunately, the casualtieswere far fewer than we’d anticipated. Not 120 dead, but fifteen, only one ofwhom died directly because of a missile blast. The other deaths were the resultof understandable panic: the misuse of gas masks or the gas antidote drugatropine, or from respiratory and cardiac failure. The physical damage,however, was far greater than I’d anticipated. Buildings were destroyed. Carswere crushed. Glass and debris flew everywhere. In financial terms, the cost ranto hundreds of millions of dollars. The true impact was greater: on families whosaw the destruction not only their homes, but a lifetime of prized possessions.For Holocaust survivors in particular, there was the almost unimaginable terrorof having to huddle in sealed rooms for fear of gas. And all Israelis hadexperienced a new sense of vulnerability to a faraway enemy whom theycouldn’t see nor, apparently, stop.* * *I was due to become Israel’s 14 th chief-of-staff at the start of April, barely amonth after the last Scud attack. As the handover drew nearer, I felt fortunate,in a way, to have missed out on the job four years earlier. Not only had Danexcelled as ramatkal. I’d benefited from his range of experience, his judgment,and his trust as well. We had worked together truly as a team.239I was grateful not only to Shamir for naming me chief-of-staff, but to Rabinand Misha. Both had honored the assurance Yitzhak had given me that I’d beDan’s successor. I also discovered Misha had played an even greater role thanI’d assumed. I knew there would be other candidates for the job. The strongestturned out to be Yossi Peled, who was the head of the northern command andpossessed the undoubted credentials to be an excellent chief-of-staff. What Ihadn’t been aware of was the sentiment among some in the Likud that I was thewrong choice politically. Not only had been born on a Labor kibbutz. There wasthe small matter of the article in Hadashot several years earlier, imagining meas a Labor leader going head-to-head in a future election against BibiNetanyahu for the Likud.Yossi was assumed to be more of a Likudnik, and a few weeks before Danleft office, I learned how Misha had rebutted the suggestion I was politicallyunfit to lead the armed forces. He was visiting the north and was taken aside bya group of Likud activists who asked how he could possibly be thinking ofsupporting Barak – a Labor guy – for chief-of-staff. At first, Misha didn’t reply.But one woman kept pressing him.“Do you have children in the army?” he asked.“Yes. I have a son in the Golani Brigade,” she replied proudly.“So let’s assume your son is going on a raid across the border. Would youwant his company to be led by the best commander in the battalion? Or by acommander who’s Likud?”“The best commander, of course,” she said.To which Misha said: “Well we do, too.”240Chapter FifteenOn the morning of April 1, 1991. I got up even earlier than usual, to visit thegraves of the men who had lost their lives in my battalion in the Yom KippurWar. I also went to pay my respects to Uzi Yairi, killed when he’d rushed fromhis desk in the kirya to join the Sayeret Matkal attack at the Savoy Hotel. ThenNava and I drove to Jerusalem. At Israel’s national military cemetery on MountHerzl, we stood before the resting place of Nechemia Cohen, Yoni Netanyahu,Dado, and Avraham Arnan. From there, we went to the Prime Minister’s office.With Dan Shomron and his wife looking on, Shamir presented me with my thirdstar and formally made me chief of staff.For years, I’d developed the habit of carrying around a notebook in whichI’d jot down thoughts on things I thought that the Israeli military, and I as anofficer, could have done better: errors, oversights, and how we might fix them.In the weeks before becoming ramatkal, I’d filled dozens of pages on issueslarge and small I hoped to address as the commander of the armed forces. A lotof them dealt with what I sensed was an erosion of cohesiveness in the army,and, since ours was a citizen military, a fraying of the relationship between thearmy and Israeli society. To some degree, this was inevitable in a country nownearly 45 years old: developed economically and free of the kind of existentialthreat we’d faced in the early years of the state. But the political divisions overthe war in Lebanon, and morale-sapping need to quell the violence on the WestBank and in Gaza had further strained our unity of purpose.Militarily, we were now indisputably strong enough to defeat any of theArab armies, even if they launched a joint attack as in 1973. Our most importantoverseas ally, the United States, was committed to helping us retain thatposition – what both we and they called Israel’s “qualitative edge” – in theinterest of our security and their own. But we were facing a series of new,unconventional challenges. One of them, which had come on to Dan Shomron’sand my radar over the past year, was Iran. Though geographically distant, it waspotentially the most serious in the longer run, as Dan himself warned Israelis inhis final interview as chief of staff. Iran was likely to become even moreassertive regionally now that the Gulf War had weakened its neighbor and rival,Iraq. We also knew, from our intelligence sources, that the Iranians weremaking preliminary efforts to develop a nuclear weapon.241Yet the most immediate security concerns were right next door. In Lebanon,Hizbollah fighters were being armed and financed by the Iranians and by Syriaas well. They were mounting increasingly effective operations against theIsraeli troops we’d left in the security zone. Even closer to home, Palestinianattacks on both troops and civilians, though on nowhere near the scale of thefirst months of the intifada, showed no sign of ending. I had my own views onboth. In Lebanon, I still believed we should pull out all our troops and focus oursecurity arrangements on what really mattered: protecting the citizens ofnorthern Israel. As for the lessons to be learned from the intifada, my view thatwe needed a political dialogue had inadvertently become public, from remarks Imade in Moshe Dayan’s honor at a memorial event a few months beforebecoming chief of staff. “We are currently in a struggle with the Palestinians – along, bitter and continuing struggle,” I said. “A people cannot choose itsneighbors. But we will have to talk to the Palestinians about matters, especiallyabout issues that are vital to them.”Still, I was the commander of the armed forces, not a politician. Though allchiefs of staff had political influence, if only as part of the decision-makingprocess on all major security questions, making policy was for our electedgovernment. My main focus was on how to improve the military’s fitness torespond. I’d lived through, and more recently fought in, all of Israel’s wars. Ifelt that we had yet to apply some of the critical lessons from those conflicts.Leading tanks into battle against the Egyptians’ deadly Sagger missiles in 1973,and a decade later watching whole Israeli armored columns stalled and attackedby small bands of PLO fighters or Syrian commandos in Lebanon, had hardenedmy conviction that Israel needed a leaner, more mobile army, with morespecialised strike units, as well as more easily targeted, less vulnerable weaponssystems. I wanted to shift the emphasis to weaponry that relied on Israel’sstrengths in new technology, invention and engineering. In a sense, this was themacroscopic equivalent of one of the guiding principles of Sayeret Matkal:brains, not just brawn.While cost-saving wasn’t the catalyst, I did realize that a change in strategywould mean a change in how we allocated our resources. When Israel bought itsfirst Mirage jets from France in the 1960s, they cost about a million dollarsapiece. The price tag of an F-16 was now closer to fifty million dollars. The costof a tank had increased tenfold. I wasn’t going to deprive the air force of stateof-the-artaircraft, key to our ability to fight and win a war. But while we stillneeded a strong armored corps, it was important to realize that units like the242new air mobile division we’d planned to use against Saddam’s Scud launcherswere likely to be a lot more important than tank formations in future conflicts.Six days into the job, I called together every officer in the army, from therank of lieutenant-colonel up. I said we needed to remind ourselves of thearmy’s purpose: to protect Israel’s security and, if a war came, to win it. Mybudgetary rule of thumb over the next four years would be simple: anything thatdidn’t directly contribute to that mission was expendable. In fact, I put it a bitmore bluntly: “We need to cut anything that doesn’t shoot.”My first attempt failed utterly. I proposed to close, or sell off, the army’sradio station, Galei Tzahal. Running it cost serious money. If we were going tocut everything that didn’t shoot, it was an obvious candidate. But what I failedto take into account was its popularity with the listening public. Although otherradio stations had opened recently, for many years it had been the only majoralternative to the state-funded Kol Yisrael. It also provided a training groundand employment feeder for future journalists. Galei Tzahal’s alumni includedsome of the country’s top media figures, and more than a few members of theKnesset. Within weeks, a lobbying effort was underway to “save” the station. Iwent to see Misha. He agreed that, from a military and budgetary standpoint,closing it was the right thing to do. But in an early lesson in how differentpolitics were from the army, he told me that politically, it simply wasn’t goingto fly. “Drop it, Ehud,” he said. So I did.Still, I did end up fundamentally retooling the armed forces during my timeas chief of staff. We developed agile new strike forces and high-precision, hightechweapons systems with “stand-off” munitions designed to be fired frommany miles away. In the 1973 war, and for the decade or two that followed,Saggers, and the US-made TOW missiles that Israel acquired after the war, hadthe capability to transform a battlefield. Now, Israeli developers came up withsmall, ground-launched missiles that could take out a tank from five to 10 milesaway, even without a direct line of sight to the target. Of even more long-termmilitary significance, I pushed ahead with developing pilotless drones – socalledUAVs – making us the first army in the world to produce and deploythem.Yet for a security challenge like the intifada, even the most advanced standoffmunitions or UAVs offered no practical answer. The latest stage in theviolence involved knife attacks by Palestinians against Israeli civilians, both onWest Bank settlers and inside Israel. Days after I took over, a 26-year-old fromGaza, wielding a butcher’s knife and shouting Alahu Akhbar, killed four people,243including a kindergarten teacher, in Jerusalem. On the morning of May 24,1992, a 15-year-old Israeli schoolgirl named Helena Rapp was on her way tocatch the bus to school south of Tel Aviv, when another Gazan stabbed her todeath. To the extent Israelis were looking for someone to blame, there wereobvious candidates. The army, the primary defense against the intifada, wasone. The police even more so, since many of the attacks were now taking placeinside Israel. And in ugly rioting after Helena Rapp’s murder, bands of Israelistook to the streets, some of them yelling: “Death to the Arabs”. Still, mostpeople understood that criticizing the army or the police, or going on a rampageagainst “the Arabs” – hundreds of thousands of whom were Israeli citizens andhad lived among us since the birth of the state – would not help. Most, in fact,placed the blame, and lodged their hopes, with the government.By the time of the next election, in June 1992, the combination of Palestinianviolence and the still-traumatic memories of Saddam’s Scuds, left Israelisdoubtful that Shamir could fulfil the most basic responsibility of government:ensuring their day-to-day security. Labor had once again placed its electoralfortunes in the hands of Yitzhak Rabin, following Peres’s several failedattempts to lead the party back into power. Knowing that Rabin had a record ofmilitary command unmatched in Israeli politics, Labor strategists did not somuch need to convince voters as to reinforce their fears and frustrations. One ofthe campaign slogans, a direct appeal to the anger over the stabbing of HelenaRapp, was “Get Gaza out of Tel Aviv!” Labor ended up gaining five Knessetseats, and now had 44. The Likud lost eight and was left with only 32.That meant that my last three years as chief of staff would be with Rabinback as Prime Minister – and, like Ben-Gurion before him, as Defense Ministeras well. He and I had been in touch only occasionally since his departure fromthe unity-coalition government two years earlier. But I had, of course, spokenwith him after my appointment as ramatkal, in which he’d played an importantpart. Though he was 20 years older than me, our relationship had becomesteadily closer over the years, especially when I’d worked with him as DefenseMinister. In some ways, we were alike. We’d both been forged by LaborZionism. We were career military officers, uncomfortable with flights ofpolitical rhetoric and convinced that Israel’s security and its future dependedless on words than on action. In large groups especially, both of us tended to bemen of a few words. Over the next few years, we would become even closer,speaking not only in the kirya or at Yitzhak’s office in Jerusalem, but also, withNava and Leah, around the dinner table at Rabin’s apartment in Tel Aviv.244* * *But there were times of crisis, and high tension, as well. Only five monthsafter the election, Rabin and I faced one of the most painful periods during myentire time as chief of staff. It began with the gruesome death of five SayeretMatkal soldiers during a training exercise in the Negev desert. I’d madepreventing such accidents a top priority. By the end of the 1980s, they wereclaiming as many as 80 lives a year. During Dan’s tenure, we’d brought thenumber down to about 35. But I knew we had to do more. When I’d addressedthe officers after becoming chief of staff, I told them: “Parents are giving ustheir children in order to allow us to protect the country. They know there is riskinvolved. But they expect their children not to be brought home in coffinsbecause of our own negligence, or stupidity.” What happened at the militarybase of Tze’elim in the Negev on November 5, 1992 was not only a reminder ofhow far we still had to go, however. It occurred during a dry run for anoperation unlike any that Israel had ever considered. For that and other reasons,it would erupt into a major political controversy.Though the reason for the exercise was meant to have remained a closelyguarded secret, foreign newspaper reports in the weeks after the trainingaccident made secrecy impossible. We were planning to infiltrate a SayeretMatkal unit into Iraq, and to kill Saddam Hussein.The Gulf War had blunted any immediate threat from Iraq. But Saddam hadproven he could launch missiles into the heart of Israel. We knew from ourintelligence reports that, in addition to his unabated desire to acquire nucleararms, he retained facilities to produce chemical weapons. He was trying toacquire and develop new biological weapons. In fact, the Iraqis had actuallyacknowledged a biological weapons program to UN inspectors, claiming it wasfor “defensive purposes.”The idea for an attack on Saddam had first been raised a year earlier, whenmy former Sayeret Matkal comrade, Amiram Levin, asked to see me. He wasbetween military postings, but had come up with the outline of a plan he feltwould allow us to isolate Saddam during a public appearance and kill him. Withmy approval, he and a small group of officers in the sayeret began workingfurther on the idea, with the initial aim of seeing whether it was really workable.Since Misha was still Defense Minister, I briefed him on what we were doing. I245also briefed Rabin after the election. At that stage, there was no discussion ofwhether we actually would, or should, target Saddam. I asked Misha, and thenYitzhak, only whether such an operation might seriously be considered by thegovernment. If not, I said, we’d drop it. Both replied that we should go aheadwith the planning and preparation. The November 1992 exercise was intendedas a final test of its viability – before deciding whether actually to do it.A few weeks earlier, Rabin and I had talked through the arguments for andagainst. The arguments against it were obvious. Yes, in the past we hadabducted, or even killed, leaders of groups involved in terror attacks. But we’dnever contemplated targeting a head of state. Crossing that line risked beingseen not just as attacking a dictator with a record of ruthlessness and murder athome, and aggression towards Israel, but long-accepted norms of internationalrelations. The arguments in favour began with the fact that Saddam was ameglomaniacally ambitious dictator. He had also fired missiles on our townsand cities. He retained the capability to arm them with chemical warheads,possibly biological agents, and conceivably a nuclear warhead in the future.Both Rabin and I agreed there were two key tests of whether an attack would bejustified: was it was the only realistic way of confronting the threat from Iraq,and would killing him end, or at least exponentially reduce, that threat.Though there was no final decision at our meeting, Rabin was clearlyinclined to go ahead. An Israeli TV program two decades later unearthed asummary of the discussion, written by his military aide. “The Prime Ministerapproves the target... This is an operation we should go for when the probabilityof success is very high,” it said. “Thus, we have to build the operationalcapability in the best possible way, and continue preparations.” In another partof the record, Rabin is quoted as having defined the elimination of Saddam as a“meaningful objective” with implications for “the very security of Israel.” Headded: “I do not see anyone similar to him in the Arab world.”I, too, was on balance persuaded we should do it. In the years since, I’vesometime reflected on what happened with Saddam still in place: the 2003invasion of Iraq, led by the younger President Bush, the tens of thousands oflives lost, the trillions of dollars spent on a war without any clear end, and thenear-disintegration of Iraq. But with the complexities of Iraq then and now,there can be no simple answer to how the situation would have changed if we’dkilled Saddam. Our view, based on detailed intelligence analyses, was that thelikely result would have been a fairly rapid takeover by a few top security andBaath Party figures and that, while the new Iraqi leadership might try to retaliate246with terror attacks, a major military response was highly unlikely. Saddam’ssuccessors were never going to be Zionists. But we were persuaded that hisuniquely central role meant the threat to Israel would be dramatically reduced.I’m much less sure whether the elder President Bush, whose election defeatto Bill Clinton came just two days before our final exercise in the Negev, wouldhave agreed with the attack. After the victory in the Gulf War, Bush haddeliberately stopped short of sending American forces on to Baghdad. He wasalso vice-president, under Reagan, when Israel had bombed Saddam’s nuclearreactor – an attack publicly condemned by Washington. I did ask him someyears ago whether the Gulf War might have been handled differently if Israelhadn’t taken out Saddam’s nuclear program a decade earlier. “What if he’d hada couple of crude nuclear devices,” I said. President Bush smiled in response.He said he didn’t deal with “hypotheticals.”Yet any idea of an Israeli attack on Saddam became instantly irrelevant onceforeign media reports had disclosed the reason for our ill-fated military exercisein the Negev. Inside Israel, the focus, and the controversy, shifted to theaccident itself.The foreign media reports of the operation we were planning provedremarkably accurate. Some of the details still remain classified, but we weregoing to use one of our new “stand-off” weapons systems: a camera-guidedmissile that could be fired from a considerable distance away and, incoordination with one of the Sayeret Matkal soldiers nearer in, maneuvered infor the strike. After months of planning and intelligence work, we wereconfident that we’d found a way to get the sayeret unit into Iraq, target Saddamat an event we knew he would be attending, isolate and kill him with minimaldanger of any other casualties, and get our unit out safely again. The Negevexercise was a run-through of the entire operation. It lasted nearly 48 hours. Andit culminated in a simulation of the missile attack on Saddam.I was there as an observer along with Amnon Lipkin, my deputy chief-ofstaff;as well as the head of military intelligence, the head of operations andAmiram Levin. We assembled at dawn for the simulation of the missile attack.We watched from a few hundred yards away as a group of young Israeli soldierswalked into a wide area in front of us: posing as Saddam” and his entourage.We – and they – knew that this was just the first part of the exercise. In a LandRover more than five miles away, a member of the sayeret strike unit would beconfirming coordinates and, in rapid succession, “firing” two of the precisionmissiles. But this was just to confirm that the targeting system had worked247perfectly. No missiles would actually be shot. This stage was for the telemetry.Once that was done, the soldier-actors would be replaced with wooden targetsand the real munitions would be tested.The young soldiers stated chatting to one another, and milling about,simulating as best we could the circumstances in which we expected to targetSaddam if the operation got final approval. In theory, within a minute, twominutes at most, we would get word that the preliminary mock-firing sequencehad gone perfectly – at which point the artillery-range targets would be broughtin for the live test. But suddenly, there was an explosion. A split second ofsilence. Then pandemonium. There was no need to know, and no time towonder, what exactly had gone wrong, or how it had been allowed to happen. Itwas obvious to all of us that the live missiles had been fired. We sprintedforward. When we got to the group of soldiers, we could see that four of theyoung men were dead. Another was fighting for his life. Several others werealso wounded.A sayeret medic and several senior officers were trying to save the mostbadly injured man, but I knew I needed to get military doctors and medicalevacuation helicopters in immediately if we were to save the lives of the injuredsoldiers. I had a mobile phone, but couldn’t get a signal. I ran toward a slightlyhigher area a few dozen yards away and managed to get through to the kirya. Iissued orders for the nearby training base in Tze’elim and an air force nearBeersheva to dispatch helicopters to treat and evacuate the wounded.We heard the first chopper about 25 minutes later, but it seemed initiallyunable to see us, because it flew on before returning and landing two minuteslater. By that time, a medical team from the base in Tze’elim had arrived. Tenminutes later, two other medevac choppers landed. But the soldier who hadbeen worst wounded could not be saved. After the doctors had been there about20 minutes, I again retreated to the area where I could get a mobile signal, andphoned Rabin to tell him what had happened. We agreed I should come back tobrief him in detail. It was now about 50 minutes since the missiles had hit. Thewounded were all being treated. One of the helicopters had taken off forBeersheva Hospital. Another two, including a heavier Sikorsky transporthelicopter, were preparing to leave. I arranged for Amnon, military intelligencechief Shmuel Arad and me to return to the kirya. I told Amiram to stay until hehad confirmed all the injured had been evacuated, and talk to everyone involvedto get a preliminary idea of why and how the tragedy had happened.248When I got back, we immediately met with Rabin and agreed on the need tolaunch a formal investigation. Rabin then asked me to brief the “editors club”, agroup of about 15 media figures that operated on a gentleman’s agreement thatthere would be no publicity or leaks. He believed we should not make public thefact that I and other generals were there when the accident occurred. At thisstage, we still hoped to hide the purpose of the exercise if possible, somethingRabin knew would be harder if it was known the top military leadership hadobserved the exercise. When I briefed the editors’ club, I did tell them inconfidence that I’d been there. Though not specifying the reason for theexercise, I told them it was for a major operation. The time-honoredunderstanding was that this information would go no further. But it did,presumably at first because of leaks by Israeli journalists, then in a series ofdetailed reports in the foreign press. Even more frustrating on a personal level,some of the Israeli reports insinuated that far from giving the editors the fullstory of who had been at the Negev exercise, that I’d tried to hide my presencein order to protect my reputation or shirk responsibility.Two official inquiries followed: the one we’d agreed with Rabin and astandard army legal investigation. They found the cause of the tragedy to be amix of fatigue after some of the soldiers had spent nearly 48 hours awake,pressure, confusion and negligence. Astonishingly, it turned out the codewordfor the mock-firing of the missiles in the first stage of the exercise was the sameas for the live missiles. Formal charges were brought against two SayeretMatkal officers, and reprimands issued to Amiram Levin and Uri Saguy. I wasalso subject to criticism because, due to the unique complexity of the plan, I’dput Amiram and senior officers within Sayeret Matkal in charge of differentaspects of the preparations. This was viewed as possibly reducing the clarityover who was ultimately responsible for each aspect of the planning. Neither I,nor of course Rabin, had played a direct role in what went wrong in the exerciseitself. To the extent I’d been involved, it was to make sure the medical teamswere helicoptered in, and that the injured soldiers were cared for and evacuatedas soon as possible. But politically, the tragedy at Tze’elim would dramaticallyresurface for both me and Rabin several years later – after I’d left the militaryand was on the verge of joining his government.I was getting to know Yitzhak much better. The Defense Minister’s office inthe kirya was just down the hall from mine. Almost without fail on Fridayafternoons, he’d ask me in to chat before going home. We would sit around alow table in the corner of the room, each of us sipping coffee, or sometimesbeer, and Rabin invariably puffing on a cigarette. He never raised questions of249party politics. But we talked at length about Israel’s immediate securityconcerns, as well as the country’s longer-term challenges in finding its place inmore stable, peaceful Middle East. How, over time, we might manage toextricate ourselves from the escalating violence with Hizbollah; reach a landfor-peacedeal with the enigmatic President Hafez al-Assad in Syria; and findsome form of coexistence with the Palestinians.He also spoke about international politics. I remember one afternoon in thesummer of 1992 when he mentioned the then US presidential candidate BillClinton. He’d met Clinton for the first time in Washington, after two days oftalks with President Bush at his summer home in Maine. Rabin was naturallymore comfortable dealing with Republicans. Almost all his experience in publiclife – as a military officer, ambassador to Washington, Defense Minister andPrime Minister – had coincided with Republican administrations. The irony wasthat he would go on to forge a much closer relationship with President Clintonthan between any previous Israeli and US leader. But his first impression wasmore skeptical. “Clearly, Clinton is very intelligent,” he said. “He issurprisingly sharp politically for someone his age. But also, I fear, a little bit tooslick.”* * *We did not have long to focus on the lessons and implications of Tze’elim.For weeks before the training accident, a crisis had been building in southLebanon, with a sharp escalation of the now-familiar mix of clashes inside our“security zone” and cross-border rocket attacks. Hizbollah was now armed notjust with Katyushas but Saggers, American-made TOW anti-tank missiles andan increasingly sophisticated array of roadside bombs. A combination ofHizbollah attacks and “friendly fire” incidents or firearms accidents involvingour troops meant that Israelis were still dying in Lebanon a decade after theformal end of the war. It was demoralizing for the Israeli public, for the soldierswho we rotated into the security zone and for the government as well. Thedifficulty was that it was also a situation that perfectly suited Hizbollah.In late October, a Katyusha rocket had claimed the life of a 14-year-old boyin the northern Israeli town of Kiryat Shmona. Hizbollah escalated its rocketfire in the days that followed, forcing tens of thousands of residents into theirshelters. Predictably, there was pressure from Likud politicians to hit back hard.250Raful Eitan, who had founded a small right-wing party called Tsomet, wentfurther. He called the attacks “an act of war” and said we should “respond inkind.” We did move troops and tanks to the border. But my view, which Rabinshared, was that a major ground operation would risk miring ourselves moredeeply without fundamentally improving the situation. Hizbollah was the kindof nonconventional enemy I had in mind when I’d taken stock of Israel’schanging security imperatives on becoming chief of staff. It was a small force,entrenched and well armed, increasingly supported by Iran and Syria. Its tacticsrested on quick-hit attacks on our soldiers in south Lebanon. Far from fearingmilitary retaliation, Hizbollah knew that short of a 1982-scale war – and maybeeven then – it would survive. It also didn’t care whether Lebanese civilians diedin the crossfire. In fact, like the PLO fighters who had controlled the area before1982, Hizbollah deliberately fired into Israel from civilian areas.Neither Rabin nor I had abandoned the idea of a large-scale militaryoperation at some point, particularly if the cross-border rocket fire didn’tsubside, which for a while it did. But we were determined that, if and when wedid decide to strike, we would avoid anything on the scale of the 1982 war. Itwould have to be with a clear, finite and achievable goal.That point finally arrived in the summer of 1993. In addition to renewedKatyusha strikes, there was a series of deadly Hizbollah attacks in the first twoweeks of July inside the security zone. Each used what was becoming the tacticof choice: a remotely detonated bomb by the side of the road on which ourmilitary vehicles were travelling, followed by an ambush of soldiers whosurvived the blast. Six Israelis had been killed in all, making it the largestmonthly toll in three years. When I went to see Rabin with our plan for amilitary response, I recognized the risks. It would be the largest militaryoperation in Lebanon since the war. But I believed we could limit civiliancasualties, and that it was the only approach that might lead to a significantreduction in the missile attacks on northern Israel. I began with the assumptionthat, left to its own devices, Hizbollah would have no incentive to stop firing.Since the two Arab governments with the potential to rein in the attacks –Lebanon’s and above all Syria’s – were showing no interest in doing so, we hadto find a way to hold them to account.The operation I proposed was intended to send a message to Beirut andDamascus. It would not be a ground invasion as in 1982. Most of the attackswould be from the air, in two stages. The first would target Hizbollah, both insouthern Lebanon and in the Bekaa Valley further north, near the border with251Syria. We could halt at that stage, in the unlikely event Hizbollah showed signsof de-escalation. But if it didn’t, the air strikes would intensify. The aim was nottarget the nearly 250,000 Lebanese civilians who lived in the immediate borderarea. It was to use our attacks, along with leaflet drops and radio messages, toencourage them to flee north. My assessment was that this would bring pressureon the Lebanese government and, through the Lebanese, on the real power inLebanon, the Syrians. I doubted Damascus would respond directly by tellingHizbollah to cease fire. I did believe they’d be ready to engage with Americanefforts to stop the fighting, and that Rabin and the government could then secureterms we were prepared to accept.On July 25, we began our heaviest air strikes since 1982. Far from producinga sign of a climb-down by Hizbollah, it responded with intensified rocket fire.We escalated over the following 24 hours, but still with no indication of anychange from Hizbollah. So as planned, we expanded our bombing to widerareas of south Lebanon. Sadly, some Lebanese civilians were killed, which I’msure was a much greater cause of concern to us than to Hizbollah. Thankfully,however, the majority fled north. In south Lebanon, this meant that our jets andartillery had much greater freedom of operation against Hizbollah, which hadnow lost its human shields. In Beirut, a government suddenly overwhelmedwith the need to provide shelter for the large number of refugees from thefighting did press Syrian President Assad to help bring it to an end. Critically,the new Clinton Administration, especially Secretary of State WarrenChristopher, reinforced that message.Our military operation lasted just a week. It did not end Hizbollah attacks onIsraeli troops in the security zone, something I think even most Israelis werecoming to realize was impossible as long as our soldiers remained in Lebanon.But the rocket attacks on northern Israel did stop, with very few exceptions, fora period that lasted nearly two years.The intifada, however, had not stopped. Nor, as I knew from my increasinglyfrequent meetings with Rabin, had the search for a way both to control theviolence, and seek out any realistic prospect of a political path to resolving ourconflict with our Arab neighbors.252Chapter SixteenRabin had inherited a peace process, put in motion by the BushAdministration after the Gulf War. But since both Prime Minister Shamir andour Arab enemies had reasons of procedure, politics or principle to resist thetalks, merely getting them off the ground had required the same combination ofdeftness and determination President Bush had brought to assembling hiswartime coalition and defeating Saddam. After a formal opening session inMadrid, the “bilateral tracks” – between Israel and negotiators from Syria,Lebanon, Jordan and the Palestinians – had quickly stalemated and stalled.Yitzhak came to office saying he was not interested in a peace process,which seemed to him a license for endless talk with no set endpoint, but inpeacemaking. Since I had the good fortune to be part of the informal inner circlewith which he discussed the potential opportunities, pitfalls and frustrationsalong the way, I know that he wasn’t assuming we could necessarily achieve apeace agreement with any of our neighbors. But after the twin shocks of theLebanon War and the Scud missiles, he was concerned that Israel would retreatinto a mix of political caution and military deterrence which he rightly believedwas short-sighted. He believed we needed at least to try to seize a “window ofopportunity” with those enemies who were at least open to compromise, if onlybecause we were facing new threats from enemies for whom talk was not evenan option. An increasingly assertive Iran, with nuclear ambitions, was one. Butthe intifada had also thrown up new Palestinian groups grounded not innationalism, but fundamentalist Islam: Hamas in Gaza, which opposed Israel’spresence on any part of “Muslim Palestine,” and Islamic Jihad on the WestBank. And in Lebanon, we were confronting the Iranian-backed Shi’ite militiafighters of Hizbollah.Each of us in the small group on whom Rabin relied for input on the peacetalks brought something different to the mix. In addition to me, there were fourother generals: Uri Saguy, the head of military intelligence; Gadi Zohar, incharge of civil administration for the West Bank and Gaza; my own formersayeret deputy, Danny Yatom, who was head of the central command; andRabin’s military aide, Kuti Mor. Also included were longtime political andmedia aide Eitan Haber, and another trusted political adviser thousands of milesaway: Itamar Rabinovich, our ambassador in Washington and Israel’s leadingSyria expert. But I’m sure we weren’t chosen just for our insights. It was253because we were people with whom Rabin felt comfortable – a counterpoint, Isuspect, to the old Labor Party rival whom he had made Foreign Minister,Shimon Peres. Though the two men had grown to respect each another over theyears, Rabin neither trusted, nor much liked, Shimon. In fact, though Peres’ssupport inside Labor had secured him the foreign ministry, Rabin had stipulatedthat all peace talks would remain under his control.Yet as I’d discover nearly a decade later, when I was Prime Minister, eventhe most carefully planned negotiating strategies were always subject tosetbacks, diversions, or simply what former British Prime Minister HaroldMacmillan once called “events, dear boy, events.” Rabin’s initial plan was notto start with the Palestinians. He did feel it was essential to try to reach apolitical settlement with them. In one respect, the prospects looked slightlybetter than before. Arafat’s political position had been weakened: first by anintifada driven as much by local insurgents as by the PLO in faraway Tunis, andthen by his decision to break with his longtime Gulf Arab financial supportersand support Saddam Hussein the Gulf War. In 1988, as the entry price for aformal dialogue with the Bush Administration, he had also agreed to a statementin which he renounced terrorism and accepted the principle of a two-state peaceagreement with Israel. Still, there remained a yawning gap between the “selfrule”envisaged in the Camp David accords of 1978 and the Madrid conference,and the independent state the Palestinians wanted. Negotiations to bridge it werelikely to be fraught and long.So he’d decided to begin with Syria. President Assad was obstinate, andpublicly opposed to the idea of making peace with Israel. But he’d been inpower for more than two decades and, crucially for Rabin, had lived up to thefew, indirect agreements Israel had made with him. The substance in anyagreement, though politically difficult, was also more straightforward. We knewwhat Assad wanted: the recovery of the Golan Heights, in return for theabsolute minimum level of political normalization with Israel. We knew whatwe wanted: security guarantees and assurances regarding water resources, and afull and final peace treaty. For Rabin, there was an additional attraction inbeginning with Syria: if we did reach a deal with our main Arab enemy, thepressure would intensify on the Palestinians to follow suit.The dramatic turn of events that ultimately forced him to change tack beganin January 1993 in the sitting room of a villa outside Oslo, at an ostensible“academic seminar” convened by the Norwegian diplomat Terje Larsen. Itincluded two Israeli academics with personal ties to prominent Palestinians:254Yair Hirschfeld, and the historian and former Haaretz journalist Ron Pundak.Three PLO officials were there, led by Arafat’s closest economic aide, AbuAla’a. Though both of the Israelis were friends of Yossi Beilin, a protégé ofPeres and our deputy foreign minister, even Peres didn’t know about themeeting until Yossi told him the following day. Rabin knew an hour later. I firstlearned of it from Uri Saguy, after Unit 8200 intercepted Arabic-languagetraffic concerning a briefing the Norwegians had given their Arab contacts. Atfirst, even Peres was skeptical that the paper agreed at the “seminar” – callingfor international aid to the West Bank and Gaza on the scale of the MarshallPlan, and an initial Israeli withdrawal limited to Gaza – would lead to seriousnegotiations. But Rabin authorized follow-up sessions in mid-February, lateMarch and again in April. Our intelligence teams continued to provide detail,and occasional color. Uri Saguy and I even began to use the Arabic shorthand,from the intelligence reports, for the two Israeli academics. The burly, beardedYair Hirschfeld was “the bear”. The slighter Ron Pundak was “the mouse”. Yetthe main political impetus in driving the process forward came from two menwho were not there: on our side, Yossi Beilin, and for the Palestinians, Arafat’strusted diplomatic adviser, and eventual successor, Mahmoud Abbas, or AbuMazen.Since Rabin knew I was following the ostensibly secret talks, we discussedthem often. For quite a while, he remained dismissive. He believed the chancesof a breakthrough were remote. He was also suspicious of the involvement ofPeres and Beilin, whom he called “Shimon’s poodle”. And he deeply distrustedArafat. The PLO had been founded with the aim of “liberating” every inch ofPalestine. The fact that Arafat had agreed to the Bush Administration’s demandto accept the principle of land-for-peace struck Rabin as mere sleight-of-hand.By the third Oslo meeting, it was clear that the Palestinians were open to anagreement that would fall well short of “liberating Palestine”. Still, Rabin wasleery. He tried briefly to return the focus to the stalemated Madrid-track talkswith the Palestinians. Yet when, with obvious PLO encouragement, thePalestinian negotiators stood their ground there, he seemed almost resigned tosupporting Oslo. When we discussed it, he used a battlefield metaphor. “Whenyou have to break through, you don’t necessarily know where you’ll succeed.You try several places along the enemy’s lines. In the sector of the front whereyou do succeed, you send in your other forces.” It was a matter of “reinforcingsuccess.”255“It’s the opposite in this case,” I replied. “In a battle, the enemy is doingeverything it can to stop you. When you break through, it’s against theirresistance. Here, the other side will choose to make it easiest for us in the placeit prefers. If Arafat thinks he’ll get more from the Bear and the Mouse than fromthe other talks, it’s hardly a surprise we’re finding that only Oslo seems to offera way forward.”Rabin did make one more move, not so much in a bid to end the talks in Osloas to slow them down and create a context more favorable for the kind ofagreement he wanted. He shifted his attention to his original peacemakingpriority: the Syrians. In an effort to remove a roadblock to even beginningserious talks, he offered the Americans what they would later call his “pocketdeposit.” He authorized Secretary of State Warren Christopher to tell Assad thatWashington’s understanding of our position was that, assuming all our ownnegotiating concerns were addressed, we accepted that peace with Syria wouldinclude withdrawing from the Golan. The formula was agreed in a meeting inIsrael between Rabin and the Clinton Administration’s Middle East negotiator,Dennis Ross. Rabin didn’t tell Peres or other ministers about it, though ItamarRabinovich did know. I did as well. Since acceptance of the need for awithdrawal had security implications, Rabin and I talked about it in detailbefore Ross’s visit. We formulated the “deposit” together. We used an Englishacronym: IAMNAM, “if all my needs are met.” The point was to convey to theSyrian president that if he addressed our requirements for a demilitarized zoneand early warning facilities; non-interference with our critically important watersources; as well as a full peace including embassies, open borders and jointeconomic projects, we knew the trade-off would be to return the Golan.It was by diplomatic accident that the Syrian overture went nowhere. Thereason even the Americans had called our proposal a “pocket deposit” was thatit was to be kept in the Christopher’s pocket, to be pulled out as an Americanunderstanding of our position if he felt it might lead to a breakthrough. Ourintelligence accounts of the Christopher-Assad talks, however, suggested it hadbeen presented as a straight message from Rabin to the Syrian president, givingit the status of Israel’s new, formal opening position in negotiations.The distinction may seem minor. But for Israel, it mattered greatly. In anyagreement with Syria – or, indeed, the Palestinians – there was bound to animbalance. Both parts of a “land-for-peace” exchange were important. But landwas not just the more tangible asset. Once given up, short of resorting to all-outwar, there was no going back. The “peace” part of the equation was more256difficult. Genuine peace, and trust, would inevitably take years to reach fruition.That was no mere academic problem in a conflict where, for decades, ourenemies had defined Israel’s mere existence as illegitimate. The reason forRabin’s reluctance to have his “deposit” presented as a set negotiating positionwas that it meant dealing away our only card – territory – before the hardquestions about peace had been answered. When he phoned Christopher, I don’tthink I’ve ever heard him as angry. That was not what we agreed, he insisted.He said it had spoiled any prospect of serious negotiations on the peace side ofthe balance. Christopher didn’t agree there had been any real damage, nor thatAssad had failed to understand the context.It might not have changed things anyway, since by this stage, the Oslo talkshad almost completed a draft agreement. In mid-August, Rabin gave Peres thego-ahead to initial this “Declaration of Principles.” It provided for a period ofinterim Palestinian self-government; the start of a phased Israeli withdrawalfrom Gaza and the West Bank with the creation of a Palestinian police force todeal with internal security; and a commitment to reach a full peace agreementwithin five years. In early September, ahead of the formal signing of the Oslodeclaration, there was an exchange of “letters of recognition” between Arafatand Rabin. Arafat’s letter also renounced “terrorism and other acts of violence”and declared invalid “those articles of the Palestinian Covenant which denyIsrael’s right to exist.” A few days later, the signing ceremony was hosted byPresident Clinton in Washington. Thus emerged the famous photo of Rabin andArafat shaking hands, on either side of Clinton, who was beaming, armsoutstretched in conciliation. They say a picture is worth a thousand words. Inthis case, you needed barely a dozen. Rabin’s demeanor, his posture, the lookon his face, all seemed to say: “I would rather be shaking the hand of anyone onearth than Arafat.” Still, the image was on front pages worldwide. The newsstories spoke of a new spirit of hope. Now that these old enemies had graspedhands, surely a full peace agreement was within reach.My feeling, as I watched it on TV in the kirya, was more guarded. I did hopefor peace, of course. I also recognized that the signing on the White House lawnwas just a beginning, and that my role would be to ensure that Israel’s securityneeds were met under whatever formal peace agreement might eventually bereached. And the security omens were hardly encouraging. Despite Oslo,Palestinian attacks were continuing. Hamas, Islamic Jihad, and other dissidentfactions saw Arafat’s concessions as treachery, and were setting out to drivehome that point with violence.257* * *Yet as I approached my final year as chief of staff in early 1994, we weresuddenly confronted by an appalling act of Israeli violence: mass murder,committed by a West Bank settler. Terrorism, no less than the worst Arabattacks on Israeli civilians. The settler was named Baruch Goldstein, aphysician, who lived in Kiryat Arba. One of the first post-1967 Jewishsettlements, it sat on a hill outside the West Bank town of Hebron. At the heartof Hebron lay the burial place of the patriarchs and matriarchs of the Jewishfaith: Abraham and Sarah; Isaac and Rebecca; Jacob and Leah. Since Abrahamis also revered as a prophet in Islam and a mosque had stood on the site fornearly a thousand years, our post-1967 arrangements set out separate times ofworship for Muslims and Jews. Goldstein chose to attack during a holidayperiod for both faiths: Purim for the Jews and the Muslim holy month ofRamadan. He arrived shortly after the Muslims’ Friday prayers began on themorning on February 25. He was dressed in his reserve army uniform and wascarrying an automatic rifle. He opened fire on a group of nearly 800 Palestinianworshipers. He had killed 29 and wounded 125 others by the time several of hisintended victims knocked him unconscious and beat him to death.I rushed to Sde Dov airport in north Tel Aviv, a few minutes from the kirya,and boarded a helicopter for the old British fort near Hebron, used by theJordanians until 1967 and now Israeli headquarters. After visiting the scene ofthe killings, I sought out local Palestinian leaders, to voice my condolences andthe sense of outrage I shared over what had happened, and to urge them to do allthey could to maintain calm. I then went to Kiryat Arba and conveyed the samemessage.Our immediate task was to prevent more deaths, on either side. It was afrustrating, and violent, week. Protests reminiscent of the first days of theintifada erupted around the West Bank, in Gaza, in east Jerusalem and in severalArab neighborhoods and towns inside Israel. While I had no troubleunderstanding the Palestinians’ anger, I also had a responsibility to prevent theviolence spiraling out of control. We turned to the same tools we’d used at thebeginning of the uprising – though with even greater emphasis on the need forsoldiers to use the only the necessary force to restore order, and to avoid causingfatalities wherever possible. We closed off the West Bank. We imposed curfews258on the main West Bank and Gaza towns and refugee camps. We also imposed acurfew on Kiryat Arba and, for the first time, were given the authority to useadministrative detention orders not just against Palestinians, but specific Jewishsettlers. We arrested about a half-dozen leaders of Kach, the far-right, anti-Arabpolitical movement founded by the American Rabbi Meir Kahane, of whichBaruch Goldstein had also been a member. Still, there were repeated clashesanyway – and dozens of deaths as a result – before things finally began tosubside a week or so later.The massacre had made me feel more strongly than ever that ourresponsibility to protect the security of the settlers could not extend to allowingthem to defy the government or the law. The principle would be put to the testwithin a few weeks. A settlement near Hebron, called Tel Rumeida, had beenset up without government approval in 1984. As part of the response toGoldstein killings, Rabin was thinking of closing it down. That prompted anumber of right-wing rabbis to issue a formal religious ruling against any suchaction. Rabin called me in to ask whether it would be operationally possible todismantle Tel Rumeida and remove the settlers. I said yes, by sending in aSayeret Matkal force after midnight, as long as news of the operation did notleak ahead of time. “We’ll take over the area, close it off and get control.”Given the tensions in the wake of the massacre, I did add that I couldn’t promisethat our soldiers would hold fire. “There are people in there with weapons,” Isaid. “If someone shoots at them, they will shoot back.”“Should I do it?” he asked me. Maybe I should have given him an answer.But I didn’t feel it was my place to add to the pressures around what was clearlya finely balanced call, especially since my inclination would have been to tellhim to go ahead. I said it was something only he could decide. “What I can tellyou is that we can do it.” When I left, my sense was that he was sufficientlyangry over what had happened in Hebron that he felt it essential to draw a line –the line of law – over what settlers were allowed to do. But the Passover holidaywas now a couple of days away. I think what happened is that he realized theoperation would not be possible until after the holiday period. By then, he wasconcerned he would have lost the clear political logic for moving against TelRumeida. The settlement has remained in place, a flashpoint in the conflictbetween settlers and Palestinians in the area around Hebron.The wider repercussions, and the controversy, from the massacrereverberated widely. Rabin and his cabinet immediately decided to establish aninquiry, under Supreme Court Chief Justice Meir Shamgar. It would look into259every aspect of the killings – including any failings by the army, the Shin Bet,the police or other authorities that might have allowed the tragedy to happen.The commission interviewed dozens of witnesses, Israeli and Palestinian, in 31separate sessions. I knew early on that the inquiry would throw up difficultissues. I was especially upset to learn that two soldiers and three border guardsscheduled for guard duty at the mosque had shown up late on the morning of thekillings. By the time I testified in late March, the inquiry had heard from a rangeof senior and local commanders and individual soldiers. A picture had emergedof a series of security breakdowns, equipment malfunctions, oversights andconfusion around the site where the murders took place.I did not try to dodge the fact that security lapses around the Cave of thePatriarchs that day had contributed to what happened. In addition to the fact thatthe guard unit was not at full strength until after the murders took place, severalof the security cameras weren’t working. I acknowledged that if the camerasand the guards had done their job, at the very least some lives might be havesaved. Yet I also made the point that this specific act of mass murder wassomething the army could not have anticipated. I told the commissioners toremember that they were judging things after the fact. They knew how thetragedy had ended. In the context in which we were operating, the prospect ofan Israeli settler, a reserve soldier, walking into a place of worship anddeliberately killing defenseless Palestinians had come as “a bolt from the blue.”The commission’s report did not apportion blame to any of the army officersor commanders. But an inescapable conclusion from the testimony of the manywitnesses was that the way in which we’d become conditioned to viewing thesettlers had blinded us to the kind of crime Goldstein had committed. Evenbefore I testified, I’d been disturbed to hear soldiers saying that even if they hadseen him shooting a Palestinian, their orders were not to open fire on a settler,so they wouldn’t have intervened. When asked about this by the commission, Isaid it was a fundamental misunderstanding of our rules of engagement. “In nocase is there, nor can there be, an army order that says it is forbidden to shoot ata settler even if he is shooting at others... A massacre is a massacre. You don’tneed special orders to know what to do.”Yet I also knew that the soldiers’ “misunderstanding” was all toounderstandable. As I acknowledged to the inquiry, the army on the West Bankand Gaza was predisposed to see Palestinians who were carrying weapons aspotential terrorists, especially since the outbreak of the intifada. The settlers, bycontrast, were assumed to be carrying arms in self-defense. One lesson I took260from the massacre was that the mix of Jewish settlers, some of whom felt theywere on a messianic mission to resettle all of Biblical Israel, and restivePalestinians who wanted sovereignty and control over their own lives waspotentially toxic, for both sides. Ideally, the process which had begun with Oslomight start to disentangle it, though I remained far from confident that anythingresembling full peace would come any time soon.* * *Rabin, and even more acutely Shimon Peres, believed it was important topress ahead with the opening phase of the handover of Israeli authority mappedout by Oslo. In May 1994, a draft of the so-called “Gaza and Jericho First”agreement was completed. Once it was ratified, the five-year interim periodwould begin, with further withdrawals and parallel negotiations on the“permanent status” of the territories. In this first step, Israel would transfer civilauthority in Gaza Strip and the Jordan Valley town of Jericho to thePalestinians, and local security would be in the hands of a newly createdPalestinian police force.My primary concern, and my responsibility, was the security provisions inthe agreement, since the Israeli army retained its role in charge of overallsecurity. When I went to see Rabin a few days before the cabinet meeting toapprove the Gaza-Jericho agreement, I told him I was worried that it left roomfor potentially serious misunderstandings, friction and even clashes on theground. There was no clear definition of how our soldiers would operatealongside the new local police in the event of a terror attack, violence by Hamasor Islamic Jihad, or, for that matter, a car crash involving an Israeli and aPalestinian. He agreed this needed to be addressed, although it was clear heintended to do so with Arafat, via the Americans, not by reopening and delayingthe formal agreement.But I had a deeper concern about the entire Oslo Agreement, which I alsonow raised with Rabin. I did not doubt the importance of reaching a politicalagreement, and ideally a peace treaty, with the Palestinians. But I’d now readthe Oslo Declaration in greater detail, and discussed it with lawyer friends ofmine. I’d also re-read the 1978 Camp David framework on which the self-ruleprovisions were based. The endpoint was pretty clear, just as it had been atCamp David: Palestinian authority over the West Bank and Gaza, defined as a261“single territorial unit” under Oslo. In essence, and very probably in name, thismeant a Palestinian state. I wasn’t opposed to that in principle, if it was in returnfor a full and final peace. But the Oslo process meant that we would be handingback land, and control over security, in an ever-larger portion of territory beforewe’d reached any so-called permanent-status agreement. In fact, before we evenknew whether that would prove possible. It wasn’t “land for peace.” It was landfor the promise, or maybe only the hope, of peace. It was the same problemYitzhak had faced over the Americans’ misuse of our “pocket deposit” on theGolan. I realized that, having come this far with Oslo, neither he nor thegovernment was likely to back away from approving the Gaza-Jericho accord.But he did say he thought the points I’d raised were important, which I took asmeaning he was comfortable with my raising it with the cabinet.I spoke near the end of the four-hour cabinet meeting to ratify the Gaza-Jericho plan. The ministers seemed attentive as I ran through the securityconcerns I’d raised with Rabin, even nodding when I compared the agreement’ssecurity provisions to “a piece of Swiss cheese, only with more holes.” But thenI said that I wanted to say a few words which I recognized were beyond myresponsibility as chief of staff. “I’m speaking just as an Israeli citizen,” I toldthe cabinet, “and as a former head of military intelligence.” Referring to specificprovisions in Oslo, and in the Camp David framework agreed by Begin andSadat 15 years earlier, I said it was important for ministers to realize that, eventhough permanent-status issues were yet to be resolved, “you will be taking usnearly the whole way toward creating a Palestinian state, based on theinternationally accepted reading of Camp David.” The reaction to my commentswas a mix of defensiveness and hostility. In the latter camp were ministers fromRabin’s left-wing coalition partners, Meretz, who seemed especially angrywhen I quoted from Camp David. The Prime Minister motioned them for calm.“Ehud had a responsibility to talk about security questions, and we had aresponsibility to listen. As for his additional remarks, they are not a surprise tome,” he said. “He made these points to me, and I said he could repeat them here.It is right that he should raise them.” He said there was no need for ministers toagree with me, but that it was proper that the points I’d raised should be heard.Many clearly didn’t agree with me, or simply believed the Gaza-Jerichoagreement still had to be ratified, which it was. But my remarks did lay thegroundwork for my objection to the next, more far-reaching stage in the Osloprocess barely a year later. By then, I was no longer chief of staff. I was amember of Rabin’s cabinet.262* * *It was still my responsibility to ensure that Gaza-Jericho was implemented,and that the initial withdrawals and redeployments went ahead smoothly. Andthey did. But I also was soon playing a part in a renewed effort by Rabin to usethe momentum of Oslo to achieve peace agreements with our other Arabneighbors: the Syrians, although he knew that would be tough, and first theJordanians. I would always have had some role, by virtue of the need for a chiefof staff to weigh in on security issues. But as Yitzhak had done from the start,he involved me and others in his inner political circle in wider discussions onthe whole range of negotiating issues. Especially after Oslo, he seemeddetermined to keep Peres’s role to an absolute minimum.No peace talks are ever completely straightforward, but the process withJordan was very close to that. The main issues on the Jordanian side involvedensuring a proper share of scarce water supplies; and dealing with Israel’s defacto control of a fairly large area near the southern end of our border. Anumber of kibbutzim and moshavim were farming the land there. But under thepost-1948 armistice, it had been allocated to Jordan. Israel’s priorities were toput in place a fully open relationship of peace and cooperation, and to getassurances Jordan would not allow its territory to be used by Palestinian groupsto launch terror attacks.I was struck by how much more easily compromises can be found if youtruly trust the party on the other side. From my earlier meeting with Hussein inEngland, before the Gulf War, I’d been impressed by the king’s thoughtful andmeasured, yet warm and open, demeanor. That, in itself, inspired trust. But eversince 1967, even in times of high tension, Israel and Jordan had kept open secretlines of communication, and both sides had generally demonstrated a shareddesire, and ability, to steer clear of conflict. The main trade-off in the search fora formal peace turned out to be not too difficult. We agreed to ensure waterprovision, and to accept Jordanian sovereignty over the 1949 armistice area, inreturn for which the king allowed the Israelis who had been working the land tostay in place as lessees. On the final Wednesday of October 1994, near ourborder crossing in the Arava desert, I watched as Rabin, King Hussein, andPresident Clinton formally seal the full “Treaty of Peace Between the State ofIsrael and the Hashemite Kingdom of Jordan.”263Syria was always going to be harder. But Rabin had moved past his angerover the “pocket deposit”, and we began a new effort via the Americans. Ouraim was to lay out a comprehensive, staged proposal to trade nearly the entireGolan for peace. With Rabin, Itamar Rabinovich and the rest of the team, weput together a framework limiting Syria’s military presence on the Heights. Weenvisaged phasing out the restrictions as Syria took steps toward the kind ofpeace which had proved possible with Egypt and Jordan. But indirect exchangesin the autumn of 1994 produced little progress. In December, Rabin proposed tothe Americans that I meet with a Syrian representative, and President Assadagreed. Later that month, I was sent to Washington for talks with Syria’sambassador, Walid Muallem. With the Americans’ Mideast envoy, DennisRoss, as host, we met in Blair House across the street from the White House.I began by explaining the security provisions we envisaged for the Golan,which included early-warning provisions, force limitations and other means ofsafeguarding Israel against any surprise attack. Muallem’s response wasformulaic, almost icy, with no indication he was ready to discuss any of thespecifics, much less offer ideas of his own. But then Dennis led us out into thegarden, where the atmosphere, if sadly not the weather, was a bit warmer. I toldAmbassador Muallem I believed Israel’s issues with Syria ought to beresolvable. Both sides understood the broad terms of an eventual peace. But weneeded a context of trust in which to negotiate. President Assad, and we as well,were always going to be reluctant formally to commit ourselves to a positionuntil each side was be satisfied that the other side understood its core needs.Politically, both sides also faced constraints. “In formal meetings, a record istaken and negotiators have to explain and justify every last word back home,” Isaid. “I think our negotiators can get further in conversations like the one we’rehaving now.” Though Muallem nodded agreement, he did not explicitly say hebelieved that informal exchanges were the way forward. Still, he did obviouslypass back a broadly positive message to Damascus. Before the Blair Housediscussion, our understanding had been there would probably be a kind ofmirror arrangement for a follow-up meeting: between our ambassador inWashington, Itamar Rabinovich, and a high-ranking army officer from theSyrian side. Instead, we received word that Assad wanted me to meet directlywith General Himat Shihabi, who was not only my counterpart as Syrian chiefof-staffbut Assad’s oldest and closest political ally and the effective numbertwoman in the régime.General Shihabi and I met over a period of two days at Blair House. He hadgreater authority, and thus a greater sense of self-assurance, than the264ambassador. But not for the last time in negotiations with Syria, any realprogress was blocked by an apparent combination of misunderstanding andmiscommunication. The discussions were lively. Shihabi had served as Syria’sliaison officer with the UN force set up along the cease-fire line after the 1948war. “Go check with the UN,” he said at our first meeting. “You’ll see almostall the exchanges of fire in the late 1950s were provoked by Israel.” I didn’trespond directly, though I did note it was the Syrians who had tried to divertwater from the Jordan River in the early fifties. “You did it first,” he retorted.So it continued. Only later did we learn that while Muallem had sent back agenerally encouraging impression from our garden talks, and his conclusion thatIsrael was ready for substantive talks, he had neglected to convey ourexpectation that any early progress would occur in informal exchanges. Theresult was probably to raise General Shihabi’s expectations, which made himreluctant to show any real engagement. After a phone call with Rabin after ourfirst day of talks, I became equally cautious. He agreed that we wanted to avoida repeat of our experience with the Golan “deposit”. We did not want to putconcessions on the record before we got an indication that the Syrians weregenuinely ready for peace talks.Still, the fact that we’d established the precedent of a “chief-of-staffchannel” was a step forward. My successor as ramatkal, Amnon Lipkin, wouldmeet again with Shihabi in early 1995.* * *I was confident Amnon was inheriting an army stronger, better prepared andbetter equipped than at any time since the Six-Day War. We also had peacetreaties not only with Egypt, but now Jordan, and none of the substantive issueswith the Syrians seemed insurmountable.But the main security challenges were the unconventional ones. In the longterm, a resurgent Iraq, and very likely Iran, might make strides towards gettingnuclear weapons. There was every sign that Hizbollah in Lebanon; and Hamas,Islamic Jihad and their supporters in Gaza and the West Bank, would escalateviolence and terror. As the negotiations with Jordan were entering their finalphase in early October, a further Hamas attack – this one, a kidnapping – hadbrought home that threat. On Sunday, October 9, Hamas men dressed asOrthodox Jews abducted an off-duty soldier named Nahshon Wachsman near265Lod. Two days later, Israeli television received a videotape showing the 19-year-old, hands and feet bound, pleading for his life in return for the release ofthe founder of Hamas, whom we had arrested and jailed in 1989. “The groupfrom Hamas kidnapped me,” he said. “They are demanding the release ofSheikh Ahmed Yassin and another 200 people from Israeli prison. If theirdemands are not met, they will execute me on Friday at 8 pm.”As soon as we got word he was missing, I spoke to Rabin. Since we assumedhe was being held in Gaza, I ordered a unit from Sayeret Matkal to head southand co-ordinate efforts to locate him with the Shin Bet and the southerncommand. But it gradually became clear he might be much closer to where he’dbeen seized. The Shin Bet got a description of the kidnappers’ car, and found itwas a rental that had been picked up and returned in east Jerusalem. Theytracked down the man who rented it. A little before dawn the morning ofOctober 14, barely 12 hours before the Hamas deadline, Shin Bet establishedthat Wachsman was being held in a village on the road to Ramallah, north ofJerusalem, in a house owned by a Palestinian who was living abroad.The hostage soldier’s ordeal was made even worse by the fact his mother,Esther, was a Holocaust survivor, born in a displaced-persons camp in Germanyat the end of the war. Rabin had been ready to approve a rescue attempt fromthe outset, assuming we could locate Wachsman and come up with a plan thatmight work. But as with Entebbe, he said that if we couldn’t be reasonablyconfident of success, we would negotiate. Now that we knew whereWaschsman was being held, I ordered Shaul Mofaz, the commander withresponsibility for the West Bank, to prepare for a possible rescue.Before going to brief Rabin, I arranged for another commando unit to beginvisible preparations for an operation in Gaza, in an effort to reassure Hamas westill believed he was being held there. Assuming we could retain the element ofsurprise, there were several things working in our favor. The house wasrelatively isolated. It was in an area where Israel, not the incipient Palestinianauthorities, still had control. And Sayeret Matkal had expertise and experiencein this kind of mission. Still, no plan could be foolproof. I told Rabin that thefact Hamas was holding a single hostage meant that if our assault teams weredelayed for any reason at all, the kindappers might kill him before we got in.But I said we had to weigh the risks of not acting. We were no longer trying tofind a missing soldier. We knew where he was. We had a unit ready. UnlessHamas relented, he was facing death within hours. In those circumstances, the266precedent of doing nothing would, in my view, be very serious. I recommendedthat he approve the operation, and Rabin agreed.I attended the final briefing shortly afterwards. I was impressed by thedetermined faces of the men in the two sayeret teams. One of the officers was23-year-old Nir Poraz, whom I remembered from operational briefings in thekirya on previous sayeret missions. Wachsman was being held in a room on thefirst floor. The commandos would simultaneously detonate explosives on threedoors: at the front, on the side, and a third one leading through a kitchen to theroom where the kidnappers had their hostage. The attack began fifteen minutesbefore the Hamas deadline. The explosive charges went off, but only the one inthe front blew open the door. Poraz and his team rushed in, but one of thekidnappers opened fire, killing him and wounding six others. The other teamhad by now made it to the first floor. But despite firing at the metal lock, theyhad trouble getting the door to open. By the time they got in, Wachsman hadbeen killed, shot in the neck and chest.I was in the command post a few hundred yards away. I called Rabin andthen went to see him in the kirya. The head of personnel for the army had goneto see the Wachsman family and break the news to them. Now, we had to tellthe country. Rabin and I appeared on television together. Rabin insisted –wrongly – on saying he bore full responsibility. What had gone wrong, I hadtried to impress on him, was not the decision to attempt the rescue. It was therescue itself. That was not his responsibility. It was mine.The next day, I visited Wachsman’s parents, and tried to convey how painfulthe failed rescue was to me, Rabin and every one else involved. I was inspiredand humbled by their response. His father had told a reporter he wanted toconvey his condolences to the parents of Nir Poraz. “This added loss has shakenme terribly,” he said. He told me he also believed that the Prime Minister hadapproved the rescue using his best judgement on the information that he hadavailable. I spent time separately speaking to Mrs Wachsman. I tried to explainthat in fighting an enemy like Hamas, people who not just threaten to kill buthad proven they had no hesitation in doing so, I’d felt there was no choice but toattempt the rescue. I admitted we’d known the risks. But we’d tried to do theright thing, both for the country and her son. I think she understood, though Iknew that nothing could alter the terrible sadness of her loss. The pain wouldtake years to heal. Some part of it never would. Still, I felt it was important sheand her husband know that we, too, felt their loss. For years afterwards, Navaand I continued to visit them.267By then, however, I was no longer chief of staff. In fact, barely ten weeksafter the kidnapping, I handed over to Amnon Lipkin. I left the kirya proud ofall I had sought to accomplish during my 36 years in uniform. I also realizedthere had also been failures and setbacks, none more painfully fresh than ourinability to rescue Nahshon Wachsman. But I was about to find that the area ofIsraeli life which I now chose to enter – national politics – could be a battlefieldas well. And that when trouble hit, even your allies sometimes ducked for cover.268Chapter SeventeenIt was an ambush. It came in July 1995, six months after I’d left the armyand only days before I was expected to named as Interior Minister in YitzhakRabin’s government. The effect, and clearly the intention, was to threaten mypolitical career before it had even begun – by reviving, and lying about, thetragic training accident at the Negev army base of Tze’elim, during ourpreparations for the operation against Saddam Hussein.When the “story” broke, I was nearly five thousand miles away. I wasaccompanying Nava’s brother, Doron Cohen, on a business trip he was makingto China – and savoring my last few days as a private citizen between my threedecades of military service and my entry into politics. I’d got a hint of the stormthat was about to engulf me a few days before we left for the Far East. It was aletter from a reporter at Yeidot Achronot, Israel’s largest-selling newspaper,with a list of questions about Tze’elim. The thrust of the questions made clearthe case Yediot seemed intent on building: that after the live missile strikewhich killed the Sayeret Matkal men, I had abandoned the injured andimmediately “fled” to Tel Aviv. I probably should have answered the letter. ButI assumed even rudimentary checks would reveal the story to be false. I’d hadsimilar questions from a TV journalist a few months earlier. I did phone himback. I explained the true details of what had happened. I suggested he talk toothers who were there, like Amnon Lipkin, the current chief of staff and myformer deputy, to confirm my account. The story was dropped.But Yediot evidently decided not to let the facts get in the way of the“exclusive” it ran in its weekend edition on July 7. Under a banner headline – anundeniably clever Hebrew pun, Ehud Barakh, “Ehud Ran Away” – it accusedme of having stood by, paralyzed with shock, when the missiles struck and then,as other officers tended to the wounded, rushed away by helicopter.Doron and I were having dinner in Beijing when Nava phoned. She’d justseen the newspaper story, and read it to me. I’d never been angrier. As best Icould work out, it had been concocted from a patchwork of accounts long afterthe fact. To the extent the notion of my “fleeing” had been raised, I could onlyimagine that Yediot’s “sources” had misunderstood the arrival of the firstmedical helicopter, when the pilot was unable to see us and flew on beforereturning a couple of minutes later. But in every single detail about my actionsafter the tragedy occurred, it was a pure and simple lie.269I was not just angry, but frustrated at my inability to rebut the story inperson. Doron and I immediately made arrangements to return to Israel early,which, since there was no direct air connection, meant finding the first flight outthrough London. But before we left, Nava phoned again, almost sputtering infury. She told me that she’d just received a call from Aliza Goren, Rabin’smedia spokesperson. “Does Ehud know about the Yediot story?” she’d asked.When Nava said yes, Aliza told her: “It is important that Ehud knows that weare not going to get involved in getting him out of this.”Welcome to politics, I thought. Rabin knew that the story was untrue. I’d stillbeen in Tze’elim when I’d phoned him about what had happened. He knew I’dremained there to order in the medical helicopters and arrange for theevacuation of the wounded before returning to brief him. Still, he did not say asingle word in public – nor, for that matter, speak to me – as the controversycontinued to gather force.During our stopover in London, I sat with Doron and talked through how toget my voice heard. I telephoned Yoni Koren, the officer who’d been my topaide in the kirya and whom I’d asked to work for me in the Interior Ministry,assuming I now actually got there. I told him to phone Amnon Lipkin and saythat I had expected him to answer the fabrications. Not only had he and I beenat the site of tragedy together. We’d left together, on the same helicopter.Amnon did now issue a statement saying that he knew Yediot’s allegations werewrong. But the story had been allowed to stand for too long. His rebuttal causedbarely a ripple.As I read the latest Israeli newspapers before landing in Tel Aviv, I foundthat at least I wasn’t totally on my own. Reporters had been phoning politiciansfor comment. Most responded like weathervanes, going with the prevailingwind, which was gusting against me. But three Knesset members dissented. Onewas Ori Or, a friend even before we’d both gone into the army, and who hadnow joined Labor. The other two were leading members of Likud: Dan Meridorand Benny Begin, Menachem Begin’s son. All three said they were sure theallegations were false. Did they know the details about the accident, they wereasked. No, they replied, they didn’t need to. They knew me.Now all I had to do was convince the rest of the country. It had been nearly aweek since the Yediot’s “exposé”. It was Yoni Koren who passed on a requestfrom Channel 1 television, our equivalent of the BBC. They were proposing thatI appear with Nissim Mishal, the man who had interviewed me 10 years earlier,at the urging of Rabin’s political aide, on my first TV appearance. For Mishal,270the interview would be a journalistic coup. For me, it was a risk. He was afamously combative questioner, a bit like Sam Donaldson at White Housebriefings, or Jeremy Paxman and John Humphreys in Britain.On the night of July 13, I drove to the television studio in Tel Aviv. Mishalconfronted me with Yediot’s version of events. I was angry, and showed it.“This report was not some night editor’s mishap,” I said. “It was authorized bythe highest levels of a mass-circulation newspaper which is power-drunk,corrupted by power, and manipulative. The so-called ‘story’ was an amateurishand distorted depiction of a chief-of-staff who sees wounded soldiers, turns hisback, deserts them and flies away. That is an evil, vain falsehood.” As Mishalpressed me about the allegation that I had fled, I cited, by name, other officerswho had been there with me and had confirmed precisely the opposite. I had leftTze’elim, along with Amnon Lipkin, a full 50 minutes after the missiles struck,I said. And only after the helicopters had arrived, the injuries had been treatedand the choppers were evacuating the wounded. “A chief of staff’s job is not totreat the wounded, when others are doing that already,” I added. Myresponsibility was “to keep my head, and ensure a safe and speedy medicalevacuation.” That was what I’d done. “I’ve given years of my life to serving thiscountry,” I said. “I have been shot at. I have shot men dead from as close as Iam to you now. How did the hand that wrote these things against me nottremble?”It was certainly high drama. But it was not an act. The way that I’d goneafter Yediot prompted some pundits to suggest my skin was too thin. Onecommentator even said I was obviously not suited to politics. Yet what matteredmost to me was what the rest of Israel felt: people who were not reporters oreditors, commentators or politicians. Opinion polls the day afterwards showedthat something like 80 percent of Israelis believed what I’d said. I think this wasonly partly due to the details of the argument I made. When you’re under suchclose, direct scrutiny, I’m sure viewers have an innate sense of whether whatthey are hearing is the truth.Almost as soon as I’d got home from the interview, the phone rang. It wassomeone who, of course, already knew it was the truth: Yitzhak Rabin. “Ehud,”he said, “you did well. Let’s move forward.”* * *271I later worked out why he’d wanted to steer clear of the whole thing. Yediothad been planning the story for months. It had been ready to go with it earlier,when it was assumed I would be joining the government as early as April. Theeditors had held it to coincide with my arrival as a minister. That, I suppose,was simply what newspapers did. But it turned out that at least two influentialLabor politicians had played a part in steering Yediot toward the story, andurging the newspaper to run with it: Haim Ramon, a veteran party figure andcabinet minister, though he’d quit the government the year before over theparty’s failure to follow through on health-policy reform; and Shimon Shevess,one of Rabin’s top advisers. Ramon would later say that they hadn’t wanted to“kill Barak” as a new minister. “Just fire some bullets at this legs, so he’ll enterpolitics with a limp.” It was a way of cutting me down to size.I suppose that was understandable. I was by no means the only formergeneral to enter Israeli politics. Other chiefs-of-staff had gone on to playprominent roles in government: Dayan, Motta Gur and, of course, Rabin. Butthe fact that I was going directly into the cabinet, and so soon after leaving thearmy, was seen by the Israeli media – and a number of Labor politicians – as areflection of my close relationship with Rabin. Some commentators had evenbeen speculating I might eventually be a candidate to succeed him as partyleader and Prime Minister.It was true that Rabin had personally urged me to join the government,starting with a lighthearted remark only days after I’d ended my term as chief ofstaff. It was at a farewell organized by my staff. The event began with film clipsfrom my years in the army, and a series of entertaining cameos from men I’dserved with and led. Rabin spoke at the end. He said he’d recently been on anofficial visit to South Korea. He’d met the president, who told him he was thefirst Korean leader not to have been an army general. Rabin said he’d repliedthat he was the first Israeli Prime Minister who was a general. Then, smilingand looking straight at me, he added: “Nu, Ehud?”I did want to join his government. But I had been in the army since the ageof seventeen and was now in my early fifties. For my family’s sake, as well asmy own, I had figured on taking a year or two to explore other things. Twooptions appealed to me especially. One was business. My brother-in-law, inaddition to having a successful law practice, was involved in a number ofbusiness ventures, and we’d discussed areas we might jointly explore. But I hadalso received offers from think tanks in the United States.272Despite Rabin’s quip about ex-generals and Prime Ministers, I was surprisedwhen, a couple of days later, he asked me to come see him. He smiled as Ientered his office. Then he said: “Ehud, now that you are out of uniform. Iwould be glad to see you come into politics, together with us, and be a memberof the government.” He said he’d discussed it with Peres. “It’s a jointinvitation.” Though I did, of course, say yes, I also told him I was planning totake some time off, probably at first with a think tank in the US. Though Iwasn’t exactly sure about the legal provisions for officers leaving the army, Ireminded him that there was a set period of time during which they could notenter politics. He replied, a bit enigmatically, that he would be sending an“operative” to talk to me further about the timing.The operative was Giora Einy, a uniquely important figure in Labor becausehe was trusted both by Rabin and Peres. I liked him immediately. Throughoutmy years in politics, I would come to rely on him for his experience, goodhumor and good judgement. He did know about the rules for former armypeople going into politics: there was a 100-day moratorium. “Rabin wants youimmediately,” he said. “I guess we’ll tell him that ‘immediately’ will have tomean sometime in April.” In fact, I told Giora that I’d hoped it would be muchlonger. So we agreed that in order to give me at least a few months in the US,he’d tell Rabin he could get in touch at any time from March 1996 with hisinvitation to join the cabinet. As soon as he did so, I would formally cut my tieswith the military, meaning I could join the government in the summer.Nava, the girls and I left for Washington in January. I joined the Center forStrategic and International Studies and was given the delightfully overwroughttitle of Distinguished Visiting Statesman and Senior Associate. The reason theCSIS had invited me was to write and speak on the Middle East. About twomonths in, I presented a paper. I began by welcoming the constellation ofchanges which seemed to offer at least an opportunity for stability, security andpeace: the unravelling of the Soviet Union; the Oslo Agreement; the peacetreaty with Jordan and the continuing talks with the Syrians. As long as we hadpartners committed to reaching an agreement, I believed Israel would be ready“to consider major compromise and to take upon ourselves significantcalculated risks.” But with a frankness which seems surprising even to me inretrospect, I delivered much the same message as I had to ministers on thepotential dangers inherent in the Oslo process as we moved forward.I pointed out that Arafat had made no move to rein in groups like Hamas,and that more Israelis had actually been killed by terror since Oslo than in the273year before. “We signed a three-phase contract with Arafat,” I said. “Try toimagine one of you selling me three pieces of property. If I fail to pay for thefirst one on time, you might not immediately cancel the contract. You mighteven be ready to help me collect the necessary money. But you would neverproceed to deliver the second property before I paid for the first one, unless youwere a fool.” I also warned of longer-term dangers: “terrorism, radical Islamicfundamentalism, the proliferation of surface-to-surface missiles and weapons ofmass destruction, and threats to the long-term stability of the more pragmaticArab regimes.” I singled out Iran, because it was determined to export its brandof fundamentalism Islam, sponsor terror and develop a nuclear weapon.I also accompanied CSIS colleagues on speaking engagements to otherAmerican cities. I was about to board a flight to Seattle in April when I got amessage saying Rabin wanted to talk to me. After we took off, I used the onboardphone facility and, with a swipe of a credit card, was soon on the line tothe Prime Minister. Since the exchange was in Hebrew, I’m fairly sure anyoneoverhearing me had no idea what we were talking about. “I need you to comeback as soon as possible,” Rabin said. I already knew, from Giora, that he wasanxious to find a long-term replacement as Minister of Interior. The leadinglight in the Sephardi religious party Shas, Arye Deri, had had to leave the postunder allegations of bribe-taking. After Rabin had taken on the portfolio himselffour 18 months, he had placed Labor’s Uzi Baram there, but only as atemporary arrangement. I didn’t feel I could refuse outright. But I reminded himthat under army rules, “as soon as possible” still meant another 100 days. Andideally, I said I wanted to finish the best part of a year in Washington. I askedwhether it would be possible to join the cabinet in the middle of Novemberinstead. “What difference will a few more months make?”Rabin said he needed me now, and that mid-November would be too late.“Ehud, in politics, you can never predict what will happen by then.” Neither ofus could have known how terribly prophetic his words would turn out to be.* * *I was not only new to cabinet politics. I wasn’t even a member of theKnesset. But in addition to naming me as head of a major ministry – in chargeof everything from citizenship and immigration to planning, zoning, and thefunding of local government – Rabin made me a member of his “inner cabinet”274on security and foreign affairs. Barely three weeks after I joined thegovernment, we had to decide on the most important agreement with thePalestinians since Oslo. Dubbed Oslo II, it involved a major transfer ofauthority and territory. The process would begin with our pulling out from morethan a quarter of the West Bank, including the major Palestinian towns andsome 450 smaller towns and villages. After that, there would be three furtherredeployment phases, at six-month intervals, in so-called “Area C” of the WestBank – a mix of unpopulated land, settlements and a number of points we’ddesignated as strategically important. Under Oslo, and its parent agreementCamp David, it was all part of ensuring the Palestinians could exercise their“legitimate rights” in the “single territorial entity” of the West Bank and Gaza –in other words, a path to statehood. But only by the time the final three phasesof redeployment were complete were we required to begin the “permanentstatus”talks on issues like land and borders, Israeli settlements, the future ofJerusalem: the real core of a peace agreement.By the time I joined the discussions on Oslo II in August 1995, the mainpoints had already been agreed. Rabin was in favor, as were virtually all thecabinet ministers. Whatever scant influence I might exercise would have tocome at the decisive cabinet meeting, set for August 13. From the objections I’draised to the Gaza-Jericho deal as chief of staff, Rabin knew I’d be concernednot only to ensure the security provisions avoided potential misunderstandingson the ground, but about the longer-term implications, especially since the scaleof the Israeli withdrawals was much larger this time. In fact, the agreementcould be interpreted as requiring us to cede Palestinian control over virtually allof Gaza and West Bank by the end of the third redeployment phase –quitepossibly before talks on the permanent-status questions had even begun.I went to see Rabin a few days before the cabinet vote. I explained why Ithought the agreement was flawed. I argued we should either delay some of ourredeployments or bring the permanent-status negotiations forward. He listenedto me. He barely spoke. He knew I’d be against Oslo II, and knew the reasonswhy. But we both knew something else: having been brought into governmentby Rabin, I would be expected, on a vote of this importance, to be in his corner.The cabinet vote wasn’t happening in a political vacuum. Likud’s defeat in1992 had meant the end of Yitzhak Shamir’s leadership. The new Likud leaderwas the former Sayeret Matkal officer with whom I’d shared a newspaper coverin 1986 predicting that he and I would end up facing each other at the ballotbox: Bibi Netanyahu. Positioning himself as the fresh young face of Israeli275politics and vowing to defeat Labor, Bibi had seized on Oslo II to accuse Rabinof “surrendering” to Arafat, and by extension to Hamas terrorism.I couldn’t sleep the night before the cabinet meeting. I had no desire to bedisloyal to Yitzhak. I certainly didn’t want to add to the pressures on him, muchless add further impetus to Bibi’s rhetorical onslaughts. But the more I thoughtof it, the less I could see the point of entering politics if I wasn’t going to votewith my conscience. The cabinet meeting lasted for hours. It was near the endthat I spoke, calmly and in detail, about my reservations. Many of the ministersseemed barely to be listening. They’d long since made up their minds. But whenI’d finished, two ministers passed me notes. Both said the same thing: Ehud,don’t do anything crazy. Don’t vote against it. So I didn’t. But I couldn’t votefor it either. I abstained.Rabin was bitterly upset. He didn’t tell me directly. But when the meetingbroke up, his longtime political aide, Eitan Haber, took me aside to tell me howthat what I’d done was “terrible”. Giora Einy came to see me the next day, afterRabin had phoned him in a mix of anger and disbelief. “What is this,” he’dasked Giora. “The first big vote, and Barak abstains?” It wasn’t until a fewweeks later that Rabin and I spoke alone, over a beer in his office. He didn’traise the question of the vote. So I did. “Yitzhak, I understand it’s caused youpain,” I said. “But I think you understand I was acting out of what is genuinelymy belief and my position.” I asked him why, unlike the other ministers, hehadn’t passed me a note before we’d cast our votes. “Ehud,” he said, “I neverwrite requests or orders on how to vote. Ministers must vote according to theirconscience.” He didn’t mean what I’d done was right. He meant my conscienceshould have told me, given the importance of the issue, to vote yes.The tension between us did ease somewhat in the weeks ahead. But thetension around us escalated after the cabinet vote. Opinion polls showed thecountry split down the middle. Settlement leaders and extremist rabbis launcheda campaign against the legitimacy of the government, and of Rabin as PrimeMinister. Right-wing religious leaders issued a decree rejecting the plannedredeployments on the West Bank – “the evacuation of bases and their transfer tothe Gentiles” – as biblically prohibited. A new group called Zu Artzenuorganized a campaign of civil disobedience to try to bring the governmentdown.The sheer venom hit home during a pair of events I attended with Rabin, toaward of the status of “city” to towns which had crossed the required thresholdin population and economic activity. By tradition, this was marked by a276ceremony with both the Interior Minister and the Prime Minister present. Thefirst was in Ofakim, near where I’d worked in the fields with Yigal Garber inthe 1950s. Shortly after we arrived, a group of protestors started shouting atRabin. Manyac, they yelled, “maniac”. Boged: traitor. At the second event, nearHaifa, busloads of protestors from right-wing religious schools shouted abuse atRabin when he rose to speak.As the Knesset vote on Oslo II approached, the hatred reached new levels.The day before, thousands of protesters packed into Jerusalem’s Zion Square.Some shouted “Death to Rabin!” Others burned pictures of him, or passed outphotos of him dressed in an Arab keffiyeh, or even a Nazi uniform. Bibi hadpublicly declared that opposition to the agreement must remain within thebounds of the law. Yet as he addressed the baying mob from a hotel balcony, heuttered not a single word of reproach. In fact, he called Rabin’s government“illegitimate”, because it relied in part on the votes of Israeli Arab Knessetmembers.The day of the vote, the mob descended on the Knesset. Rabin had called agovernment meeting beforehand. When I got there, the crowd was so large thatI was taken in through a special security entrance away from the front of thebuilding. But the Housing Minister, Binyamin Ben-Eliezer, arrived late andtried to drive through the main gate. Protestors pounded furiously on his car andtried to break the windows. Our meeting had already begun when he arrived. Hehad spent nearly as long as I had in the army, but he was shaken. InterruptingRabin, he banged his fist on the table. “I’ve been on battlefields,” he said. “I’vebeen shot at. I know how to read a situation. I saw their faces. It’s insane! It isbeyond anything rational, this kind of hatred.” Pounding the table again, heshouted: “I warn you. It will end with a murder! It will end with a murder!”Rabin motioned for calm. He, too, was concerned by the rhetorical violence,even more so now that it was becoming physical violence. But as he would tellan interviewer a few weeks later, he simply didn’t believe that “a Jew will kill aJew.” Nor, at that point, did I.After the Knesset vote, which passed by a margin of 61 to 59, plans gotunderway for a rally in defense of the peace process, and against the tide ofhatred on the right. It was the idea of two people: Shlomo Lahat, a Likud mayorof Tel Aviv who now backed Oslo, and a French Jewish businessman namedJean Frydman, a friend of Shimon Peres whom I had got to know and like. Butin several of the early planning discussions in which I was involved, Rabin wasagainst the rally, which was to be held in the huge Kings of Israel Square in the277heart of Tel Aviv. He was worried that not enough people would show up, andthat those who did would be from the left: Meretz, not Labor, people who wouldbe there mainly to criticize him for not going far, or quickly, enough in pullingout of the West Bank.In the end, he was persuaded it should go ahead. In fact, by the time the dateapproached – Saturday evening, November 4 – he seemed to be feeling moreenergized, and upbeat. I wouldn’t be there, because I was going to New York asthe government’s representative at a fundraising dinner that same night for theYad Vashem Holocaust memorial. A few hours before leaving, however, I metwith Rabin. We’d found a 15-minute window in his schedule, but we ended uptalking for an hour. He said he knew that, in some ways, the difficultiessurrounding the peace talks were likely to get worse. Hamas would not abandonterror. The kind of intolerance we were seeing from the right wing was notgoing to go away. He was furious at Bibi, who in his view was hypocriticallygoing through the motions of calling for restraint and pretending to be unawarethat the mobs were full of Likud voters. “They’re his people,” he said, “and heknows it.”But he was relishing the idea of taking on Bibi in the next election, due inabout a year’s time. Though Rabin was trailing in the polls, he was confident ofturning that around once the campaign began. “The main thing is that the partyisn’t focused. We have to get serious about preparing,” he said. He was worriedabout the effect of inevitable tensions between his supporters and Peres’s overhow to run the campaign. “Bring back Haim Ramon,” I suggested. I knew bynow that Haim had helped orchestrate the false story which Yediot had runabout Tze’elim. But I also realized he was a Labor heavyweight and that,although he’d left the government, he remained personally close to Yitzhak.“Yes,” Yitzhak replied, nodding, suggesting that we talk through the idea indetail when I returned from New York.I was in my room at the Regency Hotel, on New York’s Upper East Side,when the phone rang on Saturday afternoon. I was dimly aware that the TelAviv rally had been going on back home, but was more focused on preparingmy speech for the Yad Vashem event. “Ehud, Ehud!” It was Nava, her voicebarely understandable through the sobs. “Rabin has been shot!”* * *278Danny Yatom called me a couple of minutes later. He said Rabin was stillalive. But from the details he gave me, I knew it would take a miracle for him topull through. “Three shots, from close range,” Danny said. “From an Israeli, aJew.” Like Rabin, like me too until this had actually happened, it was somethingDanny was struggling to believe. He said that he’d call me back when he knewanything more. But I had the TV on in the room. Before he did, I watched EitanHaber announce that Yitzhak Rabin was dead.Although I hadn’t known it until I’d arrived, Yossi Beilin was also in NewYork, for meetings and a speech of his own. Though he was a Peres protégé,and I was seen as closer to Rabin, the two of us had become friends. Weimmediately made plans to get the next flight home. But before leaving for theairport, I phoned Leah Rabin. However inadequate I knew it would be inhelping her even begin to cope with the loss, I told her that my, and Nava’s,thoughts were with her. That Yitzhak’s death would leave a tremendous hole, inall of us, in every single Israeli. “They shot him,” she kept murmuring. “Theyshot him. They shot him. They shot him.” I called Peres, too. “Shimon, youhave a mountain on your shoulders,” I said. “But your task is to carry on. All ofus will be with you, supporting, helping however we can.”It was the saddest flight I’d ever taken. Yossi and I barely spoke. Each of uswas deep in thought. I found myself lost in memories of Rabin – from the veryfirst time I’d met him, in the sayeret, to that last, long talk we’d had in his officea couple of days earlier. For some reason, I kept wondering whether, when theshots had been fired, he’d been turning to look behind him. It was anidiosyncrasy he had, whenever he was leaving a meeting or an event – even, as Inow recalled vividly, when the two of us were leaving the municipal ceremonyin Ofakim. I was behind him as we left. “Ehud,” he said, turning back, “are youthere?” It was a senseless detail. It wouldn’t change anything. But I still felt tornup inside thinking about it.After we landed at Ben-Gurion, I went with Nava to the Rabins’ apartmentin Ramat Aviv. There were hundreds of people outside, and nearly a hundredcrowded inside the flat. Leah looked exhausted, her face ashen. “They shothim,” she said over and over as Nava and I hugged her. “Three shots. In theback. Why?” I said there was no sane answer, but that with Yitzhak’s death,Israel seemed different, the world seemed different, and emptier. Before we left,we added our candles to the forest of flickering memorial lights outside theapartment block. Then, we drove the Kings of Israel Square. Thousands ofpeople were huddled in small groups throughout the plaza, sitting around279thickets of candles and chanting, almost prayerlike, anthems of mourning and ofpeace.For reasons I couldn’t explain, I felt the need to see the place, near the frontof the square, where Rabin had been murdered, by a 25-year-old Orthodox Jewand settlement activist named Yigal Amir. Standing there with Nava, I felt evenmore strongly what I’d told Leah by phone from New York after hearingYitzhak was dead: his murder would leave a huge hole – in me, in all Israelis.He was an extraordinary mix of qualities: a brave officer, first in the pre-statePalmach and then the new Israeli army; a chief of staff and defense minister atcritical periods in our history. Shy, even at times uncertain or hesitant, andnaturally cautious. Decisive, too, when he felt that he, and Israel, needed to be:whether on Entebbe, or the prospect, with all its risks, of launching an operationto kill Saddam Hussein. Humane, too: ready to negotiate with terrorists to savethe lives of those they were planning to kill, unless he was confident oursoldiers could save them first. Underpinning it all was a dedication to fightingand defeating Isael’s enemies, yet a mindfulness that the real victory, if andwhen it was possible, would be genuine peace with our neighbors. He and I hadhad differences over particular policies: leaving our troops in Lebanon, forinstance, or more recently the architecture of Oslo. But I never doubted that wewere lucky to have Yitzhak leading Israel on the inevitably fraught road to anegotiated peace. I never ceased to believe there was no politician more suitedto the role: that he would do everything he could to achieve it, yet would stepback if he saw that he was putting Israel’s security at risk.On Sunday evening, Peres called a cabinet meeting in the kirya. He said ourtask was to continue what Rabin had begun, and that at least for now he wouldfill Rabin’s shoes not just as Prime Minister but Defense Minister as well. Thewhole country stood still, shocked, until the state funeral two days after theassassination. It was attended by dozens of leaders from around the world. Myrole was to escort King Hussein and Queen Noor. On our drive into Jerusalem,we passed the Old City walls. We were barely a mile from the stone terrace,above the Western Wall of our ancient temple, where the golden Dome of theRock and the Al-Aqsa mosque stand. I knew Hussein had been there as a boywhen his grandfather, King Abdullah, was shot and killed by a Palestinian amidrumors he was contemplating peace with Israel. Now, Rabin had beenmurdered, by an Israeli. “To me, it’s like the closing of a circle,” Hussein said.“Those who are murdered because they are not extreme enough. Because theylook for normalcy, and peace.”280Yitzhak’s murder had acted like a kind lightning strike, freezing Israelis in amix of disgust over what had occurred and awareness of the dangers this brandof hatred and extremism posed. I was concerned the moment would be allowedto pass. My hope was that we could seize the opportunity to bring together allthose Israelis – on left and right, secular and Orthodox, Ashkenazi and Sephardi– who were prepared to stand up against the fanaticism, the violent messianism,of which Yigal Amir was just a part. That was the main reason I wanted Peresto call an early election, an issue that would be discussed, off and on, over thenext few months. I felt the time was right to present the country with a choice:not just between those for and against specific compromises being contemplatedin pursuit of peace, but between those who wanted a tolerant, functioningdemocracy and those who were ready to use demagoguery and violence to gettheir way.Peres’s first order of business was to put in place a new cabinet. He did,briefly, consider giving up the Defense Ministry and putting me there. Butinstead, he made me Foreign Minister. Like Rabin before him, Shimonstipulated that he, as Prime Minister, would retain authority over the peacenegotiations. Still, with his agreement, I was involved in all the discussionsaround the peace talks, and in meeting many of the Arab leaders we’d have tonegotiate with if we were to find a lasting resolution of the Arab-Israeli conflict.Just a few weeks after the assassination, I represented Israel at a Euro-Mediterranean Partnership conference in Barcelona. Its only real diplomaticwork consisted of ironing out the wording of the communique. The real valuewas in the corridors, and at the dinner held at one of King Juan Carlos’s palatialestates, and, for me, a first opportunity to meet not only Arab foreign ministersbut Yasir Arafat.My first, brief encounter with Arafat began a bit embarrassingly. I’d arriveda few minutes early for the conference dinner and was led into an impressivehall that was almost empty except for a wonderfully cared-for royal Steinway. Isat down to play. Lost in the beauty of a Chopin sonata, I was completelyunaware of PLO leader’s approach behind me. A bit awkwardly, I rose to greethim. I grasped his hand. “It’s a real pleasure to meet you,” I said. “I must say Ihave spent many years watching you – by other means.” He smiled. Our hostshad set aside time after dinner for the two of us to talk at greater length, with noaides present. But my hope was to begin by establishing simple, human contact;to signal respect; to begin to create the conditions not to try to kill Arafat but, ifhe shared the same goal, to make peace with him. “We carry a great281responsibility,” I said. “Both of our peoples have paid a heavy price. The timehas come to find a way to solve this.”In the half hour we spent together later, I could see that, physically, the Fatahleader from Karameh was not just older. He had a frailty about him. His skinseemed almost translucent in places. His hands shook slightly, with the earlysigns of Parkinson’s. He spoke softly. But despite this ostensibly vulnerableexterior, I could see how daunting, and frustrating, he must be a negotiatingpartner. Henry Kissinger has described how Mao Tse-Tung, rather than engagedirectly in discussion or debate, tended to wrap his remarks in parables. Withoutstretching the parallel too far, Arafat was like that. While I tried to engage himon how each of us might help cement the Oslo process, and ensure that theinterim agreement indeed led to a full peace, he responded with stories, or offtopicremarks, which I was left to unwrap and decipher.He began our discussion by saying that now that I was Foreign Minister, hewas glad to meet me. He said that he’d heard “reports” from his intelligencepeople that when I was chief-of-staff, I had organized a kind of dissident bandof generals who were working to torpedo the Oslo agreements. He comparedthis to the OAS, the military cabal in France that had opposed De Gaulle. Icould only laugh. I told him I’d actually spent two months with OAS men yearsearlier, in Mont Louis, but that Israel was different. Even at times of thetoughest of disagreements, we were a family. An “Israeli OAS” would neverwork, even if I had been crazy enough to contemplate such a thing. Which, Ihastened to add, I was not.There was another idiosyncrasy I encountered in Arafat. He was constantlywriting notes as we spoke. I didn’t mind that. But it did strike me as slightlydiluting the kind of frankness and openness I would find in most of the one-ononemeetings I went on to have with foreign leaders as Peres’s Foreign Minister.Maybe he did it just as a kind of aide-memoire. But certainly in later meetings Ihad with him, it did have the effect to making me choose my words morecarefully. That, I believed, reduced the prospect of exploring more creativelythe boundaries of each of our official positions. It also helped Arafat to argue, ashe did on more than one occasion, that Rabin, or Peres, or whatever Israeliinterlocutor he chose to name had promised him such and such. He alwaysimplied this was based on his written record, though he never produced anyevidence to that effect. He also never seemed to have recorded anything that hehad promised Israelis.I tried, with only partial success, to engage some of the other Arab foreign282ministers when we’d arrived in the banqueting hall. I did have a good talk withEgypt’s Amr Moussa, and the foreign ministers of Morocco and Tunisia. WhenI tried to start a conversation with Syria’s Farouk al-Sharaa, however, hepointedly, though politely, said he felt that would not be appropriate. PresidentAssad had broken off talks with us earlier in the year, insisting that we firstcommit explicitly to honor Rabin’s “pocket deposit” on the Golan Heights. Still,in my formal remarks at the dinner, I urged both sides to resume our effort tonegotiate an Israeli-Syrian agreement. Sharaa’s response was, again,unencouraging. But I did notice, and take heart from, the fact that it was neitherpolemic nor overtly hostile towards Israel.When I returned to Israel, I found that Peres, too, wanted to restart thenegotiating process with the Syrians. The effort took on fresh momentum after ameeting at Peres’s home in Jerusalem in early December, ahead of his visit toWashington for talks with President Clinton. Itamar Rabinovich and I had eachmet with him separately a few weeks earlier to brief him on how the talks withthe Syrians had gone under Rabin, and why they’d reached an impasse. Weemphasized Assad’s insistence on a preemptive agreement on our leaving theGolan. Peres now came forward with a plan. It was the diplomatic equivalent ofwhat the Americans, a few years later in the second Gulf War, would call“shock and awe.” This was “dazzle and befuddle.” As Peres explained it, wewould flood Assad with proposals: not just on land or security, but everythingfrom water and electricity to tourism and industrial zones. Assad was inpersonal control of the Syrian side of the talks. The mere volume, range andcomplexity of the simultaneous engagement Peres had in mind would, hehoped, dilute his focus on the Golan. “The best results are extracted fromconfusion,” he said. Having watched President Assad operate for years, when Iwas head of intelligence and chief of staff, I said I was skeptical. I used theimage of a bulldog. “It comes into your living room with one aim: to lock on toyour ankle. You can throw fireworks, cookies, balloons, a tasty bone. But it’s abulldog. It’s still going to move another step toward your ankle.” For Assad, theankle was the Golan.I understood why Peres wanted to make a new effort to get peace with Syria.Obviously, it was something to be desired in itself. It would transform the termsof our conflict with the Arabs, and maybe even bring within reach the hope ofending it altogether. But there was a political consideration as well. For all hisother accomplishments, Peres had a record of repeated electoral defeat as headof Labor. This next election would be the first held under a new set of rules.Instead of merely choosing lists of Knesset candidates, Israelis would cast two283votes: one for a party list and one for a directly elected Prime Minister. Thiswould be a personal test, an opportunity for Shimon to build on the still-tenuousachievement of Oslo and finally secure the endorsement of the Israeli people.It seemed, for a while, I might even have a role. A few days later, Peres and Imet again. In Israeli elections, the campaign manager is called head of hasbarah– media and public-information planning. He told me he still didn’t knowexactly when he would call the election. But he asked me to take on that role.* * *Both Peres and I proved to be right about the Syrians. The negotiations didresume, and two rounds of talks were held at Wye River, on Maryland’s easternshore, in December 1995 and January 1996. They did focus on the whole rangeof issues in an eventual peace, just as Peres had hoped, and some progress wasmade in identifying areas of potential agreement. But the bulldog never took itseyes of our ankle. There was no escaping the fact that without addressing thequestion of our withdrawal from the Golan Heights, we weren’t going to get tothe next stage. So a decision had to be made.Peres, no less than Rabin, knew what the trade-off would be. Israel needed aseries of ironclad security arrangements, and a genuine peace, rather than justagreement to a cessation of hostilities. Syria would demand to get back all, or atleast virtually all, of the Golan. Peres now focused on clarifying, in his ownmind, whether we should be willing to agree to trade the Golan for a peacetreaty. Our key meeting took place in early February, in the underground bunkerin the kirya. Peres asked Amnon Lipkin, as chief of staff, and our other topgenerals for a presentation on their view of the security arrangements requiredwith Syria under a peace deal. They recommended that Israel insist on keeping asizeable part of the Golan, as well as a range of demilitarization provisionswhich reached pretty much to the edge of Damascus. I’d been asked for myview by Rabin when I was chief-of-staff. Obviously, from a purely militarystandpoint, the ideal situation would be to keep the whole of the Golan Heights.No chief of staff was going to recommend pulling out. But I’d always added arider: to withdraw as part of a peace agreement, with all its other likely benefits,was not a military question. It was a decision for the government. The relevantquestion for a chief of staff was whether we could ensure the security of Israel ifthe government decided on a withdrawal, to which I answered yes.284I suspect Amnon would have said much the same thing. But that wasn’t thequestion he’d been asked. As the proceedings wound down, Peres looked glum.Maybe he was anticipating the potential leaks of army concerns about a Golanwithdrawal if we did get closer to a deal, and the venomous political attacks hecould expect from the right. Bibi’s stated view on a deal with Syria at the timewas that we could get peace and keep the Golan. It was classic Bibi, spokenwith verve and conviction as if simply saying it would make it true.When the presentation was over, Peres called us into a small room in thebunker reserved for use by the Defense Minister. As Foreign Minister, I was theonly cabinet member with him – along with Uri Savir, Peres’s senior deputy forpeace negotiations and several other Peres aides. If there had been a discussion,I would have told him that as long as he felt the talks were progressing, he couldignore Amnon’s presentation. If we didn’t get a deal, it would be irrelevant. Ifwe did, the military could find ways to deal with the security issues. But he justlooked at us and said” “We’re going for elections.” A few days later, the datewas set for May 29, 1996. Yet that would turn out not to be the end of Peres’sdoubts or difficulties. It was only the beginning.285Chapter EighteenThe first attack in the wave of Hamas suicide bombings destroyed a Jerusalembus at 6:42 a.m. on February 25, 1996. It left 26 people dead, and nearly 80 injuredfrom nails and shrapnel packed into the explosive charge. The second was nearAshkelon. The bomber, dressed in Israeli uniform, joined a group of young soldiersand blew himself up, killing one of them. A week later, a third suicide attackblasted the roof off a bus on the same Jerusalem commuter route, leaving 19 moredead. And on March 4, a 24-year-old Palestinian walked up to the entrance of TelAviv’s busiest shopping center, on Dizengoff Street, detonated 30 pounds ofexplosives, and killed 13 people. At the bomb scenes, bloodied survivors andcrowds of pedestrians surveyed a hellscape of twisted metal, shards of glass andmangled body parts. While most Israelis were too shaken to worry about theimmediate political repercussions – and Bibi was careful, at least in the immediateaftermath, not to try to score political points –Peres’s reelection campaign seemedto lie in tatters almost before it had begun.The attacks were not a surprise. As I’d argued to the Washington think-tankaudience before joining the government, the peace promise of Oslo had beenassailed from the start by a new alliance of Islamist Palestinian violence: mainlyHamas, and Islamic Jihad on the West Bank. They saw Arafat as a traitor who hadsold out to Israel. For them, the issue wasn’t just Israel’s capture of the West Bankand Gaza in the 1967 war. It was 1948: they opposed any Jewish state, anywhere inPalestine. In a campaign of terror that made the first weeks of the intifada seemalmost easy to deal with, they began sending self-styled holy warriors to murderIsraeli civilians, and sacrifice their own lives, in the expectation of Allah’s rewardsin the world to come. During the two years following Oslo, they’d mounted tensuicide attacks, leaving nearly 80 Israelis dead. The attacks had actually stoppedsince the summer of 1995. But when the election date was announced – with Peresholding a roughly 15-per-cent lead in the polls – political commentators both inIsrael and abroad began speculating about a resumption of terror. For Hamas, theelection presented not just an opportunity to kill innocent Israelis but, by helpingdefeat Peres and Labor, perhaps to kill Oslo as well.Even before the bombings, our campaign was struggling for focus, energy andeven purpose, beyond the aim of getting more votes than Bibi Netanyahu. Despite286/ BARAK / 1Peres’s assurance that I’d be the campaign manager, that hadn’t happened. I wasn’treally surprised by that, however. When he offered me the job, I wondered howhe’d managed to clear it with much more established Labor politicians. It turnedout he hadn’t. Haim Ramon, the veteran whom I’d urged Yitzhak to bring back forthe election, was put in charge. Shimon did ask me to head a small advisory teamwhich reported directly to him, but all the key decisions were taken at weeklystrategy sessions chaired jointly by him and Ramon. I still hoped to make thecampaign a referendum on Yitzhak’s murder, and on the need to recommit Israel todemocracy and dialogue over vitriol and violence. But Haim began with theassumption that, given Peres’s lead in the polls, we should simply play it safe,ignore the issue of the assassination, and try to ignore Bibi, too. He described it asa soccer match. We were leading by two goals, he told our first strategy meeting.The other side was never going to score unless we screwed up. “To win, we dowhat all good teams do. We play for time. We kick the ball around. We kick theball into the stands. We wait for the final whistle.” I tried, without success, to arguethat we were underestimating Bibi. “He may be young and inexperienced innational politics. But I know him from when he was even younger. He knows howto analyze a task, break it down, work out a plan and execute it systematically andtenaciously. If we play it safe and don’t define the campaign, he’ll seize on everyerror we make and he will define it.”I wanted us at least to connect with Yitzhak’s legacy. I argued to both Peres andRamon that we should promote Shimon as the candidate with the background,experience and vision to take forward what he and Rabin had begun. I also wantedus to echo a core assumption in all that Yitzhak did as a military and politicalleader: that peace was achievable only if Israel and its citizens felt secure. Evenbefore the renewed terror attacks, I argued that we had to recognize that, much asIsraelis yearned for peace, many were conflicted and fearful about the Osloprocess. I said our central campaign message should be bitachon ve shalom.Security and peace. “In that order,” I added. “We should tell voters openly that weexpect groups like Hamas to try to launch attacks. But they don’t want a secureIsrael. They don’t want peace. Don’t play their game.”Yet the scale and intensity of the bombings threw everything into crisis. Afterthe bomb in the Dizengoff shopping mall, Peres called an emergency cabinetmeeting at the kirya. He knew that we had to find a way to reassure Israelis wewere getting a grip on the situation. We had got a start in our regular Sunday287/ BARAK / 2cabinet meeting the day before, by reviving an idea I’d supported under Rabin: tobuild a security fence all along the edge of the West Bank, with a series ofcontrolled crossing points for people and goods. Yitzhak had said no at the time,because he was worried it would be seen as a de facto border and undermine theidea of building coexistence. My view then, and even more so now, was that wewould never get to the point of negotiating a final peace with the Palestiniansunless we could stop at least most of the terror attacks before they happened. Peres,too, had been worried about “undermining coexistence.” But now, he and the restof the cabinet were so shaken by the carnage Hamas had left that they approved theidea of a security barrier.At our kirya meeting, hours after the latest bomb had exploded less than a mileaway, Peres recognized we had to go further. Under Oslo, we had begun giving thePalestinians control over internal security in Gaza and parts of the West Bank.Since the new Hamas attacks, Arafat had been saying the right things. After thefirst bomb in Jerusalem, he’d phoned Shimon to offer condolences, tellingreporters afterward that this was “a terrorist operation. I condemn it completely. Itis not only against civilians, but against the whole peace process.” Yet when itcame to action, we saw no sign that he was willing, ready, or perhaps able to crackdown on the Islamist terror attacks. So Peres now announced that, if necessary inorder to detain known terrorists, we would for the first time send Israeli troopsback into areas where control had been handed back. If Arafat didn’t act, wewould.On the political front, Peres did get some good news: President Clinton, anxiousto preserve the progress he’d worked so closely with Yitzhak to achieve, organizedan unprecedented show of international condemnation of the terror attacks. WithEgypt’s Hosni Mubarak, he co-chaired a “Summit of Peacemakers” in Sharm al-Sheikh with the participation not just of an equally concerned King Hussein, and ofcourse Arafat, but leaders of Arab states from North Africa to Saudi Arabia and theGulf. The only significant holdout was Syria’s Hafez al-Assad. He objectedbecause he said the conference was too focused on Israel. As Foreign Minister, Iaccompanied Shimon to the summit. A single day’s meeting was never going toend terror. But it was unprecedented in the breadth of Arab engagement in aninitiative that, as Assad had anticipated, didn’t just condemn terror in general. Itspecifically denounced the attacks being launched inside Israel.288/ BARAK / 3I’d met President Clinton briefly once before, when he received Syrian chief-ofstaffHikmat Shehabi and me after our Blair House talks in 1994. But the Sharmconference provided my first opportunity to spend time with him face-to-face.When Peres and our delegation were about to leave, a Clinton aide approached andsaid the President had asked whether I’d like to join him on the flight back toIsrael. Though as surprised as I was by the invitation, Shimon nodded at me tosignal it was okay, so I headed off for Air Force One. I spent most of the briefflight talking to the President in the office space carved into the middle of theplane. I would later discover that he quite often tried to engage with foreignleaders’ colleagues or advisers on overseas trips, and not limit himself to summitnegotiations. It was part of his voracious appetite for information or insights whichhe believed were essential to get a rounded understanding of the complexities ofthe issues he was trying to address. Still, it was an extraordinarily fascinating 20minutes. I got my first real look at Clinton’s natural gift for person-to-personpolitics, as well as his mastery of both the detail and nuance of Israel’spredicament, and of the wider conflict in the Middle East. Looking straight at me,almost never breaking eye contact, he encouraged me to feel I had something ofvalue and importance to share with him. In fact, he created the impression that Iwas the first sentient, intelligent human being he’d ever met. He made no grandpolicy statements. Mostly, he asked me questions: what were the prospects ofArafat reining in Hamas and Islamic Jihad? How were our relations going withKing Hussein? What was my view of the chances of concluding a peace withHafez al-Assad, despite his boycott of Sharm al-Sheikh? If Shimon did go on towin the election, what new diplomatic opportunities could he as president, and we,exploit in the search for peace? And, finally, what if Bibi won? I dare say this firstmeeting was more memorable for me than for the president. But it would turn outto provide a foundation for our joint efforts, in a few years’ time, to resolve thevery issues we’d talked about on Air Force One.* * *Though the summit restored a small opinion poll lead for Peres, that merelyreinforced Haim Ramon’s soccer-game strategy. I was more convinced than ever itwas wrong. Haim still wanted to ignore Bibi, but I pointed out that for at least one289/ BARAK / 4reason, that was absurd. Near the end of the campaign, there was going be a headto-headtelevision debate. In the meantime, though Bibi might be many things, hewasn’t stupid. He was already telling voters that while Peres was making dealswith Arafat, ordinary Israelis were being left to wonder where the next terroristwould strike. He would surely ramp up the accusations that Peres was “weak onsecurity,” especially if there was more violence. To assume that if we just sat backwe would win seemed to me complacent and risky. Yet when I mentioned toShimon that a couple of our internal polls still actually had Bibi slightly ahead, hejust laughed. “I have good polls,” he said. “Why should I believe the bad ones?”Then, however, violence intervened again. It was not Hamas this time.Beginning on March 30 and escalating sharply 10 days later, Katyusha rocketsrained onto towns and settlements in northern Israel by Hizbollah – the firstsustained attack since the cease-fire in 1994. It was pretty obvious that, likeHamas, the Iranian-backed Shi’ite militia in Lebanon was not just targeting Israelicivilians, but Oslo, and Peres’s chances of winning the election. The last thingShimon wanted was for tens of thousands of people in the north of Israel to becowering in shelters during the final stretch of the campaign. So on April 11, heordered a major military operation in Lebanon.I wasn’t party to the discussions about the operation. But the model chosen wassimilar to the one I’d drawn up in 1994: a large-scale air and artillery assaultdesigned to hit Hizbollah hard, force civilians to flee and persuade the Lebaneseand Syrian governments to commit to a US-mediated end to the rocket attacks.Again, all of that happened. But not before a tragic accident which brought a stormof international criticism and hastened the end of the operation. An Israeli specialforcesunit was ambushed while providing laser targeting support for an air forcestrike. When it called in artillery support, four of the shells fell on a UN compoundnear the Lebanese village of Qana, killing more than 100 civilians seeking shelterinside.Peres phoned me a few hours later, distraught not just because the waywardartillery strike had laid us open to charges of “targeting” civilians in an operationdesigned to try to avoid doing so. Also, because the accident seemed likely to deala further blow to his efforts to convince Israel’s voters that he, rather than Bibi,was the man best placed to lead the country. “We’re in trouble,” he said. Yetwithin days, it became clear that our basic campaign strategy – ignore Bibi and“kick the ball into the stands” – was not going to change. I did make one last290/ BARAK / 5attempt to help put us on the political offensive, after I was asked to record on ofLabor’s TV campaign messages. I knew what I wanted to say. I’d talked it overwith the small group of campaign experts Peres had asked me to assemblealongside Ramon’s main team. Rather than ignore Bibi, I was going to use myposition as his former commander in Sayeret Matkal, someone who knew himwell, to explain why Peres should lead Israel.“How many of us can really understand what it means to be a Prime Minister?”I began. “As head of intelligence, and chief of staff, I have seen, close-up, what ittakes to be a Prime Minister. It is not a game. We’ve had good Prime Ministers:Ben-Gurion, Peres, Rabin, Begin... Bibi, we know each other well, from the dayswhen you were an officer under my command. A young officer, and a good one.Prime Minister is the most important and serious role in this country. Bibi, it’s notyet you. We need an experienced leader, who will know how to guide us withwisdom, strength and sensitivity. Shimon Peres is that man.”Yet we were never going to be able to avoid engaging with Bibi altogether. Theface-to-face television debate between the two candidates was set for May 27, twodays before the election. By American standards, the format was fairly tame. Nodirect exchanges were permitted, only a series of questions directed at eachcandidate by a leading political journalist, Dan Margalit. Still, it would placeShimon and Bibi side by side. We spent two days prepping Peres, with AvrahamBurg – an early Peace Now supporter, former Peres aide and Knesset member –standing in for Bibi. Avraham played the role well, anticipating the lines of attackShimon would face. But as I watched, I worried that even he couldn’t replicate oneof Bibi’s key advantages. During his time at the embassy in Washington, andespecially as UN ambassador, Bibi had become a frequent presence on Americantelevision interview shows. Always articulate, he was now also an experienced,and completely comfortable, television performer. In our debate rehearsals, Peressounded well versed on all the issues. Yet I sensed his problem wasn’t going to bethe message, but the medium. He sounded a bit distant, unengaged, almost as if theTV debate was something he knew he had to go through, but which he thoughtslightly sullied the proper purpose of politics.In the real debate, Shimon seemed to convey the sense that merely being in thesame studio with a pretender as raw and untested as Bibi was offensive. When eachof the candidates was given the opportunity at the end to ask a single question ofthe other, Peres didn’t even bother. He did come over as the man with much more291/ BARAK / 6experience, gravitas, substance. He also had what was probably the best line in thedebate, saying that if Israeli voters were choosing a male model and not a PrimeMinister, Bibi might indeed be their man. Yet Bibi was much the more polishedperformer, and the more focused. No matter what question Margalit asked him, healmost invariably answered with the driving message of his campaign: that becauseof Peres, Israeli citizens were living in fear, wondering where the next suicidebomber would strike or the next Katyusha would land. And unavoidably, there wasanother contrast as well: Bibi, who, after all, was 26 years younger, projectedgreater youth, energy and confidence. When it was over, and Peres asked us howhe’d done, we all hemmed and hawed. Only Avraham Burg was prepared to offer aclear verdict. He told Peres that Bibi had been the clear winner.Still, it remained possible that Ramon’s football-game strategy might work.Though Peres’s poll lead had been narrowing by the day, he was – just – ahead.With a large number of voters undecided, however, Bibi pulled one final trick outof his campaign bag. Under Israeli law, election spending is tightly regulated andnearly all campaigning is barred during the last 48 hours before polling day. Yetwith the backing of wealthy overseas supporters, the Netanyahu campaignsuddenly flooded Israel with blue-and-white banners under the slogan: Bibi, Tov laYehudim. “Bibi is good for the Jews.” Would it swing tens of thousands of votesamong the Orthodox voters who were the main target? It was impossible to say.But it seemed clear it was going to be a very close election.I had worried for some time we might lose. That was why Nava and I hadpersuaded Michal, our eldest daughter, to bring forward her wedding. She wasmarrying her teenage boyfriend, a wonderful young man named Ziv Lotenberg.They had originally planned it for a week later. But we did want to risk having itovershadowed by an election defeat. The wedding took place in a beautiful area oflawns and gardens called Ronit Farm, north of Herzliya. It was how weddings aremeant to be, full of smiles, good food and dancing. Near the end, Shimon showedup. As he walked over to greet us, one guest after another shook his hand, pattedhim on the back, hugged him, wished him luck. It was as if all the pressure andtension of the campaign had suddenly flowed out of him. He smiled, returned theembraces, even joined in the dancing. When he left, I told him that he’d done all hecould to secure victory, and that I hoped the voters would make the right choice.The first exit polls suggested he was going to win. But our internal polling wasless clear. As more and more votes were counted, Shimon’s margin inexorably292/ BARAK / 7narrowed. It wasn’t until the next morning that the final result was clear: BibiNetanyahu had won. By 29,000 votes. If a mere 15,000 of the three million ballotscast had gone in our column instead of his, Shimon Peres would have remainedPrime Minister.I knew he’d be feeling crushed. Not just on a personal level, because this latestelectoral defeat had been in was a direct, head-to-head vote for Prime Minister. He,like all of us who had campaigned for him, knew what was at stake for the country.It had been barely six months since Rabin was gunned down in Tel Aviv’s mainsquare, by a fellow Israeli riding a tide of hatred so blinkered that it could paintYitzhak – who had worked all his life to create, defend and help develop theJewish state – as a traitor, even a Nazi. All because he had decided to try to makepeace with the Palestinians, at the price of ceding control of part of the biblicalland of Israel. Bibi had gone through the motions of urging restraint. Butpolitically, he had ridden their wave. It was hard not to see his victory over Peresas a triumph for the ugly intolerance and the venom that had claimed Yitzhak’slife. In policy terms, it was in large part a rejection of both men’s vision of anIsrael that, while still ready to fight if necessary, could explore compromise in thesearch for the ultimate prize of peace. The last time Yitzhak and I had talked, he’dbeen confident of defeating Bibi at the polls, and I do believe he would have won.But despite his differences with Peres, I’m equally certain he would have wantedShimon to win, not just for his sake but for Israel’s.I had got to know Shimon, too, during my years in the kirya. In fact, he was theLabor leader who first spoke to me openly about one day moving into politics,something Yitzhak was always punctilious in not broaching before I’d left thearmy. Shimon had also taken to including me – usually along with Yossi Beilinand Shlomo Ben-Ami, a bright young historian who would become ourambassador to Spain before entering politics himself – in a coterie of “youngsters”he would bring along to meet visiting dignitaries from abroad. He occasionallyinvited me to chat about military and security issues in his and Sonya’s flat inRamat Aviv. My personal ties to Rabin were stronger, of course. After I joined thegovernment, Shimon’s and my relationship became slightly more circumspect. Butsince the assassination, some of the old warmth had returned. Not just as hisforeign minister, but in discussions on wider questions of security as well, weworked closely together.293/ BARAK / 8Within days of the election, however, there was a new source of potentialfriction between us: Shimon’s future, and possibly mine, in leading our oppositionto Bibi and bringing a Labor government back to power.* * *The question of Peres’s leadership was unavoidable. Labor’s constitutionmandated a vote for party chairman within 14 months of an election defeat. But thewidespread assumption was that Shimon would run again. A little before midnighton election day, with the returns beginning to show we might lose, I was invited toa morning-after breakfast by two senior Labor ministers: Fuad Ben-Eliezer, theman who had delivered the table-thumping warning that the hatred on the far-rightwould lead to a murder, and Avraham Shochat, Finance Minister under both Rabinand Peres. Both had been in the Knesset since the 1980s. Both were part of two ofPeres’s earlier, failed, election campaigns. Both now said that they weren’tprepared to see him lead us into electoral battle the next time around. “Everyone inthe party understands the meaning of this defeat. Shimon is done,” Shochat said, asFuad nodded his agreement. “You will have to go for the leadership.”Though their endorsement was a surprise, it would be disingenuous to pretend Ihadn’t been thinking, at some stage in the future, of running for the partyleadership. But my election-campaign differences with Ramon and Peres were notjust for the sake of intellectual argument. I badly wanted us to win: both for Peres’ssake and the country’s, and to redeem and continue all that Yitzhak had sacrificed.Despite my misgivings about some aspects of the Oslo process, I did believe therewas a possibility of achieving peace with the Palestinians. I knew, from myinvolvement in the talks with the Syrians, that the outline of a possible peaceagreement with Assad was already in place. I frankly wasn’t confident that Bibiwas the man to lead it forward. Yes, he was smart. He was organizationally astute.He’d been a good sayeret officer. Yet as I’d said it my TV spot, being PrimeMinister required much more than that. I was now an elected Knesset member. ButI had gone into politics in the hope of making a difference to how Israel confrontedits defining challenges of war and peace. The prospect of spending the next few asa mere opposition foot soldier, making speeches and sitting in committee sessions,294/ BARAK / 9seemed to defeat the purpose of going into politics in the first place.Still, I had no appetite for rushing into a challenge to Peres’s leadership, bothbecause it was bound to be difficult for both of us, and frankly because it seemedrash, premature and maybe even unnecessary. Bibi was beginning the negotiationsto form a government, and that process was likely to take at least a few weeks.Shimon had yet to signal whether he did intend to stay on. Still, when he invitedme for a late-night chat at his apartment a week after the election, I was concernedhe might raise the leadership issue and I knew that, if he did, I would have to behonest and open with him.The conversation went very differently than I’d expected. After he’d pouredeach of us a glass of Armagnac, and offered me a plate of Sonia’s cakes, he spokefor a while about Bibi, though he could not even bring himself to utter the name.This man, he said, knew nothing about leadership, much less about running thecountry. He would be outmaneuvered, overshadowed and ultimately controlled bythe “real strongman” in the Likud: Arik Sharon. I said I thought we were againunderestimating Bibi’s strength, as well as the effect of the country’s new electoralsystem. He was the first Prime Minister to enjoy a direct, personal mandate. Thatturned upside down the balance of power and influence in our politics. As heassembled his coalition, the other parties, if they wanted to be in government,would have to deal with him on his terms. So, to a much greater extent than before,would potential internal rivals.As we talked, I was struck that Shimon seemed resigned to the election defeat,relaxed, more at ease with himself than at any time since the start of the gruelingcampaign. Then, quite suddenly, he said: “Ehud, I understand the meaning of theelection result. “You will have to take on the leadership, and lead the party.” Hesaid he didn’t plan to spend the rest of his years hanging around the apartment. Hewould remain active – “working for peace” – but no longer in the party politicalarena. “I understand the meaning of what has happened,” he repeated. “I will passthe Labor leadership torch to you. We should find a way to do it quickly, and in theright way.”It was nearly three in the morning when I left. I was not just surprised, buttouched, by what he’d said. Shimon was now nearly 73. He’d had a life in ourcountry’s politics, and in Labor, stretching back to before the state, when he’d beena favored protégé of Ben-Gurion. Walking away was going to be hard. I was295/ BARAK / 10touched as well by the fact that he had decided to “pass the torch” to me, someonemore in the mold, and closer to, Rabin. But I remained cautious, too. When I gotback home, Nava, knowing where I’d been, was still awake. I told her everythingthat Shimon had said. I told her how extraordinary it felt to have the prospect, atleast, of leading Labor in opposition to Bibi, without the need to confront, or toinflict personal hurt, on Shimon. But I added: “It seems a bit too good to be true.”It was. The next morning, I joined other ministers and party officials with Peresin his office. It was as if our conversation a few hours before had never happened.Shimon set out his strategy for Labor going forward. And the first thing he saidwas that the party needed to push back any leadership election beyond themandated 14 months.“It’s too early,” he said. He said we needed to focus on twoother strategic imperatives: to reconstruct the party, and consider the issue ofjoining a possible “unity” government with Bibi.Though Bibi went on to form his government without us, in alliance with anumber of smaller Orthodox parties, the idea of a Labor leadership change seemedoff the agenda, at least for now. In early August, I was standing next to Giora Einy– the “political operative” Yitzhak had sent to help bring me into his government,and a friend of Peres as well – when Shimon rose to speak to the dozens of wellwishersat his 73 rd -birthday celebration in Tel Aviv. He was at his old, selfconfidentbest. With just a few thousand extra votes, we would have won theelection, he said. He was sure Bibi’s coalition – “a coalition against peace” –would not survive for long. Giora, smiling, turned to me and said: “It doesn’tsound like a farewell speech. It seems like he’s ready for the next round. He losttwice to Begin. He lost once to Shamir. And only once to Bibi. He’s not going tostop without giving it another go.”Another of Peres’s old friends, a few weeks later, urged me to press him on theneed to step aside. I’d become closer to the French Jewish businessman JeanFrydman during the election campaign. Since he had helped organize the fatefulpeace rally at which Rabin was shot, he felt – wrongly, but powerfully – a sense ofresponsibility for what had happened. He wanted to do everything possible toensure that Rabin’s political legacy, and Shimon’s, survived. He invited Nava andme to visit him for a few days. When he asked about the birthday celebration, Itold him what Peres had said. “He’s making a huge mistake,” Jean told me. “Afterevery election, he goes through the same process. Always, he’s convinced that nexttime he will win.” I said how I dreaded the prospect of being part of an effort to296/ BARAK / 11force Shimon out. But Jean said he’d been giving a lot of thought to everythingthat had happened since Rabin was killed. He felt I was the only potential Laborleader who could defeat Bibi in an election and “bring back sanity to Israel, lead itto peace.” He said he was convinced that Peres’s time had passed. “I can say that.I’m from his generation. And as a very close friend of Shimon, I will be the first inline to help you.”Early in September, having let Shimon know through Giora and then phoninghim directly, I declared publicly that I would be running for the Labor leadership.Though he’d thanked me for telling him beforehand, he said he thought I wasmaking a mistake, and was still against having a leadership election at all. Thatmade his public response to my announcement puzzling. He went on Israeli TVand said he would not be a candidate for Prime Minister in four years’ time. “Thetime has come for a change,” he said. But while everyone took that to mean he wasreconciled to a change of party leadership as well, it turned out that we had jumpedthe gun. He intended to stay on as chairman.During the early months of 1997, Shimon and I held a series of late-nightmeetings at his apartment to thrash out an agreed course. It was a process that washard for both of us, and hurtful for him. He was now at least reconciled to theinevitability of an election for a new party leader, if only because his protégé YossiBeilin had also put his name forward. But he kept proposing to push back the vote.I insisted that since the deadline under party rules was June 3, it was only right thatall of us abide by that. I do remember a particularly poignant moment from one ofour sessions. Peres had left the room for a minute, and Sonia came in. “Ehud,” shesaid to me, “keep your nerve. You’re the only one who can talk to him this way.He should have retired from politics years ago. You’re the only one around himwho tells him the truth.”We ended up with a compromise. Shimon accepted that the leadership electionwould be held on June 3. I agreed that in the unlikely event Bibi decided to inviteus into his coalition during the three months after the leadership vote, Peres wouldselect the Labor ministers. Our last meeting ended at nearly four in the morning.He told me he’d arranged a reception for the party leadership at 10 a.m., in barelysix hours’ time. He suggested we meet in his office an hour beforehand. I didn’tknow what to expect. After months of discussions, I hoped he understood that Ihad wanted the process to go differently. I had been open and honest with himthroughout. But I knew that, deep down, he still wanted to stay on, that he believed297/ BARAK / 12that his long record of service should have earned him that right, and that it wouldbe painful for him to accept that, by June, there would be a new Labor leader.He was relaxed and gracious when I arrived. We went through the details ofwhat we’d agreed, and worked out what each of us would say to reporters. Whatcame next, as the party faithful filed in, was simple human nature, I suppose.Seeing some of his oldest supporters, he had second thoughts. His comments toreporters afterward were more hedged than what we’d discussed. Giora told methat after all of us had left, Peres turned to him and said: “Look what Barak isdoing to me. What have you been doing?” Giora, who had been a conduit betweenus at the very beginning of our discussions, replied: “You asked me to bring Barakto you.” At which point, Shimon said: “OK. So probably I made a mistake.”At a convention of 3,000 party activists in mid-May, a few weeks before theleadership election, he made a final attempt to mitigate that “mistake”. NissimZvili, the secretary-general of the party and a longtime Peres ally, introduced amotion to vote him into a new post of party president. A couple of Shimon’sfriends urged me to back the idea, describing it essentially as a ceremonial role.But I feared it was a recipe for prolonging the agony. Whatever powers “PresidentPeres” would have, the idea of two captains on a ship would almost certainly meantrouble. I was especially reluctant to go along with it because our particular shiphad been in rough waters for so long. Labor needed to steer a calm, decisive coursetoward the next election if we were going to defeat Bibi.What followed was one of the most painful spectacles I’ve ever witnessed.When Peres rose to make his case for becoming party president, he said: “I don’twant powers. I don’t want honors. But I also don’t want insults. I announced mydecision to resign from the position of party chairman. Did someone push me intoit? Am I trying to hold on to my job?”“Yes!” many hundreds of the delegates shouted back at him.Stung, he reminded the meeting that it was he who had led Labor back from thebattering it took in the 1977 election against Begin. In 1981, he’d helped usrecover a dozen of our lost seats. Even so, because he hadn’t succeeded in forminga Labor government, people had called him a loser! “Mah? Ani loser?” he asked,using the English word. “Am I a loser?”“Yes! Yes!” came the shouts.298/ BARAK / 13Yet the saddest note came at the end. “I apologize for being healthy, for notgetting old according to plan,” he said, adding that even without the title ofpresident, he would keep working for peace.There were three other candidates for party chairman: Yossi Beilin; EphraimSneh, the friend who’d been the paratroopers’ chief medic when we’d fought at theChinese Farm in 1973, and at Entebbe too; and Shlomo Ben-Ami, the academicand diplomat whom Shimon had taken along with Yossi and me to meet visitingforeign politicians, and who was now also a newly elected member of the Knesset.When the vote came, it was assumed by most political commentators that I wasgoing to win. The only question was whether I’d get the 50 per cent of votesneeded to avoid a run-off, where the outcome might be less predictable. But I got57 percent against Yossi’s 28, with the remaining 15 percent split betweenEphraim and Shlomo-Ben Ami.* * *Now, we had to put ourselves in a position to defeat Bibi and the Likud. Policypriorities were ultimately what would matter most: strong and credible steps toconfront terror and safeguard our security, allied with the leadership and will to tryto negotiate a peace with Syria and the Palestinians; and, at home, a recommitmentto the values of an open, tolerant democracy. But in at least one important way, Iapproached my new role as if it was one of our operations in Sayeret Matkal, or theneed to reshape our armed forces when I was chief-of-staff. My first priority was toput in place the practical foundations for a successful election challenge againstBibi. Through Jean Frydman and other business supporters with the means and thedesire to help, my brother-in-law, Doron Cohen, assembled sufficient funding forus to begin engaging with the strategists who had helped deliver electoral successfor a trio of other centre-left political leaders overseas: Bill Clinton, Tony Blair inBritain and later Gerhard Schroeder in Germany.My main early political focus was on holding Bibi and the government toaccount in the Knesset, above all on the torturous process of ensuring our securitywhile implementing the West Bank redeployments agreed in Oslo II. We’d made asmall start under Rabin and Peres, but the three major withdrawal phases due in the299/ BARAK / 14five-year interim period had yet to begin. In one respect, I had some sympathy forBibi’s predicament. The reason I’d tried to get Yitzhak to alter the terms of Oslo IIwas that it required us to hand back control before we knew what a “permanentstatus”peace deal would look like. But where my sympathy ended was in how Bibihandled the situation. Despite my concerns about the way the Oslo process hadbeen designed, I never doubted that killing it off would be by far a worsealternative. Bibi had been elected to lead Israel. Instead, he acted as if he wasplaying some sort of pinball match, flipping the ball first one way, then the other,with no obvious aim beyond keeping it in play – and, where Oslo was concerned,simply stalling for time. Rather than setting out any vision of where he hoped tomove the negotiating process, he seemed more concerned with keeping the rightwingof Likud and the smaller, even more extreme parties from turning againsthim.In late September 1996, Bibi and the Likud mayor of Jerusalem, Ehud Olmert,decided to go ahead with the festive opening of an archeological tunnel thatprovided access to a larger portion of the Western Wall of the ancient Jewishtemple. It was a decision that, under both Rabin and Peres, we’d delayed out ofconcern about inflaming tensions with the Palestinians. As Shimon rightly saidpublicly after the three days of violence that followed, we understood that, at aminimum, it would need to be coordinated beforehand with Arafat. As the unrestspread into the West Bank and Gaza, there were media warnings of a “newintifada,” the difference this time being that the Palestinians newly establishedpolice had entered the fray. By the time urgent US diplomacy, our efforts andArafat’s, brought it to a close, 25 Israeli soldiers and nearly 100 Palestinians hadbeen killed. He did not slam the brakes altogether on the American-led efforts tomove ahead with the Oslo. In early 1997, in fact, he and Arafat reached a separateagreement on the critically important question, and potential flashpoint, of Hebron.It stipulated that about 80 percent of the area would be under Palestinian authority,with Israel retaining control and responsibility for nearby settlements and keysecurity points. Despite right-wing and settler opposition, it was approved by awide margin in the Knesset, with Labor’s backing. But a few months later, in thespring of 1997, Hamas launched a new campaign of suicide bombings in shoppingareas of Jerusalem and Tel Aviv, leaving 24 people dead. While not suggesting thatBibi took the human cost of terror lightly, he did use the attacks to drag out furtherUS-mediated talks on the details of implementing the Oslo II redeployments.300/ BARAK / 15By November, even his Foreign Minister, David Levy, was making noisesabout quitting. He said it would be a waste of time to stay in the cabinet if it wasgoing to bring the peace process to a halt. I warned Bibi, both in the Knesset and ina series of speeches, about the alternative on the Palestinian side if those whowanted a negotiated peace had nothing but stalemate to show for it. And lives, Iinsisted, were at stake. Both through closed-door sessions of the Knesset’s securityand foreign affairs committee, and my own contacts in military intelligence, I wasconvinced that the result would be a second, much more deadly, intifada. Not withMolotov cocktails, but guns, and suicide bombs.I was not out to score political points in keeping the pressure on Bibi to moveforward. In fact, I announced that if Bibi did go ahead and finalize the terms forour Oslo redeployment, Labor would once again provide the extra Knesset votesneeded for him to get it approved.Early in 1998, he sent word that he wanted to talk. The message came throughYaakov Ne’eman, his Finance Minister and a prominent lawyer whom I knew andliked. He and I held an exploratory meeting at which he proposed talks with Bibion the prospect of a unity government that would help move the peace processforward. I said I’d talk, with one proviso: the discussions would be genuinelysecret, with no leaks. I was not prepared to engage in political gamesmanship. InMay, Bibi sent an assurance of confidentiality through Ne’eman. The first of abouta half-dozen meetings came a few days later at the Prime Minister’s residence inJerusalem. Then, we shifted venue, meeting at a Mossad-owned villa north of TelAviv. I brought along Bougie Herzog, a bright young lawyer, and Labor Partymember, who was working in the same law firm and Ne’eman. It was by no meansclear we’d agree on a unity government. To my amusement, if not altogether to mysurprise, I got word that Bibi was putting out separate political feelers to ShimonPeres. But before long, it became clear there was a specific political motivationbehind his approaching me. It was indeed the peace process. But it wasn’t thePalestinian peace process, something Bibi still clearly wanted to avoid as much ashumanly possible. It was an attempt to engage with Syria.He asked me about the talks under Rabin and Peres, and my views on thepossibility of a deal with President Assad. He also wanted my assessment aboutwhether the army could work out arrangements to safeguard the country’s securityif we handed back most, if not all, of the Golan Heights. If so, what kind ofsecurity arrangements, with what timeline? We met through the summer, as the301/ BARAK / 16talks with the Americans on the further West Bank redeployments meanderedahead. We also discussed in detail how a unity government would work. Weagreed it would be presented, like the Shamir-Peres partnership in 1984, as a crosspartyresponse to an important challenge for the country: in this case, security andthe peace process. I would be both Defense Minister and “Vice-Prime Minister”,with the understanding that Bibi and I would jointly discuss all major issues beforejointly agreeing to bring them to the full cabinet.But in August, the talks ended, after news of our talks finally leaked. Iimmediately phoned Ne’eman. I reminded him that at the outset, I’d said thatwould mean the discussions were over. He did call me back later in the day to sayBibi insisted that he’d had nothing to do with the leak. My guess was that thesource was my old comrade from the Chinese Farm, Yitzhik Mordechai, who hadpresumably heard that Bibi was ready to make me Defense Minister as part of aunity government. There was, of course, already a defense minister: Yitzhik.Bibi’s idea to reopen efforts to get peace with Syria didn’t last either. AlthoughI’d learn of this only a few years later, he’d approved a visit to Damascus by theAmerican Jewish businessman Ronald Lauder to meet President Assad. The visitmade it clear to Bibi what successive Israeli leaders had learned: a deal might bepossible, but only if Israel was willing to commit in advance to pulling out of theGolan. Assad told Lauder to come back to him with a detailed map setting outBibi’s view on delineating the Israeli-Syrian border under a peace agreement.Though no one in the cabinet knew the initiative was underway, Bibi realized thatbefore sending back the map Assad wanted, he would need to tell the two seniorministers directly affected: Arik Sharon, who had replaced David Levy as ForeignMinister; and Yitzhik Mordechai. Both of them said no, with Yitzhik pointing outthat a signed map would inevitably become part of the negotiating record. It was astep that, in future negotiations, could not be undone.Bibi’s coalition was now creaking. The Syrian option was off. David Levy hadalready jumped ship. Yitzhik, increasingly concerned about Bibi’s delay and drifton Oslo II, seemed to be thinking of leaving as well. Right wing ministers andKnesset members were no happier: they opposed even the slightest prospect ofmovement on Oslo. In October, Bibi did finally try to seize the initiative. Hewrapping up the redeployment details in a summit with Arafat and Clinton andArafat in Wye River. But as soon as he got back home, he started backtracking,rather than risk facing down his right-wing critics in the cabinet. Implementation of302/ BARAK / 17the deal was due to begin in early November, but he kept putting off a vote in thecabinet. When the vote came, on November 11, Bibi squeaked through by a marginof 8 to 4, but with five abstentions. That meant less than half of his ministers hadvoted for it.The easy part for him was Knesset ratification, since I had committed Labor tosupporting Bibi on any move towards continuing the peace process. The day afterthe Knesset’s vote, Bibi won the cabinet’s clearance for actual implementation tobegin. But it didn’t. With hard-line ministers threatening to bring down thegovernment if it did, Bibi again stalled. That was the turning point. I’d made itclear our parliamentary support would remain for as long as Bibi moved aheadwith what had been agreed at Wye River. It was not intended as a blank check, oran offer to prop up a Prime Minister who now seemed to be looking for any waypossible not to implement the agreement.My key ally in what came next was Haim Ramon. Despite our differences overthe direction of the Peres election campaign, we had become effectiveparliamentary partners. He had a depth of political experience and knowledge I stilllacked. While I found the details of how the Knesset operated arcane and oftentiresome, Haim knew all of it instinctively. When it came to the need for discreetdiscussions or bargaining with other parties, not only could he draw on hispersonal relationships with Knesset members across the party divide. He had theadditional advantage of being able to avoid the scrutiny that would follow a directapproach from me. Before Bibi had gone to Wye, Haim and I had discussed howwe might move to force early elections. The peace process, and the country, weredrifting. There seemed no point in waiting, if we could be confident of lining upthe necessary votes among the growing number of others who were also convincedBibi should go. After the Wye summit agreement, I put all that on hold. But nowthat Bibi had shifted into reverse, I told Haim to resume his efforts.In early December, he told me he had enough votes for a no-confidence motion,under his name, to dissolve the Knesset and pave the way for early elections. Theaxe fell on December 20. Bibi had lost the support of the right-wing, who wantedOslo ended altogether. He had now lost me, too. I felt his approach to the peaceprocess was leaving Israel rudderless. The way we were heading, we would notjust forfeit any potential benefits from Oslo. We would be leaving a political anddiplomatic vacuum at a time when a serious new explosion of Palestinian violencewas becoming ever more likely. In the Knesset debate, Bibi made one final bid to303/ BARAK / 18save himself: by suggesting a delay of 72 hours for talks on a “unity” government.I said that I was all for unity. But I reminded him that, time after time, we’d savedhis government in order to continue the peace process. We could no longer helpout a “government that is not interested in upholding the Wye agreement, but onlyin its political survival.”The vote of no-confidence went against him by the yawning margin of 81 to 30,with nine Knesset members abstaining or staying away. A few days later, the datefor the election was announced: May 17, 1999.304/ BARAK / 19Chapter NineteenA few hours before Haim Ramon introduced his no-confidence resolution, hecame to see me in my office in the Knesset. He was worried. Not about the vote,but about what would come after. “Ehud, I’m sure we can topple the government,”he told me. “But only you know whether we’re ready – whether you’re ready – todefeat Bibi in an election.”“I’m ready,” I said. “We are going to win.”Few agreed. In fact, there had been times during my first year-and-a-half asLabor leader when I wondered if I’d be able to hang on to the job. I was in chargeof a party whose grassroots were on the left. I was, by intellect and instinct, apragmatist and a centrist. I did share Labor’s vision of a socially just anddemocratic Israel. Especially after seeing far-right rabbis egg on the fanaticism thatultimately killed Yitzhak Rabin, I felt strongly that we needed to separateorganized religion from our day-to-day politics. But I’d been raised with a deeperrespect for our Jewish traditions than many on the left. Right after Yitzhak’smurder, I’d gone to see Zevulun Hammer, the leader of the National ReligiousParty. It had been part of both Labor and Likud governments ever since 1948,though not Rabin’s. The NRP, too, had been drifting steadily rightward. But it stillbasically subscribed the idea of a strong, democratic Israel under the rule of law. Iwanted to bring the NRP back into the government under Peres, as part of thewidest possible political alliance against the assassination and the campaign ofhatred that had fostered it. Sadly that didn’t happen, in part because of the angeragainst all Orthodox politicians after Rabin’s murder. Yet in my readiness toengage politically with Orthodox leaders who did not reject the very idea of peacenegotiations – whether in the NRP, or the increasingly influential Sephardireligious party, Shas – I was outside Labor’s mainstream, and its comfort zone.On my approach to peace as well, I differed from many on the left. Though Iwas determined to pursue any realistic avenue to negotiations, I was convinced thatsecurity considerations had to be paramount in what we were prepared to give upor accept in negotiations. I was cautious about ceding too much too soon, in casethe Palestinians or the Syrians proved either unequal to, or uninterested in, makingthe hard decisions required for peace. That was an approach with, like Yitzhak305/ BARAK / 20before me, provoked more left-wing parties like Meretz to suggest that if I reallywanted peace, I’d be ready to give away more, and more quickly.My position wasn’t helped by the way I had come over in the media during myfirst months as Labor leader. A number of newspaper commentators wrote thatwhile they found talking with me stimulating, I seemed to be operating in a worldof my own, either unable or unwilling to give straight answers and a single, clearmessage. They were right about that. If asked a question, especially one whichobviously involved an issus of nuance, my instinct was not to come up with asound bite. It was, as best I could, to answer fully and accurately. The difficultiesthat could sometime cause hit home in an interview with a leading Israeli journalistin the spring of 1998. He asked how my life might have turned out if I’d been bornand raised not as a kibbutznik, but a Palestinian. I answered: “At some stage, Iwould have entered one of the terror organizations and fought from there, and laterwould certainly have tried to influence from within the political system.” I didhasten to add that I abhorred terrorists, describing their actions as “abominable…villainous.” But that was lost in the political storm that followed. All I’d done wasanswer as honestly I could. What if I had been one of the Palestinian babies inWadi Khawaret, but with the same mind and same impulses that had defined mylife as an Israeli? I assumed that instead of becoming an Israeli soldier andpolitician, I would have become the closest thing to a Palestinian equivalent. Still,as even my brother-in-law, Doron Cohen, told me when he phoned a couple ofhours later, it was not the most astute thing to say as a potential candidate forPrime Minister.None of this might have mattered if I’d been able to show I was bringing Labornearer to defeating Bibi. But the only measure of progress that the media paidattention to was the opinion polls. Briefly, in late 1977, I did pull ahead, during theperiod leading up to Bibi’s agreement to pull out of most of Hebron. But for muchof 1998, I was running behind, and questions about my leadership surfacedpublicly by the summer. The media commentators spoke of the need for a Labor“liftoff.” Why, after a full year as leader, had I failed to deliver it?* * *306/ BARAK / 21There was a part of politics for which I was naturally suited after my life in thearmy: to plan an operation, prepare and execute it. An ability to get the lie of theland, assess your own and your rivals’ strengths and vulnerabilities, and to win.And the “lie of the land” struck me as more encouraging than many Israelicommentators believed. When I became Labor leader, I didn’t expect Bibi to fallanytime soon. But I believed it was inevitable that at some point he’d have to maketough choices about the peace process, and I doubted his coalition with the moreright-wing Orthodox parties would survive. I also took encouragement from thefact that the political winds in other developed democracies seemed to be blowingin our direction. Bill Clinton had won in the United States. In Britain, which had aparliamentary system much closer to Israel’s, Tony Blair, as leader of a partyrenamed as New Labor, had ended eighteen years of Conservative rule and sweptto victory. Behind the scenes, I immediately made sure that, with financial helpfrom Jean Frydman and other supporters, we began the practical work of learningfrom the experience of center-left parties in other countries.Within weeks of my election as Labor chairman, I used my acquaintance with aBritish Jewish businessman named Michael Levy to see what lessons our Laborparty might learn from Tony Blair’s. Levy had been an early supporter of Blair andpersuaded the Prime Minister to welcome me through the famous black door ofNumber 10 Downing Street. After chatting in the front hallway, the British PrimeMinister led me into the back garden to discuss how he had refashioned his partyand brought it back into government. In addition to modifying or abandoningrigidly left-wing positions that most British voters had rejected, he had created aformidable campaigning team under an ally and adviser named Peter Mandelson.When I asked Blair whether it would be possible to meet Mandelson, he said hecouldn’t “give me Peter.” But he did put me in touch with Philip Gould, the pollingexpert and strategist who had partnered Mandelson in designing and running theelection campaign.We met at Labor headquarters in Milbank Towers so Philip could show me the“war room” – modelled, in part, on Bill Clinton’s campaign operation – fromwhich the victory had been planned and executed. It was a large, open-plan space,nothing like the warren of offices and conference rooms from which Labor inIsrael operated. Pride of place went to an advanced computer system, the heart of a“rebuttal unit” which charted every statement from the Conservative Party so itcould be answered, neutralized or used to adjust Labor’s own campaign. I was307/ BARAK / 22struck by how different the approach was from our campaign for Peres. As I filledmy notebook with the details, Philip added a final bit of advice. “If you want towin, have it run by the best professionals you can find. Not politicians. Theyalways have personal agendas. Focus is everything. Distractions and argumentsand infighting can be fatal.”Philip recommended one professional, in particular, to get us started: StanleyGreenberg, the pollster who had advised not only Blair’s campaign, but Clinton’s.Doron used his contacts in New York to put us in touch not only with Greenbergbut the strategist behind the Clinton victory, James Carville, and another leadingDemocratic Party consultant and speechwriter, Bob Shrum. We began workingwith all of them well before the no-confidence vote in the Knesset. Philip had awonderfully British understatement and reserve. Stanley, with his eyeglasses anddemeanor too, came over as slightly professorial. With Bob, it didn’t take long tounderstand why he was such a gifted speechwriter. He loved words, especially theway they could be used to inspire a connection with important campaign themes:above all with the idea of hope, and new beginnings. Carville was the humanequivalent of a volcano. If he hadn’t been a campaign strategist, he could havemade a living as a hybrid of a cowboy and a stand-up comedian. But they allshared the easy, infectious self-confidence of people who were very good at whatthey did, and knew it.When I went to New York with Doron to meet Carville in Feburary 1988, myconfidence as Labor leader was taking some fairly hard knocks. But from themoment he walked through our hotel-room door, it was impossible not to like him.He showed up in a T-shirt and tennis sneakers, walked straight across the room,slouched into a chair and said: “General Barak, I don’t get it. You’re a knownpublic figure, with a great mind and a great military record. It’s already been ayear-and-a-half since Israel got Netanyahu. What have you done to go after him?Why haven’t you gone on the attack?” He said it was time for me to wake up, andchange tack. “Can you run through your stump speech for me,” he asked,motioning me toward the center of the room like a film director.“I don’t have one,” I said. To which he replied briskly that I should have hadone months ago.When Stanley paid a preliminary visit with Philip to Israel, they, too, urged meto sharpen my message and pay more attention to my image with the public.308/ BARAK / 23Stanley was worried by polling data that suggested most Israelis saw Bibi as“strong.” I argued that strength was one area where we wouldn’t have to worry.“No way, in a campaign, he’ll end up coming over looking stronger than me.”Stanley seemed not entirely convinced.Both in “strength” and other ways, I think my background did prove anadvantage. The 35 years I’d spent in the military had given me a singlemindeddetermination to set goals, follow through and achieve them. After Haim Ramoncame to my office before the no-confidence vote to ask whether I was sure Iwanted to go ahead, and I answered with an unhesitating “yes,” Haim had told acouple of reporters: “Barak has balls of steel.” In truth, I was puzzled he’d evenasked me. As when I was in uniform, it would never have occurred to me to askhim to try to line up the necessary votes if I hadn’t thought it through and intendedto go ahead with it.Still, my military background was not always an asset as I found my feet asparty leader and prepared to take on Bibi in the election campaign. In searching forthe tools, the structure, and the people I felt would give us the best chance to win, Isometimes failed to pay due attention to the party’s existing apparatus andinstitutions. This alienated a number of established Labor politicians, eventuallyincluding Haim himself. So as the campaign approached I tried to shore up my tieswith the party establishment. I drafted in Bougie Herzog to act as my regularliaison with leading figures in the party. I was careful to include a number of Laborpoliticians in our campaign team as well, though, as Philip Gould hadrecommended, I made sure they didn’t actually run it.The closest equivalent to the role Haim had played in Peres’s campaign went toa young businessman, PR professional and Labor supporter named Moshe Gaon.As spokeswoman, we brought in someone who, though she’d been a messenger ofdoom during the Tze’elim controversy that engulfed me before joining Rabin’sgovernment, had undeniable experience and ability which I valued and respected:Yitzhak’s former media aide Aliza Goren. As campaign coordinator, I chose TalSilberstein, who at the time was in charge of a citizens’ group called Dor ShalemDoresh Shalom: “A Whole Generation Demands Peace.” I relied on frequent, lessformal input from political friends whose judgement I had learned to trust, likeEitan Haber and Giora Eini. Also playing a key role was a group of four youngwomen, led by Orna Angel, a successful architect and a former soldier in SayeretMatkal. She built from scratch an army of nearly 20,000 volunteers who helped309/ BARAK / 24organize events and contact voters during the campaign. We outfitted our own warroom in an open-plan floor of offices on the edge of Tel Aviv. Philip called it“Milbank South.” As organizational head of the campaign, I chose Chagai Shalom.An industrial engineer by training, he was a reserve army general who, when I waschief of staff, had been in charge of the logistics branch of the military. I gave himSayeret Matkal backup as well, in the person of Danny Yatom, my longtime friendand former sayeret deputy.* * *But all that was process. Winning or losing would come down to how ourmessage, our ability to forge alliances, and my own personal and political appeal,measured up against Bibi.The new system of separate elections for party and Prime Minister meant that inorder to win a majority, I would need the support of voters outside Labor as well. Iset out to establish a broader movement, a big tent under which a majority ofIsraelis could coexist politically. I realized this risked provoking anger amongsome Labor activists. But I wanted to convey to voters that I was reaching outbeyond my core party constituency: to “soft” right-wingers nearer the politicalcenter; to the Sephardim who since 1977 had overwhelmingly voted Likud; to thegrowing number of Russian immigrants who had helped Bibi defeat Peres; and tothose among the Orthodox who still subscribed to tolerance and moderation in themold of the old-style National Religious Party in the first few decades of the state.Though the candidates on our Knesset election list would all be from Labor, I ranthe Prime Ministerial campaign under the broader banner of Yisrael Ahat – OneIsrael. I envisaged it as an alliance of at least several different parties with Labor atits center.I began with Bibi’s jettisoned Foreign Minister, David Levy. He was aMoroccan-born 1950s immigrant whose career had begun at the grassroots, in thenorthern town of Beit She’an, but who went on to become a key part of Begin’svictory in 1977. The leading Sephardi figure in the Likud, he was at one pointmentioned as a future leader. Many Israelis, especially on the left, now portrayedhim as a figure of ridicule. But I’d always had a higher opinion of him. During the310/ BARAK / 251982 Lebanon War, with two sons fighting on the ground, he’d been a rare voice ofcommon sense, and caution, in the Begin cabinet. I’d also seen him operate inShamir’s inner security cabinet, when I would come, as deputy chief of staff, topresent military operations for approval. I remember one occasion when an airforce general laid out the details of a planned helicopter-borne mission intoLebanon. I added a few remarks in summary. Raful Eitan and Arik Sharon wereboth ministers. Within seconds, they were peppering the general and me withquestions. Why were the aircraft taking one route north instead of another? Whynot closer to Mount Hermon? Shouldn’t they fly lower? Levy interrupted.“Gentlemen,” he said, “we are not in company commanders’ course. We’re in theinner cabinet of the government of Israel. We have a chief of staff and othergenerals and military professionals. It’s their job to decide the operational details.Our job is to balance the reasons for doing an operation against the risks aspresented to us.”I met with him in the Knesset cafeteria before Bibi went off to the Wye Riversummit. Levy now headed a small breakaway faction from Likud called Gesher,Hebrew for “bridge.” Without explicitly suggesting we join forces, I explained myhope to run my eventual campaign for Prime Minister in alliance with a few otherparties. I told him I wanted to make my candidacy a legitimate choice for votersfrom the center-right, the Orthodox, as well as the Russian community. I took anapkin and drew a big umbrella to illustrate what I had in mind. He said heunderstood – though he did tell me to make sure I tore up the napkin. There came apoint, at the end of November when it looked like my overture had failed.Scampering for a way to shore up his coalition, Bibi tried to lure Levy into the foldback by offering him the Finance Ministry. But with resistance from otherministers, Bibi broke off the talks with Levy, leaving him humiliated and furious. Imet with him several more times, and we brought in Gesher as our first “OneIsrael” partner. The second to join us, early in the new year, was a small religiousparty called Meimad, inspired by an openly pro-peace Orthodox rabbi namedYehuda Amital and including a former Chief Rabbi of Norway, Michael Melchior.By the end of January 1999, several months before the real campaign, I wasfeeling better about where we stood, in part because of a series of hits Bibi wastaking from former friends and allies. The first salvo was fired by Misha Arens,who had helped engineer Bibi’s move into national politics. He announced he wasgoing to put himself forward for the Likud leadership before the election, saying311/ BARAK / 26that he and others were convinced Bibi couldn’t win. A couple of weeks later,Yitzhik Mordechai seemed on the verge of becoming the latest of Bibi’s ministersto resign. He was openly flirting with the idea of joining a new centrist party thathad been formed by Likud’s Dan Meridor. Bibi struck back with a mixture ofsubtlety and venom. He fired Mordechai, accusing him of being driven by personalambition. Then he offered the Defense Minister’s job to Misha Arens.Yitzhik did join the Center Party, as did Amnon Lipkin, who had ended histerm as chief-of-staff and, with initial opinion poll numbers suggesting he’d dowell, even briefly entered the race for Prime Minister. Now, he endorsed YitzhikMordechai instead: a man not only with strong military credentials, but of Sephardibackground and religiously observant, and a proven politician and cabinet minister.It was clear that he would be going after many of the same votes I needed to win.That situation wasn’t ideal, to put it mildly. But all I could do at this stage wasto put our own campaign house in order. I hoped that if we ran the campaign Iexpected, there wouldn’t be a run-off.* * *At the start of April, the final list of candidates was set. There were five. Inaddition to Bibi, Yitzhik and me, Benny Begin had decided to run on the right.Also in the contest was Knesset member Azmi Beshara, the first Israeli Arabcitizen to seek national office.When we chose “One Israel” as the name of our campaign alliance, it was notmeant just as a catchy phrase. Though now a half-century old, the country hadrarely seemed so diverse, and in many ways divided. It was not just the old faultline between Labor and Revisionist Zionism that defined our politics, or even theAshkenazi-Sephardi gulf that had predominated since the late 1970s. There werenew, younger, more assertive, more right-wing and more pro-settlement voicesamong the Orthodox. There was the contrast between the overwhelmingly secular,politically and socially liberal, and culturally Western Tel Aviv, with its livelycafés and restaurants, and the constellation of wealthy suburbs to the north; andsmaller Israeli towns and cities in the interior, Jerusalem as well, not to mention312/ BARAK / 27the settlements on the West Bank. Since the fall of the Soviet Union, hundreds ofthousands of Russians had also flowed into Israel. Most were Jewish in culturemore than religious observance, but they were instinctively inclined to supportcandidates – Rabin in 1992, and Bibi the last time around – who they felt werelikely to take a tough line in any peace negotiations with the Arabs.I was never going to get the backing of many West Bank settlers, or of coresupporters of the Likud and parties even further to the right. But I would need tomake at least some dent in Bibi’s hold on the Russian voters who had supportedhim by a wide margin in 1996. I focused first on Yisrael Ba’Aliyah, the mainRussian immigrant political party. It had been set up by the iconic Soviet-erarefusenik Natan Sharansky – or, as he was then known, Anatoly Sharansky. He’dbeen an ally of Andrei Sakharov, an outspoken human rights advocate and, until hewas finally released and allowed to leave in 1986, a political prisoner in the gulag.Though Natan’s party was not going to offer a formal endorsement for anycandidate, I met with him to press the case for “security and peace,” the messageI’d tried to advance with Shimon three years earlier, and to emphasize the need tobring unity and shared purpose back to the country. Though I think he would havebeen receptive anyway, it didn’t hurt that he, like me, was a mathematics graduate– from Moscow’s Physics and Technology Institute. He was also a chessaficionado. When I was rash enough to face him across the board, as I recall, ittook him all of five minutes, and seven moves, to checkmate me.But I also made dozens of visits to Russian community groups, and met withindividual families whenever I could. Often, I found myself talking to older menand women among the immigrants about the military details of the Great PatrioticWar, as the Russians called World War Two. On a number of occasions, I acceptedthe invitation to sit down and play on a sitting-room piano. I think the first time Igot a sense that any of this might be having an impact was in a quote from aYisrael Ba’Aliyah official in an Israeli newspaper. Though still stopping short of aformal endorsement, the official was quoted as saying: “A month ago, youngRussians thought Barak was a boring, left-wing socialist party leader who doesn’tlook good on TV and mumbles a lot... Today, they see him as a high-rankingIsraeli general who knows how to play the piano. The Russian immigrants likestrong, cultured people.” Except for the bit about mumbling, I couldn’t havewished for more.313/ BARAK / 28The next key moment in the campaign involved something I did not do. Thistime, the Israeli television debate came earlier in the campaign, a month before theelection. Bibi, Yitzhik Mordechai and I were all invited, as the three maincandidates. But I told the TV people I had a conflicting personal engagement. Ifigured I had nothing to gain by going. To join a three-way debate risked creatingthe impression this was a genuine three-man race, and I still held out hope it wouldcome down to just me and Bibi. Besides, I thought a debate between the other twowould help me. Yitzhik knew Bibi well. He had served in Bibi’s government.Though not a natural orator, he was always forthright, and often pugnacious, inmaking his points. And he couldn’t stand Bibi.Unlike the 1996 debate, this time there was a knock-out blow, and Bibi was theone left on the canvas. It was a bit like Senator Lloyd Bentsen’s killer riposte whenRepublic vice-presidential candidate Dan Quayle compared himself to John F.Kennedy in their debate, a few months earlier: “Jack Kennedy was a friend ofmine. Senator, you’re no Jack Kennedy…” Bibi entered his television showdownwith Yitzhik Mordechai with much the same strategy he’d used against Peres. Hewent on the offensive. He tried to portray himself as an indispensable bulwarkagainst those, like Yitzhik or me, who he said would cosy up to Arafat and Assadand endanger Israel’s security. But Yitzhik was up for the fight. He also knew thatonly months earlier, Bibi himself had been exploring the idea of giving up theGolan Heights to the same President Assad. He didn’t actually refer to the secretmission by Ronald Lauder, or explicitly accuse Bibi of hypocrisy. But his reply –and Bibi’s visible discomfort – were just as effective. Smiling sardonically, hesaid: “I know your outbursts, and they won’t do you any good.” He challengedBibi to just “look me in the eye” and admit what he really thought about the futureof the Golan. The media verdict was unanimous. Mordechai had won. Whichmeant I had won.Though my American and British brains’ trust had little input into our day-todaycampaign, they did play a role in the thrust and strategy. I tried to drive hometwo things as we entered the two-week homestretch in May. My first, broadmessage was an echo of James Carville’s central theme in the Clinton Presidentialcampaign: “change, versus more of the same.” It had worked in the US not becauseit was clever, but because it resonated with large numbers of voters. I sensed fromthe start of the campaign that it was true of Israel as well. Different groups haddifferent gripes, and different ideas of what they hoped I would provide as Prime314/ BARAK / 29Minister. But fewer and fewer Israelis were enthusiastic about four more years ofBibi. But I also was keen to convey the substance of what my premiership wouldbe about. Domestically, I spoke of the need to narrow gaps in education andopportunity – particularly, though not only, the continuing disadvantage of many inthe Sephardi communities who had arrived in the early years of the state. I wantedto try to build bridges between the secular and religious as well. My hope was tobegin to recreate the “One Israel” of my youth.In terms of policy, I believed my primary job would be deliver “security andpeace” – in that order. I declared my commitment to continue, and build on, Osloand to make a new push in negotiations with Syria. Deliberately following themodel Philip Gould had used in Tony Blair’s election campaign, we alsodistributed nearly a million copies of a six-point policy “pledge card”. It included apromise to hold a referendum on any peace deal we reached with Syria or thePalestinians, as well as several domestic policy pledges, including an end todiscrimination against Russian immigrants whose Jewish religious status had beencalled into question.Yet the most widely reported promise was that I would pull out all Israeli troopsfrom Lebanon within a year. I realized that even among those who knew that madesense, voices would be raised both in the Knesset and the kiyra againstwithdrawing. As with the Bar-Lev Line before the 1973 War, the longer the“security zone” was in place, the more difficult that politicians had found it to sayit was a mistake. Yet it had now been there for nearly two decades. The mainargument for keeping it – that it protected the security of northern Israel – wasundermined by the fact that thousands of Katyusha rockets had been fired over it.And in the low-grade war we were fighting against Hizbollah inside the securityzone, around 20 Israeli soldiers had been dying each and every year. When I’d firstvisited our positions in south Lebanon in the early 1980s, chatted with the troopsand asked them how they were doing, the invariable response was: we’re OK.We’re just worried about our young kids back home. Now, those children weremanning the same outposts, facing the same danger, in a sliver of land on whichwe had no claim, which we had no desire to hold, and which was, at best, ofquestionable security value.* * *315/ BARAK / 30I’d tried not to pay too much attention to newspaper polls during the campaign,perhaps because even the “good” ones, to use Shimon’s phrase, had me with just anarrow lead, with Yitzhik Mordechai’s 10 or 11 percent still likely to preventoutright victory in the first round. But in the second part of May, our internalpolling showed things were moving in our direction. In mid-May, they had meabove 40 percent. A final batch of internal polls, on the Friday before election day,had me just short of 50 percent. But I told our pollsters that under no circumstanceswere they to divulge the results to anyone in the campaign team. This wasn’t justbecause I wanted to guard against complacency. It was because, deep down, still Ididn’t trust the numbers.I retreated to Kochav Yair on Friday evening. On Saturday, two days before theelection, I had a surprise visitor, someone I knew from Yitzhik Mordecai’s team.He said he had a letter for me, with terms of a proposal under which Yitzhik wouldannounce an eleventh-hour withdrawal from the race. I still could not be absolutelyconfident I’d win, at least in the first round. Yitzhik’s pulling out would help. Butif I did win, I wanted to start the process of assembling a coalition with a blankslate and an open mind. Doing a deal was not the way to begin. I didn’t accept oropen the envelope. “Go back to Yitzhik,” I said. “Tell him, as he knows, that Ihave a lot of respect for him. But this is a decision that he has to make on his own.”The next day, less than 24 hours before the polls opened, all of the three othercandidates announced they were pulling out. Benny Begin and Azmi Beshara werenever going to affect the outcome. But Yitzhik’s withdrawal very possibly would.When he spoke to reporters, he said it had been one of the most difficult decisionshe’d had to make, but that he’d concluded he wouldn’t get enough votes to reachhis “primary goal” of defeating Bibi. “The prime minister was given a chance andhe failed,” he said. “We must give Barak a chance.”I got up early on May 17, confident we’d done everything we could to putourselves in a position to win, but also aware, from Shimon’s defeat, that thesmallest of details, and the narrowest of margins, might determine the outcome.After the 1996 election, I’d learned of cases where Peres volunteers outside pollingstations in the Negev or the north of the country had left early, in order to makesure they’d be back to Tel Aviv in time for the “moment of victory.” Now, I sentout word that all our volunteers must stay in place until the polls had closed. After316/ BARAK / 31Nava and I voted, we attended an event for Labor supporters north of Tel Aviv,before flying to Beersheva to spend the final hours in the Negev. I’d arranged forShlomo Ben-Ami to go to Kiryat Shmona in the north – emphasizing, asthroughout the campaign, our determination to broaden our support beyondLabor’s heartland. The polls closed at 10 o’clock. I knew Bibi would be staring atthe same Channel One newscast as I was, each of us ready to put the best spin onthings, especially if there was no clear sign at this stage which one of us had won.But the exit poll findings came as a shock: Barak, of One Israel, 58.5 percent;Netanyahu, Likud, 41.5 percent. It was a landslide.The full impact hit me only when I got to the fifth-floor suite in the Dan Hotelin Tel Aviv, our election-night headquarters. My three brothers, and Nava and ourdaughters, were waiting for me. Leah Rabin, too. Our eyes teared up as weembraced. My parents were by now too frail to come. But I’d promised to phonethem, whatever happened. “We did it,” I told my father, who said mazaltov with adepth of feeling which had become rare as his health began to fail. My mother hadalways been a bit conflicted about my going into politics, despite her lifelongbelief that the issues of politics mattered, especially after Yitzhak had been cutdown and killed for following the path on which I hoped to continue. Still, I couldhear the pride, and relief, in her voice when I said: “Remember, ima. I did promiseyou that if I ran, at least I’d make sure to win.”When we’d finished speaking, Bibi called. He had conceded publicly as soonas the exit poll was out. He had also stunned the Likud crowd by immediatelyresigning as party leader. “Congratulations,” he said, sounding, more thananything, tired. “I accept that the voters have spoken.” I thanked him for taking thetrouble to call. I said I appreciated the contribution he’d made to the country, andthat we’d meet in the next few days to discuss how best to handle the politicaltransition. “Thanks,” Bibi said. “And again, mazaltov.”By the time I got off the phone with Bibi, the TV was showing pictures of tensof thousands of people celebrating the results in the central Tel Aviv square, nowrenamed in Rabin’s memory, where he had been murdered nearly four yearsearlier. Before leaving to join them, I fielded a stream of calls: from friends, otherIsraeli party leaders and leaders from abroad, including Tony Blair and BillClinton, both of whom not only offered warm congratulations but said they lookedforward to working with me as I tried to move Israel forward and to finish thework Yitzhak had begun.317/ BARAK / 32At the start of my brief remarks at the hotel podium before going to RabinSquare, I had to call for quiet when I mentioned the phone call from Bibi. “No,” Isaid, raising my voice to be heard above the boos, “we will not boo an incumbentPrime Minister of Israel… A short time ago, I spoke with Prime MinisterNetanyahu and thanked him for his service to the State of Israel.” Then – with bothLeah and Shimon Peres at my side – I paid tribute to “that one special person whohad a unique role in our reaching this moment – somebody who was mycommander and guide, and the person who led me into politics: Yitzhak Rabin. Ipledged to fulfil his legacy, and complete the work he’d started. And I extended ahand to “secular and religious, the ultra-Orthodox and the residents of thesettlements, to Israelis of Middle Eastern origin and Ashkenazi extraction, toimmigrants from Eithopia and the former Soviet Union, to the Arabs, the Druze,the Circassians, the Bedouin. All, all of them, are part of the Israeli people.”It was not long before sunrise when I reached the square. As the crowd shoutedand sang, I began with a line borrowed from Bob Shrum. It seemed particularlyapt: “It is the breaking of a new dawn,” I said.But was it? As I paid tribute to Rabin – “in this place where our hearts broke” –and dedicated myself to completing the work he’d begun, I could feel thethousands in the square willing me on. Even in my more nuanced comments on thetalks with the Palestinians: the need to achieve peace, but at least for now bydisengaging rather than joining hands with the Palestinians, ensuring we hadmilitary and border provisions to safeguard our security, and with the stipulationthat Jerusalem would remain our undivided capital, under Israeli sovereignty. Butsome in the crowd were carrying posters saying “No to the charedim” – the strictlyOrthodox. Others were chanting, in anticipation of the negotiations needed to puttogether a coalition: Rak lo Shas! Anyone but Shas! It was a reference to theSephardi Orthodox party, which in addition to being more nuanced and flexiblethan other religious parties on the issue of peace talks, had been the big winner inthe election. It had gained seven seats and now had only two fewer than the Likud.I did not specifically mention Shas. But I said: “I tell you here that the time hascome to end divisions. The time has come to make peace among ourselves,whether we are traditionalists or secularists… We must not be enemies of eachother.” Paying tribute to all those in the square who had worked for our electionvictory, I added: “I know it would not have been possible without your support.But I also know it would not have been possible without the support many in the318/ BARAK / 33Likud. I appreciate that as well. And I undertake to be rosh hasmemshalah shelkulam: Prime Minister for all Israelis.Yet as fervently as I hoped to be able deliver on that pledge, I knew, even as Ispoke, that actually fulfilling it was going to be much, much tougher.319/ BARAK / 34Chapter TwentyAs Prime Minister, I would sometimes be criticised as emotionally buttoned up,even stoic, and there was some truth in that. It was partly just a reflection of who Iwas: a kibbutznik who’d grown up in the early years of the state, and had thenspent most of his life in the army. But while it may not have shown, I felt a churnof emotions when I formally presented my government to the Knesset in July 1999as Nava, our three daughters, her parents and mine looked on proudly from thegallery. Even more so, when I entered the office of the Prime Minister. I’d beenthere before: as head of military intelligence, chief of staff and a cabinet minister.Yet to sit behind the vast wooden desk and know that the buck now truly stoppedwith me – to become just the tenth person in Israel’s history to have that honor –was very different.What I felt most powerfully, however, wasn’t the honor. It was theresponsibility. I knew that Israel faced two deepening crises. The first wasdomestic. Though Yitzhak Rabin’s assassin was now in jail, the divisiveness andhatred of which he was a product and symbol had not gone away. Nor had otherrifts: between the privileged and disadvantaged, Ashkenazim and Sephardim, and,perhaps most of all, secular and religious. The second, more immediate challengewas on our borders. The peace process was stalled. If we were going to revive it,we were running against the clock. President Clinton, a key player in any hope ofturning the promise of Oslo into real peace, had only 18 months remaining inoffice. In terms of Israel’s security, the timetable was even less forgiving. From myvery first intelligence briefings as Prime Minister, I was even more convinced ofwhat I’d been warning Bibi for months: without a political breakthrough, a new,much more deadly intifada was only a matter of time.That would have been reason enough to make peace efforts my first priority.But even as I was addressing the victory rally in Rabin Square, I sensed that thesimple arithmetic of the election results would leave me no other choice. I wasentering office with the largest electoral mandate in our history. But that wasbecause of Israel’s new voting system, with separate ballots cast for Prime Ministerand party. That system had had precisely the opposite effect on party voting. Inprevious elections, most Israelis had chosen one of the two main parties, knowingthat only they had a realistic chance of forming a government. Now they coulddirectly choose the Prime Minister, giving them the luxury to vote in much greater320/ BARAK / 35numbers for an array of smaller, issue-specific parties. The result: though I’d wonby a landslide, and One Israel had the largest number of Knesset seats, even withour natural left-of-center ally, Meretz, we would have only 36 Knesset seats – wellshort of the 61 needed for a majority. Even if we included a few smaller parties,there was no choice but to bring in one of the two larger ones: the SephardiOrthodox Shas, with 17 seats; or Likud, which, after Bibi’s sudden resignation,was now led by Arik Sharon, and had 19.It wasn’t just a math problem. It had a critical policy implication. If I wanted totackle the domestic challenge – to reassert the values of secular-led democraticgovernment over increasingly assertive religious involvement in our day-to-daypolitics – that would mean choosing Likud over Shas. But it would also signal theeffective end of the peace process. Even though Arik assured me privately that heunderstood my determination to reopen peace efforts with Arafat and Hafez al-Assad, I knew Arik. The path toward peace agreements, assuming they were evenpossible, would be tough. Sooner or later – and certainly if we faced the need toconsider painful compromises in the negotiations – I was certain that Arik wouldact as a kind of opposition from within. That was why, over the angry oppositionof Meretz leader Yossi Sarid, I decided to go with the Sephardi Orthodox party. Irealized that even Shas might walk out if the scale of any land-for-peaceconcessions proved too high. But it was the least extreme of the major religiousparties on the question of peace with the Palestinians. In my conversations with theparty’s spiritual leader and guide, the 79-year-old rabbi and Talmudic scholarOvadia Yosef, I was struck by his intelligence, erudition and subtletly of thought –but, above all, his commitment to the core Jewish principle of sanctifying humanlife over the specifics of Oslo redeployments, where his inclination seemed to be totrust the judgment of those with the experience and expertise to evaluate thesecurity implications.To Meretz’s additional consternation, I included two smaller, right-of-centerOrthodox parties in the coalition. It was not just to make good on my pledge to bePrime Minister for all Israelis. Knowing that I was going to put top priority on thepeace process, I wanted to avoid an undiluted left-of-centre, secular thrust to thegovernment. When I’d stood in front of the tens of thousands of cheeringsupporters in Rabin Square after the election, I thought to myself: they think thatwith Bibi gone, peace is around the corner. I wanted a coalition broad enough tokeep Meretz, and Labor ministers as well, from forgetting a crucial fact: the321/ BARAK / 36compromises that we might have to contemplate during peace negotiations werestill anathema to many other Israelis.* * *Syria was always my first negotiating priority, as it had been for Rabin and, fora brief period, Bibi as well. This was not just because the shape of a finalagreement with the Syrians was clearer, to both sides, than with the Palestinians. Itwas because I was determined to make good on the main specific policy pledge ofmy campaign: to bring our troops home from Lebanon. No matter what theincreasingly emboldened fighters of Hizbollah said publicly, our withdrawal wouldbe bad news for them. It would deprive them of their “anti-occupation” rationalefor firing Katyushas into towns and settlements in northern Israel, and free uspolitically to strike back hard if that proved necessary. It was clear to me thatHizbollah would try to make the withdrawal as difficult for us as possible. But thereal power in Lebanon rested with the Syrians, who, along with Iran, wereHizbollah’s main backers. If we could get a peace agreement with Assad, thereseemed every reason to hope he would rein in Hizbollah, and perhaps open the wayto a peace treaty with Lebanon as well.Still, there was no way of hiding an additional attraction in getting a deal withSyria first: it would increase our negotiating leverage with the Palestinians. Thatwould certainly not be lost on Yasir Arafat – one reason that I realized theimportance of an early meeting with him, to convey my commitment to keepingthe Oslo process alive, and, if possible, achieving a full and final Israeli-Palestinianpeace.* * *I went to see Arafat a few days after taking office. We met for well over anhour at Erez, the main crossing point into Gaza. It was swelteringly hot inside. Atleast I was in an ordinary business suit, but I couldn’t help wondering how Arafat322/ BARAK / 37was coping in his trademark military uniform. Still, the mood music going into themeeting was encouraging. After the election, Arafat had tried to use his ties withthe ayatollahs in Iran to get them to release 13 members of the tiny Jewishcommunity in Shiraz who had been jailed on patently absurd accusations of spyingfor the “Zionist régime.” Iran had told him no. Given its support for Hizbollah, andits serial diatribes about destroying the State of Israel, this was hardly a surprise.But it was a gesture nonetheless, and I told him I appreciated it. I also arrived witha gift: a leather-bound volume with both the Hebrew Bible and Koran. I began ourmeeting with what I felt I most needed him to hear: that both of us were trying toachieve something hugely important, nothing less than a new relationship betweenIsraelis and Palestinians based on trust. As I would discover in the months ahead –as Yitzhak had found as well – Arafat responded warmly to such general appealsof principle. He replied that he viewed me as a partner, and a friend. But the keyissue of substance – the difference between how I envisaged taking Oslo forwardand what he wanted – was impossible to avoid.I emphasized that I was committed to the further Wye River summitredeployments Bibi which had agreed, although not implemented, as well as to arelease of Palestinian prisoners agreed at Wye. Yet then came the more difficultpart: explaining my view of how we could best move toward a full peaceagreement. I said I was convinced the prospects would be much better if wedelayed the redeployments and brought forward the start of the real negotiations:on “permanent-status” issues like final borders, settlements, Jerusalem, refugees. Inany case, I said, I’d need a few months for a thorough assessment of the issuesinvolved, and to reach a settled view with my negotiating team on how to proceed.Arafat seemed to accept the idea of a pause for reflection and planning. But he heldfirm in his opposition to any further delay in the Wye redeployments. Moreworryingly for the longer-term prospects of an agreement, he ignored altogethermy suggestion that we move ahead toward the permanent-status talks.Speaking to reporters, I was careful to accentuate the positive. I said the reasonI’d come to see Arafat so soon was because of the importance I attached to his rolein “shaping peace in the Middle East.” I said I would not waver in continuing onthe path which Rabin and he and begun. And while the security of Israel would bemy paramount concern in negotiations, “I also want each Palestinian to feelsecure.” Both sides, I said, had suffered enough. The open question, however, waswhether I had done enough to persuade Arafat that his exclusive focus on323/ BARAK / 38redeployments – on only the land part of a land-for-peace deal – meant we riskedignoring the core issues that would determine whether a full peace agreement wasachievable.More urgently, I knew from our diplomats in the US that the Americans wouldnot necessarily be receptive to a further delay in moving ahead with Oslo, even if itmeant focusing on trying to make peace with Syria. That made my first visit to seePresident Clinton as Prime Minister especially important.* * *It was billed as a “working visit” and work we did. After a gala dinner for Navaand me in the White House, we helicoptered to the presidential retreat at CampDavid. President Clinton and I spent more than 10 hours discussing shared securitychallenges in the Middle East, especially terrorist groups and states like Iran thatwere backing them, and, of course, how best to move forward our efforts tonegotiate peace. These face-to-face meetings set a pattern that would lastthroughout the time he and I were in office. On almost all key issues, mypreference was to deal directly with the President, something I know sometimesfrustrated other senior US negotiators like Secretary of State Madeleine Albrightand Mideast envoy Dennis Ross. This was not out of any disrespect for them. Itwas because the decisions on which negotiations would succeed or fail would haveto be made at the top, just as President Clinton and I would ultimately carry theresponsibility, or the blame, for errors, missteps or missed opportunities.Our first meeting ran until three in the morning. When the President asked mehow I saw the peace process going forward, he smiled, in obviously relief, at myanswer: I wanted to move quickly. He had only a limited time left in office, and Iwas determined that we not waste it. Much is often made about the personal“chemistry” in political relationships. Too much, I think, because the core issues,and the trade-offs of substance, are what truly matter when negotiating matters ofthe weight, and long-term implications, of Middle East peace. Still, chemistry doeshelp when moments of tension or crisis arise, as they inevitably do. My first fewdays with President Clinton laid a foundation that allowed us to work together evenwhen things got tough. I benefited, I’m sure, simply by not being Bibi. The324/ BARAK / 39president and his negotiating team had spent the previous few, frustrating yearstrying alternately to urge, nudge and cajole him – and, of course, Arafat – towardimplementing Oslo. Clinton did finally succeed in getting the Wye Riveragreement. But it, too, remained to be implemented.Nava’s presence, and Hillary Clinton’s, contributed to an informal, familialatmosphere. Before my first round of talks with the President, we joined Bill andHillary for dinner. Though I would work more closely with Hillary in later years,when she was Secretary of State under President Obama, this was the first time I’dhad the opportunity to engage in anything more than small talk with her. She wasless naturally outgoing than her husband. Yet not only was she bright andarticulate. She was barely less informed on the ins and outs of Middle East peacenegotiations than the President. She, and Bill as well, also spoke with us aboutthings well beyond the diplomacy of the Middle East: science, music, and ourshared interest in history. What most struck Nava and me, however, was the waythe Clintons interacted with each other. The scandal surrounding Monica Lewinskywas still fresh. I suppose we expected to see signs of tension. Whether they werethere, we had no way of knowing. But what the two of them did palpably have wasa deep respect for each other’s intelligence, insight and creativity in looking forsolutions where so many others saw only problems. It was impressive.Still, there was little small talk in the long discussions I had with the President.From the outset, I wanted him to know exactly what I hoped we could accomplishand how, in my view, we were most likely to get there. I wasn’t trying to impose“ground rules” on the President of the United States, something I neither would norcould do. But I was explicit with him about my own approach the negotiations. Iassured him I was prepared to be flexible. But I said I’d be relying on two criticalassumptions. The first was that when we and the Americans agreed a position on aspecific issue, there would be no unilateral “surprises” – by which I meant, thoughdidn’t say, things like the unfortunate American redefinition of Yitzhak’s “pocketdeposit” assurance regarding the Golan. The second assumption, I know, mayseem overly legalistic. It was that, until and unless we reached a full and finalagreement with either Syria or the Palestinians, any Israeli negotiating ideas orproposals would not be binding. If no agreement was reached, they would becomenull and void. I wanted to avoid a situation, as had happened so often in pastnegotiations, where an Israeli proposal was rejected by the Arab side but thentreated as the opening position in the expectation of further concessions in later325/ BARAK / 40talks. I did realize that, “null and void” or not, our proposals or suggestions wouldnot simply disappear from memory. But I felt the point of principle was essential ifIsrael was going to be able to consider the kind of far-reaching concessions whichfinal peace deals might require.In the end, I realized that we might simply discover that Assad, and certainlyArafat, were not willing or ready to make peace. We might, initially at least, haveto settle for a more incremental step. “Right here in Camp David, Begin, Sadat andCarter couldn’t complete the process,” I pointed out. “They signed a ‘frameworkagreement’ and it took months of further diplomacy to reach a peace treaty. Maybewe’ll end up doing the same.” But I told the President I was convinced that if wedidn’t try to get agreements, we’d have no way of knowing whether the will tomake peace was there on the other side. Assad, I suspected, was the more likely toreciprocate. That was a major reason I wanted to start our efforts with him. But sofar, his true intentions had never been tested, beyond his obvious determination toget back the Golan. Nor had Arafat’s, beyond his focus on the detail and extent ofWest Bank redeployments.President Clinton did not object to an early effort to reopen our efforts with theSyrians. But he was worried about the effects of ignoring the already-creakingprospects of fulfilling the promise of Oslo. If we were going to delay focusing onthat, Clinton told me, he needed to be able to assure Arafat the wait would beworth his while. What could we give the PLO leader in return for putting off theWye redeployments further, he asked. And then, the real question on his mind:“Ehud, when we get to the final redeployment and a peace deal, how much of theWest Bank are you prepared to hand back?”I simply didn’t know at this stage. Much would depend on whether we could besure Arafat could or would deliver a final peace. But even if I had known, I wouldhave been reluctant to name a precise percentage. Though I had full trust inPresident Clinton, I knew that everything he and I said would be shared with atleast a few of his closest policy aides and negotiators. Sooner or later, word wouldget to Arafat. When we did begin negotiations, he’d take whatever number I gaveas a mere starting point. Still, I knew I had to signal the President that I was seriousabout negotiating with Arafat when the time came. I also knew the main source ofhis concern. In order to get the agreement at Wye, the President had signed on to aprovision that the dimension of the third and final redeployment phase would bedetermined by Israel alone. By that stage, when we got there, Arafat would have326/ BARAK / 41control of something like 40 percent of the West Bank. That meant – at least intheory – that Israel could limit phase-three to a mere token pullout, leaving thePalestinians with less than half of the territory.“I don’t know what percentage, exactly,” I replied. “But one of my cabinetministers thinks that a formula of 70-10-20 would work, meaning 70 percent forthe Palestinians, ten percent to allow us to retain and secure the largest of thesettlement blocs, and the rest to be worked out in further talks.” When he nodded, Iadded: “Peres thinks it could end up at 80-20, and says he thinks Arafat would findit hard to walk away from getting control of four-fifths of the West Bank. But it’snot about the number. It’s about the area needed for the major settlements, andwhatever else is required to safeguard our security. Beyond that, we don’t need asingle inch of the West Bank, and we won’t ask for a single inch.”I replied in much the same vein when President Clinton urged me to help kickstartnew talks with Assad by formally reaffirming Yitzhak’s “pocket deposit” onthe Golan Heights. As with the Palestinians, I was not going to cede a majornegotiating card – our only real negotiating card – before we had any indicationAssad was serious about making peace. But I did feel it was necessary to reassureClinton that I was serious. I told him that, if and when the Syrians showed realsigns of readiness to address our needs in a peace agreement, I would reaffirm the“pocket deposit.”I’d come to Washington hoping that President Clinton would be with me on themain issues of substance. But what I needed most at this point was his support onthe procedural decisions I’d made in order to get to real peace negotiations:engaging with Syria first, and shifting the emphasis on the Palestinian track awayfrom the redeployments toward the core permanent-status issues we’d have toresolve in order to get a peace agreement. What emerged from my first meetingswith President Clinton was essentially a trade-off. He knew I would be ready tomake concessions in pursuit of genuine peace. I was confident that on the routethat I was proposing to take, he would have my back.But what I couldn’t be sure of was whether my own government would havemy back. On paper, we had a comfortable Knesset majority: 75 out of the 120seats. But I knew it was inherently vulnerable, both to friction between theOrthodox parties and assertively secular MKs from Meretz and inside Labor, andto possible defections over the concessions we might have to consider in peace327/ BARAK / 42negotiations. The first stirrings of discontent had begun even before I went to seeClinton. On the basis of my commitment merely to try for peace, Arik Sharon hadpresented a no-confidence motion in the Knesset. It was never going to pass. Butonly days after I’d made him Interior Minister, Natan Sharansky let it be known hewas going to vote against us. He didn’t. He stayed away from the chamber, ineffect abstaining. But I’d been put on notice.I did lose my first coalition partner in September: the small United TorahJudaism party, with five Knesset seats. It wasn’t over land-for-peace. In an echo ofa similar crisis that brought down the government during Rabin’s first spell asPrime Minister in the 1970s, it was over a violation of the Jewish Sabbath. Itturned out that Israel’s state electric company had been transporting a huge steamcondensationmachine from the manufacturing site near Haifa to a power plant inAshdod. The unit was the size of a small apartment. It weighed 100 tons. Itcouldn’t be driven across the country without bringing weekday traffic to astandstill. The obvious solution was to do it when road use was lightest, onShabbat. Precisely the same procedure had been followed – 24 times – under Bibi.But when I asked a United Torah Judaism leader why he’d seemed happy whenLikud had waved it through, he replied: “Past sins cannot pardon future ones.” EliSuissa, one of the Shas ministers in the cabinet, took his side, saying: “Every houris good for the keeping of Shabbat.” Most other ministers agreed with me that weshould stand firm. So I did. But UTJ walked out of the government. Shas didremain. But I was now increasingly certain that at some stage its ministers, too,would leave.In the midst of the Sharanksy rebellion, Haim Ramon, who was the minister incharge of liaising with the Knesset, insisted I “punish” him for his politicalgrandstanding. “You should fire Sharansky. Act like a leader!” I just laughed. “Thecoalition doesn’t need a leader,” I replied. “It needs therapy.” In truth, I suspectedthat if we ever got near to a peace agreement with Assad or Arafat, even therapymight not help. But that was a main reason that I’d promised a referendum on anyfinal peace deals. I believed that in the choice between concessions, even painfulones, and a genuine peace deal with Syria or the Palestinians, by far most Israeliswould choose peace.I relied on a strong, close team around me, people I knew well and who sharedmy determination to stay focused on the central goal: to put Israel in a positionwhere its citizens could be given that choice. I made Danny Yatom, my former328/ BARAK / 43sayeret deputy, my chief of staff. The negotiating team also included Uri Saguy,former head of military intelligence; Gilad Sher, a gifted lawyer I’d known for aquarter of a century and who had been a company commander in my armoredbrigade in the 1970s; and Amnon Lipkin, the paratroop commander at ChineseFarm and my successor as ramatkal when I left the army. Also, Shlomo Ben-Ami,the Moroccan-born, Oxford-educated historian and diplomat who had run againstme for the Labor leadership. Shlomo had a gift for systematic analysis and keenjudgement, especially on security issues, which I highly valued.It did not escape the attention of Israeli commentators, or other politicians, thatalmost all of them were former soldiers whom I’d known from my time in uniform.But that observation missed a more important point: we were all members of the“generation of 1967 and 1973.” We had been soldiers during the Six-Day War. Inthe years immediately after it, like almost all Israelis, we had allowed ourselves tobelieve that our victory had been so comprehensive, and so quick, that any threatfrom the defeated Arab states was gone for good. We assumed that inevitably,inexorably, they would realize they needed to sue for peace, and that there was noparticular urgency on our part to do anything more than wait. Then, on YomKippur 1973, all of that had been turned on its head. We had not only learned thelessons, of 1973. We had internalized them. Even had we not known of the dangerof a new Palestinian campaign of terror, the option of simply watching and waiting– and assuming that our military strength, which was now even greater, couldmake events around us stand still – would not have made sense to us. Besides, as Iremarked to Danny and others, to do so would run against the founding purpose ofZionism: to establish a state where Jews would no longer be victims of events, butwould take control of their destiny and try to shape them.* * *Yet making peace, like making war, takes two. Much as I’d wanted to beginwith Syria, until well into the autumn of 1999 President Assad was holding firm onhis insistence that without our “deposit,” without a prior agreement that he’d getback the Golan, there could be no substantive progress. This was particularlyfrustrating because I was getting reports from our intelligence services, and329/ BARAK / 44Western envoys who had seen the Syrian president, that Assad’s many years ofhealth problems had left him almost skeletally frail, even at times disoriented.Even my own negotiating team urged me to concentrate on the Palestiniansinstead. President Clinton kept stressing the importance of showing Arafat at leastsome movement on the Oslo front. In September 1999, I took a first, significantstep in that direction. I agreed to a timetable that would deliver the Wyeredeployments by the end of January 2000, while also committing us to negotiatinga framework agreement, on the model of the Begin-Sadat Camp David accords, onthe “permanent-status” peace issues. In early November, I joined Clinton andArafat for talks around an event in Oslo – a deliberate echo of the optimism withwhich the peace process had begun, held on the fourth anniversary of Rabin’sassassination. Both Leah Rabin and Peres came with me. Its centerpiece was amemorial service, at which Leah spoke very movingly of the need for both sides tofinish the work Yitzhak had begun, a responsibility I pledged that we would doeverything in our power to fulfill. Only Arafat struck a discordant note. He paired atribute to Rabin with a polemic call for an end to “occupation, exile andsettlements.”After the ceremony, he, President Clinton and I met at the Americanambassador’s residence. I was still struck by Arafat’s public comments: by hisapparent desire, or need, to play to hardliners back home in what was supposed tobe a time to remember and honor Yitzhak. I didn’t raise his remarks directly, but Itold him that each of us was approaching a moment of truth for the future of ourpeople. The decisions required wouldn’t be easy politically, for either of us. “But ifwe don’t have the courage to make them, we’ll be burying thousands of ourpeople.” Worse, I said, those deaths would not advance his people’s position, ormine, by a single inch. When future Palestinian and Israeli leaders did finally proveequal to the challenge of making peace, they’d be looking at the same conflict,requiring the same compromises. “The only difference will be the size of ourcemeteries.” Arafat nodded occasionally. But he said little, beyond saying that heconsidered Rabin to have been a friend, and repeating his now-familiar,nonspecific, pledge to “do what is necessary” for peace.“The hardest part won’t be the tough decisions in negotiations,” I continued. “Itwon’t be facing each other. It will be facing our own people.” We would need tomake the case openly, honestly, strongly that the peace agreement we reached wasin the interest of both Israelis and Palestinians. And in this, each of us had a330/ BARAK / 45responsibility to support the other. With President Clinton looking on, I steeredArafat toward the window of the ambassador’s fifth-floor apartment. “Lookdown,” I said. “Imagine that we each have parachutes, and we’re going to jumptogether. But I have my hand on your ripcord, and you are holding mine. To landsafely we have to help each other… And if we don’t jump, many, many innocentpeople who are now walking the streets of Gaza and Ramallah and Hebron, TelAviv and Jerusalem, will die.” Arafat again just nodded, leaving me, and thePresident, unsure whether anything I’d said had struck home.The true test of that would come only when we got to the stage of negotiationswhen the “difficult decisions” could not be evaded. Yet only weeks after I returnedfrom Oslo, the focus did finally shift to the Syrians. President Assad suddenlysignalled his willingness to resume talks without any preconditions – a message hedelivered first to my British Labor Party friend Michael Levy, who was visitingDamascus as Tony Blair’s roving Mideast envoy, and then to Secretary of StateMadeleine Albright. Assad said he would send Syrian Foreign Minister Farouk al-Sharaa to meet me for initial talks in Washington in December, ahead of a fullscale,US-mediated attempt to negotiate peace at the start of the new year.* * *The broad terms of a potential deal had long been clear, both to us and theSyrians. The danger was always that the process would get derailed, or never reallyget started, due to domestic political opposition. Syria had a tightly state-controlledmedia and an intelligence service concerned mainly with crushing any signs ofdissidence. That meant Assad’s main concern was to ensure broad support, or atleast acquiescence, from top military and party figures. In Israel, however, everysign of a concession would risk igniting charges that we were “selling out” toSyria. The Likud and the political right would obviously denounce the idea ofgiving up the Golan Heights, even though Bibi had been ready to do just that whenhe was Prime Minister. But even on the left, there was little enthusiasm forreturning the Golan. There were far fewer Israeli settlers there than on the WestBank, not even 20,000. But most of them, far from being religiously motivatedideologues, were Labor supporters. And almost no Israel, of any political stripe,331/ BARAK / 46viewed Hafez al-Assad as a natural partner for peace. For years, he’d been aconstant, sneering presence on our northern border, denouncing not only Sadat butany Arab leader who’d shown willingness to engage or negotiate with Israel. AmosOz, one of our finest writers and a cultural icon for Labor Zionists, probably put itbest. He said the Syrians seemed to think that “we will give them the Golan, andthey’ll send us a receipt by fax.” The consensus was: forget Assad. Keep theGolan. In fact, before I left for the US, the Knesset voted on whether it supportedmy attempt to negotiate an agreement with Syria. We could muster only 47 votes,14 short of a majority. An opinion poll found only 13 percent of Israelis favored afull withdrawal from the Golan.The message I drew from this was not that we should give up on the chances ofa peace agreement. After all, before Begin and Sadat went to Camp David in 1978,an almost equally tiny minority of Israelos had been in favor of withdrawing fromthe Sinai. Yet once they had seen the other side of the equation – full, formal peacewith our most powerful neighbor – the opposition all but evaporated. The problemI saw was that if we and the Syrians couldn’t find a way to insulate ournegotiations from leaks, speculation and a swirl of opposition to our efforts athome, we’d never get to the key issues of substance.I’d been making that point to the Americans for weeks. At first, I tried topersuade them to hold the talks at Camp David, ensuring the same, media-freeisolation that had yielded the historic Israeli-Egypt agreement. But Dennis Rossreplied that the very association of Camp David with that breakthrough meant itwould be a non-starter for President Assad. I then suggested we consider sitesoutside of the US: NATO’s Incerlik air base in Turkey, for instance, a British basein Cyprus, an American naval ship in the Mediterranean. Even, half-jokingly, anabandoned missile silo in South Dakota. Yet the point I was making was serious, infact critical, I believed, if the talks were going to have a chance.In the end, the Americans settled on a beautiful, and undeniably remote, town inWest Virginia called Shepherdstown. But from the outset, I was worried it couldn’tprovide the kind of environment we needed. As soon as our plane landed atAndrews Air Force base outside Washington, I got a call from the head of ouradvance team. He told me the news media were already there and that reporters –Israeli, Arab, American and European – could be seen chatting with American,Israeli and Syrian officials in the town’s coffee shops. I knew the press would haveto publish something about potential concessions as the negotiations proceeded.332/ BARAK / 47Whether the stories were true wouldn’t matter. They would still make the realbargaining necessary for peace far more difficult, perhaps even impossible.I also had doubts whether Assad was ready for real peace: embassies, openborders, personal contact between Syrians and Israelis, and ideally aninternationally backed free-trade manufacturing area on the Golan to give Syria atangible stake in ensuring the peace lasted. In earlier talks, under Shimon Peres,Syrian negotiators had at one stage brought a message from Assad. What did wemean, he wanted to know, with all this emphasis on peace, peace, peace? Syria hadpeace with El Salvador, but without any of the trappings we were insisting on.Peace, in Assad’s mind, seemed to mean merely an absence of war. Plus, of course,getting back the Golan.I did, however, come ready to negotiate. Though I was still not prepared toreconfirm Rabin’s “pocket deposit” as a mere ticket of admission, my positionremained essentially the one I had worked out with Yitzhak in formulating thedeposit: IAMNAM, “if all my needs are met.” Meaning that if Assad showed areadiness to deal with Israel’s requirements in a peace deal, I did, of course,recognize we would leave the Golan Heights. In addition to early-warningfacilities, we envisaged an open border with a demilitarized area on either side, aswell as guarantees that important sources of water for Israel would not be blockedor diverted. As Assad knew, despite his presumably feigned puzzlement aboutSyria’s arrangements with El Salvador, we also needed the agreement to embody amutual commitment to real peace: through elements like an exchange ofambassadors and the establishment of the free-trade zone. As with the Begin-Sadatpeace, we assumed that our Golan withdrawal would come in phases, parallel tothe implementation of the other provisions of the treaty.In our initial meetings in Shepherdstown, Foreign Minister al-Sharaa showed noinclination even to talk about these other issues. So on the second afternoon wewere there, I suggested to President Clinton the Americans try to break the logjamby drafting a paper of their own. It would detail all the issues in an eventualagreement, with parenthetical references to those on which we and the Syrians stilldiffered. Then each side could respond with a view toward narrowing the gaps.The President liked the idea. So did Al-Sharaa. Three days later, the Presidentpresented the eight-page American draft. With his customary eloquence, heemphasized the need for us to use it as a springboard for peace, not to scorepolitical points, and each side agreed to take a couple of days to look through it. It333/ BARAK / 48seemed to me we might finally be on a path to substantive negotiations. There wasobviously not going to be a deal at this round of talks, but I agreed with PresidentClinton that when they ended, he could phone Assad and tell him that I hadconfirmed Rabin’s “pocket deposit.”Yet by the time we left for home, the prospects suddenly looked much worse –for the reason I’d feared from the moment we arrived. There were two major leaks.The first came in an Arabic-language newspaper in London. Given the thrust of thestory, it had presumably come from the Syrians. But it was more annoying thantruly damaging. The second leak, however, was in the Israeli newspaper Ha’aretz,which published the entire US negotiating paper. This was unwelcome for us, sinceit confirmed we were ready to go far in return for peace. But for the Syrians, thefact the final-border section was still a work-in-progress, with the parentheses toprove it, created the impression that they’d decided to negotiate the details of a fullpeace without first nailing down the return of the Golan Heights. Assad’s image asa strongman, implacably tough on Israel, had been built and burnished over histhree decades in power. The embarrassment of being seen as amenable to talkingabout a Syrian embassy in Israel without an agreement on the Golan struck me as apotentially fatal blow to the prospects for a deal, since it dramatically narrowed thescope for the flexibility needed by both sides to negotiate. I can’t say I wassurprised when Clinton phoned me when we got back to Israel to say that Assadhad refused to send Al-Sharaa back, as planned, for a further round of talks in 10days’ time.I didn’t give up, however, and neither did President Clinton. In February, at theAmericans’ request, I sat down with Danny Yatom and US Ambassador MartinIndyk in Jerusalem to draw up a “bottom line” proposal on a withdrawal from theGolan Heights. Since I’d already empowered Clinton to reaffirm the “pocketdeposit”, I saw no reason not to do this. If only because of Assad’s failing health, Ibelieved it was the only way we could know whether an agreement was possible.We worked on a large satellite map of the Golan and the valley below, and drewour proposed border in red. We marked out a strip of several hundred meters on thefar side of the Sea of Galilee. It included, or came near to, a handful of Syrianvillages that had been there before 1967. But we were careful to adjust the line toexclude any area where buildings had stood. We compensated – with slightly moreterritory – by bending the border westward to give the Syrians part of the slopeoverlooking the lake, in what was now Israel. We also included the hot springs at334/ BARAK / 49al-Hama, which I knew Assad had said he considered rightfully Syrian during talksheld under Rabin.But the details turned out not to matter. President Clinton agreed to present themap to Assad in what we both hoped would be a step to reopening the path forpeace. The two of them met in Geneva in late March. Though the President alsocame with full details of our positions on the other negotiating issues, he began bytelling Assad that I had agreed to the Syrians’ longstanding point of principle onour future border: it would be “based on the June 4, 1967 line” before the Six-DayWar. Then, the President unfurled the map.It was shortly after five in the afternoon in Israel when Clinton phoned me. Hesounded as if he’d been punched in the stomach. “Ehud, it’s not going to work,” hesaid. “The moment I started, he tuned out. He just said: ‘Do I get my land?’ I triedto get him to listen, but he just kept repeating: ‘Do I get all my land?’ Accordingthe President, Assad would countenance nothing less than being able to sit on theshore of the Sea of Galilee and “dip his feet in the water.” Clinton said he’d donehis best, and that was true. “I understand the effort is over,” I replied. “Probably,he’s too frail and ill by now.” In fact, Assad would die of leukemia barely twomonths later. His immediate focus was on ensuring an uncontested succession tohis son, Bashar.When Dennis Ross came to see me in Jerusalem, I think he expected to find memore distraught than I felt. Of course, I was disappointed. But I told him I wasgrateful that Clinton had stayed with a negotiating effort that had been frustratingfor all of us. When I became Prime Minister, I’d assured the Americans that aslong as our vital security interests were protected, I was ready to go further thanany previous Israeli leader to get peace with Syria, and with Arafat too. I mightfail, but it would not be for lack of trying. I believed that even a “failure” wouldtell us something: whether the other side was truly ready for peace. With Syria, Itold Dennis, “It’s not what we hoped for. But at least now we know.”* * *335/ BARAK / 50My own negotiating team, not to mention the Americans, assumed I would nowturn my attention to the Palestinians. Arafat was pressing for us to go ahead withphase-two of the Wye redeployments. In fact, he now wanted us to add the transferof three Arab villages on the edge of east Jerusalem: Eizaria, El-Ram and, mostimportantly, Abu Dis, since from there you could see the golden dome of themosque above the Western Wall in the Old City. I understood why the villageswere politically important for him. But in practical terms, I also knew I’d have tosecure the support of the cabinet and the Knesset for what the Likud, and the mainreligious parties too, would interpret as a first step toward “handing backJerusalem.”For me, this underscored the problem at the heart of Oslo. We were transferringland to Arafat, yet still without any serious engagement from the Palestinians onthe “permanent-status” questions, like the furture of Jerusalem, that were critical tothe prospects for real peace. They were critical, in fact, even to reaching aframework agreement, or a declaration of principles, as a basis for a final treaty. Iprobably should have seen the crisis-ridden spring of 2000 as a harbinger of thedifficulties when we finally got to that stage. I did make a first major effort to findcompromise ground on the main issues. I sent Gilead Sher and Shlomo Ben-Ami tobegin back-channel talks with a Palestinian team led by Abu Ala’a and HassanAsfour, the architects of Oslo. But as I prepared to seek Knesset approval forreturning the three additional villages to the Palestinians, my main Orthodoxcoalition partners, Shas and the National Religious Party, as well as Sharansky’sYisrael ba’Aliyah, all threatened to walk out of the government. I did manage tokeep them on board, but only by getting the Knesset vote classified as a noconfidencemotion. That meant that if we lost, the government would fall and therewould be new elections. That was something none of them wanted. They fearedthat Arik and the Likud would do better this time around, and they would end upwith fewer seats.Still, even that didn’t avert a different kind of crisis. The vote was on May 15.For the Palestinians, this was also Al-Naqba Day, the annual marking of the 1948“catastrophe” of the founding of the State of Israel. Danny Yatom told me the nightbefore there were intelligence reports of large protests planned for the West Bankand in Gaza. President Clinton immediately got the American consul to deliver amessage to Arafat, saying that the President expected him to intervene against anysign of violence. But Arafat’s reply was that, while he’d do what he could, he336/ BARAK / 51couldn’t guarantee anything. In the months ahead I would come to understand whatthat meant, because it would happen again. I don’t think Arafat himselforchestrated the violence. Maybe he couldn’t have stopped it completely. But Ihave no doubt – nor did President Clinton – that he stood aside and let it happen.Even worse – since he did have control over them – his security forces, witharms that Israel had provided as part of Oslo, fired on our troops as they tried tokeep order. All of this, while I stood in the Knesset battling to get approval to givehim the villages. As news arrived in the chamber of gunfire just a couple of milesaway, it was not just Likud or other right-wing MKs who were furious. I certainlywas. Yet I also knew that the price of losing the vote would be the fall of thegovernment. We did win the vote, by a margin of eight, meaning that I now hadfull authority to return the three villages. Fuming over what had happened,however, I called President Clinton and told him I was going to delay thehandover. I was not about to return the villages under gunfire, or reward Arafat forbreaking even his existing security commitments.That meant that prospects for serious negotiations with the Palestinians wereagain on hold. But another, immutable, priority would probably have delayed anynew initiative anyway: my pledge to get our soldiers out of Lebanon within a yearof the election. I was determined to go ahead with it not just because I’d promisedIsraelis to do so. It was because I knew from experience that without setting adeadline and sticking to it, it wouldn’t happen. I had been against keeping thesecurity zone from the start. Over the years, many Israelis, both inside the militaryand beyond, had come to accept we would be better off pulling out. It wasn’t justthe attritional loss of Israeli soldiers’ lives, but the fact that there was no obviouspoint, and no obvious end, to our mission there. Especially when major tragediesoccurred – like the collision of two Israeli helicopters a couple of years earlier,leaving scores of young soldiers dead – there was talk about a withdrawal. Yetthere was always a reason to reconsider, to put it off: a Hizbollah attack in thesecurity zone, accusations of weakness from right-wing politicians, or simplecaution in the kirya. The only way to get it done was to decide, and to do it.My self-imposed deadline for the pullout was now just eight weeks away.Hizbollah had already begun escalating pressure on our outposts in south Lebanonwith the obvious aim of making the withdrawal as difficult as possible. They werealso targeting our local surrogates, the Maronite-led South Lebanese Army militia.I’d been meeting regularly with Shaul Mofaz, the former paratroop officer who337/ BARAK / 52was now chief of staff, to ensure we had a plan to get our troops out as quickly andsafely as possible once the order was given. But complex though the operationalissues were, that was not the most difficult part. The withdrawal had not just amilitary aim, but a critical political one: to denude Hizbollah, with fullinternational support, of its “occupation” fig-leaf for targeting and terrorizing thetowns and villages of northern Israel. Shaul and a number of other generals in thekirya tried to make the security argument for keeping several small hilltop outpostsjust north of the border. But I insisted not a single Israeli soldier or emplacementremain on Lebanese soil. Throughout the spring, we had been coordinating everydetail of the planned pullout with UN cartographers on the ground, to ensure thatthey, too, recognized it would be a full withdrawal to the border, fulfilling theterms of the Security Council resolution adopted after the 1982 Lebanon War.Ordinarily, an operation on this scale would have been carried out over a periodof weeks. But when we handed over a pair of military strongholds to the SouthLebanon Army, and Hizbollah promptly moved in to take them over, it was clearthat even several days might risk chaos, and casualties, as we left. The head of thenorthern command now supported an immediate withdrawal, and I agreed.Frustratingly, we did have to hold off for a further 36 hours, in order to ensure theUN staff on the ground could complete their verification process. But on theafternoon of May 23, alongside Shaul Mofaz at a command post on the border, Iordered the pullout of all Israeli troops, vehicles and other equipment within thespace of 24 hours. I then flew back to Jerusalem for an urgent meeting to secureformal cabinet approval. The field commanders ended up getting it done in lessthan 24 hours, mostly overnight, without a single Israeli casualty. For nearly twodecades, our troops had been serving and dying on a strip of land on which we hadno claim, no settlements, and for which there was no rational security need.Finally, we were out.As I should have anticipated, there were accusations from Hizbollah and itsallies that our UN-verified withdrawal was incomplete. At issue was a cluster ofvillages where Lebanon meets Syria, known as the Sheba’a Farms. But as I knewfirst-hand, they were not part of Lebanon. I’d met their Syrian inhabitants when Ihelped “capture” the villages at the very end of the 1973 war on the Golan. WhenSyria now publicly supported Hizbollah’s efforts to get the UN to say the area wasin fact part of Lebanon, I decided to call their bluff. Through the Americans, I338/ BARAK / 53suggested that Damascus confirm in writing that this part of the Golan was indeedLebanese. The Syrians never responded.Equally predictable were the prophets of doom on the Israeli right, who said theLebanon withdrawal would bury northern Israel in Katyushas and in blood. Thereality was that in the half-dozen years following the pullout, the Israel-Lebanonborder was quieter than at any time since the late 1960s. The main personal impactof the withdrawal, however, was to remind me of why I’d run for Prime Minister inthe first place. Despite the challenges, and inevitable setbacks and frustrations, ofmy first year in office, I was in a position to act on what I believed to be criticalissues for my country’s future. On Lebanon, I’d succeeded, mainly because thewithdrawal was something we could do unilaterally. With Syria, I’d tried hard toget an agreement, only to find that Assad was unwilling, unable, or perhaps too illto join in the search for a deal.I still recognized, however, that no issue was more important to Israel’s futurethan our conflict with the Palestinians. I knew that resolving it would be eventougher than the talks with the Syrians. But the only way to find out whether peacewas possible was to try. So on the final day of May 2000, with the Lebanon pulloutcomplete, I flew to Portugal – the site of a US-European summit – to see PresidentClinton.339/ BARAK / 54Chapter Twenty-OnePresident Clinton and I met the next morning. My aim was to persuade him thatthe time had come for a make-or-break summit with Yasir Arafat.I suspected it would not be easy to convince him, and it wasn’t. But I made theargument that if we were to have any hope of moving Oslo forward, we now faceda stark choice. We were three years behind the timeline for starting work on a“permanent status” agreement, and only six months from an American election thatwould choose President Clinton’s successor. We could, of course, pursue the Osloprocess along its current, meandering path. But even though Bibi had slowed itdown, that would inevitably mean Israel handing back yet more West Bank land toArafat – in return for familiar, but still unfulfilled and untested, verbal assurancesthat he wanted peace. Each successive Israeli withdrawal reduced his incentive toengage of the core issues like final borders, refugees, or Jerusalem. I could not ingood conscience justify that, either to myself or my country. The second optionwas the summit. I realized there was no guarantee it would succeed. But it wouldfinally force Arafat to negotiate on the core issues – before the departure of anAmerican President who had a grasp of the all issues and characters involved, anda personal commitment to converting the promise of Oslo into a genuine peace.The obvious political risk, for both Clinton and me, was that after convening asummit – with all the heightened expectations and pressures it would bring – we’dfail to get an agreement. Though I’d be more directly affected, however, it was amore straightforward choice for me. In part because I’d been in front-line politicsso briefly, but mostly because of what I’d done for the three-and-a-half decadesbefore then, I viewed the political risk as just one of many, and by no means themost important. That was an obvious weakness in me as a traditional politician. Iwould indeed pay a political price later on for having given too little heed, andperhaps underestimated, the reaction in Israel to the summit and what came after it.Yet as I tried to impress on President Clinton, there were risks in not holding asummit as well, along with the obvious reward of a full and final peace if itsucceeded. If it failed? At least we would know a peace agreement with Arafat wasimpossible. In fact, amid the diplomatic drift since Oslo, it was clear there was noother way that we could know.340/ BARAK / 55Walking with the President in Lisbon’s spring sunshine, I tried to summon upan image that would bring both of us back to the starkly different reality of ourconflict with the Palestinians. Only two weeks earlier, Arafat’s own police force,with weapons we had given them, had opened fire as I was trying to get Knessetapproval for returning three villages that he wanted. After I took office, I’d ordereda full-scale intelligence review of the security situation with the Palestinians. Thesobering conclusion had been delivered to me six months earlier: plans were wellunderway by cells in the West Bank and Gaza for armed attacks against Israelisoldiers and terror strikes inside Israel. “It’s like two families living in the samehouse, and it’s on fire,” I said. “All of us are rushing to put it out. But there’s thisveteran firefighter who arrives on the scene – a firefighter with a Nobel PeacePrize – and we have no way of knowing whether he’s got matches and gasoline inhis pocket.” We had to find that out, I said. We had to establish whether we wereall firefighters, and could put out the flames.Clinton and I had got to know each other well. In one-on-one conversations likethis, we called each other by our first names, though I was careful to address himas “Mr President” when others were there. We’d been through a lot together. I hadno doubt that he wanted to put out the fire every bit as much as I did. But I alsorealized he had emerged frustrated, and bruised, from our last joint effort atpeacemaking: with Hafez al-Assad. I was the one who had been pushing thehardest for him to meet Assad in Geneva, over the objections of some of his closestaides that it was likely to go wrong. Not only were the aides right. Assad hadended up delivering an extraordinary personal rebuff to the President of the UnitedStates. Now, I was again asking President Clinton for a summit, and I knewMadeleine Albright, Dennis Ross and others would be highly sceptical. “Iunderstand they’ll have doubts. I understand their reading of the risks,” I toldPresident Clinton. “But I’m convinced crucial issues are at stake, which justify therisks. Let’s move forward.”But Clinton was skeptical, too. He said that without some sign of diplomaticprogress between us and the Palestinians, he could see no way of holding asummit. With Arafat due to see him in Washington in a couple of weeks, he saidthat I first had to give the Palestinian leader something: the three villages, aprisoner release, or perhaps unfreeze tax revenues which we’d been holding backas leverage for at least some progress on the core issues. Otherwise, Clinton saidhe was certain Arafat would refuse to attend a summit. And even if he said yes,341/ BARAK / 56Clinton felt we would need a draft document with broad areas of agreement beforea diplomatic “endgame” could begin. I disagreed on that. I argued that if we triedto produce such a document, there would never be a summit. In fact, we’d neverget a draft document worth anything. “Neither side is going to commit itself onissues like borders, refugees, or Jerusalem,” I said, pointing out that even in ourback-channel talks, the only forum in which there had been a hint of progress,those issues had barely been touched.He did accept that “pre-negotiation” would never crack the main issues. But hestill said that before he could contemplate a summit, he would need MadeleineAlbright and Dennis Ross to talk in detail with us and the Palestinians. “There hadto be a firm basis to work on,” he said. Even then,m he said, he was almost sureArafat would resist the idea of a summit. And on that last point, he proved right. Ispoke to the President by phone after Arafat’s trip to Washington. “He thinksyou’re trying to trap him into a summit, and that when it fails, I’ll blame him,” hetold me.The very next day, the stakes increased dramatically. For months, militaryintelligence had been warning of the potential for violence if we couldn’t find along-term political resolution of the Palestinian conflict. But the report whichlanded on my desk on June 16, 2000 was more specific. It said Arafat had called inhis security people and said: “My strategic understanding is that Israel is notinterested in reaching a deal. Therefore, we are preparing ourselves for a violentand prolonged confrontation.” A few days later, we got an even more worryingreport, saying the security officers had been told to begin “intensive training.”Arafat was quoted as saying: “The Palestinian Authority is confronted by a strongand dangerous Israel, headed by a Prime Minister who is not interested in realpeace. The proof of that is that when he was Chief of Staff, he was the only seniorofficer to oppose the Oslo Agreement.” I summoned my security team: Mofaz aschief of staff; the heads of military intelligence, Mossad and the Shin Bet. I toldthem that Arafat was wrong. My inalterable “red line” would always be Israel’snational and security interests. But as long as those were protected, I wasn’t justinterested in reaching an agreement with the Palestinians. I was determined to doeverything possible to try to get one. But I also said that we had to make sure wewere fully prepared for responding to “Palestinian violence and, at some stage,full-blown terror.”342/ BARAK / 57* * *A few days later, the “pre-endgame” around the summit began. Not inWashington or Jerusalem or Ramallah or Gaza, but in Kochav Yair. Nava and Istill spent almost all our weekends there. We valued the quiet, or at least theslightly quieter, time away from Jerusalem or Tel Aviv. Some of my oldest armyfriends lived there as well: Danny Yatom, as well as Shaul Mofaz and Uzi Dayan,who was now deputy chief of staff. Newer colleagues, too, like Yossi Ginossar, aShin Bet veteran who spoke fluent Arabic and, after working in the West Bank andGaza in the late 1960s became one of the first Israelis to hold secret talks withArafat, building up a personal relationship with him. Under both Rabin and Peres,he had been a valuable liaison with the Palestinian leader. Nowm under myPremiership as well.The summit seemed to me more important than ever, but I knew that onlyPresident Clinton could make it happen. Short of giving the Palestinians the wholelist of short-term rewards they wanted, including the three villages, I knew Arafatwas never going to be enthusiastic. But if Clinton was persuaded that a peaceagreement was within reach, I had confidence he would make the effort. I hadallowed Gili Sher and Shlomo Ben-Ami to go to Washington the week before forexploratory talks with Dennis Ross. Shlomo, as I knew he’d done in the backchanneltalks with the Palestinians, had gone beyond anything that I would orcould say at this stage in order to probe the edges of where an eventualcompromise might be possible. Now Clinton had sent Dennis to Israel, withMadeleine Albright to follow at the end of the month, and I had to assume thattheir impressions would be critical to his decision on whether to bring me andArafat to Camp David.We agreed to meet Dennis and his team at Danny’s house in Kochav Yair. Bythe time I’d made the pleasant Shabbat-afternoon stroll from our house, a fewstreets away, they were in the back garden sipping lemonade and munching onpopcorn. I’d met often with Dennis during my year as Prime Minister, and I likedhim. He was smart, knowledgeable and experienced. He’d worked under three USPresidents: Carter, Bush Senior and now Clinton. No American diplomat had beenmore indefatigably involved in the search for Middle East peace. And whatever hisoccasional frustrations, he also recognized I was ready to go further than any343/ BARAK / 58previous Israeli leader in trying to get that peace.I knew that he would press me to tell him how far that actually was. He didn’task directly. But each of his ostensibly theoretical questions was aimed atestablishing whether I could give him enough for a summit to bridge the gaps onkey issues. Could I accept a “trade-off between sovereignty and time?”Translation: could I give the Palestinians sovereignty over a larger part of the WestBank if we signed an agreement that would phase in their control? Could I acceptthe principle of land swaps? This meant giving Arafat land in areas bordering theWest Bank, or in the Negev near Gaza, to compensate, at least partially, for thearea we would keep for the major settlement blocs. What about applying myprinciple of “disengagement” between Israel and the Palestinians to Jerusalem?Meaning Arafat getting control of the predominantly Arab neighborhoods in theeast of the city.Dennis knew my long-standing reluctance to commit to concessions until wegot to real, final negotiations with Arafat. “We’ll not reveal anything you tell us,”he assured me. “We won’t turn what you say into opening negotiating positions forArafat. But if there is going to be a summit, the President wanted some answers.”To Dennis’s frustration, however, I could give him no specifics, beyond tellinghim: “You know me, Dennis. You know I’m serious about this. Of course, we willprotect our vital security and national interests. But the problem in making peacewon’t be us, on the Israeli side, as long as Arafat shows a capacity and a will fordecision.” The translation of that, as I hoped and trusted he understood was that ifand when Arafat demonstrated that he wanted a comprehensive peace between anew Palestinian state and the State of Israel – a definitive “end of conflict” as theinternational lawyers would describe it – I would place nothing, except our securityand core national interests, in the way of getting an agreement.Madeleine Albright visited at the end of June. When she came to see me a dayafter meeting Arafat, she carried a request from the Palestinian leader: two weeksof “preparatory” talks before a summit. Again, I knew her mission was to bringback enough progress for the President to feel a summit was worth it. But again, Icouldn’t give her what she wanted. “I know what will happen in preparatory talks,”I said. “We’ll raise new ideas, which the Palestinians will reject, and ask formore.” I don’t know what she told Clinton, or Arafat. But Dennis called me thefollowing day. He said that Arafat had agreed to attend a summit, and would leavethe date up to the President.344/ BARAK / 59When Clinton phoned me at the beginning of July, however, he still hadn’tfinally decided to hold the summit. I needed him to know that, on my side, he’dhave a truly willing partner, aware of the political risk he’d be taking. Like Dennis,the President tried to probe my position on land swaps, and Palestinian sovereigntyfor at least some Arab neighborhoods in Jerusalem. Finally, he asked if I wouldrule out those possibilities if they represented the difference between success orfailure at a summit. I did not give him a definitive “yes.” I said we could thinkthrough those issues together. But when he phoned again, on July 4 from CampDavid, I felt I had to go further. I said that, for his ears only, I was willing to givehim the assurance that, assuming that Arafat was willing to move toward us oncore issues, I would consider limited, symbolic moves on both land swaps andPalestinian sovereignty in part of East Jerusalem.Clinton replied: the summit was on. It would begin at Camp David in oneweek’s time, on July 11.* * *Two days before leaving for the US, I brought my ministers together. “We can’tknow what will happen at a summit,” I said. “But we have a responsibility to giveit a chance, and recognize the situation in which we find ourselves. If we sit idleand don’t even try, we’ll face an eruption of violence, and never know whether wecould have avoided it. If, God forbid, we fail to reach an agreement, there will alsobe violence. We will face a new reality more difficult than you can imagine. But ifwe do manage the strike a deal, we are going to change the map and history of theMiddle East.” I reminded them it would be up to Israelis to say yes or no, in areferendum, to the terms of any agreement we negotiated. “If we achieve abreakthrough, I’m confident they will do so, by a landslide.”I said I would hold fast to a number of principles. There would be “no return tothe 1967 lines,” meaning that we would draw a new border with the West Bank toaccommodate the largest settlement blocs. They were mostly around Jerusalem, orjust beyond the 1967 border. In practical terms, over the years they had becomepart of Israel. Tens of thousands of people lived there. As the Americans and eventhe Palestinian negotiators recognized, no Israeli government, Labor or Likud,345/ BARAK / 60would agree to make them part of a Palestinian state. The second principle was that“Jerusalem will remain united.” It would not be cut into Jewish and Arab halves ashad happened between 1948 and 1967. That, I knew, might prove tougher to carrythrough on. But even if I had to concede a degree of Palestinian control in parts ofeast Jerusalem, I expected to be able to retain Israeli sovereignty over the city. Thethird principle was that there would be “no foreign army west of the Jordan River.”In other words, if we did hand back at least the major part of the West Bank, itwould be demilitarized and we would have security control over the Jordan Valley.Finally, we would not “accept responsibility for the birth of the refugee problemand its solution.” Though there could be a “right of return” into a new Palestinianstate, we would not agree to rewrite the history of the 1948 war by sanctioning theresettlement of hundreds of thousands of Palestinians inside the State of Israel.I think it was the very fact we were talking about a comprehensive peaceagreement that made it so hard for my Orthodox and right-of-center coalitionpartners. They didn’t see the attraction of coming to final terms of peace. Theyknew it would mean concessions. There would be a Palestinian state. We wouldgive up the great majority of Biblical Judaea and Samaria. While most of thesettlers would remain, since they lived in the major blocs, those in more isolatedsettlements around the West Bank would have to be moved. They saw the prospectof a final peace only in terms of what we were giving up. They didn’t see what wewould gain: not just peace, and international recognition and endorsement for it.But normalcy: the central aim of Zionism. Jews living in a state like any other.Ever since 1967, we had been in control of the daily lives of hundreds of thousandsof Palestinians on the West Bank and in Gaza. That was bad for them. But it hadbeen bad for us too. Fifty-two years after the birth of our state, we still didn’t havea permanent, internationally recognized border. Rather than dealing with oureconomic and social issues like other states, we were beset by internal divisionsthat were in no small part a result of our unresolved conflict with the Palestinians.Shas, the National Religious Party and Sharansky’s Yisrael ba’Aliyah were allthreatening to pull out of the government because of the summit. Nothing I saidcould change their minds. Sharansky was the first to declare he was leaving. A fewhours later, Shas and the NRP followed suit. If the Likud mustered the required 61votes for the no-confidence motion it was introducing before I got on the plane tothe US, the government would fall. If the parties that had left the coalition, with atotal of 28 seats, went along with Arik Sharon, it wouldn’t be close. As if that346/ BARAK / 61wasn’t enough, David Levy, my Foreign Minister, told me he would not be joiningme at Camp David. He wasn’t resigning, at least not yet. But he knew that the finaldecisions at the summit would be mine, he feared it would fail, and didn’t want toshare in the consequences.None of this meant I wasn’t going. Even if the no-confidence vote succeeded,the new Israeli electoral system, with its separate vote for Prime Minister, meant Iwould remain in office, at least until the summit was over. In a nationally televisedmessage, I reminded the country that I’d been elected with nearly two millionvotes. I felt I had a responsibility, and a mandate, that went beyond party politics.“I must rise above the political arguments, and seek out all possibilities on the wayto a peace agreement that will end the conflict, and the blood, between us and ourneighbors.” I made the same points before the Knesset. I did, of course, wantparliamentary support. But I was acting on a mandate from the people of Israel. Itwas they, in a referendum, who would ultimately decide on anything we mightagree. When the Knesset votes were counted, thanks to the fact two dozen MKsabstained, both sides lost. Arik fell seven votes short of a majority. So thegovernment survived. But those opposed to the summit got more votes than wedid: 54 to 52.There were several consolations as I prepared to fly out from Ben-Gurionairport. Shas leader Eli Yishai passed me an envelope on the tarmac. Inside was anote from Rabbi Ovadia Yossef, the Shas spiritual leader whom I’d met withprivately after the election and a number of times since. He wanted to wish megood luck. Nearly 30 reserve generals also issued a public message of support.Perhaps most encouragingly, a newspaper poll found a majority of Israelis – 55percent to 45 – believed I was right to go to Camp David and that I had a mandateto make concessions in return for peace.David Levy came over to talk before I boarded. “I doubt we’ll get anagreement,” he said. I told him what I was telling other ministers, what I’d toldreporters and, in fact what I had told Nava. “The odds are fifty-fifty.” The reporterstook this as coy, or deliberately deceptive. So I added that it was not because Iknew something they didn’t. “It’s because there are two possible outcomes, and Idon’t know which one will happen.” The gaps of substance were bridgeable. Thequestion was whether both sides wanted peace, and whether each had made aserious, strategic decision to go for it. I’d made that choice. But I had no way ofknowing whether Yasir Arafat had.347/ BARAK / 62I was confident of finally answering that question at the summit. Camp Davidwas different from Shepherdstown. No reporters would be there. Mobile phoneswere banned. Each delegation had one landline. We’d also be operating under atime constraint. President Clinton was due to leave for a G8 summit in Japan onJuly 19. The gave us barely a week. I did wonder whether that would be enough,even if both sides were committed to reaching a peace agreement. Yet I hoped itwould at least provide the possibility, as it had for Begin and Sadat twenty-twoyears earlier, to reach a framework agreement that open the door to a final peacetreaty.Not just the time, but the numbers were limited. We and the Palestinians couldhave only a dozen members in our negotiating teams. Some of my choices wereautomatic: Danny Yatom; Shlomo Ben-Ami, whom I’d made acting ForeignMinister in Levy’s absence; Amnon Lipkin and Attorney-General ElyakimRubinstein; Gilead Sher and his chief negotiating aide, Gidi Grinstein. I also tookalong a strong security team, including Shlomo Yanai, head of strategic planningthe kirya, and Israel Hason, a former deputy-head of Shin Bet. There was anotherimportant, if less obvious, inclusion: Dan Meridor. A leading member of the Likudbefore he’d formed the Center Party at the last election, Dan was not just a friend.He was a man of rock-solid integrity, with a strong moral and ethical compass,who put principle over party. He was also a lawyer, and had been Minister ofJustice under Bibi. Along with Attorney-General Rubinstein, I knew I’d have agifted legal team if we got to the point of considering the specifics of a peaceagreement. There was another consideration as well. Both Dan and Elyakim wereright-of-center politically. I felt I needed their voices as a kind of litmus for thetough decisions, and concessions, I might have to consider if an agreement didprove possible.I was not nervous as we crossed the Atlantic, though even those who knew mebest assumed I would be. Nava had sent me off with a list of dietary instructions,almost like a surgeon general’s warning that Camp David might prove hazardousto my health. But I felt prepared. I’d gone to every source I could find about theBegin-Sadat summit. I knew there would be periods of crisis and that at certainpoints I’d have to allow leeway for my own team to explore possible compromisesbeyond our set negotiating limits. Yet none of this altered my belief that holdingthe summit was the right thing to do, nor my confidence in being able to play mypart. I did feel a huge responsibility. Decades after our conflict with the348/ BARAK / 63Palestinians had begun, seven years after Oslo, I was making an attempt, with theparticipation of the President of the United States, to shape the final terms ofpeace. I knew I carried the conflicting hopes and fears of Israelis with me.And the odds really were 50-50. Either we’d come home with an agreement, tobe placed before the country in a referendum. Or we would know that, at least fornow, it was beyond reach.349/ BARAK / 64Chapter Twenty-TwoIf I believed in omens, I might have turned back as soon as we got to thesummit. We reached Camp David a little before ten at night on July 10, afterhelicoptering from Andrews Air Force base near Washington. When we arrived, itwas pouring with rain. The cabin assignments were also a surprise. I was given theone that Anwar Sadat had at the first Camp David summit in 1978. Arafat gotMenachem Begin’s. Still, the cabins themselves, each named for a tree, were largeand pleasant. Mine was called Dogwood. It had a bedroom, two large sitting roomsand a terrace. I took it as a good omen that it was the same one where Nava and Ihad stayed during our visit with the President Clinton and Hillary right after I’dbecome Prime Minister.With just eight days to address the core issues of decades of conflict, we gotdown to work the next morning. Clinton began by meeting Arafat, as I wentthrough the Americans’ strategy for the negotiations with Madeleine Albright,Dennis Ross and Martin Indyk. Then I met the President in his cabin, which wascalled Aspen. He told me that while Arafat still thought I was trying to “trick him”into an agreement, and didn’t think we’d necessarily get a deal, he did accept I wasserious about trying. My fear was still the opposite, that Arafat was not serious.Yet my hope was that the isolated environment of Camp David, and the widepublic expectation that we would accomplish what Sadat and Begin had done therebefore, would deliver the breakthrough that I believed ought to be possible. Forthat to happen, I told the President, I believed it was essential that Arafat trulyunderstood the importance of what was at stake. Not just the cost of failure, butwhat was potentially on offer: the creation of the Palestinian state he sought, withthe full acceptance of Israel and the support of the world.I wish I could say I was optimistic when Clinton led the two of us into LaurelLodge, the larger cabin a few hundreds downhill from Aspen, for the openingsession of the summit. The scene at the front door – with me bustling Arafat ahead,with the intention of allowing him to enter before me – yielded the best-knownimage from the summit. Captured by the television crews allowed into thecompound for the ceremonial opening, it spawned a cottage industry of politicalspeculation and armchair psychoanalysis purporting to decipher what it meant.Some said it was an encouraging sign of “chemistry” between me and Arafat, a not350/ BARAK / 65unreasonable guess, since both of us were grinning throughout. Others concludedthat because each of us was trying to nudge the other to go in first, it was a sign ofunderlying conflict: neither of us wanted to allow the other the privilege ofappearing to be polite. Still others, bizarrely, said that it was an ornate MiddleEastern power play, with the aim of demonstrating that I was ultimately in controlof proceedings. In fact, it would turn out to be a singularly apt image of whathappened in the days that followed: a reluctant Arafat, an engaged and expectantPrime Minister of Israel, a smiling and hopeful Clinton.We did begin on a note of optimism. In my opening statement, I said: “Now isthe time for us to make a peace of the brave, to find a way to live together side byside with mutual respect, and to create a better future for our children.” Arafat saidhe hoped that the peace Begin and Sadat had made at Camp David would prove anauspicious example. “With the help of President Clinton, we could reach a dealthat is good for both sides.”But it was going to take more than noble words. The details of a peace treaty, oreven a framework agreement, were going to require negotiation. Both Arafat and Iarrived fully aware of the shape of the “hard decisions” I’d referred to monthsearlier when we met in Oslo. On his side, it would come down to whether he wasprepared for a comprehensive, final peace. A true “end of conflict,” with no get-outclauses, no strings left untied, no further claims on either side. In concrete terms,this would mean abandoning his claim for a notional hundreds of thousands ofPalestinian refugees to resettle inside the pre-1967 borders of the State of Israel.And what were Israel’s difficult decisions? In return for the end of conflict, Iwould have to deal away the maximum possible part of the West Bank, certainlywell above the 80 percent I’d quoted Shimon Peres as suggesting when I’d firstmet with President Clinton. I would have to accept the idea of land swaps, ifnecessary, in order to bring the overall percentage as near as possible to theequivalent of the whole of the West Bank. I would have to be flexible on thearrangements to ensure Israeli security oversight over the Jordan Valley. And if atrue peace was really on the table, both Arafat and I would have to consider someform of compromise on the most emotionally and symbolically difficult issue ofall: the future governance of Jerusalem.On the first evening, we met as an Israeli delegation to discuss our position forthe days ahead. Gili Sher and Danny Yatom helped me keep a clear overall pictureof proceedings throughout the summit. Our secure landline was operated by a Shin351/ BARAK / 66Bet technician. I assumed that, one way or another, the Americans could listen in,but was fairly confident we were beyond the electronic earshot of the Palestinians.I kept myself fully informed of, but at a distance from, the specific work of ourfive negotiating teams. Though I could not have stayed engaged with all of them atthe same time, I also hoped the arrangement would give them an opportunity toexplore any realistic opportunity for a breakthrough and any sign of flexibility onArafat’s side – without committing me until there was such flexibility.Yet for the first couple of days of the summit, there was not only no sign offlexibility. There was little meaningful engagement. Dennis Ross and his teamdrew up a paper setting out the main issues. For those on which we differed, ourpositions were marked with “I” and “P”. It wasn’t until around midnight on daytwothat the we got a first look at the American draft. The main, unhappy, surprisewas Jerusalem. This crucial issue was not marked with “I” or “P”. It said outrightthat there could be two capitals, one Israeli and one Palestinian, within the city ofJerusalem. I was not opposed to the Palestinians calling Jerusalem the capital oftheir state. But even in follow-up talks after Oslo, when Yossi Beilin and AbuMazen had explored avenues toward a possible resolution of the Jerusalemquestion, the maximum understanding was that Israel might expand the existingcity limits to accommodate the “two capital” solution. The Palestinians’ capitalwould be in Abu Dis, one of the villages Arafat had asked me to hand back in May.The way the American document was worded suggested dividing Jerusalem as itnow was: something ruled out by all Israeli politicians, of all parties, ever since1967.When I phoned President Clinton, he asked me to come talk. We sat on the backterrace of his cabin, looking out incongruously on a beautifully tended golf holeinstalled by Dwight Eisenhower. I told the President that after all the hours we hadspent together, I’d felt blindsided by the inclusion of a proposal on Jerusalem thatwent beyond anything we’d talked about. “It was my mistake,” he replied,obviously already aware through his negotiators of the error. He said that he’d putpressure on his negotiators to get the document finished, and that Dennis hadn’thad time to read it through. But it was already being fixed: the word “expanded”would be added to the Jerusalem section. I was grateful for that, but told Clinton Iwas concerned that even this “I and P” paper might have the unintended effect ofdelaying any real progress. “Since it’s an American document, it gives thePalestinians no incentive to compromise,” I said, suggesting that it might be better352/ BARAK / 67simply to withdraw the paper. Clinton’s answer encouraged, and surprised, me.“We agree,” he said. “The paper no longer exists.” It soon turned out thePalestinians were unhappy with it too, but for another reason. On the lookout forvalidation of Arafat’s insistence that Camp David was an Israeli “trap”, they wereconvinced that the paper had Israel’s fingerprints all over it. That wasn’t true. Theone change we’d insisted on was because it misrepresented our position onJerusalem. Still, since Dennis had added the word “expanded” to the Jerusalemsection in longhand, the Palestinians were convinced of Israel co-authorship.In fact, three days into the summit, the mood among the Palestinians seemedincreasingly aggrieved. Not just the Americans, but some members of my ownteam, were urging me to show more “personal warmth” towards Arafat. I didalways exchange greetings and pleasantries with him at mealtimes in LaurelLodge, but even there, I admit, that I didn’t exactly show enthusiasm, much lessebullience. After one dinner, when I’d been placed between the Palestinian leaderand Chelsea Clinton, the President’s National Security Adviser, Sandy Berger,asked me why, rather than talking to Arafat, I’d spent almost the entire timechatting with Chelsea. My response was only half-joking: “Given the choice, whowouldn’t?”It wasn’t only that I believed a charm initiative would come over as contrived. Ididn’t want to risk misleading Arafat, the other Palestinians and possibly theAmericans as well, by giving them the impression I was satisfied with the progressof the summit, or felt that we were heading towards any serious engagement andcompromise on the core issues. I had met Arafat many times before Camp David. Ihad made it clear in all of those meeting that, despite differences on a range ofdifficult issues, I did want a final peace agreement and that I was ready to considerthe tough decisions necessary to make it possible. At Camp David, I was notagainst meeting Arafat as a matter of principle. I simply felt the time for such ameeting, if it came, would be at the moment that we saw at least some signal of areadiness on his part to negotiate seriously.Still, given the strength of feeling among some of my own negotiators, I felt aresponsibility to give it a try. I told Yossi Ginossar, the former Shin Bet officerwho was closest to the Palestinian leader among the Israelis, to set up an informalmeeting. I added, to Yossi’s obvious satisfaction and surprise, that I’d be willing tohave the meeting in Arafat’s cabin if that’s what he preferred. The next afternoon, Iwent there for tea and baklava. Abu Mazen, his top political adviser and the main353/ BARAK / 68Palestinian architect of Oslo, was with him, along with a more junior aide whoserved the tea and sweets. At least this time, Arafat didn’t take notes as we spoke.The mood was friendly. We talked about a whole range of issues. With ony oneexception: what was really happening, or what should happen, in the summit talks.I found the exercise disappointing as a result. But Yossi Ginossar assured me itwould help the atmosphere, and would eventually translate into negotiatingprogress. “I hope so,” I said.It wasn’t until day-four that real talks began. The Americans arranged fornegotiating teams from both sides on borders, the refugee issue, and Jerusalem tomeet with President Clinton. The Palestinians participated, but showed no sign atall of a readiness to compromise. Borders should have been the moststraightforward. Assuming we wanted a deal, it was about sitting down with a mapand working out how to address both sides’ arguments. But Arafat’s representativein the meeting – the Oslo negotiator Abu Ala’a – said he wouldn’t even discussborders without a prior agreement to land swaps ensuring Palestinian control overan area equivalent to 100 percent of the West Bank. Shlomo Ben-Ami did try tofind a way around this. He suggested the Palestinians assume that to be the case forthe purposes of the meeting, so that at least there could be meaningful discussionof the border, including the provisions Israel wanted in order to retain the majorsettlement blocks. President Clinton agreed that made sense. He said that withouttalking about the substance of such issues, there wasn’t going to be a deal. EvenAbu Ala’a seemed receptive, according to Shlomo. But he insisted that he wouldhave to ask Arafat first whether it was okay.On refugees, pretty much the same thing happened. The Americans, and Iassumed at that point even the Palestinians, knew that a peace deal would beimpossible if we agreed to hundreds of thousands of refugees entering Israel – ineffect leaving the state created in 1948 with a Jewish minority. But when PresidentClinton began trying to narrow down details of a compromise resettlement package– how many refugees would return, where they would go, and how to arrangeinternational financial support for them – Abu Mazen insisted that nothing couldbe discussed until without a prior Israeli acceptance of the “principle of the right ofreturn.” On Jerusalem, according to Gilead Sher, the President didn’t even try tofind common ground on the core issue: sovereignty. Instead he used the formulaShlomo Ben-Ami had suggested, telling each side to proceed on the assumptionsovereignty was decided in its favour, and to concentrate instead on how everyday354/ BARAK / 69municipal functions and daily life would be divided between Israel and thePalestinians under a peace agreement.When I convened our negotiators in my cabin to take stock of the logjam, I wasgetting more and more skeptical of finding a way to get to actual negotiation on the“hard decisions” I assumed both sides knew we’d have to make. I told our team wecould not play that game. Until there was at least some movement from Arafat, Ididn’t want them suggesting any Israeli concessions. We’d obviously get nothingin return. The summit would fail. Despite my repeated insistence both to theAmericans and Palestinians that, without an agreement, any Israeli suggestionswould be null and void, that didn’t mean they would simply be forgotten. Theresult is that we’d actually be in a worse situation than before Camp David.Politically, I’d find myself in much the same position as President Assad, after theleak of the American draft from Shepherdstown: apparently ready to considergiving Arafat the great majority of the West Bank, without the slightest sign Arafatwas ready for a full and final peace. But that wasn’t my main concern. It was thatanything that we put on the table here would handcuff future Israeli governments ifand when an “end of conflict” agreement became possible.Still, when Dennis Ross learned from my negotiators what I’d decided, he wasfrustrated and upset. He came to see me on Saturday morning – day-five of whatwas looking increasingly like a stillborn summit. “This summit was your idea,” hesaid, reminding me that the President had agreed to it over the reservations of a lothis own aides. He told me that at a minimum, I had to help give it a chance: bygiving him my true negotiating “red lines.” Either that, or give my negotiatorsmore leeway to explore compromises. I did not want to make Dennis’s job anymore difficult than it already was. And I told him I was still ready to engage fullyif we ever got to the real substance of a possible deal. “But I can’t do what you’veasked me,” I replied. “Not when Arafat is simply holding firm and not showing awillingness even to look for compromises.”Fortunately for my relationship with the President – though not for theprospects of an agreement – Clinton had considerably more sympathy with myposition after his next meeting with both sets of negotiators that afternoon. It was areturn encounter with Abu Ala’a on territory and borders. Shlomo Ben-Ami nowproduced a map of the West Bank with our proposed breakdown into the areas thatwould be controlled by a Palestinian state, the part Israel would retain toaccommodate the major settlements, and territory which we suggested would go to355/ BARAK / 70the Palestinians after a transitional period. The part we had earmarked forPalestinian control was now a bit over 85 percent of the West Bank, more than I’dindicated to the President in our first meeting a year earlier. But while Abu Ala’ahad told Clinton he would ask for Arafat’s permission at least to negotiate, heclearly hadn’t received it. He refused to talk about the map, or even respond toClinton’s suggestion that the Palestinians present a map of their own, until we didtwo things: accept the principle of land swaps and reduce the size of the territorywe were suggesting for the settlement blocs. To Shlomo’s, and I’m sure even moreso to Abu Ala’a’s, astonishment, the President exploded. He told Abu Ala’a that torefuse to provide any input or ideas was the very opposite of negotiation. It was an“outrageous” approach. He stormed out.It was late that evening when the first move toward the “make-or-break”situation I had hoped for seemed to occur, though still with much more likelihoodof break than make. The President decided the only way to make progress was tosequester a pair of negotiators from each side overnight. Their task would be tosearch honesty for the outlines of a possible peace agreement. They were to updateArafat and myself and then report to Clinton the next day. Then, we’d see wherewe were. I agreed to send Shlomo and Gili Sher, my former “back-channel”negotiators. I knew that whatever guidelines I gave them, they would probe beyondthem, just as they’d done in the back-channel talks. They were negotiators. Theywere also smart, creative, badly wanted an agreement and, like me, believed itought to be possible. Though I would retain the final word to approve or rejectwhat they suggested, I knew that only in a legal sense could it be null and void. Ialso recognized, however, that we had to be willing to push further, both to findout for certain where the Palestinians stood and to convince the Americans wegenuinely wanted an agreement.Shlomo and Gili left a little after midnight for Laurel Lodge. Marine guardswere posted at the doors, with orders that neither negotiating team was to leaveuntil morning without notifying the President’s staff. Mother Nature provided afurther incentive to stay inside, since it was again bucketing down with rain. Thenegotiators talked not just through the night, but the next morning as well. Itwasn’t until early afternoon that Shlomo and Gili came to my cabin to report onhow they’d gone. As I’d anticipated, both of them had ventured beyondconcessions that I was ready to consider, at least at a time when we weren’t evennear to a final peace deal. Taking the President’s instructions to heart, they’d said356/ BARAK / 71they were willing to consider full Palestinian sovereignty over two Arabneighborhoods in East Jerusalem, and even some form of Palestinian authority andcontrol in the Christian and Muslim quarters inside the walls of the Old City. Theyhad dropped our insistence on Israeli control over the Jordan Valley, suggestingthat we hold on to only a small segment of the border with Jordan. They had gonebeyond the share of the West Bank allocated to a Palestinian state on the map thatAbu Ala’a wouldn’t even look at. Now, they suggested around 90 percent. Butwhen I asked what the Palestinian negotiators, Saeb Erekat and MohammedDahlan, had proposed in return, the answer was almost nothing. They had takennotes. They had asked questions. The one Palestinian proposal, from Saeb Erekat,was on Jerusalem: Palestinian sovereignty over all the city’s predominantly Arabareas, and Israeli sovereignty over Jewish neighborhoods. In other words, adivision of the city.Even though I was concerned that Gili and Shlomo had gone so far, especiallyon Jerusalem, I’d reached the point where I doubted that even that would matter.We were now in day-six of the summit, barely 48 hours from President Clinton’sdeparture for the G-8 summit, and we were negotiating only with ourselves.Knowing that the President planned to go see Arafat, I sat down and wrote him anote – emotional not just because I did it quickly, but because of how deeply letdown I felt by the Palestinians’ deliberate avoidance of a peace deal which, withgenuine reciprocity, should have been within reach. “I took the report of ShlomoBen-Ami and Gilead Sher of last night’s discussion very badly...” it began. “This isnot a negotiation. This is a manipulative attempt to pull us to a position we willnever be able to accept, without the Palestinians moving one inch.” I remindedPresident Clinton that just as he was taking political risks, I was too. “Even thepositions presented by our people last night, though they are not my positions,represent an additional risk,” I said.I said I doubted there would be another Israeli leader willing to engage inserious efforts for a final peace agreement with the Palestinians after what hadhappened here. Unless things changed dramatically, I was not prepared for us tothrow out further suggestions, or consider painful concessions. “I do not intend toallow the Israeli state to fall apart, physically or morally. The State of Israel is theimplementation of the dream of the Jewish people, for generation upon generation.We achieved it after enormous effort, and at the expenditure of a great deal ofblood and sweat. There is no way I will preside at Camp David over the closing of357/ BARAK / 72this saga.” I told the President that I still believed that we were facing a “momentof truth.” But only if he could “shake” Arafat, and get him to sense the enormity ofthe stakes – an independent Palestinian state, versus more, and undoubtedlydeadlier, violence.And if it did come to armed conflict? “When the people of Israel willunderstand how far we were ready to go, we will have the power to stand together,unified, in such a struggle, however tough it will become, even if we will be forcedto confront the entire world. There is no power in the world that can force on uscollective national suicide. Peace will be achieved only if there is a willingness tonegotiate on both sides. I am sure the people of Israel, and the American people,will understand it when the details will be revealed.”Clinton had already left for Arafat’s cabin by the time Danny Yatom went todeliver the letter. But the President, too, was in a more sober and downbeat moodby the time that meeting was over. Late that night when, having now read my note,he joined me on the balcony of Dogwood. He looked exhausted. “It was thetoughest meeting I’ve ever had with Arafat,” he said. Clinton said he had told thePalestinian leader that only one side, the Israelis, had so far been negotiating ingood faith. If Arafat was not prepared to make a genuine effort to reach anagreement, then there was no choice but for all of us to go home. Now, it seemed,both the President and I were left to wait and see what, if anything, Arafat came upwith in reply.“I’ve been through battles, and danger, in my life,” I said. “But in terms of myresponsibility, today, for me as well, was probably the toughest. Shlomo and Giliwent beyond what I could live with. If this offer can’t move him, then I believe weare left to prepare for war.” I told the President he didn’t even need to phone meafter hearing from Arafat if all he offered was some clever half-reply. Only if itwas serious and substantive. I also reminded him that while he’d promised Arafatthat he would not “blame” the Palestinians if the summit failed, that had been onthe basis of negotiating in good faith. I hoped that, if the summit collapsed in thesecircumstances, he would keep to that standard.Finally, I touched on an immediate concern if the summit broke up. For months,the Palestinians had been talking about simply “declaring” a Palestinian state. TheAmericans had insisted neither side should resort to unilateral action in a conflictwhose resolution depended on mutual agreement. The Europeans had been less358/ BARAK / 73explicit. I told President Clinton I could speak only for how I would respond if astate was indeed declared without a peace deal. “We will extend Israeli sovereigntyover the major settlement blocs. We will establish a security zone in the Jordanvalley, and let them know that there will be a heavy price should they attack any ofthe outlying settlements.” In other words, Palestinian unilateral action wouldprompt unilateral Israeli action. “And the confrontation will begin.”* * *Clinton seemed, if not completely revived, considerably more upbeat when hecame back to see me an hour later. He told me that he had received thePalestinians’ answer. The way he described it to me, Arafat had agreed to leavePresident Clinton to decide the amount of West Bank land that would go to aPalestinian state, a figure he now told me that he was assuming would end up ataround 90 to 92 percent. The trade-off, he said, would be a limited, “symbolic”land swap. Arafat also wanted control of the Jordan Valley, but had agreed tobegin negotiating on Israeli security needs there as soon as possible. Then, cameArafat’s counter-conditions, which appeared to bother the President much less thanthey did me. Everything would be contingent on an unspecified, “acceptableoutcome on Jerusalem.” And despite Clinton’s emphasis that any meaningfulagreement had to include a formal declaration that the Israeli-Palestinian conflictwas “over,” Arafat was insisting that could come only after the terms of whateverwe agreed were fully implemented.Still, it was at least a step forward. Clinton seemed genuinely encouraged, and Ididn’t want to risk closing off this first chink of light. I suggested, for instance, thatwe could address Arafat’s reluctance about an “end of conflict” statement byproviding an American guarantee that the terms of the deal would be implemented.Still, it very soon became clear that any hope of real progress rested on by farthe most difficult issue: Jerusalem. Across party boundaries, even across divisionsbetween religious and secular, nearly all Israelis viewed the city as not just ourcapital, but the centrepiece of the state. It had been divided after 1948. The OldCity, and the site of the ancient Jewish temple, had been under Jordanian rule for19 years when our forces recaptured it in the Six-Day War. It was under a Labor359/ BARAK / 74government that the area around the temple’s surviving Western Wall, left uncaredfor under the Jordanians, was cleared and a stone plaza put in place for worshipers– at the expense of parts of the old Moroccan Quarter. It was under Labor, too, thatIsrael unilaterally expanded Jerusalem’s city limits to take in more than two dozenadjacent Arab villages on the West Bank. No Israeli government since then, Laboror Likud, had deviated from a shared pledge that Jerusalem would remain Israel’sundivided, sovereign capital under any eventual peace agreement.Yet when I met Clinton the next morning in Laurel Lodge, he insisted we had tofind some room for flexibility. He said that, of course, Israel would retainsovereignty over the Temple Mount: the site of the Western Wall and, above it, theAl-Aqsa mosque complex. “But without damaging your sovereignty,” he argued,“we have to find a way to draw a picture for Arafat that includes some measure ofPalestinian control in part of the city.”“Could you agree to Arafat having an office, maybe, inside the walls of the OldCity,” he asked me. What about a form of administrative control in some of theoutlying Arab neighborhoods in East Jerusalem? I replied that I couldn’t possiblyanswer any of his questions until and unless it was clear that Arafat accepted oursovereignty over – and our national and religious connection with – the TempleMount. Yet I said I understood that we would have to reach some compromiseagreement on the city if we were ever going to have a chance of a peaceagreement. “But it’s an issue that is difficult for every Israeli,” I told him. Before Icould even begin to see whether there was a way forward, I would have to take itthrough with my entire negotiating team. Then, we could discuss it.It turned out to be the most open, serious, searching discussion I was a part ofduring all my years in public life. It began, on the terrace of my cabin, at two in theafternoon and went on until sundown. I introduced it by saying what each of usalready knew: Jerusalem was the most emotionally charged and politicallycomplex issue of all. Our maximum position coming into the summit had been thatwe would again expand the municipal boundaries of the city, as we’d done afterthe 1967 war, in order to accommodate two separate “city councils.” One would bein Abu Dis, just to the southeast of the Old City, almost literally in the shadow ofthe Temple Mount. The understanding was the Palestinians would be free torename the village, referring to it by the Arabic name for Jerusalem: Al Quds. Isaid that we should use that position as a starting point, and discuss how, orwhether, we might go further. All I added was the need to be aware of what was at360/ BARAK / 75stake. I didn’t know whether peace was within reach. I was still deeply skeptical.But if it was, we had to accept that Jerusalem would be key. And if the summitfailed, for whatever reason, what inevitably awaited us was “confrontation.”Israel Hasson, the Shin Bet veteran, spoke first. He saw two choices. Either wecould retain Isrsaeli sovereignty over a “united Jerusalem” with functional, day-todayautonomy for the Palestinians in their neighborhoods, or we could in effectdivide the city. “Divide sovereignty.” He didn’t say which he favored, only that itwas essential that we made the decision now if we could, however difficult orreluctant Arafat was as a negotiating partner. If we waited, we’d end up having todeal with Islamists: Hamas and Islamic Jihad. Oded Eran, the career diplomatwhom I’d put in charge of frustrating, formal talks with the Palestinians in themonths preceding the summit , said he was convinced that we should give thePalestinians full sovereignty over at least the “outer” Arab neighborhoods in EastJerusalem, which had become part of the city only when we’d expanded the cityboundaries after 1967. He said that was in Israel’s own interest. We had no historicconnection to these Arab villages, and something like 130,000 Palestinian livedthere. “Why should we want to annex them,” he asked. It would be like acceptingthe “right of return” through the back door.Dan Meridor’s voice, for me, was especially important. I knew he was asdetermined as I was to try to get a peace agreement with the Palestinians. But hewas also a former Likudnik, and a native Jerusalemite. “I’m against anyconcessions when it comes to Israeli sovereignty,” he said. “Any attempt to divideJerusalem would be a serious blow, and not just for Jews in Israel.” For centuries,Jewish communities all over the world, had looked to Jerusalem, prayed forJerusalem. The yearly Seder meal, on Passover, ends with the Hebrew phrase:Shanah haba b’Yerushalaim. Next year, in Jerusalem. “What we decided here inCamp David,” Dan said, “also affects Jews in New York. In Moscow. InJohannesburg.” He urged us to focus instead on offering Arafat as attractive aspossible a package of concessions on all the other issues. “Then let him decide.But even if sovereignty over Jerusalem means that the deal collapses, I’m notwilling the pay that price.”No voices were raised. It was the rarest of political discussions. People offeredtheir views, and listened to others’. Amnon Lipkin pointed out that a large area ofwhat was now came inside the boundaries of Jerusalem was not part of the cityhe’d known before 1967. Echoing Oded Eran, he said: “It’s in our interest for as361/ BARAK / 76many as possible of the Arab inhabitants to come under the authority of thePalestinians, and as few as possible under our rule.” Amnon’s bottom line was thatwe could not give up Israeli sovereignty over the Temple Mount, which, althoughhe was a non-observant Jew, he called “the cradle of Jewish history.” But equally,we couldn’t and shouldn’t “run the Al-Aqsa mosque.” He was also in favor ofagreeing to what Clinton had asked of me: giving Arafat a base in the MuslimQuarter of the Old City. His one caveat was that we should not do any of thisunless it was part of a genuine, final, peace agreement with the Palestinians.Danny Yatom urged us to move beyond our emotions and look for a practicalsolution. “We all know how the boundaries of Jerusalem were drawn,” he said,referring to the post-1967 expansion of the city. “They’re not holy. It is importantto get down to our real red lines.” Eli Rubinstein, the attorney general, agreed.Even though he was an observant, Orthodox Jew, and more sympathetic politicallyto Likud than Labor, he concluded that we needed to include “as few Arabs aspossible” under Israeli sovereignty, and to cede the outer villages to thePalestinians, adding: “This is a moment of truth.”It was nearly five hours before I brought the discussion to a close. “This is asgrave a decision as when Ben-Gurion accepted the partition plan in 1947; thedeclaration of the state; or the most tense moments of the Yom Kippur War,” Isaid. “Or the decisions which Begin took in this same place.” Of course, Beginhadn’t even been willing to enter into discussion on Jerusalem. But we were in adifferent situation. If we were going to get a true end to our conflict, the questionof Jerusalem had to be addressed. “We can’t delay the decision. We can’t avoid it.We will have to decide.” My own red line was the same as Amnon Lipkin’s:“sovereignty over the site of our First and Second Temples.” Even sharedsovereignty elsewhere within the Old City seemed to me a step too far at this stage,but I didn’t rule it out as part of a full peace. “Without disengagement from thePalestinians, without an end of conflict,” I reminded our negotiating team, “we’reheading toward further tragedy. We can’t pretend we don’t see the iceberg.”I asked several members of the team, under Shlomo Ben-Ami, to draft a paperbased on our discussion. Since I knew that Clinton, and Arafat too, could donothing of substance until I’d resolved how far to go on Jerusalem, I went to seethe President. I told him about our session. I said that we were now crystallizingwhat had been said into a formal position, and I hoped to be able to return in a fewhours with “the furthest point we can go.” Clinton said that would be a critical362/ BARAK / 77moment in the summit. If we could find common ground, he said, Israel wouldhave achieved what had eluded it under Rabin, and even Ben-Gurion: “end ofconflict, and Jerusalem recognized internationally as your capital.” I told him thatthe discussion with my negotiators had been moving and illuminating. “I could seehow much it weighed on everyone.” But I added that I still did not feel anything ofa similar nature, or remotely as serious, was happening on the Palestinian side. Ialso said that in deciding how to proceed, I couldn’t ignore political realities backhome. I would have to get any major change in our position concerning Jerusalemthrough the Knesset, even before putting a peace agreement to a referendum.“When will you get back to me with your paper?” he asked. I said I’d try bymidnight. I also asked him whether he could delay going to the G8 summit inJapan, for which he was due to leave Camp David on the morning of the 19 th . Thatmeant we had just one full day left. I said even if the plan was to resume our talksafterward, I couldn’t move on Jerusalem right before we recessed. It would mean“putting my last and best offer on the table” and running the risk of leaks in Israelwhile Clinton was gone. He said that he had to go to the G8, but would try to putoff leaving for a further day. Then, he asked me to draw up a list of questions forhim to present to Arafat so that we could solidify our understanding of how far hewas ready to go for peace.I had Shlomo get busy on the list of questions. But it took time. We reconvenedaround eleven at night, to discuss both the questions and the Jerusalem package.Though it retained Israeli sovereignty over the entirety of the Old City, it did givethe Palestinians a greater measure of control over other areas of East Jerusalemthan any Israeli government had been willing to consider in the past. Still, almosteveryone in the negotiating team could live with it, assuming it became the criticalelement in a final peace. Dan Meridor, alone, remained firmly opposed, thoughElyakim Rubinstein also had some reservations. Even Dan said he understood theimportance of getting a peace agreement, if indeed it was possible, and ourreadiness to discuss new proposals on Jerusalem.When I left for Clinton’s cabin at about 1:00 am on Wednesday, I had no idea Iwas about to enter the most difficult meeting – and the only real fight – I had withhim during our long effort to achieve a Middle East peace. I brought Shlomo andDanny with me, which meant that Madeleine Albright, Dennis and Sandy Bergerstayed as well. I sensed tension in all of them, in large part, I soon discovered,because they took exception to the more than twelve hours we had spent discussing363/ BARAK / 78and refining our position on Jerusalem. I think Clinton expected a formal offerfrom us. Since I’d been guided by his request for a list of questions for Arafat,however, that is what we came to him with. As we’d discussed, I wanted finally toelicit some sign of whether Arafat, too, was ready to make difficult decisions.The questions were specific. “Will you accept an agreement that stipulates thefollowing...” it began, and proceeded to outline the kind of peace we could acceptand still hoped for. The points included not just Jerusalem, but areas I knew wouldalso be sensitive for Arafat, such as the “right of return” and formal agreement toan end of conflict. We went further than before in some areas. One of the outerEast Jerusalem neighborhoods would be under Palestinian sovereignty. The rest ofthe city would remain under Israeli sovereignty, but most of the other Arab villageswould be subject to a system of Palestinian administration. The Haram al-Sharif,the mosque complex above the wall of the Jewish temple, would be underPalestinian “administrative and religious management.” We also suggested“special arrangements” implying a Palestinian presence in the Old City, but againunder Israeli sovereignty. The questions envisaged eventual Palestinian control inthe Jordan Valley, with an Israeli security zone for 12 years, rather than ourproposal in pre-summit talks for 30 years. Then, explicitly, we proposed a questionto Arafat to confirm my understanding with Clinton that the “right of return”would apply not to Israel proper, but to a Palestinian state on the West Bank andGaza. Finally, the document said: “I understand that such an agreement constitutesan end of conflict.”After he read it, the President blew up. Far from the “bottom lines” he’dapparently hoped for, but which I’d never thought were expected at this stage, Iseemed to be retreating from ideas Shlomo and Gili had presented in their all-nightsession with the Palestinians. Given the ground rules of that exercise, they’d feltable to go beyond anything we’d actually agreed, and in some areas beyond whatthey knew I could support. As a result, the list of questions assumed Israel wouldkeep a little more than 11 percent of the West Bank, nearly one percent more thanShlomo had mentioned. Shlomo and Gili had also raised the possibility of up tothree of the outer Jerusalem villages coming under full Palestinian sovereignty.“You keep us, and Arafat, waiting for 13 hours,” Clinton fumed, his face nearlyscarlet. “And you want me to present something less than you’ve already offered.”He said he wouldn’t do it. “This is not real. It’s not serious.” He said that he’dgone to Shepherdstown in search of what was supposed to be an endgame with the364/ BARAK / 79Syrians. Then to Geneva to see Assad, “where I felt like a wooden Indian, doingyour bidding. I will not let it happen here. I will simply not do it.”I tried to keep my voice steady when I replied. I explained that the issues wewere addressing went to the heart of Israel’s interests, its future security, itsidentity and definition as a nation. I had a responsibility to tread carefully. Then,my voice rising too, I came back to what I felt was the real problem. Arafat and hisnegotiators had been sitting and waiting for me and my team, and probably Clintonas well, to deliver more and more concessions with no sign that they were willingto move on anything. “I find that outrageous,” I said. I did not expect Arafat torespond with equal concessions. After all, Israel had most of the tangible assets.“But I did expect him at least to take a small step once we had taken ten. We havenot seen even this. This is the kind of behavior parents would not tolerate in theirown children! We don’t expect Arafat to accept this, but I do expect him to presenta counter-position.”Clinton remained adamant he couldn’t go to Arafat with a retreat from ourearlier ideas. “My negotiating team moved beyond my red lines,” I told him. Theovernight talks were supposed to be non-binding and assumed that both sideswould make a genuine attempt to get an agreement. “I can’t see any change inArafat’s pattern. We take all the risks.” I said I doubted that Arafat expected tohear that we had decided to “give him Jerusalem.” In any case, the Israeli publichadn’t given me a mandate to do that. But I would still move in Arafat’s direction,if and when I got any sign he was willing to do the same.The President’s anger eased. He suggested he caucus with his negotiators andfigure out what to do next. I felt bad about what had happened: not about the list ofquestions, or my insistence that we could not offer major concessions with no signof reciprocity. But I did regret that it had left the Americans so frustrated, andClinton so angry. He had invested not just huge amounts of time and brainpower,but political capital, in the search for peace.He phoned me at about 3:30 in the morning and asked me to come back. Thistime, I went alone. We sat on the terrace of Aspen. He said again he couldn’t go toArafat with the list we’d drawn up. But having met with his negotiators, hesuggested they draft a more forthcoming list of their own – consistent with whatShlomo and Gili had proposed. I agreed, as long as they kept in mind that it had tobe something I could ultimately live with, and that it be presented to Arafat as an365/ BARAK / 80American proposal. I suggested the President could tell Arafat that he’d try to getme to agree to it, providing Arafat first showed a readiness to move.The American questions did go further than ours. They asked Arafat whether hewould negotiate on the basis of getting Palestinian sovereignty over all the outerJerusalem neighborhoods, as well as the Muslim Quarter of the Old City and a“custodial role” over the holy sites. But Arafat said no. He insisted on Palestiniansovereignty over all of East Jerusalem, including the Old City and the holy sites.For a few hours after Clinton’s fruitless meeting with Arafat, Dennis and theAmerican team engaged in a rescue effort, adding another carrot. They includedthe Christian Quarter as well, meaning Palestinian sovereignty over nearly half ofthe Old City, including the areas where almost all Arab residents lived. Dennisgave the proposal to Shlomo and Amnon Lipkin to bring to me, and asked two ofthe Palestinian negotiators to take it to Arafat. Even offering sovereignty over theMuslim Quarter went beyond anything I’d proposed. So did a lot of the otherAmerican questions. Still, I said we’d be ready to consider them in discussionswith the US negotiating team – with the exception of the Christian Quarter. Butthat, too, turned out not to matter. Arafat did not even respond.Clinton called me to say we’d reached the end of the road. There were only twooptions: end the summit and announce we’d tried and failed, or defer Jerusalemand try to get agreement on the rest of the issues. I asked for time to think it over,and he said he’d come see me when I was ready. I was tempted to put offJerusalem. In the admittedly unlikely event we could get a deal on the other issues,that would undeniably be an achievement. But I couldn’t help thinking thatArafat’s lack of engagement on Jerusalem was yet another sign that he was notready for the almost equally tough compromises required to resolve the other coreissues. And there was no escaping the reality that without a deal on Jerusalem, noagreement we reached would truly represent an “end of conflict.” Moreover,Jerusalem wasn’t just a Palestinian issue. It was of fundamental interest to thewhole Muslim world. If we left it unaddressed, we would be putting future Israeligovernments in the position of having to negotiate on Jerusalem after we’d givenback our key negotiating assets and all our leverage.I accepted now that the search of a full peace treaty, or even a frameworkagreement, looked all but impossible. Even Shlomo’s and Gili’s freelancing hadproduced only a series of no’s from Arafat. But I felt I couldn’t give up. Much asI’d been resisting it, I believed I needed to give Clinton my true bottom lines, even366/ BARAK / 81with Arafat still mute and unresponsive. That was the only way we could knowwith certainty whether peace was possible. If it wasn’t, it would also demonstratepowerfully to the Americans that we were not the party who had prevented anagreement.The President came to see me in Dogwood a little before 11 at night on the 18 th ,less than 12 hours before he was due to take his delayed flight to the G8. I told himI’d decided to do what Rabin had done with Syria. I was going to give him a“deposit” to keep in his pocket, which he would be free to use as the basis for afurther, American proposal to Arafat, assuming it was part of an agreement with a“satisfactory resolution” of the refugee issue and an explicit end-of-conflict. Hecould present it as something which he could tell Arafat he was confident ofpersuading Israel to accept. It went well beyond what I’d offered before, on all themajor issues. I proposed Palestinian rule over 91 percent of the West Bank. I wasready for a Palestinian state to have sovereignty over 85 percent of the border inthe Jordan Valley as well, and our security zone there would stay in place for “lessthan 12 years.” Seven out of the nine outer Arab neighborhoods of Jerusalemwould come under Palestinian sovereignty. The inner neighborhoods would beunder Palestinian civil authority: including planning and zoning, and lawenforcement.For the mosques on the Temple Mount, I proposed a sharedcustodianship to include the new state of Palestine, Morocco and the chair of theHigher Islamic Commission in Jerusalem. I also agreed to consider Palestiniansovereignty over both the Muslim and Christian quarters of the Old City.Clinton, arching his eyebrows and smiling, said what I’d offered was a packageof genuine concessions. It was more than he had expected and, he assumed, morethan the Palestinians could have hoped for. It had the makings of a potentialbreakthrough toward a fair and final peace. I told him I hoped so. But givenArafat’s behavior so far, I had my doubts.Now, it was our turn to wait. The President invited Arafat to Aspen and, fromwhat we heard soon afterwards, got no hint of any readiness to reciprocate. Heagreed only to talk to his negotiators and get back with an answer. Overnight, thePalestinians sent messages to the Americans asking questions on each of theconcessions, though still with no indication from Arafat of a response. Finally, hesent a suggestion that since Clinton was about to fly off to the G8, we take a twoweekbreak to allow Arafat to consult with Arab leaders. To his credit, Clintonknew an escape act when he saw it. He recognized that only by confronting the367/ BARAK / 82issues raised by our proposals and showing a willingness to find common groundwould we have any hope of success. No recess, Clinton said. He needed a straightanswer. Again, not full acceptance necessarily, but agreement to treat the proposalsas a basis for negotiating an Israeli-Palestinian peace. Arafat’s answer came shortlybefore dawn. It was “no”.Clinton couldn’t quite believe it. He went back to see Arafat, telling him he wasmaking an error on the scale of 1948, when the Palestinians had rejected thepartition of Palestine and the creation of an Arab state; or in 1978, when bynegotiating on the basis of Sadat’s Palestinian-rights framework, they would haveended up with a mere 5,000 Israeli settlers on the West Bank instead of nearly200,000. What most astonished Clinton was that Arafat was saying no even tousing the package as a basis for negotiations. Still, Arafat would not budge.As Palestinian negotiators tried to salvage things by suggesting another trip byMadeleine and Dennis to the Middle East, it was clear that even the Americanswere fed up. They knew that one side, at least, had been trying to get an agreement.They couldn’t understand why Arafat was unwilling even to accept the “pocket”proposals as a basis for further talks. When Yossi Ginossar, our most reliableconduit, went to see Arafat, he found him sitting alone and, in Yossi’s description,“paralyzed.” Clinton finally decided to have one last go. When he did, Arafat notonly remained unwilling. To the President’s astonishment, he insisted that theancient Jewish temple hadn’t been in Jerusalem at all, but in the West Bank city ofNablus.I was getting a bite to eat in the dining room in Laurel Lodge when Madeleineshowed up. She didn’t bother defending Arafat. She was as frustrated as I was. Hermessage was that after the summit, it was important not to make things worse. Anegotiating process had to be kept alive. Then, Clinton sat down with me. Hedelivered a similar message, but with even greater feeling. “You’re smarter than Iam,” he joked. “You’re certainly experienced in war, and I’m not. But I’m moreexperienced in politics, and there are a few things I’ve learned along the way. Themost important is not to corner your adversaries, and not to corner yourself.Always leave yourself a way out. Don’t lock yourself into a losing option.” I couldsee that he was right. I also believed, as strongly now as before the summit, thatIsrael’s own interests and its security were not served by an unresolved conflictwith the Palestinians. The problem was that, in the absence of an equalcommitment on Arafat’s side, any continued negotiating process seemed futile.368/ BARAK / 83I packed my bags. I told Danny Yatom to inform the Americans we wereleaving and to get our plane ready to take us back to Israel. I let the others in ourteam know that we were going. A number of them, and several of the Americans aswell, urged me to reconsider. But I said I saw no point in staying. What I didn’tknow, however, was that one of the Palestinians’ original Oslo negotiators, HassanAsfour, had approached Dennis Ross with a new proposal: that we ask Arafat toaccept everything except the proposal on the holy sites as a basis for negotiation.Sovereignty over the Temple Mount would be addressed in later, internationalnegotiations. When Dennis brought this to me, my instinct was to say no. Like somuch else at the summit, it was an inherently skewed formula: it would involvemajor Israeli concessions on all the other main issues, without securing ourabsolute minimum need in Jerusalem: sovereignty over the Temple Mount. I didn’tsay yes. Still, with Clinton’s words of advice still on my mind, I said that I’d thinkit over.When I met the rest of the Israeli team, almost all of them felt we should stay.The consensus was that especially if violence broke out after the summit’scollapse, we didn’t want to feel we’d left any stone unturned. At about 11 pm, Iphoned the President and told him that we would stay until he returned fromOkinawa. He was clearly pleased, and asked us to keep working in his absence.When I resisted that, saying that any substantive talks needed his involvement, wefinally agreed that talks could continue in search of a formula for the holy sites. Onall the other issues, only informal discussions would be held until and unless a wayahead on the Temple Mount was found. If that happened, and if Arafat finallyaccepted the “pocket” proposals as an agreed starting point, formal negotiationscould resume. Clinton accepted this formula. He went to see Arafat and secured –or thought he had secured – his agreement as well.One of the President’s great strengths was his genius for blurring the edges ofpotential differences in search of common ground. But when edges had to besharpened, this could lead to confusion. Before leaving for the G8, the Presidentneglected to mention to Arafat our explicit understanding that, with the exceptionof the talks on the holy sites, nothing would happen until he accepted theconcessions that President Clinton and I had delivered as at least a basis for furthernegotiations. As a result, Arafat’s team now set about happily asking questions andprobing my negotiators – pushing us to go further – but with no more inclinationthan before to produce any concessions of their own.369/ BARAK / 84When I learned what was happening, I told my negotiators they were not tohold any further formal meetings during the four days Clinton would be away.Dennis’s initial response was frustration. Madeleine Albrights’s was fury. Theyboth made no secret of their view that I was needlessly stonewalling. It wasn’t untila few hours later that Madeleine apparently saw the stenographer’s record of myconversation with the President before he’d left, confirming the condition thatArafat accept the “pocket” at least as a basis on which to proceed. That evening,she apologized to me for the misunderstanding, and explained the mix-up to thefull Palestinian and Israeli negotiating teams.I spent most of the remaining three days in my cabin or, when the rain relented,walking through the woods. The Americans appeared to think I was sulking. Iwasn’t. I was trying to find the least diplomatically damaging way to navigate theperiod until the President’s return. I couldn’t see showing up at Laurel at everymealtime, mingling and joking with the Americans and Palestinians, but refusingto enter into any form of negotiations. That would compound the awkwardness ofthe situation, and also be a direct affront to Madeleine. I liked and respected her.But I could not in good conscience help her out in her efforts to find at least some,informal, way of moving the summit along in Clinton’s absence. If Arafat hadfailed to show even a scintilla of movement with the President in the room, I knewthere was no way that he was going to do so with the Secretary of State. For thePalestinian negotiators, who were predictably in favour of her efforts, thedefinition of “new ideas” was whatever further movement they might cajole out ofour negotiators. Still, on day-three of Clinton’s absence, I got a note saying thatSecretary Albright was on her way to my cabin. I didn’t want the needlessdiplomatic difficulty involved in again telling her I could not sanction freewheeling,and decidedly one-sided, negotiations while Arafat hadn’t moved asingle inch. So I made myself scarce. Fortunately, I was wearing sneakers. I toldDanny to inform the Americans I was out jogging around the perimeter of the largeCamp David estate, and went off to do just that.I told my own delegation I was taking time out to assess where we stood. I didcontinue meeting with Gili Sher and Danny Yatom. Yet for much of time, I read. Ialso did a lot of thinking. I considered the “pocket” concessions I’d agreed to, theuncertainties and risks I’d been prepared to run, and the need to decide how to dealwith the fact that Arafat, when he had engaged at all, had said “no”.370/ BARAK / 85Once it was clear to the Americans there would be no talks until the Presidentreturned, however, Madeline began urging me to go see Arafat personally. The twomembers of our team who were the least pessimistic about Camp David’s outcome,Shlomo Ben-Ami and Yossi Ginossar, also said they thought it was a good idea. Itwas they who’d pressed me to go see Arafat for tea and sweets earlier in thesummit. But that meeting had produced not even a glimmer of negotiatingflexibility from the Palestinian leader. Yossi had said at the time that it would helpthe atmosphere, and pay dividends later on. But that hadn’t happened either.“Madam Secretary,” I told Madeleine, “eating more baklava with Arafat isn’tgoing to help. The situation is simple: he needs to answer whether he views thePresident’s proposal as a basis for going forward.”When Clinton returned, he promptly got back down to business: making onelast push to see whether a peace deal was possible. He phoned me around midnighton the 24 th of July, a few hours after he’d arrived. He told me he had sent an evenmore far-reaching package to Arafat, expanding on my proposals. Now, all of theouter Arab neighborhoods in East Jerusalem would come under Palestiniansovereignty, in addition to the Muslim and Christian quarters in the Old City. AndArafat would be given “custodial sovereignty” over the Muslim holy sites on theTemple Mount. I didn’t object. Though it was further than I felt I could go, it waswithin the spirit of my “pocket deposit”. The same ground rules still applied: thesewere American proposals, which the President was telling Arafat he would try todeliver if he accepted them as a basis for serious negotiations. But when Clintonphoned me back, around 3:15 in the morning, it was to tell me that Arafat hadagain said no.The curtain had finally come down. What remained now was to clear up the set.I did meet Arafat once more, in a joint session with President Clinton, but only forclosing statements. The President and I spoke as much in sorrow and frustration asanger. Both of us said we thought an historic agreement had been within our grasp,and that far-reaching proposals had been tabled to make it possible. Arafatresponded with words both of us had heard before: effusive toward Clinton,rhapsodic about his “old partner” Rabin and fulsome in his ostensible commitmentto keep trying for peace. But it was just words. We knew he was not willing evento talk about the kind of compromises a real, final peace would require.The President’s remarks to the media were, by the standards of post-summitdiplomacy, unmistakably clear in making that point. He praised me and the Israeli371/ BARAK / 86negotiating team for courage and vision. Essentially, he thanked Arafat forshowing up. That was some consolation. But it didn’t alter the weight of themessage we were carrying home. Arafat either would not or could not make peace,at least on terms any Israel leader could accept or the people of Israel wouldendorse.There were only two potential deal-breakers on our side, as Arafat had knownfrom the beginning. The first involved the “right of return.” We were never goingto sign a peace agreement accepting the return of hundreds of thousands ofPalestinians within our pre-1967 borders. Demographically, that was a recipe forthe inexorable end of Israel as a majority-Jewish state. It would also imply arewriting of the history of how Israel was born: in a war, with an almost equalnumber of refugees either fleeing or forced to leave on both sides, after the Arabworld had unanimously, and violently, rejected a UN partition that would havecreated a Palestinian Arab state as well. I did accept a “right of return” to thePalestinian state we had hoped to create, as part of a final peace deal, on the WestBank and in Gaza. I also supported the idea of a multi-billion-dollar internationalfund to compensate or resettle Palestinian refugees, and was ready to commit Israelas a party to that effort. The other critical issue was Jerusalem. I had stretched ournegotiating position almost to breaking point. The “pocket” ideas Arafat ended uprejecting challenged a longstanding Israeli political taboo. In practical terms, theyamounted to a breach of the assurances which I and every other Israeli PrimeMinister since 1967 had given: never to re-divide Israel’s capital. Had we actuallygot an end-of-conflict deal, I would have had to justify it to Israelis in areferendum. I think I could have done so. But one thing I could not give up was oursovereignty over the Temple Mount, the centerpiece of our history as a people andIsrael’s as a state. It was our connection with our past, a focus of what we had gonethrough, what we had achieved, and what we had left to accomplish. It wasessential to who we were.Arafat never even engaged in a discussion on the “right of return”. On theTemple Mount, however, he was explicit. Any peace, any basis for negotiationtoward peace, had to begin by confirming Palestinian sovereignty. Besides, as he’dtold the President of the United States, he had persuaded himself there never was aJewish temple in Jerusalem. When I heard about that remark, I was less shockedthan Clinton. It struck me as just another way Arafat had of conveying his bottomlines. It was a bit like stories he liked to tell about visiting his aunt in Jerusalem as372/ BARAK / 87a young boy and seeing religious Jews walking through the streets of the Old City.I don’t know whether those stories were true. But the point was that while he hadno problem with Jews in their long coats and black hats praying in the holy city,Jews exercising authority or sovereignty, or a Jewish state, was something elseentirely. Camp David had made it clear it was something he was not prepared toaccept.The question which I now had to confront was what to do next.373/ BARAK / 88Chapter Twenty-ThreeIt didn’t fully hit me how draining our efforts had been until the morning thatthe summit collapsed, when President Clinton called me to come talk to him in theliving room at Laurel Lodge. When I arrived, Madeleine was already there, sittingon the edge of the sofa. She greeted me with a resigned shrug and a valiant but notaltogether successful effort at a smile.“We tried,” Clinton said quietly as I took a seat in a wooden chair opposite his.“We gave it everything.” The nominal reason for the meeting was to brief me onthe communiqué the Americans were going to issue: mostly boilerplate assurancesthat both sides remained committed to seeking peace, but with an additional“understanding” that neither would take unilateral actions in the meantime. Butmostly, Clinton wanted to reinforce his message of a few days earlier: don’t “lockyourself into a losing option.” Don’t close the door. Don’t give up. “I won’t,” I toldhim, an assurance I echoed in remarks to reporters a few hours later, when I saidthat while the peace process had “suffered a major blow, we should not lose hope.With goodwill on all sides, we can recuperate.”But I told the President that we couldn’t just ignore what had happened at CampDavid. Yes, in the event Arafat suddenly had second thoughts about the potentiallyhistoric achievement he’d passed up, he would know where to find me. But untiland unless that happened, I told Clinton that I assumed my “pocket” concessionswould now be firmly back in his pocket. And while we couldn’t erase them frommemory, I said it was important both of us make it clear that, in legal anddiplomatic terms, they were not going to provide Arafat a new starting point fromwhich he could make his customary demand for more.“And I have to tell you that, given what has happened, there’s no way I canjustify handing him control of more land. I am not going to go ahead with the Wyeredeployments in these circumstances.”“You don’t have to,” Clinton replied. “I’ll back you.”Though I never discussed internal Israeli politics with any foreign leader, eventhe closest of allies, I didn’t doubt that the President’s support was partly arecognition of what awaited me once I got home. The compromises I’d beenwilling to consider had gone further – much further, on the politically combustible374/ BARAK / 89question of Jerusalem – than any Israeli leader in the search for peace. Even beforeI’d left for Camp David, the defections from our coalition meant we’d been leftwith only 42 seats in the Knesset, nineteen short of a majority. Amid the first,sketchy media reports that we were even talking about sharing control of parts ofJerusalem with the Palestinians, there was a chorus of denunciation from rightwingpoliticians back home. Bibi Netanyahu had largely kept out of the public eyesince his resignation after the election. Now, he issued a statement accusing me ofhaving “broken all the red lines held by all Israeli governments.” During thePresident’s final push to save the prospects for a summit agreement, Bibi called anews conference. He said he was determined to prevent what he called animpending disintegration of Israeli society. “What we hear from most of the reportsout of Camp David does not answer our hopes,” he said.It hadn’t answered my hopes either. But I had gone into the summit with myeyes open. Frustrated though I was by the way the summit had ended, I had noregrets about going as far as I had in trying to reach, at the minimum, a frameworkagreement. In that sense, it is true the summit had failed. But when I’d urgedPresident Clinton to convene it, I made the argument that if genuine peace wasever going to be possible, we at least had to know whether Arafat was interested in,or capable of, playing his part. That question had, for now, been answered. At leastas importantly for Israel, the President of the United States and almost the entireinternational community recognized we’d done everything realistically possible toreach an accommodation. Diplomatically, the ball was in the Palestinians’ court.There was a final achievement as well – little noticed or remarked upon in thedays immediately after Camp David, but hugely significant. A taboo had beenbroken. For the first time, all Israelis recognized what their political leaders, bothLabor and Likud, had long known: a formal, final peace with the Palestinians, ifand when it came, would require us not just to withdraw from the great majority ofthe West Bank, but to find a formula for sharing power in Jerusalem. Many Israelisstill believed that was a price too high, and not just Likudniks. A couple of weeksafter the summit, Leah Rabin told an Israeli newspaper that her late husband wouldbe “turning in his grave” if he’d known the concessions I’d been ready to consideron Jerusalem. I found the remarks hurtful, but I understood them. In a way, theydrove home the point I’d made to Clinton during the summit: all Israelis had adeep, emotional attachment to our historic capital. “Yitzhak would never haveagreed to compromise on the Old City and the Temple Mount,” Leah said,375/ BARAK / 90“because for him, Jerusalem was sacred from a strictly national and historic pointof view.” It was for me as well. In fact, I think its religious significance probablyresonated more strongly. Still, the major change from the summit was that eventhose Israelis who found a compromise on Jerusalem unacceptable recognized that,if they did want to negotiate a definitive end to the conflict, talking about it wasunavoidable.At least for now, however, there wasn’t going to be a peace deal. As our El Al707 descended over the Mediterranean for our approach back to Ben-GurionAirport, I faced the more immediate issue of ensuring my government survived.This was partly in case, against all odds, Arafat showed a readiness to revive thesearch for peace – but also because of the real prospect he would choose violenceinstead.* * *Since the Knesset was about to go into recess until late October, I would have athree-month window to reshape and stabilize my coalition – but only if we couldweather a no-confidence motion introduced by Arik Sharon after Camp David. Wedid weather it, barely. Arik needed a majority of the Knesset’s 120 seats to bringdown the government. The vote ended in a 50-50 tie. The other 20 MKs abstained,or didn’t show up. This was not because of any enthusiasm for my efforts to get anagreement at Camp David, but because of a lack of enthusiasm for an earlyelection in which they feared losing seats.Still, that did allow me to focus on the challenge of the inevitably alteredsituation with Arafat after the summit’s collapse. My main concern was thepossibility of violence. Even before returning home, I’d phoned Shaul Mofaz andAvi Dichter, the former Sayeret Matkal officer who was now head of the Shin Bet.“Let’s hope the violence doesn’t come,” I told them. “But if it does, make sure weare ready.” Though there was no sign of violence in the weeks immediately afterthe summit, there was equally little sign of diplomatic engagement by Arafat.Obviously relieved at the way Camp David had ended, he returned to Gaza to ahero’s welcome, proudly proclaiming that he had refused to “give up” Jerusalem. Itwas vintage Arafat: the “general” in his starched uniform and kefiyeh, fresh from376/ BARAK / 91the diplomatic equivalent of the battlefield, triumphant against the odds. It was therole he liked and played best. His next move was to take the show on the road: toArab, European and world capitals, pleading that he had been the “victim” ofsummit chicanery in which President Clinton and I had presented him with a dealno self-respecting Palestinian could accept. He was also campaigning forinternational support for a move, in contravention of the final Camp Davidcommuniqué, to “declare” a Palestinian state unilaterally in mid-September.I spoke personally to Tony Blair and French President Jacques Chirac, and alsodispatched Shlomo-Ben Ami, Amnon Lipkin, Yossi Beilin and Shimon Peres, whowas Minister of Regional Cooperation in the coalition, on a series of diplomaticvisits to make sure the true story of what had happened at the summit wasunderstood. As a result, the globetrotting Arafat received an almost unanimousrebuff for the idea of a unilateral declaration of stateheood. He was told that if hereally wanted a state, he should return to the negotiating table with Israel.By the time I went to New York in early September – joining the largestcollection of world leaders ever assembled, for the UN’s Millennium Summit –there seemed little chance of that happening. I met privately with a number ofworld leaders before delivering a brief address to the more than 150 presidents andprime ministers. I was at pains to take the high road. None of the foreign leaders Imet had expressed any doubt that we’d gone much further than they had expectedat Camp David, and that the onus for putting diplomacy back on track rested firmlywith the Palestinians. Looking straight at Arafat from the UN podium, I said: “Weare at the Rubicon, and neither of us can cross it alone.” Jerusalem, “the eternalcapital of Israel,” was calling out for a “peace of honor, of courage and ofbrotherhood” – a peace recognizing that the city was also sacred to Muslims andChristians the world over. When Arafat spoke, it was almost as if the summit hadnever happened. “We remain committed to our national rights over East Jerusalem,capital of our state and shelter of our sacred sites, as well as our rights on theChristian and Islamic holy sites,” he declared. He didn’t mention Jews, beyond abizarre reference to the 2,000 th anniversary of the birth of Christ “in Bethlehem,Palestine.” I couldn’t resist remarking to one of the American negotiators that I’dalways thought Jesus grew up as a Jewish boy, making thrice-yearly visits atfestival time to the temple in Jerusalem, at a time when there was not a church,much less a mosque, in sight.377/ BARAK / 92Still, in my meetings with Clinton, I assured him I was not giving up altogetheron the prospects for peace. Not only did I feel that would be wrong, as long asthere was a scintilla of hope. I believed that our continued diplomatic engagementmight provide a counterweight to any moves by Arafat to revert to violence. It wasalso critical for Israel to retain the diplomatic, political and moral high ground wehad earned in the eyes of the international community from the concessions we hadbeen willing to consider. When the President suggested drafting a final Americanpaper, based on Camp David though presumably with an even more generousproposal for the Palestinians, I agreed. I figured even Arafat might realize at somepoint that if he did want a negotiated peace, the time for dithering was over.Clinton would no longer be president in five months’ time. Unless I could find analternative way to refortify my coalition over the coming weeks, it was entirelypossible I’d have to form a “unity” coalition with Arik and the Likud. Still, I toldPresident Clinton I doubted the ticking clock would make a difference to thePalestinian leader. If it didn’t, I believed at some point all our talk about an “end ofconflict” would give way to conflict. The only question was when.Tragically, I got the answer only weeks after my return from the UN.* * *At the urging of the Americans, I invited Arafat and his negotiating team to aprivate dinner in Kochav Yair on the 25th of September. The atmosphere wassurprisingly warm, for which a lot of the credit, as well as culinary praise, has to goto Nava. “Very cordial, even congenial,” Nabil Shaath told reporters after thedinner, nearly 45 minutes of which I spent talking alone with Arafat on the stoneterrace out back. Each of us spoke to Clinton for about 10 minutes near the end,and the President was obviously pleased to hear us sounding upbeat about trying tonarrow any differences on the forthcoming American negotiating paper. On thesubstance of our differences, by mutual agreement, Arafat and I didn’t say much toeach other. I did try to impress on him that time was getting short. Hismonosyllabic reply – yes – was at least better than the alternative. I chose tobelieve we could both now focus on trying again.378/ BARAK / 93The request that had come across my desk a few days earlier need not havechanged that. Even though Arik had failed, for now, to bring down thegovernment, he was keen to make political capital from the collapse of CampDavid. He now declared his intention to pay a visit to the Temple Mount. TheMount – or as it was called in Arabic, Haram al-Sharif – was part of Israel. Theunsubtle point of Arik’s visit was to dramatize his determination to keep it thatway. The target of this political theatre was not Arafat or the Palestinians. It wasthe Israeli public, me, and my government. In an all-perfect world, I would haveliked to find a way to block the visit. In a democracy, it wasn’t that easy. The onlyway I could do so was on the grounds it was a threat to public order or security, ajudgement in the hands of our police and security services. I duly asked for theviews of Avi Dichter of the Shin Bet, and Shlomo Ben-Ami, who in addition tobeing interim Foreign Minister was Minister of Internal Security, in charge of thepolice. Both came back with the same answer: though we’d all be happier if Arikstayed down on his farm in the Negev, there was no reason to expect his visitwould pose a major public-order issue, and no basis for blocking it. When Shlomocontacted Jibril Rajoub, Arafat’s West Bank security commander, Rajoub askedonly that two conditions be imposed, and Shlomo agreed. The first was that thevisit not occur on a Friday, when the mosques would be full of worshipers; thesecond, that Sharon not set foot in either of the mosques on the Haram. Our chiefof police informed Sharon that if he didn’t accept the conditions, we’d deny himpermission to go. But he agreed. When he went, for about half an hour underpolice escort on Thursday morning the 28 th , he complied.At first, we thought it would prove a one-off media stunt. But that evening,Danny Yatom brought me an intelligence report with evidence that Arafat’sPalestinian Authority was planning for wide-scale violence after Friday prayers, inprotest over Sharon’s visit. Danny called Dennis Ross. Madeleine Albright calledArafat, to urge him to ensure this didn’t happen. But as Dennis would remark later,“Arafat didn’t lift finger to stop it.”The trouble began the next day, shortly after Friday prayers. It was also the eveof the Jewish New Year, and the Western Wall area was crowded. As peoplepoured out of the mosques, a number began hurling stones, some of them the sizeof small boulders, onto the Jewish worshippers and police below. One knocked outthe highly experienced, steady-handed commander of the Jerusalem police, whichI’m sure contributed to making the confrontation that followed even worse. By the379/ BARAK / 94end of the day, dozens of Israelis and Palestinians were injured. Five Palestinianslay dead. Though the media almost instantly labelled it a new “intifada”, this onewas very different. It was not a burst of anger, however misdirected, by stonethrowingyouths convinced that a road accident in Gaza had been something moresinister. There had been no serious unrest on the day of Arik’s visit. We wouldlater learn this was a deliberate campaign, waged with guns and grenades, byHamas and Islamic Jihad, the Fatah offshoot Tanzim, and Arafat’s own policeforce.The media had changed, too, in the 13 years since the first intifada, with the riseof twenty-four-seven news broadcasters, including the Arabic-language Al Jazeera.Images of pain and suffering and fear stoked anger on both sides. None, in the firstdays of the violence, was more powerful, or heart-rending, than the picture of aterrified 12-year-old Palestinian boy named Mohammed al-Durrah, sheltered byhis father as they took cover from the crossfire in Gaza. The facts of the incident,as best we could establish immediately afterwards, were that the Palestiniansecurity forces had opened fire on Israeli troops near the settlement of Netzarim.Ten Palestinians, including the little boy, lost their lives when the soldiers returnedfire. We later established with near certainty that the boy had in fact been killed byPalestinian gunfire. But even if we’d been able to prove that at the time, I’m surethat in the increasingly poisonous atmosphere, it would have made little difference.Nor would it have changed the next, deeply disturbing escalation: the spread ofthe violence into Israel itself, with unprecedentedly serious clashes between ourown Arab citizens and the police in the Galilee, in Wadi Ara, in the main mixedArab-Jewish cities, and the Negev. Beyond the political implications, thedemonstrations of solidarity with the Palestinian violence presented a securitychallenge of a different order: to the ability of the Israeli police, and by extensionthe government, to ensure basic law and order inside our borders. The worst of theclashes lasted barely a week. But they left thirteen Arab Israeli protestors dead,sparking demonstrations as far afield as Jaffa, as well as ugly incidents of mobviolence by Israeli Jews against Arabs in some areas.President Clinton tried his best to help us halt the violence on the West Bankand in Gaza. I doubted the Americans would succeed, but was fully ready to join intheir efforts to try. About ten days into the new intifada, I attended a crisis meetingwith Arafat, mediated by Madeleine Albright and Dennis Ross, at the USambassador’s residence Paris. It was nominally under the aegis of President380/ BARAK / 95Chirac, but the understanding was that Madeleine would be in charge. Far fromshowing any willingness to end the violence, Arafat at first simply lied. He said thePalestinian violence was in response to an unprovoked assault by Israeli troops,and demanded an international “protection” force. There was a particularly bizarremoment when I read out the names of individual Tanzim leaders whom we hadintercepted organizing the attacks. Arafat pretended he’d never heard of any ofthem, almost as if I was reading from a zoology textbook about species of polarbears. This was a man who had been awarded the Nobel Peace Prize. What hereally deserved was an Oscar.But people were dying. Needlessly. We ended up agreeing to a US-led factfindingcommission, as well as a number of steps to separate the Palestinianattackers and Israeli units. I reaffirmed our policy of insisting that Israeli soldiersuse live fire only if they felt their lives were under threat. Arafat undertook to orderhis security forces and Tanzim not to launch further attacks. He even phoned Gazawith what we were given to understand were explicit orders. But it was all forshow, as we discovered when we were invited to the Elysée Palace to meet Chirac.The French President had clearly received advance word from Arafat about hisdemand for an international “protection” force, presumably with a role for theFrench. To my surprise and frustration, and Secretary Albright’s as well, Chiracinsisted that no agreement was acceptable without that happening. Then, he turnedto me, demanding to know why the violence had left nearly 400 Palestinians dead,but barely two dozen Israelis, if the Palestinians were the aggressors. “MrPresident,” I said, “just several weeks ago we were prepared to go very far in orderto put this entire conflict behind us. It is Mr Arafat who rejected the proposal, evenas a basis for negotiations. Just a basis to seek peace. He then deliberately turned toterror. We are protecting ourselves, and our soldiers. Are you really saying thatyou’ll be happy for us to sign an agreement to end it only when another 350Israelis are killed? I’m not playing that game. Arafat started this. He has to stop it.We know he can, and we hold him responsible if that does not happen.”It did not happen. We tried all we could to prevent a further deterioration. Iapproved moves, in co-ordination with the Palestinian police, to lower our securityprofile where possible. We made sure Israeli police were not visible from themosques on the Haram al-Sharif. But after the next Friday prayers, a crowd madeits way to a police post at the edge of the Old City and attacked it. In Nablus, theburial site of Joseph had long been a source of tension. Shlomo Ben-Ami reached381/ BARAK / 96an agreement with the Palestinians to replace an Israeli troop cordon there withPalestinian police. But on the morning of Saturday October 7th, hours after thePalestinian police took over, a mob attacked, burned and ransacked the site. Theydestroyed the Torah scrolls. A few hours later, our soldiers found the body of arabbi from a nearby settlement. He had gone to survey the damage to thesynagogue.That evening, I delivered an ultimatum: “If we don’t see a change in thepatterns of violence in the next two days, we will regard this as a cessation byArafat of the peace process.” That did, briefly, have an effect. When Clintonreinforced my message later in the day, Dennis told me that for the first time, hesensed that Arafat realized he had to act. But again, it was not enough, nor inanything like a sustained manner. And with an appalling act of murder three daysafterwards, it was too late. That outrage came in Ramallah. Two Israeli reserviststook a wrong turn and ended up driving into the town. They were taken to thePalestinian police station. Hundreds of people broke in and stabbed them, gougedtheir eyes out and disembowled them. In a chilling image broadcast around theworld, one of the murderers brandished the bloodstained palms of his hands in agesture of triumph. Since I was Defense Minister as well, I spent the hours thatfollowed in the kirya. We ordered attack helicopters into action for the first time,though with advance warning to local Palestinians in the areas we targeted. Wedestroyed the Ramallah police station, as well as a militia base near Arafat’sheadquarters in Gaza. But Arafat emerged to tell a cheering crowd: “Our peopledon’t care. They don’t hesitate to continue their march to Jerusalem, the capital ofthe Palestinian independent state.”Israelis did care. It is hard to say which emotion was more powerful: disgust orfury. But if the opinion polls were to be believed, a large majority wanted us to hitback with the full force of the Israeli army. Still, my overriding aim remained toend the violence if possible, not make it worse. When Clinton asked me to joinhim, Arafat, King Abdullah of Jordan and UN Secretary General Kofi Annan for asummit in Sharm al-Sheikh, I agreed. We worked out a series of steps todisengage. Arafat was finally supposed to order the Palestinian Authority securityforces and Tanzim to cease fire, and establish no-go perimeters around our armypositions. We would reopen Gaza airport and, over a period of two weeks, pullback our forces to where they had been before the violence began. But again, itdidn’t happen. The Palestinian attacks intensified and, as I’d made clear at the382/ BARAK / 97summit, we responded. The only, brief, lull came when Arafat feared theAmericans would cancel his scheduled visit to Washington to see Clinton onNovember 9. I was due to follow him three days later.I met Clinton and Dennis Ross over dinner in a little kitchen area attached to theOval Office, and both seemed surprisingly upbeat. The President said he’d toldArafat the broad points that would be in the new American negotiating paper. Itwas Camp David-plus. Assuming all issues in a final peace were agreed, thePalestinians would now end up, after a land swap near Gaza, with a “mid-90-percent” share of the West Bank. On Jerusalem, the guiding principle would be“what is Arab will be Palestinian, and what is Jewish, Israeli.” On the TempleMount, the Haram al-Sharif, each side would have control of its own holy sites.Finally, though Palestinian refugees would be free to return in unlimited numbersto a new Palestinian state, there would be no “right of return” to pre-1967 Israel.The President told me that after he’d run all this by Arafat, he and Dennis hadasked whether “in principle” these were parameters he could accept. Arafat hadsaid yes.I assume they expected me to say the same. But I told them I couldn’t give theman answer. What concerned me now was the violence. Until it was reined in, Iwould not be party to rewarding Arafat diplomatically. I urged the Americans tomake ending the violence their focus as well, because if they didn’t get tougher onArafat’s noncompliance with anything resembling a de-escalation, Israel would doso.* * *Since the Knesset had returned before my trip to Washington, I’d needed first tomake sure my government would survive. The obvious, or at least the mostmathematically secure, choice would have been a deal with Sharon. Especiallysince the lynching in Ramallah, there were calls from politicians on all sides for aunity coalition between Labor and Likud. Arik definitely wanted in. The mainissue reamined the peace process. I didn’t find Arik’s specific objections to CampDavid hard to deal with. As I’d said from the start, the fact that we’d failed to reachan agreement at the summit meant that any concessions I’d considered were now,383/ BARAK / 98in legal and diplomatic terms, null and void. The package Arafat had ultimatelyrejected had not even been presented by me. It was an American proposal. Besides,it was obvious no serious negotiations were going to happen anyway for theforeseeable future. Arik, however, said he wanted not just a “full divorce” fromCamp David. He insisted we formally declare an end to the entire Oslo process.I told him that was a price I was not prepared to pay for his support. Despite thefailure of the summit, and the terrible human cost from Arafat’s choice of violenceover diplomacy, there was a wide international recognition that it was thePalestinians, not Israel, who were responsible. For us to end the Oslo processmeant inviting accusations we’d never intended to reach a peace agreement in thefirst place, and that it was Israel that was closing the door. We would also riskforfeiting the American support we’d secured by our efforts to reach a peace deal,an asset all Israeli governments would benefit from in other circumstances andcontexts in the future.Fortunately, I had an alternative to a coalition with the Likud. Alarmed at theprospect of a having Sharon in the government, the Oslo-era doves in Labor, led byYossi Beilin, worked out a new deal with Shas. The Sephardi Orthodox party wasstill not prepared to rejoin the cabinet, but it did promise a “safety net” in theKnesset to ensure we would not have to worry about no-confidence votes whileconfronting the Palestinian violence. I knew Shas’s support would waver if therewas a resumption of serious peace negotiations. Still, as Clinton continued to insistwe make one final attempt to get a deal, I felt we had a responsibility to play ourpart. I wasn’t prepared to put us in the position of appearing to stoneweall hisefforts, and encourage the false narrative that Israeli “intransigence” was somehowfrustrating Arafat’s readiness to make peace.The Palestinian campaign of violence was getting worse. An Islamic Jihad carbomb near Mahaneh Yehudah market in Jerusalem injured nearly a dozen peopleand left two dead. Hamas blew up a school bus in one of the Gaza settlements,killing two more people. In Hadera, halfway up the coast from Tel Aviv to Haifa, acar bomb on a main street left two people dead and more than 60 injured.Palestinian snipers from near Bethlehem began opening fire on Gilo, one of thepost-1967 Jewish suburbs of Jerusalem, and home to more than 30,000 people. Yetdespite all this, I authorized Shlomo Ben-Ami, Gili Sher, Amnon Lipkin and YossiGinossar to continue talks with Palestinian negotiators on the terms of thePresident’s last-ditch peace proposal.384/ BARAK / 99By the end of November, I believed that the chances of a peace agreement withArafat were so microscopic as to border on non-existent, and that my ownprospects for retaining sufficient support to be an effective Prime Minister muchbeyond Clinton’s departure were not much better. It was not just Arik and theLikud, but other parties on the right that were actively attempting to bring downthe government. I was being squeezed politically: by opposition to the concessions,especially on Jerusalem, I’d been willing to consider in pursuit of a peaceagreement, and by the ever-worsening Palestinian violence. Shlomo Ben-Ami putit best, saying that in the view of most Israelis, “Arafat’s response to Camp Davidwas not peace, it was an intifada.”By the second part of November, there were five separate motions of noconfidenceworking their way through the Knesset. I could have quashed them allat a single stroke, since Arik, both publicly and privately, was conveying to me hiscontinuing interest in joining a unity coalition. But I again decided against it, atthis stage not so much because I expected a peace deal, but because I believedcontinued Israeli engagement in the peace process was essential to preventingArafat from evading his responsibility for making a deal impossible.I could also have wrongfooted my opponents by insisting that any early electionbe not just for a new Prime Minister but for a new Knesset, something very fewexisting Knesset members were anxious to see happen. I did, in fact, do preciselythat at the end of November, delaying an immediate move to try to topple thegovernment. But I immediately regretted doing it. The game-playing side ofpolitics was the part I least understood, and most disliked. I recognized that tobring down the Knesset along with me would be unfair to the country, not tomention my own Labor Party, which still had the largest number of parliamentaryseats. In pursuing my peace efforts with Hafez al-Assad, and at Camp David, I’dinsisted I was acting on the mandate I’d received in the Prime Ministerial election.If the peace efforts had failed, or if a significant part of the country felt I waswrong to have tried in the way I did, surely the responsibility for that, too, shouldfall on me.I remained confident I had been right to make the efforts with Arafat, withAssad, and, of course, to have followed through on my pledge to withdraw ourtroops from Lebanon. But believing that you are right, even if later events mightbear you out, was not all that mattered in politics. You had to be able to bring thepublic with you. It was clear my support was ebbing away. Looking ahead to the385/ BARAK / 100challenges Israel would face during Clinton’s final period in office and afterwards,I knew I could not go further without seeking a fresh mandate from the country,however unlikely the prospects now seemed.Deciding to do so was a decision that was probably easier for me than for otherpoliticians. Privileged though I felt as Prime Minister to be able to pursue what Ifelt deeply were Israel’s national interests, the trappings of office were not thatimportant to me. I’d gone into politics to do things, not for the photo opportunities.I did still believe it was important to see the final diplomatic push by Clintonthrough to its end. But I knew an early election for Prime Minister wouldn’thappen overnight. It would involve a couple of months’ preparation.* * *When I called a news conference on December 9, the media, and the country,assumed that it was about the Palestinian violence and the ups and downs of theClinton initiative, and I did talk about both. But at the end, I said: “There are thosewho doubt the mandate I received from the citizens of Israel. I have decided toseek a new mandate – to lead the state of Israel on the road to peace, security and aproper civic and social agenda.” I said I would go see the Israeli President thefollowing morning. “I will formally resign, and run for a special election, at thehead of the Labor Party, for the Prime Ministership of Israel.”The election was set for February 2001. The last act in President Clinton’sattempt at a breakthrough actually came after the American election, and just amonth before George W. Bush would succeed him. Since, in practical terms, anyfinal agreement would almost certainly come under President Bush, Clinton’s finalnegotiating paper was framed as a set of paramaters which, if agreed to by bothsides, were intended to set the stage for a final deal. On December 23, Clintonpresented the draft to both sides’ representatives at the White House. I wasn’tthere. But the accounts I got from Shlomo, Gili and Dennis Ross afterwards mademe feel as if I was. The president said he would read through the document andthen leave the Israeli and Palestinian teams with Dennis to make sure they’drecorded each detail. He said this was no longer the starting point for furtherargument on the basic shape of a peace deal. This was his considered judgement of386/ BARAK / 101what would constitute a fair agreement. He was presenting it on a take-it-or-leaveitbasis. If either side said no, he would withdraw it, and it would not be binding onPresident Bush.He proceeded to lay out his proposal. It now envisaged the Palestinians endingup with between 95 and 97 percent of the West Bank. Israel’s military presence inthe Jordan Valley would be for a maximum of six years, after which our soldierswould be replaced by an international force. On refugees, the solution Clintonproposed would “make it clear there is no specific right of return to Israeli itself”but recognize “the aspiration of the Palestinian people to return to the area.” Heproposed a joint endorsement by Israel and the Palestinians of the right of refugeesto return to a new Palestinian state. In Jerusalem, Arafat would have sovereigntyover the entirety of the Old City except for the Jewish Quarter and, of course, theWestern Wall and the “holy space of which it is a part.” Finally, the President said,this would be a final peace: an end of conflict and, once implemented, an end toany further claims. He wanted replies from Israel and the Palestinians within fivedays. Dennis added that, while both sides could come back with reservations, ifany of these fell outside the substantive limits of President Clinton’s parameters,the response would be interpreted as a “no” and our search for an agreement wouldbe over.Clinton’s latest proposals went beyond even what I was willing to have himkeep in his pocket at Camp David. Opposition politicians in Israel, and even a fewof our cabinet ministers, promptly objected to the formula for Jerusalem. I told thecritics – as I knew I’d have to argue to the country in a referendum, in thevanishingly unlikely event we actually reached an agreeement – that making peacewas not like making love. It was something you did with enemies. I, too, wouldhave preferred to say no to Clinton’s ideas on Jerusalem. But to reject them wouldhave placed Israel in the position of rejecting the entire Clinton paper, something Iwas not prepared to do.I sent word to the President that we accepted his ideas. We did raisereservations – twenty-eight in all, about how various parts of the agreement wouldwork on the ground. But none fell outside his parameters for a peace agreement. Atfirst Arafat asked the Americans for more time. Then he went to Washington to seeClinton. There, he presented his “reservations”. They were not just outside theClinton parameters. They rejected two key elements. Arafat said there could be no387/ BARAK / 102Israeli sovereignty over the Western Wall of the ancient temple. Nor would heagree to any compromise on the “right of return.”For me, that was the final answer. As one Palestinian leader remarked to meamid the still-escalating terror attacks a couple of years later, the Palestinians had“needed a Ben-Gurion, but we got an Arafat.” He didn’t mean Ben-Gurion theZionist, but the statesman who at crucial moments like the partition vote in 1947,could give up his maximalist hopes and dreams in order to secure a better futurefor his people. Arafat felt much more comfortable, more secure, when the suicidebombers were calling the tune. Then he could whip up the crowds with promises of“marching on Jerusalem” or jet around the world telling everyone that Israel wasdenying his right to a state.* * *Though I now knew an agreement was impossible, for many on the Israeli left,my ostensible allies in the forthcoming election campaign against Arik, that washard to accept. Particularly for Yossi Sarid of Meretz, and to a certain extent YossiBeilin too, the only explanation for our failure to get a deal had to be that wehadn’t negotiated well or creatively enough. The idea that Arafat simply didn’twant a two-state peace was anathema to them. So was the political platform I saidthat I hoped to implement if I was re-elected as Prime Minister. Maybe, at somepoint in the future, a negotiated peace might be possible. We had accomplishedsomething of importance at Camp David. We’d made clear our red lines. We knewwhere Arafat stood. But for now, I believed we had to move on, both in order tokeep the situation on the ground from getting worse and to act in Israel’s own longtermpolitical and security interests. I said we should unilaterally disengage fromthe West Bank and Gaza.The idea was straightforward. The Palestinians’ unwillingness to accept eventhe final Clinton parameters, driven home with murderous ferocity by theexplosion of violence since Camp David, should not be allowed to paralyze Israelpolitically. I proposed that we map out the area we required to retain and secure themajor settlement blocs, as well as the outer East Jerusalem suburbs; a furthersecurity strip along the Jordan River; and several other strategically important388/ BARAK / 103points. It would amount to retaining control over around 20 percent of the WestBank, but none of the major Arab towns or cities. Though deliberately stoppingwell short of share of the West Bank Arafat could have secured through anegotiated peace, it would remove Israeli troops and settlers from most of theterritory. It would give the Palestinians ample room to set up a state if they sochose, and conceivably to expand its area if some future leader had more of the“Ben-Gurion” in him than Arafat. Until then, it would allow both of our peoples toget on with their lives and focus on their own political and social and economicchallenges.There was a second, critically important part to what I was proposing: theconstruction of a physical security fence along the new “disengagement line” withthe West Bank. It was the suggestion rejected under Rabin, accepted under Peresamid the Hamas bombings in the 1996 election campaign, but never followedthrough on. Even under the new arrangement I envisaged, Israeli troops wouldretain the freedom of action to respond to, or pre-empt, terror attacks with targetedoperations inside the West Bank. But the physical barrier would hugely increaseour ability to halt the attackers before they could strike.Yet even if I’d been able to bring those on the left of Labor behind the plan, thiselection campaign was going to be a lot tougher than in 1999. Since Knessetmembers weren’t running for their seats, the Labor machine lacked its usualincentive put up posters, knock on doors, or get out the vote. Arik, however,benefited from the enthusiasm of Likudniks and other right-wing activists who sawan opportunity to retake control of Israel’s political agenda.Long before election day, I realized my time as Prime Minister was up. Beforethe campaign began, an old friend of mine, a leading Israeli journalist, tried to talkme into withdrawing. “You’re going to lose, Ehud,” he said. “Why, after makingall this effort for peace, after doing your best, do you want the last act to be losingto Arik?” I’d never seen the objective as just staying in office. If that had been thecase, I wouldn’t have put the chances of a peace deal with Syria to their final test. Iwouldn’t have gone to Camp David. I also would have accepted Arik’s serialoffers to join a unity coalition. But never in my life had I walked away from achallenge. I certainly wasn’t going to retreat in the midst of Palestinian violence,and when Israel still faced key decisions on how to move on from Arafat’sunreadiness to negotiate an end to our decades-old conflict.389/ BARAK / 104I did regret being unable to rely on the support of two key constituencies thathad helped deliver my landslide victory barely 18 months earlier: my own LaborParty and the Arab citizens of Israel. I had no trouble understanding the reasonsmany Israeli Arabs were abandoning me. The clashes in the Galilee at the start ofthe new intifada had left more than a dozen of their community dead. As an officialinquiry would later conclude, there was blame on all sides. A number of Arabmembers of the Knesset had played a part in inciting the violence. Yet the policehad been unprepared, and they had used excessive force. As I said publicly beforethe election, I, as Prime Minister, was ultimately responsible, and I formallyapologized for what had happened. Yet the roots went deeper, to the economic andsocial disadvantages still faced by many Arab citizens, and the difficulty inresolving those problems calmly and collectively as long as Israel remained in astate of war with its Arab neighbors.For Labor and the political left, it was as if, despite Arafat’s repeated rejectionsof ever more forthcoming terms of peace, they still couldn’t bring themselves tobelieve he really meant it. By default, they were inclined to blame me for notdelivering peace. I was accused of relying too much on a close circle of aides andnegotiators I’d known from my time in the army, of not giving a negotiating role toLabor veterans of the Oslo negotiations like Yossi Beilin, and of beinginsufficiently sensitive to Arafat’s needs in the negotiating process. Typical of theargument was a broadside by the journalist and historian Tom Segev, in Ha’aretz,which accused me of an “incredible arrogance” which had “led to an historicmistake. Rather than continue on the Oslo road, Barak put it into his head that hecould reach a final settlement and try and impose it on the Palestinian AuthorityPresident.” I did not try to “impose” anything on Arafat. I did, quite consciously,abandon the “Oslo road” because it was inexorably leading to a situation where,after the final Wye redeployments, Arafat would have control over the greatmajority of the West Bank without having to commit to any of the assurances thateven most on the Israeli left would define as the minimum required for peace.Now, of course, we knew that was something the Palestinian leader was notprepared to do.When election day came, not that many of my critics on the left actually votedagainst me. Nor did the Israeli Arabs. Yet in very large numbers, they simplydidn’t vote. In percentage terms, Arik’s victory was even more decisive than mineover Bibi. He got more than 62 percent of the vote. I received barely 37 percent.390/ BARAK / 105Yet the turnout was the lowest in Israeli history. Arik received fewer votes than Ihad in 1999. Around half of the 1.8 million people who had supported me stayed athome.I conceded defeat after the first exit polls and said I would be stepping down ashead of the Labor Party. Still, since the election had been only for Prime Minister,Labor remained the largest party in the Knesset. Mathematically, Arik might beable to cobble together the required 61-seat majority with an assortment of smallerparties. But without Labor as ballast, his government would be even moreprecarious than mine. When I triggered the election, he’d let it be known that if hewon, he hoped to include Labor in his government, with me as his DefenseMinister. Even though I’d announced I was stepping aside, he phoned me themorning after the election to make that argument again. He said Israel needed astrong government, especially to confront the escalating violence. Having a personwith my background, whom he knew well and trusted, in the defense portfolio wasimportant. I didn’t say yes. Unfortunately, I failed to do what I should have done: Ididn’t immediately say no.When the public learned about Sharon’s interest in a unity government, Labordescended into bickering. Some of my former ministers, like Yossi Beilin andShlomo Ben-Ami, were against the idea of joining any Likud-led government.They were especially disgusted by the prospect of doing so under Arik, thearchitect of the 1982 Lebanon War. Most of the Labor’s central committee didseem in favor of joining. But given the scale of my election defeat, many wanteddo so without me. For a few days, Arik kept phoning me. I did feel that thesubstance of the arrangement he suggested made sense. But over that first week, Irealized that, understandably, he had little interest in addressing my policyconcerns. I decided to focus instead on ensuring a properly organized transition toa new Labor party leader, and publicly confirmed that I would indeed be resigning.Several weeks after Arik formed his government – including Labor, with SimonPeres as one of four deputy prime ministers – he invited me to his office. Hewanted to ask my views on a specific security question. That took barely 15minutes. But I raised another issue that I argued would have more far-reachingimplications. It was the idea of building the security fence along the West Bank.I’d tried to make the case for doing so during the election campaign, and I’d lostthe election. “Now I’m turning to you. When I left office, 39 Israelis had beenkilled in the terror attacks. Now, there are 70. When the number reaches 700,391/ BARAK / 106there’s no doubt you’ll decide to build this fence. But to your dying day, you won’tbe able to look yourself in the mirror and explain why you waited for another 630Israelis to die first.”He did eventually start building it, but only in the wake of an act of terrorismwhich, even by the standards of this new and still-escalating intifada, was trulyobscene. In March 2002, suicide bombers murdered 30 people, mostly elderly, asthey were celebrating the annual Passover Seder in a hotel dining room in Netanya.Arik hit back two days later with Israel’s largest military operation on the WestBank since 1967. Israeli forces retook major Palestinian towns, placed Arafatunder de facto siege in his headquarters in Ramallah and imposed curfews andclosures. In June, the government formally approved the security fence. Still,another year would pass before the major part of the barrier was in place, by whichtime some 500 Israelis had been murdered in the terror attacks. Only then did thenumber of casualties begin to fall.I tried to steer clear of public criticism of Arik’s government. One of the lessonsI’d learned as Prime Minister was how easy it was to second-guess from theoutside. No Prime Minister can act exactly as he might plan or want to. The mostyou can do is make sure you understand and analyze the issues and follow yourinstincts, experience and conscience to come as near as possible to doing what youbelieve is right. You will inevitably make mistakes and misjudgements. I certainlydid. At least some of the criticism I received was deserved. I was at times tooinflexible. I tended to limit my focus to a small group of trusted aides and advisors.I was less good at schmoozing with – or, perhaps more importantly, delegating to –others in the government or the party. I suspect it’s no coincidence that the manwho brought me into government in the first place was often criticized for the samethings. By character, instinct and experience, Rabin, too, remained less a politicianthan a military man. Yet towards the end of his second period as Prime Minister,he did get better at delegating to people around him, and creating an atmospherethat encouraged teamwork, even when he knew he could not accept or act oneverything they might suggest. During my term as Prime Minister, I was much lessgood at that.But another thing Yitzhak and I shared was a determination to set ourselvesspecific goals and do everything we could to achieve them. I promised to get thearmy out of Lebanon. With the Palestinians, I arrived in office convinced that theprocess begun in Oslo was both a huge opportunity and a potential dead-end. I was392/ BARAK / 107determined to focus on the end goal: initially, at least, a framework agreement, andover time a final political resolution of our conflict. Ever since the outbreak of thePalestinians’ first intifada, I believed this was as much in Israel’s own interest astheirs. Yet when I entered office, we had no way of knowing whether Arafatwanted two states living side-by-side in peace. I felt it was my duty to find out,and, if the answer was yes, to put a peace agreement in place. I felt the same aboutway about Syria and Hafez al-Assad.When I left office, I believed I had achieved the most important goals of mypremiership. We were out of Lebanon. Though we couldn’t achieve the peaceagreements I had hoped for, it was not for lack of trying. Along the way, Israel haddemonstrated to the world that it was able and willing to consider painfulcompromises, and that it was the Arab leaders who, at least for now, were unequalto the challenge of making peace. If I’d been able to retain the backing of thevoters who made me Prime Minister in 1999, we might even have moved ahead onunilateral disengagement from the Palestinians, dramatically altering the trajectoryof our relationship. Yet even without that, Camp David did delineate the terms ofany future peace arrangement. When and if conditions allowed a resumption ofserious negotiating efforts, the shape, and indeed most of the details, of a finalpeace between our peoples were now clear.I was on holiday in the summer of 2001 when Clinton phoned me. The NewTimes had run a piece on how and why the summit, and the subsequentnegotiations through the end of the year, ended in failure. When I later read thearticle, by the Pulitzer Prize-winning reporter Deborah Sontag, I found it ameandering mix of opinions garnered from an assortment of Americans,Europeans, Israelis and Palestinians, including Arafat himself, with the overallconclusion that Clinton and I had not offered as generous a deal as was assumedand that it was somehow unfair to suggest the Palestinians deserved blame forrejecting it. There had been several other articles in various publications along thesame lines. I didn’t see much point at this stage in setting the record straight. Tothe extent the content of the Times piece bothered me, it was a simple, butimportant, error of fact. Quoting Arafat himself, Sontag wrote that during the backpatiodiscussion I had with him at the dinner in Kochav Yair shortly before the newintifada, he’d “implored me to block Mr Sharon’s plans” to visit the TempleMount. Arafat didn’t raise the issue at all, and presumably knew that we hadconsulted his West Bank security chief to ensure it happened quickly, avoided the393/ BARAK / 108mosques on the Haram, and would not become a catalyst, or in this case a pretext,for violence.Yet the revisionist history about our peace efforts left Clinton not justfrustrated, but genuinely puzzled. What the hell were these people talking about, heasked me. Why were they missing the forest for the trees. “The true story of CampDavid,” he said, “was that for the first time in the history of the conflict, you and I,the Prime Minister of Israel and the President of the United States, placed on thetable a proposal, based on Resolutions 242 and 338, very close to the Palestiniandemands. And Arafat refused to accept it as a basis of negotiations, walked out ofthe room, and deliberately turned to terrorism.” All the rest, President Clinton said,was gossip.All of it was now irrelevant, too. His parameters were off the table. Palestinianviolence against Israelis was getting ever deadlier. And I was out of politics. WhenI delivered my final remarks to a Labor Party meeting, I was asked whether I wasleaving politics for good. I replied that I would always remain a member of Labor.But I saw my role as a bit like when I’d left the army. “I’m a reserve officer,” Isaid, adding that I hoped I would not be called back to duty any time soon.I had been Prime Minister for only 21 months. But I’d been in politics for sixyears, and in uniform for nearly thirty-six: in public service for more than fourdecades. Now, suddenly, I was a private citizen. And for a few years, I actuallystayed that way.394/ BARAK / 109Chapter Twenty-FourI had only a general idea of what I would do next. “Something in business”describes it best. But I sought the advice of a friend who, rather than leavingpolitics, had just entered it. Colin Powell was now the second President Bush’sSecretary of State. “Why don’t you go on the lecture circuit?” he said. The shortanswer was that it hadn’t occurred to me that I’d be any good at it. But it provedenergizing and interesting both for me and, it seemed, the audiences I spoke to. Itwas also lucrative. I would deliver four lectures over the span of a week and end upmaking twice what, until that point in my life, I had earned during a full year. I wasalso invited onto a number of company boards. I turned down some, in order toavoid even the appearance of a conflict of interest. But I did get involved in an areawhere I believed my range of experiences might be relevant: investment decisions,and venture capital.The result was a dramatic change in lifestyle. Nava and I got to spend moretime with our daughters. We vacationed overseas for the first time. We alsodecided to build a new home, and the place that we chose gave me my firstexperience of how far I was from being a “private citizen” in the eyes of the Israelipublic. When it became known we were planning to move to Kfar Shmaryahu nearTel Aviv, one of the wealthiest places in Israel, all hell broke loose. How couldyou, I was asked. I couldn’t resist joking that I just wanted to be close to ourvoters. Likud supporters were about as rare in Kfar Shmaryahu as panhandlers.Along with Mishmar Hasharon, it was the only place where I’d polled over 80percent even in my loss to Sharon.Israel had changed dramatically from the kibbutz-centered pioneer society ofmy youth. Greater Tel Aviv, in particular, was thriving economically, and therising crop of millionaires, whether from traditional business or in the bourgeoningtechnology sector, included its fair share of former kibbutznikim. Still, socially andculturally, a puritanical streak remained, a sense that there was something not quiteright about people raised on a socialist ideal becoming personally well off. Iaccepted this. I recognized that I was not just a former kibbutznik. I had been headof the Labor Party. And Prime Minister. Still, I did feel much of the personalcriticism was unfair. I had devoted more than four decades of my life to servingmy country. I’d behaved with scrupulous honesty while in office, and was avoiding395/ BARAK / 110any business involvement that could present a conflict of interest now that I hadleft. Frankly, I saw nothing wrong with earning money through honest endeavor,and using the proceeds to provide economic security for myself and my family,and to give our grandchildren a better start in life than Nava’s or my own parentshad been able to do.In the end, we didn’t move to Kfar Shmaryahu. But that was because of an evenmore profound change in my life: I separated from Nava, after more than 30 yearstogether. When we had begun plans to move, I laughed off a warning from apsychologist friend of mine that decisions like building a new house could lead to adeeper reassessment of your life. But that is at least in part what happened. Therewere also other changes that caused me to stop and take stock. I was no longerPrime Minister. My father had passed away soon after I left office. Professionally,I was exploring new areas and developing new interests. Nava and I had beenhappily married since our twenties. We had three wonderful daughters, and a firstgrandchild. Yet the more I thought about where we were in our lives, the more Ifelt our future paths were pulling us in different directions. For both of us, theseparation was difficult, though it was made a bit less painful because Nava knewthat it had nothing to do with another woman, or another relationship. I didimagine that I might one day meet someone else. But I was equally prepared for itnot happening. I certainly didn’t expect it any time soon.When it did, it began by accident. A few weeks after our separation, I wasvisiting the Knesset for a discussion about fixing Israel’s broken electoral system.In the audience was a member of one of the civic associations pressing for reform:Nili Priell, my first, and only, serious girlfriend before I met Nava. We spoke for afew minutes afterwards. We agreed to meet again, and catch up with each other’slives, a week or so later. Both of us now had grown children. We were both on ourown. There is, I assume for everyone, something impossible to replicate about afirst love. Nili and I were given an unlikely second chance. That seemed to me anextraordinary gift. It still does.Yet if my personal life seemed full of new promise, the same could not be saidof the country I’d served for my whole adult life, or of the political party I’d ledinto government. The continuing construction of the security fence along the WestBank finally did begin to reduce the sheer number of Palestinian attacks: fromnearly 50 in 2002, to about half that number in 2003. But the suicide bombers whodid get through – from Hamas, Islamic Jihad and Fatah’s “Al-Aqsa Martyrs’396/ BARAK / 111Brigade” – struck wherever they could inflict the most terror, and death: at busstations, on buses, in shopping centers, restaurants and cafés. Over a 12-monthperiod, beginning with a bombing of Tel Aviv’s main bus station at the beginningof January 2003, they murdered 145 men, women and children. It would not beuntil two years’ later, with the West Bank fence in place and a range of othersecurity measures, that the attacks, and the deaths, were finally brought downdramatically.The Labor Party had finally left Arik Sharon’s coalition in late 2002. But inIsrael’s 2003 election – reverting to the old rules again, with a single vote for partyand Prime Minister – Arik and the Likud won resoundingly. They doubled theirKnesset seats, to 38. Labor, now with only 19 seats, against turned to ShimonPeres, as interim party leader.I didn’t miss the political limelight. But by mid-2004, with the first sign of amajor change in policy toward the Palestinians, I felt I had a contribution to make.What first prompted me to dip my toes back into politics were the ever moreobvious signs throughout 2004 that Arik’s coalition, and his hold on the Likud,were unraveling. Part of his problem was a steady drumbeat of corruptionallegations around what had become a kind of family political operation: Arik andhis two sons, Omri and Gilad. But Arik also seemed to be undergoing a welcomepolitical conversion, to the need for the more profound political “disengagement”with the Palestinians which I’d long been advocating. He had endorsed the BushAdministration’s “road map” for resuming the peace process. Yet with YasirArafat ageing, ailing and even less inclined to consider the difficult decisions hehad shirked at Camp David, Arik went one, dramatic step further. He raised theidea of unilaterally withdrawing Israeli forces and settlements from Gaza –ensuring a showdown with the rank and file of the Likud, and other parties on theright. His main Likud rival, very much back in front-line Israeli politics, was hisFinance Minister: Bibi Netanyahu. Though Bibi remained on board until the lastmoment, he dramatically resigned for the cabinet in August 2005, a week beforethe Gaza withdrawal, declaring: “I am not prepared to be a partner to a movewhich ignores reality, and proceeds blindly toward turning the Gaza Strip into abase for Islamic terrorism which will threaten the state.”To this day, Bibi, along with many Israelis across the political spectrum, drawsa direct line between our pullout from Gaza, Hamas’s takeover and its violentpurging of Fatah’s old guard there, and the periodic wars we’ve had to fight since397/ BARAK / 112then in response to Hamas rocket fire into Israel. The moral: Arik was wrong towithdraw. But the Islamists’ ascendancy was happening anyway. After all, it wasHamas attacks that provided the spearhead of the intifada of terror launched in thewake of Camp David. Arafat’s own influence was also inexorably on the wane bythe time he passed away, in Paris, at the end of 2004, to be succeeded by AbuMazen. I do not know of a single senior figure in Israel with any militaryexperience who believes that we would be more secure today if we still hadthousands of soldiers and settlers inside Gaza. Surprised though I was by Arik’sdecision to leave, I had no doubt that the fundamental security judgment he wasmaking – that a disengagement was in Israel’s own interest – was the right one. Iwas encouraged, too, by his parallel announcement of a small, token withdrawalfrom a few small West Bank settlements. My regret at the time was that he did notgo further toward the kind of major West Bank disengagement I’d been arguingfor, and that even in Gaza the pullout seemed insufficiently prepared or thoughtout. The model, I believed, should have been our withdrawal from Lebanon –involving detailed prior consultation with, and political support from, the UN andkey international allies. I also felt it was critically important to ensure that, whilewe would obviously need offshore patrols to prevent arms and munitions fromgetting in, we allowed and encouraged an environment in which the Gazaneconomy could function and grow after we left. None of that happened. Though weleft Gaza, we effectively sealed off and blockaded one of the most denselypopulated, economically strapped and politically febrile strips of land on the faceof the earth.Still, I did see it as an important first step toward the kind of widerdisengagement that would prioritize Israel’s own security interests, and politicaland social cohesiveness, until and unless conditions allowed a for a serious neweffort for a final peace deal. I was heartened when Shimon led Labor back intoArik’s coalition at the start of 2005 to ensure he’d have the support necessary to gothrough with the Gaza withdrawal. And while I did make a brief attempt to returnas party leader later in the year, when it was clear I wasn’t going to win, I threwmy support behind Shimon and against the other challenger, the longtime laborunionleader Amir Peretz, who was running on a platform to take Labor out ofSharon’s government.But Peretz won the leadership election. He did leave the cabinet, forcing Arik tocall an early election for March 2006. And that, along with the most ambitious and398/ BARAK / 113ill-fated Israeli war in Lebanon since 1982, was the reason I ultimately foundmyself back in the Israeli government.* * *It began on July 12, 2006, when Hizbollah fired rockets from southern Lebanonas cover for an ambush of two Israeli Humvees on our side of the border. Twosoldiers were killed, and two others abducted. A few hours later, when an Israeliarmored unit crossed to look for the kidnapped soldiers, an explosive charge blewup one of our tanks, killing four of its crew members.Arik was no longer Prime Minister by then. With Bibi marshalling oppositioninside the Likud to the Gaza disenagegment, he had formed a new centrist partycalled Kadima, along with prominent Likud moderates and buttressed by a Laborheavyweight: Shimon Peres. But before the election, Arik suffered a pair ofstrokes, lapsing into a coma from which he would never emerge. His notionaldeputy, the veteran Likud politician and former Jerusalem mayor Ehud Olmert,found himself as Prime Minister. Kadima did comfortably win the May election. Itended up with 29 seats, followed by Labor with 19 and leaving the Netanyahu-ledLikud with only 12. Olmert formed a coalition, including Labor, which hadundeniable political ballast: Shimon was one of his deputy Prime Ministers, alongwith Haim Ramon. The gifted lawyer, longtime Likudnik and strong backer of theGaza plan, Tzipi Livni, was Foreign Minister. Amir Peretz, as head of Labor, wasgiven the Defense Ministry. But without Sharon himself at the helm, thegovernment was now about to face a military crisis with virtually no militaryexperience around the cabinet table.Olmert called an emergency cabinet meeting on the evening of the Hizbollahattack, and just before it was due to convene, my phone rang. It was Shimon, who,though with no first-hand army experience, did at least have the politicalexperience in war that none of Olmert’s other ministers could offer. He’d been byBen-Gurion’s side during the 1956 war, had been in Golda’s government in 1967,and was Defense Minister after the 1973 war, through Entebbe, until Begin’sdefeated Labor in the 1977 election. Despite our own battles inside Labor, Shimonand I had become closer again of late, especially after I’d supported him in his last399/ BARAK / 114Labor leadership contest. “Shalom, Ehud,” he said when I answered the phone and,without small talk or preliminaries, asked me: “What do you think we should do?”I said I couldn’t offer specific suggestions. “It’s a detail-related question, and Idon’t know the details.” But I advised him on the process I felt would be needed tocome up with the right answer when the chief-of-staff, the former air force chiefDan Halutz, briefed the cabinet. “Halutz will propose what to do. Push him,” Isaid. “When he presents his recommended action, ask him for his assessment ofwhat Hizbollah will do in response. When he, or the head of military intelligence,has given you the range of possibilities and told you which is the most likely, say,OK, let’s assume that happens. What’s our next step? How is that going to lead usto our main objectives? And what are the objectives?” Newspaper reports the nextmorning said that Shimon, and only Shimon, did indeed press the chief-of-staffabout each further stage of the operation and about the aims that we wanted toaccomplish. But Halutz finally fobbed him off by saying that once they got to thelater phases, they could discuss it.From the first reports I received through my army contacts, I feared theoperation would go badly. There was no doubt we could inflict damage onHizbollah. But there were no clear answers to the questions Shimon had raised.The initial Israeli air force response had been put in place more than five yearsearlier, when I was Prime Minister. Codenamed “Operation Cinnamon Sticks,” itwas designed to take out all of the fixed Hizbollah missile sites we had been ableto identify. We knew its limitations. A lot of the rockets were fired from mobilelaunchers. But in one exercise, the known “Hizbollah” sites were replicated in theGalilee. They were destroyed in 43 minutes. I had no doubt that part of the planwould succeed. In the early hours of July 13, it took only 34 minutes to destroy thenearly 60 launchers we had pinpointed over the previous five years.But Operation Cinnamon Sticks had been intended as a first step in a far widerassault on Hizbollah and other targets, including a number of infrastructureinstallations, deeper inside Lebanon. It was part of a plan for a full-scale war, if thegovernment decided that was necessary. As the early public statements by Olmertand other ministers made clear, they did not intend to start a war, at least at theoutset. They certainly didn’t have a coherent plan for one. But they would soonfind themselves in Israel’s longest single armed conflict since 1948. WhenHizbollah fired hundreds of missiles at Israeli towns and cities, our operationintensified not by plan or military logic, but improvisation. As a former Prime400/ BARAK / 115Minister, I felt it was not my place to criticize Olmert publicly when Israeli troopswere in action. Two days in, in fact, I told a television interviewer that thegovernment had every right to respond and was doing so effectively. Olmertphoned to thank me. When he, like Shimon, asked what I thought the governmentshould do next, I was straightforward: “Do your best to bring things to an end assoon as you can.” I said that Halutz and the other generals would be caught up inthe operational details, which made his role and that of the cabinet even morecritical. “In any operation, you’ll have an idea about what represents a satisfactoryexit point. But there will be a temptation, when you get close to that point, to takejust one more step, to keep going until you’re absolutely sure you’ve reached it.”Resist that temptation, I told him. I said there was a danger that, before they knewit, he and the other minister would be in way over their heads.In pure military terms, there were just two realistic choices in responding theHibzollah attack: a deliberately limited and fairly brief operation, or a full-scalewar. We ended up doing neither. The result was an operation that lasted 34 days,nearly twice the length of the Yom Kippur War. Our air force flew 12,000missions, more than in 1973 and nearly twice as many as in the 1982 LebanonWar. Hizbollah fired about 4,000 rockets into Israel – from a stockpile weestimated to number nearly 20,000 – and not just at the border settlements but asfar south as Hadera and Haifa, keeping hundreds of thousands of Israelis undereffective siege. More than 120 Israeli soldiers and 44 civilians were killed. So werehundreds of Hizbollah fighters and, inevitably, many Lebanese civilians as well,with a predictable surge of criticism from much of the outside world. OnlyPresident Bush and Britain’s Tony Blair steadfastly reminded the critics of how thewar had actually begun.The one putative victory for Israel was the UN cease-fire resolution that TzipiLivni helped to negotiate in August. At least on paper, it contained a commitmentto a “long-term solution” including the disarmament of Hizbollah and the“unconditional release of the abducted Israeli soldiers, which has given rise to thecurrent crisis.” But as Israeli newspapers began speaking to the returning soldiersand officers, a picture emerged not just of a long and difficult war, but a lack ofclearly communicated military objectives, and an often-chaotic chain of command,which ended up costing Israeli lives. Our final advance, alone, shortly before thecease-fire, claimed the lives of some 30 soldiers. And for what, many Israelis weresoon asking themselves. One of the newspapers most supportive of the operation at401/ BARAK / 116the beginning summed up the feeling of most of the country at the end: “If youdon’t win, you lose... Hizbollah survived. It won the war.”Without the botched handling of the war, I might well have remained a meremember of the Labor Party and a private citizen. But when the commission ofinquiry released its report in April 2007, three people were singled out: Olmert,Amir Peretz and Halutz. Olmert was portrayed as a military novice who’d goneinto battle without understanding the wartime role and responsibilities of a PrimeMinister. Halutz’s “excess of charisma” was held responsible for keepingministers, and military officers as well, from questioning his judgement or pressinghim for alternatives. Amir Peretz was found to be the wrong man in the wrongcabinet post at the wrong time. Of the three, only Halutz seemed ready to takepersonal responsibility. Even before the report came out, he resigned. Olmert andPeretz were determined to stay put, despite calls to quit not just from theopposition but from Tzipi Livni. Inside Labor as well, the war produced a clamorfor change. When a vote for party chairman was held in June 2007, I was chosen toreturn in Peretz’s place.Within days, I replaced him as Defense Minister as well. Yet the main item inmy in-box would no longer be Lebanon. I had been briefed a few weeks earlier byOlmert on a threat hundreds of miles further away: a construction site in northeastSyria, along the Euphrates River, where Mossad had uncovered evidence that theSyrians, with technical help from North Korea and funding from Iran, werebuilding a nuclear reactor.* * *I had got to know Olmert fairly well over the years, initially when I was in thekirya and both he and another rising Likud politician to whom I became closer,Dan Meridor, were members of the Knesset’s defense committee. But from the dayI returned to the Israeli government in June 2007, there was growing tensionbetween us over dealing with the Syrian nuclear threat. It was not about whetherwe should take military action to destroy the reactor, before the fuel rods arrivedon site and it could begin producing bomb-ready material. Just as under MenachemBegin in 1981, when we’d launched our preemptive strike on Saddam Hussein’s402/ BARAK / 117reactor near Baghdad, there was never any question that we would take any and allpossible measures to prevent Syria from getting a nuclear weapon. An immutable,core assumption in Israel’s security strategy was the need to retain our ability todeter, and if necessary defeat, our enemies. A nuclear Syria – or Iraq, or Iran –would dramatically alter the balance of power in the region, at obvious risk toIsrael. Syria posed a particular threat, as part of an increasingly close alliance withIran, and with Hizbollah in Lebanon.The question, however, was how and when to strike the reactor. Olmert wantedto attack within days. He seemed to assume that, as a former chief of staff, I’d nodenthusiastically and go along with him. I did understand the reasons for his senseof urgency. Not only did we have to make sure we attacked before the fuel was onsite. There was always the risk the Syrians would find out that we were aware oftheir nuclear facility, putting them on even higher alert. But the operationalchallenge was complex. We need a fail-safe plan to destroy the reactor. We had todo it in such a way as to avoid a full-scale military confrontation with Syria ifpossible. And we had to ensure we were ready for that, if it did happen. It tookvery little time for me to realize that none of those prerequisites was yet in place.Not unlike the recent Lebanon war, we were choosing between two off-the-shelfplans from the kirya. One involved using a large military force, and would almostcertainly draw us into a major conflict with Syria. The other was a smaller,targeted operation. But it remained untested, and there was no certainty it wouldactually destroy the reactor.Over the next few months, Olmert got more and more frustrated with the factwe hadn’t yet attacked, and frustrated with me as well. We held dozens ofmeetings, sometimes two or three a day, chaired by the Prime Minister, sometimesby me as Defense Minister, or by the chief of staff or service commanders.Invariably, I began my remarks by saying: “We have to destroy the reactor.” Thiswas not because I felt that any of us seriously doubted that. It was because Olmertwas beginning to suggest to the few ministers and senior officers aware of ourplanning that I was against attacking the reactor. In fact, I was working with themilitary and Mossad to ensure we had a plan that would succeed, with theminimum possible risk of drawing us into a major clash with the Syrians after thefacility was destroyed. I was also working – with the help of the Americans – tomake sure we could get the forces and munitions in place in the north of Israel to403/ BARAK / 118deal with a major conflict with the Syrians. All of this, under a tight seal ofsecrecy.Finally, in early September 2007, everything was in place. Olmert briefed thecabinet, and secured the ministers’ approval to destroy the reactor, with theunderstanding that the precise timing of the operation would now be left to thePrime Minister, the Defense Minister and the Foreign Minister: Olmert, me andTzipi Livni. The three of us met immediately after the cabinet discussion. Olmertargued that the risk of leaks justified attacking that night, and I agreed with him.Tzipi was reluctant, but Olmert turned to her and said: “Are you sure you’recomfortable with an attack being ordered by me and Barak, while you chose toabstain?” She thought it over, and added her approval.We struck just after midnight, in an intricately coordinated air attack thatevaded not only a Syrian response, but Syrian notice. The reactor was destroyed.Although even today the exact details remain subject to Israel’s military secrecyregulations, accounts published abroad in the weeks and months that followedpainted a surprisingly accurate picture, including the pioneering use of electronicwarfare capabilities to deal with risk of radar detection. But in the immediateaftermath of the attack, Israel deliberately made no public comment. We refused tosay whether we’d had anything to do with an attack. As we he had hoped, thisallowed the Syrian President, Bashar al-Assad, both the space and a good reason todeny that it had ever happened, deny that he’d been trying to make a nuclearweapon, and thus feel no compelling reason to retaliate.* * *The reactor operation, however, marked the start of an increasingly toughperiod in both my and Tzipi’s relationship with Olmert. Policy was not theproblem. There were no major security crises in the months ahead. But in thespring of 2008, it became known that the Israeli police were investigating Olmert’srelationship with an American businessman named Moshe Talansky. Thesuggestion, initially in a New York paper and then the Israeli press, was thatOlmert was guilty of taking bribes. In his first public response, he didn’t deny404/ BARAK / 119receiving money from Talansky. But he insisted it was all a part of electioncampaign contributions.Publicly, I reserved judgement. “I hope, for everyone’s sake, and for PrimeMinister Olmert’s sake, that the suspicions now circulating turn out to bebaseless,” I told a reporter. “Let’s be patient.” Privately, I urged him to take a leaveof absence and clear his name. Yet with other ministers convinced that wouldmake things worse, I held off doing anything else until there seemed to me nochoice, after Talansky gave evidence in Jerusalem’s District Court. Though hegenuinely seemed not to have expected anything specific in return, he said he hadgiven Olmert something like $150,000 in cash. I called a news conference the nextday. I didn’t say whether or not I thought Olmert was guilty. I did say that Ibelieved he couldn’t continue leading the country while resolving his “personalmatters”. Things finally came to ahead in September 2008. When Kadima heldfresh leadership elections, Tzipi Livni won. Olmert confirmed he would step asidefor his successor. But under Israeli law, he would remain Prime Minister until sheeither succeeded in forming a new government or called early elections. She optedin the end for Option B, and the election was set for February 2009.That meant Olmert would still be Prime Minister for another three months.We’d long been discussing the increasingly worrying situation in Gaza. After Arikpulled out, an election had placed Hamas in power, after which the Islamistsembarked on a violent purge of Fatah loyalists. Arms smuggling through tunnelsfrom the Sinai had become rife. Rockets from Gaza were now landing on southernIsrael. Hundreds of thousands of Israelis were living with the reality of a warningsiren and a rapid dash into their shelters. For a while, amid negotiations throughEgypt to end the rocket fire, we limited ourselves to sending small ground unitsinto Gaza to target the source of specific rocket attacks. But that was always goingto have only a limited effect. It also ran the risk of our soldiers being abducted, orkilled.Pressure was building for a major military operation. With the election drawingnearer, Bibi Netanyahu was reminding voters that he’d been against the pulloutfrom Gaza, and saying that we should now hit Hamas hard. Both Olmert and Tzipi,along with most of the cabinet, were also in favor of doing so. But my long-heldview, reinforced by the recent war against Hizbollah in Lebanon, was that we hadto begin by deciding what we wanted to accomplish, and what was possible. Onlythen could we take action. I told the cabinet that, operationally, we were perfectly405/ BARAK / 120capable to taking over Gaza. But what then, I asked. Unless we were prepared toresume open-ended Israeli control, we’d be left with no one to run Gazaafterwards. The obvious candidate, Egypt, was even less interested than we were inassuming responsibility for the more than one-and-a-half million Palestinians wholived there. I doubted that even Arafat would have been ready to do so. Butrelations had only worsened, since his death in 2004, between the Fatah old guardin the Palestinian Authority on the West Bank and the Hamas overlords in Gaza. Idoubted very much that Abu Mazen would want to get involved. I did send an aideto see him to ask whether, in principle, he was open to reassuming control of Gazafollowing an Israeli takeover. His answer was unsurprising and unequivocal: no.I secured cabinet support for the more limited aim of restoring a period of calmfor Israeli citizens in the south. I said the military operation had to be as sharp andshort as possible, and end with some kind of political understanding that therockets would stop for a significant period of time. The final plan was presented toministers a few days before the operation. It would begin with surprise air strikesand a naval bombardment, followed by a limited ground incursion to hit remainingHamas targets outside of the major refugee camps, which I was determined toavoid. The whole operation was intended to last for two weeks at the most.Hopefully, closer to a week, with diplomatic efforts through Egypt to secure alasting cease-fire and, ideally, prevent Hamas from resupplying its rocketstockpiles through its smuggling tunnels from the Sinai.When we launched Operation Cast Lead on the morning of December 27,nearly all the Hamas forces were where we’d expected them to be. Two waves ofair strikes, with over a hundred jets and attack helicopters, killed 350 Hamasfighters. We destroyed Hamas’s headquarters and dozens of its government andpolice installations. The attacks continued in the days that followed. We took arange of actions designed to minimize civilian casualties. We dropped leafletsbefore bombing sorties, phoned residents, and fired light missiles before heavierordnance was used. Still, I realized that civilian casualties were unavoidable – ifonly because Hamas, like Hizbollah in Lebanon, was deliberately firing its rocketsfrom civilian areas, sometimes even near schools or hospitals. Civilian casualtieswere obviously tragic in themselves. They also made it inevitable that the longerthe operation went on, the more likely we were to face international criticism, anddiplomatic pressure to bring it to an end. That was an additional reason I hadinsisted that the operation be well defined and time-limited.406/ BARAK / 121But both Olmert and Tzipi soon fell prey to the same self-defeating temptationthat had worried me during the meandering war against Hizbollah. Our groundincursion began a few days into the operation. The intention was to stay for a fewmore days and then, responding to inevitable international appeals, call a halt to acampaign that had already achieved nearly all of its targets. Perhaps wanting tobalance the failures in Lebanon there with “success” in Gaza, Olmert wanted us tocontinue, and expand our attacks deeper into Gaza. I reminded him that we’dagreed the aims beforehand. The longer we stayed, the less clear any gains wouldbe. Yes, our ground forces had so far faced virtually no resistance or casualties.“But that’s because we’re outside the main populated areas,” I said. “The deeperwe get in, the better it will be for Hamas. They gain simply by surviving, likeHizbollah.” Yet Olmert kept insisting that we’d succeeded so far, so let’s not stop.It wasn’t until January 17, three weeks after the operation began, that weannounced a cease-fire. Militarily, the operation was a success. While Hamaslaunched nearly 3,000 rockets into Israel in the year before our attack, there wereonly 300 in the year that followed. But politically and diplomatically, the extraweek reduced, rather than helped, the chances of reaching an understanding for alonger-term reduction of the attacks. To the extent there was any political gain, itwas to burnish Tzipi Livni’s credentials as a tough potential Prime Minister aheadof the election. That was not her intent. Of all the politicians I’ve known, she isamong the least interested in such games, especially with lives at stake. But it wasone of the effects.She won the election, in a photo finish, with opinion polls suggesting she’dbeen effective in shaping the campaign as a choice “between Tzipi and Bibi.”Kadima got 28 Knesset seats, to 27 for Bibi and the Likud, which gave her the firstcrack at forming a government. There’s no way of disguising the fact that Labor’sresult in my first election back in charge was a disappointment. We went down sixseats, to 13. The big gainer was a far-right, stridently anti-Arab party called YisraelBeitenu, led by a former Likudnik named Avigdor Lieberman. Tzipi’s attempt toform a coalition became less a political process than a contest between rival stallsin a Middle Eastern bazaar. Bibi was holding parallel talks with the Orthodoxparties critical to assembling a parliamentary majority. He was matching andraising every assurance of a ministerial seat or budgetary concession that Tzipi wasprepared to offer. In the end, she threw up her hands, saying she refused to drawout a process which was not so much a negotiation as organized extortion. I am407/ BARAK / 122sure she won the respect of many Israelis for taking an all-to-rare stand ofprinciple. She certainly won mine. But I was not alone in wondering whether itwas worth the price that she, Kadima, and the country would pay as a result: Bibi’sreturn as Prime Minister in a Likud-led coalition.Though I was not surprised when he asked me to remain as Defense Minister,and to keep Labor inside the coalition, that was not an easy argument to make tomy reduced Knesset contingent. They saw joining Bibi, especially in a governmentwith the right-wing Lieberman as Foreign Minister, as a betrayal of all the effortsthat they and I had made to achieve peace with the Palestinians. Still, the decisionon whether to join the coalition ultimately rested with the party central committee,almost every one of whose members was on a local government council. For them,the choice was between a share of power, however limited, and the wilderness ofopposition. So we joined Bibi’s government.I was personally in favor of our doing so, but for more complicated reasons. Iknew that Bibi’s background, his instincts and his undeniably powerful politicalrhetoric were all firmly rooted on the political right. I recognized that he was oftenmore interested in politics than policy, and perhaps above both of those, in thetactical maneuvering required to consolidate his political position. But I had knownhim long enough to dismiss the suggestions of many of my colleagues that he wasintellectually shallow. I felt he was capable of doing what was best for Israel, andthat he had a basic pragmatism that would guide how he got there. All that,however, was just a reason for not saying “no” when he asked me and Labor tostay on. The reason I felt it was right to say yes had to two with specific policychallenges. The first was to ensure there at least some peace process with thePalestinians. But that, in turn, was in large part because I believed it would win usthe diplomatic support, especially from the Americans, needed to tackle a moreurgent threat. It again involved an enemy state trying to get nuclear weapons. Butnot Syria. The Islamic theocracy of Iran.We’d been aware for a number of years about Iranian efforts to go nuclear. TheMossad had notched up a series of successes in delaying the Iranians from gettingthere. But they were getting inexorably closer. In fact, when I’d taken over asDefense Minister under Olmert, I formally directed the new chief-of-staff, GabyAshknazi, to get to work on a plan to attack the most important facilities in theIranians’ nuclear network, with the aim of pushing back the point at which theymight develop a bomb by five to six years. But it became clear we didn’t have the408/ BARAK / 123operational capacity to mount such an attack, in part because we lacked thenecessary bunker-busting bombs and the tanker aircraft to get us to Iran and back. Idid seek help from the Americans. I met Defense Secretary Bob Gates, CIAdirector Mike Hayden, National Security Adviser Steve Hadley and even PresidentBush himself. While not explicitly mentioning that we were planning militaryaction against Iran, I sounded them out on the prospects of getting more heavymunitions, and possibly leasing several US tanker aircraft.Yet in our final meeting with President Bush, during a visit to Israel in June2008, he made it clear to Olmert and me that he knew what we were up to. Olmerthosted a private dinner for the President. Afterwards, Bush asked to talk privately.Olmert poured us each a glass of whiskey and lit a cigar, and we sank into brownleather armchairs. Smiling, the president looked straight at me, and said to Olmert:“This guy scares the living shit out of me when he tells me what you want.”He told Olmert how I’d asked for heavy munitions, tankers and a variety ofother military equipment. “Remember. I’m a former F-16 pilot,” he said. “I knowhow to connect the dots.” Then, turning more serious, he added: “I want to tellboth of you now, as President, the formal position of the US government. We aretotally against any action by you to mount an attack on the nuclear plants.” Theeffect was all the more dramatic because of his Administration’s support for ourattack on the reactor in Syria the year before. “I repeat,” Bush said, “in order toavoid any misunderstanding. We expect you not to do it. And we’re not going todo it, either, as long as I am President. I wanted it to be clear.”Olmert said nothing, so I replied. “Mr President, we’re in no position to tell youwhat the position of the United States should be. But I can tell you what I believehistory will have to say. I’m reminded by what we call, in field artillery,‘bracketing and halving.’” I said that in the wake of the Al-Qaeda attack on theTwin Towers, he had fired one shell long, in Afghanistan, and another one short, inIraq. “But when the time came to hit the real target – Iran – it ended up you’dalready spent two terms, and all your political capital.” He seemed neither insultednor unsettled by my remark. He simply nodded. Perhaps, in part, because he waspretty sure that we lacked the ability to attack the Iranian facilities anyway.We still lacked that capacity when I became Defense Minister in Bibi’sgovernment in May 2009. But the main reason I’d stayed in the job, and my main409/ BARAK / 124focus from the day Bibi’s government took office, was to do all I could to changethat.410/ BARAK / 125Chapter Twenty-FiveI had hoped that in facing down the nuclear threat from Iran, I could nudge Bibitowards a reengagement with the Palestinians – not with great enthusiasm, but asan act of pure political pragmatism. There were only two ways we could stop theIranians from getting a nuclear weapon: for the Americans to make sure thathappened, or not to hinder Israel from doing so. Either was going to be a lot harderif there was tension with the new American president, Barack Obama, over movesto revive the peace process with the Palestinians.I didn’t expect it to be put to the test so soon. Yet within weeks of our takingoffice, President Obama launched an effort to restart negotiations, declaring it“intolerable” that there was still not a Palestinian state. He was explicit about whatIsrael needed to do. In an Oval Office meeting with Bibi in May 2009, and in aspeech in Cairo the next month, he called for a total halt to settlement constructionon the West Bank. US opposition to settlements wasn’t new. For years,Washington’s position had been that they represented “an obstacle to peace.” Themain issue wasn’t even the creation of new settlements, since there had beenalmost none in recent years. It was the expansion of existing ones. The Jewishpopulation on the West Bank had been about 190,000 when I became PrimeMinister. In the decade since then, it had grown to 315,000 – more than half-amillionif you counted the Jewish neighborhoods built inside the expanded, post-1967 boundaries of Jerusalem. The expansion – “natural growth” as weeuphemistically described it to the Americans – was what President Obama nowwanted Bibi to end.I had no illusions about how hard it would be to get him to agree. With eachpassing year since Camp David, the pro-settlement right wing in Israel had becomemore confident and influential. In a way, the settlers and their supporters –passionately devoted to a “Greater Israel” and opposed to any Palestinian state –had become the 21 st -century equivalent of the kibbutz avant-garde of a half-centuryearlier. The rise of Avigdor Lieberman’s Yisrael Beiteinu party was the latest sign,alongside a move rightward within the Likud itself. For Bibi to say yes to asettlement freeze would mean putting aside his own short-term political interests inrecognition of the importance of our alliance with the Americans. He’d actuallydone this, twice, during his first term as Prime Minister. He had agreed to give the411/ BARAK / 126Palestinians control of most of Hebron, and accepted further withdrawals under theWye River agreement. But amid predictable protests from the right, he hadpromptly retreated from his Wye commitments. I knew that his default response toObama’s call for a settlement freeze would be “no.” And it was, delivered first tothe cabinet and then to the public, as soon as he got back from his talks with thePresident.In my repeated meetings with Bibi in the weeks that followed – both one-onone,and within the informal group of close ministers and aides known as theGroup of Eight – I tried to persuade him that, if only because of America’s key roleon Iran, we needed to show some sign of engagement with Obama’s efforts. I wasnot entirely alone. One ally was an old friend: Dan Meridor, who had rejoined theLikud before the election. Another was more unexpected: Avigdor Lieberman. Hewas never going to accept a settlement freeze. Not only did his heart, and politicalinterests, lie on the West Bank. He lived there. But like many in the party he led,he had come to Israel from the former Soviet Union, shaping a worldview that inmany ways remained European, and pro-Western. He was worried about creatingthe impression of blanket Israeli intransigence toward a popular new AmericanPresident, and isolating ourselves internationally, if we didn’t go some waytowards helping to restart talks with the Palestinians.Though Bibi showed no signs of retreat on the settlement freeze, he did acceptthat broader point. Ten days after Obama’s Cairo speech, he publicly accepted theidea of a Palestinian state for the first time, having ruled it out as recently as themonth before in his White House talks with the President. The shift was dismissedas trivial not just by the Palestinians, but by many in my own Labor party andalmost everyone else on the left. I disagreed. I knew how deep, genuine andlongstanding Bibi’s resistance to Palestinian statehood was. But I had another,serious concern about the “peace plan” he announced: an entirely new preconditionhe insisted the Palestinians must meet if peace was ever going to be possible. Hesaid they must “clearly and unambiguously recognize Israel as the state of theJewish people.” On a whole series of levels, that made no sense to me. We hadn’tasked Egypt or Jordan to grant us explicit recognition as a Jewish state when wemade peace with them. Even when Bibi himself had briefly tried to opennegotiations with Damascus in his first period as Prime Minister, we’d never feltthe need to ask it of the Syrians either. To the extent there was any logic indemanding it of the Palestinians, Bibi’s reasoning seemed to be that this would412/ BARAK / 127neutralize any recidivist claims to all of Palestine, especially since we had around1.5 million Arab citizens living inside our pre-1967 borders. But as I told Bibi, thatwas a red herring. There was a more straightforward, legally binding answer: apeace treaty which, as with Egypt and Jordan, declared an end to our conflict andto any further claims on either side.My main concern was more fundamental. Bibi’s new approach contradicted thecentral thrust of Zionism: that after centuries of powerlessness and persecution,Jews would finally take control of their own destiny. We now had our state. It wasmore than six decades old. “Why do we need the Palestinians, or anyone, tovalidate us as a Jewish state? Why propose something that implies the Palestinianssomehow have a say in what kind of state we choose to be?” Yet the more Ipressed him, the clearer it became that the substance didn’t much matter to Bibi.His move was political, and tactical, aimed at staking out a position of power in thediplomatic process. Besides, he didn’t expect any new negotiations to make realprogress anyway.As Defense Minister, I had scope for taking steps with the Palestinians on myown. With Bibi’s knowledge and tacit acceptance, I established a particularlystrong relationship with Abu Mazen’s Prime Minister, Salaam Fayyad. A respectedeconomist, he operated on the assumption that neither violence nor negotiationsseemed likely to lead the Palestinians to statehood as things now stood. He saw hisrole as doing an end-run. He would put in place the institutions, the infrastructure,the economy, the internal security and the stability needed for an eventual state tosucceed. He was trying to do for the Palestinians what Ben-Gurion had done before1948. He and I met and talked often but discreetly – sometimes in his office inRamallah, sometimes in mine, sometimes over dinner in the 31 st -floor flat I wasrenting in central Tel Aviv. I remember one dinner in particular. I led him onto theterrace after we’d eaten. It was a startlingly clear night. You could see as far northas Lebanon and, since the West Bank was barely a dozen miles away, thetwinkling lights of Ramallah as well. He gazed in that direction, then at the brightlights of the avenues and restaurants and cafés far below us. Smiling, he said:“Ehud, why do you need Ramallah when you’ve got Tel Aviv?” I smiled back.There was no need to reply. He knew my views. Not only didn’t Israel needRamallah. I was more convinced than ever that it was in our own interest, by treatyif possible and unilateral disengagement if not, to remove Israel from all of themajor towns and cities of the West Bank.413/ BARAK / 128I issued a standing directive in the kirya that we should agree to anythingFayyad asked for, as long as there no security reason to say no. We ended uparranging a direct source of fuel supply to Jenin, on the northern edge of the WestBank, and built new terminals to handle it. We facilitated construction permits fora new industrial zone. For a conference of international economists and businesspeople, we set up VIP treatment at Ben-Gurion Airport, and limousine transport tothe conference venue. I believed that if Fayyad succeeded in what he was trying toaccomplish, it would be a benefit not just for the Palestinians, but for Israel too.Bibi was agnostic on Fayyad’s efforts. Yet he recognized they did no harm. And ina way, my support for them was politically convenient. To the extent theinternational community, especially the Americans, appreciated our efforts to helpthe Palestinians, Bibi and others in the government could, and did, claim credit.When there were complaints from the right, Bibi could and did say: “It wasn’t me.It was Barak.”My part in our relations with the Americans was more politically delicate. As Icontinued to prod Bibi toward accepting a settlement freeze during the summer andautumn of 2009, my de facto role became to help smooth over the increasinglyrough edges in our ties with the Obama administration. I knew key figures fromearlier incarnations in their public lives and mine: Secretary of Defense Bob Gates,who had been President George H. W. Bush’s deputy security adviser in the firstIraq war and then head of the CIA; and Hillary Clinton, now Secretary of State.During a series of early trips to the US as Defense Minister, I met Gates, Hillaryand other senior figures in the administration both formally and informally. In partbecause they were aware I favored agreeing to a settlement freeze, they clearlyfound it a lot easier to talk to me than to Bibi. On one visit, to my regret and Bibi’sevident frustration once I’d got home, the press highlighted this dramaticdifference in mood. Emerging from talks with me at the State Department, Hillarytold reporters that our talks had gone “wonderfully.” She added: “As longtimefriends do, much was said. And much didn’t need to be said.” Still, I was careful toavoid any explicit criticism of Bibi in my meetings in the US. I would point out thedomestic political pressures on him in deciding how to proceed. And in any case,the Americans knew that no matter what I might say to them, it was Bibi’s actionsthat ultimately mattered. He, not I, was Prime Minister.I was as surprised as they were when he finally announced a settlement freezein November 2009. As with nearly everything else he did regarding the peace414/ BARAK / 129process, it was hedged with several conditions. The freeze would not be openended,but last for 10 months, as a way of boosting the effort to restartnegotiations. It would apply to new construction, not work already underway. Andit would exclude the post-1967 neighborhoods inside the expanded city limits ofJerusalem. Like his other moves, it was also dismissed as insignificant by thePalestinians. Though there was a formal restarting of the talks, they went almostnowhere during the period of the freeze, which Bibi cited as a reason for notextending it further. From then on, the negotiations produced even less. I didn’tbuy the narrative that this was entirely Bibi’s fault. Abu Mazen remainedsteadfastly, deliberately passive. Obviously not inclined to take the risk of furtherwidening his rift with Hamas in Gaza, he was content to echo the Obamaadministration’s argument that nothing could happen until there was a settlementfreeze. Once the freeze was announced, he went through the motions, avoiding allthe difficult issues, in the expectation Washington would ensure the freeze wasrenewed. President Obama’s initial Mideast moves had made it much easier forAbu Mazen to avoid any serious engagement. In contrast to past presidents, Obamahad placed almost all of the onus for progress on Israel. But the end result alsosuited Bibi. Though I never entirely gave up hope of persuading him it was inIsrael’s interest to seek a resolution of our conflict with the Palestinians, it becamemore evident as the months went on that his aim was simply to keep things tickingover, and avoid any major new crisis.He appointed an old personal friend – a corporate lawyer named YitzhakMolcho – as our negotiator. I finally realized how pointless the exercise was when,during a visit to the United States, I found myself in New York at the same time asMolcho. We met at the Israeli consulate. We spoke in detail about the state of thenegotiations. With Molcho still in the room, I phoned Bibi in Jerusalem on thesecure phone line. I said I’d just been updated on the talks, and it seemed clearthere were a number of suggestions Israel could make, with no domestic politicalrisk but with every prospect of improving the atmosphere and acceleratingprogress. “Yitzhak is one of Israel’s top lawyers,” I said. “He’s struck dozens ofdeals in his life. But he strikes a deal when that’s what his client wants. You are theclient. If you tell him: bring me back the best deal you can – not a peace treaty, justa deal on a specific issue – he’ll do it. But if his brief is simply to negotiate, he cango on negotiating forever. And it’s pretty clear me that’s his brief.” Bibi insisted Iwas wrong. He said that what I saw as time-wasting was simple prudence, to makesure the negotiations bore fruit. But his approach never changed. Whenever it came415/ BARAK / 130up in our inner Group of Eight discussions, I could usually count only on DanMeridor, and occasionally a handful of others, to argue in favor of any form ofinitiative on our side. In private meetings, Bibi did sometimes engage in discussionabout what Israel might do. But he invariably steered the conversation elsewhere,insisting that the real issue was the Palestinians’ lack of any interest in makingpeace.My main worry wasn’t the immediate future of the negotiations. For now, thechances of an agreement seemed close to zero. It was the longer-term damageBibi’s approach would do in further delaying any serious move by Israel to put ourrelations with the Palestinians on a more stable and sustainable footing. Thedithering, delay and deadlock suited him politically. Ironically, my own efforts onthe security front had also made it easier for us to do next to nothing. Intermittentoutbreaks of violence always remained a threat. Yet the West Bank security fence,along with our military, police and intelligence measures, meant it was veryunlikely we’d see a return to the full-blown terror war of the second intifada. I wasalso working to secure US support for our development of increasingly effectiveanti-missile weapons to reduce the threat from Hamas in Gaza. The overall resultwas that for many, if not most, Israelis, the conflict with the Palestinians didn’timpact on their day-to-day lives. It was unseen and largely unfelt.Still, the effect of the stalemate on our relationship with Washington did matter:both for our security cooperation on things like the anti-missile weapons and,crucially, the challenge which had led me into Bibi’s government in the first place:keeping Iran from getting a nuclear weapon.* * *It was a race against time. The Iranians were producing more and moreyellowcake, building more advanced centrifuges, accumulating more low-enricheduranium. They were getting better at hiding and protecting the network of facilitiesbeing used to try to produce a nuclear weapon. And in the early months of Bibi’sPrime Ministership, the question we faced wasn’t even whether to take militaryaction against Iran – something I knew, from Bob Gates and others, that theObama administration viewed no more favourably than George W. Bush. It was416/ BARAK / 131whether that would even be possible to strike before the Iranians entered their“zone of immunity” – the point at which the amount of damage we could do totheir nuclear program would be too negligible to be worth the operational, politicaland diplomatic risks from such an attack. In the early months, my priority was toensure we at least had a military option. A full year before joining Bibi’sgovernment, as Defense Minister under Olmert, I’d first tried to put an operationalplan in place, only to find that the lack of heavy munitions and refuelling aircraftmade it impossible. That was especially frustrating because at that point, ourexperts calculated that a successful strike could have set back the Iranian nucleareffort by about six years. Given the Iranians’ knowledge we could attack again,and their need to restart clandestine efforts to secure key components abroad, thatmeant a very real prospect of ending the nuclear program altogether. On joiningBibi’s government, I began working, both with the kirya and the engineers andtechnological experts in our military industries, to make sure we had the weaponryand equipment, and an operational plan for a surgical strike. It was not until mid-2010, a year into Bibi’s government, that I was confident we’d reached that point,in part thanks to Israeli-produced heavy bombs and tanker aircraft. Our expertsestimated we would still be able to set back the Iranian nuclear efforts by up tofour years, almost certainly enough to end them indefinitely.Yet making military action possible proved to be the easy part. The questionnow became whether we should be prepared to launch a strike against Iran’snuclear facilities. Answering it was like a contest of three-dimensional chess,involving both an internal debate among Israel’s political and military leadershipand discussions with an Obama administration whose priority remained tonegotiate an end to Iran’s nuclear program. On major security decisions in Israel,two ministers always mattered the most: the Prime Minister and Defense Minister.Neither Bibi nor I doubted we had to ready to strike if that proved necessary. Nordid Foreign Minister Lieberman. Even for us, it was an option to be consideredonly when all other ways to rein in the Iranians were failing. We also agreed ontwo other preconditions. We would have to secure international legitimacy, most ofall from the Americans, for what would be a clear act of self-defense. And we’dneed to demonstrate an imperative urgency to act, with the approach of the “zoneof immunity” that would take any military option off the table for good.Ideally, we hoped the US-led campaign of economic and diplomatic pressurewould get Iran to abandon its nuclear ambitions, as Libya had done in the wake of417/ BARAK / 132its terror attack on a Pan American airliner in the late 1980s. Or, as in SouthAfrica, that a change in nuclear policy might come from a change in régime inTehran. Yet realistically, we couldn’t count on either. And there was no doubt inour minds that a nuclear Iran represented a hugely serious threat. If the Shi’iteMuslim regime in Iran did get a nuclear weapon, Sunni Arab states like Egypt andSaudi Arabia, and Turkey as well, would try to go nuclear. Neither they nor wecould assume that Iran was developing a bomb as a mere act of deterrence. Wecouldn’t exclude the possibility that, especially in a crisis threatening the survivalof the ayatollahs’ rule, Iran would use the weapons it was developing. It couldeven send a nuclear device in a container smuggled on board a commercial vesseldocking in one of Israel’s ports.While few in Israel disputed the seriousness of the threat, a number of toppolitical and military figures had deep misgivings about military action. Given theneed for secrecy, most of our discussions took place within the so-called Group ofEight, often also including the chief of staff and other top generals from the kirya.Both Dan Meridor and Benny Begin, Menachem Begin’s son and a ministerwithout portfolio, were opposed to an Israeli attack from the start. They wereconvinced that the implications for the region, and for our relations with the widerworld, were difficult to predict and potentially dire. Dan raised a further concern.He feared an Israeli attack might actually intensify Iran’s effort to get a nuclearbomb, only now with political cover, because it would argue it was acting in selfdefense.The view of those opposed to an Israeli strike was that we should rely onAmerican economic and political pressure to deal with the threat. And, if thatfailed, on American military action.In November 2010, the internal debate came to a head, at a meeting involvingthe Group of Eight as well as the chief of staff, the head of military intelligenceand the commander of the air force. We convened in a villa that the Mossad keptfor clandestine foreign visitors, near the coastal road north of Tel Aviv. Themeeting began with a presentation by the generals of our attack plan. There wasstill a core of ministers opposed: chiefly Dan Meridor and Benny Begin, but alsoBoogie Ya’alon, a former Sayeret Matkal commander and chief of staff whoMinister of Strategic Affairs. But the confidence and detail with which the planwas laid out, and the fact that Bibi, Lieberman and I were in favor of beingprepared to act, gave me the sense that a majority would back military action if itbecame necessary. The proviso would be the need for the chief-of-staff, and ideally418/ BARAK / 133the heads of military intelligence and Mossad, to sign off on the operationalviability of the plan.That was what now ended any prospect of military action, at least for a fewmonths. Bibi, Lieberman and I withdrew into a side room to talk with the chief ofstaff, Gaby Ashkenazi, as well as the heads of military intelligence, the Mossadand and Shin Bet. We emphasized that no final decision on whether to attack hadbeen taken. That would require a further meeting with the Group of Eight, and thenthe full cabinet. But we asked each of them for their views on the operation. Weknew they had political reservations, along the lines of those voiced by DanMeridor. On an issue of this magnitude, it was accepted practice that military andintelligence commanders could weigh in on the political implications as well. Buttheir formal role was operational and professional. Ashkenazi and the othergenerals did concede that in every area – planning, materiel, training andintelligence – our attack plan was far ahead of where it had been a year earlier. YetAshkenazi, in particular, concluded that the preparations had not yet “crossed thethreshold of operational capability”.I was furious. I respected the considered opposition of ministers like Dan orBenny Begin. I had no problem with the chief-of-staff or other generals expressingsimilar views on the political or geo-strategic implications of an Israeli attack, eventhough our intelligence assessments suggested the concerns were almost certainlyunfounded. Yet what I found astonishing was Ashkenazi’s suggestion that the“operational threshold” had not been crossed. Yes, this would be a demandingmission. It was not without risks. No operation was. But having followed everystage and detail of the preparations – and as a former chief of staff and intelligencechief myself – I believed it was simply wrong on a professional level to say thatwe lacked the capacity, and a workable plan, for a military strike if the order wasgiven.Ashkenazi’s objection did mean there was no way we were going to attack atleast until well into the new year. Our discussions would continue, as would ourrefinement and strengthening of the attack plan. So would Iran’s progress towardits “zone of immunity,” which we now believed would begin late in 2012, a coupleof years away. As that point drew closer, we’d face an ever-more-pressing need todecide finally whether military action was necessary.419/ BARAK / 134Yet the delay in getting to that point had serious implications for my role asLabor Party leader. Since the negotiations with the Palestinians were stuck inneutral, I was under increasing pressure from within Labor to pull out of Bibi’sgovernment. What on earth was the point of staying, they asked. All I was doing,from their perspective, was giving Bibi political cover for abandoning any seriouseffort to get a peace agreement. Their argument was entirely reasonable. Myfrustration was that, due to the need for military secrecy, the counter-argument wasimpossible for me to make: that I felt I had a responsibility to stay at a time whenthere remained a real possibility Israel might need to take military action againstIran. To a mix of consternation and anger among many Labor colleagues, I endedup taking what seemed to me the only realistic option. In January 2011, I left theLabor Party. With three other of our ministers in the government – who were, ofcourse, aware of the ongoing Iran discussions – I set up a new “centrist, Zionist”party called Ha’Atzmaut, or Independence. We remained in Bibi’s government.* * *My main focus was now on the Americans. In order to secure the “internationallegitimacy” any Israeli attack required, we had to win at least their understandingthat we might feel it necessary to act. Fortunately, I had built up a goodrelationship with the key figures in the Obama administration. That had not alwaysbeen easy, given the tension between the Americans and Bibi. That wasn’t justbecause of the deadlock in the peace process, still a priority for President Obama.There were other complications. Ever since the initial pressure for a settlementfreeze, right-wing politicians and commentators, and Bibi himself, had taken toportraying President Obama as fundamentally unsympathetic to Israel. After theRepublicans’ victory in the mid-term Congressional elections in November 2010,Bibi went a step further. He began cozying up to congressmen and senators on theother side of the aisle. This overt meddling in the internal politics of our closestally was not just a breach of longstanding tradition, but of common sense.Members of the Administration began privately calling Bibi “the Republicansenator from Rechavia” – a reference to the Jerusalem neighborhood where thePrime Minister’s residence was located.420/ BARAK / 135Yet especially with my main points of contact in the administration – first BobGates and then his successor, Leon Panetta, as Secretary of Defense –our broadlyshared views, mutual respect, and the strength of the US-Israeli allianceoutweighed any of that. Neither they, nor indeed President Obama, wavered fromtheir commitment to the principle that Israel needed to retain our “qualitativemilitary advantage” over any combination of threats we might face, nor to the $3billion package of annual US aid that underpinned it. We were even able to agreeon additional US backing for our increasingly effective range of anti-missilesystems: the Arrow, against long-range ballistic missiles, developed incoordination with the US defense contractor Raytheon; “David’s Sling,” to targetenemy forces’ mid-range missiles, cruise missiles and aircraft; and our new IronDome system, integrating sophisticated Israeli radar and guidance technology anddesigned to deal with the missile threat from Hizbollah on our northern border andHamas in Gaza. It had not yet been used in battle. But from test firings, we wereconfident it could destroy incoming rockets with nearly 90-per-cent success.By late 2011, the issue of Iran had taken on much greater urgency. There wasstill no sign the American-led diplomatic efforts were succeeding in removing thenuclear threat. As for an American military strike, though the Presidentintermittently declared that “all options” remained on the table, I knew from senioradministration members that it was extremely unlikely to happen. Iran, meanwhile,had been acquiring thousands more centrifuges, more uranium, and heavierprotection around its key sites. And the “window of vulnerability” was now onlyabout a year away.Operationally and politically, at least now a majority of the key players in Israelagreed that we had to be prepared to take military action if there was no alternativeway to rein in the Iranians. Ashkenazi’s successor as chief-of-staff, Benny Gantz,had signed off on the attack plan. While the Iranians were getting ever closer tonuclear-weapons capability, the strike force that we were assembling was alsobetter equipped, trained and prepared to mount a complex, yet almost certainlysuccessful, operation. The damage to Iran’s nuclear ambitions would beconsiderably less than if we had acted earlier. But our intelligence analysts stillestimated we could set back the Iranians’ program by about two years.The immediate problem turned out to be timing. A major joint military exercisewith the Americans, agreed on two years earlier, was due to take place in Israel inApril 2012. It would include Patriot missile batteries, naval vessels, and thousands421/ BARAK / 136of uniformed US personnel. The focus was, of all things, on defense against amissile attack from Iran. I contacted Leon Panetta to see whether we could delay it.The official reason cited by the Americans, when they agreed to do it, did have themerit of being true: that Bibi was coming under pressure to shift our budgetarypriorities away from defense toward social and economic issues. But Panettaunderstood that my request for a delay meant we were at least considering militaryaction. He also realized that if we did launch an attack, it was in the Americans’own interest for their troops be as far away from Israel as possible. We agreed toreschedule the exercise for October 2012. That meant that if we did decide toattack, we’d have until well into September, when significant numbers of UStroops would begin arriving.As we weighed our final decision, I held a series of high-level meetings inWashington: with Panetta, national security adviser Tom Donilon, Hillary Clinton,and President Obama himself. Though not explicitly saying we were ready toattack, I left no doubt that we were seriously considering it, and explained thereasons we believed our country’s fundamental security interests might make itnecessary. The message from all of the Americans I met was that theadministration shared our basic goal: to prevent, or at least seriously impair, Iran’sdrive to get a nuclear bomb. But they continued to believe that non-militarypressure was the best way to do it.The Americans knew we were skeptical that the non-military route would work,and that we were deeply worried about the implications of not taking militaryaction if it failed. I discussed our thinking – and, in general terms, our plans – inmy meetings with Panetta. He already had a pretty good idea of the broad contoursof what we were contemplating, since US radar systems and electronic interceptshad been recording the volume and nature of air force exercises we’d beenconducting over recent months. Leon and I had by now got to know each otherwell, having first met when he was in charge of the CIA at the start of the Obamaadministration. In one of our early meetings at CIA headquarters in Langley, therehad been a small bunch of grapes on his desk and I plucked a few in my mouthwith obvious enjoyment. Now, at the Pentagon, he had a big bowlful readywhenever we met. The fact that he opposed an Israeli military operation made himno less of a pleasure to deal with. He was unfailingly calm and even tempered. Hehad an encyclopedic grasp of issues of defense, intelligence, budgets and policy.He was always rock-solid in America’s commitments to Israel. It’s worth422/ BARAK / 137remembering that, in spite of Israel’s insistence from 1948 onward that we wouldnever ask others to do our fighting for us, even as Leon and I were meeting, USradar operators were working around the clock to provide us with early warningagainst any incoming Iranian missiles. Patriot batteries were ready to deploy inIsrael within 72 hours of any attack. AEGIS naval vessels were within 96 hours ofour shores, to reinforce Israel’s Arrow missile defense system with sea-launchedweapons.Panetta made no secret of the fact he didn’t want us to launch a military strike,effectively killing off the many months of intensive work the Americans haddevoted to building international political and economic pressure on the Iranians.He urged me to “think twice, three times,” before going down that road. But herecognized that Israel would be affected far more dramatically by a nuclear Iran.“It’s your conflict. It’s your neighborhood,” he said. At one point, he asked meoutright: “If you do decide to attack the Iranian facilities, when will we know?” Itold him we couldn’t give him more than a few hours’ notice. Otherwise, theAmericans would have to alert their bases in the Gulf, and worldwide. That mightwell put Iran on guard before our operation was launched. But I did recognize ourresponsibility not to leave the Americans in the dark, not only because they were akey ally but because their own military and naval personnel might be at risk fromany Iranian retaliation. “We know your command-post deployment and thecommunications protocols with your forces,” I told him. “We’ll make sure youhave enough time to tell your people,” I said. “We won’t endanger a singleAmerican life, any of your positions or your personnel.”My most important meeting was with the President. Though I knew him lesswell than I did Panetta, we had met on a number of occasions. The first time waswhen he was still Senator Obama, on a visit to Israel during the 2008 presidentialcampaign. As Defense Minister, I escorted him to Sderot, the town in southernIsrael bearing the brunt of Hamas rocket attacks from Gaza. Back in Jerusalem, wespent a half-hour talking in my office: about Iran. I argued that a nuclear Iran was achallenge not only for Israel and the Middle East, but for America, too. I urgedhim, if elected, to commission an early study of what the Iranians were seeking todo and what could be done to stop them either by diplomatic means or, ifnecessary, by force. Also, what the Iranians could, or more relevantly could not, doin response to an American or indeed an Israel attack, since our intelligenceassessments suggested their options for retaliation would be fairly limited. Obama423/ BARAK / 138struck me from that first meeting as strong, cool-headed, highly intelligent andintensely cerebral. Though we didn’t go into the details of the Iranian nuclearthreat, he did talk at some length about the implications for the region, and aboutbroader Middle Eastern security challenges. He displayed a grasp of the culturaland political nuances of an increasingly diverse and complex world that was moreimpressive than many of the other American political or military leaders whom I’dmet.When he and I now returned to the issue of Iran, in the White House, he had anundeniable command of the details of Iran’s nuclear program, and of the Americanmilitary options, should he choose to use them. He opened by summarizing the USposition. He emphasized that his and our objective was the same: the keep Iranfrom developing a nuclear weapon. We were already cooperating to achieve that,for instance through cyber-attacks to slow down the nuclear program. Thedifference, he said, was that Israeli leaders seemed to feel an urgent need to reach adecision on military action. In Obama’s view, such a move would be bothpremature and potentially harmful to the coalition he’d helped assemble to exertdiplomatic and economic pressure on Iran.Maybe you had to be an Israeli truly to understand our urgency about Iran. Inthe early years of the state, the explanation we gave for our preoccupation withsecurity – our near-obsession, as some non-Israelis saw it – was that we weresurrounded by Arab countries pledged not just to defeat us, but erase us from themap. Egypt or Syria, Jordan or Iraq, could afford to lose an Arab-Israeli war.Israel’s first defeat, however, would be its last. That picture had changeddramatically over the decades. We no longer had to worry about the prospect oflosing a war. The “qualitative edge” we possessed over all enemy armies in theregion ensured that. As Israel’s chief of staff, Prime Minister, and now DefenseMinister, I had made it a major priority to safeguard that advantage, not justthrough our alliance with the US but with the remarkable domestic resources wepossessed in military engineering, manufacturing, design, invention and high-tech.But the new-order challenge represented by Iran was not just theoretical oracademic. Though we had a policy of not commenting on on our own nuclearstatus, it was widely assumed in the Arab world and internationally that Israel had,at the very least, the capacity to manufacture nuclear weapons. But whatevernuclear capability we might possess was for deterrence. Even when threatenedwith conventional defeat, however briefly, in the Yom Kippur War of 1973, it is424/ BARAK / 139worth noting that the conflict remained conventional. Iran was different. Only themost naïve observer would exclude the possibility that if the Iranians did get anuclear weapon, they might use it. And even if they didn’t, the entire strategicpicture would change, with the need to find a response not just to a nuclear Iran,but potentially a nuclear Egypt, Saudi Arabia and Turkey.I was not about to lecture President Obama on this. While Bibi liked to portrayhim variously as weak, naïve or tone-deaf to interests and security of Israel, I knewfrom our previous meetings that he was none of these things. Yet I did, in adeliberately non-didactic way, raise the issue of our different perspectives on theIranians’ getting nuclear arms. “You see it in the context of the whole world,” Itold the President. “If Iran, in spite of all our efforts, gets a nuclear weapon, yes, itwill be bad. But for you, it’s just one more nuclear state. It won’t dramaticallychange the situation for America. For us, it can turn into a real, existential threat.”He agreed that we inevitably looked at the situation differently. But afterpausing a few seconds, he said: “Ehud, think of it this way. You get to school inthe morning and there’s this big, nasty bully. You can take him on, maybe givehim a black eye. But you have this bigger, stronger friend, who can knock him outcold. The only problem is that your friend won’t be there until the afternoon.”I would have liked nothing more than to wait for our “bigger, stronger” friend,especially since I knew through my contacts in the American military andintelligence establishment how much bigger and stronger an American attackwould be. During the first couple of years that Israel was working on acquiring thecapability for a military strike, the Americans had been no more ready than wewere. They did have the tanker aircraft and the heavy bombs. But their plan – akind of Iraq-style shock and awe – was so obviously prone to lead to a widerconflict that it would never have received the go-ahead from President Obama, orprobably any president. I used to joke with colleagues in the Pentagon that whileIsrael’s idea of a “surgical operation” was the equivalent of a scalpel, they seemedto favor a chisel and a ten-pound hammer. By the time I met the President in 2012,that had changed. Under Gates and then Panetta, an intensive research-anddevelopmenteffort and enormously improved planning and training had yieldedresults. The Americans now had high-precision heavy munitions we couldn’tdream of, and stealth air-attack capabilities we also lacked. They had anoperational plan which, within a period of hours, could push the Iranian nuclear425/ BARAK / 140program back by years. And even if the Iranians knew it was coming, they’d beable to do nothing to stop it.“Our problem, Mr, President,” I said, “is that we can’t be sure our friend willshow up. Since Iran is already very nearly in a zone of immunity against an Israeliattack, we can’t afford to wait until the afternoon. By then, with our capabilities,we won’t even be able to give the bully a black eye.” I said I trusted what he’d justtold me. “I’m sure it genuinely reflects your intentions now. But there are nofutures contracts in statesmanship. There’s no way that you, or any leader, cancommit yourself to what will happen in a year or two. When the moment ofdecision arrives, nothing will be able to free you from the responsibility to look atthe situation as it is then, with American interests in mind.”He accepted the point. But he reiterated his view that “kinetic action” – USsecurity-speak for a military strike – would not only remove his ability to exhaustthe non-military alternatives. He said it wouldn’t be in Israel’s interests, either.“We hear that even people high up in your military, in military intelligence and theMossad, are against it.”That, I couldn’t deny. “We highly respect our top people in the military, and inintelligence. We make a point of listening to them before taking action,” I said.“But here’s the difference. When they look up, they see Netanyahu, or me. WhenBibi and I look up, we see heaven. Whoever is up there, we clearly can’t go tothem for advice. We are responsible for Israel’s security.”The president smiled, but brought the discussion back down to earth. When heagain urged us to consider the American position in any decision, I replied: “MrPresident, I feel compelled to tell you frankly how I see the situation. We highlyappreciate, and are grateful, that America supports Israel in so many ways. Ibelieve we’re doing our best to support American interests in the Middle East aswell. But when it comes to issues critical for the security and future of Israel, andin a way for the future of the Jewish people, we can’t afford to delegateresponsibility even to our best friend and ally. When we face such situations, wehave to decide on our own, and act on our decisions. I would expect the UnitedStates, and you as its president, to respect that position.” He did not seemespecially happy with what I’d said. But he showed no anger. Though we differed,it was clear that he understood and respected our position. In any case, I believed it426/ BARAK / 141was important to convey to him honestly, face-to-face, where Israel stood on Iran.Or at least where I stood.* * *With our joint exercises pushed back until the fall, the logical time for us toattack was the summer of 2012, when the atmospheric and weather conditionswere optimal. Operationally, everything was ready. Politically, those ministers whowere against military action had not changed their minds. If anything, they seemedmore strongly opposed. Ironically, they now argued that because we’d waited solong, the Iranians were too close to their “window of immunity.” Even some seniormembers of the military and security establishment, though in agreement over thetechnical aspects of the attack plan, retained political reservations. But as I’d toldPresident Obama, now that we had the operational support of the military andintelligence professionals, the decision in effect rested with Bibi and me. The factwe were ready to go ahead in those circumstances was not unprecedented. WhenMenachem Begin ordered the bombing of Saddam Hussein’s nuclear reactor in1981, he had acted against the advice of the then-heads of both the Mossad andmilitary intelligence, the chairman of our nuclear energy commission, and ofShimon Peres, who was head of the Labor opposition.But as we neared our final, formal decision, we were forced into another delay.In the summer of 2012, an unrelated flare-up of tensions in the Gulf caused Iranand several of its neighbors to place their forces on heightened alert. Though thepeak-alert phase passed quickly, Iran’s military was still not back on a fully normalfooting by the start of September, and when small American advance teams beganarriving for the joint exercises, Iran’s alert level went up again. Technically, wecould still have gone ahead with the attack. In all probability, it would still havesucceeded, setting back the Iranians’ program by at least a year and, depending onhow quickly they could rebuild and resupply clandestinely abroad, perhaps forsignificantly longer.But as more and more American soldiers and sailors arrived, I finally decidedagainst an Israeli strike – not because I doubted the damage it would do to Iran’snuclear efforts, but because of the damage it would surely do to our ties with the427/ BARAK / 142US. No matter how we might explain our attack, with the joint exercises soon tobegin, it would come over as a deliberate attempt to implicate our most importantally in a potential conflict with Iran, against the explicit wishes of PresidentObama. I felt this even more strongly when, a few weeks later, I was contacted byone of Bibi’s close political allies. He sounded me out on the possibility oflaunching our strike against Iran after the joint exercise: barely two weeks beforethe 2012 US election. Politically, he argued, Obama would then feel compelled tosupport Israel’s action, or at the very least to refrain from criticizing it. In otherwords, we would be setting a political trap for the President of the United States. Icouldn’t quite believe he was suggesting it. But my reply to this last-gaspsuggestion of a way for us to attack the Iranian sites required no hesitation, andonly two words: “No way.”Bibi would have known I would oppose such a ploy. But as with so much elsein the years I spent in his government, I think it was the politics of the scheme,more than the substance, that enticed him. Almost everything he did seemedincreasingly about creating a kind of grand narrative to secure his position on theright, solidifying a base which he figured would sustain him in office. At its core,the narrative presented a picture of vulnerability and victimhood: a kind of“fortress Israel” threatened by terror, missiles on its northern and southern borders,and now potential nuclear annihilation from Iran, while our main ally, the UnitedStates, was under the sway of a President who neither understood norfundamentally supported us. In day-to-day policy terms, this allowed Bibi to insistwe couldn’t risk serious engagement with the Palestinians. On domestic issues aswell, like the widening gap between those at the top of our high-tech economy anda painfully squeezed middle class, the sense of crisis he encouraged gave himlicense to hunker down, warn of impending doom, and do virtually nothing.Effective though the narrative was for him politically, it bore no resemblance toreality. Yes, President Obama disagreed with us on issues of policy, both the peaceprocess and on how to deal with Iran. But he was unquestionably committed toAmerica’s alliance with Israel. I had dealt face-to-face with four US presidents:both of the Bushes, President Clinton and now President Obama. In terms of Israelisecurity, none had proved as consistently supportive and helpful as Obama. Andyes, Israel did face an array of security challenges. A nuclear-armed Iran wouldundeniably make things worse. But far from being under existential threat, we428/ BARAK / 143were a regional superpower, with a military as effective as any in the world, and ahigh-tech economic sector justifiably compared to Silicon Valley.Every few weeks, Bibi, Lieberman and I would meet for a wide-rangingdiscussion on the patio of the Prime Minister’s residence. Shortly after we’dabandoned the idea of a military strike, I raised head-on my objections to theskewed image Bibi was promoting of our country. It wasn’t just inaccurate, I said.Especially when his rhetoric was in full flight, and he compared the prospect of anuclear Iran to a new “Holocaust,” it struck me as a betrayal of the core tenet ofZionism: an state in which Jews were in control of their own destiny. “We are inthat position now,” I said. It was nonsensical to argue we were so threatened byeverything around us, for instance, that we couldn’t “risk” taking the initiativerequired to disentangle ourselves from the Palestinians on the West Bank. “I don’tget you,” I said, turning to Lieberman as well. “Your rhetoric suggests you havespines of steel. But your behavior is living proof of the old saying that it’s easier totake Jews out of the galut, than take the galut out of the Jews.” Galut is Hebrew forthe diaspora. “The whole Zionist project was based on the idea of taking our fateinto our own hands, and actively trying to change the reality around us. But youbehave as if we never left the galut. You’re mired in a mindset of pessimism,passivity and anxiety, which in terms of policy or action, leads to paralysis. Ofcourse, there are risks in any action, or any policy initiative. But in the situationwhere Israel finds itself, the biggest risk of all is being unable or unwilling to takerisks, as if we somehow on the brink of destruction.”I was especially upset by Bibi’s increasingly use of Holocaust imagery. “Justthink of what you’re saying,” I told him. “You’re Prime Minister of the State ofIsrael, not a rabbi in a shtetl, or a speaker trying to raise funds for Israel abroad.Think of the implications. We’re not in Europe in 1937. Or 1947. If it is a‘Holocaust,’ what’s our response: to fold up and go back to the diaspora? If Irangets a bomb, it’ll be bad. Very bad. But we’ll still be here. And we’ll find a way ofdealing with the new reality.”Yet “fortress Israel” was irresistibly comfortable for Bibi politically. I now hadto accept that, while he and I had known each other for more than half-a-century,nothing I could do or say was going to change that. With the next Israeli electionmonths away, in January 2013, I confided to Nili, and then to my closest aides, thatI was not going to run for a seat in the Knesset. Israeli military action against Iran429/ BARAK / 144was off the agenda. The diplomatic process with the Palestinians was stalemated. Icould see no point in remaining in the government.Like my last period in Olmert’s government, my final few months weredominated by finding a way to end Hamas attacks from Gaza. During one 24-hourperiod in November, Hamas launched more than 100 rockets at towns in the south,while also attacking two military units across the border. Especially since ourmilitary response would be the last during my time as Defense Minister, I wasdetermined that, this time, it would have a strictly defined objective and a finitetime frame. The overall objective hadn’t changed since Olmert’s premiership: tohit Hamas hard, bring down the number of rocket attacks to as near zero aspossible, and reach an agreement, through the Egyptians, which established aperiod of calm on our border for as long as we could. Bibi’s “victimhood”narrative notwithstanding, one aspect of the military balance in the south was nowdramatically different. With my backing as Defense Minister, we now had IronDome, which I was confident would help deal with the inevitable shower of Hamasrockets that would follow our initial attack. Again, I felt it was essential to startwith a quick, unexpected, damaging first strike. Then, through sustained airbombardment, to keep up enough pressure to secure the political arrangement wewanted. And, unlike under Olmert, to end the operation as soon as we’d achievedits aim.On the afternoon of November 14, we launched a targeted air strike on Hamas’sde facto chief of staff, Ahmed Jabari. We’d gone after Jabari in the past but, forone reason or another, had failed. We also hit nearly two dozen other Hamastargets, including all of the main missile sites we had identified. The wholeoperation lasted a week. Hamas fired nearly 1,500 rockets into Israel, not justlocally manufactured Qassems but longer-range Iranian Fajr-5s and Russian Grads.For the first time since the 1991 Gulf war, several were targeted at Tel Aviv andJerusalem. Fortunately, they were not significantly more accurate than in the past.More than half landed in fields or orchards. And with Iron Dome deployed aroundour major towns and cities, more than 80 per cent were intercepted.We hit nearly 1,500 targets over the seven-day period, mostly launch-pads,Hamas government installations and weapons stores, but also a number ofapartment complexes being used by Hamas as bases or firing points. Bibi rightlypointed out that we were forced to fight a fundamentally asymmetric battle. WhileIsrael began with the principle of directing our fire away from civilian areas,430/ BARAK / 145Hamas based its launchers in precisely those places. So it was not easy. At onepoint, we announced a call-up of reserves. We hinted at a possible groundincursion. But both Bibi and I knew we were going to avoid that if at all possible,and we did. Though there were inevitable civilian casualties, most of thePalestinians killed were Hamas fighters and leaders, including not just Jabari butthe head of Hamas’s rocket program. By limiting ourselves to air strikes and navalfire, the Palestinian death toll was around 150, about one-tenth of what it had beenin 2008. Six Israelis, including four civilians, lost their lives. On the 21 st ofNovember, the cease-fire was announced.Yet with the election approaching, and my time in public life drawing to aclose, I had no illusion that this latest military operation, or future ones, wouldbring us closer to the negotiating peace with the Palestinians that had eluded ussince Oslo. Nor was I confident that, having been unable to mount a military strikeof our own on Iran, Obama’s “bigger, stronger kid” in the schoolyard would takemilitary action. I did trust him to do all he could to use diplomacy to constrainIran’s efforts to get a bomb. I feared he might fail. Even if he succeeded, I figuredthe best case would be an agreement that, at least on paper, delayed the Iranians’development of a weapon. My hope remained that Israel’s relationship with theAmericans would be sufficiently strong for us to reach a formal understanding ofwhat form of surgical military strike each of our countries might take if Iran didn’thonor the terms of a negotiated deal.When I first left political life after my election defeat in 2001, I’d described mystatus as the equivalent of a reserve officer. I said, and believed, it was unlikely I’dreturn for the foreseeable future. But I knew it wasn’t impossible. This time wasdifferent. When I announced publicly that I was leaving politics, five days after theGaza cease-fire, I pointed that I had spent the greater part of my life as a soldier.I’d never had a burning desire to be a politician. Though I believed that what I’dattempted, and achieved, in government would prove to have safeguarded andstrengthened Israel, I knew that important challenges and decisions still lay ahead.So did our unfulfilled dream of being a country that was not just strong, secure andprosperous, but socially just and at peace. Yet I believed it was right to draw mytime on the front line of politics to an end. Though I didn’t say so, I thought tomyself: this time doesn’t feel like a step back into the reserves, but genuinely likethe end of something. Though my dedication to a secure, strong, just, democraticand ultimately peaceful Israel would not change, whatever contribution I might431/ BARAK / 146make to our getting there would no longer be on the battlefield, in the kirya oraround the cabinet table.As a number of reporters pointed out, when I made the announcement I wasrelaxed. I looked content, and I was smiling.432